Trusting God

It's an amazing thing when we go through awakenings, and and that's constant on earth. You know, you don't have one. There are moments when people talk about the sacred experiences of, for example, Buddha or Jesus. What's the sacred one that we remember about Buddha sometimes ? He was sitting under the Boddhi tree, and reaches enlightenment.

That is a very important part of his life, but it's also important to remember the moment where he decided the world does not have the answers, even though that's a confused moment, a desperate moment. It's still a very pivotal moment. So it doesn't always have to be the the clouds parting and angels coming through and all that to signify our grand awakenings.

Some of our greatest awakenings are when we see something isn't working not just the what is and will work but what isn't working it's it's just that those are sometimes a bit of an inconvenience to our mind to our hearts I mean God I've been putting all this energy I went and got this career that my parents hoped I would and I found out I don't like it oh they're gonna be so mad that's all right let them be mad if they're really mad and crazy about it move change your number I mean there's easy things you can do but the world is changing the

population is exploding like it's never done in history and there are folks saying well what kind of careers though you know some people talk about water having a prosperous time other people see it as a lack time but you know what's going on and and what's going to happen if there's as soon gonna be ten billion people on the planet before we know it within a generate within a hundred years it should be you know what are we going to do what what careers are going to be there well worrying about that stuff isn't necessary what I do

know is the more we recognize that we're here to be the light of God our souls purpose starts opening up to us if nothing else the world has taught us in the last several years one of the key pieces is that it offers nothing include security including jobs job security there are still human beings no offense if this is you but there are still human beings that actually think they should be working till they die so that they can make enough money to put into an account for the kids to go to college for what purpose they're not gonna like

you anyway at the end of the day you know they're gonna have some sort of issue with you they're gonna get that neat therapy because you send them to college you made it too easy for me you know don't send them to college all you made things too hard for me I need therapy so the world is not what it was and it never was but now we're seeing it living just to die isn't why we're here living just to send your kids to college is not why we're here people are realizing college did not offer them the security and certainly

not necessarily the happiness we're here to have a soul's purpose we're souls so our souls supposed to get a career or a soul's purpose think of the wording I'm here to know my soul's purpose there needs to be universities soul's purpose University SPU you know um yeah I go to souls purpose universities that's what you should be doing find out what you're about the Essene community the the eccentric metaphysical gnostic you know sect of people living at Jesus's time they used to children are born they do charts and

find out what the child's going to be like and it designed a life for them to go in that direction whatever happened to the world that made them say wow such a beautiful child we have honey look how creative they look such a natural they know how to mix color they're just brilliant they need to be an accountant what happened in the human brain that brought us to that place I want them to do what I want them to do you know it doesn't really make sense and it's not the joy of God so God's sending us messages to guide us in the right

direction and human beings live in this straight distrust of God if only I knew you know and it's one of those stories were gods like what if only I knew what you wanted me to do i told you when i gave you crayons when you were three i told you when you used to watch or creative shows and not violent shows i told you when i introduced you constantly to help how exciting it is to feel feelings and not only think i showed you i told you you were an artist i told you you were creative i'm not the

one who decided to live in fear mom dad won't let me and do what they want me to do and it's not just mom dad i'm just using that as a metaphor but we've had our opportunities and they're still there this is one of the weirdest things this talk is not necessarily on soul's purpose but i want to get this piece out there most people everyone has a soul's purpose to some degree or another sometimes it looks really grand and other times simpler but when people say show me my soul's person michael's tell me my soul's purpose how do I find

myself purpose they get the classes I do you know every January we do this great co-creating a new life online course it's brilliant and everybody can get more in touch with what they're here to do and who they are and so brilliant every every January and people ask it's a common question in the world one of the common questions is typically about relationships but in the spiritual community soul's purpose is one of the most commonly asked questions and this is what's weird I can help you tune into it and I will and you know then that

course we do that and all that but one of the simplest things is most of us were told all our lives that we were great at something and usually that something is related to our souls purpose so you'll go through you'll you'll become 90 and do a workshop where someone says your souls purpose is beautification through landscape design that's weird I took landscaping in high school everybody said I wasn't natural and here you are ninety years you know 87 years later and now learning your soul's

purpose it's weird because we always knew we were told when people said you're a great listener you see when I met a couple of people I've only met a couple of people since high school and one of them was a mom of a person I knew she said well what are you doing and I'm like ah geez how do I answer that so I always go with the safe answer because if you say counselor that's something they at least know so a counselor you know and this mom who knew me when I was 17 said oh that totally makes sense I haven't seen her since I

