God Is Behind All

pen okay so thank you everybody and those of you joining us from around the world tell me what topic we're covering today please what as in shame my babies got me locked up in shame oh that's chains isn't it the same right anybody else i see [Laughter] i won't repeat that to the audience online oh they want to hear about sex without marriage three letters f-u-n i'm kidding i'm kidding i'm kidding sorry next forgiveness anybody else how about the emotion of

jealousy who else had their hand up i wrote his yes life in the universe anybody else [Music] next emotional addictions like sex without marriage one more pardon living [Music] okay thank you [Music] well we're on it so welcome everyone yeah we tend to uh and welcome welcome to you our friends from the ukraine yes uh i apologize that i or we uh don't

know the language for you well enough to do all the justice you deserve um but thank you for being with us okay lots of love to you um boy the world you know just the world is so strange um and it's doing its thing um it's very important for us to understand and i'll do my best to incorporate as many of the 50 requests you gave it's very important for us to stand we to understand you can theorize and talk about situations in life and love and romance and sexuality and whatever topics but it's all just talk if you miss the

underlying message to it all it's it's all talk whatever the topic it's still theorizing and kind of combating with wording um rights and wrongs and ups and downs if we don't understand who we are if we don't understand what life is truly about life is not about human concepts of peace if mankind doesn't have it in here it's not going to be out there relationships intimacy shared with you know others and whether it's in monogamy poli you know polyamorous relations everybody's just reaching

underneath everything really underneath everything first of all there is but god and we're part of god so it's not like we went somewhere on a journey everybody talks about oh it's a grand experiment people have in the 90s were channeling you know how creation took place god was bored as if god was bored and said hmm you know we need humans oh like that filled up its life you know uh like that could help and sent us out as satellites to gather information like a really bad star trek episode so we were all sent out to

gather information then god would bring us back and download all of our gatherings of information how could the all need to know anything especially the bizarre things we've come up with so we would report back okay god what's your download well alcohol is tasty except you get really addicted to it pretty easily like god's gonna go wow thank you beloved that i needed to know that it's a whole twisted thing that that we're experiencing here there is god and god is but love perfection wholeness

peace eternal joy and people really the human brain cannot comprehend that so people go around and talk about love and then it's romance love sensuality love your kids love no if you don't love everyone then you actually don't understand what love is no offense meant god is our first love that's why the bible in the book of revelation says the reason revelation comes to people the reason the world's going to collapse one of the reasons you have forgotten your first love it says and it's god

everybody's got all kinds of other priorities you know i haven't gotten a new car for a while i've got to keep you know every couple years get you don't have to have a fifth boat either god first now if you go to god first have as many boats as you want if you're plugged into god it the rest doesn't matter it doesn't matter how many pairs of shoes but you're no prettier by buying one extra pair of shoes are you right here with god because when you go to die you're probably not going

to say quickly bring all my shoes around me and put them on the bed so i can be with my shoes before i die it's probably not going to happen so it's all this misdirected stuff there's but god and we're part of god that's the great news bad news is we decided to imagine what life could be like if there weren't a god and that's what life on earth is called you know about life on earth is not the pleasant trees we think it is we just dress it up so that we don't miss god so much deep in our soul more than anything you

can er you know yearn for is god it sounds too religious for some people but i swear that's the only thing you're missing you don't need more money you don't need more anything god and i don't mean that religiously where you just pray to some superstitious thing in the sky i mean connection again i am as god created me i will to be the christ on earth wow celebrate the presence of god but what humans do is there's an ache inside not remembering what the ache is one of you is asking about you know emotional

addiction and so on all the things we yearn for on this planet really it's all about god guys we just want to go home but people have a forgotten how to get home because religion and politics tells you and science the unholy trinity those three things keep you away from god science will say it doesn't exist real politics will say we have to vote on it and religion will say yes there's a god you have to come to us to find it and you won't end up finding it so this unholy trinity even with their best intentions mind you

because there are scientists that believe in god obviously einstein but all these things end up keeping you distanced from the only thing we really want what is it you want name it and god would bring it i just want peace connect with god you'll feel i want love i want to feel whole whatever health you can't be in the consciousness of god and not have all these holes plugged so you could fill up but mankind has forgotten how buddha theorized it mother trace of this jesus that these are just teachers bringing it to us to say think

about this try this out 12-step program all these things but people think that's the spiritual path are all these overt yearnings or projects or programs behind think of this we take you take a breath okay everybody take a breath right now just take a breath okay exhale and then don't breathe for just a sec just a sec before you take another inhalation you're gonna think your body's gonna tell you we need to take another breath i'm telling you what it is is your soul wants another breath and it wants god

