Using Gratitude to Attract God

One thing that I can say, when you hear talks on gratitude, Thanksgiving and gratitude, and so forth, like so many topics they just seem to pale in what they could be saying. People talk about, "We need to be grateful." And there's people in the audience and they become crestfallen. Kind of, "Okay, you know even for what little we have, okay.

My life really stinks, but I'm grateful." And that's what they're hearing,. Its as though they're being shamed. God wants you to be grateful. "Oh I'm sorry. Yeah God, listen, if I haven't thanked you for the eight abusive husbands or the you know this and that and the other, let me just thank you now.

" You know, child abuses, and you're not asked to thank the ego. You're not asked to thank things that are hurtful and harmful. I don't know what's wrong with spiritual teachers that they miss so many topics gratitude is another one that's completely messed up you are never have never been encouraged by any being in heaven to be grateful for things that are not heavenly because if it's not God it's not real why would you be told to give thanks for something that isn't real there's reality and there's illusion don't give thanks for illusion

and when people are coming from their egos they're being hurtful and selfish that's not God therefore why would I think ego for it not going to go and think the Nazis for what they've done to people I'm not going to go and think races for doing what they do that doesn't mean and I'm not hating them either what I'm saying is the gratitude should only be either for the reality of God itself think that there is God despite what has happened think that despite my abuses there's God's presence despite my feeling alone

and abandoned and rejected there's something beyond that that's in me I'm giving thanks for the reality of Who I am I'm not giving thanks for people that have tried to show me what I'm not I'm not giving thanks for people who which were showing me their false self in their abusive behavior why would I give thanks for that and people say well because that's all God no it isn't that's just another mistaken well isn't God all things yes well then God is peace yes and more no you just

said God's all things ah trick God's all things that are real see that's what the teachers are they just come from such a 101 spirituality 101 and just because they have confidence or not they teach they can make a living at it so they teach but they're not saying anything of any value they're just going off what makes sense to the ego-self well you know and it's okay look at how 101 that is level 101 if God's everything then God must also be hate and racism and war okay God is rape apparently to know what's

wrong with you people but I understand the reason they don't get it what they're saying makes sense logically of course in miracles' tells us the ego is very logical it's just not rational so what they're saying is logical but it's not true well it sounds like I'm contradicting God's everything and yet isn't rape and hurt and starvation no but that contradicts no it doesn't because there's a caveat to that which is God is all things that are real how could God be something that isn't how could even

you and I be something that isn't if it doesn't exist it doesn't exist when you try to say well some things then you're trying to justify it and if you throw in one illusion you got to throw them all in God is only love so if I'm going to talk about gratitude I'm giving things only for what God is but there's one exception one subject matter that's an exception that not just God what is God is real and I'll give thanks for that but also the parts of me that are becoming God not because they're real but they're not real yet but they're

they symbolize my awakening to what's real so I'm still grateful the bottom group pain ego top group God and I'm saying this one doesn't exist don't give thanks for it this one does give thanks for it but there's one other group the one the parts of me that are learning from my pains not the pains I'm giving thanks to the parts of me that chose to learn the choose earth I will not give thanks to the ego I will give thanks to God but also the part of me that's becoming God the chooser and I'm not praising it I'm not worshiping the

chooser because that's not the full media God is the fool me the real me but in the meantime I'm grateful that I've made better choices today so here's my abuser I'm not giving thanks but what I'm going to give thanks for is what I learned from being in the life of that abuser or experiencing that abuse I don't mean justifications when I say give thanks for what you learned justifications I mean really really go in and dig in and see what can I be grateful for and I don't mean the little that we have like the old you know

saying from a proverbial parent or whatever but you've got to be grateful for what you have that's not accurate and yet it is grateful for what is real that I have never never ever tell people and just pass the word about this tell spiritual teachers to stop telling people to give thanks for hurtful things because it gives another excuse for the hurtful things to continue because when you say thank you what it means is anchor it this is my reality so thank you pain that really feels great let me breathe

that in you know and and thank you abusers and thank you why because then you take them on you anchor them in don't take the beautiful plant and you plant it you anchor because you want it to grow in your you garden so when you say abuse okay fine I'm really grateful for my abusers mm-hmm now they're moving and they're planted in your garden in your mind no not okay hey listen you know that abusive thing no done hey you know I started dating you and and you've got all kinds of restraining orders and I think I'm done