was 17 and all these years later oh that totally makes sense I go what do you mean oh you used to always I used to send my daughter to you I used to tell her whenever she was having one of her tizzies and throwing her tantrums and we couldn't talk to her Gina that young daughter of ours she was really a pain she said we should say call that Michael guy you always seem to feel better after you talk to him and I'm like wow someone knew my soul's purpose before I did they didn't know to name it and I didn't know to hear it but it's everything's

actually right here and we just don't see it and one of the things that's right here is God we we have to learn to trust in God but we've done everything but that we don't trust in God mainly because first of all where is it where's God I mean I'm gonna trust in something I haven't seen it lately I haven't heard vividly its voice lately the news on TV actually speaks louder than God it does turn on the news and tell me which one you hear God's going oh no you hear me and the silence oh thank you that helps

a lot when I'm watching the news and hearing all these terrible things I need you to be louder than the news not gonna work that way so the problem is we don't see God the second problem is it doesn't tend to do things the way we want it and there's an amazing reason for that why don't I get what I want why can't I have the miracles what I'm looking for it's an amazing reason for that it's actually very rational and most of us don't even know how and why it happened here's how it works I can't see you God

and gods going excellent no it's not excellent I'm saying I want to see you and I want to hear you isn't that what's it's supposed to be like when you close to God no God says no you must've read the wrong memo well then why can't we see you we would believe in you if only we could see you and God saying if I could let you see me you would start believing me in the thing being a thing or a being and I'm not why would I lie to you if you want to see me you have to learn to see the unseen you have to have spiritual sight oh you mean we have to

grow spiritually what an inconvenience again if you want to see God God is not a being stop looking at beings and look to the invisible look to feelings look to love and joy if you want to see God it's not with eyes so that's why we hear faith in things unseen that's not like just a cool like Christian reading from the Bible it's actually a training God says you will not see me because I want you to not see I want you to feel I want you to learn to experience me you have to come to me I'm not gonna materialize because then I'll be part of the problem

Jesus himself said this means the temp okay had station identification brake sorry but she's just I'm signalling here to take care of the air because it's getting cold for some of you and she's like notes so it's it's an amazing thing think about this there there in A Course in Miracles you're hearing God will not answer your prayers if they'll cause you fear and we go so I in its mixed sense so don't ask for anything that would make you afraid and some of us go I don't know of anything that's scary

about the lottery I mean can I just have the lottery I'm not afraid at all case you do I'm not afraid at all and then your prayers Oh father mother God I am so not afraid of winning the lottery because as though you're thinking it's literal about fear a Course in Miracles tells you there's only love and then make we make believe in something called fear which is that the fear of love is not there that we fear love is not there so listen there's only love and then there's fear fear that God or love is not present that's

all there is in the universe the the fear that God isn't that love isn't present that prosperity isn't present is what causes all the symptoms of those things actually looking like they're here then we start to look at those things as our gauge but those things are actually hallucinations of being separated from God so we're asking God listen give us something that will alleviate how we feel about being separate and God's going start affirming that you're not separate you what you want is an aspirin what you want

something what you want is something that will dead in the nerves to make you think you don't have a headache what you want is a car because you think that's what you need that's what it meant when Jesus was saying you pray but understand this God already knows what you need and here's what humans do because we keep trying to make God in our image instead of the other way around so we say well God okay let's see I'm supposed to pray not be afraid so I got to remember to say I'm not afraid of the lottery that's not what it means

Jesus says God already knows what you need so that means God knows I need the lottery see I just keep projecting my my translations that's not what it meant listen God I know you already know this my ex they left me last week and I know you already know this I would like them back but I don't need to say so even though I just did I don't need to say so because you already know what we need and God's going I know exactly what you need say bon voyage this is what you need I want them back I don't do once I do what's right what is

the greatest good so it's a completely different lifestyle so my part of my point in this is that we're hearing even from Jesus God knows what you need it means there's only one thing and that is we have forgotten our divinity and it screws up our lives so the only thing we really need is it's called remembering that's why Buddha said the problem is amnesia the solution is remembering it's really yet amnesia remembering and we think the solution is I want to go to college I want money I want this I want my partnership I want this we have a

little grocery list of things we think will help us and that's why we don't trust God we can't see God and it's not giving us what we want but that's perfect because God's saying if I gave you what you want it would cause you fear meaning not fear like phobia of winning the lottery what he means is it will perpetuate the fear that you're separate from God if you think you need a thing and God says I'll give you the thing it perpetuates the fear of separation how because it just enabled your codependence in that thing that's

