Old You Versus New You
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ah good morning everyone thank you for joining us if you don't mind those of you who are guests I'm sorry um in advance I apologize for the strange group of people that join here at the global Center for Christ Consciousness they tend to be eccentric and kind of non-conformist you know so which means you're one of them so why did you create that um can you tell me please what topics you want me to cover today okay surrendering the source wait what did you say I'd like to hear your thoughts on the
coronation of King Charles laughs here are my thoughts about a coronation I didn't know it happened I don't know who Charles III is that's all that's everything I could tell you about my thoughts about such a thing is I don't know about it and don't care no offense but it's interesting okay that's good thank you versus that's it what was the voice one again voice of love that's interesting you know I love um don't think that I can read anything I
draw this is this is another language of frequency you know what I mean that's what happens so I just kind of channeled that and and then it gets mixed and all that and I don't have to write it it's just I do that sometimes partly playful but it's also in respect of the what the people are asking for um the folks online quite an array number a large number of items there was about 18.
um there was there was about 16 ish and uh but quite a diversity but one of the consistent ones love has to do with love and before I before I even launch into that in regards to love you know just for a moment romantic love because there's you know friendship love there's spiritual love there's different kinds of love but a lot of people do ask about authentic because one of the questions was was authentic you know authenticity um I've said this before but the word authentic it comes from the Latin
authenticus and it means one who author authentic you see it means the author of one's own life so to be authentic means that you're writing your own story right but if you're writing your own story it also means take responsibility for the book you've written you know it's right you can't just do this conveniently um you know I'm the author of my own story when things go well when they're not going well I'm the victim of someone else's story you know Step Up step up and and own but you if you're going to
own all the good you want to create you've kind of got to own one of you brought up that shadow kinds of stuff you know that those darker moments clearing out the old so when it comes to Partnerships and and there's all kinds of conversations people can have around Partnerships communication intimacy so many different conversations or facets of partnership relating I want to say this though um try to imagine whether this is friendship job or partnership it still applies but if you want to create a healthy
partnership job or any other topic what kind do you want to create do you want one that resonates with your old self your current self or your future self I mean this is a good question I'm asking you because what a lot of people do is they want to order one up from their old self and have it be their new self which makes no sense stop talking about what you claim you want I want a partner that's this wait wait I don't want to hear about them are you wanting to create from your old self that's kind of easy just go to the
same bar you know just just just go on dysfunctionalhookups.com and there's your old self you'll you'll recognize some of them your old photos probably still on the website oh look my profile needy there that's me it's not that hard to order life jobs parenting skills from your old self and sometimes we don't even order it we think from our own self we don't own that we have because we're not being authentic that we have an old self you'll say well that's the way I was parents my parents taught me this my
culture taught me that that's still your old self is that all you want your answer would write if I asked you to answer that would be yes or no only a few of you said no okay there should be a loud chant that would have been no can I hear an amen whoa this Jesus Okay so so we don't want to order from the old self that's kind of a no-brainer with self-help communities wouldn't you say ing it and meaning it are two different things by the way oh I definitely don't want anything from my old self and then
right out your mouth comes you know the old patterns you know I definitely don't want anything from my old self because oh I've had plenty of those jerks well that's your old self still talking because you still haven't moved into authenticus authentic self and owned any of this and changed any of this you're still hating and hurt you know and so on I remember one time I was at a wedding and um there was this gal who was very upset because her her mom had passed away like a couple years before
and her parents had been together for a long time her her mom passed away and so Dad however is dating now and she you know I'm like how's it going she's just upset looking really down I'm like how's it going what's going on you know and there's music and this is me at a wedding first don't invite me but if I'm gonna be there you know I will be about my father's work you know I can't just like start go do it you know the the things that people do at these weddings you know thank you
I cannot understand that sort of thing I it's just nowhere in there I've looked and it's not there I just sit like seriously anyway so I I say well Lean Forward she's sitting in a chair and I pull a chair up in front of her so I put her right here because it's so noisy she can't hear so I put her face right here to where she can hear because I'm speaking to her ear and I'm saying what's going on well can you believe it believe what can you believe he's dating he's he's seeing
some other woman I I think I can believe that I understand now now did this woman has this woman been with your dad while he was married to your mom and did she murder your mother that would be upsetting I understand that's not what happened two years later he decided to feel something again and be in a romantic relationship well this is not it's not right I said wait you're hating he's dating it's all the same people are in their pain and they're looking for something okay so you're
