We Do Not Determine Our Own Divinity

good stuff yes well done those of you who are guests whether you're watching you know from here live or from madagascar hello people all around the world tune into our program if you don't know the program well you should know the lectures are always well rehearsed so what would we talk about today yes okay anybody else pardoned faith yep i don't know if this is appropriate michael but why does god allow such destruction to innocent people like the tornado okay yes faith over fear okay

anybody else yes okay good thank you so let's see so today we're going to talk about we are not in charge of our own holiness okay we're not in charge of our own holiness thank god thank god imagine what it would be if we were in charge i mean think about this i decided you're not likable because if you start to usurp god's opinion of us the knowingness of who we are then we start to have our own opinions and if we have our own opinions you have people walking around planet earth saying right and wrong and so on and on

which is what they're doing so what will happen is if we think that we're in charge of our own status then we start thinking we're in charge of other people's status right so you have parents telling children well honey you're not that bright but you you're pretty you'll be the pretty one and your sister will be the smart one you see you have people telling you things like that anything is possible for anyone because we're made in the image of god we have bad days based on our opinions

of what went wrong but what went wrong according to what we already set up to be contrasted to what is right here's what my perfect day would look like and that didn't hold up i had a bad day then you see like how weird just little control freaks that's it just constant little megalomaniacs control freaks i'm sorry you're loved by the way you are holiness you know so if we let go and let god what religion has often taught us is and that may not go well but we can't really know the will of god

they call it the mysteries of god well honey we might not be able to know one question being when things go wonky on this planet tornadoes and this and that jesus tells you which doesn't make him sound like a great motivational speaker by the way jesus says you will always have suffering what aren't you the messiah fix it no heal yourselves is what he told the people who said fix fix fix fix fix stop heal yourselves what can you imagine how depressing that would have been to hear him say that this is jesus like oh this is cool we

can milk this forever he'll just do whatever we tell give us money you know manifest some gold it coins for us to pay our taxes and rent you know come on fix me oh it's true i got a cold fix it you know oh i broke a leg fix it it's just totally what a sweet ride that is to have somebody who'll fix everything but he says heal yourselves he's not saying like something rude he's saying change your minds heal your minds start thinking divinely and these things wouldn't happen that doesn't mean that when there's a

tornado over there they did something wrong remember something tragic happened many years ago and there was a televangelist who said well those people deserved it because they live sinful lives right it's this is how humans are we try to brush off blame onto things and onto people why because that makes us feel more comfortable see if you can blame or shame other people and what you're trying to do is it's not me you push them away thank god they're the ones that have tornadoes you know after all i've heard

some weird things about people who live in the lower tallahassee you know or or upper west side of la you know we we have these segments and race gender all kinds of labels that we put on people but there are no other people the sufi one of the best simplest statements and one of the wisest ever is there's only one of us here there's only one of us oh what does that mean that's so mystical wow get to understand what it means there's only one the the children of god are actually one they're one that's not

oh yeah kind of cool and we're all one no it's factual god only created one extension of itself called the children or child of god throws people off because of course in miracles we'll use child singular and the human brain has a hard time with that but he's insistent on that he doesn't say children even though i will say children i say it because i have to live with you people no i say children because it's a little more palatable it's a little more acceptable but technically if he were standing here

he would say child every time michael says children child he would do that to me because he's right we're just not ready yet to understand i am we are the child of god our brains going well i'm looking at children use children because it's plural and we're polar we're not plural we just think so so in our lives we actually believe that there's this concept of another now if we do a visualization and we say okay so think about somebody you'd like to do some healing with here's what

happens and it's beautiful to do absolutely i'm going to do forgiveness today there's this person you know who kind of pushes my buttons person from the past person present or anticipated people there's somebody that pushes my buttons now there's already a they a you and a they they push my buttons wait total one with god how can something push your buttons it really doesn't make any sense you're this thing and it's like just nagging for a holy child of god to to be affected by someone who's kind of

rude even if it's an object an addiction or a lust for a nicer car whatever it is something seems to pull your attention off center whatever it is how can it affect god and if you believe something can affect god like for example oh economy's a little low do you really think heaven is affected by that if you believe that that's fine but it's a very sad statement because it affirms your life can't be that good because if the highest thing called heaven can be affected by earth economy even even

higher beings of higher dimensions aren't affected by economy there's no light beings in the star system of sirius going oh the planetary economy it's really screwing things up here in syria it's it just doesn't work that if they're okay there are people on earth that aren't affected by your conversations of what you watch on the news so trust heaven is not affected it's it's beyond it's it's not even comprehensible to the human mind what total god is but we're made in god's image

so it's okay for you to say this cold this virus this thing this economy but use words like it seems to be having an effect on me today don't say it does because you're actually factually wrong incorrect to say that something has power over you you're made in god's image therefore nothing has power but it's okay to say god i just sometimes i feel say it that way it seems like or it feels like because that keeps it open that it's just how i'm feeling today you're not saying it's

