Purpose Versus Preferences

today I'm going to talk about purpose versus the concept of preferences you know and and some people don't realize our purpose and preferences are related and I'll explain why our we only have one purpose we might think we have several and that's one of our problems so we have two major issues that I want to address here first is that people actually think they have all kinds of purposes or functions on this planet just like we think we have relationships there's only one of us here the Sufi say

so you're never having a relationship with this person and then that one and then it's pause for a little while then I have one with that one and then that one and so on they're all us they're all parts of ourselves there are great masters that have understood this cultures that have understood this for example if if ever you do card readings it could be the the druid or oracle cards or the Osho cards or Arthurian cards whatever okay you're divvying out these cards and you pick certain cards

you lay them out now some people go oh I don't believe in that it's funny because academic people would laugh at tarot cards and yet psychology uses ink blots to help psychoanalyze you I don't even understand how you can cover that up and not realize the tarot cards are just ink blots everything's an illusion but they reflect things to us so you know that card that happened to be this and happen to be that the difference is in psychology they say what do you see there well that's what the intuitive or

the psychic is doing they're sharing what they see there and that's what you're using them for okay but one part that really helps deepen our experience with cards if we use cards or have somebody whose cards with us when whenever they've pulled the cards the whole deck the whole deck is me which card pole gets pulled up today is telling me what part of me that is up today you're not telling me things that are me you're telling me things that are related to me and some people oh I don't

like that one card and oh I really like that card whatever your reasoning it's pretty or cuz it's masterful you know everybody wants to have that one you know um well the powerful card you know nobody wants to see typically you don't want to say hi okay okay I'm asking for God you know Holy Spirit of God during this reading please bring up the tower the death card and you know that's not what you're looking for but they're all there they're all in you every planet every constellation

there's no what's your astrology astrology is telling where you're at now not forever just where you're at now but they're all in you you know all the planets all the signs they're all there the whole wheel of life every star everything is in us and we like to pull things out and select and say I'm doing the relationship with this person there's no this person there are all reflections of ourselves that's I think one reason why I've never felt compelled to hate anyone I've ever had a

relationship with like I don't feel any I'm not saying that I obsess on somebody from the past maybe I rarely even think about them but if I do I have only one purpose forgiveness an attitude of am I feeling love with this person if not and and you can feel love but when you don't you only have still one purpose because love and forgiveness are connected forgiveness is an expression of love so when I tune into a person if someone comes to mind I either feel love or the reparative of love which is forgiveness

but it's all love so I've never felt really compelled to you know feel any yucky feelings toward somebody well they did this and they did though you know who's that they were talking about well they they rejected me whose the day what part of me felt that I in any way had that vibe to be rejected in the first place I mean that's how it goes like what in my frequency opened the door for that and what amount of me thought that there was somebody else that held some sort of value of mine that when they left they

took that from me so it's a lot to ask mind you to fill this immunity to to life to relations and whatever else it is but that's our ultimate goal ultimately we have one purpose one function love and forgiveness when people say what is my soul's purpose I always say this everybody has the same one but you can have a preference to experience other versions of that but everybody has just one to manifest the love and presence of God how you do it is what you call your soul's purpose but your divine purpose

is only one love forgiveness love and forgiveness love and then forgiveness when there isn't love so it's really just two sides of the same coin love love love love love love love oops forgiveness love and back to love again that's everybody's ultimate purpose that's your purpose in this universe or on earth when you're home having God that's not needed anymore because you are back to just the love you don't need the love / forgiveness just the love and we're just basking in that love very

challenging for the human brain to comprehend that but love and forgiveness while you're on earth so you have one function now people will say what's my what's my soul's purpose that is simply how you will bring the presence of God to earth but if you think your souls purpose is well I'm supposed to be a clerk that that's a job or a vocation an occupation that should not be confused with your soul's purpose the soul's purpose doesn't have a defined linear thing it's more of a theme I'm a teacher

who helps people feel hope that would be more like a theme than postal worker a linear statement there's a theme so what what is my purpose to lecture well no that's a thing not a thing that's a thing a defined thing what's the theme you know it's clearly it's manifesting the love and light of God great and I do that whether I'm counseling teaching and so so all the many things I do are preferences that are in the linemen with my ultimate purpose which is also in alignment with our purpose so if you