hating and I'll forgive you for hating he's dating let's forgive him for dating let people off the hook because we're either coming from our thriving selves or our wounded selves both are understandable both have their place which one do you want to affirm for your life obviously the healed one but you can't get there without healing the broken one so when it comes to do you want to create a relationship from your old self in a self-help Community the answer is going to be no but you have to really mean it
that means you have to be willing to not be your old self which sometimes is going to mean a year off it could be three lifetimes off of relationships nobody knows how long it's going to take you to work your garden to uproot all the weeds some people have one weed some people have thousands nobody can say how long it's going to take you well it's it's always going to be X number of months or you say to yourself but Michael I've been working on this for a year and a half great you know what's you know how does your
garden grow Mary Mary you know it's like what you what do you have in there I didn't put the rocks in there I didn't put the weeds in there if you have some gardening to do I'm sorry that it's inconvenient but sit and own that if you say well but I Want to Be Free of my old self but you've been married and still have resentments but you've been married 10 times and still have resentments about it it's going to take longer for you to clear that stuff than if it was a one week date
you know it's going to take longer so just be reasonable do you want to create from your current self and this is where it starts to get tricky because most of us cognitively could totally say no to the old self but it starts to get tricky new self and here's what some people will say that depends on how long it'll take for my future self to show up you see what I'm doing there that's what someone were saying basically do I go do I answer yes on the on the current self or do I wait for Michael to
bring up the option of future self I'm open to waiting for the future itself as long as it shows up tomorrow but I'm not going to go out dating my my current self you know dating I'll skip the future see that's where it starts to get tricky this is where we bargain ourselves and again we're not talking just Romance settling for a job do you want one from your old self your current self or your new self so think of it like this there's a button you can push this is we call it the manifestation
button The Law of Attraction button Etc there's a button and there either there is one it's called consciousness and it the thing is Mastery has to do with dis knowing what the buttons represent and then taking responsibility for which one you push and why victims are what I didn't push that button I don't know why this person showed up in my life they betrayed me like everybody else I don't know why it happened all unconscious victimization so you have an option what if it's true that all thoughts
create and contribute to your experience and it is true that that's you know that happens if that's true then that means I'm asking you if if you are without relationship or job or whatever else I'm asking you when is it right to push the button to say now if I'm still coming from my old self I would definitely not be wise to be pushing that button well I can't wait God I've been without a partnership for like three days so I've got to push that button you know that's not going to go well
all right but let's say that we're really beyond that kind of ridiculous behavior that kind of addictive behavior immediately manifesting constantly people or jobs or whatever things that just don't last and they're not real there's no substance so but I'm a different I'm a different person now Michael I I'm not going to create that I'm going to create from My New Self your new self is what well I've been meditating for three days now and so I think I have a whole new
self a whole new outlook have you gone into recovery yet no but uh I'm feeling pretty good anyway and I don't I don't really think I need so you what you want is a drinking buddy let's own that your current self is still drinking you want a drinking buddy your current self is still saying all men are this all women are this opinionated totally living off programs are you sure you want to push the Now button I mean I'm Still Still hearing some messed up stuff if you if you go to a counselor and you can hear a lot of wicked stuff
still coming out I would wait because if I push the I want to have a partner Now button the stuff you're talking about with your counselor is likely going to show up I just don't understand you know and I'm not saying you shouldn't have stuff to talk about with your counselor of course but I'm talking about the vibe when you talk about it it's one thing to say we I've noticed I have this pattern and I'm working on it that's different then nobody likes me I'm never going to
amount to anything that's dangerous to say if I'm never going to amount to anything and I'm totally unlovable and nobody ever finds me attractive and I push the Now button that can't go well you know it's like now and then you know this thing just bursts out of your solar plexus called a partnership and it's like oh well how did that happen so before you push the relationship button get an exorcism you know do some personal work be different be different now how much towards your new self is
Michael saying you should go to each his own I would kind of say I kind of I would like to kind of be there do I have to be fully there no just substantially there does that mean I never have the wounds of the past not at all but my future self deals with them differently than my old self do you hear what I just did there my current self is starting to wake up but just because I'm starting to wake up doesn't mean this is the perfect moment to manifest relationship because the universe will respond to my
Consciousness and if my Consciousness is still lots of broken self wounded self undeserving self it's dangerous yeah but I'm in a new self now I'm starting to get counseling and I'm starting to get into recovery Etc then that means you're starting to be a better partner to somebody and you're starting to be safe enough to manifest somebody but for me personally starting isn't good enough you follow I wouldn't want because all I'm going to get is the start of a decent relationship
I would like there to be some substance under this I'd like you know some ground under my feet I feel grounded I really truly know what I'm doing I'm not perfect in my holy Christ self or whatever yet but at least I can say where would I like to be spiritually and personally five years from now think of some things where you'd like to be in terms of finances where would you like to be just like in a sentence just in a few words just think of it for yourselves where would you like to be in five years from now financially