but I thought you liked me I thought so too and then I woke up you know it's the crazy part of me a crazy an unhealthy part of me was was leaning towards addiction of this kind or that kind addictions are not just chemical and drink addictions are also dysfunctions were addicted to being dysfunctional we're addicted to dysfunctional pain experiences we have these addictions to having a painful life when you don't you know you might think the word addiction too strong you're attached to it still too strong you're used to it it's all

the same once you start becoming used to something like Jesus tells us in A Course in Miracles or Christ consciousness teaches us that when something's in your life it's only there because you actually believe there's a value to it otherwise you'd have said hmm no you know like if you find in a junk drawer at your house and you go oh look five pieces of a shoelace you know if you're the type of person to go I think I should keep that because there could be a day when I want to tie those pieces together and try to get the knots

to stuff through a hole in my tennis shoes it just makes total sense then you need a therapy beyond what we can do here on a Sunday if you're an average and intelligent person you're likely and you're supposed to be able to say why does that why am i why do I have that and and let it go but but it's okay they're there let's let go of the pieces of shoelace but I paid 29 cents for those shoelaces 10 years ago I mean come on let it go come on junior trash can people collecting things you

know broken paperclips what are you gonna do with that so let the things go and it's such a freeing experience because when you let the things go if you let him go begrudgingly then you're still hurting as though you still have those things you're as messed up as when you had them if you let him go and regret letting them go some of us let go of dysfunctional relationships and sit around bemoaning it I miss the way they used to abuse me you know I miss all that condescending comments you know it doesn't make sense just come on let it

go fine and when and then and even though I'm making light of it it's not light it's true we do this people it's you know in a sense it's called Stockholm soos Stockholm Syndrome where you have an abuser and then you start to get attached to the abuser in some way you start to believe that you owe them something for example so abusive things you know we attached to him and but my but my my mother gave me that those pieces of shoelace and it's a memory why would your memory of a shoelace she gave you be greater than the one you said having

your head and heart I mean it's just silly even if you want to remember somebody that's passed away I'm not gonna let go of that was my child that died who's Michael think he's he is telling me to let go of that child her my partner that was my life mate they died I'm not letting go then don't but in case you want to know they're no longer a dead person and you want to sit around going oh my husband or my wife died my child died now go ahead keep him as a dead person that's not what they want to be in case you

want to know what they're interested in it what it is is it's a it's unfortunately it's a sad thing for me to think I don't know how to keep something in my heart I need to keep it as an image my proverbial and perpetual image of you as a dead person but I remembered being by your deathbed and you were in so much pain doesn't that sound twisted at all because they're on the other side like you know and you're like no no no last breath I want to see that you taking your painful last breath and they're no

look here I am and that's why Jesus says to one of the Apostles in one of the lost books of the Bible why are you looking at the guy on the cross his spirit appeared to one of the apostles he goes don't look at that that's the dead guy I mean he didn't use those words I'm paraphrasing but I have his permission you know he's going to why are you looking at the dead guy and he called it the imposter why are you looking at the imposter meaning the false self Here I am and you know it's almost like the

apostles and surrounding people that loved him it's almost like no no no oh we want to just keep looking at the body on the cross it is tempting I mean that's how I stood humans are and then they made a religion out of the corpse on the cross and again every time you see it you got to remember it's nothing wrong with a crucifix when you look at it and say instead of all Mike my Savior my cry he was killed and you look at he was bleeding go ahead and look at a crucifix but remember it's so cool to look at that

because it reminds me the false the imposter self it reminds me that when Jesus died he could have stayed dead and we would all still be up creak it's a symbol of what he did there was saying this is what the world does to you when I look at a crucifix I can say yeah yep the dark night of the soul man I remember going through that a couple of times because that's all it is the crucifix is a symbol - beautiful symbol that we all this world has no good intentions for you but meaning the ego based world

you're not going to correct politics through an election you're not going to correct the economy through one maneuver because as soon as you go one direction there's a billion people trying to make it go another way you come up with a really healthy solution everybody wants to figure out how they can cash in on it nothing is allowed to just be free on this planet and I'm not shaming a particular political persuasion or a males or females this is what ego does and I don't even have to go outside my door I

can sit in my own house and have an inspirational thought and watch how the ego will try to beat the hell out of it you don't even have to go out and find anybody to do it so if my own mind conflicts and doesn't allow me to feel peace and harmony on a consistent basis how am I can expect the world to get that especially people that aren't into centering into God they're not going to fix the world for us I have to fix my own inner world and I'll start seeing a different outer world be the change you would like to see in the world so when

we start to get it and go okay there's things that aren't working for me that I'm gonna let go of and I'm not I'm never one about preaching like prematurely throwing things out people or whatever because the lessons still go with you you know if you fire everybody from your life who doesn't do exactly what you want look exactly the way you want them to look it'll never end there was a great Twilight Zone once where they played a Fidel Castro character and Peter Falk I think played the character you know as an old show

