Stillness Versus Time

so we as human beings think that we've actually come to this place called Earth and some of us kind of condemn that we wish we weren't here or don't even show up completely some of us don't even show up so it's an interesting place this earth plane because we are divine beings and it's hard to understand this but we're divine beings and we've never left heaven we've never left we're right now actually still there the only thing that's changed is that we went to sleep

in other words we went into a trance while in heaven when we asked ourselves what life would be like if we weren't in heaven we then started imagining what it would be like and that's what this whole earth plane is about so in time as Earth measures it this happened billions of years ago but in heaven there's no time so here's the absolute of heaven and if we still use something to measure time time doesn't even exist in heaven we had to say to ourselves what would life be like without God

then came duality and the measurable and ups and downs and war and peace and all these things we call life here we call it life when in fact it's death because everything we experience even the most wonderful aspects of life come to an end which means they are all about death and the timelessness of heaven this never happened but what seems to have happened is the children of God said I wonder what life would be like if we could separate and in that moment the Big Bang takes place to imagine in this infinite capital our

reality timelessness just beingness however when we said what would life be like if we could separate all of a sudden there were two worlds the reality of God and then everything else that we could dream that's why science will say there's an infinite potentially an infinite number of dimensions even not four not five not twelve potentially an infinite number of realities or dimension why because there was no limit to us wondering what life would be like without God we're infinite beings so we just our

minds exploded with an infinite number of possibilities but one of the things that happened is measurable time so there's the business of God and then all of a sudden tick tock tick tock time began and no matter how many billions of years went by it all still gets traced back to a moment in timelessness where we wondered what it would be like to separate and in the same second we answered the question you can't hey I wonder what life would be like if we could separate oh that's right how do you separate from all it

doesn't make any sense I mean a five-year-old could figure that out but we didn't instead we were in - we went into the fear of what if it happened so fear became the engines the power even though God's the only creative power in the universe there's an uncreated power creative power of God means love based creative power means love based power uncreative means fear based power so we suddenly manifested this seemingly this uncreated fear-based power and the whole universe was created by an onion Oh an

uncreated fear-based power so this engine powered the entire thing and the if we remain afraid in our lives if we remain afraid it perpetuates this universe that we think we live in and when things like pandemics or crisis of any kind even even the breakup of a relationship when we think these things are happening and react to them it continues perpetuating like perpetual motion devices it's like free energy devices what's happening is fear keeps the momentum of the false universe and there are moments when we get wise

enough to say we'll wait why don't we just stop investing in fear and that becomes scarier than the fear-based reality we were in in the first place because people go no wait a minute who moved my cheese somebody took my reality and shifted it you know it's like I I I'm in the middle of a divorce and you know all my friends came over we had a you know crucify him party for my divorce we all planned and they all empowered me and we did pin the tail on the ex and all kinds of all the kinds of games we we played to empower me and

give me the the knowing I could do this divorce and now I'm feeling all peaceful like I don't need to really do any of that that can't be right call your friends oh no that can't be right peace no way this world will try to tell you there's something wrong with you when you feel peace instead of fear and during a pandemic - it's okay Here I am you know Nostradamus walking in the villages with during the Black Plague and not being afraid of getting sick you know Edgar Cayce singing whatever I need to

do to help and he dies overworking himself it's okay for us to say I just I came not gonna be afraid I'm gonna do what needs done and and nurses social workers they're all in those trenches men doing work that most people don't know about healing was one of the questions that came up here this morning he and healing is you know as people think healings you know just simply uh you know a little Bach flowers and some aromatherapy and everybody's at peace but if your client starts screaming

about childhood trauma that you don't want to hear about because it's too much for your nervous system that's okay but that's still needed someone's got to be able to navigate the trenches man someone's got to be able to go in an operating room and do things someone's got to deal with death somebody's got to deal with past life traumas or whatever it happens to be healing isn't just pretty stuff where everybody's like oh I feel my chakras rely thank you oh you know peace be with you

namaste now must go adios you know that's not what healing actually is about that's part of it that's nice but when someone says man I've never been hugged once in my life I've never felt safe would you would you mind hug them go go into those dark places with people we think we went into time and what happens is the timelessness of God became a point of believing we could separate and it can't happen we're actually still in God but not choosing to step out of the point where we thought we could separate that point

became time and it's called a time loop and your life just keeps repeating the loops another broken marriage another such-and-such another point of distrust and all you're doing is re experiencing the same what if I'm separate from love then this is what you would have terrible relationships somebody asked about the concept of a love compass without fully addressing that one I can't go there completely but that compass inside where am i right now how do I get to the still point so you have to go from the not so still point to the