and whatever the words are in a prosperous retired whatever okay where would you like to be romantically what kind of partnership just and you okay well like this healthy you know forget you know don't don't let your mind get caught up in hot I want somebody that looks hot because that's somewhere back here in the old self and it didn't go very well in yoga the term for for hot is synonymous with the word shallow swear to God okay the word hot is synonymous with shallow and you kind of get what you pray for ask for pay for
all right so do you really would just want hot you know what hot does it burns out quickly it'll also burn you I want warmth I want substance warmth beautiful and it just feels great I don't need bipolar relationships hot cold hot cold you know it's just I don't need that I don't need that type of date that kind of partner it's oh but it's so stimulating what that means is I lack my own sense of excitement inside so I need a stimulant so you can date cocaine or you can marry cocaine it's a stimulant
but how well is that gonna go you end up with bleeding noses either way just happened through okay sometimes I imagine you know on the other side they're like give him this line and they just enjoy watching The View you know this is this will really mess everybody up you know right this will mess with their minds you know let's get romantic conversation bleeding noses everybody thinks of the two going hand in hand right no anyway so so what what are we gonna do where do we want to go warmth but I can't wait
you know I'm 95 Michael and I haven't dated in 40 of those years I'm I'm ready now before I die I want a partner careful you're maybe you're not talking from the old self maybe maybe you're just talking from this the current self that's still scared but listen man you're on the cross next to Jesus saying Jesus listen I'm about to die can you find me a partner and Jesus says to those two because the one voice is like hook us up quickly and the other's like no no I'm good
and one of those two you know which one he says to him you today will be with me in Paradise it means when you're 90 something and you're going I need a partner before I leave and you go no you know what I need is just this God is enough I'm not saying don't date I'm saying find the center of righteous Consciousness and then if you die the next day like you were afraid to be dying alone you're in God you're one with the universe that's better than satisfying the need that your ego told you you had
you don't really have a need your ego tells you you have a need but don't don't don't go in the direction of black or white thinking I'm not saying this has to do with go without a partner you know the Lord wants us to have no money except to the church that's getting it all you know uh over in you know the Vatican or wherever it happens to be depending on your choice of you know what they say in drinking you know what's your poison so you know whatever your choice of drink would be
that's that's fine you know but it's not black or white it's not so extreme the idea is I'm okay and from the okay my present self starts to come forward into my new self I'm at peace that doesn't mean relationship is over here no relationship is over I didn't say that at all it's we're programmed those things God wants you to have no money no Partnerships no whatever other than procreation so you can make more children that'll add to the numbers of the members in our church that's what
some of that was about instead I am as God created me and I will to be the Christ on Earth and instead of you know shielding ourselves from the world oh it's a naughty world and and uh shame and vows of poverty and Chastity and so on and so on it becomes I feel so alive I love the idea of sharing myself intimately laughter creativity they forgot to tell you that when you plug into God you're going to want to paint you're going to want to dance because you feel this Spirit King David he just goes into this trance of like oh
my God you know like like when they're telling Jesus he's coming into Jerusalem and the people are singing and chanting just like like ananda's playing and we start singing along right it's there's this vibe in the room now the old school people the churchy people the Pharisees and elders and politicians of the world what did they tell Jesus they said shut these people up they're disturbing the peace they're expressing the peace they feel the peace of God the Pharisees are saying they're disturbing the peace
meaning my intellectual version of Peace which means everybody be quiet unless we tell you otherwise that's not organic at all these people were feeling something so Jesus then says when they're telling him to shut all these people up he says if I told them to be quiet the Rocks would start to sing he's saying the vibrations are so high right now the whole universe is singing when they heard Jesus is born as a baby and they heard peace on Earth and Good Will to man do you understand who said that well the Angels let's say but I'm
saying to you the whole every molecule was saying it something so brilliant was happening that they heard this voice when they heard Jesus and the dove descends on him and he this is my beloved childhood well please that is the mother that is the holy spirit it's not an entity saying intellectually and verbally with vocal cords I like this Jesus guy this is the holy spirit of God that is all matter behind all matter that is the embodiment of God's love she is everywhere so technically everything was saying this is my beloved
child in whom I'm well pleased not not a spirit everything was saying it every particle of my being was saying it see and good good will you know to oh man peace on Earth when Jesus was born can you imagine if feeling the same perfect love everyone in every molecule every atom subatomic particle and wave is saying peace on Earth that's huge you're not hearing it you're feeling that statement right it's like wow and then it happens again and again throughout these moments that we think are just kind of linear stories
or miraculous stories everything is saying this peace on Earth good wealth man everything is saying this is my beloved child in whom I am well please who's it talking about Jesus but it's also talking about the Christ in all of us the spirit of God loves the Christ in all of us you are my beloved children in whom I am well pleased not when you decide to behave according to a church or a state you are as God created you does that mean my broken self no because that's not the part that God created so where is that part I can't know it if
