Christ Versus Conflict

thank you so a couple of requests for topics okay is that it pardon self-love okay let's hold it there for a sec thank you um they were asking in case it wasn't repeated self-love and does the ego follow the soul and you add it to that sentence does the ego follow the soul did you say something else jerrell through incarnations that was it yeah thank you okay yes next and that's it for today so you know it's very interesting

does the ego follow the soul does the soul follow the ego there's three parts of us there's spirit soul and then we can say body but we mean the human self it doesn't matter who you are everyone every living being has a spirit a soul and then the human manifestation and in a perfect world those would be all in harmony but not only balanced in harmony the priority being spirit then soul then this manifestation so the problem we have spirit soul body spirit soul body went to spirit soul ego there's the ego mind and there's the

divine mind so in our heart and soul we allowed ourselves to create something called the ego the ego then can say you know what instead of making god your priority let's make your human self your priority what's the human self it doesn't even exist it's just a manifestation so the human self sits there going i'm waiting for orders what orders who are you oh this is interesting it tied together with i swear that wasn't intentional but we talked about names earlier so it's it's like well who are you oh every

day the human self is just saying who are you if you cannot say i am that i am then it knows that you are the i am not i am not connected i am not plugged in i am not holy i am not certain and then all of those doubts pour into our human experience someone said the other day well having been abused as a child michael did i no they actually said it in the affirmative they said i know and i know i got to take responsibility because i caused this and i you know i chose this please stop saying ridiculous things the it should be in my

list of you know there's a video i did once i think it was ten dumb things that spiritual people say or whatever it was called one of them is to say to somebody you created that stop saying that to people first of all you don't even know what you're saying so stop talking you don't tell people that the harm that they experienced was something they created all that does is make them feel worse they didn't wake up one morning and go you know at six years old you know i'd like abuse today they did not choose it

as soon as you choose to forget who you are then comes the pain all you have to do is not remember who you are and everything else follows well but but i didn't forget who i am you do everybody forgot the only reason you zipped up a body is because you forgot that you're so great you can't zip up a body you can't sit in a mortal body it's impossible you're you're the size and beyond of the whole universe and you stuck yourself in this thing and said who who am i oh geez i guess i'm i'm five or fifty or

i'm aging i'm this some none of those are true that which is absolute became this strange little symptom only because i forgot who i am and that's why one reason why jesus said forgive them they know not who they are he's not just talking about victimizers even the victims have forgotten and you think well that makes me feel even worse we'll get past it so you can forgive yourself if something's ever gone wrong in your life if you've caused harm or had harm it could not have happened if you were

totally aware of who you were it could not have happened there's an exception what about jesus he had some pretty nasty things happen to him as far as i remember or you know the whole crucifixion thing that wasn't exactly a party well that's because he chose that he said i know but i'm still going to play the game so that you guys can see me as doing exactly what you go through and show you how to overcome it so there's a difference people will use that as an exception to the rule but it isn't it's

he made himself an exception to the rule which can be confusing because some people thought jesus didn't seem to have a lot of cash ola so vows of poverty i didn't hear jesus getting lucky all the time so i guess chastity so they they thought that the christ life was you know you you very you know jesus you know you're going to be very solemn very god oriented and expect to die soon and people took that so literally jesus laughed he lived the christ's life but in a way that was right for him which is different from how you should

live the christ's life generally the theme should be the same and there are symptoms of awakening the christ self they obviously include more loving and forgiving but they also include a couple of other things let me come back to that in just a moment so there's this concept that wow you know i know who i am and the more i know the i am presence of god moses asked god who are you what do we call you and what did god say i am that i am i am that i am isn't just telling you that he is what he is god is

okay i am it's also telling you the opposite isn't true god is also not what it isn't i am that i am also means and i'm not what i'm not you're made in my image therefore you're not what you are not you can't not be a holy child of god you can't you you can make believe because you have free will you cannot ever become damaged and unholy you just think you can and so you've developed this thing called lifetimes so you can eventually move on to i'm a wiser person i'm

hundreds if not thousands of lifetimes just to become a little wiser geez louise man like just just make this affirmation i don't have that kind of time you know like i got better things to do you know like i don't know awakening you know recognizing who i am so becoming loving and forgiving is part of it god is what it is and so are we because we're made in god's image so what are we we're the created not the creator but were made in god's perfect image what image divine i am love bliss holiness

