We Are Already Home

so when we when we love it's impossible to feel lovin and lack oneness that doesn't it doesn't work that way even though people think romantically that's how it's done I'm in a single one out who I find worthy of my tolerance to be my life mate in that suite and how not really not not if they're intelligent enough to see through what's really happening you know but love really does heal love really does do the things we you know we want it to do but people who forgot the power behind it

forgiveness is what restores us to a state of love but love is where the magic is and for me when I asked myself many many years ago you know people go how did you know that how did you know what was your psychic and yeah I mean I I am psychic and intuitive and this and that the other but those are symptoms technically if you don't love you can't truly be intuitive you could develop psychic skills because their skills believe it or not psychic skills are like any other skill whether it's flower arrangements architecture mechanic you

know in a in a shop somewhere psychic skills can be developed with very little heart but I don't call that intuition I call it psychic skills true intuition is of a higher center than psychic skills and I'm not putting down psychics because I'm a psychic and you're a psychic okay that's fine but it's one is coming from you and the other is coming from a higher power so a psychic can only be psychic but a psychic can also be intuitive which is different it's I'm I'm relying and

calling upon a higher thing that higher thing how do you develop that people would say to me Michael can you do a workshop where you certify us in what love 101 love level one love level two and I and I've had people say well come on show us how to be you know if I wanted money I would love level one love which is only you know fifty dollars level love level two it's only a hundred and fifty love level three fifty thousand dollars that's how they do it you know I'm sorry it's a funnel technique so so they do that well I I've

answered my closest friends on this question closest students on this question I say I can't because I can't with a clear conscience guarantee that they graduated being more loving the the intuition they would say teach us the healing things you do this healing skills you can't you have to love people and I can't certify you in love you just have to want to do it and it's free just start with even liking people more level one just like people level to be nice we'll have a down moments but you know

it if I like people I should care about them more and yeah a level three if there were such a thing I mean I'm just making this up as I'm saying this so bear with me but level three you know yeah love and so I I care about people I being any of us I I really love people how do I know because I really care how do I know I'd like to make a difference if you see those common phrases and you're kind of going in the right direction and then of course all the skill to work you know that you'd put into a course in

miracles' workbook lessons your your deep meditations from whatever system you're into any of that's gonna add to it clearly it centers you more it empowers you more and so on but love if you don't have the love and respect for people you're going to be missing something again so that's a big part of what happens and so because I'm in that state like Edgar Cayce did these incredible readings he developed his his skills and his consciousness over lifetimes over lifetimes and and strange

things made him what he is some things that were just devotion to God and and for example one lifetime of his he was dying in a desert of thirst and starvation and he was in horrible pain in a long ago lifetime but he was in such pain that he was just even if he was a soldier let's say just an average guy in his pain he was telling himself I need to leave my body so I don't feel the pain the skill of leaving his body added to the equation of becoming edgar cayce with his ability to leave his body and leave his ego behind and channel

clara clearly you don't know what's gonna add up in your own lives to get you where you know you want to get you know where you want to be whether it's I want to be a better mom or whatever these are skills and so forth they build over time their decisions in the moment today but they're also often built over time so I'm not negating that I might have picked up this and that over lifetimes but I don't care if I don't make the choice today to be as good a person as I can be it could really quash

all my other efforts from lifetimes you really can now it doesn't mean you lose that for a long duration but you can lose it for a period as it happened to Casey to in his lifetimes he lost it a couple lifetimes but it can come back when you make a righteous decision to get that back so tuning in and feeling it to it have been saying things that go people how did he know and so on and so on it really does come back not to Michaels got skills it's Michael's choosing to be as loving as possible and anybody can

choose to be loving anybody but whatever's in the way of doing that becomes our work for some people it's I I I would like to be more loving for all humanity but there's a couple people I just haven't been able to forgive it no problem no it's no problem just see that and know that that's your work yeah but they're gone now they've passed on or they moved away and I don't know how to do the work with them spirits going to bring you part two of them and part three of them through

clerks in a store and you know people in the roundabouts at Sedona here you know or through your children you know it people keep wanting to see angels what you really need to be willing to look at are the Devils because if you can look at them they'll turn into angels and you've never done more work on earth more powerful work when you then when you've turned two devil into it an angel anybody can see angels I mean Jesus said something along these lines to of course but anybody can see angels but but imagine you're in

