I'm gonna share a little bit about healing today, the concept of healing, but healing heart and a healing consciousness. What we forget to realize is what we just heard from the course to a degree there too, is that the outer world reflects the inner world. And then what do we mean by the inner world? The outer world reflects our mind, but then when we hear mine, we think our intellectual cognitive thinking mind, the outer world reflects the inner soul, our beliefs, not just our cognitive mind.
So people have to upgrade their understanding around this because people think that if they're aware of thoughts, that's where creation comes from. So if they don't like those thoughts they do to these little things, like cancel clear and just try to negate whatever. They were just thinking, I don't like that person.
Oh, case. It doesn't work like that. It's in our beliefs. It's deep in the soul are the origins, the roots of everything we see outside. And really, it's a fascinating concept if we really got down to it and there's not enough time in a talk like this to do it all. But it's amazing to think to realize that the body is actually created like a projector in a theater aid.
We have lens. We have light inside just like a projector, and we've got this lens that we project this through. Now, all we have to do is take a look at what films we're choosing. We have this catalog inside the ego's choosing what films to put in there, and it runs past when it runs past the lens.
Let's call it within the lens. That's what we see outside. So the outer world is this three dimensional. It looks, it's this hologram, but it's this three dimensional height with depth. It's got this three dimensional appearance to it. And human beings walk around in this trans acting like that world is the real world and it affects our day.
I would be doing so much better if only, and then we name whatever list of things. But it is quite absurd in it's why jesus. And of course, America's refers to it as insanity because people are walking around as though they watch horror movies and terrified to go outside, because I just saw what was out there.
Where did you see that or... I just watched a movie really? So you think the Creature from the Black Lagoon is actually in your backyard 'cause you watch the movie and I married him too. It's like we project these things outside, then we never interact with him. And then we say, I'm just not a very happy person.
Why 'cause I'm married the Creature from the Black lagoon, and guess what? They ended up being a Creature from the Black lagoon. They acted like one, two. So that thing is affecting my day. If we take that to the courtroom of Heaven and project that we don't say had a chance because we're gonna go into that courtroom.
I'm just metaphorically saying, we go into that courtroom and say, listen, god, I would have had a better life. But everybody and everything went wrong. Everything were in the world. But what world... You know the world. Oh, you mean the movie? You took it seriously? Well. Yeah, doesn't everybody will know, not us, but then that's why we're blessing out.
We don't believe it. They're just movies and it's not to undervalue or under understate the pain that the world causes us, because there are some painful things. What I'm saying though is to only talk about them on the level of the projector screen is not going to help them. You know, if you're sitting in, if you're faced to be in this world, and if you're faded to be in the theater of life watching a movie and you don't like it 'cause it's horrible, a horror movies, you know, scary movers, murder mysteries, all this drum of the world.
The only way you can change it. You could try closing your rice, it's called denial. You can also plug your ears when you walk through life going all. It doesn't look very mature. If that's your way of dealing with, I don't hear anything and I'm just gonna close my... You're not even there that's not actually gonna work.
The only way we can change the world is to actually get off our butts in the theory, get off our butts walk into the back projection room and take out the film, put in a different one. What would you like to see today? And that's what is called free welts called choice. We can choose better movies. We can choose different realities.
Now, what I don't want to imply here is like what positive thinkers try to say, just make yourself think positively. It's not just that. And it's not that easy. It's change your beliefs, Believe It Or not. If I can change my belief in whether or not I am a holy innocent being created in God's image or not, that's the key right there.
If I can accept my holiness, it automatically will change the films. You see, it's our beliefs in who we are that affect everything I do. My analogy doesn't mean, I just mean storm the projector room, knock the projection is over and change films. Those are the people that try to push positive thinking, positive thinking would still be trying to take Heaven by force which can't be done.
If you're not in the consciousness of heaven, you don't enter heaven. We change our consciousness. There's this reference that we have to all learn, memorize in the core of our being pears. This even using this person as an analogy, this body we have in the core of our being there is this perfect light made in the image of god, and that thing is called christ, but it has nothing to with christianity, it's christ.
It's the true light that we were created to be, and it's beautiful. It's perfect in the core of our being, and everyone has it, then we wonder what life would be like if we weren't that light. So around that light, you can't actually take out that light or negate that light. You can't tell it, it's eternal, perfect god, and it's in every one of us.
But what we can do is I wonder what life would be like to not have that light, and we created a darkness around it so that we would no darkness. Now in that darkness, in the center of that darkness, we set up a throne and we set it someone to blame for this happening, and it's called our ego. So when we said, what would life be like if we weren't in the holiness of god, there's sadly, there's this dark sheet that covered our light, and remember the light is still in there, but this darkness covered it.
So all of a sudden, there's this perfect presence of God and yet, now there's this void in genesis, this void, darkness. And so it's so interesting, and in that void we thrown in thrown the ego, and the ego's job is to keep us from remembering to go in back to our light and instead go out no better way to get us to go out then, to project things out for us to look at in our core light, around the core, this layer of darkness.
And in that darkness, we start to say, God a minute ago, we were filling light. Now we're feeling darkness doesn't feel very good. So we decided We're just gonna... Project project is out because what we're feeling is called guilt and shame because we seemingly separated from God and lost our holiness, which we didn't lose, but it seems like it seem to have lost it.
We now feel guilt and shame. So we say, okay, we're not feeling very good. We're going to project everything outwards, but if we just project everything, outwards, all the stuff that would reflect our fear, the world would look like nothing but fear. So believe it or not, what we do is light layers of ego.
Then the ego says, you know what you deserve now for having separated from God or NOTI things in this world. So we have hurts and wounds, childhood wounds, past life, lines, what it looks like, or our creation, which isn't really the right word for it, but in our creation, here's how it looks. Corley of ego will call it or darkness vail, and then wounds guys, wounds past life, childhood wounds, wounds, and wounds and wounds.