really want to feel complete fulfilled in this lifetime make sure that you know your soul's ultimate God divine purpose which is manifesting the presence of God and then that's somehow isn't aligned with your soul's purpose which might be you know guiding others giving hope to others more like a theme then make sure the things you do are in alignment with that when you see me you see the father that's partly what that means high and low left and right inside outside mm-hmm Jesus how do we know we're getting close

to the kingdom of heaven he says in one of the last books paraphrasing very slightly which is when the outside is like the inside and the insides like the outside there's no in congruence it's not like my purpose is to bring the love and light of God so what I will do is conquer all nations like Hitler did you know like you can disturbingly try to say I feel some calling and then twist it into your egos version but you could also say I will be a world ruler and try to unite people and it'd be righteous

because it doesn't involve causing harm you can't say it's the love and light of God when cause harm so just watch how are you in alignment with that can you accept that the ultimate purpose is the presence of God and now don't just say yes get it and go okay I can do that yeah okay I kind of go with that but don't you're not done yet now do you know your souls purpose if not it's not that complicated and don't fret over it because then you'll lose alignment anyway but start asking

yourself what is what am I about a teacher a nurturer a guide you're already partway there soon as you answer that question whatever you are on the guy then own it own it that's it oh my god I've always been a team leader an inspirer a healer look for the word or two that most describes how what you've always been you know I shared the story before where I met somebody I think maybe two people that I've ever seen or met after I got out of high school any other people I knew but one of them was a gal and she said oh you

got to come over and see my parents you know and and you know they'd love to see and I said okay you know so I went over to their house and the mom asked you know so so Michael what did you end up you know what do you do now I don't say oh I miss brooch will do sure man you know it's a little much for some people so I often used a generic thing like I'm a counselor so I just throw that out because it's true it's just not true and confusing so so I just said you know counselor and the answer the response

all of that makes total sense you were always as a kid you were always advising you were always helping you know and I said when I told you that story once way back that she said I used to send my daughter to you all the time she said you know whenever my daughter was acting funky I would say why don't you call that Michael kid you always seem to be happier after you talk to him now did that mean that you know like like Lucy on Charlie Brown the counselors in sign you know five cents you know did that mean that I knew I did

to a degree but I didn't know how it could ever become something because I knew very clearly I'm not the academic type to where I'm gonna go to school for year after year to be told how to help people I wanted to be able to help as I knew to help people not as I was told to not because I'm being rebellious it's just there was something organic about and annoying so I was just like in that group so I knew it to some level but guys you'll you'll know once you land the word or to guide teacher leader it's

going to become obvious because you probably have been doing it most of your life now that gives you a huge chunk of what is your soul's purpose this isn't about that so I'm just giving you a bit of that that we have the ultimate purpose to be the presence of God a secondary level which is our souls purpose that sort of reflects the primary one of God but it does so flavored by your background in your your ideas and preferences see that so God is not a preference and some people still make God and so this is problem number

one is people still do not have their priorities straight which is what I predicted would happen this year people are gonna have to get their priorities straight and even you know by the way when I make those kinds of predictions I don't always know exactly the form it's gonna take because mankind has free will they could take it steer it left steer it right but I just knew it just very clearly comes with me okay yeah probably we're gonna end up having to prioritize and the only priority is God why why is

that not clear and obvious to everybody because you know some people say we've become a godless nation and we in it there's all kinds of theories but it all comes down to ego and fear we're still afraid of letting go of control and allowing God to be our guide the people of Israel originally had God as their guide and then they said you know God could we have a king God goes what do you need that for you got me know we want a king and gods like no but so I'm not good enough huh yeah so God said

whatever it's amazing that God is always willing for the most part to work with us at the level we're at God will not support abuse but it'll try to work with us at the level we're at so when the people of Israel said we want a king okay because that already established the statement of what they believed about their value we're not we're not valuable enough to go directly to God we need a mediator a king to tell us what to do okay see once upon a time you and I were capable of the knowingness of God

directly and now it comes as little glimpses now and then and human beings still do not know how to prioritize and say God first god only it's possibly that thing I just said maybe someday but in the meantime my priorities are this you can't have plural priorities that doesn't make sense that's like everybody winning a race in all winning first place every time though I have the race you know I mean it's the priorities there's only one and it's God the rest are called preferences even my personal soul's purpose is based