factual forever very important this seems to have a pull on me this seems wow sometimes i feel so centered and then all of a sudden something seems to say it that way because that's true lowercase t the capital t is it doesn't it just seems like it so the stuff of this world seems to have a pull on us and it and it seems to pull us off center it cannot rip heaven apart so then how is it that if i'm made in god's image and i am actually in heaven right now dreaming that i'm here i cannot leave heaven because you can't

leave what god is there's nothing other than god so you can't leave god because god in heaven are synonymous heaven's not a location it's the consciousness of god so you can't leave heaven so then if i'm having a bad day what's actually happening did the event in your life reach in to your soul and then reach up to you in heaven and rip you down to being an affected person today that's how you feel could that actually happen it's not possible you know what really happened i gave up my identity

for a moment i had to have been in the mood to lower myself to being a mortal that things can affect hear the difference there it can't reach in and pull down your divinity you are not in charge of your divinity thank god god created us and said you are made in my in the words perfect image not a little bit one of you got one percent one of you got a fraction of one percent one of you got 13 and so on it's not like that we walk around going hey i got 51 of god the rest of you all are really up creek no every being of consciousness

has 100 perfect image of god within them so is it true that we're victims that things can reach in and pull us down i'm saying it it is not possible i didn't say it doesn't feel like it at times but it is not actually possible let yourself hear someone sharing that today so you can go well i'm going to contemplate that maybe maybe not maybe you'll agree maybe you won't but just someone is saying that today it's not possible it does feel like it what is possible is that i can pretend

that i'm not that divine being it can't be you can't reach in and pull me down i can pretend however that i'm not deserving i can fabricate a judgment on myself you know what i just i'm part of this thing called the separation this apparent it's only apparent which is that word appearance it appears to be that we forgot our divinity i'm one of them because we're we're together in this and the children child of god dropped into the earth plane and as soon as we did that we judge ourselves

because now i'm not made in the perfect image of god now i'm a mere mortal and if i'm a mortal anything and everything can attack me viruses i can't even see think about how strangely schizophrenic and paranoid that is divine beings suddenly mortals walking around going you know watch out you better live in fear be afraid be very afraid why mommy well children gather around there are things you can't even see that are going to kill you forget the ones you can see i mean the dogs you can run from that are wild you

know rabid dogs and you got this and they you know watch out then they're smaller ones really mommy oh yeah you know yeah this this one you can get malaria but i heard malaria is only for those people oh no one of those mosquitos carrying larry it might hijack and get in a plane it might go you know into a plane and stay in the cargo hold just sitting there waiting for you just you know waiting for for the plane from india to arrive and then it's coming out and it's like i'm coming i have to i got malaria and i'm coming

after you and then there's things smaller and smaller and smaller and then they're microscopic and they're just waiting to find you your nasal passage to enter and just kill you this is not god's will this is man-made in more ways than one it's you know it's man-made but but you can't fix the things with the mind that created them if we created these things with our lower consciousness you can't actually manufacture cures which is why you have strange commercials saying if you take

this and you have limbs it could kill you like but i have limbs oh i wouldn't take it then like it's so strange if you have a skull you know be careful because this could cause you know and all these symptoms that the pills can give you this isn't how you cure things recognize the reality is i am one with god here's what seems to be isn't that kind of funny wow so i probably shouldn't hold live electrical wires not because it really has an effect but it can seem like it so i'm going to go ahead and know the

truth but respect the illusion i won't grab live electrical wires and as a kid you know i was i used to be odd [Laughter] thank god i got over that but but i i was so clear about this as a kid adolescence and so on i was like nothing can actually harm us you know i never never ate normal never did things normal i was like it's all an illusion i got that i remember and kids don't try this at home but i remember going rubbing alcohol and gulp you know because i knew and it never affected me things just

never affected me for the most part but but i did have moments where i said wow these nine things didn't affect me and i proved it to myself and or others which was just silly to do but still there would be one would go there would you know like wow i found something that oh yeah you know i told the story once before but you know like uh when i was married you know she had she had vitamins and all these kinds of things and she would leave some sitting around so oh they would turn color because they would get

so old and i was like well you can't waste them and i do you know and i'd take them and i never affect she's like you shouldn't be taking old items i'm like you shouldn't be leaving them out so you should put a child protection thing on it so i can't reach them so you know but the one time i mean i've shared it before so i won't go into detail but one time man she because she had sleeping problems and she had these like rhino tranquilizers and and i'm like found him in my backpack or whatever and

i took him and i swear i was on a flight and it was like you know i mean i was affected my point is occasionally i found i'm affected so what do i do say that my experiment to believe that we're made in the image of god is a complete failure no it's just to recognize that the truth is i'm one with god but if i'm here i also need to respect the illusion that doesn't mean i need to respect it to your level of respect nor you to mine what is okay for me and i learned it's okay to have a divorce it's not a failure it

is what it is it's okay to to get a coat on if you're if you're cold but these things don't typically come to my mind you know how i do things and how i think things but if jesus himself manifests in the world or some other being you think of as a great being if they appear in the world and they really do have nothing effects nothing affects the metal and they really really prove it what happens in the mortal mind is they seem too far removed and now we can't live up to it because that's them then that's what people did

with jesus yeah but that's jesus jesus wept and he felt pain he did what he did not to say well look how cool i can do this you're not going to be able to do that and then you're going to think like religions they go yeah but that's jesus that's a rare case they're missing they don't get what he did he's saying i came in and suffered to show you you can still survive suffering i didn't show you how i don't suffer how would that have been a good teacher i i know what what 1000 trillion times

