When Things Fall Away

hi there thanks for joining us this is the Friday night spiritual insights with Michael Muir dad the topic today is going to be when things fall away this is relevant because that's the time of the year that we're having this conversation or presentation but it's also just very apropos for lots and lots of reasons think about the number of things that you know we've all maybe had to struggles with letting them go or things that went that we didn't want to go or needed to go you know and we just

resisted you know so there's the things that have to go and we resist and then there's things that do go and you know we're happy but yet sometimes wishing they would have gone sooner so there's so many convoluted things related to falling away things ending falling away and again when they go you don't want them to when they don't go you wish they would there's all these variations those are just a couple of examples you know and and the loss the hurt and people you know again whether it applies to things

you wish would go or wish they wouldn't go it's it's still a painful process a painful time and what's worse is and I've said this said this and talked as many times what's worse is when things do fall away and I said this because partly I'm saying this because it's talking to a gentleman just a few hours ago who was talking about unexpected unexpectedly as his partner passed away at the home and he was out of town and she didn't answer the phone and she was gone you know and this happens but I

could just see it's been a month but how painful it was for him how he can't think about it he can't he just starts choking up immediately and it's you know it's interesting because when we're through you know some of you know that I've written a book called the dark night of the soul and when we get to the other side to the light at the end of the tunnel it feels seems looks very diff and then we're like oh okay well that's fine it's of course because it's so much

easier when we get what we want and when we want it and how we want it but when things fall away it's essentially something you can't control there's a figure of speech I made up a long time ago and people find it funny and I do too you know but people get a kick out of my phrasing which is you know you it doesn't make any sense to glue leaves back on the tree when fall comes no but I like summer so I want those back on there well first of all that doesn't sound sane I don't think you would do very well I think they

would hospitalized you in a mental hospital or ward if they found you gluing leaves back on trees insisting that it remains summer there's nothing harmonious about that there's nothing peaceful about that there's nothing in that that means that you're being in the zone going with things going with the flow and and so on but yet I don't think any of us should should deny you the fear the sadness that fall has come I mean we love the fall season many of us the colors and the you know joy to a lot of things but

I'm talking about the deeper aspects of it so I've said for a long time when when people experience a loss you can sit and just even be in bed and hear leaves blowing outside or falling off the trees to the ground without even knowing it your subconscious is going oh and without realizing it you're having an internal conversation some of it could be all it's wonderful I hear the wind and you know some of us like those seasons like that but but for some on a subconscious level the leaves falling

means change and that for some of us is equivalent to death here comes a change here comes a an ending that I don't seem to be in control of and I know this may sound bleak because that's sometimes how it feels for other people that the bleakest oblique is in the dead of winter when everything seems cold or iced over or sort of constrain'd you know with thick clothes clothing and everything strapped down and you know it has that vibe to it now of course all of it has a different side that the toasty you know sitting by the

fire you know and your your toe is getting warmed by the feet getting warmed by the fire and you know there's you know there's all that cool stuff but I'm just talking about the depths right now not the heights and yeah there are Heights to the season the following aways the heights very simply it makes your own for a new life it makes your room for me to us you know for me to integrate the things I've learned or experienced in the last many moons so it's like okay well it's a time of integration it's not winter

integration but it's a time of retrospection and kind of hmm okay what what would I keep at this time and what would I let go of letting go of the the ghosts of the past hence Halloween in this in that season hence Halloween and then giving thanks Thanksgiving so letting go of the dead thoughts words deeds finances jobs experiences relationships letting go let it all die die die die die and Halloween is also symbolic of these things trying to haunt us don't you let go of me you know don't you dare don't forget me