but we have a name the father aspect of god and the mother aspect of god that's god but their holy child is called the christ so jesus didn't have a last name that was christ jesus who remembered he was christ is the way you would say that but every single being that's ever been created is going to one day proclaim hi i'm michael christ i'm janet christ or whatever it happens to be it's not it's not a you know an ego proclamation it's well of course i am it's like saying i'm michael a holy child of god hi i'm

janet a holy child of god and i'm richard a holy child of god and samantha or whatever it happens to me because we are all holy children of god but now is not the time to say that to everybody i don't i don't advise it you don't want to go to work and say guess what i'll have that raised now because i'm joseph of christ you know or whatever nevertheless we are we are created in god's perfect divine image and that can never change and yet it's important you know we i think the last couple of weeks we talked a little

bit about the trinity some of you remember that well this is what's interesting to me there's this trinity of god the father aspect the mother aspect of god the mother aspect also known as the holy spirit and then there's the child you call it that i guess or the children which is called the christ that's us and they live the the trinity of god lives up in heaven and what's interesting to me is you also have a symbol of that trinity in yourself they're called your three endocrine glands in your head and neck

up in heaven is the trinity of god your pituitary pineal and thyroid and just as god sends us miracles and love and waves of of of healing so too does the pituitary send that thyroid which is the christ gland down into the body to spread happy metabolism so in other words your throat chakra is the fifth chakra counting upward which has the same symbol as the five points of a star so this is my christ gland the father mother and the child the christ my throat center is the christ center now there's two main things that can

kill the christ well nothing could kill the well metaphorically do not use god's name in vain when the christ proclaims out its mouth i am sick of you see i am sick and tired of this i am angry i am depressed i am you see that's misusing that's using the i am name of god in vain that doesn't mean you're evil it means you're wasting your time and there will be material repercussions even though the material world's just a hologram i've said this many times as yogananda said it it's just a dream

but a dreamt head bumped against a dreamt rock brings dreamt pain okay great summary yes it's an illusion but while you're here wow it's gonna feel a bit out there you know it's a bit a bit painful in so many different ways so there are there are traits when we're awakening the christ self there are traits there's a greater demonstration of love and forgiveness there's also gentleness there's like a an ease a a a gentleness a you know just loving behavior this is a funny thing that just happened

i was donating time uh volunteering at judy's estate cell this last weekend and there there was this girl i don't know about yay tall so she might have been eight-ish i don't know and she kept walking around with this tiny little native american looking you know the the little leather pieces hanging all that so this native american looking vest and it was her size i don't know you know where it came from but she's walking around with it she found it in the women's boutique clothing part of

the sale and i'm i'm watching how like oh oh and then she tells her mom you know and her mom says how much is and they looked and it wasn't that much but to them it might have been a lot and so the mom's like oh well we'll see honey and they're walking around now i noticed this and finally you know i have to wait and check in and see what feels right and i walked over i said you know hey there um you know that vest is beautiful isn't it yeah and the kid's glowing you know like

yeah you know and yet she's not wearing it because she already knows not happening and i said well you know what i'll buy it for you as long as it's okay with your mom and her mom was standing there because i like to make sure the parents are in on this so i said you know is that okay and the mom's like oh my god so they were all wowed that's beautiful whatever kid gets a vest that's nice so there's this woman watching um off to the side and she said wow she goes i i was watching that whole

energetic thing you were just doing and she goes that that was so kind of you and i said oh thanks you know she no no i mean like that was amazing so she's seeing it at higher levels make sense and she goes if you're not married i have some friends that i'd like to introduce you to yeah i'm like i'm not and no you know it's how bizarre right oh and she went on about it she's like you know um oh yeah you know and i have friends and you know i'm just thinking i can't even imagine this is so strange

but it's like it's like jesus did incredible things and people were wowed but he tried to tell them when you see me you see the father when you see me doing good when you see miracles you're seeing the power of god same with this child in the vest it's just a thing of god it's just god same every time any of us are coming from our behaviors from a place of not profound demonstrations of love random acts of kindness it isn't me jesus said it isn't the me you think i am it isn't the human me

that came up with that you see he's his way of saying it is beautiful it's not to disregard my involvement in making the choice to do a righteous thing but even the righteous choice is god in me coming home again so that also would imply that what if i'm not coming from love and peace and abundance and consciousness and joy and all that ego so there is this trinity of god in us but it also manifests i said i think last week or week before we have a trinity of god but we also have a trinity of mankind in us