Twilight Zone and and you know and he was playing the Fidel Castro and he just won he just took over he became the dictator of a country they don't tell you literally it's castle but that's clearly that's what they're playing up so here he is and he's just become the dictator and then he starts seeing like in mirrors and so forth people sneaking up on him with guns and he kills them and one after another remember this one after another and and they didn't really have guns but in his mind they did

because if I took over in you know kind of less than legitimate ways now I have to worry that everybody is out to get me so his his own mind was haunting him in the form of everybody else around me you can't trust anybody else because of your own stuff inside so we have to heal inside and then we start to see something different outside it's really true I mean and of course in miracles' is really brutal about them because it's going to say what you're seeing outside is already a reflection of the inside anyway so when some even if somebody

does try to be the enemy it's saying you've already judged yourself as imperfect therefore deserving of an enemy our own self judgments create the things we end up judging and being upset with in the life around us we think if everybody else would just get it together oh I would finally be happy and the mystics and masters of all greatness have said to us find the healing and forgiveness and happiness within first because one of you asked about forgiveness forgive forgive myself and and learn to use everybody else as

simply my symbol my sin my test so even though people might behave hurtfully we're not pretending they don't whether they behave hurtfully or lovingly they're still reflecting how I'm doing inside when you see something you like it could be someone going doing a talk that you like it could be somebody letting you in in traffic it could be a clerk at the store that goes oh by the way have a great day give thanks because what you're seeing isn't just nice people what you're seeing is a reflection of your progress

man I'm so grateful god I remember days that I used to attract this and that and I'm so grateful I'm starting to see improvement in my life and instead of saying dear God in heaven thank you for sending me a nice person today as though God's going to go I'm going to give you a bad one today or a good one today God's like I have nothing to do with you in that sense I'm just awaiting you to remember who you ultimately are which is me in the meantime when you have fabricated versions of who you are I love seeing

you grow but I'm not making you grow you're deciding it you're the chooser so yes you can give thanks to God but also give thanks that you are making healthier choices when you see racism heal it in your heart and you can say but I'm not one of those we're in this together you may not be the overt you know perpetrator but I'm seeing it so let me just take that within and breathe that in and say wow you know I don't feel like I'm that way it did not the point you don't have to pin it to an exact detail just accept it generally

that we are all of one mind and part of my mind is a racist not the part that I'm thinking or doing I'm not acting like it even but it's not in my mind but you're part of me are still reflecting and even if I'm not you're still giving me an opportunity to forgive something in my mind and apparently outside too so I'm not grateful that you are a racist but I am grateful that I saw you acting like one because what I chose to do with it which is give that to God you know you can use any wording you want guys you don't have

to have specific you know specific mantra and affirmation and decree you can just say you know funny thing just happened god you could be a stoplight funny thing just happened god I saw somebody acting kind of sexist or racist or whatever it is and and I'm confused I'm even a little bothered by it because I'm not like that but that Michael guy was saying that I'm supposed to do forgiveness around it I don't really like this but I'm gonna do it anyway so whatever I just saw that triggered me and whatever it triggered

you don't have to know I'm gonna give this to God what you're doing is on behalf of the person that was acting out you're taking that in to a soul and surrendering it to God you can't actually do it the other way around you can't say god I would like you to fix them over there see that what they're doing as though God wouldn't be able to see god fixed that and gods like okay go ahead no I'm telling you God you go fix it there's a racist right there catch him fix him right now that'll be stopping

right now cuz I got God on my side God's like going how would I change your world this is your belief systems mirrored I'm not going to take away any of your belief systems ever because that would be stripping away something I gave you to do which is called create all I'm asking you to do is learn to create with a capital C from love instead of from hurt fear pain whatever else so God says yeah your since you're part of me and you want God to fix that go ahead and do it you're part of God be the representative

but it's not my issue did you just see it yes then did yours if you pick it up with any of your senses and you go fine then I'll just stay away from people I won't smell see taste this that you as long as they're not in my senses then I'm free no because you have a sixth sense that connects you psychically with everyone and if you even get away with that there's a seventh sense that you are everyone so now you're just up creep because if you can pick it up with any of your senses it's something for you to do