I'm your old relation you know I'm your old this I'm your old job and they manifest as ghouls and goblins and you know all these creepy things seemingly in the in the season of Halloween but really they're symbolizing our wounds and hurts that are threatening to to haunt us and our job is to say wait part of Halloween the higher aspect it's like an astrology every sign has a an aspect like a a certain let's say an archetype or stereotype but really they all have to one representing the lower nature one

the higher nature like the the beasts of the Sagittarian and then the archer that's the upper half of that always aiming you know reaching for the stars aiming for high principles so all the signs have these two components and Halloween like that Halloween also in Halloween therefore is the ghost of the past trying to haunt us but on a higher aspect it's basically a higher octave you could say it's Halloween is also supposed to be called All Saints Day so in that partly the symbolism then is find your higher-self

find the saint the God that God is within you to be able to overcome all the the hauntings of what's gone on in the past you know and definitely don't judge yourself definitely don't fall into that trap that's the ghost getting the best of you you know where you you know you let your ego undermine your progress and you say okay wait why why is such-and-such coming up I haven't thought of that person or that event in years and it's because that's exactly what the ego is doing it's the the

subconscious the ego in our subconscious is trying to haunt us trigger us boo you know it's what the Halloween thing is it's all about startle and boo you might remember there's an old Twilight Zone episode and I think it was Lee Marvin the actor that played the role but if not doesn't matter but here he is in this western town and you know there's supposedly some guy that died and I guess there's you know they're all one superstitious and they're kind of like you know nobody goes out to that grave

you know because there's this story that nobody comes back or whatever one of those kinds of things and he's like oh you guys get over it you know they're like well I bet you won't go out there and sure I will well how will we know because we're not going out there so he says well I'll go out there and all I'll take this this sword or whatever it is and I'm going to stick it in the grave you know of someone and then you guys could go in the daylight to the next day to confirm that I was

out there so he shows him you know weathering you know the wind's blowing it's a blustery day and adding to the haunted 'no sand it's dark and so on middle of the night so he goes out to the middle of the graveyard or out of the graveyard and sees the great that he's supposed to stick the sword into the one that has all the dark superstition around it and he says alright you know so I'm here fine and he got a little bit fearful for a moment but you know he finds the courage puts the spear in the ground the sword in the

ground in the grave and he turns the way they film it he turns to walk away and as he turns you see him get startled because something grabs him and pulls him back and it's like wow so there was something to the superstition the ghouls the goblins and it's also very cool metaphor that the stuff that of our past will always get us now here's the part that in case some of you haven't done a spoiler alert and already told everybody the end or those of you who didn't see this the guys come out the next day well

he never came back what happened and then they see him his body laying there on that grave and they're like so it's true something did grab him and kill him you know look at him he's he's white as a ghost he had a heart attack something grabbed him and his heart failed him or something to that effect and then one guy goes no no look and they look and he put that spear in the ground the sword in the ground and they said look it went through his own coat he pinned his own coat into the grave when he turned he

thought something grabbed him he had a heart attack and died moral of the story it's our fears it's our fears that get the best of us so your ghosts your whatever's they you know they are all the whatever's of life they're the things that haunt us it has nothing to do with God it has nothing to do with God's will that we'd be afraid that we'd be tortured but I hear and see so many people so many friends so many students struggling you know I hear people talking about having gone back and

that's an interesting phrase e ology you know I went back I went back to my family's house this last week I went back and visited an old friend last week I did that go back and go back and went back to my school whatever it is I went back through my phone going back is very symbolic of I am journeying like a Mercury retrograde which we're also at this time I'm journeying backwards into my old self my old life my own my old beliefs what am i finding there only me I'm not finding any fate set by God but I'm finding me

and parts of me on hill parts you know fearful parts and in them in that show you know this guy's stabbed his own coat because the winds were blowing now there's an interesting twist they put on this oh so his coat was blowing in that direction and he stuck it in the you know and then his own fears got him now of course this is the twilight zone so they throw a twist which is but wait the wind was blowing the other direction last night so wait so it couldn't have been well even if it were something

grabbed his coat and pulled it that way you can't deny that his sword went through the coat and stuck in there so it still was his own fear twist and all it still was his own fear and this is all something we have to look at Halloween the lower octave the hierarchy the lower octave of course fear of course lower octave is going to be fear control the past unhealed wounds ghosts of the past etc the higher octave wait a minute this is all saints day I'm gonna resurrect I'm going to come back to life