the human trinity without repeating that i'm saying it now on a glandular level the trinity of god is right here pituitary which is called the master gland and the pineal there's the father mother and then the child christ right here the first thing you can do to destroy this is the misuse of the i am god divine power you've got i i wait i just woke up i you could beam in right now fresh from heaven i am i am as god created me wow i am the christ on earth wow it's profound as soon as you get tempted to go

i am needing someone else to make my life complete you're dying i am angry dying i am any misuse of the i am meaning any statement of the i am that is not filled with love peace joy and abundance it's a misuse of the i am don't get on your case about it don't judge don't go to the grocery store and listen to some person in the next aisle they say i'm all out of cheerios that's a misuse of your divine pres you know guys that's too serious man don't make religions out of everything

you know just just see it you know it's okay you know it relax so there's another thing however that destroys the christ presence in us and it's called conflict now this is a great one it's called inner conflict people do not realize how often they are conflicted in their decision making i i want to change my name but my kids you know it's their name too i want to do but i i want to change jobs but constantly conflicted now there's a part of us that knows we are the holy christ child of god

seemingly seemingly in a manifested seemingly limited world how did we get here because we decided to try out life without our divinity and this is the result when it comes to remembering learning to be the christ awakening the christ it's not as much an effort of awakening the christ as much as it is really remembering we're the christ one of the best ways you can get to the point of remembering the christ is by seeing the christ in others and so that lady that saw that act of kindness god bless her thank you thank you thank

you and she needs to realize and it's god not a guy that needs fixed up with her friends you see the difference it's not a nice guy i don't see nice guys very often you would be a really great option for which is okay because that's normal thinking but i want to be abnormal i want to not be normal natural i want to be supernatural i want to live from a different place all of us can say i want to see things from a completely different level so she could have sat there and went wow wow oh god oh my god she could have

gotten totally wowed by there's the symptom of the miracle and then what it represents i just watched god in action and i could only have been in my god to have seen it whoa now she gets to own it now she can go fix herself up with somebody wow i'm quite the catch right i don't know just a thought so so god the pituitary says to the thyroid spread healthy metabolism to all of my creation all my children all the torso the other glands right thymus adrenals and so on reproductive glands all the endocrine glands so this the light of god can

share so even though we chose to seemingly separate and come and live in a body god says you can run but you can't hide even your glands are going to symbolize the story of life i am that i am moses goes up the mountain accesses for a moment the inner master and he communes with god upon the mountain what do i call you i am that i am now just follow that thou shalt not use the lord's name in vain don't waste i am energy know who you are and come from the right place love peace joy abundance so moses gets that he comes down the

mountain shares the commandments or disciplines as some people interpret the word commandments to the people the people take it as rules that they cannot live by and they feel guilty all the time because they can't live by it that's also called conflict god gave us commandments we can't live up to i'm already feeling terrible that's not the way it was intended to be so this is what's get what gets really interesting but the pituitary speaks to the thyroid thyroid brings metabolism we can create

a happy heaven on earth and as you're ascending as you're going we're going through the ascension process this has to happen this whole glandular experience the higher glands have to be activated and when those two pituitary and thyroids start getting activated they start dancing the pituitary and thyroid they actually start getting excited and they start pulsing with light and when they start pulsing with light they tell the tissue around them known as your right and left sides of your brain they start getting them to move they

start getting the cranium in the head to pulse start we start having this something's happening the awakening of god is have there's this beautiful thing the divine in me is becoming actualized so this starts this movement you know it's just beautiful when that starts happening then all the other glands and all the neurons and all the nerves cranial nerves in the head they will say peace on earth and good will to man they'll recognize that christ is being born in someone today and they will bow to that effect

bow simply meaning how can we best serve you master but you have to show up and be the master if you show up on your own accord they will recognize you're a liar you have to say as god has proclaimed not i have proclaimed i am holy because god has created me holy not because i decided hey i read a good book so now listen to me your cells are not going to go oh well they guess what elbow you know someone read a book you know oh then let's all just bow no you know they're going to laugh at you the cells of your being

it has to be of myself i'm nothing but based on what god created me to be a man oh my god i'm everything i'm all that i am that i am when beings hear you say that even the darkest most mischievous humans or entities they they they bow down they realize someone's arrived and that's just an incredible experience and it's a righteous it's a good experience so the thyroid says to the rest the i am metabolism has arrived peace adrenals don't be so fatigued man lighten up peace thymus yeah but i'm just so anxious in my heart

about life in the shh waves of peace waves of peace and and this can descend through our being and we become the light even though embodied everything turns to light the glands this is all what the book of revelation is telling you how everything's coming home to the light but there's the process of the glands rebelling in the neurons all this and that's why all the dark imagery in that particular book so the thyroid however if you betray your christ self the thyroid gland is going to be betrayed and hurt

