Present Grace Versus Past and Future

people talk about the present moment a lot be in the present most of them don't know a thing about what they're saying but they it sounds cool you know we'll just be in the present you know and it's kind of funny you got that Lion King cartoon that came out so many years ago and you know you have the the the the Prince that's to be king you know and here he is obsessing on the past and and his wise teacher smacks him on the head and why did you do that what's the difference it's in the past

and he's making fun of him because he there's these people that want to act like they only live in the present but even there need to be in the present comes from the past so people don't really understand what it means to be in the pray if you could fully fully be in the present you would disappear if you don't have any past creating this moment you can't hold your molecules together you would have no DNA if you don't have a past so your body would just turn to light you would essentially have to work

hard to hold a body intact even for a minute and you wouldn't be able to hold it for very long now I'm not saying that's neither good nor bad or what you should be doing I'm just saying the this concept of the present is misunderstood people that will be negligent about tomorrow's decision because they're so in the moment I'm just trying to be in the moment smack him in the head and when they complain say what do you want what that was in the past that was two seconds ago that was that what he did in

the Lion King and it's driving home an important point this this pseudo version of being in the moment if we're truly in the moment first of all it is impossible to be in the moment without the assistance of spirit because spirit is the moment that you're seeking for certain it's searching for it the present is where we discover God so it helps instead of you trying to force yourself to be present or even pretending that you are present it helps to ask the presence of spirit that is the present there's these words the past

the present the future one way to understand the difference between these and they're all important in in the human experience but once we're in our divine experience there's only the present so once we're in our divinity there is no past and there's no future there really isn't you can only have a past in a future when you have time and time was only created when we entered the illusion as soon as we thought we were separate from God wanted to wanted to experience whether you want to call it forced it or chose

it or whatever when we started experiencing what seems to be a separation from God then time basically the the universe exploded with the Big Bang took place when we said what would it be like to be separate we were one with bliss and in that moment I wonder what it's like to like to be separate boom you have an expanding universe and as soon as you have an expanding universe you have it there and are there of this and of that as soon as you have to you have distance and when you have distance it takes time to get from one

to the other so from the moment of the separation the illusion begins in the beginning is the DAO in the beginning is God in the beginning is one but after that moment then in the now present beginning moment we are with God when we thought there would be something other than God you no longer just have bliss you now have a this into that so as I said in the universe explodes you have the universal version of distance which then creates time because you have to get from there to there and it takes time to do that I remember you know even

when it comes to science they they think it and think it how do you understand certain things you measure and you figure out what the speed of light is there's nothing they think you know it for many years in science nothing can go faster than the speed of light there that's there's our science and before that there was another theory nothing can go faster than the speed of light so I have a question what if you are light see because if you are going the speed of light you're still doing something if

you are like there is no distance at all you're not going the speed of anything you are the light you don't even have to seem to travel I this story before but in Hindu mythology the story of Ganesha and you know Ganesha has this brother that they're competing the brothers trying to be cooler and you know Ganesha seems to be kind of spoiled and so on and you know the God didn't you goddess of the universe the father and mother aspect are sort of saying you know we have these beautiful children and which one

is the greatest and then they decide to have a test a contest who can remove the fastest so the one brother saying I'm gonna race to you Ganesha through the universe and ready go you know and so takes off and Ganesh was you know hanging out there just rubbing his belly and kind of having something to drink and enjoy the other brother in the mean times racing through the universe and at this point there's this point where the other brother is almost back now Ganesh are you ever gonna get started you're

clearly going to lose Ganesha finally decided stand up and it walked around its mother and father and said you are the universe meaning if you do things all based around God you've got it all covered I am the light I don't have to go the speed of light partly what I'm saying there is answers can be that simple when everybody else is still trying to conjure and think what could go faster than the speed of light could be then maybe this and quantumness and proportions that on and on and on and you can come up with an answer like well

wait what if we are like now there's the only thing you could say it's faster than then the speed of light is that you are like and these revelations can come to us and they come to us not by digging the past or anticipating the future by listening just chill just chill and listen believe that I all the universe is father mother God the whole universe and if I live my life in the surrounding the consciousness of God all things can be revealed to me I don't have to race somewhere to get anywhere it's right

here God you tell me the answer well what if you are like Oh got it where people will spend many generations many hundreds and thousands of years theorizing even proving and disproving each other you have an answer in one split second there's a past seemingly present and future now let's combine these words what about there's a past present and a present future what does that mean well the past is a present the past is a gift if I learn from it I can draw the past into the present and I got it all you need from the past is

to learn what you need to learn how why and how so you don't have to repeat it in the future so what humans do often is get dragged to the past that's not the moment that's not the present you don't have a past present you just have a past and it's beating you up people regress all the time I've seen people that are on the spiritual path you think you're immune to this stuff you just never know when it's gonna strike you you never know when the past is going to show itself like a a

Halloween goblin you know boo and then we react when you react you're gonna try to pretend you didn't you're gonna deny you didn't or of course you're gonna blame someone else for it happening I would have been totally in the present at peace except for you and and that's what we do when you blame your even further into the past so meaning dragged back into the past you're not at all in the present blaming cannot happen in the present moment so in our Center what's nice is in our Center we can say I'm

going to bring the past to the present to heal it and it becomes a gift the past becomes a present in more ways than one it becomes part of the present and it's now also known as a past present you see the play on words it's a gift and I got it if I don't do that if I don't know how to hold a Center and bring the past to now to be released it's going to drag me to then now the ultimate thing that ever happened in the past the ultimate is our belief that we separated from God therefore everything

