God’s Will Versus Our Will
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those of you who aren't familiar um i'm glad you read from white eagle i really love white eagles work and yogananda and so on um somebody might say well what are you into because white eagle yogananda and then the aquarium gospel and you know there's a theme there it's called christ consciousness yogananda said there's no higher consciousness you can attain on earth other than christ consciousness right it's it's that's what they're doing this is christ consciousness white eagle very
christ i call it christy you know but very christy you know um the consciousness of god within us as ernest holm says that christ is really the name of god in us so that's wow how do you get higher than god consciousness in fact in fact let's talk about that um something i've kind of shared in various talks here and there are different themes but but still the same goal which is the concept of god's will versus our will a lot of people ask you know how do i know if it's god's will you're in a human form and it's next to
impossible to always know god's will because i mean no sooner do you say i want nothing but god i have to sneeze nothing but god but i have to sneeze now you want two things to sneeze and to find god i mean this body this life this world right i mean it's you know oh money bought me home and the kids you know shut up in there i'm trying to meditate oh money puppy this world is gonna do this the ego has absolutely and i don't exaggerate when i say zero zero interest in you finding god zero interest
minus such and such would be its number because when you find god the ego disappears you know so so it means it's destruction but it's not like a destruction you just as you find god the ego doesn't exist it's just it's not there i fabricated it so it disappears for lack of work it's never fired it's never hurt or beat up it's just gone it has no place a prayer that i used a coin to phrase out of the bible but a prayer one of the decrees i wrote the prince of this world comes and finds
nothing in me what that means is the ego comes and finds no velcro to stick to and it tries well you know what about your issues with your mother peace to her peace to you peace to me no sticking what about and remember and somebody once humiliated you and it's not sticking when it sticks you're not bad it just because you're still hurt set a goal to no longer be hurt don't set a goal of stuffing it and calling yourself no longer wounded look at me you know i don't have issues anymore and inside it's like
pummeling yourself it's more like uh i feel really clear i feel really clean yeah if there's issues i'm open if they show up i'll work on them when they show up just very open attitude like last week's talk change what you can accept what you can't know the truth but respect the illusion it's it's quite all right this world's going to try the world that the ego has miscreated is going to try but underneath the world that the ego has fabricated or miscreated is the world of god
so heaven is in a location buddha says it's actually right here but you have to lift the veils to see it okay where are the veils every limiting belief system is one of your veils which includes resentments and hurts but you have to lift the veils to see it well wait i thought i was going to a church and they told me it's when i die as long as i do da da da then i go to heaven no it doesn't it does not work that way you can't buy your way into heaven you can't take heaven by storm you can't even say
well i've officially incarnated 10 000 times and i've heard that 10 000 is the number so i get to go to heaven now they're just going to say we're sending you to slow learner school on earth 10 000 is not a boast they're going to be like wow dude what's going on up here there's people that have made it in 10.
you took 10 000 you still didn't get i mean there's no easy way there isn't there's no shortcuts to heaven but if there is it's the acceptance of who we really are because then you're erasing all the stuff that you put between us and heaven makes sense that's how that stuff gets erased forgiveness healing so we're here to remember who we are and heal what we're not okay and technically opposite order we're here to heal what we are not and accept what we are some people just do a lot of the
accepting who we are oh i've heard i'm a divine being look at me i'm a divine being i even i bought a pendant that says i am divine so that really proves it that's that's trying to you know shortcut have you healed what you are not oh i don't believe in that i just keep you know affirming what i am that's really nice but here they're still your foundation of your house is sinking and you keep painting the house you know oh more cracks putty look aren't i wonderful no you know really not or you do the
opposite there's lots of people that do nothing but keep working on stuff and they never refill with the new self they just keep working on more issues you know i i was really good about such and such then i went to this workshop and i found i have 15 000 other issues to work on never never allowing yourself to work on and fill up with the presence of god do some gardening bring out the rocks and the roots out of the garden and then enjoy this year's garden yeah but there were weeds i know weed a little of it then but don't pull
up the good stuff next year we'll get some more of those you see it's a process gardening the out the old planting seeds for the new it's a beautiful beautiful dance in a sense so a lot of people what is god's will what's my will technically technically there are three wills that we all have within us generally we say god's will not god's will but generally three wills there's god's will there's the will of my soul god's will upper three chakras the will of my soul heart chakra the will of my ego lower