I keep pushing the button to have relationships and jobs based on my old self it doesn't make any sense I'm looking for a new life push push push push it doesn't make any sense so we'll settle for the current life choose your poison you know in this world you want to settle choose your poison what's where's your weak spot going to be well I'm okay waiting weeks for a job or a better healthier partnership I'm okay waiting weeks choose your boys weeks months what do you want to do here
no I want to wait until I know can I say to myself I actually confidently feel healthy enough that if I push the button today what I see will not frighten me see as soon as you go well they don't totally fit the impression I have for a healthy Future Self but I think I can change them just stop hands up back away from the denial you know just come on go back and that's not easy it's it is not it is not easy whatever you're doing whether it's waiting for this thing to happen this thing to happen you know we're
looking for miracles and we want them when we want them we have forgotten how to completely trust in the spirit of love the spirit of God that everything is okay I'm trying to manipulate my life to go a certain way so that I don't feel so off to use other people for part of that you know to use other other people listen I'm feeling lonely I need you to step in here a little bit okay now we're in a relationship just be quiet and hang out you know that's that's not that's not thriving it's manipulating a life
where is the oh my God you know now again it's a pyramid there are less people at the top than there are at the bottom of the pyramid if you're looking for just anybody there's lots the the dating pool is great at the bottom of the pyramid what kind of person would you like to date anybody [Laughter] anybody will do there you go doesn't matter if they're a Cornerstone at the base of panda I don't care anybody will do but when you start growing in integrity and self-worth then what's going to happen is oh my God
I'm growing oh this is amazing wait where did everybody go that's going to become a rude awaken you're going to have that moment of wait tears you know God I was improving myself why did the dating poll shrink why would you do this to me and God's like oh you people you know you have no comprehension of Oneness you know God is saying come on man you know so I I have grown in my self-worth I can look around and go oh my God one minute there was everybody that I could date now there's three people and one lives in Madagascar
and one's in New Zealand they're probably none locally that I could stop you only need one you only if you want to date only one you only need one it it's the miracle can happen but how okay are you already at peace because if you say I'm at peace where are they you're still chomping at the bit I'm at peace means and whatever happens happens it's it's people around you are not going to understand your crazy behavior they're going to go where's the girl we used to know where's the guy
we used we miss her where's that needy girl where's the one that was going to get the right guy and bring me grandchildren you know tell her you have another kid have them give you grandchildren I'm like Jesus said did you not know I would be about my father's work why aren't you married I was married by the time I was you know half your age all these kinds of things that people will say just say to them thanks for sharing did you not know I would be about my father's work not literally say that but it's kind of
fun to shine some light on these things you know I was married and happier and you've been married five times since you know like like like in my own household my mother could have said Michael you know your father and I have been married for 50 years and I could have honestly said to her do you know I've never seen you smile that was true I've never heard you laugh and I've never seen you smile now would I be right to say yeah accurate yes what I wanted to say something like that no because it would cause more harm than
good but if she were pushing the envelope and pushing the envelope about how I should do as she has done there is a point where you might be able to say to somebody yeah tactfully yeah but you know what I just I you don't seem like you were happy all that time there's tactful ways to bring those things up but am I trying to hurt her by saying that or am I actually trying to educate her and I'm educating her and it's right to educate when it's loving and tactful it's right to educate so the world doesn't always
get these kinds of things and you know when you talk about one of you asked about inner work that's part of what we're talking about here the inner work the inner work isn't a day or a week this is a lifestyle it and it's not like that I sometimes choose you know this what you see is what you get you see I mean this is me it's not it starts off as something you're doing first you'll start off with not doing the old things then you're going to start doing some new things and there's a point where you
become them it's not something you're doing or not doing you're becoming and you're being and that's kind of sweet I I personally I am absolutely just as strange when I'm walking around my house alone and nobody's around I I mean this is me I'm eating foods that no human being would eat because it's just you know silly stuff junk food or whatever and I would just walk around and I'll just blurt into a song out of the blue just like I would do here this is just eccentric kind of silly playful me but I
I suddenly burst into a prayer and I might be in the kitchen you know snapping into a KitKat bar and a Dr Pepper and that that might be my dinner for today and I break them out but I I put the Dr Pepper in the freezer it's got to be slushy a little I have these specific things that I love and I do what I love and I love what I do if you are like oh I'm changing my life so I'm gonna only drink something that's organic green matter you know it's in a humid part of the house so that it turns more green
um and then you shake it up and you drink it and you're like you know that that's not to me that's not Bliss oh no but it's healthy you know you're still gonna die you're still you're still gonna die green teeth but you're still going to die if I die tomorrow after my Dr Pepper and you know slushie and I kick it I'm I'm still like this I still feel up not caffeine high I'm talking about I still feel good I love what I do right so I could be mixing up my my dinner or