So do we wanna walk around the world just going high? Look at me, manage stuff. Wow, I'm nothing but woundedness. Most of us now have to put something in front of the wound and it's called a mask. Yeah, I was winded, but now I'm a successful ceo. I was wounded, but now I'm a happy mother. Yes, things happen to me when I was a crop it.
I'm over that those are all masks it. We can commit, we can brush it. We can spray it, we can, can it, we can find it up, we can do whatever. We can certify it and we are certifiable, for sure. So we can keep proving to the world. Look at me, I'm not as bad as we all know that I am so I'm gonna distract you with success.
But man, I've met everybody. I've met every imaginable thing, the most wealthy, and the successful, and the actors, and deep inside we're all humans. And at the core of our being, we're really light. But before we get to that core, underneath our facades, there's pain. Now, not everybody has the same level, the same amount of woundedness and so on.
But it's really sad because underneath our facades, the masks are wounds. And even if some of us say, well, thank God I haven't had tremendous ones. Have you ever been afraid? And when I say wounds, let's be clear about this. The definition from Michael Medad anyway, of trauma is anything that lacks love.
Anything that lacks love is traumatic. So you may not have even had overt horrible abuses. Have you ever been afraid? I remember feeling trauma just watching when I had a child and it had a problem crying and I couldn't fix it, just seeing it in such pain was traumatic to a degree. So when you say, I don't have any issues whatsoever, you do you ever look out around you? Have you not heard that there are people suffering from this and that and the other? How does that not hit you on some level? Because even if you think I'm really doing well 'cause I make sure my closer bleached
out nicely to look real white and spiritual, and I wear spiritual jewelry and I live in sedona. Wow, man. I'm just. Amazing. Even if you could pull that off, you're part of the collective too. So if you wanna pretend that the collective doesn't have any issues, you're actually trying to separate from the collective that you're part of.
It doesn't make any sense, even if you can say, I'm doing really well. Thank you. I'm glad you are, but we're not. You're still part of us as long as we're suffering, you're still suffering to some level and I'm not trying to bum everybody out, so bear with me. But. I am saying There's stuff, man, there's hurt, there's collective sadness and fear, abandonment.
There's sickness illness, death, all kinds of scary things in horrible things, and there is no time, which means even the pains of yesterday are still here, anticipated pains of tomorrow or already here. And again, I'm not trying to bum everyone out, but I am saying it's important for us to recognize outside we have masks, just turn within Jesus is saying, and I'm paraphrasing slightly in the Gospel of Thomas look within, and it's kind of like funny, because many mystics will say, be still look within and to shalt Vine bliss or whatever.
Right. Jesus says, be still look within and you will become disturbed. And it's like he must have missed motivational thinking, class 101, when he was in school. How are you gonna get people to follow your teachings when you say to follow me? I have some great things to share. First, be still going with it and you're gonna become disturbed.
Who wants to go to that class? But what he's saying is, when you look within the first thing you're gonna see beyond your masks are all the reasons you created masks every cover up everything you do a little this and that to make up for this. And it's all compensatory. What if I drop my masks? What would happen? What would happen? What if you're a very popular actor? What if you're a popular politician and people rely on you to look a, certainly be a certain way, think a certain way.
What if the President of the United states, if there was everyone you like to... Let's just say that, and let's say they went up on stage and said, I'm just not really doing well today. The Nation would panic because we've got this mask of just lemmings just saying, as long as that person says, everything's okay, we're gonna be okay.
So let's turn it on. He said, everything's okay. Oh, okay. It's just, it's lies. But what if they drop their mask? So everybody, what if you drop your mask and your suffering? There are rational reasons why we keep some of them appropriate reasons why we keep some of the masks up. But there is a way that it doesn't have to become something I wear where I don't have to identify with my mask any what's called vulnerability.
It's okay to say In this moment. I'm leading some folks, so let me put on my best way. Okay, fine. But can you ever take it off? Did you keep wearing it? Did you put on a happy face grade? Can you take it off in process? Whatever was actually there. So most of us get used to wearing the mask and once we wear them, remember the old Twilight Zone episode where there was the one about all these people, and this guy could held a party and he asked everybody to where I ask, so they all put them on.
But when they tried to take Him off, their faces can tour it to the strange mass that he asked them all liars, you're bitter. So now you can wear this better face. So by putting this on that, some sort of magic created their faces to look like the mask of bitterness or greed or whatever it happened to be, no, it's not that we're gonna go that direction, but that's what happens to us.
We become the masks we wear. That's what we're thinking. So now I am happy, but it's a false happiness. So under that false happiness, the mask KU put on of happiness, you think you're now happy, you try to take it off. And so even if you could, you just still have a false happens. You gotta keep up and there's a terrifying feeling at the idea.
Can I ever drop that? And most people don't even know this exists, so they don't even realize how terrified they are. But there's a point where we relax where we drop the masks prayers and meditations in healings. And we say, so what if, what if today? I'm just not as happy as I'd like to think I am.
What if I do have more wounds and memories of things that I would like to have thought I did just do it. Just take the mask off and cry. So and now some of your people that you might listen to Will say, well, don't just focus on positive, positive, positive. And I'm saying they're more masks. Everything has its place, including motivational speaking, positive thing, affirmation Al thinking all has its place life coaching all has its place.
But if you polish the outside with all that great, good, good, righteous energy, and I agree with those things, but without working on the inside, it becomes a mass rather than the reu. What we're looking for is to dig up the stuff behind the masks, work on that with god, but work on that stuff inside.
And then what happens is I don't have to wear a mask because my light start shining through what you used to be wounds and trauma. I don't have to wear a mask 'cause my light shines my life just right. That's part of what it means by put on the armor of the lord. It's my light shining out.