still point of choice and then back into the peace of God you can't go from chaos to God you have to choose not to do this world and choose to do a different world you got a two part choice right there and when we do that it's not like suddenly there's no timing you're in heaven and all that it's it's measureable doses so one day it's going to be simply a feeling like you're not as stressed about something as you were before all of a sudden a sec well I feel okay and it would help if you had more

people around you midwifing that birth process for you but everybody sits around waiting for somebody else to make it happen for them see I can't you to make me feel more loved what I can do is create more friendships that create that vessel but I still have to drink from it I still have to choose the peace you're offering me so go ahead and be that Midwife for people but all you can do is present the offer the opportunity they still have to decide you can say I'll tell you what you're saying to me you've never had a good

friend no I really have it I've tried and I have it what do you mean by good friend well you know somebody who I can call at any time okay I'll tell you what here's my number day or night unless by chance something weird like my you know phone went dead I'm I'm going to answer my phone for you day or night and I'll do it for like 90 days if you need me will that make a difference some of them will be like oh my god nobody's ever done anything for me you're giving them an opportunity to

change themselves it's alright you're but you can only give them an opportunity because they can still say well I just I still didn't believe you would actually answer if I called that's because you want to stay sick that's what's happening you're not responsible for them not taking it when you offer the gift all you can do is offer it you can remind them and I've done this I mean I'm a I'm a public speaker that sort of thing so I don't give my phone number out it's not it's best that I

don't but people do have it and there are people who I've said ok this is one of those you know where nobody's ever loved you and so on so here's my number and do you know 4 out of 5 times I never nine out of ten times never hear from them again because they want to stay sick that's what it is I don't sit around go oh my god you know you know like I failed it no all you can do is offer they still have to make the decision to be different to be healthy but they're not used to that people are

more afraid of the new life than they are of the sick old life as I said earlier which is insane well yeah that's right you know it isn't that's why Jesus and of course in miracles' is saying this is a course in spiritual psychology well why spiritual psychology what does that college you have to do with anything because he's saying you're all mentally ill you think you're these little dweebs on planet Earth that are waiting for life and death to come that's what you think you are

that's called psychosis you think you're someone or something that you're actually not yeah you guys can go over there there's seats over there too there you go you get you're welcome to sit over there all right that's psychosis that's why he's going you guys need not a ritual kind of technique you don't need like a meditation technique and a prayer technique and you know baptism okay he's saying that's fine to do those things but you're not needing those things what

you need is sanity you're having a psychosis you're believing that you're something that you're not that's mental illness he doesn't mean it like he's trying to be a psychotherapist and say you're hopeless of some kind he's just saying when you forget your divinity it's a it's a psychosis because that's what it is when you walk around going on Napoleon you know it's kind of challenging your bank tellers oh okay mr.

Napoleon do you have any IDs to that effect well no but you just checked my heart center and you'll know that I'm telling you the truth I'm Napoleon I remember being the point they're not going to give you any money you can't collect Social Security as Napoleon if you can't do anything as Napoleon except hang out with Cleopatra you know I mean good that's about it that's about it you know haven't have a come as you work party um get it okay yeah that's great huh all right so that what else do you gonna do it's okay wait

I want to Remember Who I am but I first have to be willing to make a choice go to the Stillpoint bravery of forgetting who I was oh no no I what do you mean I'm but you know this is my parents they were this and we had a reputable family I'm not gonna let that go we had money I'm not gonna let that go or I was an abused child that's all I know and I can't let that go my counselor said I need to embrace that I was abused all kinds of false identities all kinds of reasons to wear masks and then start to think you were that person

of the mass remember the Twilight Zone episode where all these people put these masks on and then the party the host you know I'm if I remember somewhat you know the theme but the host of the party said the reason I gave you all these horrible masses because that's the way you people behaved selfish miserly wicked so they wore these masks and they thought this is preposterous they took off the masks and their faces had changed to those shapes yeah right and that's what we do I remember one time after a few years and you know having

gotten out of my house and done my own thing and spiritual development and all that it was probably you know around the age of 20 and I remember I went to my mom's house and and she started doing some typical trip just talking to me a certain way and I started to respond a certain way and then I thought wait wait a minute oh good one you almost baited me into responding as though so I was finding that I was starting to become the person she was talking to that fashion so she baited hey here's a pattern where you step into it with me

you know and you get hooked and on you into it you go and I went wait wait a minute no no no to the old it's not always easy because the old is also known as patterns I mean what's what are patterns if not resistant it's a program it's a pattern I'm used to it all the excuses and reasons well B I had to do that because she was doing no I didn't I just stopped just stopped no no I'm not gonna do that it'll you'll do it with your kids you need to do with your kids you know when

