Wishing Versus Becoming

we're getting close to New Year's but you know even if this were July anytime is a good time to change our lives for the better obviously and you know there are times when people are sort of you know feeling hopeless and whether it's the the fatigue of a holiday season or whether it's just life stuff there's you know there's sometimes a heaviness that goes with life and when that happens I mean this is the best of us you can say well I can't deal with it or whatever but remember just to remember it helps

put it in perspective when you understand it's a test now it's not God testing us that's what religion teaches which is okay because there's a time and place for that but it's actually our own soul saying we're looking to become what God created us to be and we forgot that identity and we forgot how to live and think and feel like that divine being so the soul our own soul is saying so here's what we ought to do we oughtta we had to go through a few tests and refine and become clearer and higher in

consciousness that's what that's about so there isn't a even though the some of us say well you got to get beyond being a victim this is the true meaning of that I'm saying you can't actually be a victim in a conscious universe you can only be a victim if you're in an unconscious universe where nobody knows what anything you know how anything is happening why it's happening or who's doing it waking up and taking responsibility is huge but people still think that that means blame that's that's kind of a primitive

interpretation of responsibility and the reason it's such a primitive and ongoing interpretation perversion of an interpretation you know blame is associated with responsibility is because the human ego does not want us to take responsibility because if you do you wake up you don't take responsibility and go to hell that's what blame would do so the initial concept of maybe I should take respondent better not it you know immediately blame comes in here the word here the word just hear the word and muscle test yourself

responsible you know like it doesn't go well you know responsibility carries with it this concept of guilt and shame you need to be responsible you know the whole thing whether it's work parents I mean just generally was taught to have a hard harsh negative connotation to it instead we're looking for this other beyond blame beyond because the ego wants to stand there with the word blame flashed in your head when you hear the word responsibility so that you do not proceed further instead you have to go

away wow just cut through the thin powerless piece of paper that says blame and it means if I take responsibility then that means I can actually choose to wake up and the egos gonna say ah okay I didn't want you to go that far but if you're going to I'm still gonna try to harass you because if you try to choose to wake up you know you have to also choose that you've been asleep you got to take responsibility you know what were you thinking I mean congratulations I'm all for you waking up which it isn't

but it'll say that any I'm all for it it's can say but you know before you wake up I'm just curious where have you been and the best line and what have you been doing because we have records you know a file it flips through the file a little too much drinking mm-hmm oh you've been naughty we got dossiers on everybody you've ever slept with you know and so on you know your energy is tainted didn't you know that being intimate with creepy people leaves you tainted you can't get to

heaven like that but we have some beautiful parting gifts hell on earth until next time you can come back and maybe you'll get it right next time and it never intends on letting us get it right because all you have to do is be abused or misused or betrayed or whatever one time and go god I hate my mom adapter doing that move and that's it and it's gonna already start a new file on you you you don't this is the Church of you don't stand a chance and though you don't you do not stand a

chance of getting home with the ego as your guide it has no intention I mean remember there's a logical reason for that if you wake up you won't be dreaming of an ego anymore so if you wake up there's no ego so it has to try to keep you asleep that it's totally invested I mean see it it's life and death so that's why a Course in Miracles explains the ego as a vicious character in our mind and that's where we you know played out the hole the devil concept this mean vicious devil and really all

it is is a caricature of our fear of waking up but partly we're afraid partly because before you're allowed to wake up you have to confront yourself for the times you weren't awake and that feels like blame again so I don't want to do that I just instead want to work really slowly at growing in consciousness and along the way blame as many people as I can for my not being awake and I want to get away with that as much as possible so then we create a pseudo forgiveness listen I have been Awakening and several

people are responsible for my not being awake but I decided to forgive you see and that sounds really good it actually sounds reasonable but it isn't because what you've just done is still reestablished again locked in again that other people are capable of keeping you down I'm not saying people aren't hurtful and don't try to keep it up I'm saying the responsibility of we allow it the opposite would be responsibility and boundaries obviously I start to say well you know even if anybody ever did seem to have

power to affect my self-esteem I think I'm gonna stop that now and that's starting a new life starting a new day drives the ego nuts cuz it's like what no what are you doing I'm gonna choose God as my guide and you know what God keeps telling me I'm actually innocent of all things I'm actually a pure light being that he goes like wait looking through its files and wait wait trying to catch up to figure out how to mess that idea up so being born again we hear about that term the phrase being born again being born again

is not like a cliche that it became being born again is something everybody has to do every day they can not just once if there's if there's a once that we could say it's when you decide to get on the path more consciously but it isn't just once it's really daily I mean it really is it could be several times per day but certainly there are pivotal moments in our awakening you know pivotal moments where we say I'm getting it wow I'm getting it wow oh wow I'm getting you know inspirational reading

starts downloading like epiphanies and aha or moments of dramatic hurts where you say this is that's enough man this has got to stop this relationship and even if unify I'd rather be alone I'd rather be alone just that is healthier to me meaning any of us sometimes we just say I'd rather be alone then dysfunctional II with someone you know just it takes courage you're really I mean spiritual path takes courage we sort of keep thinking it's just like this all this blissful thing because