So instead of putting on a shiny face mask, it's actually shiny. It's when a person feels happy, throw and through, and we need one way to do that. One simple way to do that is realizing, it's almost as though he's... There's two creatures within two things To beings, whichever one you heard the story, which ever one you feed is the one that's gonna thrive, the one that's gonna be, but all too often, we feed this ego self.
The wound itself, and there are ways to deal with this, and one of them just real simple. I'm not going into a list yet, but one simple way. Gratitude, when you sincerely feel gratitude, what happens is you're accessing the light in the core of your being saying, I really am grateful, and I don't mean I'm really grateful that I'm not dead yet.
That's really, really reaching for something positive. I'm talking about. If you can't think of a single thing that anyone ever did for you that made you feel valued or a single thing you ever did for anyone else, that may then file values. If you can't do that, then you're in trouble.
But if you can, what you're doing is you're reaching to that light in the center of your being, that is the thing that was valued by someone else or gay value to someone else. And when you get it and say, that really was kind of cool and you let that spark fed into a flame. What you're doing is letting it burn off the false, the wound itself here in the middle.
And then it even burns off some of the mass we were wearing and it becomes us, so the joy becomes us. The love becomes us. The gratitude is one very underestimated way to bring this about, but the ego sits inside just doling out judgements. It has no intention. The ego self job is to keep you going out, and it does that by judging judgement means by definition, something is going to be blamed outside or credited outside, but it's always outer oriented.
Judgment is never really internal. The problem is we have already determined guys that were flawed, that we left heaven, and if you left having, there must be something wrong with you. If heaven is perfection and bless, think about the logic of that. Yeah, there was really having a bliss. And then we thought, let's leave that.
That's how you would respond to something wrong with you. How would you wanna leave that? Well, right. So we determine there's something wrong with us to deal with that we projected it as an outer world where everything is the blame for our lives. When we have the courage we turn within and we start realizing it's time to start looking at my own stuff.
So this gets very tricky. I'm gonna share a brief list with you in just a second. It's a progression that I scribbled down so that we could go over it step by step. But remember the ego's intention is project these things outside, but then what happens is, all that does is increase our Shames and guilts inside for judging other people.
Some of us say judgement should result in forgiveness. Fair enough. Then we think forgiveness means that we're going to forgive people for wronging us, which makes total sense on a linear level. What I'm gonna explain is that before the people wrong us, we had already judged ourselves as deserving such and such.
No, not the specific thing. If someone kicks you in the leg, it's not like you woke up that day saying, I can really... I can see that I deserve a kick in the leg. It's not like it's in your meditation and clear visions. It's not that it's that obvious. What I'm saying is that all we have to do is believe even ever so slightly, that there is anything at all wrong with us and it will attract a wounding, you see now as soon as I attract the wounding, I'm kind of mad at you for wounding me, which is gonna then cause
me to judge you more, which is because also I'm also already judging myself for judging you for kicking me. So even though it's just this constant feeding cycle that goes around and around, so I feel upset. I attract people that treat me poorly once they do. I judge them. I feel badly that I judge them now that's gonna attract more and around and around we go and where she stops.
Nobody knows. And this is constant, the guilty and shaming externally. We do it like the term shame on you even to is parents can do that to kids. Shame on you. It used to be considered like a curse shame on you. It's like you gotta go out with shielding yourself with a light on or of light, because people could just randomly throw out these courses, but who am I really? I am this perfect light inside.
If I can identify with my innocence, I wouldn't then feel guilty, shameful, hurtful, wronged, wrongful, and nothing. I wouldn't feel any negative feelings, so I wouldn't then need to push him outside of myself to feel better. So here's the progression or digressing depending on how you wanna look at it.
Alright. First, the ego reminds us of our seeming choice to separate. So this is how it begins every single day. You're waking up, he goes Right there. High morning. Oh, you again, it's like, okay, listen, in case you don't know, you feel terrible. I even even woken up, I haven't even had my weeds OU know.
Yeah. You feel terrible. Why? Well, because you look at Where are you? I'm in bed. Where on Earth you must have left heaven. Oh, you're kidding me. I thought that was just a bad dream. It reminds us every day. You're not in Kansas anymore. Toto, you adore, you left, you left. Heaven starts with that.
Then it says, and being your friend, which it isn't. But being your friend, I just want you to know how awful you should feel for not being in heaven then. And not only should you feel awful for separating. Chances are you should be careful and be afraid, because if you did separate from god, the chances are something's gonna happen to you as a punishment.
Then this actually starts creating people to attack us and be mean to us, because they are the manifestation of our inner thought that we deserve to be punished, then comes our reasoning for not completely unconditionally, trusting other people. See, we can't completely trust other people because we already suspect they are one of our assassins that have been sent out to get us for separating from god, obviously, I'm not going to be able to see the Christ presence in another person when I already know they're
out to get me. And then we repeat this over and over again. So our guilt and our regrets from the past already make us afraid of the future. So people, this is why of course, in miracles is saying, I see only the past. So every day, no matter who we are, every day we wake up with the same exact question, am I or am I not? As God created me, all we have to do is not just answer.
Yes, we are. As God created us to be, not only answer, you have to believe it. I am. As God created me, which is actually a prayer of gratitude. If you see underneath that, that's a prayer of grad. I am think, god, if I can understand that and believe that I am, as God created me, that 'cause every thought and every belief attracts an external reality, a manifestation, a reflection.
The outer world is a hologram of my inner world. If I know to wake up and say I am, as God created me. I will see that if I say no, I'm not, or... And this is the bad news. No answer at all is I am not. That's the bad news. If you don't say yes, you're saying no. Even if you are undecided non committal or made no decision at all, all of them get grouped in the opposite.