what it means oh man this is big stuff because now all of a sudden it's I don't know what to pray for that's good that's a good affirmation no no I need to know what to pray for Shh stay in the I don't know I don't even know what to pray for as the Corps says I have forgotten what to ask back humility that simplicity is what we're looking for I do not know when God has manifested to people in the forms of things like not God per se but messengers like angels our mind has to be receptive to that we have to be in

that humble state but if you think the new-age coming to fruition rests on things happening for us like more angel visions more seeing auras you're actually then still having false idols because you want to see auras there's only one thing we should be looking for praying for oneness with God remembrance that's it and then it gives us everything else so this next piece is this God has this really bizarre way of saying here's how I work whether it's call it Christ or the Holy Spirit the Divine Mother here's how they work they they make deals with us in a

good kind of a way so understand here's how God works God in whatever form even Angels they make deals but if you were talking and interviewing Christ and said what do I need to do to get something what kind of prayer works what's the real deal here it would say this I know what you really need and you think you need something I'm gonna make some arrangements to help you get what you think you need if you'll give me what I want I knew there was something in there all right what do you want do I have to become a priest again I did that in

another lifetime I devoted myself to you know is that is because when we think God wants something from us it sounds always heavy oh that's right God's will that usually doesn't go well I mean Jesus said let God will be done he was on a cross hours later you know I don't mean to sound irreverent but you know come on Lord not looking good you need a different agent or something because the PR machine is not looking good what does God give you when you say your will because our eyes think that Jesus died hours later when Jesus said let your

will be done but when he did this and he's crucified and resurrect he confirms that no law including death has power over you that nothing of the three-dimensional world has power over you was that worth it if we would have only been thinking about his survival it looks like he lost but he made the choice to say survival is not my goal I want to release all of humanity from the belief in illusion it's worth it and whether it's you or me or Mother Teresa or whomever it's always worth it we just don't know it at the time and so again God or spirit is

saying I'll give you what you want but I want you to give me what I want okay fine I need to clear that negative stigma that that's a negative thing what is it you want God you to be home you to be God again to remember who you are seriously that's it okay well okay and the lottery right and God says if you know who you are the lottery would be nothing it would be easy to manifest the lottery the problem is you keep doing these subtle bargaining's that god is saying to us you keep doing these subtle bargain bargains that say as soon as I

get that lottery I promise I'll start working on that spiritual consciousness so God's saying you are only consciousness you are only consciousness you don't have a body you don't have needs and you don't have lotteries they don't exist you are really only consciousness so what do you think I want you to have consciousness that's all and if you let me help you gain higher consciousness you're gonna find that the things of life will start coming even more naturally to you so you'll get what you want if you if

you'll give me what I'm looking for and what I'm looking for is not for me the bargain is actually amazingly unconditional you know when I raised my children when they were young and all that I would say to them things like that it's a smart from a counseling psychotherapy even standpoint it's a smart thing to do with kids but I would say to them all right look you know I gave you things when you were a little little you know but once you reach teens guys we have to make a deal here and they would be like well that's not fair

you spoiled us for too long when you still want everything to be just you easy that's fine but there's some things I want in return but it would be interesting because what I would ask for in return was actually still in their favor but there are things they didn't know how to ask for yet they did they're not things they knew how to appreciate yet do you see what I'm saying I didn't say give me this and then I'll give you that like some arrogant deal-making parent the deals I would make would be positive when they got

older and became young young adults I would say to them if you guys ever want massage cranial sacral work acupuncture I'll pay for it you see that's what I mean in this death I'm not actually gaming it's not like if you guys want bodywork I'll tell you what you have to come over and from the trees in my yard first that would be a you know give and take I would say you can go get the work done and I'll even pay for it that's my deal you see what I'm saying it's win-win really for them God's saying the same thing to us if you

would just ask for the consciousness that's what I'll help you get and then you'll get all the other stuff too but we don't allow ourselves to trust God we don't allow ourselves to say well if it's unseen I don't know for sure that it's going to work I don't know for sure I'm going to get it but that's part of art learning to develop trust in God we've got to get back to that trust not just saying it but truly believing it examine your own life and see how and

how not I trust God where and where not is my trust for God and so again when we say I would like a little something in my life why don't I sometimes get it you're not not getting it God's never out there going well this is probably bad for you per se what's really happening all too often is what is it again you want oh you want this here's what happens then God says okay great you want a car I'm not concerned about cars I'm concerned about consciousness we deal in consciousness here in heaven so when you

say you want a car or a soul mate or whatever you one in your life you state what it is and I'm gonna start setting up all the lessons to help you get there no I'm not going to speak into the owner of the car Lots mind and say give Josie a new car today they're gonna walk in when they say their name go whoo God told me to give you a car that's not how it usually works instead I would like this car and it's all going to be designed your lack of believing you deserve a car your fear of making the payments all of your stuff