see even the yearning for another breath you really want god your body says no no we just need oxygen no you do not you don't have a body you don't have lungs it's an illusion all you really want is you can exhale by the way and inhale again all you really want is god so even when you think you need air it's really just god even when you go god i'm really hungry you actually are craving god you don't need water or food it's god when you think oh i want intimacy i want affection i want someone to hold

it's really just god but it would seem boring to the average human who doesn't comprehend this well god's okay but i really want a drink what you want is god don't go into any program to stop your drugs alcohol sex or any other addiction if you don't include god into that program because that's the thing you really need think you need we're not really separate from god but it's you know where we're at in our mind so we make up stories you know i'm complete if i have children i'm complete

if i have a partnership no these are just symptoms that we're dealing with symptomatically i feel i need a partnership but that's just a symptom of a deeper thing all i really want is god so don't just make yourself not drink or smoke pause for a minute before you grab the drink smoke food whatever pause for a minute and say to yourself you know i see the craving again for that thing and that's not really what this is about what i'm really longing for is god just a couple breaths you don't have to become holy and ascend

yet just just do that much all i really want is you god so i welcome you and accept you into my being right now one breath good now light up take a drink or whatever you're going to do because jesus has told you seek first the kingdom and all else will follow you we've been told by christ's consciousness it's not or in a course in miracles he says if you need an aspirin take it but don't think it cured you give to god what is god's and give to man what's man's give to man means also

this thing they're called a body if you need an aspirin take it but don't forget to say you know god i have a headache you know what i really want an aspirin no what i really want is you and i keep thinking it's an aspirin breathe it in i want your presence i want your your painlessness your peace breathe in it and then take an aspirin because you've given to god what's god's gift to man what's man's is that making sense i mean really try to really get the depths of what this is saying

that all i really ever long for is god now all the other comments and questions intimacy partnership married not married that's secondary plug into god and you'll find that if you did your inner work and then took a drink i'm telling you the drinking will also start fading do your programs and all but i'm saying with god it's easier to do those things than to not have god and try to make yourself not do it with god all things are possible what i'm really looking for is god you're dealing with anger you know i'm

thinking that revenge is what i need really really really what i want is god peace okay now what action should you take and sometimes you're still filing for the divorce sometimes you're still saying no to an employee goodbye because the outside won't matter if you got the inside so plug in people think you know it's the romance and all these other things it's it's like um basically the word love the word love is is probably the most abused word in our vocabulary because not only is it you know when you

say hey you're saying not love so love is even in the word of anger and hate but in a strange way but human beings they think the most beautiful thing you could ever feel is what love you know ask an audience love what is love oh partnership and no it isn't love is the feminine aspect of god hidden behind your desire to join with another person in matrimony or whatever else is actually a yearning for you to become one with god not another person a body cannot bring you god but you can bring god to a body

get that the other stimulations that you can bring god to a cigarette but a cigarette isn't going to bring you god even if it's weed you might think it brought you to god you know you might think you're you know a little ass and you're wow i see god no you don't you see brain cells that are dying and it looks kind of colorful you know that's what's happening nothing nothing on earth can bring you god i know that sounds strange new thought places it's supposed to be the opposite statement nothing on earth

nothing in the whole universe can bring you god why because it isn't there it's a hologram right it's just a hologram it doesn't make sense for people to go i'm so much happier when i watch my soaps they're just tv shows and they're strange and they're relating to your dysfunctions so you watch them but this universe can't bring you anything it's not there it's a tv show so the good news is in your choice to plug in more and more to god which also means real love you're bringing the solution to a world

that has fallen this world is not going to be fixed by us praying for it i swear there's no god make make them not do that it's not going to work that way because someone else is praying make them do that you know it just doesn't make sense it's like boxers that go in the ring and they do the sign of the cross what are you praying for help me to kill them you know it's just strange but people do it all the time so we don't want this misdirected these misdirected concepts of love and i'm not

saying you should go home and say honey guess what you're moving out i thought you were what i wanted and it's really god no i don't think you should do that although some of you it might be necessary but what i really want is god and and i want my friendships to resonate with god i want my lovemaking to resonate with god and i want parenting to resonate my finances get god and have everything come to that place don't go all these places looking for god because it's not fulfilling it won't

work people think it works because they got the new job but then they don't like the job because the job transfer now they have to drive two hours to work there's these odd things in this world nothing in this world lasts but god does and because you're made in god's image so do you so think about this what is real love all your concepts of love they're just they're they're wrong it isn't true whatever you think love is it's it's not true well you mean my unconditional unconditional love means there's