I told mine at some point when they were you know we needed to back off a little bit you guys need to get your own lives you're like 30 five now so you guys have to kind of you know pay your own rent and do and one of them said that's unfair you've spoiled us for too long I said yeah that'll be tough on it of my prayers with you I'm affirming he'll be fine you know you you have to break the patterns whatever they are your own patterns of lazy or self-defeating or self sabotaging whatever happens to be low self-worth

find your patterns that's called know thyself have self inventory and then go wow look at this I tend to to smoke a lot when I'm sad let's look at that that's not exactly a healthy pattern you're trying to escape and it doesn't work I'm not condemning smoking I'm saying it doesn't work for what you're using it for way back you know Edgar Cayce said actually a person having one cigarette a day no that's before a lot of preservatives and things they put in them but back at

that time one cigarette a day he said you know in their Channel two readings would actually help exercise and clear your lungs and he said but how many people will only do one a day so it's not the Act it's the way we do it and the intention behind it now that doesn't mean you go well you know exponentially ten cigarettes would probably really clear things up no it's the it's the exercise of the lungs another thing you could use instead would be a balloon blowing up a balloon that exercises the

lungs just the same but that's another story all right so at some point we need to say I'm in the chaos I'm going to choose the still point and from the still point I choose the peace of God a double choice type it's you could say it's in a sense one choice but it's got two parts to it some people will tell you only choose the light no you also have to choose not something else believe it or not and I know there's popular little manifestation techniques oh no no no just focus on the positive

no doesn't work in duration you can't polish the outside of a tomb and think the inside person has Reza rekted it doesn't work that way it just focus on the positive if I buff the outside tombstone everything inside is different no you've got to work the inside as well and what I mean by that is there are two paths with that caduceus that goes up the body one side has to do with spirituality true but the other half is about healing one of you is asking about healing again so the neglect of healing sabotages people's

spiritual growth that's why I've had so many spiritual teachers using me as their healer because they're going you know Michael I should know better I meditate I do this and I'm spiritual and I've been teaching and I have 50,000 students but this thing keeps happening I take them we track it and find out and they're like you know this one gal I remember major teacher have all kind of students and all this said this that and the other and the sacred sites tours but we sat down and here comes this old childhood

abuse stuff and it was like cathartic for them to just breathe out cry out some more of that stuff it's also humbling to say look I'm a spiritual teacher what at the you know at the ankles humbled to the ground to say I am allowed to teach there's nothing wrong it's your egos going to tell you who are you to teach if you still have issues that's that's dangerous that's bogus it's lying to you Who am I to teach a better teacher because I'm willing to own that those things can happen instead

of saying well beloved students one day you'll be perfect like me and not have any issues students should say then why aren't you ascended yet why are you still here why do you still eat why do you still drink you know because you're here so they're say if you're here there's lessons and healings that's all you're here for lessons in healing as well as to experience the gifts of the lessons and healings you've done but everything is the spiritual path in the healing path two sides of the caduceus

spiritual path healing path you can't do one and neglect the other if all you do is healing then all you're doing is by moaning your work history forever and never getting on to something news virtually if all you do is your spiritual stuff you're trying to bypass and ignore the old wounds balancé balancé balancé that's all about mastery balance balance lo today a little healing I got to do Wow take a week off little bubble baths and things kind of nice kind of nice healing ah a little sadness coming up do it then

when you're done when it feels like you're ready resurrect and come to a new level of spirituality launch to another level believe it or not as inconvenient as healing can seem it gives you rocket fuel to launch better spiritually but people think that if they have wounds it tears them down spiritually no if you work it properly it launches you your ego will wonder where did you go I'm still messing with your mind and you're like you know to take an off because it says I gave you some old junk to think

about to depress you and you launched you're supposed to be in the grave depressed over this and you're like oh yeah but I don't do that I go into the stuff I look at it I track it I work it I cry it if I have to scream it if I have to undo a pillow not a people and so on and then when it's when I'm feeling like complete I launch I say okay I'm ready to resurrect Lazarus come forth yes master and out you come onward you go that whole Redemption concept the laws of grace you don't stay

wounded and broken that's not all the way home but you also don't you know try to avoid it bypass it a balanced path spiritual and the other so time starts to become this interesting thing because you start feeling like and and experiencing as though you're not in part of time anymore this happened just a couple days ago when when all of a sudden I went where did the last 30 minutes ago I mean it was kind of awkward we all have that now and again but this was a really significant one of those where I'm like