damaged so when you misuse the i am i am so tired of being married i am tired of being alone you're stressing the christ self the christ self is going you're not subject to any of such things you know this world has no power over you that's this the christ speaking and you're saying no i am negative negative negative negative and the christ is being destroyed if it's weak it has nothing it can bring the human body self and if it can't bring it into my body self it's not bringing it into my

material life because my physical self is not only my body it's my material life so everything tends to suffer on the other hand of course when i recognize the christ presence and i can bring that to the world all to the opposite the the body you know there's this light and there's this awakening and quickening and the life around you changes people are so skeptical anymore they've forgotten how to believe in these things and live this way i mean just just do the trinity for a moment if i only heard that today

and left going this whole trinity of god up in the heavens picture a line here the trinity of god up and where did he come up with that that makes sense trinity is up in heaven and the trinity is not only god the trinity it's my divine glands i can talk to god and act like i like god why don't i treat my glands better see awaken these bring peace meditate yogananda talks about if you can meditate on light in the center of your head it'll help awaken these very glands he doesn't go into the trinity and all

that but he's saying meditate on light there and it'll basically activate this dance this process let them talk to the christ gland the thyroid let the gland the thyroid come and bring peace into the world this is the fifth chakra counting up that's the star if i'm allowing that to awaken then the star of bethlehem has happened if today i honor my i am and deal properly with inner conflict which i'm coming back to then the christ is born again again in me today you see what i mean by that that's

called the star of bethlehem when i forget when i allow my ego to dictate who i am the star inverts and it's called a fallen star the thing often used in dark arts the star pointing down so instead of pointing to the i am it points to the i am not same star awakened asleep so the second thing though that mainly damages the thyroid is inner conflict and you know some people say yeah i had some of that last week let me explain we're always conflicted always well that doesn't sound like a very great affirmation i'm telling you

humans are always conflicted whether you're spiritual or non-spiritual people live day and night in conflict oh my god you know somebody was saying the other day you know i i'm so thirsty i was working all day i got very parched so i drank a lot of water but then i was up all night peeing oh poor thing conflict you know i am a holy being i am not a body at all really then you would not need to eat or drink to survive you know right why are you on the toilet well you know you're doing human things why do you think you need a partnership

to to be happy oh you're right so i shouldn't have any of that there's the famous course in miracles thing any almost anybody that has ever studied a course in miracles went through this phase i will never again have to take nutrients you know and then when they do they're like dang it why do i have to take vitamin c i'm it's an illusion so you're pushing it you're making it a religion you didn't read the course you were analyzing bits of it but you weren't really understanding it

so this inner conflict it it's like saying i know that i'm divine but why this human stuff why do i have chemical imbalances you know why do i struggle with this that and the other in my life that's called feeling conflicted now i can tell you i can predict ahead of time something about you and that is this if you are the type of person see because when you're on the spiritual path you're going to go i'm no longer going to let my vices get me have you ever heard that in your head right good idea good job

which makes you neurotic if you fight to not give in to your temptations you're actually i'm going to psychoanalyze you leaning towards neurosis if you allow your vices to get you and break you down you're going to feel depressed so or both meaning you're one the other or both so you're either neurotic depressed or bipolar and you know people oh that's terrible and how do you why would you say such a thing and you will not heal unless you own this you have to say why is all that happening do you know

why you're neurotic do you know why you're depressed or do you know why you're both because you're conflicted and you don't know how to deal with it the only reason you're depressed is because you fought so hard and now you're giving up so you're leaning towards depression and there are certain drugs and drinks and addictions that are the false remedy for each of these things there are things people do to deal with neurosis things they do to deal with depression and things they do

to deal with both i'm talking even just addictions none of the addictions that seem to be able to help will help which is why it's called an addiction and you keep doing it because it's not helping so it can only seem to have a momentary remedy but it really can't because you're not dealing with the cause the cause is i'm conflicted and if i really know who i am i don't have to fight so hard to prove it i don't i don't have to do as much as i used to think i had to do that's being

neurotic i remember um someone was talking about um an interview a particular actor and they were saying you know i was interviewing this the number one actor of the time they said i i was interviewing this person and i was noticing that they had a little box of cookies and as they're being interviewed they would take a bite and put it back in the bag and then one bite of the next one and one and they so this person as they're interviewing go interviewing them they're going wow kind of neurotic kind of this strange behavioral thing