people you know they sometimes portray it you know that that whole manifests what you want you know you can have everything's exciting all the time you know but Jesus counters that he has a perspective in the Gospel of Thomas which I've shared with you a couple of times where he says and I'm paraphrasing when you get on the path you know instead of you'll start to create your own chariot you know or your own car but chariot knows did you know you get to create your own reality what he says instead was

you know the old seek and you shall find well he actually says in the Gospel of Thomas seek and you will become disturbed because as soon as you start seeking you have to find yourself and that's not good because first I'm gonna find not the Holy me I'm gonna find the dysfunctional codependent addictive avoidant self now you stay on the path and that will start clearing and you'll find the Christ self beyond the shadow of who you we think we are so there's these stages there's these layers and

stages and and humans sit around wishing something were different which is a way to avoid responsibility so humans god I wish I you know even what you call manifestation visualization techniques it's still wishing it is still wishing because you're still even though you're calling it I'm affirming I have that new car and some teachers will have you and imagine the leather and the smell of the leather you know you can feel the definitely Beamer or Mercedes or rolls-royce and feel the quality of the

car and they get you all into that just picture yourself laying on the hood you know wow what a shine they want you to get real visceral about the manifestation but you are technically still wishing because you have not done this with God yet you're still talking about you wanting something so they call it creative visualization techniques but it's actually not creative at all it's manipulative because you're trying to manipulate the universe and get something you want yeah I see that partner you know yeah they're their mind

you know in the old days it would be Robert Redford then it became Kevin Costner and then you keep trading in your actors of who you know who you want to see yourself dating hi Brad you know I see you're available now again so why you want to visualize somebody that keeps going through partners I don't know you know if you're gonna visualize get somebody you know who's solid man but anyway that's visualization and it's still wishing why cuz humans wish masters choose spirits embody so spirit spirits spirit it

doesn't like sit around wishing and it doesn't even have to choose because spirits so clear there's not even a choice there's only love there's only healthiness and you and I are capable of doing that but a little too much too soon so let's back off and let's go back to the first yeah wishing how about we start working on not wishing for things anymore don't wish that you didn't get divorced don't wish that you had married the other person don't wish that your children hadn't done drugs in whatever

don't wish that you had taken a different job don't bother wishing and some people they're forgetting this when you wish even if you're wishing you had not married a hurtful person or partnered with a hurtful person because you're still wishing a wish related to the person you're still hooked to them snip snip snip cut the cords snip but if I cut the cords I'm gonna be responsible in too bad breathe you know snip snip snip snip all the wishing don't wish for the negatives to be gone

and not happen and don't wish for positives because masters don't wish and spirit doesn't wish I know it sounds negative I like wishing you know and that's why your life is messed up get out of wishing for wishing means it isn't and I wish it were which means it's perpetually not because you're still wishing so masters choose so you do things like a we'll talk about this maybe tomorrow well you know at the end of the year or at the end of a cycle of your life when you want to make some

changes make a list man people talk about bucket lists because that's part of wishing I'm gonna make my bucket list and go and get get get manifest forget it because people made it a wonderful you know fortune out of telling people how to manifest the lives they want but they still forgot to tell him to do it with God if you're not doing it with God then you're not actually creating at all you're still wishing that's why when I teach manifestation or visualizations you guys know I tell you connect with God and

then visualize so that it's spirit guiding your visualization instead of you the little I am the little I am not you know ego self so we get out of wishing and we start to realize okay wait if that didn't go well instead of wishing it didn't and wishing something that would you know what I'm gonna do I'm gonna choose I'm gonna choose to let go of what didn't go well I'm gonna write it on my list of it's like a bucket list but I'm gonna write my list of things not just things I wish

for I'm gonna write anything that I saw and caught myself wishing had happened or not had happened I'm gonna write them all down and I'm gonna say goodbye to them one at a time it's like the burning bowl ceremony and and it takes responsibility and courage because when you do it again we'll get into more this tomorrow but when you do it part of what you're saying is for example if there's something you wish you hadn't done one of the things you're going to change is you can stop talking about it well no I

don't want that so you're taking away their heroin I like the feeling of saying I wish and blaming somebody else when you have to say okay I keep wishing I could take that other job then why don't you take it well because I wish they did this different I wish they did you're still wishing okay so take the job but I'm not sure if I want the job okay take it or don't take it but stop talking yeah but the yeah but religion has to go so you need to stop talking about it step it see bucket list would mean go

and do it no this mastery list is to say you choose do it or you will not do it if you do not do it you chose to not do it don't say well Michael made me on that list don't blow it you chose own it you chose to nothing sorry you chose to not do it and but I wish I hadn't oh here we go again so then don't don't do the process and be a master if you're not ready to wake up go back to whining and wishing that's fine but when you are ready it does take a bit of courage it really does you might