lunch or whatever it is and soda or something and I might just break into a you know love this love this oh you know I love this it feels so good to The Taste and the and the the feeling of of sweetness of Life a kid cap you know I start just talking like that and I might be going you know thank you God I just feel so so good so alive I you know I just feel like right now in the middle of my kitchen I could just start dancing this is Michael but it did now that's me and my kitchen by myself this is the kind of thing that could
happen Should Be Dancing Yeah you know I mean this is me like it's not like I'm I'm crazy manic or something it's just playful silly and fun but it's it's in the moment it's spontaneous are are we able to live like that are we able to just be ourselves you don't have to perform for others but you also don't have to do it for yourself God are you watching look it I'm being very careful only the most organic foods because I know you favor children of yours like that stop God's like you know come on no
that doesn't exist I love you you love me as long as no I love you you mean because the church said he said I don't love them either I don't I'm none of the obligatory Duty obligation you well I'm trying to be a good person but trying why the pressure on yourself why don't you just pause for a minute and just say what if what if I'm already home how would I treat myself if I'm already home I gotta eat just right so that I'm holy stop how would you treat yourself if you're
already home stand there what kind of people would you date you now are going to take the pyramid like this not the world is doing it to you you yourself go there's just less interest in masses when it comes to dating when it comes to Foods what would you enjoy when some of the board members and I if we go to do a luncheon well Michael we know that you don't want to eat certain foods and Michael so we're going to go eat no don't ever bring me into the picture I can always find bread and butter butter butter is my favorite food
I will always be able to find butter on something it could be rice or bread and I do this is truly how it goes so I tell them do not go and eat where Michael wants to eat and this is what I say I want you to close your eyes and imagine what would be your favorite food today what would make you go oh my God I loved going to that place and I oh my God my favorite food I don't even ask them what it is I don't think oh God I don't want to eat in that kind of place I asked them what Would You Love and let's eat there
right I'll find something it's not that complicated I'm at peace with the bread and butter and if they didn't have bread and butter yeah I might go bummer I might but what happens for me I swear what happens for me is all I do if they didn't have bread and butter and I sit there and look at everybody and somebody's having a cracker either they're salad and they get their crackers but they don't eat their crackers I'll eat the crackers because I'm actually or nothing at all
because I'm actually building excitement for when I do get home to my kitkats now I'm telling you this is the way my mind works I don't go oh I can't believe it you know hate them for not having bread and but all I do is when we get home Michael we're gonna double the butter we'll just double it when we get home okay just promise yourself better in a moment from now better you know just promise yourself good things don't settle if something's not going well look forward to the light at the
end of the tunnel whatever form that takes I'm in this relationship it's very challenging it's very this this this this don't just commiserate that also be prepared for something wonderful even if you're still going into the Dark Night of the Soul you yourselves don't just feel the dark night look forward to the light at the end of the tunnel because this too shall pass it's not worth hating a restaurant over you know a cracker or anything else for that matter but you know I understand we have you know
our human preferences I mean um we go to a restaurant we're like looking forward to something and they say oh we don't serve that on this day that can be frustrating and I what I try to do is just shift gears into what I'm going to do what I'm going to create does that make sense so which is synonymous with me saying do you want to create from your old self or your future self but I'm not talking about a future out of the moment self I'm not talking about wishing I'm talking about set your mind there
there's a metaphor for this I could be in my old self but imagine strapping like a a band a rubber band at this end and then fastening it to your future self you've created what's called a mental tension between these two poles now what do I need to do over here as soon as I let go I can more quickly get to My New Self can't do that blaming judging hating Etc it's no no I gotta change the way I'm doing this so where where do I want to be so imagine this what would you like your finances to
look like in five what would you like relationship to look like in five years what would you like your body to seem like in five years whatever the topic job okay that's where I'm going not wish I could go not wish I could go it's that's where I'm going so now if I start imagining what kinds of people would be at that job what kinds of setting what kind of environment right there's even environment where does it what does it feel like it would look like start dressing it up let's see if I lived in an ideal house
what would the environment look like the foliage the topography what would it seem like middle of a volcano an active volcano Maybe not maybe not that doesn't doesn't resonate back to hot okay dates what would it look like see immediately for me green ery love it and if I can bring water in see that's me that's me love it peaceful calm Lush flower scent that's me totally me love that so it's not out of alignment with what I'm about but if you say to me we have a house Michael someone is donating to you under
the condition stipulation in their last will that you move here and it's in I don't want to name any cities or states but okay there are some that would be like no what do you mean it's a five million dollar house yeah but that's not where I would live you see be true to yourself what are you really about and you say some people yeah but then it hurts the other people's feelings because I didn't go to their restaurant I didn't go and watch their movie I didn't want to live in that place when they gifted me a