and again spiritual people say well that's not my issue what isn't my issue as soon as I say it's not my issue I'm separate from you whose issue I think it is and as soon as I'm separate from you we're out Creek again and I know how messed up this sounds I know how it's challenging because we wanted to think everybody else is so messed up and not me and I'm not saying you're messed up I'm saying that we're connected and if you want something to change outside all I'm asking is connect with it in our own

hearts the ho oponopono prayer of Hawaii to say what I'm seeing oops the fact that I can see someone else or something else acting out or hurting something or someone I can say WOW in whatever part of me that participated in that I'm so sorry please forgive me what I'd rather do instead is love thank you along those lines you can change the order of those short phrases in any way that works but it's still the same concept what I saw outside I contributed to really is it that deep yeah that's

how weird and even cool forgiveness is someone comes in on crutches they're in a cast not you know they're in a cast because of us because all of life is created in in with two forces me and us I and us you and us and you at each individual contributes to creation and then we contribute when a guy walks in in a cast I and we have co-created that that person and we have co-created that and I know that sounds really out there but that's what ho oponopono is as a prayer it means somehow we're so connected

somehow I contributed I'm so sorry man you're the guy who took the broken leg for us today you took the hit for us so sorry because we could have learned whatever lesson that person walked in with we could have learned that in the easy way love if I learned that we're all one nobody has to do anything to reflect a lesson to me because we're all at peace and when I lose that peace it starts something starts percolating up and I go nope nope I don't want to see that that's what happens it's called denial we repress it suppressive deny it

and eventually when the soul gets tired of pushing it down enough it eventually like the little don't don't don't don't you know jack-in-the-box it pops out and becomes oh look oh that poor guy with a broken leg it's him somebody else walks in god I'm struggling financially oh I'm so sorry for you I'm so benevolent I'll even pray for you thank you God that it's not me that's what our prayers are saying when you separate from him it's just as bad as saying thank God it's not me dear Lord you know pretty please help that person

that poor person over there struggling oh gosh and then we use gratitude improperly and go and I'm so grateful that my life doesn't look like that and that's not the proper use of any of it instead oh my gosh somebody walked in and they're totally impoverished you know and you realize that's that's me all I see is part of me that's me a part of me I don't mean that I'm covertly that I have a broken leg or that I covertly or without me knowing have financial issues it is this sonship it's

called in A Course in Miracles it is the Christ it's us the collective humanity in other dimensions not known and in other timeframes past future were all connected time can't disconnect us we're all connected throughout time even genetics there's an intelligence through genetics I mean they've even proven plants communicate and then they went so far as to test yogurt cultures and they would find that the cell of a yogurt culture responds to love it responds to kindness it responds to non-violence around it

and when the yogurt cultures are blended from this petri dish to another it's blended that they actually get excited hey man how you do yeah they don't go I see we have some vanilla cultures we're chocolate yogurt we're coconut yogurt if they don't do this banana yogurt they don't cuz the cell behind it beyond the taste flavor color the cell is an intelligence and that's what our souls ultimately are like we chose to disconnect from our souls and become little minds little ego minds and forgot who we are the real soul is right here

and the way I mean if yogurt culture Souls let's call a mini Souls if yogurt cultures can say wow this is so great as soon as we get to connect with other ones plants are going Wow someone came in we could tell we know that guy he was here yesterday they actually show this on a sensitive test equipment the plants go wow they were here feeding us yesterday then they have tests with other plants where people walk in and just shred and hack and rip apart the plants and then the next day when that person walks in they actually it

actually shows on the sensitive equipment like lie-detector you know they use those types of equipment those cells those beings those plan would actually start shuttering like fear now is that what I want a plant to do when I walk in the room I why would I want that your children they shudder even when they don't know they're shuttering your animals they shut and I'm not saying you have to always be what they want you to be to never train a dog discipline a child or but I'm not saying that at all but they can tell

when it's from love and when it's not even if they don't like you doing it and it's coming from love their soul is gonna get it that's what healthy boundaries are a person may not like you setting healthy boundaries but it's not their soul that doesn't like you it's their ego so it's okay that well fine you know you're gonna be changing the rules here I used to be able to get away with this I know that's when I was dysfunctional but I've become a bit healthier so I think certain things just don't work for me