And that's why we seem and feel so unarmed, so to speak. So outnumbered, and rightfully so, this is the way we set it up. We have to switch in the core of our being. We have to switch over to something new, believing something different. And it's something that's very foreign to us, but it could be made easier if we do these things with god.
So you're even better off saying, I do not know ultimately who I am. And then you say, show me, god, show me what kind of day I can have. If I'm your child, show me the kind of life I can have. If I'm one of your holy children, show me what innocence looks like. Show me what guiltless list looks like.
Seven. When we say words like guilt and shame, most people in the spiritual community or in the new age community cannot even relate if I put that in the title of the talk. They wouldn't have even tuned in. Oh, it's about guilt. Shame on that ended. I don't have any of that. That's what's making you shut off the video because you don't want to accept if it's a very simple math if you're a good parent.
But for some reason you have a child that's disturbed for some reason mentally, maybe. And they run away from home. Let's say deep inside, they know they've done something that's not in their best interests. They're entering a world that's scary and could possibly hurt them. But if you were a good parent, but something in their mind led them to do that, you're still fine as a person, you didn't do any wrong, you didn't hurt them.
God didn't do any wrong, but inside that child, even if they're not mentally disturbed, they just did something cause a friend tempted them to a friend, talk them into it. They did it. They're still going to feel bad to some degree about having done it, I possibly have hurt my mother's feelings by leaving home.
I may have hurt my mom. I may have heard now. I feel terrible. What I've done. I can't possibly go home now and that's what we've done. We left heaven forgetting that we were forgive in the moment that it happened. That's the story of the Buddhist and the Christian versions of the prodigal son.
So when it gets down to forgiveness, this is gonna be the trickiest part of all. We think it looks like this. Okay. Every day I get up, I go about my day and eventually somebody's gonna do something rude, but I'm spiritual so I forgive them. And that's what's considered a spiritual life. For most people.
You'll see it on facebook. You go to forgiveness pages, it'll probably be in there reading about forgiveness. Well, I'm doing better with forgiveness. How so? Another more on hurt my feelings today, but I forgave him really. That's a great testimonial like, that's it. Now I will say this, that's better than doing no forgiveness, but there's something tricky.
What if the... I'm not selling you. The person was nice. I'm not pretending they came up and kicked you. I'm not saying no. Just pretend that didn't happen. Just you'll walk with a live, but just pretend you don't have a limp. It's gonna be painful, but don't reach down to kind of rub this in.
No, it does not hurt. It does not hurt. That's not how you heal. What's really strange about this is that the outer world keeps showing evidence of a problem inside. If I come up and kick you, I am evidence that you're not perfect and holy 'cause if you're perfect and holy, you wouldn't have attracted this.
Listen, all the people with positive thinking out there, all those videos and books and stuff, it's about positive thinking, you attracted this and then that makes you feel even worse. It's really sad 'cause I've got people on Facebook pages that write in, and michael, I'm practicing this and I did these Peres nobut.
Something still happen today. And I feel so terrible. How did I create that? The whole idea that we create is not supposed have made you feel worse then you didn't understand it. Anything that makes you feel more guilt and shame is not god. So that's why there are false forms of forgiveness circulating on the planet.
You would think forgiveness is a topic that's immune to any problems? No, no. The ego rites shot gun with everything it writes, just site settled to... It's right there with you. It's just writing side by side with you on every decision. Just because you read a course in miracles, it doesn't go well, is mis well pack up.
It doesn't happen like that. I'm going to unity of Sidon now that I watch out viton, probably nothing will ever happen again. It doesn't work like that. As soon as you say, I'm on a path. I read a book that's really spiritual. The goes right there saying, yes, I'm gonna help you read that.
I'm gonna make you obsessed on getting all these steps right 'cause you know you're not gonna get them right and I'll be right there to show you when you didn't do it right, it's gonna be there constantly. How do you know when it's there? Do you feel guilt and shame or regret the unholy trinity of emotions? Guilt, shame, regret.
You can pretend you don't have them, but if you're in a body, it's likely you have them. Because the very fact that you incarnated is because as Buddha points out, regrets karma, what's car's a regret? That's all. It's just a regret stored in the soul. I probably shouldn't have done that now.
I owe someone a mens of some kind. Nowi gotta go back. So Reincarnation is just regret Hill regret, shame and guilt, shame, or these it's this feeling that I'm flawed. I'm not just ashamed of what I've done. Even things done to me. I walk around carrying the shame. I'm not perfect. I'm damaged goods as some people call it.
What a strange way to identify yourself. And how amazing if we really ever slow down and imagine I am, as God created me, I really am. How magnificent is that? And instead what we're doing is I think I separated from god. Like I said before, forgiveness can be somebody did something bad. I forgave him.
That's better than nothing, but it's a limited form of forgiveness. So instead how it looks is this, somebody was mean to me, somebody hurt me today. Okay. Instead of forgiving them, pause for a moment, somebody hurt me. Where did it really come from? And we learned to go inside, instead of you hurt me.
But I forgive. You see how that was still outside inside means you did this. But when I look at this that you did and the feelings it brings up, this isn't the first time you rejected me today, but this isn't the first time I have felt rejected, which means we have what's called a pattern, not an isolated incident.
We have a pattern who has the pattern I do instead of forgiving you for rejecting me. I go inside and I'm gonna start looking at the pattern in myself. And if I really wanna get down to it, I could realize, take it all the way back to the beginning of time and say Once upon a time I rejected God thought I left then flow into the universe, landed on earth and started in Carina O and behold, I thought Somebody rejected me today, but behind it is I rejected god.
I felt bad about it and started manifesting people rejecting me as a pattern in my life. But that's probably silly. So just forgive you anyway. No. I probably need to forgive myself. All forgiveness starts with forgiving others, but it always... If you go deeper with it, always turns inside and we realize, I, after I forgive myself, that's a hard one for people.