40 billion is without even thinking about it i know but how's that going to help you so he knows everything but he has to allow himself to still be right here and have a body that bleeds when it gets punctured why because he's saying there's a way to be in the world and not of the world i'm not showing how you you how to be beyond the world i'm not trying to show you like this complete surreal experience look how jesus just floats he doesn't even get dust on his feet he washes his feet the

same as everybody else and he bled and he cried this is an example of of how we can be in the world and not of the world stuff will happen and there's when i mention that he's not a great motivational speaker what i was saying is he was saying you will have suffering in this world well yeah but shouldn't we be able to fix it can't we what if we think of and what if there's enough money somebody has they'll fix it this world buddha puts it is one of suffering you mean until we fix it you cannot fix

this world as you know this world you reach a level of awareness to where it does not affect you and when that happens and enough of us that happens the world will disappear you will not actually fix it and have a great world as soon as you heal your mind you'll see no world and the world you would see would be a fifth dimensional world so it's not going to have the density and the problems with density there won't be illness you mean after we have enough prescribed things no you mean if we come up with a perfect

pill no it's not how it works what if cryogenic everybody just freezes and then somebody stays alive and you know lives you know life after life just stays awake and comes up with a cure to everything like your highlander or whatever you know and just stay immortal and then they fix everybody no while we're here in the mud in the dirt it's not god fix the world so we can be happier god's saying no you become happier first well we would be if only if only what now as soon as you say if only you're

not in your divinity because if only means if only something outside would repair my inside there is no outside it's a hologram and it's not only a hologram it's a hologram of your beliefs so correct your beliefs what beliefs that you're a divine being well i am divine it's these people that are screwed up oh you don't get it you're only one what do you mean we're one i get philosophically okay we're all one no you still don't get it who's bothering you today well joe over there joe why well because

they did this and this and this and this do you know that joe's not there their hologram of your beliefs mirrored to you so you can learn to release joe yeah but you don't know what joe did no i do know now i have a list of several things in fact i went around the neighborhood and collected signatures so we all agree he's an idiot this isn't just me we try that god this isn't just me we all agree that you know joe well you're never going to get an approval a stamp of approval from god on that which

makes us resent god that it doesn't agree with our judgments how dare god say because i've had people say i know what you're going to tell me i got to forgive them you know people that call for sessions you know michael i've got this and this and then they assume that i'm going to say oh you oh don't say that those are naughty words you know i'm not going to listen to any they think that's what i'm going to do or then i'm going to be like or they cost and they'll go i'm sorry i'm sorry

i'm like and i'll add my own you know because it's okay and they say i know i'm supposed to forgive i said wait wait wait are you upset yes are you kind of hurt yes you feeling angry okay great then let's do that right now allow that initial feeling allow it i'm not talking about enabling it like like make it the your power over you i'm talking about just go ahead go ahead oh my god yeah what did they do you're kidding me oh my god what a nut go ahead and support them in that for a

moment so that they can go thank you the only people i've ever talked to about this told me i was wrong for feeling this that's not going to help somebody heal are they incorrect to judge that someone else had power over them yeah is that how you'll help them by making them know that no first they need to be heard as soon as they're heard like oh there's this decompression see there's like a breaking free a bit that's why a lot of times when you allow people to express hurts and angers

underneath that pressure cooker lid comes tears i love that i love when somebody goes never never i'll never forgive them and they talking good excellent beat on a pillow talk you know whatever i'm gonna have them do and then boom crying i just don't understand why how did this happen here come the tears that's cool you can't heal with the pressure cooker locked down you can't you got to get the pressure out i would never unscrew a radiator cap while it's boiling you might be able to flip a little thing

that allows decompression allow yourself to decompress it's really important and again i'm not talking about enabling or making true your hurts and hates but get them out anyway talk about as guttural as you like get it out afterwards there's a certain wow you know you're shaking and and quivering and sometimes crying and god that's just beautiful we got to all that the water that became boiling but the boiling is a symptom underneath it that's a water boiling is that there's water water's emotion

wow okay and what happened well there's this issue with the engine and it caused the water to boil meaning there's this person and they did this i'm really sorry to hear that so we can go to now a deeper emotional you know i'm really sorry that that happened because i am sorry that that happened it is very sad oh but don't you read a course isn't it an illusion i'm not going there right now just hear that i'm sorry that that happened take my hand why i don't i'm not even

existent i don't have a body why would you take my hand why would you hold me or hug me why would you hand me a tissue to wipe my eyes from my tears it's all an illusion see that's impractical just relax man relax here's what's happening right in here right in this moment you'll never get to the now moment of god if you can't work on the seeming moments of our stuff you we are not in charge of our own divinity and as i said a few times already and i will repeat again thank god we're not in charge of that god