I'm going to use this auspicious time to to get somewhere here and then making that concerted effort to move forward now if you make it through that test if you make it through that seemingly bleak period it's only a few weeks later you get to celebrate Thanksgiving because you have proven that you came through no now I want to go somewhere else just for a second here I'm talking about the you know encouraging aspect of this guy's just hang in there and Thanksgiving we'll celebrate together and so on and

it is cool where we we literally set this Europe literally set this Europe this particular year that you know changes are happening great things are going on it was started new projects but but even just in this fall my god in the next six weeks alone I've got conferences that have contacted you know asking me to speak and I'm very selective about those kinds of things so there's that kind of looming there's other things that I'll and support in other people's projects and make myself

available there so there's a bit of that going on that's just very minimal and there's the day-to-day emails and so on and daily sessions sometimes starting as early as you know the wee hours you know dark-dark is still outside sometimes and get to work you know and sessions off and on throughout the day and then that's just that's all the day-to-day stuff and we all have jobs or lives and we have days that are somewhat busy mine's just beyond busy but but it's day that's just my day-to-day stuff on a

bigger level there's the the upcoming global spiritual awakening conference that's coming up very soon if you haven't signed up please do it's most incredible thing it's just the most incredible thing all this the number of speakers and coming together with a focused a theme of this awakening spiritual awakening for Humanity there should be eight billion people attending this event that's for sure but instead it's you know it's going to be light workers that attend not people

that say they're light workers but people that are that committed they get in they commit they they do these things they don't just talk it you know and you know I just had an idea actually this just popped into my head I would I want to say this that I know some folks say well I can't you know I can't afford it's only 100 something dollars but you know things are tight for some people so I'm going to make an arrangement with the folks that run that I'm going to make an arrangement that

I'm going to sponsor a few people attending I don't know if it'll be a full sponsorship or partial I can help I can sponsor more people partially then I can just fully for you know it'll be less but something like that clearly I haven't sorted it out because it just popped into my head but but I'd like to sponsor some people if I can so the first people that that get in touch the first people that we get an email from you can email my office office at Grail productions or office of Michael Muir

dad comm the first people we hear from you know then I'll pass that on to them as the ones that responded first but that's just an aside okay you know and we all we all should just help where we can and how we can but anyway there's the conference coming up and a few days after that I've got a Thanksgiving thing you know event to sort of go in and focus on pray you know do prayer and bring people together and that lunch is my four day intensive my four day Christ consciousness intensive just most

incredible I love that I love that class because it's when people that are tuned into the Christ consciousness they they get to attend together of a conference a workshop my own four-day intensive and that you can attend online or you know in person whichever you want a doughnut I'm just saying that there's that and at the same time we have a anniversary celebration because it'll be starting my towards my 10th year of being at unity of Sedona so that's just an aside I don't mean to be a commercial there but

I'm saying that the busyness now despite and that's just naming a few things there's Christmas services we have to plan New Year's burning ball service that's all in a matter of weeks all just it's it's how life is you know so there's all these wonderful new things but for them to be the highest for anything you want to do to be the highest nature itself asks you to put something on the altar meaning let something go of the past we superstitiously created an interpretation of sacrifice to be

something we love like abraham thought God was telling him I want you to slay your own son for me that'll prove to me you love me what God was really saying to him and Abraham's mind misinterpreted it was I want you to give up things that you think are important that are more important than me you know God I want you to to your addictions your whatever they are codependent he had a codependent relationship with his son and that was a part of it right there and what matters is love what matters is is your relationship with God

you know I just did some talks at unity of Sedona at the last couple weeks called God first and then there's God first part two so that it was enough material that I took it into two weeks which I almost never do so just something to think about is fall and the leaves falling and your past falling and the ghosts true crying trying to haunt you and undermine your progress be aware of this again some of you are emailing and talking to me about these challenges I know some that are terrified financially I know some people that are

terrified romantically they're talking about being alone they talk about friends that have betrayed them even recently which perpetuates an old pattern for some of them of family or friends betraying them throw in the month under the bus that's why I have so often said guys you know if we don't have each other man I don't know what you've got we really have to stick together you know and it's a funny thing because as a spiritual teacher we sort of we can really see that we can easily

tell people let's stick together you know maybe there's going to be earth changes let's pretend earth changes start tomorrow I remember the change of the millennium and also and when 2012 came a lot of people just literally thought it was the end of the world and it was certainly a shift in consciousness that I can swear to you on but but some people thought there was literally an end of the world or at least devastation leaving people to fend for themselves and what amazed is if I would have said to even students