I'm looking for ships you know any kind of abduction you know okay and it tight you know missing time I'm thinking okay no doesn't feel like missing tie something else happened and there's a couple things I want to say about that but something happened and I'm going wow whenever you have one of those moments barring the fact that you might have had an alien abduction when that happens one thing you can assure yourself are about which is I must have had some sort of dismantling the only time you can feel

disoriented which is I just lost half an hour any time in your life when you feel disoriented again barring a conk on the head feeling disoriented or drugged of some kind feeling disoriented not talking about those I'm talking about some organic process suddenly you feel disoriented when that's happened that means you have to have experienced recently some form of a dismantling which means the rug pulled out or it could mean an old belief system just left something has to have ended then you had to have felt empty for a moment

even if you didn't know it dismantling you can never just become a disoriented rather you can never just become disoriented organically something has to have left and then left you feeling disoriented so when you feel disoriented you could pause and say thank you because something must have just happened for me I must have just experienced some sort of a death and resurrection I don't know what it means I don't know what to do it because I'm still kind of freaked but it's okay the one I had the other day was was intense

enough to make me go oh like check in for a minute but I maybe five seconds total but it felt like minutes but if a few seconds of hmm that's a bit an intense version of that and here's what I did and I often do this what would I tell someone else and then it was done when I think about channelling myself like if one of you asked me what would I tell you right now I usually get the same answers I would get for you and that really helps so remember this when you're not sure guidance and you're not sure what you

know just imagine if you like my talks imagine what I would say during a talk and you'll have an answer imagine talking to God and get an answer don't leave yourself in the fear just imagine having an answer so in that moment I was going well see this is feeling kind of intense what would I tell others as a teacher and then I got my answer is that making sense it's kind of like I'm channeling you sitting here in my mind sitting here and I'm talking to you it's just a way of being a surrogate to

myself you know channeling what I would answer to you if you asked me the same question it's a good way to get kind of an objective bit of feedback just keep that in mind so that that thing about choosing that Stillpoint seems like oh wow it's gonna be still point meditation I'm gonna it sounds like it'd be really cool when you experience it because you can do it in meditation to go up oh wow you know and I'm feeling this stillness and everything's kind of connected and calm and peaceful that's nice but when

it kicks in as an effect in the middle of a project like you know you're cooking and all of a sudden the meals gone wait I just started the fire second ago where'd the last half-hour ago who was stir-frying how did it get all perfect you know I was not even here that seems disturbing you know I mean it does oh oh my god I got to go get kids oh wait they're here so I was gone a whole time I got in the car went to get the kids came home with the kids fit him their lunch and then went on back oh that that can be

dangerous you know it'd be hard to go to authorities or your counselor and say you know I'm not even there when I go get the kids and drive you know that would be kind of scary dangerous he reminds me of my ex sweet girl you know that we were married way way back and you know because she had a lot of abuse so I finally talked her into seeing a counselor working on some of that stuff objectively with somebody else she came back and she said well you know he said do you know a little kind of criteria a

little questionnaire she had to answer and one of the questions Michael you know he asked me do you ever hear voices and I said doesn't everyone any she Co she goes he looked up and went no I'm like remind me next time I'm gonna have to like help you rehearse your answers you know bless you but it's like that guy's the Stillpoint sounds kind of cool easy it can be weird for us because it's another reality mostly it's a feeling there's a metaphysics to it there's a quantum physics to it but mostly just

look for it as a feeling I feel somehow okay I'm gonna tell somebody about some of this really deep old stuff issues hurts wounds that's the lower realm here and I'm gonna talk about it and feel safe that's the still point to anytime you act as a good Midwife to people anytime a good counselor a good parent or whatever where you're holding space Stillpoint space then they can come from here up to where you are and meet you there and that's a holy relationship between two any two people of any type

classification after I've done that God awaits me to make the next move not literally me making the move but God awaits my readiness to say how comfortable my child are you I see that you're halfway home are you comfortable with that kind of well until the cooking thing and until the kids showed up in the house without me remembering to pick them up then we better just leave you there for a bit but when you say you know what it was freaky but I adapted and I'm okay you're starting to create a