but underneath all the neurosis get your hair parted just right the neurosis of curl the hair just right whatever the neurosis is about you know perfectionisms and whether it's a clean freak we have all these symptoms and names we don't have to have all those names it's really the inner perfectionist it's really the one that has forgotten the christ self thinking they can fix that by doing more to be spiritual that's all that's really there or i can't do more i'm crashing and i tend towards

depression that's the way the christ is looking at this i'm conflicted and i don't know what to do here's the right thing to do i am conflicted becomes i am at peace but i have to take the i am conflicted surrender it and become i am at peace how laugh at it laugh at you gave up gave up what i am that i am all that was was a momentary i don't know how to deal with this and i crashed depression or the neurosis laugh a little more at it when you laugh at it remember laugh and forgive surrender all

the stuff i am that i am but i sure as heck don't feel like it i am that i am but you know you can't eat food without fixing it just right or however you drink or however you drive and the neurotic things you lock your door and you do it x number of times the obsessive compulsive all that is is more than neurosis i i know it might not be easy to hear this but just just own it oh yeah we're all nuts just own it i am that that i am i am as god created me this cannot change you're not hearing me tell you about your flaws i'm telling

you they're made believe flaws i am as god created me that cannot change thank god that's great but isn't it funny that in my forgetting i try to compensate and that's there's another word for this if i try to compensate to become more holy or i crash because i can't do enough to become holy there's a word covering both of them faithlessness because it means i have forgotten what god created me to be and my remedies are not working that means you have forgotten who you are you've forgotten that the power of god

is here to take care of you okay well i but i did the work i i was feeling very anxious and neurotic i was feeling very depressed so i went oh monty padme and nothing changed there's a key it's called forgiveness look at it own it surrender it replace it laugh at yourself look at god this is so strange man how bizarre look i'm so bizarre you know here's what i was doing to be neurotic this week see it own it but it isn't who you are do not take it on as the truth yes i'm i'm being instead of oh oh my

god i'm just terrible what's wrong well well through the nails you know i'm just feeling like a craving for one of my addictions okay i'm not telling you imbibing the addiction i didn't say run from it look at what's happening and and how does it make you feel well i'm afraid because i might give in to it and if you did give into it i'm flawed see you already think you're flawed what you what you're not realizing is you're you already know the problem and you're talking about the symptoms of

the addiction getting the best of you you're already worried that you're flawed that's why you don't want it getting the best if you give into it now you're going to be depressed i shouldn't have given in oh i dated again and i should have been fasting from dating for a while see there's all that or you give in to it you know you crash and then if you don't give into it you become an erotic because you're like oh look at me i'm not i'm not addicted anymore oh geez man

you don't have any nails you've ground your teeth down look at me man you know i'm not addicted you've destroyed yourself you know what listen toothless listen laugh at it laugh at it honestly laugh it and go god look what i was doing grinding my teeth down because i forgot who i was to remember who you are ask god to help you remember and practice forgiveness forgive others forgive yourself and then get dentures or whatever it's quite all right i mean it it's all right when you get the message the rest

doesn't matter if i really choose to own man i'm feeling conflicted why well because i want to drink but i know i shouldn't let's look at that let's look at the deeper meaning let's surrender it to god and let's call in what you thought the drink was going to what did you think the drink was gonna give you or the drug or whatever well i thought it was gonna just kind of calm me down now you have peace and it will calm you down breathe it in try it you know and you play with that you're

like yeah i do feel kind of better but part of you still wants the drink see so what's happening is if you don't give in to it and you you like no no no and you try to control you're already creating anxiety inside if you give into it you're going to feel guilty and and we oh all of us we live this every day should i or shouldn't i have that donut you know well if i do let me make sure none of my vegan friends are around none of my gluten-free friends are around and then if they walk in just as you're

you know you're like it's tasteless i promise there's no gluten in this at all well what's the krispy kreme box about you know they've opened a new branch gluten-free krispy kreme you know don't be so afraid i am that i am that's the truth of god in me and there's also that which i am not i am not an addict i am an addict but that's the i am not as well my opinions of myself are all the i am not i can only know the truth of god it's capital t when i surrender my opinions of myself i'm an addict i'm not an

addict look at me i'm not i'm not they're all just labels there's something in me that's not even susceptible to those things and i'm trying hard to remember that that's neurosis i i used to try hard but now i gave up that's depression so which do i do and this is it see you stay conflicted you're destroying the christ presence humanity by and large right now is going through a major dark night of the soul the christ self in people the hate that they're speaking with i don't care what