conditional love you're still talking about duality the only way to really understand love is this god is love and you're made in the image of god so when you love god you're back to real love but that doesn't end there because god's gonna say oh that's so great you're reconnecting with me your love and i'm great god's gonna say what about everybody else well i think we can leave them out lord some of them are undeserving god's gonna say you don't mind me saying you're made in

my image but that means everybody is and if you're gonna say you love me because i'm god and i'm love and you're made in my image so therefore you're loving you can't get it if you don't have the same exact love for everyone so if you want to know real love it has to be for everyone love doesn't you know have a little bit for some and somebody else a little measured off it has to be the same for everyone when i say has to be for it to be real it's a bit intimidating though for some

people like really i got to love this person and this and that's the message of christ yes love everyone to do contrary would be like a buddhist that doesn't believe in compassion it just doesn't make sense yeah i believe all in spirituality and god and you know and it's a shame some people aren't going to make it how can they not make it that would be like god being limbless well some of them didn't make it they're one with me but some of them didn't make it so now i'm missing a part

of myself everybody's going to go home everybody is home and never left but everybody is going to get to the place of waking up and realizing we never left everybody is made in the image of love therefore that's what real love is i am determined to see the love in all people is our message why because that's god and it's love of myself that's the real message of love and and love is also the the feminine aspect of god and she's trying to tell us every day how to be more loving so it's not like it has to be all sublime

and religious i'm not saying that i'm saying god says you're not going to really ever understand while you're in a body the sublime levels of ascension consciousness or of real love what i want you to do is start with the people around you well i can do that you know i love my dog because it doesn't anger me the way humans do that's you're missing it well i don't mind humans the couple live with me but when i watch the news i find all kinds of people i don't like watch reality shows if you think you're

holy watch reality shows if you like them you're screwed up and if you don't like them you're screwed reality shows will really take you to a place of ascension if you can get through those i mean my god right because those are just so twisted but at the end of the day love i i you know truly want to know that that song i want to know what love is remember that foreigner it's an amazing thing because they write this song it's kind of funny the guy that wrote it in the foreigner middle of the night boom

see he thinks it's a song everything i swear to you everything is a spiritual experience but nobody knows it he had a spiritual experience and he woke up saying i want to know what love is he thought it was a song to write which he did and it's a good song but i'm saying underneath your compulsion to be intimate underneath your desire for food or a drink or to write a song is really you're witnessing your relationship with god i swear all of it is your relationship with god whether you you know

burn wacky tobaccy or whether you're burning candles in your church underneath it is your desire for god here's the question now if all of it is a compulsion really for god think about that just let's pretend you all agree with that my only other question is how closely aligned is your technique for getting closer everything is a call for god but the things you're doing compulsively to get closer which ones are healthy and which ones are more blatantly not healthy overeating is a call for god but is does that resonate as closely as

you can possibly walk is that making sense look at the behaviors and just learn to say are the behaviors out here in alignment with as close a walk because i'm claiming it's all about god which it is but are my behaviors kind of matching that call or are they really distant calls misdirected calls is that explaining it better so think about that now you're not told to make them all happen right because then you're going to be the person who's trying to follow the ten commandments and you cannot

succeed at that what you're going to be doing is judging yourself for not so our job is god is but love and therefore so am i are my behaviors towards myself and others loving chances are you're going to have to say not all of them then what should you do dang it dang it no isn't that funny i know how to be loving but dang if i don't get cut off on the road and start giving all kinds of hand mudras to people who cut me off you know what i mean right it's like you know spiritual own money pod me you know and then you know

you're doing all kinds of other kinds of gestures and you should do what you just did laugh laugh and you know i thought i had this down and then somebody cut me off laugh at yourself so know the love of god but recognize when you don't act like it and forgive yourself and then you know what will happen you'll know the presence of god forgiveness gets you back there beautiful profound you know forgiveness gets me back i don't get back by going five more lifetimes because i flip somebody off on the street

that's not how you do we think penance does it we think that burning off the karma and it makes sense logically but it isn't rational because it still implies that you're naughty and you have to come back to fix your naughtiness which means you're still justifying that you're judged god isn't saying yeah boy yeah that hand gesture the three hell marries 16 lifetimes and you're good to go that's not how it works god's going how you doing well i'm really mad at myself well yeah i did this oh and how do you

feel about that god's just like how can i support you in this process well i'm mad at myself now i have to come back five lifetimes because this book told me your teacher told me god's gonna go okay and so it is you know but god always slips in this i have another suggestion if you're open no i'm not open okay just you know grace would have been a good choice but no give them tell them what parting gifts we have well you could have had grace but no now door number three karma for 18 lifetimes