anymore I remember after high school it was a few years after high school I'd run into somebody and they said you know Michael you know we got together the group you know with a specific little group that we'd get together and have each weekend get together have a party kind of thing and what we all got together and you're the only one that wasn't there I'm like really they go yeah and then people started talking so where do you think he is well I heard he found God so he thinks he's better than us and I'm

listening to all the observations yeah Wow you know yeah and then they were saying yeah you know all spiritual people are like that and you know they called him Christians at the time they thought I was a Christian or you know because I've got into spirituality when I was in high school and it kind of just kept going so they thought oh he's better and they had all these stories made up and I just listened and listened you know and I thought wow really am i that Wow I did that oh and I said that nobody even

asked me they just made the whole thing up which still happens in my life and your life probably but these games and they make up all this stuff and then one of them said so what did happen I said I never heard about it that was it I would have still gone and I would have still been me as they understand me they would have still said hey if they were I don't know what they were they had a drink or getting high I don't know but if they were and the I would have done the same thing as I did in high school I'm good because even

in high school I didn't get high with him well once or twice but I didn't inhale no even in high school you know I I didn't I didn't I didn't get drunk and you know I didn't do all those kinds it but I wasn't trying to be like prissy or a goody good you know they'd see me walking around with the same bottle of beer through the whole party nobody would know they'd probably think it's a doll he's probably on his sixth it's the same one it's warm you know and it would

just be so it blend in but I'm still me so we tend to make these sacrifices and and people don't like that and they want you to fit within their stories and they will make up stories if you don't fit because the brain gets very uncomfortable when somebody has shifted something there's a popular book I think it was more popular in Canada than the States but who moved my cheese you know some of you have heard of that right and it's you know it's that concept wait you're you're disrupting my reality I could be full-blown addict change my way

and people like wait we're partying what do you mean you don't do that anymore they're gonna get something insides gonna get disturbed then they make up stories I remember going to a nightclub to listen to some music when I after I got divorced it was kind of nothing to do so I went to listen these bands play music and it was amazing because I go and I'm listening I'm there partly just partly for me to just come out and have something to do because it was a really dark time after divorce so just something to do but I go and I'm

listening to music which I like listening to so I'm listening bands and stuff and I'm there you know each weekend for a little bit of time and eventually some people asked if they could sit at my table I said sure and then it's it's hilarious because these people more than once came over to me sat next to me or leaned into me and said listen you know the people here at the nightclub have been talking about you and we just wanted you to know that we wanted to buy you a drink because you seemed like a really nice

guy which is odd you know they're like you know I mean you just stand out as a really nice guy said oh thank you and they said and we were gonna buy you a drink and then we realized you're in recovery so they've had this conversation you know all the drunks and partiers are talking about Michael deciding that I'm in recovery I've never even gotten drunk let alone getting in recovery what am I getting in recovery for fur sobriety's 12 steps from sobriety what am i and he said well I said what makes you think that

well we notice you know do you never have a drink you know and when you do it's just soda you know coke Cola you know I'm like oh so I just sit there going wow I mean even when you sit there mind your own business people make up stories and that's this world because they need something usually something dark to chew on they this way it is some of them so aggressively so they don't just chew on it they devour their image of you they devour it and I'm sorry that they do that because I know we can make light of it

but I know it's a painful thing to have people ripping you up like that verbally gossip slander it's a drag but they would rather we don't think it's an accident they would rather do that than ask you what you're about okay they got to make something up so in our lives what are you going to give thanks for the slanderous story oh thank you God that I'm apparently in recovery and thank you doesn't make any sense at all because you're not and if you say thank you God that everybody in the world you know hurt me and abused me not the real

them don't say thanks for the hurts say thanks only if you chose to learn anything anything from it I learned such-and-such and I go forward the Bible itself says there's no purpose for the word regret except one thing did you learn something that's all no beating yourself up regret is allowed God does not encourage any form of regret but one did you learn anything and that totally supports what I've been saying in my life this such-and-such happened whatever it is I could be standing here talking the tree could

fall over on me and you know dang the person who didn't put it up right and dang Christmas trees and now I'm going to become the Grinch from now on I'm gonna dress for Halloween as the Grinch I'm never gonna give gifts away in the I hate Christmas because the tree fell over on me and and yet I could say you know if ever I'm in doubt I could have checked to see if it was stable if I didn't just remind myself I did think about it gee so maybe next time I have a thought maybe just follow through on it and guess what if I choose not to follow