starts coming up that's really messed up I just want the car I didn't ask to be looking at my inner issues but God saying please hang in there because this is how you get back to knowing who you are shed all the lies shed your Miss beliefs that you don't deserve it's really an amazing thing so when we think we're not getting it's because stuff is being set up for us to earn consciousness so that God doesn't say I just give you toys that's Santa God says I want you to gain the consciousness so that you're empowered to get the things

you think you want but if you get the consciousness you'll get them humans don't want to hear that that's why we don't see and feel God as much as we would like and then we use that as an excuse to not trust God what's under it is is there's a lot under it there's a whole story under it we don't want to see and feel God because we have a tantrum going we want what we want you really want to see God then you have to let go of that which is not God how can you have judgments and see God at the same time how can you hate anyone and

see God it doesn't really make any sense the UM the Old Testament said and it's mentioned in the New Testament too but the Old Testament says you know there's this whole like unworthiness to seeing God and again God saying let me help you with that not let me force you to see me but let me teach you your worthiness soon as you get the worthy everything starts kind of unfolding and the Old Testament says when the Messiah comes they wish they shall call him Emmanuel and there are people out there that say we're waiting for a manual he's

got to be called Emmanuel then we'll know it's him no the Bible said clearly they shall call him Emmanuel which means so it was a symbol and the word meant God is with us and other than Jesus there's one other character in history that most exemplified God is actually here embodied and that was Krishna a seemingly seemingly mythological type character who shows here's the archetype of God on earth that divinity look at the paintings the glow constantly this air of beauty even in battle there's this like let's go do everything with

the presence of love and if somebody's falling help them get up and if someone's coming up for us an army to destroy start shooting some arrows say no to unhealthy things say no to your addictions and say no to that army that's trying to kill all of you stand up be counted and love love love love love he's just this presence of love it's a beautiful depiction and it doesn't fit as an architect doesn't fit everybody or not we're not all going to be creased and we're not all gonna dress like him and look like him and so on and

so on it's the ideal Jesus comes and lives it and embodies it but it's going to look a little different it won't be exact but my point is God is with us means that when Jesus comes in embodies the whole creation of Crees Christ Krishna archetype any man or woman can step into that archetype and live God is with us God is with us doesn't mean Jesus it means God is with us all of us it's in us so this happened the other day it was either last night or a night before I was given this really really trippy kind of a vision and it looks kind of like this I made a

note here I'm gonna read it to you verbatim so there's this vision of the presence of Christ being like one neuron in your brain that rep the Christ neuron let's call it you got that so far you got a brain and the brain is symbolic of your mind your consciousness your soul so think when I'm saying brain it also means soul but I'm using cellular top topic or context so it's the soul is the brain so in the brain there's neurons which are all thoughts and experiences of my consciousness in every one there is a neuron that is a Christ neuron so

this is how it comes there's a presence of Christ like one neuron in our brain trying to transform the rest of the brain that makes sense can I hear an amen amen and so in the brain there's a Christ neuron trying to transform the rest of the brain this is what came to me this is an image of how religion sees Jesus which is great which is great hey hey Christ neuron please change the world for us not a bad thing because there's a Christ neuron then here's the next one then I was shown a vision of a particle

of light within each neuron not one Christ neuron to transform the rest but a particle of light within each neuron that represents the Christ within each individual neuron and this is a representation of spirituality and how spirituality sees Christ listen to the wording religion sees Jesus as the neuron in the brain that's going to change the rest of the neurons spirituality sees not Jesus spirituality sees Christ as the light within each neuron that's going to change each of them do you hear the

difference one is we look to Jesus to worship and fix everyone please the spiritual one is that light is within each of us and we need to get our act together and awaken it quite nice then I was shown a vision of all those neurons disappearing leaving only the remaining light within each of them and that is how God sees each of us did you see the progression religion sees Jesus as the one and only spirituality sees the light of Christ within each God sees only the light and so it is and this is what's happening the light of God is first at first seeming to be just one of

us but then it becomes a part of each of us and then it becomes all that we are then that's the remembrance back to who we are the perfect light if ever you find yourself looking at someone going God they really need some help they need some work I don't know if they're gonna get it you're back to the first of those three hey Jesus fix that person we're never thinking like God until the people are gone like the neurons they fade away and leave only the light that was there in the first place when Jesus was crucified and wrapped in

a burial cloth and put in a tomb he was there for a short period before he said now and when he said now so to speak he he did exactly what I just described the density faded and the light became all that he was calling it a light body call it anything you want but he burst into pure perfect light but the good the thing is that we hear about later he could still manifest he could still materialize all the way to density go ahead touch Thomas go ahead and he's also saying you know it's a bummer that you have to see to believe and he's not