created us divine and what we're doing as spiritual path people mystics is we're getting there guys we're almost there just one more this one more of that one just 10 more lifetimes i know i'm going to be enlightened in 10 more lifetimes that means that affirms that you're not already yes so this is the twist this is the twist that we didn't expect in spiritual growth it's the twist which is i'm already divine not the me that seems to be in the world not the one that thinks people have

power that's not my divinity it's also not my divinity that does hurtful selfish things so it's a paradox it's called i am divine but i don't always feel that way i don't always act like it and i don't always receive things in this world like it see that but i am divine nothing can change that knowing that i'm divine is kind of cool because if i allow my crying if i allow my angst but keep in mind this doesn't change my divinity up here doesn't change even though i experience whatever here what

starts to happen is the veil between the two starts to thin the light of god shines down in my life more often and i not as often do the hurts and receive the hurts we keep trying to fix ourselves which is a subtle form of arrogance it acts as though i know the problem and i know the solution really oh aren't you brilliant well if you know what's wrong with you and the cure the solution why are you still here and why did you do any of this in the first place you can't fix yourself not with the consciousness that keeps you here

and there's a key and it's called forgiveness i've shared this before but i'll say it again a course in miracles is going to tell you even though you think okay reading forgiveness and watch resentments thousands of pages matt you know i mean it's there's a lot of pages there hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of pages thousands of words tens hundreds of thousands of words and you get through the book and people actually start okay you know okay god and affirmations i gotta remember to do my week you know

daily lessons and i'm gonna read this but i'm i am as god created me and so on is and you do all this and you still actually didn't understand we thought a course in miracles was telling us how to be more spiritual and it does seem to do that but it's actually telling you how you'll never be you're not going to be capable of accomplishing this well then why read it because it's telling you to forgive yourself for not being able to pull it off that's what it's doing it's kind of like see that

you like it you're cool huh look at this page oh that's enlightening wow look at that wow wow would you like to embody that yes you're not going to be able to what this book told you to do is forgive yourself i could do that without the book yeah but nothing irritates you as much as this book this one will really push your buttons every page will tell you something else that you're not going to be able to pull off now i say it with levity like that it doesn't say mean that the book is a waste

read it and do your best to live it i didn't say don't live it i said you're still gonna slip but if you're not forgiving yourself you're not getting the book it's not about external behavior modification it isn't it isn't about okay so a course in miracles is saying do you really think that pieces of glass improve your eyesight i mean he makes fun of it do you really think little discs of coin empower you to be abundant and prosperous really paper paper you can light up it'll be gone in

seconds and that's your power it does make fun of these notions do you really think pills cure your body that you don't even have he does here and there make fun of such things but he's doing that not to humiliate what you think you're doing he's doing it to show you what you haven't gotten yet you're beyond any of that so don't not take the pills because that says it in there too play the game you must until the day where suddenly you have a complete knowingness that you don't need

it any longer and i have some of you you know you call for session do you say michael i i believe in my christ self i'm going to go off my schizophrenic medication you're not going to hear me say absolutely you're not going to hear it ever at most i'm going to say keep taking what you're taking keep doing your spiritual work and you're going to notice probably that you don't need it as much let it become an organic process where there's a knowingness do you think i'm going to stop there no

i'm going to say and get your second opinion have your make sure your doctor agrees i know that sounds weird for some people because we know medicine's a little out there and it's a financial scam in some ways but but i'm saying there's a point where you just know like someone dear to me was bipolar struggled with that all their lives and i mean they got oh i'm going to get foot reflexology and i'm going to get massage i'm going to get this i'm going to take this organic pill instead of meds they

did this they went through major dark night with dealing with the fact that they had bipolar disorder but they did all that was it a waste no it contributed at the time to give you a support like crutches or a cast it's good to take those things and take care of the world stuff but in the meantime healing healing healing healing working on her inner self working on inner child and breath work and the inner work and it came to a point she doesn't take anything anymore which is sacrilegious to the world of

medicine and psychiatry i don't care she doesn't take anything hasn't in years still has some lows still has some highs they don't her anymore all human beings can have highs and lows well not me really when you win the lottery you're going to be on a high i promise and if somebody steals all the money the next day you're going to hit low it's going to happen whether it's sugar rushes and things that you know people talk about this world is it's gonna seem to have its little day it's little stuff

we just become more and more immune not through discipline that's what religion even far east just religions did this as a discipline you make yourself know that just hold your center and never react that's that's mental power that's not knowingness of god mind power can do things there's people you know like jesus says and of course in miracles people can lay on a bed of nells and show that the body isn't real he says that will work you can devote you know lifetimes if not tens of years to this is an illusion so

they they won't eat and they lie in a bed of nails and he's saying that will work oh well thank you jesus he says but guess what that's a waste of time really that's all you accomplished is is all this mental power so you could lay on a bed of nails really the the story of buddha when they say to buddha buddha you know siddhartha master you know we we're following you and we we you know we fast and oh money upon me and we do all these things to be enlightened like you and they go but we heard there's another master right