devout students of mine I mean I'm talking about meaning if I have let's say a thousand people just using a round number it could be a hundred a thousand ten thousand a hundred thousand whatever a number of you watch and go I really like what this guy has to say if I would have said hey everyone listen it is actually going to happen this is going to come down and there's going to be devastation we need to all pitch in and store up some some food and medical supplies for people you may not believe

this but could because I've I've worked with people for so long you may not believe this but maybe 1% maybe 10% on a on a good day if you want me to be real optimistic about it actually comes through and and steps up people will say I love these teachings I love this I love that they could whoever it is I mean Jesus they loved him they loved him oh you know God is with us he rolls into to Jerusalem and they're all like wow praise God this guy's wonderful guys within within hours they were yelling

their vote for him to be crucified from the highest praise and compliment to to crucifixion so this is the fall season the ghosts come out the memories of family that threw you under the bus and so on and so on you're you're needing to align with people that are more God centered as best you can more God centered it doesn't save you to run away enjoying like a cult thinking they're all on the same page because you know a lot of times you have guru kinds of things those are just twisted - so it's the world tries to make no safe

haven nope great healthy place for us we have to create one and right now we've created one in this kind of a group I have my friends of Michael Muir dad pays book group and in that group people can you know participate and share feelings and share thoughts but we don't we don't enable garbage we don't we don't want any gossip we don't want we don't we choose not to we just literally choose to say no to hate and gossip all these kinds of things even just the smutty stuff of the internet

I'm not interested in that so we approve posts we keep it clear and clean and people can of course post on each other's threads but we keep it really beautiful and clean as much as we can because I believe in this so you and I we we really have to choose our life you can't just expect that well this is a new friend they won't be like the old friend you have to create a better you that creates a better friend that's a little bit better at healthy boundaries so that even a new friend doesn't start

acting like an old friend they have to know what you're about so that they basically subconsciously will be saying to you sometimes consciously they say thank you thank you for sharing with me the parameters here so that I know what's okay and the ones that can't do that they fall off the leave off the tree just like the leaves falling to the ground let them go there are times I'm for myself there are times when it's like wow you know where is everybody like um has everyone just lost their minds hate

gossip hurt betrayal all these kinds of things it gets it gets lonely at the top as we've talked about before because as you move up the pyramid to the pinnacle that capstone which is the ultimate Christ consciousness there are less and less other building blocks with you meaning people so it'll happen that way for a while but not forever there will come a time whether it's the easy way or the hard way Humanity is going to learn to get their priorities straight they're going to turn back to God to spirit to

love to getting along to caring for one another but until they do you and I our job is to keep forgiving when they don't like I said I I sort of in a way I have a simple life in that there's only so many things I'm interested and devoted to really God in the path but at the same time there are those moments where it's like maybe if I just back off a little on that and do something a little more normal I could have a little more of this a little more of that you know folks cry out to me Michael what about affection

am I going to meet somebody someday Michael what about this can I not do that is it bad that I do this is it wrong that you know being so critical because we're really looking for some semblance of sanity some just normalcy and the fall season is extra tough because you're seeing some of the hopes of what would have been normalcy falling away I thought that was a friend now remember this guy we could be talking about in June and you could have fall meaning the season isn't just the calendar season it's the psychological

season of fall things falling away but yes definitely because we live in a symbiotic relationship whether we like it or not some lot of people resist that idea to earth instead they live in a parasitic relationship yeah instead of you know we can choose the symbiotic and realize I kind of you know you're just naturally going to flow with nature there's a certain time when the Bloods gonna do something different during certain seasons and do other things other seasons the wind is going to do something different all the elements in

your body and outside of your body they're all going to do something different each season and the fall is going to whether we like it or not even if you live in a warm climate where you say there are no four seasons you're still going to be dragged you know probably unconsciously so through a cycle of loss endings changes and and not understand how and why that's why you know people that live so close to the earth they walk through these ceremonies they did walk right through them they did they knew let's walk and

let's do movement and let's do ritual related symbolically related to our relationship to the change you know Oh spirits of fall we're doing this now and let this happen and that spirits of spring will dance and we'll do this and that it it's it's saying basically I'm choosing to step in and be a responsible participant with this movement it's not just the winds that will blow I will move with them I understand them I'm I am them and that's where some of those civilizations and organizations