greater wider space for the light of God to come in and say hello still point child would you like to go home for a moment for a day for a week how it that don't don't get into time don't get into how long you see purple when you meditate don't get into how long you you see gold in your crown when you meditate forget time when you're trying to get into timelessness of God forget time it doesn't translate well as soon as you start going well let's see and looking at a watch or clock literally or

figuratively you'll lose that still point okay so fine I'm gonna stand in the still point but I mean you know God you are aware I do have children to pick up so let's get this done let's be really holy and spiritual but there's got to be time limits I'm honored that that's what happens in all bodies the concerns of the material world will drop you from still point back to earth is that bad not at all you should be celebrating you even made it there so own that own own that really

embrace that and own that God I made it that was really cool tell other people about it this really trippy thing of it still point etcetera and then they'll start to go I didn't know about that so let me try that and you'll be spreading the miracle by sharing the miracle but first own it in yourself still point can happen when you're making love still point can happen when you're holding a child and a rocking them to see miracles can happen like that you know one time I was sitting after a conference I did and

there's all these you know the major speakers and musicians that you would all know if I name the names and we're all sitting at this table and kind of having like a you know a gathering of the spiritual leaders after the conference having this wonderful spiritual leader table talk so we're all like you know is great oh I loved your talk and you know I really loved this and oh thanks for the music that was great background you did for my meditation all that kind of great feedback but but I'm I'm the type like

I've got this like spider senses you know it's a little a little one of those miracle superhero kind of vibes that we all have in us but I do I start getting this there's something else going on in the room and I'm kind of like hmm and it can be called hyper sensitive but hyper would mean out of control and it doesn't feel out of control so it's not hyper but it's nicely sensitive and I noticed there's this couple with a newborn and they're sitting there and you know I can

just see them kind of looking up you know it's spiritual conference don't let them see you looking we don't want them to know we're staring and I'm sensing this whole thing you know they want to sit you know in our presence because we're just so damned holy it's just amazing so so they're sitting there and I'm I'm watching noting hearing feeling the whole experience and I just do that kind of a thing where I'm like well what do I need to be doing I don't care that

I'm sitting at the table with all kinds of spiritual leaders that's nice and if nothing else is needed I'm gonna be fully there something else is needed I'm not fully there I have something else I need to be doing that's how I work anyway I'm not telling you it's right for you I'm just saying that's what happens for me so hmm hey guys you know just gradual hey how are you oh oh hi hi you know hi good to see you oh thank you for your talk oh you're welcome yeah I wait a moment then I go you guys want to

come and join us you know will you sign my napkin sure and then they're going but we have a baby that's crying and it's kind of being you know I hold the baby so I went to their table and held their baby put it to sleep while they went and got to sit with the gods you know of the universe and that felt good to me you know and they're like yes this is odd that Shh don't question it but why did you you know it doesn't you know you can't explain miracle consciousness they're wondering why I did it and they

felt bad that I did it but they felt great that I invite analyze it this is what was needed in the moment I'm just as happy sitting there holding baby you know just you know little sound little song you know and just kind of Rocking I'm feeling like wow something perfect happened this restless baby that was crying they couldn't get to settle down held it minute later it's calming minute later it's snoozing and we're good so something perfect happened right here and something perfect happened

right over there to you follow so that's still point where it's holding space for people and saying you know there's a still point would you like to you know you want to try and God is saying that all the time so when you help create a still point presence for people in this world of time your being as God all right when when you say what can I do to help and you hold the vessel your being as the mother the Holy Spirit you're doing the will of God but what's interesting also is this point still

point out of this still point came billions of years o lifetimes and karma and this and you owe me and I owe you and so many things to figure out ik I got to heal this thing I got to do when you do this properly in measure of healing and spirituality healings you know and you get it you enter an elevator that runs all the way through time the time loops of billions of years you enter an elevator that takes you up to the still point you're you're not okay I've been around for a billion years and I've got let's say let's just

say a hundred lifetime oh my god that's a lot of healing I gotta to I better get to work what happens is you're it's happening for you when you find that Center we talked about you know honing or holding our Center last week finding and maintaining that Center when we get into that Center it's like it's an elevator that takes you back to the still point between time and timelessness now as that elevators moving you'll still feel as though there's the winds of the hurricane of life still spinning you can still sense

that the world is still happening but you don't care as much in the ego sense the pain fear it's not like you're just oblivious you can be in the still point you can be in the elevator and still take out the trash you know that's it's okay chop wood carry water before enlightenment and after enlightenment you still take out the trash and that's okay but you feel different about it it's the strangest thing it's not oh I forgot I've got to take out the trash it's I get to this is great