tv station you're listening to the hate they're all off there's no not yet any you know channel called the christ i am channel you know and um and even if they created one they would say well should we all know do we really need a station we're conflicted you know because it's hard to be in the i am it's the know the truth but respect the illusion own it it's okay you know there's times when people might want to be intimate with each other you know michael i i did this somebody wanted to be and i don't know if i

should i gave in now i'm depressed i didn't give him but now i'm neurotic it's the same thing so can we learn to say i'm going to choose to be as much in my divine self as possible and join with someone else who's making the same intention you're still dealing with humans you can say okay i would like to share with you a date or intimacy or whatever it happens to be i would like to share something you know this certain thing with you the ego has infiltrated and has taken over our consciousness so thoroughly

that it you know no sooner do you have this agreement people are already breaching the agreement you can say i would like to do this but we're only going this far i'm really i'm abstaining i'm trying to you know back off and pace myself in relationships and one of you uh had a session the other day and was saying michael i swear i swear i i was abstaining i was backing off on intimacy with people no relations for now i backed off and then you know people you know they had certain lines that they fed

um and i jokingly said you know i know one of them i do yoga that's what they said i know just because we're improving our lives doesn't mean that the lines don't also get changed you are a holy child of god don't listen to oh i work with crystals too don't listen make them meet the christ self just this is where i'm coming from not unless you say that then i'm going to just go right over there i'm totally in alignment with my true self really little bait over here i do crystals too really that means must mean

this is going to work no it doesn't be in your christ self and know that we're going to slip here and there it's my intention to hold this consciousness not the perfectionist because it's who i really am talk to others that you're going to be intimate talk to them about that and they're still going to feed you lines because they know what you want to hear so pace yourself and make sure that we really understand what we're doing and where we're going it's a very tricky thing you know you can say you can own a

business and you say i want to make this a spiritual spa and you can have people come in saying i'd like to work here hi but this is a very spiritual atmosphere oh i'm totally spiritual i watch what i eat and and i'm totally into the you know consciously being conscious about your words and and impeccable oh god you're one of those oh did you read this book i read you you're hired you know they end up being all crazy you date them with all the lines you can't rely on the humans to be honest

because the human is hijacked by the ego and the ego will not be honest there's an important phrase in a course in miracles that says one of the key symptoms of awakening is honesty and you you actually interpret that to mean you're honest like you don't lie opposite of lying it's not what it means i'm an honest person means i'm honest about this my conflicts being honest means totally consistent when you see me you see the father but i also own when i deviate you see and as i deviate i learn to forgive

myself it will not be by your behaviors that you will awaken the christ that's just helpful here's the key as i'm going to draw to a close the key is actually in whether you forgive yourself well when you slip it is not the not slipping look at how holy i am it that will not get you there you're just neurotic honestly eat just right you know do this just right oh and you have to breathe x number of times per minute because that keeps you in a theta state an alpha state of whatever it just it's nuts

did you hear that you know on monday you should spin your body three times to the right and on tuesday it should be there unless it's a full moon you know it's there's all these things that there's all these doings and they're laugh at them they're neurotic look at us oh you know it's just kind of silly laugh at it because that's what they're doing check these people out they left heaven and they thought was gonna get him home you've got to be kidding me oh no i was told

that it changes it fixes this and then you can metabolize pure foods you're just you're gonna die and come back as a rancher in texas sorry ranchers in texas i don't mean that in a condescending way i'm just saying it's like you can't you can't fix yourself first because there's no problem the remembering is all wow look at all the bizarre things i did and then there's times when those didn't work and i collapsed in depression really sad you know sometimes i gave in and sometimes i was abused and there's

the victim here's the victimizer of the victim the doer you see there's variations but they're still extremes one thing retires both of those i see it i surrender and forgive myself and i call in something new isn't this funny the doings and yet i am that i am peace peace brothers peace sisters glands organs peace on earth and goodwill to mankind peace call in peace you deserve it when your head starts obsessing on all the things you've done or what done to you that makes you not deserve it you're slipping into either

obsessing or rather neurosis or depression again of myself i am nothing i just slipped into the i know not who i am and then i start to get it you know what i'm all right made in god's image i don't mean this thing is all right deep in me the light of i am is perfect and whole so i will develop things like love i'll develop more innocence an awakening of my innocent self absolutely i'll develop more of a of a gentleness about us you know each of us um but also there's this this other sign of our awakening and