lost themselves is they started getting so into the those things the changes they started worshipping the changes as though they were powerful over the people so they would ask the spirits of fall to not devastate them they would ask the spirits of winter to not devastate them you know as though these things were a living we are them they are us and when we realize that then all of a sudden we lock in I always use this analogy and when I'm teaching workshops and I can incorporate this certain topic which is like cranial-sacral work or

massage anything even you could be fishing and use the same analogy but in craniosacral work the idea is that you're you're holding the cranium of a person so it's like almost like doing hands-on healing in a sense so you're holding the head of the person but just using kind of all simplified you know a simplified version there's a point where you are to consciously lose yourself meaning my hands dissolve into the person and them into me so now what I'm asking some people still think in terms

of separate like I'm working on you when you really get it and you hold grace you hold a state of graceful being God consciousness peace I don't have to do anything to you I just invite what was you to surrender to what I am which is this peace hey how you doing it it seems like a conversation with the other person at first in your mind is not Hey hello how you doing listen I'm noticing some tension would you like to let that go because look here's some piece here's another way would you like

that no sometimes the body will answer because it's their sole answer you know I'm I'm afraid I'm troubled or whatever oh okay well then I'll just hang out right here I'm the part of you that does want to change but I'm also you know symbolically I'm this person over here so I'm just gonna hold some space so you know I won't sneak up on you and force you into love and peace but I'll just hang out and what it does is it earns their trust so you're not here to force

me to be happy no no no I would not do that if you want to be miserable that's okay but just just want you to notice here's what happiness feels like and there's a change in their breath that was a little giving in Paul leaves breath winds coming oh that's kind of cool and then you oh nice that was a good good job and they're like really oh you know thank you and then you kind of play like this this this beautiful dialogue that's going back and forth love gratitude compliment this that it goes

here and there and all this time you're just giving them permission to let go and let God now what's peculiar is technically why do I even want to resist anyway why don't I just lay there you go hey you're ready to go oh I'm totally ready to go you know and yet human beings they make it this hour-long process a two-hour process whatever it is in your session and then of course around the second hour or the end of the first hour or whatever it is they're you know they're like oh I'm starting to relax you know

right at the time that it's time to go and my attitude and belief has always been why don't we just let go in the first place seriously I mean I know why we don't but it's just so unfortunate in some respects at the end of the day it's not because some day it'll all come together and everybody will surrender but we don't have to stay in pain we can learn to go with the flow go with the seasons it's not always expert at it don't get me wrong there's times when I would have

been literally going into the dark night of the soul and been there for months or longer before I even it even clicked in that that's what was happening busy with this busy with that you know and so on and then suddenly going whoa wait a minute when I stopped long enough to recognize everything seems off stuck challenged dying that I can surrender sooner to end okay let's do proper process with this dark night period it doesn't mean you don't do anything it means basically you stop forcing anything that's for sure but you there

are certain things you do during the dark night until you reach the light at the end of the tunnel and that's the second half of that process that's all in the book if you're interested but for me you know it's an interesting thing the the fall season I'm hearing so much people struggling and you know we're going into a deeper and deeper into the fall season and and along with that we're riding a vehicle called Mercury retrograde so you know the automobile is on autopilot and the autopilot is

totally off seemingly because it's going every direction but the one direction we'd like it to go so at that time I'm encouraging us all reach out reach out to friends counselors sponsors you know reach out to what feels trustworthy of course first and foremost God but also humans you can't just reach to God and always distrust humans reach out you know now if I were you and I reached out let's say let's say you sent you're involved in a group you know some loneliness support group and you're like okay guys

you know I've been in the group for a month now and I'm still getting acclimated and I lost my loved one and I'm still feeling struggle and loneliness and I'm just gonna be vulnerable and say you know could you guys send me an encouraging word I'm struggling this week crickets nothing nothing like you'd be devastated I reached out and nothing well be careful about you know don't just jump to a conclusion oh well there's a group that pretended to be nice and they're really all jerks your

post may not have gone you kind of could have gone into cyberspace it could be that you posted it but the social media company that you used that we use sometimes might have banned it there's all kinds of things that go on like that you know so I would double check and say listen is it was this okay I've had people do that they ask I'm appreciative that they asked and they'll say did I post something else I never saw the post and that's kind of cool because instead of them jumping to a conclusion they can