on preference it's still an alignment with my priority of God that's the key that's the key get your priorities in alignment with get your preferences rather in alignment with your number-one priority which is God and then you're doing alright because then you are able to then basically bridge between the absolute connection with God and still being on the earth plane you say God what is my purpose I wouldn't a new job God job you know God's gonna say why instead of a job which implies the word

work why don't you also get an occupation that's sort of you know accesses your gifts something you would love doing that's called your soul's purpose but God's going to say and don't forget first and foremost align it with me because then I'll more easily guide you you you know what you did to find your soul's purpose you went to school and you went to more school and you went to more school until you graduated and soon after found that was the wrong school you took the wrong direction you

became an accountant and you're supposed to be a florist like you know like it's just nuts and you do the same with relationships settling bargaining settling bargain just stop God first then God in its infinite patience will say now stay connected to that first priority and only priority your first love as it's called in the Bible and then let's ask how you might uniquely channel that priority of God into this world you I said uniquely because some of you our single some not some male some female some black some white some tall

some short all of the things about you you're history abused not abused every bit of your history is going to be used and molded into the proper vessel to receive that purpose that was originally just priority of God into your personal use that's how patient the whole thing is and it is quite incredible you get to have your cake and eat it I mean how much better could that get this world tells us programs us to believe that it's all about being forced you have to this job makes a living and that was my

dilemma too as a kid i I just want to help people that's all I remember saying and then what I was told is the world of the the jobs related to helping people those are the ones that don't make any money so as a kid I had nobody explaining this to me nobody's saying this makes sense Michael it'll be all right I mean one one talk every couple years from my mystic godmother she'd say Michael I'm seeing it all I know there's insanity around you hang in there and he'd be like for a minute half

yes and then she's gone and I'm back to the nutty family again you know so it's it's not easy for a kid to sort through that but somebody watching this program is there for kids like that now there might not have been one for me but now there can be one for others so that we don't have to have it as hard for others as it was for me or perhaps you a life coach for some of you to make a difference in people's lives an acupuncturist a healer a nurturer you know the form as long as it's matching

yours your heart's desire I'm a nurturer well a nurturer could be anything from a preschool teacher to a healer as long as you're still nurturing you get to decide what Cup the nurturer lands into large cup vessel you know a chalice shaped cup shot glass I mean whatever it's gonna be you get to decide I'm a nurturer and you know what I'm gonna do I'm gonna focus on motherhood and that's still a soul's purpose even though it may not be occupational I'm going to be a mother what if your will miss barren

I'm still a nurturer see that's where people get messed up the souls purpose cannot be affected per se by external things it just morphs and if you're supposed to be a person that teaches demonstrates to this world God God God yes connected now I come into this world what's my purpose I feel like my version of the ultimate purpose of connecting with God my version of it is it feels like teaching people teamwork and so I feel like I'm playing football or basketball or you know soccer or whatever and and I'm supposed to be the

the team captain but I'm not confident enough to be a team captain they bring it up and I'm like no no no no see and and that something happened in my life that made me not do it that means I'm not living my soul's purpose yet because I've already said in this example my soul's purpose would have been teaching teamwork so instead I'm a player the background player on the team well suddenly 30 years later I'm in a workshop and somebody's telling me all this I'm like oh my god now I get it

I should have been and I missed it I guess I'll try it next lifetime no no now you become a coach maybe you're too old theoretically to be a team captain on a sports team at 15 18 20 whatever now I'm going to be a coach at 50 80 whatever your age is does that make sense the form can change that's how beautiful because nothing on this planet is supposed to have power over you including over here souls purpose so one of our problems is we don't have our priority singular straight it's God

secondly we add to that problem by confusing our preferences with the only priority so some of us are going let's see my priorities God you know but then there's motherhood and then there's being a good partner I want to partner when I Oh God would be fun I'd have a new relationship wait and I also want to collect wines and I also want to read a lot and and I want to enjoy you know travel whatever things come to mind you just confused it all those are nothing but preferences you get to have them but don't forget your

priority and don't confuse the two the one priority and all the many preferences and of course some people have some really disturbing preferences that have nothing to do with even self-help but even your self-help preferences must not be allowed to rise above your priority in God and that's describing the new-age community the new-age community thinks the spiritual community is self-help community all of those groups positive thinking community what they often did was think they got it when they shifted from disturbing