it's an honesty honesty meaning i'm telling the truth of who i am i'm living the truth that's my honesty my honesty isn't just not lying to you it's being honest with myself who am i and if i'm really honest i won't be doing this and i won't be doing this see what i'm saying it's it's an awakening of this integrity this center in ourselves and it's beautiful being impeccable with your word is not a saying that some people use is not just about watching your wording to people

impeccable say it another way let your words be an expression of your divine self that takes the impeccable with your word to a whole new level in touch with my divine self so i have a decision to make as soon as you say because people say can you talk about divine guidance as soon as you say that you're wanting guidance about what for example wouldn't you like guidance better guidance in decision making as soon as you say that you're implying there's a decision instead of a knowingness i have to choose this job or this job

this day to this day being intimate not into et cetera et cetera et cetera should i have children should i not have whatever all these things should i go to yoga today should i not all of them they're all implying duality duality is an expression of hell anytime there isn't the oneness of god you're in trouble so you and i think we want guidance we what you're really doing is god i want you to believe in duality and tell me which things in the duality are right you see what you're really doing when

you try to make decisions god's going nope nothing to do with this why can't i get guidance god tears tears why can't you ever just because you're asking me the wrong question ask me how to do this not one of these because whichever one you choose there's a loser choose this you're going to wish you had done that choose that you're going to regret you hadn't done that that's what decision making is all about pulling the children of god into duality instead there's the i

am so at the end peace what decisions most resonate with peace if i forgive myself for believing in duality you say god tell me which one of these try this instead oh my god i get it help me to forgive myself for believing there's two choices show me what this looks like and god would say so what you're really asking for is how can i most feel the presence of god that'll be your answer please take a few centering breaths we'll have jade and john accompany our meditation surrender surrender surrender surrender

i need do nothing i need do nothing the duality the two or more decisions no [Music] i am that i am [Music] [Laughter] let come to mind a conflict decision you have to make or something you feel conflicted about something you've done or are needing to do whatever it is current or last week or last month or last year what political affiliation what truth should i listen to what rules what laws what gossip what rumors i don't know i

don't know whatever it is you say i don't know let something come to mind let the holy spirit trust the mother to show you which of these is most needing your release your healing [Music] use your imagination how can this conflict affect your glands your organs your life your relationships your communication your tension level take just a minute to view all the ways your conflict small or large might affect you [Music]

[Music] [Music] huh let your mind release the conflict and all its effects this is not god's will therefore it is not my will god's will be done in and through me all of the other just dissipates

[Music] and i call in the birthing of the presence of god to a new level [Music] there is but [Music] god from deep inside see the head becoming activated pituitary pineal the thyroid see them activated see the chakras activated this beautiful glow oh my god it is the presence of god just like moses saw [Music] i am

i am that i am i give you not commandments i give you acceptance of your real self breathe in this presence for a moment and then observe it pouring down into all parts of your body all your organs and glands for a minute first the glow in the heavens and then a minute of letting it pour into every particle of your being [Music] so [Laughter]

[Music] [Music] [Laughter] [Music] there are times i crashed and gave in there are times i fought against it neither brought me peace peace be still and know the i am presence of god peace peace be still and know the true presence of god love peace joy abundance [Music] [Music]

[Music] gradually give thanks draw your attention back to the room nice and deeply and slowly [Music] with [Music] and so it is hmm

extraordinary you know listening to uh the sounds of the instruments it's easy to think that instruments or vocals or whatever are being played at you because that's how we interpret life it's different to understand that they're actually connecting with something that's already in you you know what i mean by that yeah like that the the subtle even the it's like being out in the desert middle of the night some vision quest you know and yet it's not doing it to me it's grabbing that part inside and

bringing it forward because you've done this you've been to that place you've had that experience and you're remembering and that means just like the instruments that we thought played at us are evoking so too is is love so too is remembering who we are an evoking of who we remember ourselves to be it's not something that gets bestowed christ is not jesus's title it's the true identity we're going to take a moment to do our collection and our closing prayer should only take a couple of minutes

just please be as generous as you can be it's our love offerings that keep everything functioning materially or financially here um but thank you so much for being with us and be as generous as you can be and thank you online you folks as well there's a button there you can click to make donations and um god bless god bless you all for being so beautiful with us you hold your love offering to your heart we don't want you just putting money in baskets things and things we want it to be a process a ritual a