this vortex in Sedona out in the Red Rocks and you smudged and you flew to it and you everything's kind of you know everything's just really cool and just just right you know and you're just in a great trance kind of spiritual meditation and you just get this feeling like the earth kind of quakes a little bit sometimes people have felt that and sometimes there's this vortexes thing that opens above you and around you and there's like wow and you can just hear the sounds high frequencies of angels

and it's their vibration that you hear they don't actually pluck harps and sing you know you know the the it's their vibration you're hearing and it's so high that it sounds like the choir of angels they're not actually singing you're actually hearing their frequency which is just beautiful and all this is happening but what people don't expect is had evolved and then this golden light and all this wonderful the clouds are kind of doing something unique and oh my god this is the presence of

ascended master oh I feel Kusumi here in st. Romania it's all set up the pillars of you know power around you what would you do if in the midst of all that it's all set and here comes the voice of God and peering through the veil of illusion is your ex I you know you know think about like me again you know do you have anything else I can take you know think about it I this is all just coming to me sorry but you know but Wow right and most of us would get kind of sick to our stomach and disturbed by it I mean really it's kind of visceral

for us when though the shock of I was having this holy moment then something evil came no no how do you know that wasn't the greatest opportunity you've ever had that person you know I've said this many times everybody with their altars and Buddha's and little things all over their altars they don't usually have photos of their exes on there because that's an inconvenience to your spirituality and I'm not saying go and put a picture of them I'm just saying think of the humor behind it that at the

end of the day you are the most holy when you're the most forgiving when I say forgiving never interpret my commentaries about forgiveness to be related to enabling okay Michael said I'm supposed to just be okay and forgive my ex for all the stuff they did not at all not at all this this course that we're starting up this Wednesday one of the things I want to share with people is how to deal with people from the past so it's on relationships and intimacy and other topics on and on but it the reason it's

partly on relationships is I want to get back to that with folks that are just at that final step with people from the past how to deal with those the finale let's say so we really get perturbed when they come back into our minds this doesn't negate that people have acted hurtfully I'm not saying you know pretend it didn't happen nor that you got hurt you did I'm not going to be one of those teachers to tell you but you know pretend it didn't happen you know or try to dress it up bottom

line is people hurtfully and selfishly and it hurts the question about forgiveness and what changes this is and how what do I want to do with it now I am never gonna stop thinking about it I'm never gonna stop thinking about them I'm gonna curse them till the end of time is one option another option is you know I think I'm ready to actually enter a more empowered life where even if that has happened and even if I felt hurt I'm going to wash off the hurt and say goodbye to its effects on me I'm

ready to go to another level of consciousness now once you do that it starts to make more sense than before you do it because before you actually take that step into higher forgiveness levels it's gonna sound really strange for really arbitrary far-fetched but once it starts happening and kicking in it's quite fabulous so here's an idea here's a question think about just for a moment it's not the meditation per se but think about how many different ways you have consciously in your life past present or

future all the different ways you have worked to improve yourself just sit with that for a second even if this is sort of a meditation just sit with it for a moment eating better gave up an addiction you know work with that play with that tune into that okay I gave up an unhealthy relationship did some inner child work okay come up with at least a couple started reading meditating all these things things you gave up or things you added that are positive just raise a hand and we'll name some out loud okay think of a

couple and raise a hand yes the Hawaiian ho oponopono healing forgiveness practice anybody else yes working on giving up anger yes for you too okay yes doing a tracking exercise that we do you know here regularly at unity of sidonis it's it's to see what's behind issues yes giving up gossip how many prayer meditation course in miracles' better diet practicing forgiveness hiking working out addiction coming to unity of Sedona watching the broadcasts nice nice so having almost a is that a meditative

practice or literal so seeing yourself okay good walking the I am presence beautiful who else practicing gratitude I can't repeat that but okay thank you thank you and and what about druid work Native American traditions right okay look at the variety of things and that's only naming in a sixty second exercise naming the things and that's not by any stretch all the things we've done to become more spiritual now this is important because hidden behind all of the things we've ever done you know I think I'm gonna