three chakras not because our chakras are bad down here it's that they've been hijacked by the ego that's all i can bring the will of god all the way to my root chakra and then it's not a a ego chakra or an ego will but most people don't know that there's even three wills let alone how to deal with them we can say i want god's will to be done this is the hypocrisy of prayer i want god's will to be done god i'm going into a divorce right now i'm going into court today you know but i'm spiritual
let your will be done you go into the court the judge says to you i'm going to give you 20 of everything they get 80 and you're like no that's wrong that's bad what happened to god's will well that can't be god's will oh i see god's will would have been i get the 80. see we go into prayers already telling god what to do we don't i mean this is so typical humans right okay god this is a big decision should i get this card that i really love by the way god in case you don't know i really love it and it's
blue which is a spiritual color god give me my car so i really want this car but i'm so torn because i only want your will and i've i've prayed like that where i'm so involved in something i i'm not clear enough and it's scary god please please don't let me influence this i've been there but we do this we go okay okay a coin god heads and if it's tails i won't get the car boom okay two out of three everybody has cheated like that at least once and you should laugh at yourself you
should just just go i can't believe i did the two out of three thing just stop and maybe step away from the situation although sometimes we have decisions if you have a decision to make just say i'm going to make the best when i can and forgive myself for any stuff that i have in the way if you have to make one right now and that's it go for it that's fine if you've brought ego into the situation it won't be long before it shows itself so you're not going to miss out on any lessons you know
god's will versus my soul's will versus the ego as well god's will is actually not what people think like like um you know there's religions that bring you up saying what would you like to happen in your life well i would like to meet my soul mate and find my soul's purpose and yes i'd like everything to go well but but unfortunately there's god's will people i act like god's will is a downer and and that actually dates back a couple thousand years as well to a guy named jesus he's in the garden of gethsemane
everything is going to hell in a handbasket everybody's turning on him his friends everybody everything's going really bad overnight everything has turned his friends he knows because he's intuitive enough that one's going to betray me that one's going to deny me these guys are going to run away when the soldiers get here i'm in a few minutes going to be on my own being beat up and then crucified not cool so he prays if it were up to me i would say let my will be done what would his will be
well all kinds of things you know it's like being on a game show i'll take non-crucifixion for 20 alec i mean just use your imagination anything would be better than crucifixion what would jesus what did he mean by if it were up to me i would say let this cup pass what did he mean south of france with mary magdalene that's what it meant it meant no crucifixion oh i don't know lord i don't call me silly call me picky but maybe not being murdered i don't know i'm just channeling this but
think about that think about that there's all kinds of things we could all come up with if you think about you know what would my will be then he says but let your will be done religion turned that into your will is usually nice stuff god's will is usually crucifixion i'm telling you everybody's been programmed with that so we pray and go i would really like my child to survive this illness i would really like that job but your will be done like that's the downer god's will if i really summarized it god's will
is your remembrance that you're god that's the ultimate you could say god's will is for you to be healthy well if you're god you would be healed so so god's will is really just your remembrance you are the will of god our remembrance is the will of god in other words this isn't like hopeful thinking i'm not just praying for it goodness god is only good god only wishes praise affirms hold space for us to experience good but the stuff that doesn't go well we project onto god well you know i did
some affirmations but it didn't work out so i guess god we call divine timing everything gets projected over onto god some religions call it well honey those are the mysteries of god mommy why did daddy die well honey the mysteries of god and it's just always on god good stuff hey i won the lottery most people don't mind saying i when good stuff's happening hey i did this new affirmation but it's i hey i read this book and it changed my life it healed me i i chose a book i found a book you see what i'm saying
it's so interesting it's weird dark stuff onto god good stuff onto me so remember gods god yeah who was that who was that talking so god's will is only only only ever for your good you may not know it's your good you know you could say well i'm trying to stay objective but i'm just asking that my my partner come back they left me and i'm hurting god and michael said you wish for my good well i would be so much happier and good if my partner came back god's going okay let's check the acacia records here
uh let's see first they murdered you in five different lifetimes second we have a record of 49 times that you prayed to get rid of them you asked us to get rid of them now today you want them back so call me silly call me ungodly but i'm pretty sure according to the records so we're just demented we're just we project these strange things onto god so there are things like job great example job in the bible whose life went completely kaput in every way shape and form when job was trying to figure out why