preferences unhealthy preferences addictions and all that and then they got healthy and had healthy preferences and made that their priority my 12-step group is my pride finding a soul mate is prime my priority all this healthy stuff you're still only talking preferences but you unfortunately thought that you found your priority if you can get straight that's why in 12-step groups it's you got to find God you got to have a support in your journey when you think that only manifesting more mind power to get

things you want is the answer you missed it again God first in all things and if people have to be stripped down with a seemingly inconvenient non preference it seems illness on the planet it'll get worse find God everybody's got to get back to that finding there they're plugging into the real power of the universe God and it's not just so that you won't get sick or you won't feel hurt in any way that's not the that's preferences again so if you're sick and you say because people are

saying this now to me online you know Michael let's let's pray for people to heal heal what you know the illness oh okay he'll what from the illness you know their bodies no I refuse you get behind me Satan you're trying to tempt me to think that people are only bodies and they will be better off if they're not sick that's a preference you prefer not to be sick if I'm in my deathbed I might prefer not to die my job is to be so plugged into God it cannot rise above and become my my death could not become

my priority it's a preference which is like saying hey God guess what I'm cool either way I'm good either way you want my opinion well I'd kind of prefer being you know because I have children that are let's say 10 or 12 or you know what I'd like to be with them longer that's called a preference make it your priority and your ego will use it against you anything you get attached to is your unfortunate use of making what was a priority you know you're forgetting that and making preferences

into priority just know the difference you have preferences I would prefer that this illness be gone it sounds a little similar to a prayer that somebody used once what was that oh that's right if it were up to me let this cup pass so Jesus was teaching you and I about priorities and the priority and preferences if it's up to me he was saying let me just give you a list of preferences I would love not to be beat up and crucified call me silly you know call me imaginative but I think that South of France on the beach

for the summer would be really much better just I mean you're just in case I'm just going to share some priorities there are some preferences rather you know I mean you know think about it like we could have quite party I could calm seas that means man boom I'm there south of France maybe maybe Mary Magdalene would like to join me boom Wow nothing like a you know uh today in bikini you know this is looking pretty pretty hot you know and like wow and then Marguerite does and you know it's like you know like you got your foo-foo

drinks you know and Wow coconuts were around you know so more plentifully in that region so that he could have just had it easily that's called preferences I wish I would I wish I hadn't been abused I wish I wish I wish those are preferences go ahead and share them get it out I wish this hadn't happened I mean still for me once in a while once in a while a painful thing will come back and it's always for love and healing it doesn't come up as an inconvenience I prefer not to know I can't do that I can't prefer not to have

a memory come up of a hurt or an abuse and when you're a spiritual teacher at least for me I don't stuff those things and then keep everything polished when I talk sometimes I'm talking and in the middle of it that memory that feeling will come up wow what an inconvenience being in the middle of talking about bliss and love and joy and then suddenly some feeling now sometimes there's that the choking up on beautif the beauty of God is just so inspiring and magnificent but sometimes it's happened where some

painful memory or thought or experience and so that happens at times I prefer it didn't but that's not my priority my priority is God and I so if something comes up that doesn't feel like God and I let me process it appropriately now I'm back to God and I know preference should have any kind of value per se no attachment soon as you attach to a preference you're trying to turn it into your priority because you're attached to it being different and then sometimes we're even making it

- false versions of God you could be attached to being clean and sober you can be attached to having your soul mate all wonderful terms soul mate Wow recovery Wow all these are great concepts you can even be attached to finding your souls purpose it's all spiritual terminology but if you're attached to it you don't realize you're doing the the New Age mistake of erasing eradicating your real one and only priority and making simply nicer preferences into your priority it's supposed to be the other way around God

then my healthy preferences and saying goodbye to unhealthy preferences in this order going this way we're trying to do it the other way we're trying to live with and keep our unhealthy preferences then at best we become spiritual so now we have nicer healthier preferences but we still don't talk about God we're still not plugged in it's harder to go this way than it is to go this way but this world is gonna tell you it's harder to go this way because that's invisible that God peace leave that out let's just