go I know it sounds like you do it and you'll start to see wait I wrote down that job I'm gonna not take it or whatever other thing you're hoping for it wishing for that job I'm gonna not take it but but I might change my mind you're gonna commit to not talking about it until the day you might change your mind you're going to vow to drop the subject but but I'm see what you're doing is you're hedging and that's weak because you're acting like in case God doesn't come through and in case this

doesn't go I think I better be ready to just jump you know for safety that's not a person who's empowered so you have to sit with that and say I'm gonna I'm gonna write I'm gonna go ahead and do that I'm gonna go ahead and not do that you don't have this ache in my toe and it could be gulped it could be this or that or bless you this or that or the other will go get it checked out well no because I'm afraid of what they'll say okay then don't get it checked out ever

and stop talking about it no but I like whining it gives me something to talk about gout I'm gonna write an ode to gout Oh gout Ogawa's what are you about and so hands on you know okay then write then write it and get it out and stop talking about it again see it's really sounding easy but it is not so easy because there's something it's called ego but there's some you have an investment in the darkness and a master says no no no choose I'm going to choose to let it go let's say you have a list of 10

then my suggestion would be do the things you can do go do them finally be done go do it I don't care what it is go clown climb Mount Everest well I always wanted to then go do it well you know but they will let me cuz I'm 103 now and it's they said it's against my health you know best hell then don't do it but I wish I could have you know what but you're not going to so write it on your list I will not in this lifetime be climbing Mount Everest and burn it and never discuss it again which to some people

all that so disempowering Michael you're supposed to be telling people nothing's impossible I didn't say anything's impossible I said you're just not probably gonna be doing it now so let it go because when you let go of wishing it recycles as a new energy and become something that more likely you will do but humans don't get that they love to belabor things they love to leak energy in every direction but the one they're going so we can make a choice so masters choose again humans wish for dot dot dot masters

choose and then spirits become they just are and that of course is fantastic so people say I want that I want that one I want to just be you cannot be spirit yet you will not become divine beings yet not until you learn to first be a master you don't go from human to God it doesn't work it doesn't happen all the greatest teachers would understand that and support what I just said you do not come from human to divine you become a master first now I don't mean a master looks a certain way white robe you know

a turban orsa I don't mean like literally and nor do people have to call you master I just mean that you've mastered the basics of this illusion that you understand in a nutshell if you were if there were a test are you a master yes the way they would test you is do you take responsibility no responsibilities no master no master you're a human and humans are messed up because humans are the embodiment of thinking that they're non divine to be human is an affirmation that I'm not divine how in every way possible the

fact that you age and spirit doesn't the fact that you're here and not over there when spirit is everything and everywhere everything about being human is a statement of limitation or non God consciousness you must become demigod before God we must become lowercase G's gods and goddesses before the complete divine and that's like saying masters so don't preach and teach don't use the the flippantly the I'm a master I'm a God goddess you can't say that until you learn responsibility and responsibility

will mean you start making choosing powers you start using that choice power choosing is my life so this becomes what we call integration so so humans talk it they talk and wish humans choose now you can think okay how do I do that empowered choice kind of thing how do I do that it's it's it can be entailed and layered and complicated but it can also be simple for example when we see that something's happening in our lives learning you don't have to say I chose Wow someone just betrayed me I chose

that you know that's too far what you can do is say if I played a part in this at all if there was any lessons whatsoever for me in this not blame if there are any things I could learn from this what might they be in do you see what I just did by using a hypothetical what if I already am getting more comfortable stepping into it to see how I might make a different choice because if I could say well the person betrayed but you know when I think about it I saw it coming and I didn't want to think that I saw it but now that I now that I

think about it there was the you know they were walking around the house sharpen there were pictures on their dartboard of me you know I I could have caught on and and that may not be easy for you because you know you felt like you were in love and so on I understand but it's not easy but you've just stepped into mastery and that's that's huge you're halfway to God that's huge so again the humans don't tend to like to do that but there are simple day-to-day things we can do to kind of

move ourselves in that direction choice-making how might I have made a choice to go this direction instead of that direction oh wait I forgot to ask for guidance that day you know I forgot to start the day with guidance there we go and you start doing that now I'm choosing to learn something and I'm choosing to change something choosing that concept is choose there's this concept of free will but we gave up our free well when we resigned everything to the ego we gave the ego power of attorney over our lives we did upon

separation to cover our tracks and not take responsibility we said the devil made me do it and that's why we blame the ego and then the ego took an embodiment called the devil so we say oh you know the devil is tempting me the devil's isn't that it can't tempt anything that you haven't shown it to be open to hey listen here's a target why why does everybody keep throwing things that this might cheat my heart cuz you have a target take out the target you know it's like it's lit that could be

that simple so we've we've assigned these roles to even the ego is it's an excuse but at least it's a term that doesn't get personalized to a Satan or whatever you know double instead it's the ego whose ego Oh mine see it brought me back to here even that there's my ego involved so everything in life is about lessons and tests or the gifts from the lessons and tests that we passed so masters don't go God if only I had gifts from the universe and then they start affirming I am open to all the gifts