bad things were happening he could have said oh mysteries of god but what he did is he used his head the way we all do you know it might be this maybe it's a full moon i think mercury's retrograde it's if he tried everything he had astrologers come over and everybody new age and fundamentalist family members they were the worst they came to him to tell him why his life fell apart you know what happened to job at the end he said i none of it rings true i know that in my life i have not secretly been a a
gross person a hurtful person so no i don't think it's that no it doesn't feel like mother issues he all the advice people gave he said it isn't that then he turns to god and god's like oh it's about time you've asked everybody's opinion but mine do you know why you're struggling job and why these answers don't apply he says because everybody's searching for an answer about you in this lifetime i knew you before you were job which means you have other lifetimes dude that
you've done things and it's coming back to you meaning only here i'm just saying this meaning there are things behind the scenes that people don't usually know about whether it was your prayers or whether it was just the betterment for somebody to move on what about people i loved that moved on we didn't have any issues there everything has its end they're not gone you're upset because they're gone open your eyes and you'll see them see so who has the problem them because they're dead god because he didn't get
your permission first or is it you that you just can't see them anymore things change when people learn to open their eyes you know it's it all it's like you were never gone people that have a vision of angels don't feel as separate from angels ever again people that have a vision of jesus they don't feel as separate from jesus anymore they just know it's he's right here so the opening of our eyes especially our spiritual eye changes everything there is god's will and it's only
goodness but not your opinion of goodness it's true goodness like it's like saying god wants you to be happy your head might go you mean excited no that's addiction stimulation is addiction god wants you to be happy through and through content at peace see happy nut doesn't mean just excited it's like it's also this direction this direction that you know it's in all like it's always to be at peace and happy joy filled so we have thoughts about god wants us to be prosperous kaching no prosperous
meaning you know how to manifest anything not just cash so our words already start constricting around what god is so point being god is love and wills only for us to remember that we too are made in the image of god say the word and this can happen part the seas we can do anything but when we align with god we can do some things when we just exert the power of our ego our lower mind but it won't bring peace it'll just bring stuff so there's the middle one there's the will of our soul which i'll come back to the
will of the ego is very simple to summarize it's the opposite of what he just said it wills separation conflict you know holding on to hurts limiting belize belief systems so i got this divine in me that says total peace always the other one that says never wow that's why humans are sick that's why we get tired that's why we sleep at night that's why we struggle with each other because inside of us is a battle between reality and illusion the will of god that is just open peace joy and this other thing that
says you're undeserving even if there is a god that wills for your peace and happiness you don't deserve it what did i do and then memories here they come remember you were you know doing drugs remember you were remember you you did this and naughty naughty past lives and whatever else it does to us that's called inner conflict how do you expect your nervous system to not have anxiety disorders when you have reality and constant illusion beating up the realities of god or trying to the other will there's god's will
egos will ego's will is not real but it it nags you anyway it tries to make itself seem real by working you over in between god's will and the earthly ego will is our will our souls will our souls will has two halves a half that is dedicated to listening to the will of god and a half that is dedicated to listening to the ego is that all making sense so that means i'm basically divided i'm conflicted as it's called divided we fall and the fact that i'm split between these two voices again conflict divided we fall it's going to
cause every challenge we could ever imagine and so what we do sometimes is go okay but wait i don't want the ego involved i want god's will but there's all kinds of reasons why we actually don't want god's will i'll just go over a handful of them okay why is that funny so a part of us wants god's will but another part doesn't so start learn to say that instead of saying i don't know what the problem is i totally want god's will do you see god's will and feel it 24 7 no
then a part of you doesn't because this thing in you that's called your soul's will is also known as the chooser the power to choose reality and illusion at any given time is yours and only you can do that god can't make you choose god the ego can convince you to choose the ego but god will not force you to choose god god waits for you to brighten up enough to say you know i'm tired of this i'm tired of limiting beliefs i'm tired of thinking that i don't deserve i'm tired of believing what my parents told
me i was or my religion or my politics or whatever it was i'm fed it's called reaching bottom so you can either come to it by reaching bottom and say i'm not interested in what you have to say about me or you can use the positive reasons which is i'm just intrigued to hear what god has to say whichever one of those happens to get you to that other place it's beautiful it's perfect it is what it is at least you got there the easy way or the hard way but you got there so there's a part of us when we say well