he's not criticizing and that's what it sounds like he's doing he's not criticizing what he's saying is there will come a time where you will not need to see with your dense eyes that only see limitation to make itself think it believes in something which doesn't make any sense that's like a psychosis I need to see it with my non real eyes that are being run from my diluted brain that makes me think in my mind that I'm a limited human being and as long as I can see something based on all of that I'll know it's real that

makes no sense at all instead I get it these eyes can't show me the real world I have to I have the eye that is single this eye has to open my spiritual eye that cannot happen if I'm simultaneously insisting on the other eyes and I'm sitting on the other eyes what I want what I want how I want it without growing in consciousness and I'm seeing with those other eyes when I believe in the world I see having power over me and it does not and a lot of people go gosh you know I'm failing in that test because you know I'm having a sickness

the sickness is not the failure the belief that it has power over you as the failure so if I so I have to cure it - no that's seeing it again with your eyes to be enlightened does not mean you don't have a sickness it means you can still dance and say hey no matter what it looks like I don't go by these eyes I'm gonna dance isn't it funny how my ego tells me I'm this but no oh you know dancing you know and then there's shames in my body you know kind of not in shape anymore all the more reason don't do it in this room but all the more reason all

the more reason dance dance strip off your clothes and go around your house if you live alone and dance and twirl because if you were three you would do it no matter what you look like and Jesus says you want to know what it's like to be in heaven it's to be like a child who drops their clothes and dances around and tramples their clothes and laughs at them it's because their the mind has no judge it has no thoughts of that nature to the pure in heart this is written in the Tantra k-- manuals and it was also too

it's also in the bible to the pure in heart all things are pure and to the wicked all things are wicked all the people you know including yourself who judges in finds fault that's the wicked mind seeing wicked things oh I'm not judging them I'm just pointing them out one of those the BS artists you know of the new age you know Oh as long as I can say it calmly that person is let me check in my guides a jerk that doesn't work who are you telling this to you're not in your divine mind I'm not saying if someone

might not look tall or short you know but but still the fact that you think there a body that's taller short is actually still a judgment that there are a body so don't get too hooked on it all don't get too stuck on it all be able to laugh at it in fact be able to say God isn't this funny even though I know what I know wow look how easily I can still slip and laugh at it laughing at it means it's although it seems serious I'm not giving it the power I used to if you get stuck in it oh my god I shouldn't have thought that you're actually

proving you're taking it seriously which means you think it's true and then you're caught again to be able to laugh at ourselves does not mean just like at things that are shaming you know I'm talking and never laugh at people act people but to learn to laugh at the way we see the world it's actually righteous to do so so I would say recently I could see my own life you know in some ways like all of us you know coming to a crossroads and I remember when I was a younger on tour I was teaching individuals and on tour to groups but I

was teaching a lot of individuals and so I'm like teaching spiritual growth but to individuals and then and I did that for years and years and years and years came to unity of Sedona and it's not just individuals now there's a group and I had a group of people that would come out to my retreat once in a while and we would have groups but that was a few times a year so I went from teaching individuals and now even though there are large numbers of people they were still felt like individuals I'm teaching the individuals

in a in a room a center a church or whatever now it's a group of us you're still individuals to me but there's a group of us walking through this process to another level it's different than what I was doing for 25 years or whatever it was originally now you know now it's 35 years let's say but I can see something else is calling it even then something else is calling it I don't think it's just me I think people are hearing a spiritual calling to go to another level and I'm seeing now it's time for me to get involved

with something that would be more global now I'm already seen globally on the internet and I've already had I've been around the world and teaching around the world I don't mean just literally I'm saying I can feel like there's there's projects like I've talked about Eden Shire a community someday but I'm not into communes but this is a community it's different but my idea is that this is about affecting the world individuals groups the world and I'm okay if that's

not going to be me I can hear the calling for it I know that I can step into it and I know and let's all know this everything we've done up to this point is preparing us for the next piece do not lose sight of that you may not know how you you know you may even think I never had children I had adopted children and I raised them and you might think that's why you were here you might find that you're actually helping other dads and moms who need advice with about kids that might be part of your purpose and that means that other stuff wasn't

just about buying cute outfits for the children of your partner it was preparation one of the weirdest ones I can share about my life and it's simple is you know years ago my wife at the time and I think we were we were married at the time and then also after she had a spiritual center and and a second one for that matter so she had spiritual centers and she would run them like a metaphysical bookstore kind of cool it was beautiful and when I wasn't on tour I'd like to hang out there because that's where the spiritual