from the universe because I deserve it it's still the ego I am and it's still demanding things so it'll get some things and say I'm gonna write a book about getting things cuz I did it and then people are gonna go home they got without taking responsibility they just demanded it from the universe that's all you need if you just have to know how to demand things from the universe that's what some of these teachers say and they're off their rocker because what is the universe you're demanding it from my mind doesn't

end in my skull it goes to the farthest reaches of the universe when I demand from something to give me I'm still talking to me and I can play games with myself I can do that I can manipulate matter and then call it God giving me a car but I never even called on God I just demanded it and said I am God so the ego has enthroned itself to demand things from the universe that it still thinks is a separate thing we have to realize if I don't have something I haven't yet understood that I deserve it and I don't deserve it because I

demanded it I deserve it because of the truth of who I am and I can't get to the truth of who I am while my mind is cluttered with lots of what I am NOT and that's why healing and emptying my cup is important before I try to refill my cup who is doing this it's all me if we could go back knowing what we know today as kids we can go back and be kids and our parents say what do you think the universe revolves around you you can go yeah yeah it's amazing it really does you know and you're just a voice of

doubt within my mind be gone no so mastery is this bridge we wake up we take responsibility and we choose because free will was given to the ego so you know what you have to do take it back no no you have to choose it back you have to exercise the power of choice that's what all the great teachers are saying but not maybe always in a way that people really get it there's God there's human and in between the chooser edgar cayce says spirit is the source mind is the builder the physical is just the result so of course in Miracles is

saying the same thing the physical is just a reflection of what the chooser my mind who I believe I am who I am choosing to believe I am today and if I don't choose to understand who I am the best way to find out is ask God instead of let me think about this no thinking is what got you into the problem just let go of your opinions and thinking and say you know I don't know show me God I think I know cuz I've read all kinds of books and I've studied and I got a degree or whatever you think you're

proud of it's best shred um Burnham toss them and say I don't know don't bring a cup that has stuff in it and expect a complete transformation when it gets refilled because it only gets to fill up what you haven't already filled it yeah so emptying the cup I don't know I don't know anything if you read A Course in Miracles like the the the you know now there's a couple versions of the course they're all consistently the same somewhat but there are some that include more of the diary

notes and stuff of Helen who was processing is Jesus is talking to her but it's an amazing thing because Jesus unloads on everybody it's like nobody's safe in a good way but mind you she was a clinical psychologist so Jesus goes after Freud and everybody you know Freud had a really good idea he said this in this but he really missed the boat on this you know what because he was afraid of his own divinity so the reason Freud designed this whole psychological profile for people to analyze themselves

is so they wouldn't go to God they would just start stereotyping each other just so they can have a distance like a thing to talk about between you and divinity and he said you know why because he was so afraid of his own divinity pretty cool bridging you know getting across the bridge the chooser mind is the Builder as Cayce said spirit is the source the rest is this the result so there's really only one problem if you want to say there's one in between there's the problem the chooser if the

physical emotional self is just the result you're only depressed or sad alone financially struggling physically ill whatever's happening on the human level did not happen by itself we think that the world made things happen and it doesn't it's actually just a screen you know it's weird you can't walk into a theatre and go that screen is evil it's just a screen what are you going to see on the screen whatever you choose as the movie to project onto the screen that's how this world works we only see what

we're choosing unconsciously most of the time choosing to see on the screen and humans walk around going oh they walk up and pet the screen when they see somebody they love oh I love you you two dimensional image of whomever you know it doesn't make any sense or blame I'm terrified white because jaws is on the screen you know it's like it's actually a picture and there's little film going through the machine or video or laser now or whatever it's just imagery projected onto the screen in humans just

like in the theatre they get all freaked out you know they get all freaked out about these kinds of things and they take it as though it's real they respond to it is so as though it's real and that should tell you something about the evolution of mankind they're high and low based on what's on a movie screen now that may sound like I'm you know exaggerating Believe It or Not what you see on the news is still a movie screen even when it's three-dimensional people misbehaving it's just as much a movie

screen as anything else a movie sure it's a three-dimensional hologram movie but it's still just a movie and humans don't get it so I can start to see that instead of going my reality is based on film instead we can say oh no wait a minute I'm a chooser change the video and even when you put on a nicer video you have to realize they're still just videos so you go from a nightmare to a happy dream video but even the happy dream has to become something that when the film goes off and you close your eyes you're still

able to feel happiness even when no film is running that's when you know you're reaching levels of mastery this world is very tempting it's tempting to believe in this world it looks like it has all kinds of power and and you know manipulative abilities and it doesn't have it it's just a film it's just a screen but it's been made to look very real masters are saying you know despite the way this looks I'm choosing to surrender my interpretation to God and asking for a divine interpretation of

everything that could be everything from struggling with bills to partnerships this is the way it looks but show me how you see things I'm going to share something with you that I wrote down here so that I get it from memory kind of right but a few nights ago I had this really trippy dream vision alright now in a nutshell this is kind of out there in a way but in a nutshell I was shown this this a world where there's obviously like a past present and future but I was shown how the leaders of the world download into everyone's mind a