through on it I chose not to follow through on it taking responsibility and it just eases things it just eases things what can I learn from this relationships you know yeah that's a bummer I would have loved for this to have happened in marriage I would have loved for that to have been a little different for my kids I would love this and that it's not ignore it stuff it pretend it didn't happen it's if something's upsetting you ask yourself what you can learn that's all and I could say but I can't fix if some things happen to my kids that I wasn't

aware of and now it bothers me now that I've heard about it knowing that I'm aware of it what can I do to fix that I probably shouldn't have allowed the divorce to happen because I could have been there to protect and can't protect them forever and if only and if only and if only of course in miracles' tells us if only is the most consistent popular axiom of the ego because if only means nothing ever is okay nothing's ever truly good it could have been just a little more if only I would have God there's no peace

to that if only always has me leaning out a little but when I let go of if only Wow okay wait is there something wrong with me if I if I say I'm gonna be peace at peace about my children things that happen to them is it it seems wrong and almost negligent for me as a parent to go I'm at peace with it see that comes up in the mind to just ask yourself are you meaning to hurt the kids by letting that go No then shut up or using a spiritual way of saying shut up so look at your ego and say be still and know the I am presence

of God meaning that's enough but I could have okay what could you do differently now well I can't fix then then be quiet that's enough that's when the masculine side of you has to come out and say enough the other can say honey what's going on well I just wish I could would love to oh come here let me hold you in let tell me what you wish you could have done different allow the feminine side to happen let talk it write it journal it get out what you'd love to have seen differently get out what what would bring you more peace if

you could change it today but when you're done with that there's a point where you say now get up see Jesus comes in and Lazarus's sisters Martha and Mary he walks into the town and they're crying okay they're crying they're upset they're upset that he's you know he their brother Lazarus passed away and he's like aw I'm so sorry nice hug you know he's comforting them he's giving them the feminine when he went to Lazarus he didn't go oh Lazarus how's it feel being dead and everything you know you okay with

Lazarus he says Lazarus get up there's no Lazarus are you okay must have been terrible having a sickness that made you die it was just get up for those who were crying he held them and he held space for them for those that needed to get up he said get up for me there's a time when I have to say Michael are you all right and other times that's enough okay it's important when I get up I can still say wow I was really sad there for a minute and I can say why what did you learn what did you get from that I can see that

I probably prolonged a certain relationship let's say in my life your life you know I there was one relationship or there's one today that you allowed to go on for a few extra months or years and what a bummer now what can you learn from that you don't say I'm grateful for the dragging on of a relationship what you say is I get it now when my inner Center steers off too far and nothing I do will bring it back that's probably it from now on I know where the line is drawn so I'm gonna see and watch you know from

now on I'll watch my Center I would like a relationship that not is perfect in my Center it moves a little bit perhaps but when it moves we talk and we heal it oh that was that was kind of interesting and then it shifts to the left a little okay we talk we navigate we communicate we heal that's normal for a relationship that's healthy in fact perfectly center all the time would be great but I actually become a better person each time I steer up and come back as a human my divine self is perfectly centered humans gonna

steer off comebacks tear off come back perfect call personal boundaries against myself not apply to others this is boundaries with me so back Michael back come back when it goes off too far and I let it go off too far away from Center and I let it go too long away from Center and I do nothing about it or if I tried everything I could and it's still not coming back then oh I think we have to have a ceremony with like a funeral it's time for a ceremony the the shoelaces that are broken into five pieces

I tried tying it back a few tie and it's not working anymore time to let it go just what happens you know I I it's it's up apply this in any part of your life where you just go okay that's enough yeah but if yeah but cannot turn into and we change something then it's done let it go we're coming to the end of a year now is in a very auspicious time to be able to say what have I learned from this year and my life because there may be new pieces of my life overall might this lifetime that come back to me look back and see what in your life you

can still learn from draw from it whether it was a happy thing or not so have anything can I still learn anything from it sit and go inside and allow that to happen and ask the Divine Mother ask the Holy Spirit help me see some of these things that I might be forgetting or neglecting or denying that I could learn from and then here's the thing the experience is one integration which comes partly from gratitude is to and then I rise to a new level of consciousness everybody has experiences but most

people end up attached to the good crucified by the bad that's a typical human being so you can listen to this watch this and just continue being a typical human being because that's typical but you could use something else which is to go to a higher level of consciousness watch there's the experience good or bad experience I'm going to go one higher I'm going to see what I learned from the experience and whatever it is I'm going to give thanks giving thanks anchors that I did learn if I