And some people even twist that into meaning things that they shouldn't be twisting it into. But it's true. I'm not saying don't also forgive the other person, but I am saying, go deeper with it to a recognition that I'm the one with the pattern. So this is what's really cool on the outside.
I could have manifested dozens and dozens of rejections on the outside spokes of a wheel. But when I track them back, heal and forgive the core, the hub called rejection, do you see what's gonna happen to all the spokes? If I forgive the core pattern, the spokes will all disappear. I don't have to track down each person and you rejected me and you rejected me and you thank god, I'm such a forgiving person and you're rejected me and you will not be able to.
No human being has The ability, like Abraham Lincoln said, nobody has a good enough memory to be a good liar, it's along those lines. You can't hide from yourself. Nobody has a good enough memory to... I really pin down everybody as being the fault, but you can righteously accurately and effectively go to the root and forgive it, and you don't even have to know what other people were there.
You don't have to know which lifetimes in strains of it everywhere. So this is something I've shared many times, but tried to tune into this. Let's say there's two routes you can go with forgiveness, one is tracking down every single person, an event, and good luck. Think about it. Or imagine this.
If you could forgive the core pattern, what's happening is you're actually taking care of all the parts that branched off at once, which is more efficient, which takes less time, which is more effective. Always the stuff at the core. Our job is to learn our lessons and heal our wounds and uproot such things.
But guilt and shame, we have to learn to recognize guilt and shame and how it affects our lives. We're carrying the stuff to just like heavy soaked coats, and it weighs upon us. But then what we do is because we're carrying guilt and shame, we start to get agitated because it hurts our body. It hurts our minds.
So what do we do when we're agitated as we vent? Now, once I said, get away from me, I'm carrying lots of dont. Jane, get away from me. We start going god. I was probably mean to them now I have more guilt on game. Look at your code. I'll carry that one too, and we carry another one. How do we drop them, apologize and make amends where you have done harms, if you can drop some of'em that way.
The others are... A lot of them are gonna be, you're gonna realize my own guilts and shames about myself my own judgments on myself, myself. And as I dropped those weights, just look at what happens the way to the world off my shoulders. I get to breathe easy. And sadly, I cannot see that Christ in anyone else.
If I'm not able to see it myself and I'm not gonna see it myself if I can't see it in everyone else, so I cannot become the living Christ while carrying shaman, guilt, they're called mutually exclusive. You can't have one and the other at the same time. So if we're not feeling joy right now, if you were to take an evaluation of how you woke up today or how you felt today, your joy level, your little joy meter in here, you check it out.
If it was not up there seven, eight, 910, that means you're probably carrying some guilts and chains, because guilt and shame are gonna counter joy and abundance. Peace enjoy guilt and Jane gonna counter peace and joy. So how am I doing today? This is cool because many great teachings like of course, and miracles will tell you, if you wanna know how you're doing in your mind and your soul, just check into your typical feelings.
How are you feeling? I'm feeling pretty expensive. If you don't. It means you woke up on wrong side of your head. That's. About. it, I woke up on the wrong side of my head. How do I know 'cause, well, everything's gone wrong since I woke up, or it went CPOE and oh, halfway through the day, somewhere in there, I'm watching someone put in the wrong movie for a moment.
Let's blame someone. I was doing great till I saw you today. That. Means. the moment I ran into you was a moment after the wrong tape got put in a horror, take a drama, a murder mystery, a bad movie, bad. Just a horrible movie. And it didn't happen when they entered your life. It happened when we chose to believe that we were less than home, and so they're there to reflect it.
That's what it means. When we say People are our lessons. Do you understand it a bit more deeply? Now, people are carrying lessons to us. People are there to teach us. They say, it doesn't mean intellectually. Well, they're all there to teach us something teaching us means, reflecting back to us our decisions about ourselves today.
All you have to do now is what movies are playing. I feel really great. I'm watching the movie. I was like, wow, this is a really great movie. You know what happens when there's a great movie you chose? Well, you know what happens when there's a terrible movie you didn't choose well, who's involved in either you? That's not to increase the blame and shame guilt and all that, but it's to change our responsibility level.
So let's look at that. Let's take time to look at that. We're gonna do as part of our closing, we're gonna do a decree, and the degree is a great way to clear the center of these old patterns. But let's remember we're wearing masks that the support this picture, this, if I have rejection issues and I put on a mess that, hey, I don't have rejection issues because I have a wife or a partner husband, or whatever IT is.
And kids look at me, there's no rejection, we're wonderful, great family, and we love each other. And when they get older, they're not even moving away 'cause there's no rejection issues in me at all. I'm just adding on more rooms and they're all gonna live 'cause I'm gonna prove there's no rejection.
You see, you can't by doing that, but let's pretend you try. It's a mass. And what's gonna happen is you're building to react to your, your rejection issue. You're building an outer facade to prove that there is none. It's going to happen where the universe is going to take something away.
It's going to cause a crack in your mask, eventually go, there's a crack and then it splits more and more, and eventually the masks are gonna have to pop open to show what's under it. Now, some people will keep putting up the mask, putting on new mass over the old mass. It doesn't work. Ultimately, what we have to do is own how we don't want our wounds to be exposed.
There's a movie I watched yesterday that was interesting, but in it, there was a psychotherapist and the Two of them, and they were talking to each other, and one of them was saying, if you're not interested in me, I'm okay with that. I'm an adult and I'm a counselor. I know how to deal with those things within 30 more minutes, crying terribly about rejection that they never wanted to feel.
So we can put on the mask and we can put on the successes and we can put on that. I've been there before, I'm tough now we can put on any errors, but underneath it, if we don't deal with that stuff underneath, the MAS are gonna crack blow off or whatever's gonna have been eventually expose it.
So what I'm saying is this is inevitable? Why don't we just choose to do it instead of waiting until it's done to us 'cause whenever you don't work out through healing, you will end up experiencing in your feelings. Whatever you don't work out will be acted out. So it's just common sense.