video of probability of how they would have reacted if something happened so bear with me there's leaders of the world and what they do is download into the world first they they projected into your mind what if there was a catastrophe how would you react oh I would be like this ok and they record it without you knowing it now they project then onto the film onto the screen into your mind as though it happened and already know how you're going to react so the world is run like this where people are then programmed to

react a certain way if you were to show a different reaction than what they wanted they would try and switch it to a different film they will make sure that the world responds the way they want them to respond it's kind of strange so the future was already limited because your reactions were already predictable you see what I'm saying so into the world it's like a strange sci-fi movie they would only show people videos of their negative responses and then they encourage them to be afraid of how they

reacted and therefore remaining in that behavior see so there's the leaders of the world in this vision I have the leaders of the world projecting things recording people's responses and then running the world accordingly this is how you'll respond to a B and C not choosing a different response not choosing not empowered choice automatic pilot and so I was watching this in this kind of vision that was happening and I realized wait so the future was already predictable because not only are they showing you films that scare people what

I'm saying is they're already also showing you your reactions ahead of time it's already predicted your reactions are already recorded and being downloaded into your mind and you think you're you're actually responding things in the moment but it's already recorded and pre played you know replayed back to us and if someone tries to think outside the box and improve their life or the lives of anyone else they're taken and forcefully downloaded more negativity and this is the way the world keeps us

from seeing our innocence because it records a possible reaction but remember so the world which is the ego and the evils of the world and in the movie the neverending story it's well portrayed because the Eve that runs the world that's taking over and destroying the world is called the nothing but there's also this evil like wolf character that's stepping in and sort of acting like it's in charge because it says when people are afraid they're easily too controlled so really then nothing is doing this and that's

what the ego is it's nothing it fears are really nothing so even when we talk about fear and illness I'm saying this is how this is working and it was downloaded and I wish I could just transfer the vision straight down to paper or talk but it's so many layers to it and so many epiphanies but I'm looking at this as it's happening in the wee hours and I was just absorbing watching this going wow because it's it's saying the world as you see it isn't actually happening it isn't

actually there you're being shown videos but not just videos videos of what you're predictable negative responses would be to anything you're not even being shown fairness like your positive could have been or your negative it's generally running on negatives when somebody says let's change videos that's not going to go over well and what I was watching in this sci-fi kind of movie or vision his I was going well the thing is now and you understand the metaphor I was aware of what was happening which is the

metaphor of white can talk about this because I am aware of what's happening but but even in myself I could see okay now I'm aware this is happening be careful not to say it too much in the vision be careful not to let the leaders of the world know that you know so play along a little bit play alone don't get them too suspicious you know because you want to get crucified yet so you see so but when you're waking up and your family gets all funky with you that is it's a mini version of the leaders of

the world retaliating saying don't question this you can imagine just a lot of sci-fi movies or movies being done like this people that travel through time and they have a different awareness and that world doesn't want them to bring that awareness through things like that so I was realizing wait if if I'm getting this right and these are things I've talked about the illusion and Feldmann but it was just downloaded to a new level of really getting it not wishing nor even choosing but actually

becoming getting it and it was so visceral and so integrated so I was going wow wait a second I see it first of all and I see how this is working and I see the mechanics of it it's kind of like we're all without knowing it being brought in for an interview shown different outcomes to movies that's what they do with some films they show an audience a special audience like a film ending what did you think of the ending and then sometimes they'll alter the film to be that ending because they know

that's the one the audience better responded to right TV shows they try out with you know a little controlled audience and they go WOW you know and they they thought a show was funny but it didn't come off so they out of the laughs trap to the show and it took off to number one they can tell by interview so it's like that the ego is constantly without us knowing it tapping into our minds giving us previews of different outcomes two things the one that's the most terrifying limiting and continuing of our old patterns is the

one it ends up pulling then it will download it down to the universal level meaning the world the global level and we'll all whichever one of those the most of us agreed to meaning became afraid to is the one that's going to be portrayed in the world on the news today and it doesn't have to do anything it already knows how we're going to react to those things those incidents you know what they need today they need to hear that the economy is crashing and work that for several months and then there's

hope but it's already decided to get false hope no I would not give you false hope on this strange and mournful day remember that song you know yeah it's like just some kind of hope please why do you think word your pressed why do you think everybody's got to medicate themselves and that's part of the matrix do that's part of the game no hope so let's get you drugged with drugs you can't afford even though you're paying insurance companies that cash in on everything you blink your

eyes in the catching they like everything that's so unfair god that's exhausting isn't it it is oh now I need more medication so there's the self-perpetuating eco program in the world and masters because somebody said to me you know when I was talking about this vision they said well then what do you do I mean if you let the universe know you got it it's just gonna crash in on you faster and try to destroy the way you the fact that you know what do you do and it comes back to things I've said