don't give thanks that means I'm hedging I'm gonna give thanks I did learn wow I did like I got it thank you there was a book I read and it had information that was interesting but now I'm breathing in I took a meditation class but I'd really didn't pay that much attention it's coming back to me what did the teacher say oh yeah that's right that helps oh wow that really deep in my meditation thank you positives negatives anything you can draw it all in to give thanks and that helps you integrate it to a new level

humans have experiences and learn nothing but gods and goddesses refuse to learn nothing it's impossible gods and goddesses they have experiences then they integrate those experiences and partly by giving thanks then they go one better now that changes Who I am the inner God got us to a new level of consciousness people want to go from being totally broken humans into divine beings and it doesn't work they can fake it they can try it they can you know simulate it in some forms it just doesn't work get high enough and you

feel divine it doesn't work because when you sober up you're still there so here what changes everything between human and divine one trick one tool integrate what you've learned partly by giving thanks that makes the difference between humans and divinity learning to say thank you forgiveness well I forgive you the human down here oh I forgive you it's over I'm done I don't like you but I forgive you that's not real I have to say if I want to forgive you what did I learn from this experience and now that I learned we're done thank you now

that's forgiveness and now that forgiveness allows me to go to a new level of my self consciousness divinity that's how my human became divine again forgiveness gratitude forgiveness the things you guys asked about today those are the keys to getting home and there are things you're going to say I am seeing what I can learn from this and I would like to change it you change what you can and then you accept what you can't want to be asked about acceptance you accept what you can't that's the healthy and powerful aspect of

acceptance acceptance is not oh I guess we'll just accept you know it is what it is and it really is terrible but that's it no change what you can the saying used unfortunately in step programs is accept which you can't change and then change what you can that's backwards you change what you can first and then you accept you only accept what you can't change but first you got to show up and change things responsibility and show up so you do you step up every breath should be an attempt to go to a higher level of consciousness and if I'm doing

something of a relationship or or you have an illness and you do everything you can to heal it fix it repair it whatever it is a car for that matter anything when it cannot seem to get better give thanks for what you've learned and accept that it's not going to change if you have a health condition and you truly have spent every dime you'd like to or can't on it and every bit of advice and everything you've done healers and shamanic retrievals and reiki things and there's a point where you know maybe accepting that you're

also okay as you are that might be the healing you needed to get in this lifetime so you had an arthritic knee and you obsessed on it till you died you're actually still coming back to work on knee issues but if you said you know it's a funny thing as you walked with this arthritic knee it's a funny thing man I got this arthritic knee and Jimmy crack corn and I don't care I got this arthritic knee and I'm still like wow my arms still work hey look you know it's like it doesn't matter what

part of you there's people out there that don't have arms and legs and they learn to put a paintbrush in their mouth and paint that's you know that's like an acceptance but if they changed everything they could and then they accept it and made the acceptance into something brilliant it's incredible and there's other people that you know it's the ugh one has no arms limp at all limbs up at all and they're painting with their mouths and somebody else is obsessing that their arms and limbs aren't skinny enough oh I

shouldn't I shouldn't even drink this water it's gonna go right to my hips so what what are you gonna do what are you gonna do okay so fast I I fasted the whole two hours you know and nothing changed well listen when you die you'll become a skeleton there'll be a bat skeleton though never enough and when you try to help when you try to help yourself and other people and they keep countering it with another negative yeah but I just know then you know yeah this is one of those where there's no acceptance it's an obsession

so acceptance is a very powerful not of failing acceptance true acceptance is oh my god this is I got it I'm gonna accept this because my prayers are not going to be God fix this fix this fix it's gonna be wait I'm supposed to all this time have been asking for peace how do I find peace even though I struggle with an addiction I'm calling for peace not just to fix the addiction in 12-step programs as you know there's a connecting with God you need connect with God first not fix everything and as a closing connect with God connect with God because you

it'll help you to have that that power within to do whatever you want to do to heal so connect with God and feel peace Jesus tells one of the Apostles who's saying can you fix this thing I have this physical ailment well you know you hear about all these healings of Jesus and all that so it seems amazing one of them he just said let my grace be enough meaning connect with me left forgiveness let my holy conscious be enough to heal you but first as feeling well how can I feel what you feel Jesus I would love I would

love to to have the same peace Jesus had he's on a cross still saying you know I love you and I love you forgive everyone and forgive them they know not what they do and hey John you know I know you're kind of bummed but look at my mother Mary's she's so upset why don't you know let her be your mom and and mom you know let John be your son cuz you're gonna miss me but let him be your other son so he's hooking people up he's connecting he's networking you know he's like oh