give up sugar a white bread or whatever it is be hidden behind everything we've ever done ever done in any lifetime to improve ourselves is all the same it's about a search for God believe it or not believe it or not when you got into this or to stop doing that when you said no to hurtful things that was actually concealing truly you were looking for God when you try to get rid of something that's yucky it's because you want more God when you're trying to bring in something that's the opposite of yucky

and wonderful it's more God all we're ever really doing it's beautiful consciously or unconsciously it's all a search for God so it's kind of cool like okay and if you really get that it might feel comfortable to hear that and it might feel uncomfortable because some people don't want it to all be one thing they want to complicate it and make it no no this isn't all a search for good this is my I want to do this and this is I want to do this ten times a day and over here you know they want stuff to think about

an obsess on but it's really really something that's peaceful when you say it all comes back to the same thing and if it does then how can you ever wrong or shame anybody's version of that thing you see what I'm saying it's not like oh I see you're into that practice oh yeah I used to be into that I'm way beyond that now you're not way beyond anything because anything you're ever doing is still you and your search for God so think about that and then add one more thing what if

it's true and I promise you it is we're already home what if you're already home what if all the things you're doing to get home are when you eventually get home gonna be things you look back and say I had it all alone right so how might that change how I do things one is a quest and one is an expression of being now it changes everything I'm going to do I was meditating once a day to make sure that I'm you know whatever developing mind you know power stillness and whatever somebody else is I go

walking because I want to check my little watch and how many feet I've taken the steps and you know and whose gauge this you know wait how's my glucose and how's my pulse and you know am I is clear you know all these different things to become healthier spiritual and all that which are not a problem but when you when you really start getting it the tradition even in deep Buddhist and Hindu prayers and meditations they often have taught that you go from the doer and you start retreating deeper and deeper and realize

all this everything on earth is a waste because it's still of the earth just stillness stillness stillness stillness and they often get to a place of I'm just sort of washing my hands of any involvement in this world have you heard of that or seen that that's not the end you're supposed to before enlightenment chop wood carry water and after enlightenment chop wood and carry water what you're supposed to do and what's inevitably gonna happen you can think you're done when you've done the I've

withdrawn from my investments in the world you're not done yes I am look I've been withdrawing my investments no you're there when you had investments Stage one released your investments Stage two and then without investment came back and engaged again before I let it all go I ate such and such I I drank water I went to the gym or I didn't go to the gym I had children whatever you did whatever was your life as we grow we start withdrawing investment from and that's one way to know that you're even

growing it's not because I'm saying there's a vow I want you to take to withdraw your investments of the world that's a religion or a cult instead what I'm saying is it's organic if you've noticed that you have less investment less reactions less basically less affirming that this world has power over you that's what it's really doing what does that mean if I'm saying the world has less power you're emptying your old way so that something new can come what do you think the new is gonna be there

is but one power in the universe God which is love so that whole mind training three steps I think I know I know nothing got it you know it's just beautiful so we go through this it doesn't matter what politic it doesn't matter what issues you get behind environment you know what my thing is all about you know don't let them cut down the trees all of it is a search for God so spirit isn't going to tell you that it's right or wrong at all because it's more like what is the spirit with which you do it if you fight

for a cause with hate then you have forgotten your search for God when you do something from love it affirms you're getting it again so just gauge and look at anything you do and ask yourself how what's the spirit behind it do I feel a charge if so oh god it just flew in under the radar I thought that my passionate love for such-and-such was clearly from God but nothing can be clearly from God until you've erased what wasn't from God so looking at all the investments all what you think is righteous it can't be

righteous until it goes through the stages that you thought it was righteous you found what wasn't righteous about it and now you got it natural organic stages everything goes through three stages including love men I really am in love with you which is really I think I'm in love with you then it's no I guess not and we usually end it right there the third stage is but I'm determined to love you from a higher level I'm not going to live with you again but I love you goodbye if that's what I need to do

and if after that we part ways and I still feel charges and issues I've got work to do you never done just because they actually moved out you know you all is not some sort of a mantra for they're gone you know u-haul they all their issues with them you all your issues with you so we do yoga we do I'm gonna do more water because I heard that that purifies your being and it's great what's the spirit with which you do it and all I'm saying is there's the doer and there's the beer the doer is that