before know the truth but respect the illusion you play along a little bit I don't mean play along in the illusion like as a negative character but you play along meaning you realize guys you don't have to eat it's part of the program but go ahead and eat anyway because there are parts of where a course in miracles' Jesus is gonna say this is all true he's saying what I'm what I'm telling you today he's saying this is all true but it's truth that is terrifying to you because it's coming

from the place that created fear in this world anyway which is the ego self so there's not like a quick fix where you go oh wait Michael said this and now we're all awake it's a process peeling off layers after layers do you want the band-aid slowly or quick that's choice but you've got to be willing to accept the work on that I'm going to unveil my illusions my belief systems that are old and ready to be released how I'm going to hear a talk about it that's called the easy way if you go and hear a talk

like this today and you go wow that really made sense and I'm gonna start applying that that's called the easy way because you chose to apply it you know when the hard way kicks in when you've heard it and you know it's right and you chose not to do anything with it it's still coming because your soul I said god that was brilliant your self is like noir no oh no no this Souls like come on let's go no no well you can go kicking or screaming or or you can walk which would you like to do the

human self tends to say I can't do it no way I'm too afraid and the soul says I have an idea I'm gonna plan something in your life that'll bring you there the hard way then but it still was my choice I could have done this the easy way and the soul is not trying to hurt me it's just that the soul goes hey did you get that download that was amazing all we need to do is a B and C ready here we go and the human says no the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak and the soul says I can't the soul says

I know you can I know you can so we're gonna do this the easy way or the hard way honey what which would you like you can get up and say this makes sense let me let me let me breathe and I'm gonna implement this a little at a time okay the ego the soul is gonna say that's fine it's a little at a time I'm good with that stagnate or try to go backwards and I will launch you into that new life screaming you know and that's when you go through the dark night of the soul that's one of the reasons we do the dark

neither souls because we just put things off and put things off and put things off so they end up you know exploding in our face more or less so imagine this concept imagine this just let your imagination play with it you don't accept it as true per se but imagine the possibility what if it's true that on some level there is an intelligence that's not so intelligent called the ego it's not love based intelligence like wisdom it's just very clever and what it's doing is substantiating its reality

because it isn't real it has to do a lot of things to make it seem real how because it's been given power of attorney it gets to do anything to try to run our lives our minds so it says let me test this okay you guys are kind of afraid of such-and-such great let me run some programs of that in this world because I already know how you're gonna react to it and I love keeping fear alive so like the neverending story the the big nothing you know come sweeping in keeps everybody afraid and then we create

people humans that have enough ego to know how to step up and say I'm gonna run this crazy world and then we blame them I don't like the president I don't like the senator I don't like the leader of this through that or whatever happens to be their only stepping into a position where they can see you're vulnerable you're susceptible the people are afraid enough to vote for me and when they're not there are people that have been in positions like that they can make things happen on the news to

make you then have to vote for them people vote for you know certain people politicians just so the other one doesn't win at times that's what they do they don't say what resonates what seems like a person that is gonna most embody God and they don't have to because nobody's asking for that criteria if humans would say I'm looking for somebody that embodies God that's where the power is gonna be because that person wants that position now they would start having to act more like that

but humans don't choose it they don't step up and take responsibility and say it would be amazing if the United States could say you know strange thing happened at the pulse 95 percent of the people chose not to vote which is a statement you're all nuts and we won't pick any of you that would be empowering but even when there's only people we're gonna complain about you still get a large showing at the polls which means people are reacting again so for me I have to say well I don't want to choose

things out of fear right everyone in this room everybody watching has had a moment where they said I don't want to make any rash decisions well it's the same thing except on a spiritual level I don't want to make any decisions that come from fear so I'll abstain until I feel the guidance and the guidance is going to be when something locks into the light of God that starts to turn me on so even when I was a kid I would I would listen to songs I mean I immediately if a song had meaning I'd go

you know it's like it just me up like wait what was that I don't even know the band could have been hard rock and it could have been mellow could have been pop when I heard something with consciousness it always grabbed my attention that's how we're supposed to be so the world that's got this program that I was describing in this vision Believe It or Not what that all means is it's a program that I was tested on then when I tested negatively that's when the University the ego universe threw it

into my life because it knew how I was going to react and I did react so then it affirms that this thing is real but the video that was chosen was all done based on a hypothesis of how I was going to react which means I didn't actually react that way the film is not real the film is just what if what if we did this how would you react oh I would be terrified great boom puts the film in and then all on the news today when in reality all of that none of that actually really happened and that's hard for us to understand remember the Great