get clear on that and the reason this is important one reason is because just because you and I reach out for some sanity and some semblance in our lives and it doesn't go well II whether it was an accidental it didn't go well or if truly the group actually said we don't like you you know we decided yes we're lonely in a support group but there's something about you and we just don't like you that that can happen I mean I'm nobody would would usually do that but if we exaggerate and go that

far literally they just say don't like you this group is actually led by the beloved sister of your ex who gossips about you so we banned you from the group and you can't get your loneliness dealt with here oh my god how would that not feel like oh I stabbed in the back from the past you know and right through the heart you know of course but I'm warning you because we run on our own patterns too I'm often rejected then you go and do this with this group this bizarre circumstance where an exes relative bans

you from the group and you think it's Wow how dare them and I can't believe it and I'm just devastated now I have no reason to live be careful because you also set that up because you have a pattern of abandonment or betrayal or whatever it is and so you set that up now it happens and you go see that I knew I couldn't trust anyone but it's your pattern that set it up so you must be careful with these kinds of things one way to deal with that is communicate reach out and communicate hate listen I didn't get

this poster I didn't get this letter I sent you something and I did you know whatever it is often more than you know even more often than you imagine the people will say sorry about that I didn't know only once in a while are you really dealing with the cruelty you were afraid you were dealing with now if that's the case then it's fall something is how even if this was mid spring what you're dealing with is something that is a fall symptom such as I just like like I've done this with with business

associates or friends family members whatever what I do is I double check instead of you know like is this coming from his as a pattern let me check this out okay then let me also reach out hey listen just checking this is what seemed to happen you know and sometimes oh no no no I'm sorry and then everything's beautiful thank God I was trusting enough in myself and in them to reach out and say what do you think and they say no and then that's good I'm now seeing the good karma of my trusting to

reach out now what if and it does happen sometimes they say well yeah you're right I I did throw away your letter your card I you're right I did sabotage that business deal or whatever it is what I do is I I want to say are you sure that you want to do that are you no I'm just being clear wanting to double-check you don't want to repair this you don't want to be honest with me you don't want it whatever it is make amends you know I put it out there one more time why okay because I'm not going

to enter the winter season with fall issues of the fall season with summer issues I want things closed I want healthy clear and communicate communicative so personally you know I would I would give them the chance say what's this about if they say that happened sorry great if they say it happened not sorry don't care not wanting to make amends not wanting to clear things up Wow it's kind of a blow isn't it it's kind of like oh but at least I know where I stand I'm not going to drag or even try

to walk you into the next season with me the next year with me you told me where things are at you told me you know whatever it is well a truth is I just don't like you whatever you know people say to people and it's like wow sometimes in our lives you it's better not to ask but I would have to say to you guys instead of assuming none of the time should you ask you should actually assume most of the time it's best to check in and asked if something was or wasn't what you thought but you also have to be sensitive enough to know

there's times when it's not best how do you know which times if it's gonna cause more harm than good then it's not a good time to ask what if I don't know if it's going to cause more harm than good you just do the best you can I know that there I remember high school incidents where you know there were some guys that I was you know friends with but they've had you know some things going on and and one of them had a sister who sometimes hung out with us and I remember we were kind of all

planning something well one of them got a hot - you know just cut me from the plan so it's like let's leave Michael out and a couple of guys were like yeah yeah you know and the sister of the guy came to me and said Michael you know I don't want to hurt your feelings but you know they were talking about these plans and I just want you to know they're plotting against you you know and it was like wow I was very grateful for her honesty about that that she would come to me and tell me that it also was very impactful because

I could go wow this is this is what I'm used to this kind of throw me under the bus he knows family and so forth you know it's a pattern we have to be honest and see the pattern so I kind of saw that it was like wow it was a little bit saddening confusing because I was no conscious threat to them in any way that they would want to do that but that's their game their perception so sometimes if you've been let's say you were in another lifetime you were a star athlete and you excelled beyond what your

colleagues did and those colleagues are now your brothers and sisters you think they're going to be happy about that they carry that with them to work it out but most people don't want to work things out they don't want to come clean they don't want to be honest because that wouldn't take responsibility and people generally don't want to do that it doesn't make them horrible or evil it makes them lost and they're going to have a karmic life of being lost and some of you would say well some of the