Why don't people do it then? It's an inconvenience. It's annoying. It's kind of dark, have to look at that stuff, at least with my mask. I have good days and bad days. If I were removed the mask, I have only bad days. That's kind of good logic there, except when you remove the mask, you will momentarily have bad days having to look at stuff and then it will be gone, and you will find the inner Christ and whole new you emerges.
So technically their right to say, be afraid, be very afraid. Don't ever take the journey within. It's what you will see. Jesus is saying, you will be disturbed, but after being disturbed, his statement continues to the point of, and you'll find bliss. So it's an inconvenience. People aren't used to it, but most of it is just...
They're just fears guys, which means they're not actually there, these things, they're just fears that they are there. When you say, I'm afraid that if I move my mask, I'm gonna show vulnerability about what? Well, that I don't have it all together. Great. No. Mean either how you doing well, but I don't want people to think.
I don't have why 'cause I'm an author, I've written books about how everything Stirling look at me, it one of my books, even gold. Look at me. I'm amazing. And if I show that, then your next book should be Look what I found underneath. And people will buy that one too. And if they didn't, who cares? You know, I mean, really because you're your real self.
When Atlantis Morisset released an album and it was wonderfully hateful. She just took every story that everybody that ever bothered her abused her neglected, every guy that ever be trader. She just was just like using it into the records, you blank. And he can believe she just blurted out and it sold millions because people are like me too.
I can relate to that. So they're all singing the songs. I hate him to. I and toand, everybody's like singing out that she goes to India and she's like, oh, Oh my god. She comes back sings. Thank you, india. Thank you. All the garbage that I ever believe 'cause it's just an illusion. Oh my god.
And nobody bought it now. It's like, what happened? You'd have to face your fear that when you become holy, The world is gonna tell you you're not as cool in or you don't have that quite that inch anymore. And it's something, everybody, it's like Gerhard son, coming out of the beatles.
He just writes, all things must pass. He wrote songs about, why do you keep telling me I can't change? It's really sad that you think I have to stay into the thing you wanted me to be. So we all have to have that moment where your kids go, mom, go back to being your parents go back to being... And I'm not saying change just to prove something 'cause that's not you anyway.
But I'm saying to find our true selves at any cost to find our true selves. So start by identifying the masks, if you can, what are the images, you not, that you believe you are, what images do you believe you put out there? Just spontaneously name of you and some pretty successful this, that good tests.
Good at that on whatever. And you can say, well, that's not a mask. I really am write it anyway, just in case you're not as perfect as you thought. Just write it. Because. if it's real, when you remove, if it was seemingly a mass and you remove it, it'll still be there. But stop with the masks.
There's all kinds of ways that this is gonna come to you as it comes to me. But it's like this image of Here I am, it's this open it. You can pull off the guilts and chains. But before you even see those, you gotta pull off the masks that you don't have any guilt. And james, I don't have ungame, I'm just successful.
Take off that mask and we'll see what you are. Can you talk about it? Can you sit with counselors? I've known people to go to counselors for years and never told them certain things about their life, how vulnerable was that doesn't make any sense whatsoever. So we say, you know, here I am. When I was younger, probably in my 20s, I went to a counselor and I went in and I sat down and I said, because I was already somewhat known out there in the world and I said, now, I wanna sit with you and I wanna work on some things.
Whatever comes up the first focus was raising kids and struggling with what became my ex about how to raise the kids with the proper thing. I said, I'm open. You be my sounding board. You tell me where am I often on and whatever about raising his kids, because we're not getting this right. We're contradicting each other with kids.
So I kinda said here, I am for that. But whatever else comes up. But I said to him, and I want you to know, you might know me or whatever I said, but if you know me 'cause I think he said, I recognize the name. I said, well, I teach, but I said, I need you. I need you to not speak to me as a teacher. I need you to not see me as a counselor or a teacher or anything else.
I want you just to see me as anyone else that comes in and need you to say what you need to say. That's it. It's like you instead of, well, I kinda know all that you're gonna tell me, but it just looks good if I come here instead just tell. And when I stopped seeing that guy years later last week.
Actually. No, I'm kidding. But when I stopped seeing the guy, I really loved the guy. He was so amazing. And I said, you know, this is my last time, I'm gonna see you cause I was moving out of that area. And I said to my last time, I'm gonna see you, but I wanna thank you. He was kind of a full body, uh, Jewish man, very, very strong looking.
And I said, you carried very well. My dad's energy, first of all. But I said, what amazes me? You've never talked about anything spiritual, but your very spiritual. See. I knew he was religious, but he never spoke it. He's Jewish and he's religious to that faith, but he never spoke it. And I said, what I really always appreciated, no matter how I grew some...
The things were that I had to share with you. I said, you were always there, and you were always spiritual. And he said, you know what? I've never had such a compliment. He said, it means a lot to me that anyone could ever have felt my attempt to be spiritual without speaking it 'cause that was important to him and he said, and I wanna tell you the one thing I most appreciated about you, the day you came in and said, no masks.
Just tell it to me like, you need to tell it to me with no hairs, no fronts. It's not that horrible. It really isn't. It's kind of a relief to do that to say to even your own partner. I think it's great to say to your partner, listen to, and you've heard me say this one before, but you, you sit and you say, I wanna share with you how much I care about you and so on positives, and I wanna share with you how much I really would have loved to save you from all hurts.
I would have loved to have been perfect in so many ways. I would love to have been your best lover ever. I would like to have been your best friend ever, and all the things I would love to have been and you to be for me. And it's not easy for me to say this, but I'm going to accept today that I can't that I can't do it.