you know i wish i could just uh you know choose the will of god in any given moment please remember a handful of things first of all we're not used to choosing the will of god at least most people are not used to it they might have a desperate moment but i'm saying most people don't start and end every day with your will be done what would you have me do today and this is brilliant because that is the prayer the number one most important prayer for the goddess or divine feminine in us which is our soul
the most important prayer is not you know god could i have a new car the most important prayer is this when you take your heart chakra and you open it up and they become arms that turn upwards and say your will be done the arms that come out and say you show me what you'd like me to do and not do today when your arms are in a humble chalice-like state this being the stem of the cup when you're in this humble chalice-like state and you say i don't know not the new age affirmation of i know everything
it's i don't know wow that sounds so self-deprecating so demeaning you think so because the last shall be first and the first shall be last those who affirm that you know they're wonderful they're great whatever you don't know the more i think i know the less i know when we say i don't know even if you think you know if you're a surgeon and you say i'm the number one brain surgeon in the world what do you mean i don't know i don't want you working on me until you say i think i know but i'm open
i would rather you have that open thing going on i don't want you missing any aneurysms you know stay open to where you go you know i think i got this down pretty well but i i have this feeling there's something else going on it's kind of cool that's when intuition comes in that's when the right brain that's when the feminine comes in to complete a picture so you know one of the primary issues behind not hearing the voice of god all the time is that we're not used to calling on it practice calling on it
the fact that we're not used to calling on the will of god actually programs the subconscious to not even to not even think of doing it make it a habit and then the habit will serve you another common reason that we don't you know call on or get seem to get god's will coming through to us there's an inner control freak it's as simple as that there's an inner you could call it the rebellious one it's just like they described you know when lucifer in heaven became rebellious and he got cast out of heaven that's me
every day every day that i think i want god's will but i say no i got it covered you know god you know i really i'm really open to meeting my soul mate but let me give you a list of characteristics that they need to have see now i'm not saying it's wrong for you to define what you're open to that's okay but how controlling are you about it did you say i would like this this this but i'm open there's a common saying that i most often heard originating through catherine ponder this or something
better you know see just live dangerously well i don't want that into something better i want it to be what you know i remember one gal at a spiritual center god this is like almost 40 years ago and i was you know doing the prayer at a spiritual center or whatever and i did this beautiful prayer affirmation about prosperity or whatever the topic was and i'm going you know yes and we're calling and then i said if it be your will i had this gal approach me you know you've done that before when you've spoken here i
don't like that because it kind of depresses the whole affirmation you did i was like wow you know how bringing god in really puts a buzzkill out of this whole prayer you know what i mean it was like she was into the positive thinking i want what i want and i'll get it and when i threw in the if it be god's will no michael you blew it just telling you there's this control freak a third reason that we keep things at a distance god's will at a distance is addiction we're not just control freaks we're
addicted to not having god's will we're addicted to drama we're addicted to having to pray again about prosperity issues or relationship issues believe it or not you have issues with a partner and then a second partner believe it or not it starts to become a pattern pretty soon when you meet somebody your brain's already going they have four months i mean it's you know they're become serious it's it's a strange thing and the fourth one that's similar to our addictions to brokenness
similar but slightly different is soul contracts and karma we actually go god's will but there's a part of you and i that go yeah but i got some karma i've got to pay up first it's true it's true god could speak to the average human being right now a vision poof the cloud's part there's billions of angels jesus is there light everywhere golden sprinkles of energy upon us and god's voice can say you can come home now there's a part of us that goes yeah but see i got this karma thing going on
subconsciously you're aware of all your karma so part of us will not accept grace because we think we've got karma and soul contracts now some of those are soul contracts that are like you know uh um agreements between two people maybe to work some issues out some soul contracts are that person hurt me before we incarnated in this this lifetime we made an agreement they're gonna come back and make it up to me i'm not ascending until i get that apology i swear to god that's there that's there people actually
spelling it all out not until i get you know whatever it is it's crazy you know i no no i'm not i'm not going until uh i'm young again i want my youth back okay we incarnate again and it'll last for a few years and then it'll pass you by again and you'll incarnate again till you're past your little soul contract or karma or limiting beliefs or whatever you've got going on the next thing that keeps us from accepting god's will is that this is slightly uh overlap of addiction is