work on making you a better person and then you'll get into some group that's gonna have you doing affirmations I am wonderful I am healthy and glorious and prosperous you mean that's your preference no no that's that's my goal my number one goal is to be healthy and prosperous I'm sorry for you what do you mean you're offending my spiritual beliefs you offended your spiritual beliefs when you left God out of them when you tried to polish badges to where look at me my goal is healthy and

probably prosper so be careful you're tempting yourself to become a limited being again even when you say oh dear Jesus please help the the plague of the earth or the economy or whatever you know the issue is at the time you're still talking about symptoms you're saying god I want you to leave perfection come down and join in my evaluation with what I think is wrong with the world and fix it based on what I think it needs and if you don't I'm gonna say you know no wonder nobody believes in you

you know you're gonna throw it don't worry you're not gonna get you know lightning struck from that it's okay to be honest about it because God saying why don't you bring it all to me and see it through my eyes instead of asking me to come to you and see it through your eyes do you see the absolute reversal of that that is what you could say is true blasphemy because the term I don't mean it like sinful blasphemy I mean it in you're actually using the Lord's name in vain you're in a vain way a worthless

vanity that's what I mean by vanity in a worthless form you're trying to make God perform to your needs and it's in vain because God will not and that's why this world gets away with the ego in us saying see you can't always count on God so what you need is social distancing that's in the illusion that's what we think we need so do it because part of us believes that but in reality no laws of this world can fix anything they're just made up they make stuff up and it well but under scientific it's what's

science science is an illusion as well science is the hired liar to support everything else I have to explain that before man government science religion those are the unholy trinity that run this planet but let me be nicer so they support each other in godlessness now you say well no not really yes religion too because if you stand up in your religion and say I'm hearing God's voice their first response is to think you're nuts they're not saying well that's what we're all supposed to be doing in our

religion when you stand if you're in the Judean tradition and you say I'm the Messiah that no crucifying when you say in the pagan tradition I believe in the oneness in the name of Christ don't use Christ with around our groups whatever you're trying to you know Buddhism or all of them have a little petty specialness involved they all have little games and agendas and that's fine because when people are messed up they need somebody that at least seems to be organizing things but at the end of the

day they're they don't supply you with the only thing you think you really need which is God we believe we separated we therefore need to believe that we're back we never really left we've never stopped becoming divine beings but play the game Jesus very clearly in A Course in Miracles tells us do not try to pretend that what you think you see isn't happening because you'll hurt yourself he's actually telling you instead of going that's what I'm gonna do I'm gonna be so spiritual that I'm

going to deny that anything is actually happening he's warning you of the effects of that because you'll go insane because part of your brain already truly totally thoroughly believes in what it's seeing when you deny it your brains gonna start short-circuiting so respect the illusion in the back of your mind just know this has no real power seems to so if you've got congested lungs take a decongestant or whatever you feel you need to help break that up but don't forget to ask for the mental correction

which is called forgiveness whatever got me to this place let me just own that something in my thoughts brought this on and I now forgive myself and so it is then look with your congestion or whatever you do it won't matter that's hard because your ego is going to tell you no you either have to prove you believe in one or the other it doesn't want you to be at peace where you say internally I get it and externally I'm getting it because now I'm okay I'm at peace it's okay to you have a job

to pay your bills instead of trying to tell the power companies you don't need it anymore you know it's money it's an illusion just just keep giving me power in my house they should say well you're right it's an illusion so we'll shut it off and you won't notice they should test you on your spiritual conviction be careful don't push yourself to a place to a point of harm play the game and walk the gentle gentle balanced path in between which is I know the truth but I respect the illusion notice in both of

those I'm okay I didn't say know the truth but you better get over the illusion that's called tension I will know the truth that feels kind of good and I'm allowed to respect the illusion go ahead and play the game it's alright but I don't want to believe this I know you prefer that we didn't totally believe in the illusions anymore guess what not only will that day come it has already come and people just don't realize it yet all we're doing is living the the dream the nightmare of

what we once wondered could happen so just rest when Jesus says peace be with you as he arrives to meet groups and he he shows up after his crucifixion and resurrection he shows up peace when he's the way the waters are all turbulent peace why now you could say it's a command it is it's an affirmation which it is but he was also saying underneath the word peace or peace be with you he was saying do you guys realize that you're already home and at peace I'm only affirming what is already there

that's amazing most of us don't have that in us where we can look at a loved one who's sick and dying and no wholeness and they die and wholeness still we go oh I was hoping for wholeness but they died you're thinking it's either/or in black and white that's called lose-lose situations because they will die eventually anyway Jesus brought Lazarus back to life you think that would be good for hundreds of years you think that when Deb mr.