that first one and then you go wow I realize I do I need do nothing and the way of Dow and the way of Zen you know no doing look at me I'm just like cosmic I don't I don't really do much of any I just you know perfect and for a lot of people if you're really into doing nothing then you move to Sedona you know final work on that okay but so this this doing nothing and and and the students will claim that's the goal because that's the highest they know you don't know about the other until you actually

become it you know so people so it's about not doing it's about no not and just I'm sitting at me it isn't it shifts from the little I know I to the real I the I am I've said it many many times but this is that Donovan song that came from entre of the far east first there is a mountain then there is no mount and then there is it doesn't end first there's a mountain then there's no mountain done it always comes back you're a parent you let go of the issues and the addictions

of your children all the value set boundaries you you do you know codependent work and you all that stuff then you will come back to being a parent again even if you never speak to them because there'll be a new you parenting them it won't be one that's fighting with nor withdrawing from but I am and you'll take you know if they're in a crisis you might offer some suggestions but you're not going to give in and enable their addictions you'll just say no but if you need a suggestion

for kind of a counselor sure I don't want counselors names I want money but did you not get that in my email I should have capitalized the word never you know so it's fine it's coming from a different place but so too do we come from as a lover as a partner as an employer-employee everything changes it's and we're not doing that one time linearly this is a constant small wheels within a bigger wheel this shifts in me this shifts in me this one over here this one this one went back a notch for some reason that's going to

come around again for more work so at the end of the day everything is about our search for God now how are you doing in your search is what we really come back and ask ourselves how are we doing so if things are going well if we're seeing like positive expressions because it's all a search for God or an expression of not searching for okay but it's all about God because even when I slip and I'm not showing progress towards God I'm still going to feel that and be brought back to that tomorrow

with a new lesson it never actually goes away there's no hell that you eternally go to you're just gonna feel like you're in eternal hell when you're in not on the path because you'll have lessons coming up and heart all it is is harder lessons I mean what's he'll well that's where your Bernie amid Pittsburgh for you know thousands of years and well yeah that's called karma that's just called reincarnation and you're in this fire forever yes called Earth and you just

keep doing the same incarnations until you're free of Hell how when you decide to get out and say I'm gonna get this I got it now it's time to forgive time to move forward time to be what I keep talking about so there's that movement so everything is really when someone's demonstrating whether it's words actions thoughts whatever when someone's demonstrating which you would maybe think of to be as a positive experience it's showing they're probably reflecting progress on the path to God make sense

so it's not just good karma back home and forget that just instead how am i doing and when I feel a great day when I was struggling with something let's say a relationship and all of a sudden I just felt some peace come over me that cannot happen accidentally I have to have on some level at some point in time had to have made a decision to make the step in my search for God somewhere along the way yes you could call it good karma but I'm saying all of these things that come back to us are things we've

done and earned they're not arbitrary the ego doesn't allow it to become obvious because if it were obvious you would then start assigning more and more things to positive experiences it makes it arbitrary it's like today you could have woken up you know with perfect Omani by Mian and prayer and you know gongs and crystal balls and in eighth your organic stuff and drank purified water great and something before you even leave they leave the house it hits you in some way a phone call or you trip and stub your toe and I I don't get it I

started my day perfectly it doesn't work like that because if it did you would go I like this now I know what to do to get every day to go well so I can start my day perfectly and something go wrong because the thing that went a little off could be a lesson from five days ago five lifetimes ago you'll never know the exact route per se and you don't want to know you don't need to obsess on that all you need to know is something's come up and anything that comes up is simply a test what am I

supposed to do with tests generally pass them just pass the test do I have to help straight A's with it no the universe is pretty lenient you get to have an A a BSc a D anything but fail you can just any that's how I didn't school any great you know any great but enough might work out but but you see what I'm saying is the universe is so lenient only one of those letters represents you failed your test and then the universe doesn't say well you failed we're sorry you were on your walk

towards God but you failed tell them what we have form st. Peter well we've got some beautiful parting gifts on your way to hell you know it it doesn't actually happen like that right it doesn't happen like that the universe says oh ABCD great even a plus B minus you know all that and then D minus and then fail and then what does it do it simply walks around to the people that failed catches them they never fall they just failed momentarily catches them and says alright you had a lot of opportunities for the easy way we have