house are you trying to hurt them on purpose usually you would say no then saying that I'm afraid of hurting them is worthless thought if you're trying to hurt them you should be conscientious and look at that but otherwise stop you're actually trying to sabotage your future based on your hyper vigilance about hurting other people that isn't even intended to happen so then you're now hurting yourself and you're thinking along with everybody else and drowning in this life so two of you asked about that that
specifically the word heart that's what it means to follow your heart to live in your heart the heart of love it's not my human heart it's the Heart of Love and the Heart of Love has to do with synonymous being synonymous with self-respect you see it's self-love self-worth and if if you tempt yourself to say yeah but that sounds selfish I'm not stop that's the church that taught you you're selfish if you follow your bliss if you consider yourself in situations it's called Selfish no it is not
selfish is for me to stay in my old self they make it a bad word self-centered actually I absolutely am committed to being self-centered not selfish self-centered I am centered in myself capital S and myself is God as I understand it and it's improving every day how do I know that because how would I not be about my father's work meaning how would I not be doing that which takes me to higher and higher levels every moment do I want to date or job from old self no current self I wouldn't advise it but I understand at
least it's progress My Future Self how do I know what my future self would be or look like ask yourself where would you like to be and then start living based on that thinking based on the kind of people you hang out with based on that you're going to have some faux pas here and there you're going to have some you know yes I'm totally focused on not wishing for a future self but you're living it in the present you're letting your future hire self live with you in the present so you're
raising the bar on the present and healing the past so I pull all that into this moment and I bring more and more and more light to this moment and I'm gonna slip I might be like cleaning up all these areas of my life healthier relationships it's not arrogance it's not like you write everybody and say hi I've become holy and you're no part of that foreign you know I have determined that you are not a part of my happiness but what you can do is say here's where you can you can't actually do this to
some people it's appropriate and here's where I'm going if this feels like it resonates with you and you would like to go there let's connect and let's go there friends children whatever they are to you if not if it's you think I'm nuts if you think you know this or you think I'm you know daydreaming um that's no problem I wish you well love you peace out and move on it's not casualties as much as you know it's not collateral damage as much as it is I'm just being true to myself
yeah it's just this is who I really am this is what I'm about and if people don't get it don't hate them but just understand they are over here they were part of your past life or lives sometimes they're not really resonating with my present very much and that's why we're even having this conversation because something in you knows that there's a tension between you know there's a conflict between having certain people or jobs in your life that don't feel congruent it's just you're not clear
enough yet to move completely over here and if I feel the conflict I can resolve some of that by being more true to who I want to be okay if you're not going to do it please own it if you stuff it it's going to explode it's better for you to own it well yeah I know that in nine ten out of areas of what I wanted where I want to go nine of them are all together but there's this one I'm going to pretend isn't happening it's okay nine out of ten areas of my life I cleaned them all up I got
Michael's talk I really got it totally got it cleaned everything up but I still smoke or I still drink sometimes or I still you know have naughty thoughts or whatever it is just own it just own it it's okay do give it to God but you don't have to change it all today in this moment it's okay sometimes even laugh about it isn't this funny how like I cleaned all this up but I still have this one thing you know it's all right for all you know if you got rid of that one you would ascend you know there it's it's a final anchor
for you so it's okay the bottom line is not to judge whether you've only cleaned up one area of your life or nine out of ten don't judge the remaining areas learn to see them with a little levity learn to see them as it's kind of funny you know as much as I am Awakening and getting it isn't that weird that I could still have this one thing you know whatever it is road rage God I meditate I see Angels now and they've given me a new spiritual name you know running by the Still Waters is
my new name and you know and I go and change my name legally and I move to Sedona and I've got you know I sit and shh rainstick and peace pipe and what I'm just all chill and then I get in the street you know at the roundabouts yeah you know you know just kind of I'm working on it it's it's okay because it is kind of silly and it is kind of funny but where it's hurtful make amends where it's hurtful to others apologize and make amends but we're searchable to yourself apologize and make amends
this isn't where I want us to go so I'm working on that and when I slip oops and then bounce back please take a few centering breaths oh breathe into and feel into for a moment your body can you feel muscles that actually got exercised from laughing think about it really tune in you'll find at least something here that Shook and vibrated and got a little exercise and if not what about tense moments parts of the body if there's any tense areas just tune into them where are they use enough muscle to sit up and not flop over
but are there any unnecessary tensions jaw the shoulders tense into them for a moment on an inhale and then relax them like extra relax as you exhale your back muscles your neck muscles [Music] hips [Music] another one of the things someone asked about true freedom start with any muscle that's tense become the presence like Krishna who is on the Chariot with four horses pulling the chairs the four horses represented the four lower chakras you're Human Side pulling you or do you