Depression oh yeah it never happened their films and people are remembering them as though they're happening but the only thing that ever is actually happening or even close to it is this present moment and the only reason this present moment can become a a real thing is when I choose reality this present moment I can also not choose so in this moment I can create hell for tomorrow just like I had yesterday because I never chose God so even when you think you're spiritual and you're affirming a new life and you're manifesting a new

life but you forgot to include God plug God into the program and do this with God you're still coming from the Eco self and in that sense I am still not in the present because I didn't choose God in the moment the only when people say oh the moment it's in the now moment no the now moment is as screwed up as yesterday and tomorrow everybody makes it all whole it's only holy when in the now moment you chose God now you've brought holiness here but the only reason we say then now is important isn't because by

default its holy because I can choose unholiness right now instead the only reason then now has any power or beauty to it is what because now an amazing thing just happened I can choose God it's like Christmas Wow gifts under the tree and I'm the tree and the gifts are coming to me this is fantastic simply because I chose right now I chose God I can't per say choose God yesterday and I can't just choose God tomorrow mom's not here you choose God right now and as I'm gonna start closing here

somebody asked just the other day about you know trauma and how much - attention - put on trauma in that sort of thing you you do have to pay attention that things need healed but here's the difference if I'm standing here or doing anything in my life and something has triggered me like from the past okay if you trigger me I'm actually not just responding to you right now I'm responding to anything like you that I've ever experienced you don't just dislike a current politician in the politician is your father who was

out of control or or your uncle or Huma it's always everyone are related to that topic so I don't even see the president in the now moment he brings every nut ever every hurtful person ever I'm not talking about a specific person I'm not okay any time at a job a boss who's like condescending not rewarding you know they don't give you a raise etc is every person that's ever disregarded you so I'm not even seeing my boss in the present moment I know I think I am and logically well they're right there but

you don't really people don't realize even when you're standing before me what I believe I see I can tell you brunette or redhead or blonde whatever male/female etc I logically am seeing that but people do not real but the eyes don't actually register things accurately your eyes are actually seeing upside down that tells you something right away so the eyes do not record accurately and even when they try to grab information all it is is data you think you're seeing you're not you're grabbing data out from a world

that doesn't exist and isn't there you're grabbing data you're pulling it into your brain and then you're processing it and only processing it based on the brains old programs so it doesn't allow me to see anything as it truly is it says well you know generally dah dah dah blondes are always that way you know guys men are always that's what the brain does generalizes that's that's understood now in terms of medical science except they don't understand why that is they think it's they call it to conserve

energy so it doesn't have to think too much but that's kind of important so I don't have to think too much I don't have to you know see you as you really are that might take some energy and that's why it is actually easy to say you know what I think I see is this God how would you have me see that person and the the most important shift that happens isn't I started seeing their aura that's kind of cool but it's that you shift a feeling inside you start to go wow you know I had all these tensions

when I thought of my boss I mean I immediately saw them as just like my dad and they wear the same cologne is my uncle and tension tension all this stuff and all of a sudden it decompresses and you start to go I don't even care like there's this feeling of it I don't know why but you know it feels like it doesn't matter and I'm not saying you become vulnerable or naive or overly naive it's just you start to feel peace and in your peace their strength and that the world doesn't want you to know

in peace there's actually strength not because you're now going to be guided into quite chencang kind of strength you're a kung-fu master you're peaceful but you know how to kick but that not that kind it seems like that's the kind we'd be talking about it means this as I dissolved my tensions and judgments and fears and reactions to you I had less stuff to emanate out of me which means there's less stuff attracting abuses as I heal my reality changes believe it or not I don't have

to fight things off more or better it actually disappears I don't have as many projectiles coming at me because there aren't any targets in me that's amazing in fact there was a kung-fu episode on that where we're quite chained didn't know what to do to help this one area you know cuz there was this these people they were gonna take over and then and he wanted to help them but there was just in a way he just couldn't figure out how to do it so he finally realized you know what the only way these people

are gonna back off the bad guys is I'm gonna sit down they're gonna shoot an arrow through my heart and it'll be done they'll be over their anger if you if I let you shoot your arrow at me instead of these people will you let me they're like yeah totally at least we get to vent on somebody now if he would have said okay take me and I'm a victim that wouldn't have been healthy what he did in his little flashbacks you know the way they do it in the monastery in the old days and all that the way they did

that movie that foot that show is the master was telling him there must be no target in you so they shoot an arrow but it doesn't kill him it doesn't penetrate the heart you know it wounds him but it didn't kill him because he released the target that they were gonna shoot at inside himself you don't give people a target you can say boundaries are about putting people in their place they are but that's not the end eventually there's nothing to put boundaries up for there's no target left

but that's jumping the gun because if I say that and everybody says that's what I'm gonna do without learning boundaries first you'll just become a target again that's why I said as you grow and grow spiritually your boundaries expand to but where you can afford more and more you still have to breathe and take a pulse of what you can handle today because you're here but you will find stuff bothers you less you can afford a little more of this and that you're not a victim you actually can afford it because it

doesn't bother you as much but also you just change in such a way that greater things happen in your favor so again closing remember guys humans keep wishing and we're humans were in a body so we know we have that propensity don't pretend it's not there just start there okay I get it yeah human I'm kind of human I can tell I'm a body so I guess there's still a little bit of that wishing in me just own that no matter how evolve do you think you are just own there's some of that propensity wishing

for things do be and to not be still wishing but today say but I also heard about this choosing factor what about the God being factor we'll get there later let's just start the choosing factor choose to let go of things you thought had power over you choose to let go of things you wanted to do go do them and choose to let go of the ones you're not going to do and say goodbye to them but what will I have if I don't have any wishes that I could have been should have it's kind of uncomfortable I know