another way that we're gonna be able to bring this back to you sweetheart beloved okay oh thank you that's shoulder Robin all right you know getting all ready and and it really does when you're in the hands of the Holy Spirit or Divine Mother it does always feel like I got it as soon as she sets you free into the lessons themselves feeling like she's not there it's not there we start to panic again and then we start to allow these eyes not our heart that was connected a moment ago we allow these eyes to

determine our state of being and these eyes are going to say you know first of all I'm feeling all connected oh you know it's like being in the womb the embryonic fluid I'm being fed without even having to do anything though when the mother is holding me everything's really lovely and there's a moment where the child is birthed you know it doesn't usually come out in lotus position like do you know it comes out it's there's some discomfort there's some you dissin and look what happens I mean that

whether they still do the SWAT on the bottom or not a lot of them are going to say now the baby's just been born they're already putting needles to make it bleed so they can do blood samples it's kind of twisted but it's a metaphor of us being born into this place even in the mother's womb we're not always feeling great because mom's not always Gandhi you know like sometimes sometimes she's got some stuff going on and with her partnerships and whatever as fear of having a baby or whatever is going on so

we get that too but just metaphorically we're in this womb and we are in a temperature that feels right we are being sustained and fed in a certain way we're being taken care of that's like being on the other side in a sense soon as we're born it does feel like a rude awakening and it's just like when we have these meditations in the morning and then you say now I'm ready to go into the world it's you're just birthing another day and birth often brings with it birth pains the mother's

having birth pains bringing me out which is really a combination of things going on now I'm finally coming into the world they're already sticking me with things to get blood samples that's you know your IDs at the bank and whatever else that you have to present to prove who you are you know the job that's always challenging you listen you know you've quadrupled sales you're the number one person in our company throughout the nation Wow we want you to double sales next month like it's never enough and

that baby's not even doing anything and people are moving it then on the scale and you know III broke a collarbone once when I was a kid I don't remember the pain and all that but I know I broke a collarbone and I was sad or crying about it probably five years old or something like that and what I remember is them laying me on this ice cold aluminum table I remember that more than anything else about it so when you take this baby and they put it on a scale and it's really strange the kinds of things we're doing

seemingly what I'll call insensitive ly and that's again back to where I started love means I care and caring means how can I help you know instead of this this might be a little cold you know to a baby and pricking its foot you know it's challenging stuff the things we have created it as our life in our world the Holy Spirit is trying to say to us you're never without me and those of us who have had you know major abuses or traumas of any kind we could easily argue that no no you definitely

weren't there when this happened because I remember asking for help and help did not come the help isn't there to answer our linear statements because technically if you said to the Holy Spirit by any name I don't care if it's Ganesh or whatever any name if you said I need help because this is happening to me do you understand that technically if the help came to get you out of that specific situation it could tempt you to think that that specific situation is actually happening and has power over

you by prayers being answered the way you want them answered you actually subconsciously trying to affirm that this problem has power and it's real God is asking us to pray differently help me see this through your eyes is the way we're supposed to be praying not God I want you to come here and see this through my eyes and fix it according to what I want that's actually damaging guys it doesn't sound damaging because we all think we know what's right so it doesn't always come across as those spirits with

III get that I'm not going to tell you're wrong for feeling that you're feeling that because that's how it feels the good news is we're already home we never left you can't leave God and go to hell and then eventually come back if you've prayed enough we're in heaven we're part of God dreaming that we're here going through hell then we want our hell dream to be fixed with other dreams God in case you're caring and unloving God apparently I'm told you are so you'll clearly do what I want and here's

the situation I'm in a relationship with a terrible person of course that terrible person is part of the nightmare the Karma of believing we're separate and going through these karma kinds of things but I have an answer give me a happier illusion to replace that one and I'll be fine you see and that's not how it's gonna work the solution salvation comes from us becoming God not asking God to fix things that aren't very becoming but rather how can I see through your eyes teach me and show me how to see the