I get to well what do you mean get to what's so exciting about well the alternative would be having twice as much next week I get to and and you know your trash guy comes by well he's supposed to he's supposed to pick up the trash you know what once and once in a while I put an envelope tape it to the trash can but ten bucks in it because thank you for doing this you know one time I happened to see the guy pull up you know I was in my office and I could see him and it was the funniest thing he gets out you know gets the envelope

thinking it says you know to to them he opens it up and I swear to God watching and he and this was only ten bucks and I see this you know like it was quiet it was out out on the street but I'm like wow I gotta give 20 next time you know he might start you know doing moonwalking and you know like wow this is you know really trippy you know but how beautiful in another form that was inviting him to the still point because in the still point you feel loved the love compass that was asked about it's like saying am I feeling in my Center

love that isn't in my Center isn't real love at all and more people have to find real love and it'll go from human love that's improved human love it will go through stages to improved then it'll become fulfilling and then it becomes divine but you don't go from completely dysfunctional codependent to divine love there's awakenings and every time I get back to that still point back to that's the elevator that takes me to the still part the elevator is my center the center the more I live

from there it stay it takes because it's an elevator it takes me to my still point the still point isn't the end but the still point is my heart center where I meet God the still point is where time began and it became a billion years around and around the wheel of life as Buddha calls it it's just oh my god never-ending and some people say it's so beautiful the Wheel of Life it actually isn't it's okay that it seems like it but it actually isn't that beautiful you can say I love the fact if flowers bloom

do you like the fact that people die because that's this realm in heaven there's flowers and no death there's only love there's only life and some people well we have to accept that no you don't you do not have to have death well I'm okay with death but not everybody else is even if you think you are so the fact that any human being should die in pain or suffering or then to lose a loved one it doesn't feel very good if you're honest about it you can try to justify it justify

philosophize to us and say but death is a natural part so I'm okay that's I'm glad for you good job but the fact that even one human being suffers is not okay it means we're not home so if you could just care enough for someone besides yourself even if you justified say you're fine with death the fact that someone else isn't is enough to say something's wrong with this picture people people are okay with Buddha's teaching as long as it fits them it's kind of funny oh I really love the

Buddha seem like there's a chant right here of Buddha but you don't like when he says certain things it's like I don't like that you want to pretend he didn't say it he was awakened and he said certain things you want might want to pay attention and one of them is says this world offers you nothing but suffering because if you get what you want in this world it's not going to stay and that will cause you suffering if you don't get what you want in this world that's already suffering so it's

like either way it's not so good but he's making a valid point this is not your home so therefore settling for it is going to bring you eventual pain because at some point you're gonna realize I'm not home in what way any form of suffering so if you want to say that you believe in some of Buddha's teachings then how about his teaching of being being fooled into thinking there was no death or sickness because his father decided his you know fake father on this planet tries to make it look like everything's just peachy

right everything look everything's good nobody gets sick so when he sees sickness and death he's going what is that oh that's a sick person what's sick that's how sheltered he was as an earthly Prince there's no such thing what do you mean sick well you know they're in pain what it was pain then he starts seeing dead people being burned on funeral pyres around the villages and you know and their waters and what is that that somebody died well what do you mean well have they died they got older

they got sick what do you mean what's that so obviously that oblivion of thinking everything in this world is peachy and he had the great version of that it doesn't last so he said something's wrong with this picture and I've got to figure out what it is so he's meditating meditating meditating meditate and then he goes I'm trying to fix it and what I needed to understand there is no it it's a hologram you and I are all still right there at the precipice of knowingness of God the

unknowingness of the illusionary world conscious unconscious we're right at the precipice and we get to choose every day which one we're going to experience so at that point at that still point real love false love peace conflict and so on right at that point so when we hold do our best to hold consciousness to hold our Center we're taking the elevator back to that point where we can choose again as a Course in Miracles calls it this you're going to sit it at that at best in this planet you're going to sit

at that precipice and be shown these alternatives and MA the time a human beings going to fail their test because even if you get to that most people are just swirling around in the drama but even the initiate on the path that gets in the elevator by some practice or another and they get to that still point and they're shown because Buddha was shown here's the world and he had to say no reaction and he wakes up and that's your destiny and mine maybe I've had that maybe you've had that but it's our destiny to