quick fixes the ego promises quick fixes so it's kind of like i'm feeling very depressed god appears and says devote one hour to me and this will pass forever the ego shows up and says just drink that you won't feel depressed at all wait a minute okay one hour or or 30 days of devotional prayer or a drink the average human being goes you know okay i don't want to look bad because god's watching oh nothing happened you know i mean the average human being is going to find a way to prove that that doesn't
work or it's not working well enough you know and it happens all the time with prayer prayer chaplains can say okay somebody came to me for prayer you know own money boom chuckalucka and you know or aura brush downs and surges of energy and they don't appear to the eyes to be healed the ego is doing that the ego is saying i'm going to make sure there's a veil there that you don't know about that you helped co-create mind you but you don't know about that makes them still look sick so that you doubt your
healing abilities you're supposed to our chaplains are trained to say if i see that i know i have to bring something to the altar to heal not just my client you see what i'm saying there because the ego wants you using your senses to establish what's true and not true you don't have senses why would you use those that's why the the yogis the great yogis have always said do not trust your senses do not trust what you think you see the senses are already hijacked because they work with the brain and the brain's been
hijacked because the brain works for the mind and the mind's been hijacked and the mind works for the soul and the soul's been hijacked the soul that's here has been hijacked and told to look down and out into what is real and not real god says go in and up humans are all too often down and out in more ways than one so not only do we want quick fixes the ego is also basically saying i'm going to keep you programmed so that you don't even know what is right and wrong anymore you don't know
what's god's will and egos will you think you're praying for so and so to come back into your life but i've got you programmed to not even know if that's actually the best thing for you is that making sense so these programs that just i don't know which end is up anymore a course in miracles is going to tell you that everything is flip-flopped the things you see are the least real the things you don't see are the most real that everything is like the ego has flipped everything over which is
actually how our eyes work our eyes are actually wired backwards and then the brain has to sort of translate everything it's seeing so vision is an amazing metaphor for sane and insane spiritually speaking so the the ego programs us and it doesn't just end with saying well here's the problem see you have problems in your life and i have solutions so the ego convinces us that we have problems and the number one problem it's got to push is you the problems are you and i feel really bad that you have problems
i have a real good solution back to quick fixes blame someone else and it seems to work it actually seems to work you know i i got fired oh my god i feel scared i feel and then somebody says oh you know it's the boss he's a jerk you're right and you start to feel relieved it's like you know this big air bubble here and you burp and you go i'm so much better now but that's not what heals us so the ego's got us programmed that we have problems there are these quick fix solutions but what's really really
also messed up is the ego also tells you don't look inside for the solutions because you might find god well that sounds like a good thing no because if there's a god and you and i agree that we you have problems if there's a god guess who created you with those problems must be god the ego tells us and then it says so if i were you i wouldn't go looking too hard for that guy he's the one that miscreated you i can help you find solutions right now blame projection is that making sense so it's it's
this this number six i think we're on is that the ego will make you afraid of god which is the solution because returning to the i am that i am gives me everything i need i'm god i'm one with god again the ego cannot let you go there it has to make you afraid of going there so that's why and it and it's sort of logical it's just never true see logic isn't always true so the ego makes you go that sounds logical i don't want to admit that i'm afraid of god but but i think i'm afraid of god
to be able to sit when you do forgiveness work ever prayer work ever try it now and again because it actually brings up unusual triggers ones that you kind of won't be comfortable with when you say i think today i'm going to do some forgiveness with god it sounds weird sacrilegious it sounds untrue if it's so easy if it's so much not a problem then try it it's very beautiful because there's nothing on the other side of that process that judges that hates that hurts and then we start to go oh my god
it was the ego all along and why was the ego there like when people talk about i don't believe there's a god one of the things they always bring up there wouldn't be war do you see what they just did what do you mean there wouldn't be war to god there isn't to you and i there is so where's the problem god created war no god did not create war so you have to be that deep of a consciousness to be able to resolve that technique that the ego is using that says the problem is god you can't trust
god god created war and rape and and hurt of hunger and you have to be able to go to a deeper level of consciousness that says i actually now know that the logic god did this much must mean he's a bad god isn't true we created war where how the chooser remember i called this the chooser today i know that i would love peace and joy but i'm angry so i want to vent it in the form of war war isn't just global war every time i'm angry at you it creates this wonderful little dark cloud that adds to the dark