people that have done that to me they didn't get lost they they're the ones that ended up with the money in the divorce or they're the ones the brothers and sisters and ended up with the will after my parents died or whatever they oh they look like they win sometimes they do there's a person at work who threw into the bus they got the raise you didn't they got the promotion you didn't you're right though they do win sometimes we're not supposed to be sitting there with the clicker how many times they want and I

wanted just to realize this is about healing so that I can practice forgiveness why because as now Thanksgiving comes I'm grateful as I look around this room let's pretend last year I had 50 people at my in my in my home for Thanksgiving there were family members friends neighbors whatever they were and we celebrated and this year we have 20 is it like Oh a pay 20 how are you all kind of a bummer to have you guys here wish I had my 50 that doesn't honor the relationship of what you have in front of you so what I would

say is wow I've got 20 healthy healthy people around me the ego-self is gonna say hey you know but wouldn't you like 50 I mean on Valentine's Day wouldn't you like to get 50 cards instead of five on you know holidays don't you want to get 50 Christmas cards instead of five you know it's that's not your god self that thinks that way you know it's not the god self that's processing the event that way instead guys is I'm gonna start coming to a close in a moment the celebration Thanksgiving yes yes you

know it's very cool and sometimes this is about finances too like I would rather have if I make you know money every month to let's say I don't know whatever amounts people make these days but let's say you know let's say you made $5,000 a month and one or so thousand was through hardship means it was like hard job you hated people that attacked and they were rude but you get that extra grand you know and you're the five you want I'd rather have four and be happy than to get the fifth and be

miserable that's why you know that's why I all the time make changes in my life clean things up and your body does it without you knowing it your body always tries to be efficient and clear up cells that are dead and let them go you think you think it's something to see the leaves falling because you can see them but you also help cells falling off your body every day that are no longer necessary the DNA is constantly you know between the DNA and RNA there's this process of refurbishing replenishing and that's just an example

of nature trying to bring us to higher levels but you can't go higher if you do if you don't die well so if and when you're going through any processes along these lines I'm not going to give you the speech of keeping stiff upper lip and get your chin up and now you know that I don't want to deny that we heard but I am partly saying be aware of what's really happening number one number two do reach out for the right people to support during this time during such times whether the time is

fall whether the time is a loss literally or whether it's a something triggered a memory of a loss so it's a figurative thing it's something from the past it doesn't matter to be able to reach out you know to be able to to know people are there and it doesn't always go your way when you reach out to know they're there but my god I can tell you eight out of ten times it'll go that way and which feels great be grateful for them if you get attached to it then you'll have lessons

to learn and even they might not be there sometimes and sometimes that's just a housecleaning to get you higher and higher jesus's friends were only going to be able to be with him for so long when he gets arrested he's going through the dark night that's where that phrase comes from the dark night because it was one night in the Garden of Gethsemane and he knows what's coming man he knows that it's I mean horrible you're going to walk into a crucifixion and it's a horrible horrible painful

process not to mention the beatings the punching the kicking you the spinning on you the the you know ruining your name everything watching your family or I should say people that love you because it's not always family that loves you but seeing people that love you in such pain he went through this whole experience watching all of it was going to happen in in the garden as he sat there praying and what did his apostles do they all fell asleep that's why he says well none of you stay awake they all went to sleep do you know why

because on some level they knew sure that you could say well maybe they were tired guys they they didn't fall asleep they fell into a trance because on some level he had already told them what was gonna happen that was a form of denial they were actually falling asleep to go into denial because of what was gonna happen and they were afraid so it was a way of shutting down there are times in my life this week has you know has been quite a challenge in a sense and there's times when I say to myself my god just

to sleep you know just to just want to close my sense sleep for a minute because first of all lack of sleep but because you know all these things going on but sometimes just just praying for sleep but then I dunno what I'm saying and that's what the difference is between being conscious and unconscious they on because they were unconscious so they fell asleep and became unconscious when you're awake and you're conscious and you know when you beg for sleep or even death you are really calling for a

respite can I have a break can I have a respite and so go get a massage and sleep on the table go talk to a friend and cry on the shoulder and maybe even fall asleep in their arms whatever feels appropriate I just know that there are times when I'm just like going wow man just any any thing would be nice challenging weeks or months or the dark night of the soul we just go you know well anyone stay awake with me awake doesn't mean just awake you know eyes open and awake it means well none of you stay awake well none of you