you know and then we have to go live this stuff so so love um even in ukrainian this is probably sounding odd right um but thanks for joining us guys so true love my god you know like it's an integrity it's a by integrity it's a it's a state of consciousness but if we channel the highest teachings and we don't integrate it then we're not becoming it there are people and i understand everything is a cry for love if it's not love itself so underneath everything we do you coming here today was your soul

saying i want more god the good place to get it you could have said i want more god i'm going to go to a bar it's you can't judge any of them but i'm asking you which ones are lived most in alignment so if you hit the bar and they find you in the alley the next day kind of sleeping it off how's that working for you and i don't think we should judge when we veer off but do we catch ourselves and come back living stringently towards god isn't the answer it's living lovingly towards god

so when i slip i need to forgive myself so when it comes to this world love is just all twisted the concept of what love is and it doesn't matter if you're monogamous polyamorous or whatever how are you doing with that are you bringing god to it no but it sure feels a lot more like god when i've got you know polyamory going on or or when i'm alone and i don't have a crazy partner it's all here how are you doing in here i choose to find more of god now you have no partners you have one partner or

you have 10 partners lovers whatever are you plugging into god and bringing that to your relations if you're not then you're really on a stall mode you're not getting anywhere so one relation one person 15 they're not the answer it's all going to blow up again anyway so how you know how is this going what's happening in here how is your heart your soul more and more peace more and more love more and more you know the real the real kind so when it comes to intimacy and one or two questions or comments were asking about

intimacy um when it comes to intimacy it's a really interesting thing because if you ask some people of an older generation you ask my mother who's not with us but if you asked her what is sexuality oh that's when you have the one and only partner never anybody else and you stay with them forever and was it a very intimate thing not at all was it enjoyable oh heck no i mean she actually said this once and i was like wow but make sure you stay with that person miserably so your advice mom about sacred sexuality

is be with somebody you don't even like because you didn't like him that's strange i mean i mean that's kind of creepy your advice to your descendants is choose somebody stay with them forever hope for the best and give them your body but that's an old school belief so i can't tell you that works but this is this world intimacy and so on i've had you know i've taught about sacred sexuality and so forth many years and um it's such an interesting thing i mean because because people can say i

i've written books and so forth on it but i've had people ask me about intimacy all i end up doing is annoying them because i'll say well who are you and they'll say things like oh michael you think too much just go with it i'm not going anywhere with you i don't even know you and they hit me with the you know the little guilt trips like that's gonna work oh you you know you have to just let go and just be you go and be with another thousand people because you don't seem to care

see that's not my thing true sacred sexuality is not by who you're with or number of people it's do you bring secret sacredness to the topic you can't if you're off in here if you're being with people compulsively with previous guilts and shames be a born-again virgin start over let go of shames and guilts and learn to say i'm going to be with someone who earns the right to be with me and i'm going to have to earn the right to be with them if somebody doesn't seem to fit that description why

are you thinking about being with them it's such an intimate such a personal thing but i need to bring sacredness to everything the ancient civilization known as lemuria life was sacred all of it there was no such thing as you know sacred gardening sacred sexuality sacred meal making cooking you know it would be foreign to them to think of it as not being sacred so they didn't have to name it healing everything was just in the zone although we did come to the earth and live in this place we maintained our

connection fairly well but mankind then falls more and more and more into illusion and delusion so at the end of the day you know where do we go where how do we bounce back from all of this love and forgiveness you know seeing yourself as somebody that can make mistakes i i try my best to you know um be a spiritual person be a patient person but i slip what do i do when i slip i forgive myself so this is important because we can talk the talk love and oneness and so on but when you're seeing human beings whether

they're acting nice or not nice whether they're attractive to you or not attractive to you the fact that you see another human being and think that you're seeing what you're seeing it's not true you're actually objectifying we think objectifying only applies from men to women and we think it's only about nice legs or body or whatever objectifying means that i'm a spiritual being who has lowered myself to seeing objects you're not actually there you're actually all each of

everybody on the planet mind you everybody throughout history every single one without exception is a being of light and some have forgotten and don't act like it some do remember and they become mystic saints masters and many in between those two so when when you see somebody and go wow pretty hot what has happened is i swear something in their soul i said everything's about longing for god something in that person's soul believe it or not woke up that day and said can anybody remind me who i really am

and how to get home i swear to you everybody's soul is asking that question can anybody remind me who i really am and how to get home they walk out the door and you uh whoo nice looking and they're like oh they get a false high which they were looking for a high in real real high like with god and instead you flattered them what you did was they called upon you to to answer their call and when all you saw was a body you told them that's all you are and that's why in my life i chose learn to say no before you say yes