I actually can't fix everything. I can't prevent you from ever hurting from ever being sick from ever doubting your... So I can't now 'cause I don't want to. It can't be done and I'm really sorry, but I'm gonna have to retire from that today. And if they could reciprocate the same statement The same, it's a ritual of goodbye, but not goodbye.
It means the masks. It's kinda like saying, listen, I have this one mask. I try to always be in a great mood. It terrifies me, but I'm gonna drop it. I have this other one that I'm the most handsome pretty, or whatever thing you've ever... And I'm gonna drop that. It's not easy. It's kind of joyfully scary 'cause the inside, you know what you're doing is healthy and right, but it's kind of scary inside.
Seriously. I'm gonna own that. Maybe not. We fell in love and we met when we're older and I'm going through menopause, so I can't be what I wanted to be for you. We met and I've already had children, and now I can't have any more and bring give you children, I can't do this. All those things that come up human beings would actually rather believe that any of those are possible still, honey, I'm 13 and I'm gonna own that.
I can't give you children. It's not easy 'cause I still think there's a chance, but just as drop the MIS and the person listening should actually tune into how that feels 'cause it doesn't feel great. You might go, oh, of course. Of course. No, no. When you're really honest, you realize timewanted you to give me kids.
I wanted you to be this. I want deep down. We do have the hooks and agendas to those masses they're wearing which is causing the glue to keep'em on. So when they dropped them, it's a part of us having to be vulnerable and accept. Okay, I'm glad you told me. And when it's done, and hopefully both people have done such a thing.
And even if you can't do it in person, just do it in your mind, but do it sincerely. But when done, you can say how all the masses have dropped. So I'm not even sure who I am. I gotta be honest. I thought I was this and that, and Masai don't even know who I am. So I guess what I have to offer is this, if you would like to get to know the new me, which I can't even tell you what that looks like 'cause I don't know yet.
But if you'd like to get to know the new me, I'm open to that. If you can't or won't, I will understand it. I'll be hurt, but I'll understand. You have to put that out there one and every so many are gonna say, no, I want the happy girl. I want the one that was a wealthy man or woman.
There's gonna be some people that are gonna say that. Don't ask these questions if you're not willing to hear that answer. And I'm sorry if it does happen that somebody says, well, no, that it gonna happen. And I've heard that in my life, but I've heard that in other people's lives where somebody says, no, I still have to have those things.
I need that from you. You're gonna hurt breath and say, okay, I understand. Create an exit strategy. Do not do not bargain and say, wait, I'll give you back three of those. If you give me back the love that you were giving me, you can't. You have to say, okay, don't bargain. Don't retract your statement.
Don't do that. Just breathe. And the house could be empty the next day, and I would rather be in an empty house and start getting to know the real me then to have all think. I remember a wonderful woman in my life was my God mother. And she had a life all set up. Wealthy man, powerful man. Well connected, worked for presidents and all these kinds of things.
And I shared this story once before, but just briefly it. I remember we stopped seeing her coming around and it's like, whatever happened. And the story was she went crazy. Oh, what a bummer. You know if a kid, I'm like, well, leaving it, she went, oh, bummer. What really happened was she told my godfather, you know, she told him I'm out of here.
He said, you can't leave 'cause he's told her many years and she didn't do it. She didn't leave. He said, you can't leave the money is mine, everything is mine. If you leave, you'll have nothing. And I'll tell everybody You're crazy. He didn't mention to anybody that he used to chase her through the house with a gun.
He didn't mention anybody that he used to beat her up. She kept up the air. She kept the fake and just... He said To me, I did it 'cause of the money. Mike likei stayed. I was afraid I had no life. She bargained. And she said, but you know what happened one day, I walked out with nothing and I've never been happier.
He did have me institutionalized for several weeks, but you know what? None of those people beat me up. None of the people in the hospital chase me around with a gun. That's really the hard way man having to peel off the layers, those masks. But she was blissful after she was blissful. She was probably already in her 40s.
She became a hippie. She moved to oregon, lived in a community or whatever. She wanted a war or nothing at all. So I imagine nothing at all. I imagine. She, she. was happy, but she went through that. And again, the people around, he said she went crazy and she did not go crazy. She had a breakdown, but it was a break through and it was hard.
It was... I mean, I saw her, she was scared. She was sad and there was a bit of that. But that's just for a moment because it is kind of hurts to pull those masks off, but stop blowing them on and what heard as much. So please remember letting go of masks, letting go of guilt and shame. It's only gonna be as painful as is our insistence to try to keep it.
Technically none of those things are real. So they have no power and they have no ability to give you pain. So if you fill the pain in making the changes that to stop and say, okay, wait, Where am I possibly being attached to keeping this in some way? Try to bargain and you're gonna feel pain. Alright, let's take a moment to center in on to an internal process.
It's just tune out the stuff of the world. And even if you're a person who carries very little overt, guilts and shames. Remember you're part of the collective. So it's still wise to do the work. We're not always happy and we do have challenging moments. Let's be honest about them, vulnerable about them, open our hearts and souls, and do the heart and soul healing work.
See a counselor, see someone that'll help you work those deeper parts, do the online healing the heart and soul, of course, do journaling anything that processes the masks off the inner stuff out and in the open. When we shine light on these things, they disperse. If they scream on their way out, let them screen on their way out.
And each time we choose to recognize our innocence and divinity rather than the guilds and so forth. There's an energy every time we choose to identify with our guiltless ness or innocence. There's a burst of energy that comes from our soul out into the world around us, and actually feeds the light that surrounds this planet instead of the darkness that can also surround it.
Every time we choose to access our innocence and our holiness and actual energetic burst takes place that is as great as powerful as when Jesus was born, because it still someone being born into the Christ light, really me. I can do that. Absolutely. So we take a moment to say, father, mother, God, in this moment, we're willing ready, willing, and able to expose the unhealthy bits and pieces of life.