my friends my partner's my whatever in life family members my associates well none of you stay awake means well none of you stay conscious and care about what's happening to us to me to whatever it is that you're talking about and the Apostles went to sleep so sometimes you'll be the only family member trying to make adjustments sometimes the only colleague that's trying to make adjustments it's just like and you know sometimes they're not only unconscious and not awake sometimes they're actually

quite actively fighting and bickering and competing and gossiping and you know I've had that happen in cycles or circles of friends where I just had to say hey enough is enough I'm gonna go over here you guys want to join me healthiness only and you know I remember it happening at least just one example that's popping into my head there's a few but where I think in general if there were ever 10 it only five or so stay four or three are committed to go to going to that next level and you know

you can say it's a bummer but if I were you I would think twice and stop and breathe in the fact that I have three healthy friends and not ten unhealthy friends it's kind of nice it really is if you really get it and that's why again your body tries to be efficient like that almost trying to cast away things that are sick or or dying it starts trying to use its immunity to figure this out well it's the same you're supposed to have a mind that loves immunity to sickness and that mind needs to choose healthiness not just to

not choose sickness but also to choose healthiness if it doesn't know what healthiness is it'll just choose another form of sickness which is called settling so back on track as soon as you can but do reach out guys you know get yourself fed spiritually read books like Jesus calling daily inspirational things God calling is another daily inspirational readings it's not like 20 pages each it's one or two pages simple daily message and it's beautiful but it feeds the soul listen to music that feeds the soul surround yourself

with people friends that feed the soul but this is an interesting season and retrograde mercury right now so and some of you will watch this presentation and it might not be fall it might not be Mercury retrograde but it all still applies because when your life in some ways this taul taur going backwards it still is retrograde in some way so just look at life and do your best to die well in this season let the leaves fall let them fall where they may clean them up you know clean them up let your yard look as good as it's gonna

look well my yard looks terrible now there's no leaves there's no flowers there's no nothing it can actually still look beautiful I cut back things in my garden you know in my yard and garden a couple times Oh during the fall and it's amazing how nice it looks I also remember how great it looks when everything is in bloom but I can sit there and go Danu plants why aren't you in bloom and sometimes your relations aren't in bloom anymore they're done mourn the loss and accept the change and do your best to

walk through them if it you're sad about it call your sponsor call your counselor call your chaplains you know whomever it's going to be have some spiritual allies participate in online course as minor whomever's read God calling Jesus Connie very inspirational I just think they're great you know just find something guys because as I'm now ending remember this isn't just about fall when you fall well when you die well get through the ghosts and goblins get onto the All Saints be the God God has moved forward give

thanks in November or the season of gratitude or even just your own personal process even if it's in June so that Christmas Christ Mass holy days holidays can come to you die well and give the so that you can have a really great end of the year even during moments of challenge and there have been lots this last few months I just and and really I don't think anybody even knows that but you know I'm sharing that with you now but I don't think I've really spoken about it thus far but focusing and going

I'm going to go through this year I'm I'm absolutely determined I'm now gonna do the next thing I'm now gonna do the next thing do the next right thing focus and go focus go take a deep breath focus and go you have you know ten more sessions to do six more calls to make or whatever you guys are doing in your lives gotta go get groceries I'm not the mood let's go get them and let's be sure to include something that'll be fun you know to reward ourselves for going and shopping getting groceries just divide

and conquer be masters connect with God and go connect with God and go every day to the best of your ability and if there are challenges don't expect them just to take care of themselves divide and conquer hire a new accountant hire a new this do a new that something different to make some changes so that you don't end up in the same boat next year saying I can't believe this has happened for another year I can tell you that the things I you know see happening and going on here and around this and that the other very

slim chance that I'm going to see it or do it the same way another year or whatever and into it next year make some changes so the falsies and all these changes and challenges they're all about tests to find him you either crumble to them or you rise above and if you have your spiritual food and your spiritual support systems friends sponsors counselors etc you're gonna stand a far better chance of making it through it all so go for it connect all right many blessings join us where you can when you can't peace be

with all of you I like