death comes as Lazarus ago I have the card that's in Jesus Hills Mesa I get to live for her I'm like the Highlander man I live for hundreds of years I can't die because I'm Lazarus you ever read them here let me show you the scriptures it's about me that didn't happen he still died a few years later you know like where's the where's the Jesus energy didn't he have some extra to live hold me over that's what some humans would be wondering he still died everybody that He healed and brought back to life they still died at

some point because your job is not to fix the body your job is to be at peace not just to get to the place of being at peace but to be at peace because you already are there's a part of you and I that never ever ever separated that never believed that we came to the universe of limitation that we never took on bodies that age and died there's a part of us that still the I M of God and we've never done anything but that so in our lives we can have preferences it's okay practice that idea of it's

okay if you're a counselor a parent mom dad I need to tell you something I I got an F today oh I can't believe howdy practice it's okay talk to people in a way that bridges them and brings them comfort remember ask yourself that question how can I be helpful today helpful will almost always involve bridging and that's called miracle-working because someone is stressed and upset and yet you're bringing them to a place where and it's okay I feel like I'm Faye well that's okay you know yeah we make

mistakes bridging children you know oh you know and I got bad grades that's okay you know so that's cool that well let's sort that out and let's talk about it later do you want better grades what do you want to do to do that not you have to get better grades so whatever the situation someone sick someone loses their job stuff happens this world is going to keep trying to oppress and prove to you that it is what's real I am God I can squeeze the life out of you this world says I can make you happy

and I can make you sad the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away that's a complete lie that's the lord of this world that gives you for a moment and takes it away and leaves you in fear cuz you never know which one's coming next that's not the real God it would be very boring to read a real Bible that was translated directly from God it would start with something like let there be light and God saw that it was good the end it wouldn't be like and then mankind did it and then God struck them dead mm-hm and

then God said oho I'm gonna flood you people that's what's gonna show you teach you a thing or two drown drown drown drown o rainbow so that we go like God is terrible wait a rainbow I guess God's not so bad that is a love-hate relationship which God is not capable of engaging in she's so twisted man so twisted so let there be light and God saw that it was good amen that's what it's about we never truly fell which means we cannot be flawed beings now I'm not saying it doesn't seem like it and earth

and the stuff we manifest that's the seems to be world seems to be if you and I understand the difference between what is and what seems to be that would help a lot because one is the know the truth of what is and respect the illusion of what seems to be so practice that they now be careful not to preach it to people if someone says oh my goodness you know someone in my family died no they just seem to have died don't don't negate their feelings you're supposed to know that not preach it to other people if there's a way to convey

that then you can do that I might be doing a talk and I can say something like you know yesterday I seem to feel frustrated about something and I didn't preach it to you that you must call it seems I just throw it in there when I'm talking because anything that comes from me is only it seems to be if it's factual meaning capital F that absolute T capital T truth of God it can only be loving so I seem to have lost a loved one now you might think that was a weird way that he worded that he's seen what do you mean it seems to

be there's this comedian that did this this is one gig you know where he was talking about he went to the hospital recently and that's a hilarious guy he's real clean and you know no vulgarity and yet he tells his story about having gone to the hospital and he's he's saying so you know he was talking about how he felt really really really ill and so he says you know so I had to get myself to the hospital and the person checking me inside so what seems to be the problem and he's like oh seems like they're just

negating me like you don't really have a problem you just seems doing he said well my inside seemed to be wanting to get on the outside you know anyway it's worth seeing I don't know his name you'd have to you can google it comedian talking about it hospital visit is a tall tall guy anyway you'll you'll find it because that's how I found it and if it doesn't start off like that you'll know it's a different one but he's hilarious so the point is that is an accurate way though is that it seems