cloud that surrounds the earth and then when it's time for global war those that are the politicians that will make the wars they get oppressed by that dark cloud possessed by that darkness and start wars see what i just did they'll feed off a dark cloud that you contributed to you could be sitting in a hot tub a little bit of mist comes off the hot tub do you know that a cloud will be affected by the mist coming off your hot tub there's not that much it can't be and it can't rise all the way up there
without dissipating even science will tell you that every bit of precipitation or or moisture from the ground the dew off grass will rise and become a cloud so is hatred my unhealed wounds affected that war in another country that i've never even heard of so too does love love peace and joy love peace and joy create a cloud that isn't a dark cloud that blocks the sun create a cloud that is so pure so beautiful that it's transparent and the light of god the sun can still shine upon us that's light work
it's not just trying to fight off the various forms of the dark cloud resist not evil get your work done heal your stuff don't fight it don't deny it don't minimize it if it shows heal forgive heal any way you can scream it into a pillow just don't project it because then you'll continue it don't deny it don't project or blame it just own it man i just remembered something someone said really bothered me as a kid this has been really great because we have a monday group which everybody's
invited to but it's uh on our circle of friends facebook group those folks can join us on our uh zoom program the zoom program is um 11 o'clock no the name we actually have circle circle michael murdered circle of friends right and that's a zoom program and in there you know we cover all kinds of really really amazing topics this is something we've elaborated on various forms you know at that in that group but this this world seems to have so much power that it actually doesn't have but i can't at every podium throughout
the world that i've ever been to and said the ego is not real you know and so on whatever the topic might be i can't always say that now i can because i found people that are just about as nuts as i am you know and i mean that playfully but that are just open they they get it they're like hey you know what let's go let's go for it there are places where it's still intimidating to hear that forgiveness of anything is where we all have to go justifying why something's not forgivable is not bad
it just means you're still hurt i'm not hurt they they there is no day this is a hologram and i can't say that in every spirit sorry in every in every spiritual center am i supposed to go is this on so so you can't actually get away with saying that you can actually get people triggered saying things like that in some spiritual centers it's the strangest thing so you can join us in other programs to share more about these topics but always always it comes back to the concept of love and forgiveness
and some people go oh yeah yeah i know about love and forgiveness it's so easy to brush it off as one of you know one of those things you've heard about in our circle of friends group we pull a card usually each each monday we pulled the last monday of the hermit card and the hermit card meant going within and that also means healing but it means you know going here well so i make it a point i don't just go well that was cool love that card i keep it with me all this week i kept it with me the hermit going
within going within and in some of our conversation monday we covered that also means he stuff will start to pop up now you might go i want a different card i don't want a card that brings stuff up oh i'm sorry for you you know so i don't know go get bozo clown clown cards or something you know happy cards if you're going to get through and you trust and you shuffle and something comes up just say okay that's where we're going it doesn't have to be horrendous just that's where we're going do it
do it well go for it die well man of the old self so i noticed you know in my own self random a picture of an image of somebody and a memory of something and i would for a moment for a split second i went that was kind of funny i went wait wait wait no hermit it came up for me to release it your head will go yeah i've already worked on that shush it came up just do it but i'm already done with it then you won't mind doing it again will you if it's showing up i don't care how far back it goes i don't care how
inconsequential it seems that's what i do i do my best to stay dedicated to what i claim to believe and i claim to believe that this card's going to tell us something for this week so i do my best to follow it to to to practice it instead of just talking it so yeah you know and there's moments where i think wow aren't i supposed to be done with issues and then i just laugh yeah right there's another one i got to work on now you know laugh at yourself don't assume you've read five books
you're holy now and you shouldn't have memories coming back if it comes up you're in the shower a random memory who knows third grade somebody stole my lunchbox what am i thinking about that for just do it just just say very briefly you can do it i refuse to hate you i'll learn what i need to learn from this and i affirm that in you is the light of god and in me done any version of whatever i was thinking about you even if i didn't know i was thinking it whatever it was i give to god and now i welcome in a new vision of you
that's it a song will come on the radio that'll and you'll laugh and then something on the tv and there was one moment i even went doubting the validity of this thing that just popped in my mind and then i open my next email and poof there it was and i'm like oh this is so and i think it's funny i mean certainly some people can get triggered but to me with something so obviously you know showing you that it's it's right it's aligned it's kind of funny and you know of course you want to