have that all the time you don't have to go oh god I better get to work don't make it about intense work yeah I get to I get to try that again ooh that was really cool lasted five minutes I wish it would have lasted ten but it's this is great I got to have that the more you do it you make it more inviting for it to return the more you get frustrated and I hope can I get that to happen again you shut the door on it unconditional love respect for yourself and the experience will attractive more as opposed to trying and doing so I'm in

this point and say wow you know so how do I know that I'm even close to the elevator of choice how do I know I'm even close to the still point of waking up and the point it's it's the point of its not awake it's the point of choosing to away how do I know when I'm there every time you have to choose between love and forgiveness versus grievance your must you must have been there the ego isn't going to just allow you to get to that peaceful point and let you walk through to heaven your ego is all about

conflict it's all about keeping you away from that elevator and that point so you're just swirling around in the drama when you're in denial you're most likely doing this oh yeah the way life is that's it can't do anything about it that's usually this as soon as you even remotely said wait what's that an elevator and wonder where that goes your ego has to set you up with some tests test it would be something resentful something grief some grievance to not go up then elevator shuts before you get

to it like some bad movie or dream I keep trying to get in this elevator doors keep closing just when I get there you know that would be the kind of experience people without so I know that I'm getting there I've been in this marriage divorce and I'm thinking I want to practice forgiveness with this person and then they call that means I must have got close to that elevator or to this still point because they called and it didn't go well it's those moments you know where you're kind of hoping for

something wonderful to happen and it doesn't happen and that's out of the elevator get out back into this world and that's what happens when we fail our tests so you're not bad for having been tested the fact that you're being tested must be testimony that you're close to something your ego doesn't just put you through hellacious tests when you're already insane it would rather not work it's called conserving energy you know you look miserable I'll come back and check on you later that's kind of how it

does that it's when you're like going it goes oh you know it's like slows away what are you doing I was just thinking about doing some healing work or thinking about getting into recovery oh no no no no we can't be having that you go into recovery really okay let's go I'm gonna go with you to programs meeting you sit down and they start talking about their stuff and their pain and their tracking and looking at what caused them to do this and their character flaws you're like this doesn't

look helpful at all when I'm stoned everybody likes me at least it seems like it and I kind of like that you know everybody just seems to be smiling a lot that's because they're stone it's when they sober up you're like I need a divorce I need new friends that's not real anyway yeah so so think about that it's coming to a close healing is half of your spiritual path please remember that always it's half of your path you know go well I used to do healing stuff now I'm on the spiritual

path I don't need it a lot of people fall into that illusion it's not correct it's half and half and they're constantly massaged sometimes it's a lot of one sometimes a lot of another but it's really supposed to be on an as-needed basis whatever's I'm being called to do I'm gonna step in and do it how do I know which one bull which one is happening a lot of stuff triggers been happening lately there you go you know I feel pretty good about myself and inside and out I feel okay good you

know I feel good but I'm conducting this everyday zoom program we're doing for free for everybody you know that wants to be in it they can go on this program but in the program people are asking questions about my childhood or their own truck so a lot of topics not all but several times the topic of you know childhood stuff has come up so I find myself answering their questions and they're answering each other and we're all doing this work and I caught myself and what this is interesting by coincidence we're doing a lot of

childhood healing stuff so instead of going you know we should move on to spiritual things I just went wow I too must be riding the same bus with you folks on some more healing on some level so if that's the bus of on so be it that's the one that pulled up and I got on you know well I didn't realize it but you're on it so write it go with the wave so I went okay and so some of that kind of happened if it's happening it's happening and if you're feeling inclined oh my god meditation deeper meditation and staying

with it you know the other day I was like filling this call and going I'm gonna go into like a full day of meditative process and so on okay then that's what I'm gonna do when something shows up I just kind of I double check you know and step into it and then just go with it so remember the healing path is part of that but remember that time seems to exist the more you're caught up on time the more your oh I'm getting old that's not it I'm in the elevator and I'm in my still point I'm getting old

that's not a statement of am at peace you're letting time which is the illusion of you being separate from God can be confirmed when it's um you know some other time is being late all the time not showing up on time when the word time shows up in your life a lot it's probably telling you you're not in your center if you're in your center you will be on time I'm sorry I'm late I was just so in my Center no no dumbass if you were in your Center you'd have shown up on time these goofy

spiritual you know no show up you know you know come on show up be on time take care of the practical matters the mess is a term that's endearingly used in some states it's the common term some places like it where I've been okay so it's like come on goof you're in your set you'll be on time you're in your Center you'll take care of all chakras you're in your Center you'll be in the present and in the present you'll know there's something for you to take care