ceremony i'm sharing a part of myself even if you had no cash to put in the basket what's that got to do with anything consciousness love and support you can give us a million dollars worth of love and support and it would have a greater value than ten dollars in cash we're in a material world we play the game we pay the bills and so on never interpret your lack of cash as having an effect or a statement of who you are i am as god created me i am abundant i am prosperous i am at peace i am safe i am whole

hmm divine love flowing through me blesses and multiplies all that i am all that i have all that i give and all that i receive and so it is thank you guys so it'll only take them a minute or so to pass those around um a couple things i'm going to share real quick one just in relation to the talk remember when you're not honoring that christ center then you're not honoring the thyroid and it sends toxicity this becomes toxic the christ center so too does the whole self in other terminologies you could say

that's a like a battle between god or planetarily we'll say jupiter and saturn saturn is that statement of saturn satan in mythology not condemning the planet but it's the symbology and saturn actually rules your aging process saturn dries up the bones and ligaments and makes you feel older saturn wants to slow down your ability to heal because it grips it saturn grips and tries to hold you suppress in a way so when you're destroying this gland here the other is kicking in saturn ruling the body itself the human self

and it just starts working you over it's got you know a variety of things synovial membranes and drying up all the ligaments and so on it's it's it's got so many things that it affects in the body but basically we'll call it aging the arthritic the rheumatoid arthritis the you know uh all kinds of things like this the aches and the joints that's all that's squeezing now that shouldn't be happening because i'm a child of god you're still here and it's okay if you allow yourself to judge

yourself for the aging or whatever other symptoms on this planet you you experience lack of finances and you judge yourself for it you're more often if you'd have owned it and surrendered it you can die by aging and still be at peace you can die by aging and not be at peace it's a decision you make it's not how nice your joints feel it's are you at peace with it see just and laugh at it sometimes you know just wow a holy child of god and i can't even stand up you know laugh at it forgive yourself for

thinking it and believing it and judging yourself for it it's okay it's just this thing that we go through laugh at it it is not and i guarantee you it is not who you are what did you hear today that made the most sense to you that was the most helpful yesterday right here the christ center it's right here isn't that beautiful i am are you a king they ask jesus i am see he used this constantly are you the son of god i am and he kept saying it and yet there was a point never forget this there was a point where he stopped

answering why was that because when you realize nothing you say is going to change their opinion of you stop talking right when they want to think and act that way towards you it's not worth it so jesus answered answered answered and at some point nothing more to say why did you answer these questions i did you're not listening so done that's called setting a healthy boundary for yourself all right all right um in closing a couple quick announcements in case they haven't already been said if you have any used books you can

donate we could use some more we're selling out of those so if you have some at home let us know again john dumas is the guest musician and i want to extend and jade and extend a great great expression of gratitude from six to eight john and jade will be performing a concert please come back and attend it's pretty cool they'll be presenting the sacred uh soundscapes so it's a live performance and it's it's you know and they're joined by the way with ananda who was our mess our musician on guitar a couple weeks ago

right so very very cool and if you know any friends that are looking for handsome men you bring them the three of them no i'm kidding i'm playing off of that lady you know at that sale um let's see do your best we're getting a routine of attend on time just try to attend a few minutes early so we can keep things starting and ending on time and lastly just the announcement social media thank you if you're watching this on youtube become a subscriber that would be wonderful but also consider going to my

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can and how i can just remember get the times right arizona time you know go on the link that we give you and it'll tell you what time that is wherever you live but go by that because we do have people i'll go on to do the session that's your scheduled time and you don't sign on for two more hours you missed your time there's nothing we can do about that okay but it's it's it important time that other people could have had as well so please for your sake not you know losing your fee um and also for our sake

not wasting the time we'd appreciate it watch carefully and get there on the right right time okay so please stand for our closing prayer overall how did it feel today good yeah yeah nice thank you thank you i think it's extraordinary but this is what happens when you do this when you when you say god first right this isn't about just personal talents and whatever else we do up here this is god first and then comes through any of us any of us god first you'll become better mom better partner better whatever it is

you do in life employer employee everything just god first live the christ life so we breathe this in deep gratitude deep gratitude for each other in a room with hundreds of people and online with people from around the world and yet i'm still safe haven't always felt safe but i'm safe haven't always felt loved but i'm loved i can relax this is a group of people that care about me your head will say how do i know shh be still and know the i am presence of god i am in me through me says i love you

i support you i'm here for you and i'm here to help facilitate and support your awakening into who you really are the light of god surrounds us [Music] the love of god unfolds us [Music] the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us [Music] wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is god bless you all please bring your light to other people today we'll see you all thanks