situation through your eyes that's more powerful and more profound and more miraculous than saying I simply want my way any good really person that's deep let's even just a gardener would say to you if I could just buy an orange versus grow an orange which one is the more grand experience you know person that that does this they get it they're like there's nothing like it it's so I mean you know just trippy I had a retreat center many years ago for many years and you know I never did veggies and all

that kind of thing I've talked about that but never did that but we had an organic garden it was very pretty this but beautiful organic garden it's and maybe the size of this room or something but beautiful I never ate anything in that place but it was beautiful and you know what even without eating it I appreciated there was something about the vibration of folks going in there preparing seeds preparing so doing the whole thing I would go and sit in there just sit in and smell the smells and I thought this

is just glorious I wasn't drawn to eat anything but I was soaking it in in a different kind of a way and since then you know I've started to try some things recently but it's like wow there's something different when it's at when it's an actual experience but then just to purchase let's say I'm not saying you're wrong for buying a veggie I'm just saying there's something added I remember you know when I was a kid and a guy was showing me he was doing something mechanical you know with a

heavy equipment or whatever and there was this one part that was stuck into another part and they couldn't free it so he's passing it around to all these youngsters you know that the the new newbies and people are hammering and they're just trying to pry these two parts apart from each other and it's like wow and enemies amazing the other guys get another and you know put this in a vise okay tighten it up whack whack with a hammer and bigger hammer you need a bigger hammer and everybody came up with

these ideas the guys old guys just watching and they're like man it's stuck he goes let me check he goes yeah you're right it is took it out of the vise turned dropped it on the floor broke the two parts apart freedom apart you know he goes okay there you go and everybody's same thinking we just spent an hour everybody's each spent an hour trying to free these two parts he just dropped it on the experience so I call that a grandmother's wisdom where a parent might still be trying to do something

for a child and there's a different wisdom that comes from I understand I know and it's ingrained in us it's almost like it's it's part of us now it's not just in here it's a part of our consciousness now we were made in God as part of God we were not made over here and tossed into the universe like dice on a you know table in a casino it's not like a good luck you know at some of you look at you double sixes and somebody else Oh snake eyes you know and whatever else is the good luck and

I'd lock almonds on the dice it's that's us supposedly and it's not like that at all God didn't say you're there and go over there God said you're here and you're always here and we said I have an idea what if we weren't here what would life be like if we weren't in a state of perpetual bliss tada and then the universe was created and we entered the universe and started living that experience not easy to understand but all the Masters of old and all the far-east how they talk about this is all

a dream but what dream within a dream it's all a dream it's hard to understand that but it's a dream my point is simply this we never left God but we did manufacture it and dream that we left and the life we're living is yeah it's it seems really challenging and tumultuous and traumatic at times no all things are one of two things our return home or our frustrations of not feeling like we're returning home that's all it is when I have challenges all they're doing is reflecting the moments I feel

like I'm not getting there everything is about our journey home we're not even apart from God but while you're in the illusion you're going to believe you're on a journey so fine embrace it but are you going to embrace the I'm on the spiritual path or are you going to embrace your resistance to it everything that's challenging and goes wrong mirrors our resistance to being on the path oh because some of you you know yeah you're really challenged apparently because I can tell by your life you have

a terrible life so you must be one of the challenging people that don't want to go home unlike me no you're even reflecting my challenges if I don't like you I've pushed my challenges away and now they're gonna have to come back and manifest in my life if I can see that your challenges are your experiencing but your your experiences but you're a part of me we're in this together how can I help rather than sucks to be you how can I help because I'm no further wrong then the part of you that

believes you're further on even if your fur all you are is the dream of those other people of what it's like to be further on we're all in this together you're just variations of my dream and I'm a variation of your dream we're all in this together we need to start that's what affirmations are about affirming the truth of God so we're all in this and I'm not saying it's easy we can affirm love peace abundance joy and all that then you get a call and then something happens and that's it's the

strangest thing you can pray and meditate this morning you could be on the road still pregnant listening to spiritual tunes on the radio everything going really blissfully and then still stuff happens all it is is a test to make you believe you're not on the path that you're not on your way home and eventually realizing that you are home so everything is I'm not home I'm on my way home or I am home and it could be distilled down even further it's all about I am home and yet I'm forgetting that's all when I when I