when it comes to intimacy i don't mean getting a pattern of saying no i'm saying learn to say no meaning have the the what's really important is in here oh i have techniques i can really touch your body well i don't have a body what are you talking about you're already becoming suspicious to me you sound insane no you know body and my body and your body and we don't have bodies see they're going to dump you right away which is good good let them leave because what you really want to say is i

heard you and many have said that before can you touch my soul what are you talking about definitely leave okay leave you deserve better everybody's soul wants god and to go home so that's why there's a story which i've shared before but the beautiful in kahil gibran his book on jesus and he's talking about this story where a woman's by a well and and um she's gathering water and he shows up and she can feel him before he even arrives it's like that vibe you've gotten it from me you've got it

from each other we have some you know we can pick up on vibes at times it's like wow there's a strong presence there she turns and there's jesus and she's like just you know and this is a woman who's been um you know a woman of the night or whatever they would have called it at the time and um it's interesting because she's struggling for words but he still finds a way how are you how you know how are you reaches into the soul connection and because of her tendency to think of relating to men in an intimate way

that's what she does she says will you come home with me and he says why would i do that i already love you think about this and she's like okay but will you come home why i already love you i i heard you but would you like and she tries it a few times think of what's happening in the soul the soul is going we have all these addictions and propensities to say come home with me and that's my usual pattern when you step up and go wait i already love you i don't have to do anything because now if we're intimate i want to

bring the love to it and i don't have to but it becomes what a choice i don't have to marry everybody that i love because that's 8 billion people that's a lot of divorces a few days later guys i already love you love everyone don't move them all in with you because that becomes more like a you know just a preference but can i love everyone and because we think we have to all or nothing we think you know god wants us to love everyone we make it so absolute we don't feel like we can do it so we just narrow it down to a couple

acceptable people loving everyone doesn't mean you have to move it doesn't mean you have to justify their hurtful behaviors it means that despite the way you behave i refuse to hate you and i know that there's a spark of light in you that spark i love i don't dig your behaviors i'm not going to justify or defend your behaviors that's not the real you and if you knew who you really were you wouldn't be doing that so is it going to help me more to condemn what you do out of your ego self

or to find the real you that wouldn't do it by loving everyone at peace pilgrim once said and there is love and good in everyone by finding that you evoke it in them and we think we're here to go on fishing trips we think we're here to have you know certain job and retirement we're not and the fact that the world can show us how quickly it can collapse practically overnight pandemics and whatever else these are all temptations to take children of god and make them look outside and see problems so all of this the media all of this is

an egoic game global wide egoic game to tempt you to not see god anymore i am absolutely committed to seeing god news flash news flash and it's just so easy to get lost what i really want and i know this to be true you can say to yourself and i know this is absolutely true all i ever really wanted and want is god and the good news is i never left so i'm going to practice forgiveness because i have lots of evidence that i did leave so i'm going to forgive these things that tell me that i'm off that i'm separate from god

you we have to forgive the world that's showing itself to us because it's showing us we're not connected with god and that's behind everything um some of you for example asked one of you asked about shame what what is shame well do you want the psychological uh shame is like you have a layer of of let's call it a coating around your being and shame is when someone scratches that coating and exposes something yucky and that person that scratches that coating off that can conceal what you feel inside shames of things you've done

we hate those people that scratch it but they're just showing us the shame that was already there shame on you that word people love to put shame on each other but i don't have to take it on but i get mad when people shame me why because it's already there and you're just exposing it so all of our opinions of ourselves are actually incorrect i i don't care if they're a good one i'm a mummy or if it's oh i'm a total addict they're all incorrect i the only accurate description is i am a holy

child of god i just need to work on remembering now do i do a good job of that getting stoned all the time do i do it practicing forgiveness find what works for you really works and i would just say do it right why wouldn't you if it works to help you remember the truth of who you are there's nothing wrong with you taking you know the wide route i'm gonna you know do all kinds of things this to get home all roads will leave lead home eventually some are just longer and they're more painful the only question

is why do you want the painful ones well because shame tells me i don't deserve the straight track you know i i really want god but i'm going to sneak around you know it's like going home your parents are you know you know they're waiting up for you sneak through a window so they don't know you came home late i did that a couple of times um it just did it just never worked but you know like like one time i got home late and it was because i was at a party friends and all that and they're drinking and so so forth as you

know people do they're drinking and i'm not really into that so i end up being the designated driver except i don't have a car so i had to borrow the car of the girl whose house it was drive everybody home drive back to her house leave her her car and walk home okay when i got there i was late so uh my dad just said oh i'm not gonna say a word but i have a gift for you upstairs because we had phones in our bedrooms he just ripped the cord out of the wall and tied a bow around my phone he thought that was clever so