around the lake over here the other side he's able to walk on water and buddha says that's foolish he could have paid two pennies and taken the ferry what he's saying is he put all that mind energy into walking on water but he doesn't know how to deal with his problems put consciousness into this how you think how you feel how you react great if you can walk on water after that great but if all you focus on is the phenomena the walking on water that you won't need the meds it's kind of a

waste of time it's impressive to your friends i know but we still don't like you you're still unlikable so something's not white right so you're walking look at the guy we don't like walk in the water it's you're still not likable you still are hurtful and rude and selfish work on this and become a better person of course in miracles summarizes itself towards the end of the book and it says the bottom line is it comes down to are you a better person how can i be helpful truly it uses the

word truly how can i be truly helpful it's what it comes down to how can i be truly helpful today now that doesn't mean you just have to run and and rescue people helpful doesn't just mean clearly the outside believe it or not how i can be helpful today starts inside and it would be that that you see a person who's acting out how can i be helpful we'll go and restrain them sure but you know what also is helpful for me to start working on my triggers about people like that healing my beliefs about and my

judgments about people like that i'm healing on the inside that's actually healing their consciousness not their behavior so you can go and restrain them but did you restrain your judgments on them get the inside first always get the insight first so i'm looking at your questions that you asked and it's kind of addressed all of those but faith and faith over fear when we really know who we are nothing has the same effect it's true you know it's really really true on every level foods but that doesn't mean you should

eat foods you're allergic to to prove it just work on your consciousness keep working and when i say working on your consciousness don't work to get somewhere affirm you're there and then do your work i didn't say there's no work involved but it's called light work for a reason because it's working the light it's not working the fear i got to work on all my darkness i'm going to go wrestle with it just turn on the light switch you know like you walk into a dark room what are

you gonna do seriously what are you gonna do you walk into a room like the sanctuary let's say in the middle of the night you come over to do some work or whatever and you come in and it's pitch black you know there's not a way for a lot of light to come through oh my god it's pitch black what you're going to do is you're going to walk in okay darkness i'm not afraid of you as you're shivering you know and you start making it into a power and i just know that my ex is in here somewhere

hiding under any chair to trip me when i walk by this is how people think their consciousness works that's why we have you know sometimes unpleasant dreams because it haunts us at night even where's god in all of this turn on a light switch what was i afraid of don't pretend you weren't afraid but look at it that's the work part don't be afraid you're okay you're in the hands of god the greatest thing they say the greatest phobia is the fear of death and some people go well i'm not afraid

of death that's it isn't the proving that you're not afraid of death that makes you the great person it's how you live i'm also not afraid to die but while i'm here i'm going to show how passionate i am about living see people made rituals and they made behaviors part of the spiritual path look at me lying on a bed of nails like you know wow didn't you hear about the new posturepedic kind of you know they're really comfortable they're really comfortable you feel like you're

floating and then you can kind of do amazing spiritual work because you're not like ah you know you're distracted with pain it's okay to float and it's okay to have enough money to pay your bills with no problem you don't have to prove that you know because now you're just being the nun and the priest look at me lord not a dime to my name showing my faith in you god's like i have nothing to do with your craziness man if you're if you're one with me am i or am i not abundant god you know you are and you're made in

my image yes so why are you broke allow it allow it to come through okay i'm gonna start doing all kinds of things to become more prosperous now you've made prosperity a god work on you and your love and your relaxation of consciousness the ease of judging you're judging yourself then prosperity starts to pour in and it'll trigger you when it does because you'll have thoughts is there something wrong is this okay for me to have prosperity and yes when you manifest somebody in your life when they say so how you doing

i'm great you know and they see you have a hundreds of dollars of bills you know in your purse or whatever they judge you for they find out you've got money in the bank oh you're one of them you're like you know there was books called medicine woman remember that a medicine woman what other what other titles did they have um it was a series of books but medicine woman all these other women empowerment titles and but you went bmw woman on us you know your mercedes woman like they start making fun of you for having prosperity

or if you're not sick this is not okay you should believe in the same sickness i believe in and you should be doing all the things that i think you should be doing to you know to be healthy how strange this world is don't be surprised when the world attacks you for having your act together in any category if if you're a race native american let's say and you say you know what clearly the native americans were mishandled you know and dealt with in a hurtful way in history and maybe today too but if you're a native american you say

i i don't even care i'm i'm good i'm centered in they'll wrong you for that you have to be angry poor thing you're in denial if you have an ex-husband or wife and you're like we're at peace they think you're in denial so this world's gonna do that but we're all one there's only one of us here so who is it that's doing that well you know my family members and the nation and the president and stop there's only one of us these people with all their rudeness are

mirroring your doubts if i were you i would deal with them as though they're my doubt my doubts and it's still okay to say get behind me satan i want nothing to do with what you're telling me but you do that only and you miss the mark get it here oh my god this is brilliant oh god thank you i sit down and pray and i go god guess what happened today i was really feeling peace with my ex and then someone who knows them showed up in my life and said weren't you married to that nutcase yes i was you know i dated them in high school oh