people are laughing and they're hanging up so I would go there and all that and I would teach once in a while and then one thing led to another where she needed more help and next thing I knew she's like Michael can you can you help me buy incense well yeah I love sent to me so I helped her buy incense and that's fine you know I'm giving advice I'm a spiritual teacher I'm good at giving suggestions and advice and it was beautiful so I'm helping and you helped people in the past but where I thought it really got

weird as you might have assumed in your life is when she started asking me to sell dollar-fifty incense over the counter and stand behind the counter because she was struggling it I loved doing it but I realized how in the hell did I end up selling incense when I'm a spiritual teacher that's supposed to be travelling in the world still I'm on tour last week and people are oh Michael well we love your teachings next week that'll be a dollar 62 with tags it was like what was that what kind of nightmare did I walk into I

loved the energy I loved the sense I look but I realized it felt humiliating was it no that was me that was my problem but it felt humiliated so I'm like okay fine so eventually she close and I'm like God she closed the center the last one and she moved and did other things with her life and then I was asked 15 year ten years later whatever would you come and be our spiritual leader at unity of Sedona and after all the discussions around that final I gave in and said okay yeah I'll come and do it so I come and do it

one of the first things I said you guys have to do first turn the seats so we have a nice background instead of the bricks secondly we're going to raise the conscious and we got to raise the bar on the quality of conversations and teachings and chaplains and music everything raise the bar let's get spiritual stuff happening so we did that the third thing was those offices back there that look like hell there were like six giant desks with paper everywhere I said burn them take him outside first

but burn I said get rid of the desk oh no but we need to no you don't need that got rid of them got rid of all the papers that were sitting on him and we turned it into a bookstore spiritual you know gifts and crystals and oh that's right incense so when they said but we don't know anything about opening a store I'm like I do and you know what else I still had the catalogs in storage that that period that I loved with the people and the sense what I loved it but I did feel confused why I was meant to be teaching

an on tour and I was already doing that for so many years and ended up so many days of the week in this store selling incense and then all these years later it's one of the most important things we've done here is to say let's have a place where people can also get things they need so you don't know how it's gonna go you don't know what it's going to look like and when it comes to your soul's purpose some of the weirdest things you've ever experienced end up becoming part of the soul's purpose definition your eyes may not agree and

I'm eternally grateful for the experience of that I'm eternally grateful and I get those heute the humor of it god I even got the catalogs I'm like oh my god you know and get the catalogs and then you know what else I'm on tour all the time now I tell churches centers that I'm at why don't you guys have a store you have people coming here to learn why don't you have the books for them to learn from and there but we don't know how without charging or anything I give them the outline on how to do it it's easy

anything can be easy when you're not resisting it anything when you step into it properly and with the right the guidance and the inspiration so I can see the shifts that have gone on in my life so I'm asking you as we're coming to a close the only time we come to these crossroads and things don't open up something's being postponed something's blocked and it behooves us to recognize if it's blocked it can only mean a couple of things you think you have an inspiration but it's not happening

first it might not be an inspiration it might be a memory you can have a memory of another lifetime meet someone you knew in another lifetime I've never felt such familiar feelings I feel like I know you and we're just meeting oh my god I do you know and then you marry them and then about a week later you'll have this vivid memory of how they murdered you and some other lifetime I knew I knew them from somewhere can I say I don't you know people keep working on these gross compulsions slow it down check in when you think you have an

inspiration and it's not happening first are you sure it's an inspiration because if it's not I don't want to burn up energy in it if it's not meant to be so check it out it could be that it wasn't an inspiration it could be a memory could also be something that's kind of a symbolic thing when Helen receives you're gonna write a Course in Miracles Jesus might have never channeled one single page to her and she would have been but you told me I'm gonna channel this thing called A Course in Miracles he could have said yes I meant a concept

not a book I just meant you're gonna learn something in your own mind when you get an inspiration that says you hear this voice or a psychic tells you they're channeling it saying you're supposed to write a book and it's gonna change your life here's what humans do Jean I'm gonna write the next whatever you know big big selling book I knew it I knew it I'm supposed to write a book and then you write it and it sits on pallets in your garage then strange thing not one person has ever asked you for one so god misled

you know if you could interview God God I'm confused and when you get to the other side you'll do this can we talk about that book that is sitting in the pallets of my garage then I'm now hunting because I can't let go of it so I'm now hunting my garage and you have new new residents of the house and I'm the Bing that they're having to call paranormal people to come out and get out of their garage because I'm still stuck on the energy of my pallet of books in the garage