but you see it's it's for me this was the right thing to do i get home late i'm going to even take a hit for it but this was the right thing to do and that's what it really means to thine own self be true it doesn't mean your ego self to thine own divine self be true follow that course not of what god and religion tells you what do you know to be resonating with your real self date people that resonate with your highest good don't run and marry them right away because it may not be in your highest

good to rush to do anything pace yourself i don't mean procrastinate i just mean when it's organic chew your food you might be healthier if you chew your food thoroughly it's the same with anything else just when it's it doesn't mean you have to chew it for six hours one bite although cheesecake is kind of nice to roll around in there for a while but um so think about this it's it's easy i'm looking for an easier life they they have this thing where they talk the talk but they don't walk the

talk and they don't walk the walk and that's many of us it's not one person that's like that that we blame and when it comes to people channeling i just i remember people channeling higher dimensional beings but not living it at all but this was good because we know what they could say well that's the channeling that's all high and mighty and wonderful see they separate from the channel and i'm saying to you there was a time when there was not a lot of accessible you know channeling higher

dimensionality or higher consciousness however it came where that was accessible but nobody was integrating what they were channeling what's the next step the universe is going to say stop talking it you have to become it don't don't tell everybody about your 12-step program are you doing it yes then live it show it demonstrate it be it see not the doer but the be er and so it's the same for channeling higher dimensionality and that is not an easy thing which i've said before but guys if you yourselves are getting

inspirations getting insights creative spiritual ones books higher dimensional poems music anything of a higher nature i think it's fantastic because the other option was not receiving anything higher old the old way now you're receiving higher but i'm warning you that if you're receiving the higher you're going to hear a knock on the door soon from the universe saying and now you have to start becoming it well now wait a minute i was willing to channel you know for god and mankind but i don't

want any pressure like that it's a natural progression and it i swear it's not easy because it's not the common thing it's not what people are used to but you you we can't get away with faking it anymore you know the universe is going to say and and here's here's the barometer to this how high of a consciousness would you like you get to decide i want to i want to be like a brick then no people don't expect a whole lot of holiness out of me i'm just a brick then you say no i want to be kind of a

conscientious mommy you're going to be called on that i want to be a i want how high would you like to go and the higher you go the greater you can fall right the harder you fall or can you live it and i i was into this before i realized that was true i might have dialed it down a little bit because i was like oh my you know my life god teaching and all that in my 20s i was doing this and go wow i just feel it i get it and then the first time i went through the dark night of the soul i was like well now wait a minute

i'm holy i'm all spiritual how could this be happening because the universe is going to go how you doing why i feel really spiritual really let's find out flame flame flame burn you up you know and see what's left is there any gold left after all the base metals are separated but nobody explained that because it wasn't the old way i didn't have any teachers explaining these things to me i didn't have any say now about now dark knight the souls coming and hang in there it'll last x amount of time here's what you

should do while you go through it nobody explained it but i i learned the hard way by going through it and integrating the lessons i'm not saying and now a dark night of the soul would could be or would be fun but i at least i understand what it's all about the universe is going to call you at whatever your level you think you are it's going to call you on things you don't want to heal but are ready and needing to heal but it's also going to call you on your consciousness if you don't like that lay low

just say i'm going to be a sleeping human and i'm going to wait for all the saints to do the work and take me home through the 100th monkey theory that doesn't that doesn't actually work because there's no such thing as shortcuts with spirituality i know people think there is it's not going to work even if you're waiting for enough people to become enlightened so you get to be swept up along with them you get to write in their you know their wake or whatever you want to call it it doesn't

work that way you still have to be that consciousness yes it helps when other people are changing the vibrations you can't there's no free rides i'm waiting for all the teachers to to get the planet to ascend and i've heard this is a symbiotic thing if enough people ascend in consciousness the earth's gonna ascend and i just get to ride along you know i'm just gonna ride shotgun um you know man you'll be in the trunk with the spare tire and left when the car gets parked and everybody takes off

to a higher dimensionality where they don't need cars okay trying to wiggle you right out of the trunk and you've got to reincarnate on some other planet as a cockroach or whatever and start evolving again you know you got to start your evolutionary process again we're just it's not okay so we're going to get this the easy way or the hard way we are we're gonna get this we cannot ascend if we don't understand what love really is so if you've heard nothing that's one piece of today

that love to really understand it and really check whether i'm practicing it do i love everyone and remember this isn't like i'm just telling you you must i'm saying the logic and rationality is that god is love do you love god oh yes you're made in god's image so if you love god you must love yourself right sure and since everyone else is made in god's image you've got to love them too well now wait a minute if you can't go yes yes yes then you've got work more and more work