my god they were so crazy and out of control what a nut and oh my god you poor thing and you start going yeah exactly poor me and you start buying it that's not the healing route the healing route would be to go god this is what they said and i started going yeah i started feeling gritting my teeth and i started feeling you know like yeah i should call them until and i saw it and who was it that person was telling me those are little residual pieces of me that i don't want to believe i have because i'm

so spiritual i know i forgave my ex except for that one or two incident you know incidents so you start to go it's just one of us here that's why jesus said to peter get behind me say what he was saying is this is all me i'm doubting in that moment jesus was saying i'm afraid because peter said don't hey call me silly call me a travel agent but if you're telling me us your apostles that if you go to jerusalem they're going to kill you i have a great idea hold on jesus let me pendulum and muscle

test yep don't go to jerusalem i mean isn't that common sense and how does jesus respond does he say great idea schedule me for a boat somewhere else i'll go to the south of france this would be great suntan you know kind of cool no he responds to a person who seemingly is looking out for his health don't go get behind me satan people don't understand like that's weird what he was saying is i know that i need to go do this well don't that's the voice of my fear talking get out of the way i'm going that's what he

was doing and all of us have that i'm setting an intention to forgive so and so on so and so and somebody says oh i wouldn't forgive that's unforgivable god that's how tenacious i'm being about this i want to forgive but a part of me doesn't which is manifested as you do i hate you for it how can i do that you're me you're just my doubts beware of this though that when someone says you know you you shouldn't forgive them and so on and so on and you go no no i'm gonna forgive be careful that word forgive

because a lot of people think that saying it means it's done it's a process today you're bringing up things that they did that made me angry i got through it i said no way i see it god i apparently i had some anger hidden here how do i know because they married it to me so i see the anger i'm giving it to you what i really want is peace how do you know you're really doing this right if you can wish peace for the other person you're probably in the right place if you say i just want peace unlike what

they gave me and they they then you know you're not really right on you'll know your healing when you can wish upon the people that have hurt you all the things you're asking of god that's not usually how we pray we usually pray as in it's the enemy give me a good life as opposed to what the enemy has done which is very normal human hurt talking and i'm sorry that that happened i'm just telling you that as we heal we start to say this do you realize that if the person who harmed you had peace they would have

never done what they did to you so hoping they never find peace hoping they burn in hell as people say would actually not give them the cure would it do you know that if they reincarnate and they don't have peace they're going to do it to someone else are you okay with that well yeah as long as it's not me it'll be you it'll be you and you'll live with them twice as long as you did last time you see when you wish upon them the peace that you're calling on and i know we say but they don't deserve it after what they

did they did it because nobody wished in peace before that perpetuate which is jesus calling you know careful you know don't feed evil with evil don't fear feel you know replace hate for hate resist not evil if people felt the presence of god they wouldn't do what they did do we agree therefore give them the peace of god and you're clear but so are they you're preventing them from hurting anyone else how could that not be worthwhile because i want them to suffer for what they did they are suffering that's why they did

what they did they're already suffering they're in pain and it's no different than than a lifeguard being taught when you swim out to somebody who's drowning they will push you under to get air it's not like they're going you seem like an unlikable person you know they're not judging who you are they're not intending to cause harm it's a visceral reaction i can't breathe and they grab something and you're it it's the same with people that have harmed you they can't breathe they're

suffering and they're grabbing whatever they can to survive is it okay no is it righteous no is it moral no is it legal no how much more support do you need before you can say but i get it lashing out for survival i was there and i have an idea maybe if i heal they won't go oh look a buoy to use for for me to get air for an extra minute a victim for them a you know uh because they're the prey and you're you know here you are like looking like you know easy bait or whatever as i heal they're gonna say that's not a

person i can get away with that so i all of that immunity comes from us knowing who we really are but remember ask the mother ask the holy spirit ask god to remind you who you really are don't try to just figure it out on your own don't try to just affirm it because it sounds really cool i heard that you know us women we're goddesses and us guys we're god you know and and this kind of thing it doesn't work just to change your name into something more holy we have to actually get it when you

change your name when when god told abraham to change his name from you know abram to which meant a brahman it meant a master of a certain faith or tradition when he changed it to abraham it wasn't like because that's what you are it's this is where you're going so if you change your name as people do in new age traditions and in um you know sedona you know so you change your name to running flower you know or whatever i don't know why a flower would be running but you change your name to running

flower um be advised the universe is going to hold you to that my i'm going to change my name to you know beauty your the universe is going to hold you to that because a name is equated with your identity and if you claim an identity the universe says and how you're doing with that if it's contrasted the universe will reflect things like you being beat up by that concept called on it when we create a center a unity of we talk about christ consciousness we're going to be held to the fire on that okay it's this is how life is i know as

as myself as a teacher you know i uh you know traveling and teaching all the time it was kind of easy to to just hold presence with the stuff that i teach i mean generally speaking i believe in this i know this so i teach it and i acted and you know generally it was pretty easy sitting in one place for the next for the last 11 or whatever years of my life that's when it had to get tested to a different level it's like spirit going are you living that michael yes actually and i you know i go and i'm moving and i got used to living