can we talk about that God gotta say what would you like to know well you told me to write the book in it no I never said that what the way I said it was you write your book and it'll change your life I meant for you to write the book for you just one copy for you and it was a metaphor to write the book all I meant was get the stuff out get your grief out get your memories your losses your hurts get him out I didn't mean to type them and I certainly didn't mean anybody else wanted to hear about it so tears so it's an inspiration you know when when it

feels like it's love and you feel unattached one copy of million copies I all I know is first when I get that guidance I being any of us when I get that guidance I feel like something is happening and it is you're right something is processing through me and you're right and I feel like there'll be some changes in my world and you're right what we don't know is than anything beyond that does it turn into a book is that a lecture you do one time only or is it you just tell your friends and the answer is I don't know but I'm

willing to find out stay unattached to where you think it's supposed to go because that always that material I want to see God and I want to the book selling lots of copies that's where humans most go wrong with their inspirations and what's really a drag it really hurts our feelings when we thought we had an inspiration to write a movie to write a book and nobody listens we go to our grave feeling very confused and upset once you reach the other side you're gonna be like oh I get it a spiritual v8 I should have had a v-8 you

know I should have had it's an old commercial you have to be able to know what that means but if it's feeling loving it's if it's feeling inspiring if it feels like it makes a difference then step into it as soon as you start going but why then I might have been off somewhere I was wanting my eyes to be satisfied with the outcome what if you're inspired to have a child and this child is going to change the world it's the next coming of Jesus that's what it's telling me it says I'm gonna have a child you know baby Jesus

and I'm it's it's gonna change the world oh my god this is the next such-and-such and what if your child passes away a few years later it all went wrong something happened no your interpretation you thought it would meant they're gonna live forever and they're gonna change the world the way you thought they were gonna change the world how do you know they didn't change the world in those three years and Moore's most importantly how did they not change your world that might be the only reason they were there is that making sense so we have to not

only listen to inspirations differently but please get out of the habit of putting out on God that it's going to go certain way and then in the context of this talk because that leads us to not trust in God anymore so the last thought learning that God has such love and compassion for us that it's not they're testing us and it's not messing with us even though I make light some of the ideas behind it it's not doing any of that it's saying I love you so much and can only love you that when you want something anything in your life

I'm already designing it to happen what getting the thing know getting the consciousness because that's what brings you home try to feel that for a second that absolute love that absolute unchangeable love I want you to come home and I'm really sorry God says I'm really sorry that so many people don't get that they struggle they keep interpreting literally and then I don't match them literally and then they hate me for it but they're not hearing it properly I want to give you everything and you're asking for a thing but you

can't get everything you know if you don't let go it's all this concept of surrender you want anything you're looking at the world this big and I'm trying to give you everything so if you want to only go us a baby step at a time sure God says if that's what you want to do I would love to see everyone willing to make quantum leaps but if you want baby steps so be it the guidance has to feel loving and if it doesn't feel loving and inspiring even if it sounds good I'm gonna write a book and change the world don't jump to it ask what it

means in here first what does writing the book mean in my soul not how many I'll sell what does it mean to me I am the book and when it says it'll change my life oh wow it's gonna change my consciousness you see go here first for all meanings and you'll almost never be wrong go here first and you'll almost always be wrong so we learn the easy way or the hard way trust in God let's please take a few centering breaths I'm gonna share a couple of decrees based on awakening the spiritual self

first resting the body the human self breathing gradually reflecting on what you heard today that made the most sense so that you can breathe it in and let it be yours and we say to you father mother God in this moment we recognize we have an old self we recognize and accept that we have an old self with old beliefs old patterns old experiences they are not yet perfect light we recognize there's a part of us that would like to think that out there is the Christ neuron that's going to fix us all but we're learning

quickly to understand that that same light is within each of us and it is the Christ light the consciousness of God within mankind and we're also learning that soon soon enough all the one will fade and they'll only be the light but of these three I choose not to live in the first one anymore at the very least I choose to accept the light within myself when revelation says only the lamb is worthy to open my seals my chakras and clear them out the lamb is that light of Christ the divine within us all I call upon that not my ego not

my head not my brain not my limited thinking not even upon my experiences I call upon the light of God within me and I say you beloved Christ self you beloved purity remembrance of God descend into my being with the blessing of the Divine Mother or Holy Spirit descend into my being now and begin opening one after another of my spiritual chakras or centers open them open them open them and let them reveal all the stuff in them that is unlike God so that it cannot inhibited me any more any of my physical perceptions

intellectual perceptions emotional experiences all of them I'm open and let them like the book of Revelation describes these things flying up from the abyss they're coming from the deep recesses of each Center they're opening and opening and opening all that is unlike God gently lovingly carefully being taken out I cry them out I coughed them out I spit them out I cursed them out all that stuff goes and leaves me empty to be filled with love and light I joined her my body and soul to the Spirit of God and allow myself to