The heavy soaked coats that we carry of guilts and shames and regrets. So we ask that the Holy Divine Mother and the Holy Spirit descend into our being in this moment and activate an open each of our centers chakras so that we can clear emotional baggage open each center, the crown, the third eye, the throat center, open, open, open.
We are open. We are willing ready, willing, and able be with us and take us through this process. Open our heart, solar plexus, navel center root center, open every center. We choose your will to be done and your will is that we not carry these things. I joyously surrender all ego emotions of separation, and instead allow my emotions and desires to be filled with peace and happiness of god.
And after each prayer, some of you know, they all only to a half dozen short prayers, but after each one, you can repeat. I am. As God created me, I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender all ego emotions, that a programed me to respond to attacks by defending myself. If I defend myself, I am attacked today.
I will not defend myself because the son of god, the children of God need no defense. In my defense listeners, I am strong beyond measure and always at peace. I will be still an instant and go home. Now, there is only God and nothing can disturb me. I affirm that my IAM presence is the only power that is allowed to act in my emotions.
I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender my ego beliefs that I can separate from god. I choose to look at this life with no fear, no shame, no guilt, no denial on my part in ever creating this belief as I heal my misperceptions about being separate from god. His love and light confirm their presence by speaking to me through my intuition, imagination, and creative impulses.
I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender the ego belief that God blames and judges me for the decisions I have made. I am responsible for creating my ego and for judging myself for doing so, therefore, I choose to forgive myself for these decisions and accept the truth of who I am and what I deserve.
God is, but love, and therefore, so am I? I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender my ego belief that due to the error of my choices and actions. I'm not worthy to enter God's kingdom by learning from my mistakes and surrendering. I am releasing. I am released from my past.
Therefore, I accept my rightful place as a co creator with god. I am here to multiply my life and let my I am presence, take dominion over the earth. Today I choose the life that forgives debt. Forgiveness offers, where in I am free from judgments that would reject a life of miracles. I am, as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth.
I joyously surrender my ego belief that to return to Heaven or God, or to perform miracles, that that I need to be perfect. I accept the truth that God does not look for human perfection, as does the ego, even though it forever finds, flaws. But instead, God looks for the purity of heart. It's not those who are perfect to see God, but instead, it's those who are pure in heart, who shall see God.
Therefore, I surrender all impurities in my heart. Let me remember. I am one with God. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender the ego emotions. That once convinced me that just because I couldn't see, remember, or understand all the the scars within my emotional body, it meant I could not heal them.
I can work on my past without feeling so overwhelmed that I react by going numb or into denial. Although I know it is not always necessary. I am willing to witness, if need be, all of my emotional pains. I invoke waves of healing to wash through my emotional body to cleanse and consume all past wounds. that once overwhelmed me.
All the power of heaven stands with me and within me, I am willing to love myself so unconditionally, in all situations, from my past, the light has come, I have forgiven all. The peace of God is shining in me now. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. And one more.
I joyously invoke the pure compassion of Mother Mary's Immaculate heart, and I call for it to wash over my emotional body and the emotional bodies of all human beings in all dimensions. Divine Mother, let the energetic waves of your pure heart wash through and consume my burdens and the burdens of all people, so we can attain the vision and the will to rise above our fears and wounds. Awaken us to the reality that, as long as we are not healed, we create an ongoing connection and identification to the wounds of the past and the people who seemingly hurt us.
I consciously surrender all emotions created or controlled by my ego. I say, as did the divine mother once upon a time, Oh lord, my "I am" presence, let my life and my emotions be according to your will. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. And now, in the name of my holy father, mother God, the Holy Son child Christ, my true identity and the holy spirit.
I accept that I am one with my I AM presence, and that, through that oneness, I am sealed from all ego illusions and the appearances that they project onto the screen of life. Today I am one with God and with all of my brothers and sisters. I affirm that archangel Michael and his legions consume the planetary forces that are anti to Christ consciousness.
My Crist self exposes and consumes all power previously given to my ego and all its manifest forms, having surrendered all illusions. The Prince of this world comes and finds no resonance in me. My emotions and desires are God's, and the fullness thereof. We'll repeat three times. My emotions and desires are God's, and the fullness thereof.
My emotions and desires are God's, and the fullness thereof. God is raising the Earth into a glorious new day. Today I choose to live and be the will of my Father mother. God, today, I choose the life of Christ. The kingdom of God is manifest in me and on Earth now and forever. And so it is.
Before you open your eyes, please just take a moment to center anchor all this inside. We once believed we were separate and we forgot our identity. The forgetfulness became a band of darkness around our light and the throne, and that darkness became sat upon by the ego that sent us outside to experience hurts wounds, past lives, and childhood wounds, and then to increase guilt and shame around it all, and then to put mass outside of that so that we could look better to each other 'cause each of us is a universe unto ourselves.
So we look at each other seeing masks, not the hurts inside. And so we imagine all beings being given permission to drop their masks. And let's just for a moment, recognize if we're all witnessing each other people all around the planet, politicians, children, everyone, the mask high. I'm just a little cute little child now, politician successful business person.
Now say No to them all and let them drop their masks underneath a scared wounded, being underneath that, the terror of the ego to not want us to go any further inside, and we commit to looking even beyond that darkness and there's pure light. So imagine that we've had the courage to look beyond the mass and all the layers to the inside of each other, and there's pure light, you're not black or white.
You not blonder. Brunette, you're not male or female. You're not anything I need you to be. I retire everyone from playing any role whatsoever, strong, weak, needy, attractive, un, attractive handicap, sick, or fit and healthy. I don't need you to carry any of those. None of your around the planet, even Jesus off the cross, no one needs to play any roles because I am as God created me and I will to be the Christ on Earth and in so doing.
I'm seeing that same perfect light within you each and every one of you free at last free at last. Thank god almighty, we are all free at last. And so it is. It is.