the christ life on the road and it's pretty cool then spirit says okay let's try when you're sitting still with the same people you know generally it's just a figure of speech but with this how can you how are you gonna handle that and that was a different level of test but it not only taught me how to deal with their stuff the seeming they but also how to hold it in here to a different level meaning if someone out there that's reflecting a negative thought that's a test in here clear that but also hold

your ground tell some people leave and that's what we have to do you're not a failure to say leave if you allow people to stay too long hurtfully in your life believe it or not you are doing something that is against god's will who do you think you are well i just thought that if i you know and more patient forgiveness you're being harmed in the meantime jesus said when someone asks for your coat give him your shirt as well but he adds in the course never did that mean to the point of hurting yourself or anyone else

now you're talking about rescuing saying no to somebody is a healthy boundary and boundaries come from who you believe you are if i don't know who i am i lack boundaries lacking boundaries doesn't just mean people pounce on you it's also when you invade their space and you draw a line and that's not always easy to live this guys we're going to come to a close now but it's not always easy to live this it's just because this world is a contrast to heaven everything you know heaven is bliss

this world is all about irritation not bliss irritation inflammation god you know people's comments and the way they drive and they cut you off on the road and you know in the meantime i'm learning to handle the people on the road but my bones are starting to rub together and it's causing inflammation in my wrists you know and then okay well i put some special ointment but i got kids oh my god there's an irritation for some people and i get parents that are still alive there's an irritation you know

like there's stuff in this world or family is blissful but the people at work don't respect me this world is a place of irritation because it was created out of the belief that we are not as god created us to be you see what i mean the outside is a manifestation of the inside somewhere inside we changed god's reality we think we did we manufactured another reality in god we go i am as god created me then we went through a veil into this world and said oh bloody hell where am i you know what is this

ouch that's why genesis tells you now that you've bitten the apple from the tree meaning you bit into the illusion he says now the voice tells adam and eve which is us now you're going to feel pain and you never felt pain before now you're going to only earn by the sweat of the brow you know what that means you have to work to get anything that didn't have to happen before you know why because we just think it and it is this is like wow this is like amazing oh for me it'd be like oh cheesecake you

know like you know eat the cheese like it's great that's not how this world turned out this world turned out like oh i'm gonna have to make cheesecake eat it then go for a run to work off the you know the the pounds or whatever you gain from cheesecake this this world you have to earn it that is not god's reality but it feels like that's where we are so what i'm going to do is keep using my mind to create but i'll also get my hands in because i know i'm not totally in remembrance yet

so it's called responsibility i'll go ahead and use my consciousness but i'll also get my checkbook at register out and make sure i balance my checkbook there's nothing wrong with that if i know what i'm really doing playing the game right so adam and eve now he says you're going to feel pain woman now you're going to have labor pains you used to be able to create even children in your consciousness anybody could because we were in our god self we could think to create a being i feel so much

love god i would love to extend that to others boom a child manifests right there's no i was kind of hot for you last night now we're pregnant now we have an accident for a kid that's not how life was that's not supposed to be the way it is but people forgot who they are so the kids are born and sometimes they're there pushing the buttons because you weren't in a holy mind when you created them so they're like guess what i'm your unholiness and if you can't see it now i'll let you

know when i fill up my diaper or when i get bad grades or when i whatever else it could be when i grow older then you know all these things that are going to be real human that you're going to have to deal with i'm going to bring this all to you because you forgot who you are and we blame them you know we've all the kids don't respect me like they should after all i've done for them they're just mirroring so the whole world is a mirror and it's telling you guys everything you experience is either how

much you remember who you are or forget what's the opposite of forgetting for giving that's how you get back to the one the the the one option how much i know who i am so when you when you have a moment in a day where you're just doing cooking and all of a sudden you just feel god i feel really happy what you're feeling is the effect which i call a gift the gift of having remembered who you are i don't know when you're remembered and you don't need to care it could have been a second ago could have

been eight lifetimes ago but every good thing every gift that comes to you is earned not by the sweat of the brow it's earned by you allowing who you really are to light inside how do i know when i'm doing the opposite when i'm irritated when i'm you know reactive and when i'm you know why why would you be reactive because you think that if someone didn't fill your gas tank like they were supposed to and you asked them to that you think you think you now are going to run out of gas you

think you don't have time to do it yourself those are all opinions when you go but i'm but i'm worried i don't have time and you get into god it's amazing how things happen you get in the car and you start it you realize oh there's more in the tank than you thought or that you had extra 10 minutes on the way to work you had something will happen those are called miracles so the miracles are the restorations when we go from what we you know could have been true in god what we thought we were that brought a negative

effect you neutralize the negative effect when you bring god back into the picture the knowingness of who we are we pray and say god fix the negatives god's saying just come back to who you are come back yeah but i've got problems i know come back and watch how they fall just they'll part ways it doesn't always happen the way you want and when you want which is going to irritate you again which will take you off again see that too and come back i close with the this concept something you've heard me say now and again god

does not have conversations with you the way you think it does the the creator the true creator god does not actually deal with minutiae and doesn't have the conversations you think it's having god is only capable only capable of saying i love you come home once you're home it's just i love you the only reason it says come home is because it knows its children have forgotten who they are and forgotten that they are home so get get your mind wrapped around the idea that there's a creator that says