be filled with the truth of who I am i Julie accept the knowingness that today the peace of God envelops me and I forget all things except your love my father mother God what could restore your memory to me except to see my brothers and sisters perfection and purity sinlessness therefore I choose to see my brother and sisters sinlessness their purity instead in my brothers and sisters I find myself and the memory of God itself in quiet forgiveness wipes away my dreams of separation as I learned to use my holy

vision I no longer see errors or fears of myself for others all such things disappear even my body and the world I see began to fade away to be replaced by the version of these things that you father mother God created in the beginning it's that perfect light let me look within myself and within brothers and sisters and find that your promised God your promise of our purity and sinlessness has been kept all along your word remains unchanged within my mind your love is still abiding in my heart your children are like to you in

perfect sinlessness perfect perfection perfect love perfect peace perfect joy and with this thought I'd Lee say Amen I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth I join the accept the knowingness that God's voice speaks to me all through the day father mother God I remember you are here and I am NOT alone I have no cause for anything except the perfect peace and joy I share with you I have no need for anger or fear as I surrounded by perfect love stillness and safety your eternal promise goes with me

everywhere I go you oh you created me in holiness as perfect as your own and in this holiness I remain I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth I join the accept the knowingness that I am surrounded by the love of God today I let all things be as you father mother God created them and I give your children the honor do them today I leave creation free to be itself I honor all its parts in which I am included I am one with each part which contains your memory it's like the cells in those neurons and truth must shine in all of

us as one through this I am redeemed through this the truth will enter where illusions were light will replace darkness and I know I am as you created me I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth I join the accept the knowingness that God is with me wherever I go I live and breathe in you father mother God your spirit is my only guide and walks with me in love I give thanks to you for showing me the way to go you are my source my home my comforter you are the light that shines within me and within the food I eat and

the water that renews me you are the spirit which directs me and creates a loving world through me you are in everything I see because you are in my mind I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth I just accept the knowingness that your ways father mother God are certain and sure in their outcome every step in my salvation is already set and accomplished by your grace your blessings shine upon me from within my heart where you abide thanks and praise to you my father mother God for your eternal gifts and thanks to you

for my true identity the praise and glory of my father mother God is also my own I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth and lastly I join knowingness that by the authority of my Christ self I call to all souls around the earth wake up and know ye are gods and goddesses father mother God used me in every way anyway and every way possible to assist in the awakening of my true self and the true self of others and from all the dreams we've made I will use this key to become a master and take dominion over my life

and the world around me just as was ordained in the beginning God's all-pervading wisdom now replaces all ignorance in my being and in the collective consciousness I am as God created me I will to be the Christ on earth and we allow that presence to be in us as us we allow it to gently breathe its light into each Center as were filled with this beautiful remembrance the holy breath of the Holy Spirit the holy breath of the Divine Mother she breathes into each Center the awakening of our Christ self and we see

and feel each Center glowing gently and brightly and when those centres are activated they activate my meridians of light the puncture points and vortexes throughout my body and it illuminates as an aura around me and I shine brightly as the light of God and this brightness I am which is any of us we also see excites the earth the earth recognizes there's a light being born right now and she enters a reciprocal relationship with us where she can draw some of that light for her healing and give us some of her light for our healing her light

can come in the form of energy or herbs the form of foods waters and we give back unconditional love to her because of the symbol of what she is unconditional love and all around the earth let's picture at chakras of the earth and acupuncture points of the earth and Meridian lines of the earth being activated because of our work here today and there are people watching from all around the planet they're activating it anyway where they live but it's a grid system we activate this one and it activates another one

and downstream everything starts lighting becoming illuminated this is the world that seems unseen we need not beg the one Christ neuron out in the brain to go and fix our misperceive world instead we choose to see the light of the world that God put there in the first place and we're part of that light and we feel this and we give abundant thanks that we are the light of the world and as Jesus said which also stands for all of us and no one reaches the Father mother God but through me which is the light I cannot reach God

without activating my light without becoming this light and living as though I am this light being behaving as though I'm this light and extending it to all other people father mother God we close by saying help us to forgive ourselves for losing trust in you when we did we lost trust in ourselves and then we lost trust in each other we close with these words remember I love you when we say it I means God love is self you is others so we can all hear and feel the words I love you and know what it means is not the human romanticized thing it means God in me as

love in me God that is as loving me extends to you and all others three times I love you knowing what it really means to all people together I love you I love you I love you and with this all things are possible and so it is all right nice nice