to do than maybe you realized which is okay forgive yourself for saying yes yes no forgive and then you'll get back to the yes but if you say no to yourself or to others or even to god any no involved here is going to become your tests and your work now so annoying people just become more annoying until you go i got to work on annoying people issues or whatever the case may be so it's yes yes yes that's one piece of what we want to make sure we have and the second piece of what i talked about today guys we've got we've got to walk

the walk the talk we've got to walk it we've got to live it and i'm saying the universe is going to make sure we do so the easy way or the hard way and this wasn't in any rule book i was given as a kid it wasn't explained and now i totally understand it the thing with me is that i go well on a 0 to 10 scale if i can just maybe i've been an eight or a nine maybe i could knock it down to a seven and i don't have to go through as many tests or challenges and you know in life right but as soon as i know there was a nine

i'm gonna go to a nine that's me i'm not gonna go okay i'm okay being a seven you know knowing that i'm capable of more that's me i'm telling you you get to choose yours some of you are being called to be spiritual teachers some of you are being called to add new levels of poetry whatever it's going to be it's like the the beatles talked about oh the day george harrison said i was so grateful the first time after six years of music the first time a song didn't go to number one

he goes we were like oh thank god like what a weird thing to be grateful for he's like the pressure is off they're not all well it's okay and that's a strange thing to feel grateful for but that's how it is for us too don't put unnecessary pressure if you don't feel like you're ready to continue working on this and if you don't ascension is too much for me to think about let me work on my diet then do that whatever you do do well and do it with god i've always thought that make a great

bunk bumper sticker do it with god um you know right be a lot of valentine gifts you know people giving their partners put this on your car please um so think about this please from the topic of intimacy to to oh you know even jealousy like jealous of what the jealousy would mean i have an emptiness and someone else is filling it in a way that i don't know how so i'm jealous of them they're doing that for you in a way i don't know how or they're just doing it better than me compared to me to them

and i don't know what to do with that all of this guys it's all really a call for god when you're jealous you're really wanting god but you don't know how to get it it looks like someone else does so you don't like them but see it's all about the call for god please get this your desire to be here today your desire for lunch you desire for some water your desire for intimacy start thinking of it you don't have to voice this to anybody but get it in here and say this is all really

god all i really want is god why because that's all there really is and i'm part of that so i accept it and i'm home and now you find that you you have a smoker you don't and i'll close with this because i've shared this story before but this happened to me once because i know these things but i'm like you know i arrived one time in anchorage alaska on tour and you know a course in miracles puts this whole thing in this context here's a picture a frame and a picture humans tend to look at the frame and

miss the point you're looking for bodies when you should be looking for souls you're looking for life on earth when you should be looking for god the frame is just a frame it's only sort of a you know a holding thing and when you look at bodies you're actually looking at the frame and you're missing the point but that is not by accident it's your compulsion it's your addiction to seeing the frame it's your fear of seeing what's inside the frame this is what we're really hearing we're afraid

of going home because we think we're flawed and god's going to punish us or whatever else you might believe so one time i'm walking anchorage alaska i arrived at my gate i'm walking to the outside to get you know the people pick me up and guys all of a sudden there was this wow it was like the cartoons when the you know the dog would go floating after the you know uh the the scent oh my god it it was it was um cinnabon you know i walk this life going i am centered in god i am one with all and i'm like

suddenly cinnabon was more important than anything on the planet it's sweeter than god it's sweet like oh you know because how do you go wrong with sugar cinnamon and bread it's like oh my god this is and butter oh you know so i'm like oh my god so i'm like and i just sent it i couple steps and i went god this is funny that's funny laugh and i went like this i said you know all i really want is god and this is just my symbol for right now this is i mean i'm it's true this is true that

this works it's true that that's all i really want is god so i pause and say oh i really and yet right now cinnabon's also looking pretty good tasting pretty feeling pretty good so i just say you know what god seek first the kingdom and all else so i swear to god this happened i went okay god all i really want is you a couple breaths god's perfect holy presence then god's gonna say now the other is just up to you you did the only thing that matters now what would you like to do and i actually

lost the interest for a moment of cinnabon like i didn't go get one which is strange because we can easily go now that i did the god thing i can go get three cinnabons one for each of the trinity you can spiritualize it you know you know you can the elohim is seven i'll get seven cinema you can justify it any way you want but guys i got what i really wanted and i felt full try that in intimate relations you know you were asking if we could be intimate it's our anniversary etc and i was really yes and i said yep i can't