to be practice that but you know I seem to feel alone I'm telling you you're not alone but you do I am I totally support you and saying you seem to be or you can use the word feel I feel alone don't say you are slight variation just one more difference huge difference in its meaning I feel alone or I seem to be alone you know I seem to be feeling frustrated today I seem to be and feel like means it's how I feel you're you're then stating but I'm not holding this as fact because I don't know for sure and

that little I don't know means I'm open to a higher interpretation I feel alone I seem you know I feel like I was rejected even when you tell people things and when you write letters to people don't tell them tell them you know about them tell them about you I'm feeling frustrated so you can't you say something like You frustrate me that's offensive they can only now defend or shut down when you say I'm feeling such-and-such if you say I'm feeling frustrated but they can't say no you're

not I mean and if they do in the conversation because it doesn't make any sense I'm feeling kind of sad so on so passed away it's an illusion you don't feel sad okay well I'm also not feeling angry right now I'm also not feeling like I want to walk out of the room maybe slap you first but walk out of her so that's how that all rolls guys just come back to you know understanding the real me can't feel those things but humans mix the words as though it doesn't matter and it

does matter one you're stating it like it's fact truth and the other one you're simply saying it's how it seems to be you're allowing something else to come in when you say it just seems to be so you're cleaning up this idea of preferences getting it cleaned up my preferences are not to be my god my unhealthy preferences need to become healthier preferences and my healthier preferences should only be reflecting my first priority in God in the first place so what is that first priority it's so

simple to manifest the love and light of God right it everywhere and then remember anytime you're saying I'm so stupid I can't believe I fell for this relationship again wait I'm here to be the presence of God and then there's I'm so stupid I fell for another relationship do those sound congruent I don't think so now that doesn't mean I'm telling you to say I'm so bright boy I sure pick that one well see that's like really dangerous denial we both know how you what feel so then say it god I can't

believe it I know who I am and what I'm here to do and yet I feel so silly that I did this see that late left room for improvement I just I feel kind of goofy what was I thinking now how could I do that differently that next time because now you're learning and improving keep everything at that level where anything and everything can be improved upon where anything can be called silly in this world and I know it doesn't seem like it there are some disturbing disgusting things you don't usually say

yeah you know that whole Holocaust that was so silly that's not appropriate but words like that you can call it ridiculous or whatever we just don't give it so much power so that you would hate it no child of God should take themselves from sitting at the throne of God and down to the earth plane through hatred refuse to hate so use a word that can convey that really bothers me you know that just seems so messed up it's true it does seem messed up and I just feel so upset by it you should feel upset it makes sense

while on earth that would be kind of upsetting but be careful not to lose this other part of you there's a part of me and there's a part of the Jews in the Holocaust the Nazis in the Holocaust and everybody in between that never experienced any of this I'm not talking about historic falsities I'm talking about spiritual realities there's a part of us that cannot be harmed or cause harm clearly planet Earth is a place that would be to the contrary of that clearly the good news is this too shall pass

great book title of a colleague Gary Renard the disappearance of the universe so I somewhat closed this with just this idea we keep talking about ascension we keep talking about awakening weekend but how do you know that these things that we encounter are not lessons and tests and forgiveness so that the universe can disappear and we go home how come we say man I can't wait til a world of loved one this one something comes along and we shame it and shut it down and spit on it and kick it around how do you know

that wasn't part of the process to get home you understand what I'm saying there be careful people do this all the time oh I want a oneness and then something happens and our ego determines that that wasn't part of the plan to get to that oneness so be careful in the assumptions you make be careful of unhealthy preferences just see them for what they are it's goofy it's silly it's ridiculous it's unnecessary I'm a child of God and I'm addicted to this drink of some kind I mean seriously I can only feel peace

when I do a couple bottles of this whether it's medicines or whatever it's it's it's really kind of ridiculous if you think about it so don't shame yourself for it but just kind of recognize when you recognize it you start to realize it starts losing its power because you're seeing it from such a centered place what are you you know seriously I'm a co-creator of the entire universe and an 8-ounce liquid will determine my happiness today it makes no sense learn to see it through and drink

it anyway if you need to but start practicing injecting that addiction or whatever it is with reality I am as God created me go go go I am as God created me go go it's going to sneak in there and one moment you're going to go this doesn't seem to be a calling for me anymore that's why in the programs you're bringing God in as an assistant to you because of the horrible power the other thing has but to help restore you to your real power so that it doesn't have any yeah that was really good okay hey