it's like trying to be still and quiet your mind it's kind of a living meditation and you just have to get used to it your mind is going to go but but but yeah you know just see it yeah but that isn't going to happen but it could have but it isn't just self talk healthy kick-butt kind of self talk you know don't don't go but it's but if and then run with that don't don't let those voices take you just look at them yeah but I was just going to do that next week you said that for eight years so it's

not gonna happen yeah you know but yeah let it go just self talk but if you keep hooking on to that you tell yourself then you're not gonna get this thing that is really a righteous choice a good choice for you really yeah see you're wanting to keep this person who's really disturbed in your life instead of saying you know I'm ready to create healthy you're gonna settle for this because they just happen to be there what if the other one never shows up I gotta have something that's the way the ego-self

works there's a great story we're a band was going on tour and it's pretty funny but you kind of have to know the characters involved but this band is going on towards the band yes and and they're like you know we're going on tour and that they the tour agent and stuff says hey you know do you guys want your own plane some bands go on tour in their own plane you want their own or do you want to lay low and kind of go commercial flight in case the tour doesn't make enough money you know

and the band's like she's we better take it easy you know and be careful you know until we can make it big and and we can afford it and the best the bass player says no because then he has this kind of voice but he says no because then if it would have worked out we would have wish we had done it and the other band members go typical addict that's what they said because he was a really intense ad you know the wishing and you could I want more instead of pace yourself what's real you want a new life you want healthy then

let's create healthy but you can't hedge and wish something else and hang on to something that's unhealthy just so you don't have to risk out here decide decide what's right for you decide now how to know what's right decide what feels like god to you if something has a you know but we would have wished that stop like the example in that story be careful don't overly jump into the new don't overly hang on to the past try to ask for guidance each step of the way what would you have me

do and then you get the ball rolling if you're a band you start investing in the idea of something going well and if it goes well then you go get your new plane but stay safe don't date beyond your means don't spend beyond your means don't do anything don't drink beyond your means don't do one more when now you're not even there and you're wasted or toasted or whatever you call it now you know it's just you know what is healthy for you and and it's so simple because God wants you to feel loved and

you're not gonna feel true love when you're wasted you're not gonna feel true love when you're bargaining your body away you're not even going to feel Truelove when you have one more plate of something that makes you feel all uh you know overly full so even on a practical level like that just stay within your sense of peace when I start to drift off peace it means there's a disturbance in the force yota there's a disturbance check in and say what what is that and until I can get it right right the

ship so to speak until I can get it right I'm not going to keep steering off in that direction it is kind of a simple navigation metaphor let's take a few centering breaths please relaxed centered breathing and then just somewhat spontaneously we

allow our minds to become aware of a couple two or three things in our lives that we could legitimately put on a list things that were going to call things we were wishing for you were wishing something wasn't it could be the past you wish you hadn't done it could be currently you wish something weren't happening or it could be I wish something were happening I did have that new car whatever it is let the Holy Spirit help you bring up the most relevant few things for right now and to confirm whether they're relevant just

ask yourself do you wish they were or weren't so and be honest just become aware more about each of those few things how long have they been there wished for be spontaneous just ask yourself is there any way that you're wishing that that were or were not so holding back your life how so is there any unconscious convenience be

honest what's the payoff for your wishing and not doing what's the payoff you could say well it keeps me from failing well I was not sure if something would go wrong I didn't want to achieve that thing because it could be taken away there's all kinds of unconscious things like that just visit with that for a moment are there any unconscious agendas to my keeping this on a wish list instead of a choose list and then imagine what if we put it on the choose list and then do it meaning release it or accomplish it take

a moment to see each one of those two or three things being done and ask yourself are there any challenges with that does it bring up anything what would be the worst case scenario and then see yourself moving through it if you can spend just a couple minutes on that part and see yourself completely done with

that whatever it was you checked off something you were needing to release pretend it's gone something you were gonna accomplish pretend you've accomplished it and just marvel in that just bask in that for a moment done Wow sometimes it's a drag to have let go of something granted but tune into how you feel free or there's more room inside there's space for something new and if you're not sure what you can imagine coming into your life having let something go that's okay just say but

it's got to be good this or something better or I don't know but I'm willing to find out what my life will look like now that I've freed up and made some room you can imagine the great example you're gonna be to other people be it you know your kids neighbors friends wow you had the courage to do that how did you pull that off and that's called miracle-working when we can see how we can bring that demonstrate that to others we may not be standing up in front of people teaching them but you

are teaching them by example when you accomplish these kinds of things and people are always watching even sometimes not with their eyes with their consciousness they're always tuned in to see what movie did you see from that you know that my description earlier what movie did the universe download for you today was it the same horror movie everybody else watched and they see this sparkle in your eye and they realize I think you went to a different theater or put on a different film I want to see what you're watching feel that inside

feel that expansiveness in your heart and soul and feel a sense of gratitude and then gradually stretch out when you're ready nice job