wait tonight we're going to do this and and you know then i meditated so i feel pretty good thanks you know that's not going to go over that well um however you you could still say yes to that but your job would be i'm going to bring more god to this moment and i swear the intimacy will be far more fulfilling than with everything else you might try okay dress your husband up as a maid or whatever you think is sexy a french maid you know whatever you think look at her response dude she's like she's going no

you've already tried that okay none of the outside matters this is all that matters because this is all that is please try the exercise please try the the experiment of putting that on that everything's really about god you know i like this song i'm going to turn it up what you're really looking for is god and then turn it up if you like but what you're really looking for is god i need to cry i need to scream i'm angry i'm going to vomit it's all a longing for god and after all my tears i left room

inside of myself i should be filling it up with god or also i'm going to build more tears even your worst rages why did hitler do what he did to people you think it was all about the politics and weirdness the public says or in history he says no there was something in israelites people of israel that he didn't feel in himself you go and kill and and molest and hurt other people because you see a light in them that you don't believe you have so you become angry and you hurt them that's what it's

about the guy that shot john lennon wanted something from him that he couldn't feel in himself so you try to take it from others that's what violence and hurtfulness is countrywide you know a country is as well we don't feel something we're going to take it from someone else it doesn't work because they're not even there okay and by the way by the way our ukrainian guests there's another person i'm not going to name who they are he knows who he is he's also ukrainian so he might be able to step over and say

hello to you folks if he chooses to do that okay it may not be the right time and place but it's there please take a few moments to center in we're not going to do a lengthy meditation because we've gone you know up to the time but we're just going to do a closing prayer beloved father mother god i recognize that in so many different ways i have looked for love in all the wrong places and i should have been choosing to be the love in all the right places and let's meditate that concept look at

how many different ways i have sought love and all the that means sought approval sought a raise at work sought more success to look better all of these we're looking for love in all the wrong places we're not going to get on and judge ourselves just see it and own it looking for love in all the wrong places god what was i thinking all the intimacies they were not going to be able to give me what i was looking for first of all because i'm not missing it i just think i am and if i think i'm missing something the

only place it can be corrected is in my thinking my beliefs looking for love in all the wrong places be honest about where that has shown up and then i'm now choosing to be the love in all the right places take just one minute of imagining what that would look like i am choosing to be the love in all the right places how would that change the way you live how you interact what you eat how you see yourself being the love in all the right places can you look in the mirror and pick on yourself about your looks if you're

being loved in all the right places i sought my twin soul and i found it now it's me if i'm made in the image of god how could i be looking for anything outside myself and we close by giving thanks for everyone and everything that we've ever done that was a symbol of looking and being the love in all the right places because we've all pulled it off at least once i'm grateful that i was there for that person that needed a tissue and hug i'm grateful that i was able to pay something forward in the grocery line

for somebody that is being the love in all the right places i totally get it i'm totally grateful that i got this right and a quiet couple of breaths just integrating everything i heard today that felt right for me is becoming me i'm drawing it in and assimilating it the way i do nutrients from foods i'm soaking it in i'm breathing it i get this it's not something i was told today it's something that i am i get it and we own that and gradually stretch out when you're ready anytime anybody has been kind to you

anytime anybody has you know hugged you made love in the right consciousness or you them god bless we're all going to get to that place where the your your average meal becomes a sacred serving everything guys everything back to god humans have their strangeness they have their jealousies they have their triggers they project onto you high school they did it or junior high or wherever today um little people with little minds you know forgive them they know not what they do find the love you know in all the things you've done

in the past look and look for where you did things right you were really coming from the right place and see that it was a search for god you know i i slept around a lot it was a search for god you can't shame it it was a search for god how about answering the search now instead of a searcher you know a finder all right allow yourself off the hook all the quest for money oops now i know what i really wanted and i have it all right thank you all right please stand for our closing prayer we don't use a gong usually at the end

but i i just am in the mood so yes breathe into that sound let it take you deeper inside [Music] thank you thank you thank you thank you god for being what you are thank you for creating me in your holy image and your continued patience while i remember this in myself and thank you god for creating everyone else in your holy image help me to forgive myself for every time i saw it differently all human beings around the planet all human beings throughout all time all space all dimensions and throughout the universe beings from the highest

vibration to the lowest vibration all genders all creatures please forgive me i forgot for so many lifetimes who you really are in truth i love you peace to you all i release you all from the bondage and the membrane density limitation i love you i was mistaken we're all free and i know this and i affirm this to be true but from a knowingness it is god's will divine mother come to us all now and release us from the bondage release us from the density show us who we really are and let us dance in delight in remembrance of who we really are

i love you and thank you the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is thank you all peace be with you please remember you're welcome remember the workshop but the bookstore is open and be sure to to share a little greetings and smiles with each other as well thanks guys