take the reins and let them know as the master the god self here's where we're going true Freedom I'm not following the dictates of mother mother-in-law this person that not because they're bad people the church the state not because they're bad it's because they're not or I'm choosing to go if they are wonderful they continue to be a part of our life otherwise here's where I'm going if one of those animals want to take you in a different direction place the animal if a food causes you to feel ill let the
food go the job whatever it happens to be just untether it from the group free it and bring in one that is right for you to say we're going to go in this direction can you do that are you willing to do that [Music] clear out all else [Music] true to yourself [Music] thank you imagine what are the areas that do not feel like they are part of your ideal Future Self whatever it is it could be certain words you say are conversations you have habits hobbies that are maybe no longer
right for you addictions people relations jobs just make believe for a moment do they fit your future self your ideal self don't be afraid if they don't doesn't mean they're going to be gone tomorrow we're just looking here's where I see myself [Music] notice that on a 0 to 10 scale if today you would have rated your overall life let's say to be a five what would you rate that Future Self almost everybody will end up saying a higher number when I look at my five year from now self it's more like a seven or an eight
that's beautiful it's great that I see it that I own it and then it's especially great if I start living according to that [Music] [Music] as you stand in that light and you look back to your old self 5 or 55 years ago your old self can you see the contrast it should be pretty obvious and if you made it this far chances are you're going to end up making the next leap [Music] foreign
what measures do I need to take to start moving to that Future Self it doesn't have to be drastic it doesn't have to be scary but what it what measures do I need to take certain foods know certain friends know certain yes and remember whatever you want to be it's already here with you it's not about geographic changes it's not just dietary changes those are the external rituals of it it's my acceptance that most determines that I'm going to go in this healthier Direction [Music] balance
[Music] centered all the words you've brought up balance centered [Music] I just feel this Equanimity this balance this peace [Music] I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on Earth not the religious version The Living version the Christ on Earth peaceful happy joyous playful spontaneous the Christ on Earth can [Music] eat meats or not eat Meats the Christ on Earth can still watch certain movies and not watch certain movies the Christ is a presence
it's not an accomplishment the Christ on Earth can still make love or say no for a day or a lifetime it just depends on what feels organic and right for it the Christ on Earth can laugh it's not in a white robe seamless robe solemn being crucified it's arisen and I can step into that and I'm noticing that stepping into my Christ self I'm feeling the call to dance to move to laugh it's all following this very natural vibration I feel alive [Music] I smile more my posture seems straighter I'm
envisioning My Future Self I just seem like I'm standing straighter clearer feeling brighter the inhibit itself might fade I might find myself hands on somebody's shoulders more often giving them healing and relief of tensions [Music] there are children in this world and many are scared and when they look at me I smile they can see this countenance in me that brings them peace can I be like a when a child meets me can I be like an angel that when they look at me there's something about me that makes them kind
of smile and feel calm if I work in a hospital can I be different when I walk in the patient's room can they feel like something came into the room that's bringing them hope [Music] I'd be a sponsor in a 12-step group that helps people feel like oh my God this isn't going to be as hard as I thought it was there's hope there's something about this person [Music] you care you're in retail you're selling houses and you care about the house not the commission you care about getting them
the right house for them in retail stores the right clothing paint store the right colors you just are in the zone and if you die the day after this you will have died at peace you will have died holding that Christ frequency in a world that's trying so hard to lose that frequency [Music] and we close by just soaking in peace soaking in what you're feeling feel this sense of yes yes yes yes yes this is attainable I can feel it and it's happening now foreign [Music] the change that I'm choosing is not to
shame my old self and look for a perfect self it's say goodbye to unnecessary past patterns and such and joyfully welcome in a new life I can see it I can feel this this is where I want to go [Music] my very presence makes a difference [Music] and this is only possible because I am as you created me father mother God the symbol of my old self is the one that thought it was separate from God and from itself and from others that's all it really is it might look like labels I give it but the old self is the separated broken
self My New Self technically give it labels I'm healthier I'm this that but those are labels My Future Self is ultimately my true self my Christ self and in the present self I'm allowing closure to the old and welcoming and more and more of the true Christ Light that I am into my present life my present self [Music] and my acceptance and baptism of this allows the words from the Holy Spirit you are my beloved child in whom I am well pleased [Music] thank you and and so it is thank you hmm
thank you very much just take a moment to stretch out and kind of integrate back into your present moment here with us take your time I'll do a couple of quick announcements and then we'll take up our collection and do our closing prayer remember that we have a healing room here the yurt out here it's got a crystal bed in it you're welcome to check that out and have Crystal bed sessions you can book them at the office or in the bookstore also um remember our bookstore um you don't have to pay the tax because