it was I like the way that came we literally have all that we need guys we have all that we need because Christ which is our divine presence will go before us Christ will start every day for us and guide us where our lessons are so that we could bid them farewell now we confuse that with God leads you to terrible lessons God's going to you know make you walk on thorns and that's mankind's perception I believe in thorns so I blew our ma so I'm going to take myself through karmic situations to help pay off my debts of

the past well God's like there are no debts there you didn't really ever do any of this it's an illusion and we're like lalala lalala we don't want to hear that we want to go no no Lord I've been really naughty so I have to go through five relationships horrible co-dependent relationships of a you know addiction and betrayal and so on so I mean gods like Wow so all God's gonna do is hey sweetheart if you believe that that's how you're gonna get there I don't mind I'm just

gonna be with you either way I'm just with you going home if you think you need to take the long way home I'm with you you think you need to take too short way home I'm it doesn't matter because I will honor your preferences and your illusions as it were Oh honor where you're at all respect where you're at but just think about this you and I have freewill to say I'm gonna shorten up my walk today okay with that let's take a few centering breaths for today's meditation we're just going

to share a brief kind of a combo of thought consciousness affirmation prayer our only intention now is to know our real purpose which is what our oneness with God and to express that presence how wonderful it is that we can hold that presence and help so many billions of people souls through our affirming the truth of God being the presence and the truth of God as we walk in the truth of God and the presence of God it's called walking in a state of grace and walking in a state of grace means no Karma no thorns and

whatever one seemed to be there we just walk through them with a different attitude you'll walk through a surgery with a different attitude you'll walk through a divorce with a different attitude you'll walk through challenges in this world this world will constantly try to challenge but this world is nothing but a reflector so it's also reflecting the test you've passed so allow yourself to realize I deserve a lot of really good things challenges have no power over me and gifts I get to

accept I don't get attached to them but I accept them so just in this moment we are prayerfully accepting knowing that we are literally having this consciousness that is the Christ awakening within us whatever the world may think it's going through the Christ that I am is being born in me here and now how do I know that because it is the promise of God the number one promise of God when we thought we could separate was that we would come home and the rules to that coming home are determined by something called choice and free will

I used freewill to believe I could separate and I'm using that same freewill to come home so in this moment I'm visualizing my heart and soul opening and it feels like wings popping out of my back and expanding and shiny holding me up the wings are symbolic of my being light above the rules and laws of this world and a visualizing that all humanity is joining me in this awakening Christ that I am goes before me it walks beside me it's within me it's above me Christ behind Christ within Christ

without Christ in all my relationships I am the holy presence of God which is also known as the Christ where I walk Christ goes with me and I'm imagining and visualizing that as I walk through my day grocery store or alone even if I'm watching the TV and even if it's some intense news program it could be a historic program about the Holocaust I am so present with the Christ that I am I'm imagining that this presence is passing through time to the people who suffered in the Holocaust to the indigenous peoples that died of plagues

that came to them from explorers to people all over the world today struggling and doubting and fearing there is no time and no distance you are part of me I'm part of you so I'm joining with others who have been Christ it Jesus first name Lee but anybody that aligned with the Christ that is all of us all my Christ relations are standing together speaking on your behalf all of us rising together the whole planet singing in one verse the song of God watching the things that we glued around ourselves the illusions sickness

watch it fall away not because you're trying to fix bodies but because sickness has no place in God it just falls away poverty struggle but also not just problems people think they have just too even even the thought that they don't need God that's another layer of illusion that has to fall away let's not choose the hard way let's not have to see the world destroyed to get people to humble themselves instead let's just see everybody excited to remember we hold that for just a moment longer

the light of God shining from me to all of you and as I shine it extend it to even the worst behaving people that fades and falls away light shines to light that light reflects back to light namaste from me to you and back to me again this perfect ecosystem instead of an ego system a perfect divine ecosystem of God's presence and what would we feel as we see that happening in advance we give thanks that's why Jesus himself would give thanks in advance because he knows I'm thanking it because it's already going

to happen it's already rolling this direction time which is an illusion will look like it takes time for this to happen but it's an illusion I'm giving thanks because this is the truth of God and it cannot go or be anything else but this the love of God the light of God is here is now in me in you and always and so it is