sometimes jump off a cliff but just laugh a little bit because it's pretty funny this this could not have been accidental and go with it guys the love the forgiveness so when we get to you know there's probably six that i shared just think that you could come up with ten sit with this yourself and say are there any other reasons why i might tend to block the will of god yet fear control trips you know just kind of check it out and see if you have personal ones that you would add but then work on them to me if i had to name one other one i
would just say there's there's a part of the ego that's going to try to tell us if you surrender to god's will where are you you're worthless honey i love you the ego's gonna say i'm just looking out for you and i'm just trying to say what does this mean you've heard it in religions and you know god's will remember god's will it says beat people up god's will killed jesus that's the god's will you've been programmed to believe and listen honey i love you man so so
i'm just looking out for you if you sir and you say only god's will be done shh then you become nothing i want you to exist god doesn't god wants you to be absorbed and do its will it sounds negative and it'll come up with all kinds of ways to prove it logically well wait if i say god i choose to have no will of my own but just to be your will you know wait did i just say that wait i want to keep five percent of my own just in case the 95 goes wonky i want to be able to step in there and guys this is what we do
it's it's the terror that some of you have had not all of you probably some of you have had meditations where you have met what's called the abyss absolute utter darkness you feel like it's it's going to just like it's a void that's beyond the human brain you can't take it it's so empty and vast that's the line between god heaven reality and us you have to die well you have to surrender to that thing that terrifies you but the terrifying thing is not god god's on the other side going
you silly you know you you think you're over there having to surren to me you're actually still here with me surrendering your ego's will by choosing it in your heart only means that there won't be anything more between us and the ego doesn't want us to know that so it conjures up these stories we have to go back to trusting the thing that we don't trust god it could be in a meditation you do this it could be in a near-death experience who knows it varies per person but choose it one way or the other
choose god's will you know just choosing oh you know god's will somebody said once um oh god the the the wise person um it wasn't gandhi um the dalai lama was asked how do you know that this whole thing is real how do you know that the god you work with and pray how do you know that when you die it's going to be all the stuff you're teaching us you know what he said i don't i won't know until i die you know like i want a different teacher i want one that goes i have proof i have evidence
that was so beautiful honest transparent and accurate but he also can be saying if you listen to it is i know because why would i be doing all this thinking i'll find out when i die if i didn't know wouldn't i try something else that i could eventually say i know so you and i please let's get in the habit of saying i i got it now i know because god tells me i know because god is i know because my will is god's will i have no will of my own which sounds deprecating in a sense a little old me i'm nothing that's not what it means by
me surrendering to the all i become all i become the great by becoming nothing of my ego self so the ego will is nothing but and i named seven i think things it's nothing but seven different categories of excusing itself justifying to keep you away from your divinity that's all it is it makes you doubt it makes you come control freak it makes you you know all these things i named and all you and i are being asked to do is this learn to say no to that voice and then there's another half which is where i started 30 minutes plus
i go not just no to the unhealthy say yes to the healthy choose god don't just not choose the ego because if i don't choose the ego i'm sitting here in my heart all alone because i haven't chosen anything else i sit here alone my loneliness is going to make me eventually become desperate and call out for anything that will supplement me guess who will start speaking again hey i hear you've been lonely and i i i'm there for you man i'm there for you you see and it does it again all over again
choose not this choose this no thank you i'm not interested in that that sounds like fear and one simple thing you can do it i think it works brilliantly is just say is that the voice of god could that be the voice of god when you're thinking about something i need that person back i can't live if living is without them just stop and go could that be god yeah god's in heaven going oh my god i can't they have such nice hair you know oh my god i'll never find somebody with those legs really
can that be god can that really be it isn't it isn't it just isn't how do you know michael you won't know until you die but just please understand use your imagination could that be god you know uh i'm worthless because my parents said i'm worthless is that the voice of god no your parents were mistaken it's very easy to use that discernment is that the voice of god it's we think we don't know how to hear the will of god the voice of god it's not that challenging love the voice of love i will say it works
eighty ninety percent of the time why only eighty ninety because we're humans and we still get in the way there are times when we can say i want to manifest a new car boy there's the car i was looking for i even dreamt about that color of a car it has to be synchronistic it has to be god and we go and say god i know it's your will flip a coin best out of five and then we go now for sure this is god's will and and sometimes it isn't you'll even try listen god michael said to to use the compass of