forget it hurts just like a child having a nightmare as soon as the lights are on or it's gently awakened it starts to calm down but in the nightmare it feels very real a quote I've shared probably at least a few times Yogananda it's all an illusion master Yogananda it's all an illusion so then why does life seem to hurt so badly well a dreamt head bumped against a dripped rock it brings your dreamt pain it's a great answer it is a dream but you're thinking you're in it so in the dream your head will seem to bump

against something and it's gonna bring your pain it's all an illusion but it's one you believe in so it's still happening so at the end of the day please remember the following we all have to recognize the following one step at a time one step at a time do me a favor though don't stir about but just right now gently close your eyes don't stir about if you need to you can but just close your eyes and absorb the following how do I speed along my awakening process each day and on an as-needed

basis first we have to recognize and own any unhappiness we have any unhappiness whatsoever it's we can't be happy without God so we have to own we are not ever happy and content without God it doesn't matter what tradition or word you put it in but just just hear yourself saying that in some gentle clear way I can never truly be happy without God I get it I own it it lessens the amount of attempt for us to manufacture our own way never never at peace without God never happy without God never joyous

without God acceptance of that secondly if it's true and it is that I can never be truly happy without God the second step would be I think I'm ready to see truly truly see the value of being with God if being without removes my happiness peace and joy then I'm going to start believing in the value of connecting with God we're not trying to connect yet just you we must believe there's a value in it we must first see there's a valueless nosov being in pain it's worthless it does us no good but we

also have to do the opposite there is a value in connecting with God no solution yet just accepting there is a value in connecting with God third I am committed therefore to finding God don't try to be too cosmic one step at a time and it's kind of like moving up the chakras my root chakra my primal needs stuff of this world it makes me feel separate that's why I need to recognize I'm not happy without God the second chakra brings me in that state I think there's a value emotionally there's a value in

finding God third the intellectual the mental chakra I am committed that's the fire in us I'm committed I'm determined to find God not going further yet just the commitment and forth my heart I am committed to the steps I need to take in my heart and soul I am fully committed and this heart of mine will speak to all the other parts of me all my other chakras all the other parts of my being and will say to them to it to me we're going in this direction guys I rule the soul I rule the rest of you

mean commit it to taking the proper steps and then step 5 just imagine ascending gently up into the upper three chakras all combined here's where now I need do nothing but give thanks I'm giving thanks for every bit of my progress if all I took was one step forward today progress that's great what if I stalled or didn't take a step or even took a step backwards what can I learn from that and now it makes it a step forward again I refuse failure is not an option cannot be happy without God I'm very clear there's a value in

finding God I'm committed to discovering that and finding out I'm committed and to taking the proper steps to get there once I do that let go let God and I give thanks take just a half a minute more and walk through that a little bit your own on your own and breathe in the idea everything in my life is either reflecting that I'm home or lessons related to not feeling like I'm home I'm home or lessons that will

help take me home everything's about home because we're already there have I done something wrong when I feel like I'm not at home cuz it sure doesn't feel like it sometimes I have a little tragedy or major tragedies I witness them I hear them that doesn't feel very home heaven like is there something wrong no not at all it means today something got the best of me the physical pain what I heard what I saw that's this world it's gonna try to get the best of me so imagine even in your weakest moments

you're being feeling frail and so on and fradulent the world's getting the best of you you still have the power and the right to say well yes it definitely feels like it's getting the best of me and isn't this funny because as much as there is evidence to prove to me that I'm powerless and that there um that I'm not at home isn't this funny because I really am you can still say it because it's true so you can say despite feeling this I am at home in God despite someone not liking me make me feel unlovable

isn't that funny because I am completely loved by the only being that ever matters all in that it feels one way and replace it with another own it surrender it and replace it with another that's freewill that's the power of choice it's the only real necessary power of choices to choose the only thing that's real true and powerful the only thing that would change the circumstance that has me in pain therefore every choice I make is a prayer because prayers are always about wanting to improve

situation or giving thanks for situation so I give thanks when I'm connected and when I'm not feeling connected I pray to get connected by owning that I'm not feeling that way a willingness to give that up and a choice to accept something new or back to those five steps again that I gave a moment ago just a feeling of gratitude a feeling of closure a feeling of I got it and so it is thank you