of instead of men just so in the moment that I never get anything done that this that's know if you're in the president you'll know that we presently need you to do something you know come up all the pseudo spiritual stuff so watch if and when time becomes an issue for you oh I'm getting old so you know I I don't do certain things as much anymore it's not about what you do where you don't do don't blame it on age don't blame it on time just don't do them anymore say I'm not into that say that's

not my thing name it as a choice you're making not time make time an enemy and it'll kill you prematurely just be in the perfection of whatever's happening in the moment which isn't easy because all the universe is trying to take you through the opposite and tell you that time is wearing you down the time has power over you so in that still point but just say to yourself I feel all this but somewhere in here I'm okay so show me that place mother or God so you don't pretend this isn't all seemingly happening the chaos

of life just they despite that there's another way of looking at this there's another way of being there's another way of feeling hmm and I'm determined to find that other way and if all I do is calm down my tension scale of a 10 down to an eight nice job down to an eight well it's not a zero Shh doing it again relax give thanks well it did it came down to an eight and I didn't even do anything so that must have been some sort of miracle shift that happened nice job pretty cool that you got a miracle and

if you got a miracle you might be able to get another one because you've experienced it it's in you so now peace more peace I'm calling more and more peace into my life and my tension level goes from a 10 to a 5 and psych Wow I'm already there man but I'm not a zero I don't care I feel I'm there I'm back to that zero point tension wasn't down to me on some level I'm there I've never left heaven I've never left God I'm here that had a dream of fantasy what would

life be like to separate that drew me from the oneness with God to a choice still point where I made a choice to enter a world that is a spinning endless time loop but it isn't the Eternity of God it's a false version of eternity oh you know you'll be here forever you're evolving cycling around an hour according to some systems you're going to be doing this for billions more years before you evolved into the intelligence of a turnip you know they act like oh you've got to become a turnip before you become of

this and that and evolve and then one day you'll be enlightened again so try this I'm already there on some level I'm already there if I don't feel it yet I guess I have some more moments to choose again don't act like you're here spinning by some philosophical or spiritual teaching that tells you you've got to evolve for billions of years to even become remotely awake cancel that out and say wait there's a secret that everybody's forgotten we came here and started doing this and thought well I'm

gonna I'm gonna get on the evolving spinning around and around but you're still spinning so try something else and say what wait what if part of me is spinning but that's not the real me what if the real me is here dreaming that I'm at a still point making choices and then that choice when I make a ill choice that I'm flawed throws me down into here so what if I reverse it what if I keep practicing to make new choices that I am as God created me but that's a lie unless you can believe that others are

also as God created them see if you try to become a mystic and say I am as God created me and you people are really messed up you read then you're lying to yourself it's a it's a sentence I am has God created me you can really only get that when you're also simultaneously able to say and so are you and I mean you have to be willing to say that even to disturbing relations of yours don't call the disturbing part the god part just say I'm so sorry that you and I met in such turmoil and illusion I'm

so sorry that you and I met both of us forgetting who we were guess what we're one and this part of our one is choosing to be here with God which means I take you with me not only do I refuse to try to go without you Co without you I only enter the Ark of peace two-by-two like the animals into the ark so I'm inviting you to go with me what if they say no it doesn't matter you're already going with me anyway they'll say see typical control freak I've always told you you're a control

freak and I'm okay with that when it comes to someone accepting your holiness and mind I'm absolutely okay with being called a control freak because we're going home today hold that determination please take a few centering breaths I hope I addressed most or all of them the comments okay centering for today's meditation let's not do like a visualization per se not a lengthy journey let's just for a moment imagine that no matter what's happening in the world in life that we are back to

our still point what if you're at a point where you can decide that nothing has any power or control over you and let's do that for a minute or two straight no matter what comes up into your mind to take a breath and go back to still point where I am in the peace of God if your attempt to reach the still point ever involves getting away from bad people pulling away from negative people then we're still not getting in in the still point there are no others there are no issues to heal everyone and everything is reconciled into the peace

of God and we give thanks for the ever loving presence that is God that it is attainable reachable because we've never left it this is who and what I am help me mother Holy Spirit of God help me birth this part of myself more help me to stay determined to know this part of myself help me to know and be determined to know this I am presence in others

there is no one I could imagine leaving behind because there is no one else so I'm celebrating right here right now I'm home at the door way home and I'm choosing to step through it into the peace of God and they're in carrying everyone else with me there is no one else I slash we go home together and so it is nice job thank you folks