love peace and joy well you know god when i sit in this car i feel pretty loving and joyous so this must be you guys i i've been there we all cheat a little like that it's got to be you god because i've never felt so good do heroin you'll feel good is that god no no it's not the stimulation and sedation that i mean by good long story short in 60 seconds is i remember looking at a car wanting a car and going to get a car and all kinds of funny you know synchronicities and oh my god you know even the salesman thought i should have
it that was synchronistic um guys everything i remember sitting in the car shutting the door and looking off into the the windows of the uh offices going man oh this looks kind of cool just you know i i i know i did all that and then there was something about the car that didn't feel right and then when your head starts to go yeah but let's pretend it was the payments i think it might have been the payments let's pretend the payments were 700 and i could only have four or five what the head starts to do is but if you don't
eat anymore when you have to think it to rationalize it it might not be god and i know this but god only wants my love and happiness i left the car a lot i did not feel joyous and happy so that means i oh where was god you know i wanted the car and i didn't get the car and now i'm leaving unhappy so i must not have followed god's will it took several hours it took going home going to sleep the next day going oh my god you know what i felt peace i did not feel peace when i thought about 700 payments something as grounded and practical
as the money that they're going to charge you do you feel ease and peace around that when you have to start conjuring in your head maybe not when you have to you know feel all anxious maybe not but michael you said when you left you were not happy i wasn't sometimes because you and i believe in time sometimes it takes a little time for you to witness the real answer and the happiness if you don't know take a minute if you don't know take you know take time like with relationships oh my god now i have 15 synchronicities
that said that this person i met today you know there i was in line safeway and i said will you marry me and they said yes what a weird coincidence they were ready to say yes when i said would you wow synchronistic it's it's god you know they're they're into dogs that's god backwards i mean there's so many synchronicities that you can't lose well i would still say grow your relationship oh i don't need to because you know take your time and grow it sanity breathes you know anxiety addiction that just
goes you know in that in that addictive kind of a way so we'll close now you know peace to all i know it's not easy i know that sometimes we say where is god in this and there's so many things we run into follow peace the best you can there's gonna be times where even following peace love joy and i still slipped what would god do forgive myself for slipping the more your soul hears you saying i'm into god's will the more it'll allow it the more we call in god's will and say no to the other the door will start to
close on the other here's what will happen it'll starve it out to where it myself my complete self knows now that i'm not really interested in ego based decisions and then it'll reopen like a grand reopening of my being and the light will start to come down and help me make decisions even to the root chakra which financial investments to make root chakra how to make love and with whom root chakra all you know as all the way down to the human level god can come but not while we're fighting it with this 50 50 force in the
heart center please take a few centering breaths today breathing centering relaxing i am relaxed or i am at peace just centering for a moment let's meditate on this concept or these words the truth will set you free we're talking about making decisions with god what car to buy or if even to
buy one who to date how did it when to date what diet to be on whatever it is in the day-to-day life what does it mean the truth will set you free have your own interactions with spirit right now let it teach you let it download answers and to elaborate set you free from what this the truth will set you free from what ask yourself let the guidance come just channel it and again
what kind of truth could possibly set you free from whatever you just said it was going to set you free from what what kind of truth would have that kind of power to set you free from whatever and because i choose the truth today i am free say that to yourself and believe it because i choose heart center the truth today truth upper through chakras i'm free from the ego's will of the lower chakras the truth of god sets me free from the ego but i have to choose it in my heart i am free
as god created me and so it is well done see people people actually think that free will is choosing against the ego which it partly is temporarily but do you know that free will is actually only when you're freely choosing it's the freedom to choose that you'll choose only god freedom doesn't give you the right to choose ego when you're free you won't choose the ego anymore you have to choose not the ego and choose god then you're free please stand for our closing prayer centering gratitude for whatever for the
person who was sitting next to you for the what you heard today for your meditation whatever it is gratitude for the uh pot-smoking doctor helped us laugh it's all good man it's beautiful gratitude appreciation that we have this spiritual center online and here that we can come to and learn and grow the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us [Music] and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is peace be with you all thank you