it's a non-profit here but also we price things a lot less than you're supposed to in retail so you can save a lot if you're shopping here and we have packages that we uh that we have put together a book incense incense burner card so that it's easier if you're buying for folks if you're traveling or your Airbnb and you want to give them gift them to your uh tenants or whatever you're welcome to look at those those are we set several of those aside for people and um do your best please to keep arriving at
five or ten till because we if we have a guest musician we usually have them do a song like we did this morning before the service officially begins and um we do have remember a new community bulletin board in the foyer so if you're renting something looking for something to rent it's the one specific bulletin board because we have two or three one that is for that kind of networking um every month we do the start of the month the first Sunday is I do a whole day of prayer meditation prayer sharing to but prayer so it's kind of a just a
day of of sacred you know the the whole day 20 what is it uh 12 hours of prayer every hour I'll do the first hour was when we started the service the second hour is when we just ended we're ending with a prayer um and then the next hour will be in about 40 minutes or so I'll do that from here and then for after that every hour is done remotely but you can watch online and be part of that all day long you can do whatever you want in between we just get together on the hour for a little bit of prayer and connecting okay
it's a great way to dedicate a whole day per once per month to connecting with spirit and remember Sunday the 14th three to five we have Gabriella young for Mother's Day celebration this is Transmissions of poetry she does a lot of really beautiful work with rubian and huffies and others including music that'll be presented with John Dumas all right so that's May 14th um I think that's it um we do have a new piece of art just outside by the street you'll see this metallic thing it has these glass chakras it's pretty
extraordinary if you have the the means you can share with us an extra donation to contribute to that um somebody's gifting that to us um you know selling it to us really really affordably but we loved it when we saw it we decided we're going to buy that but we'll pay for that so probably just this week only I'll ask if anybody has the extra means and take a look at it before you split out the door to the right it's facing the street you'll see it alrighty um we're going to do our prosperity prayer
if you have that with you can read it on the paper in front of you or if you're online you'll see that posted centering really feeling that abundance really feeling the appreciation that you can give that you have to give and then receive tenfold Divine love flowing through me blesses and multiplies all that I am all that I have all that I give and all that I receive and so it is thank you so for about a minute or so before we do our closing prayer can anybody share what did you learn or hear today that
made the most sense that was the most helpful that can help you in your life even if it's what you received during the meditation portion can anyone share what they got from today yes dear nice right right thank you loving the part that just promising yourself a better life yeah that's wonderful and thanks for for the two of you thanks for for being with us again yeah it's good to have you folks here I know you're going to present here musically with us and um have a concert down the road that'll
be great to have you all right um yes one of the things I've been working on transgressions because I've learned from them yeah so I can be great right right sweet thank you yes sorry things you learned from your past that you now are turning into what you can be grateful for yes what's your problem yeah yeah you had the mother uh what's wrong
with you why aren't you married why aren't you oh God it's great to remember those kinds of stories with Mother's Day coming up yes authenticity Isn't that cool yeah people don't have to including you don't have to live to your standards you retire all that and and is it really making sense that old self creating from the old self is not a good idea isn't that obvious do you see how it's a little confusing do I want to create from my present self that's the me that's working on myself and I'm ready
now for a new relationship but you haven't become your highest self yet you don't have to be perfect and holy over here because trust me if you were you wouldn't want to date anybody all right because you'd be just so blissed out none of it would matter so I'm not saying that I'm saying just that this is healthiness and that's a good word to use with family and people like that I'm just choosing healthiness that way you don't make it a religious spiritual decision and you know it sounds too far out for
them I'm just going towards healthiness would you like to join me would you a family member that would like to join me and support healthiness in this family ninety percent of them are gonna say no which is great because now you're you're apparently you have some extra free time um to start creating healthier friends and family members okay all right and um our deepest appreciation for Ananda are today's musician Ananda yeah he's got a table in the foyer there and he can um sign autographs or uh you know sell CDs
or whatever it happens to be all right beautiful energy he's got a great Soul beautiful musician and I appreciate that you obeyed the signs that said ladies don't rush the stage um you know so it was really good that we respect him and anyway so very very cool oh please stand for our closing prayer again tuning in to gratitude what did we learn what did we hear what did we feel what did I gain from the meditation this is all me seeing myself my potential this isn't about listening to someone talking this is me this room and all
around the world to people watching everything I just heard every musical note every Vibe every laughter every insight they're not happening in a little room with a little person standing in that room hearing something from the middle of the universe somewhere alone this is the whole universe is in my mind all that was talked about shared me every musical note every higher vibration the presence of God it's all here wall to wall in my mind my being and I see that that means I'm improving a lot and I'm so grateful
I am on my way home and committed to reaching and being in living in the light at the end of the tunnel not someday here and now the light of God surrounds us the love of God unfolds us the power of God protects us the presence of God watches over us wherever we go God is I am we are and so it is peace be with you all thank you