only i love you you're not allowing that to be enough means you don't have enough money in the bank account and so on and you have illness what does that have to do with god loving us because love actually fills everything love takes the form of everything you could need which is where we get the translation of jesus saying just pray god knows what you want before you need it before you even you know state the the prayers god already knows that doesn't mean god knows you need fuel in your tank god knows you need love just remember not

that you receive or that you need love that you are love when you know who you are which is love and god they're synonymous then all of a sudden the tank fills on its own well that's not actually possible what do you mean you're thinking there's a limit on love no i mean i know but you know it not really it's not like the fuel molecules are going to multiply see you're back to not remembering who you are if women could give birth at one time without conception how is it you can't believe

the molecules of your fuel tank won't be able to multiply and you'll have fuel when you need it how is it you can't believe you can forgive someone that did something seemingly unforgivable you pulled it off that's called a miracle trust that love is something humans do not understand it has nothing to do with flowers once a year for somebody or candy or whatever it's you want to love somebody remember those i love you i that loves you is the god i am i love meaning i'm choosing to remember love

and you are also me so when god says i love you it's for real because it's god that is i love which is totality of love you which is everyone if i'm to be as god i have to come back to i love you not hey i like you i love you i'm loving your legs wow i love your look it's and remember last week how i said jesus talking to that woman she's like hey can we hook up i already love you why do we need to do that you know well because i you know no but i already love you just imagine that us to others others to

us god to us just i love and it's what i am not what i do please take a few centering breaths think for a moment in the day-to-day world the various forms of i love you some of them are really nice some of them are kind of contrived just think about that for a moment all the various i love yous said i love you to people you no longer like so that means love comes and goes love has variables my parents said we love you because we're your parents but they didn't act like they love me at all just look at all the uses and misuses of

the concept what we don't realize is that behind the limited forms of love love is unlimited so any form that seemed limited wasn't real love in the first place i feel like i love my children yeah but just try on the notion that even that has been limited and you're ready now to love them at a whole new level i loved people in my past and then we fell out of love and we moved on i want to love them again as god loves see through the very fragile structure of human love i love someone's body they don't have a

body it's just an appearance i love days when i make a lot more money it's an illusion what you really mean is you love being more prosperous being more of god so take this love concept to that level let the the images of the world's version of love let them pass for a moment and just center in now god i what god is love what love is you meaning all of us a perfect love that surpasses understanding a perfect love that is tranquil and peaceful a perfect love that embraces and holds us all in it and never has let us go

but it allowed us to have free will to imagine what life would be like if we could go and i still love you the mother's perfect love look at the things we've done to ourselves and each other and how unaffected god's love is and imagine that as this beautiful flow waterfall of golden white light pouring upon us just loving us a mist perfect love wow and as you see that gradually allow bodies to disappear into that love there's no me and them no colors no genders no nothing just we all dissolve and become part of that

mist wow it fills the room you're in and it continues out to the neighbors you don't like and it flows out to your exes anyone who pushes buttons any not just people you've known but types of people be it political persuasion or whatever else just this perfect love everyone deserving everyone beyond the doing that irritated or hurt us to the being everyone being deserving ah this is not something i decide it's something i surrender to and god's will be done god's will be done hmm

[Laughter] think of any challenge in your life at this time health financial relationship communication anything bring it to this holy space god's will be done for you say it to that thing god's will be done and let it dissipate into the mist [Laughter] in me as it is in heaven give me this day all of your will for my abundance my health my vitality my peace my pleasure fill me up

and teach me to be as forgiving as you are as loving as you are teach me to be comfortable being in a state of bliss even while i change tires on cars deal with day-to-day issues of life be with me now and always as you've always willed help me to forgive myself forever edging you out blocking you out i say to myself this is not god's will it is not my will so be gone as for all other people god wills that no soul shall perish or remain judged and i would not go against god's will therefore peace to everyone equally

love and abundance abundance even to people who have taken from me financially that'll just continue if i don't will for you true abundance because if they had that they wouldn't take peace peace to us all and so it is take a moment to gradually reintegrate do your best when you come out of prayers and meditations always take a moment to integrate between those two worlds you go to this high place try not to just thrust yourself down into the dense world try to bring the light with you and let it integrate it a bit you know just

breathe it in a bit and feel it a bit and all your limbs just choose to be with it right here okay [Music] tether to god and go in thank you guys please stand for our closing enemy what time yeah thank you all right breathing in centering into gratitude we didn't do any songs today so thanks for your patience on that we didn't do songs because we started a few minutes late so just breathing in and giving thanks how perfect this is the friendships the trust there's only one of us here is it an accident that even people

online as well as in this room are all agreeing to be on the same page god how nice is that there's a lot of places i could go right now and have the opposite how is it today so many people are agreeing to let go and let god and i'm one of them this is infinitely powerful thank you thank you friends thank you for joining me and each each of us together for joining us in an absolute intention to be as god created us to be despite foibles and strange behaviors and thoughts and beliefs i am as god created me and i will to be

the christ on earth the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is thank you so much peace be with all of you