listen that carpenter over there he's out of work as anybody needs some you know chairs and tables that I don't feel that amount of peace when I burn a piece of toast Danny the toast burned oh dang you know now I gotta make another one and triple the butter on it again you know butter is much better on good fresh bread than it is on par charcoal bread so humans have trouble finding peace even in subtle things and Christ is saying seriously people I mean I'm just up here giving you an example of how you

could pull this off and then all you do is spin up on me 2,000 years later you're spitting upon me when you can't think that you have the power to do the same thing in your own lives so come on just anchor what I'm doing remember anchor anchor integrate giving thanks anchors and integrates things into our consciousness let's take a few centering breaths just check out the stuff of this world and stretch your neck of it and make sure there's no kinks in the back and just relax now in this moment setting aside all the stuff of the world breathing and

centering everybody wants to run off to heaven or see purple lights and their meditations all those things come from making room for God prayer and meditation helps us to make room they're not the goal themselves they really ultimately and the same with healing it's all about making room for God and one way to make room for God is to release all the things that are unlike God hurts pains limitations old beliefs so in this moment as representatives of God's presence as representatives to all mankind throughout time we have the

right to step up and be a symbol a voice for them so we do so and so in this moment we recognize and we look right now at any individuals that trigger us are triggering us circumstances issues anything that just even the slightest annoyance let it come to mind and we ask the mother divine mother the Holy Spirit to help us discern what do we need to see to release today allow someone or something to come to mind it may very well be someone you'd rather not have been thinking about but it's perfect because you're not gonna be left with

that whoever it is whatever it is look within and ask yourself if you had to name a few negative emotions you would associate with that event or that person what would they be betrayal feeling held hostage stuck even if it's just an event that's going on heaviness I feel like I'm in a rut then let's own it those emotions and look back through your life to any other time you've ever felt such an emotion is there any other time you felt stuck or betrayed or abused held back look back in your life anybody else or any events other than today's feeling

that way causing you to feel that way and what you're seeing then is called a pattern so you don't just have today's event or person you also have connections to other times and other people and other events so there is a pattern and guess what the same people are not always there except you the events are not always identical either but the feelings are and whose feelings are they they're mine so in this moment father mother god I recognized my current challenge but instead of wishing

it were gone I'm gonna sit with it and I accept it behind them there are some all patterns some hurt feelings some negative emotions I get that and the events and people along with them I've welcomed them all into this moment with me and I choose to give them all up to You Father mother God I'm giving you the people so you're not asked to stick with it now that you remembered it I'm giving it all to God joyfully because it's a burden off my heart off my shoulders I'm giving you the people the events the feelings everything about it to you God

I'm giving them to you because I honor you I honor me and I honor these people enough to say help us to heal even if the person still feels like they were selfish or hurtful if we don't surrender them to God then they will continue being that way and continue doing it to others I don't want or need them to continue behaving like that so I'm showing the courage to give them to you God you helped show me how to see them differently and just feel a lightness you don't have to control it just let go think of a

person in your life that has symbolized the most gross form of sexist or racist don't be ashamed of that let them come to mind could have been you whoever it is let them come to mind and again I can recognize very easily that this bothers me this level of hate and hurt it disturbs me I see it not denying that and it doesn't just bring up specific issues it also brings up ones I didn't even know I had I might feel sad that somebody's a racist but I also might feel rage about it I might feel disgust in seeing sexism

guys let's be courageous let the images come to mind the people or groups doing such things the worst of them if somebody doesn't connect with them and bring them to heaven I don't mean their behavior I'm talking about the light hidden behind it we bring all of this to you God we don't know what to do with it of myself I'm nothing but with you on everything I have all the power and courage I need and strength I need so I'm bringing the racism and the sexism to you God and what I'd really like to see instead is peace and oneness peace on earth

goodwill to mankind peace and oneness it is possible here and now peace and oneness hear those words when you inhale and the words and so it is on the exhale and do it a few times think of nothing else call it in but imagine that you feel it imagine feeling peace and oneness your healing sexism and racism your healing your own personal traumas and issues and asking for some instead peace and oneness and it's totally up to us to decide how much we choose to feel that we can block it out if we want but why peace and oneness

over and over see it and feel it throughout all humanity and then feel a nice healing gratitude as though this has all actually happened I actually have brought healing to humanity to a new level into myself to a new level I feel it I imagine feeling it and see it happening