related to the past is rooted in our belief that we separated from God which means it can't go well the past isn't reflecting oneness because that happened before time began as far as you know that you can only trace historically back if you trace it all the way history that is time all the way to the roots the root of the past is the belief that we separated in God and that doesn't feel good then it took all kinds of expressions it took all kinds of forms in the past so when I'm working on the past I'm really always working on my

belief in separation that's why a course in miracles tells you you have really only one prayer only one need to heal your belief in separation when you work on that it starts unraveling all its symptoms which are this happened to me and this happen to me I don't care if you're the one that did it or it was done to you I don't care how much you were uninvolved or how much you were the victim of it it's not the point it still could not have happened if you were not separate if you're one with God we would

have only the Bliss of God because we believe that we separated we now have hysterics we now have craziness terror hurt hate now some of us are better at it than others but we're all living in terror because we think we separated from divinity so that means I'm so upset about that I'm going to either take it out on you or I'm going to cower and be scared and you're gonna take it out on me but everybody loses if we are separate from love so the past becomes a present when I can see this own it and

there are moments it's called digression or regression but digression when something happens to you that triggers you so much it triggers you so much that you're actually reliving an experience now some therapists might say that's very cathartic no it isn't it isn't cathartic unless you do it from the present if it if I'm not in the present if I don't know how to hold my Center well even though I'm being dragged seemingly towards the past I'm stuff is coming up from the past if I'm in the

center to any degree or you my counselor my sponsor my friend my parent whomever is helping me hold Center which is what we're supposed to be doing if I can hold Center great if I'm not then I am digressing see that the trauma is basically for all intents and purposes is happening again there are people who viscerally you know touch their hand and they just pull back as far as they're concerned whatever happened to them once upon a time is happening again and you can smooth it you can avoid it you can

hide it you can minimize doesn't matter it's still happening you're just avoiding it to be able to see these things oh my gosh it's to know others is profound to know yourself is enlightening you know you can know everything about the world science and religion and whatever all these forms of knowledge of the world to know yourself is where wisdom really kicks in it's where enlightenment really kicks in to know yourself and it's not easy you know stuff does slip by I've got this inner struggle from let's say

childhood and there's lifetimes there's childhood there's young adulthood there's all kinds of layers of ourselves all kinds of layers and masks this is not a battle of good and evil as we think we know it it's God in the veil not evil it's not a just a good and evil it's God the reality of God versus the veil there's nothing that can oppose God let me think about it if there's an evil and God has to fight it that's our word we're a creek I mean you know it's been

millions of years and if God hasn't been able to defeat evil at this point this might never happen evil might eventually take over heaven and then we're all up Creek or there is but God there's nothing that can oppose God not only in the linear thinking of power God created let's say and God created and something became evil fighting God how could it be stronger than God that created it so it really doesn't make any sense but even if that were true this force that is God clearly is going to win at the

end of the day and if I'm an expression of God then I'm at an expression of that battle I can either own that the battle isn't really there it just seems like it so it's really God I am versus the veil that I'm not the veil are my unhealed wounds and it's not just a veil it'll take the form of many veils so this good and evil God and the veil God and my forgetting the veil my forgetting is the battle where is it happening inside of me so I learned to hold Center more and more just because

you hear this once doesn't mean okay got it you know Center forever the more you do that the more annoyed your ego becomes oh mister I'm holding my Center we'll see and all it has to do is flash your ex you know into your mind oh wait back to Center and then here comes you have image of X again and you're like no not this time good try then you date someone just like your ex and they come up again and then you get better at that fine I'm gonna be celibate chest I won't date anyone and

that will help me keep my Center and then hi good to see what worked today we have a new boss it's your ex it doesn't go away it doesn't go away until there's a time when you no longer seem like velcro that these things stick to you seem more like Teflon incomes picture of X and it just flies by it does that mean it won't happen again no no every so often your soul say let's just make sure you know just when you're least expecting it oh god it's been years now clearly I'm beyond that oh

it's great you know and you know then it'll be like oh you know in the middle of just things you just don't even expect it could be like now it's Christmas definitely nothing can come up turn Christmas you know then you prick your finger on that one of the needles from the tree and you think brick oh my ex no sorry so you don't know where this is gonna go keywords and thing I remember one thing that was really really dark and really challenging and I'll say it briefly and that is I remember one time my kids came from

school when they were like probably in high school at the time but they went to some concert or something long story short there was some fight that broke out and they said there was this um dis fight and it was just this kid and this big guy was beating up on this kid and and they were describing it and I was feeling first like appalled oh but that's normal no no appalled then I started feeling angry who is this guy who did this let's find out okay as many years ago but I started noticing how upset I felt you know and it's like well

is it just because that's how you should feel as a human being you should know that might be true that you're caring about others you got to watch what's happening inside then I started having memories of a couple beatings of my own and I realized what I wanted to fight for that kid it was me I understand it was me it wasn't just how dare they it all that's your head still talking all in a major effort to avoid this memory and I had a memory and I'm like oh man and I didn't like the memory of course

but it was still challenging to own that all that I wanted to do to save that kid that was being beat to a pulp was also about myself and the more I wanted to think about the kid is an attempt to avoid the pain of the experience that I remembered and it was horrible you know it was just horrible the feeling of a kid going through this it was horrible and I was reliving all of that in my gut that's the kind of stuff you just won't know it'll slip in it'll look like it was somebody else it'll look like you're

just watching the show why would that bother me right it wasn't bothered I just shut it off watch and ask yourself what's really happening because there's so much here but don't let it drag you back to then bring it to now Who am I in the moment when I'm with God I'm safe enough now to let this come forward to be looked at so I can shine light on it and when you don't want to look at it when you want to minimize it they're all signs of I'm still afraid of this which is okay to err is human to be afraid

that's okay don't judge yourself for being afraid of it however if I'm afraid of it they're still in it that is powerful over me I don't like that that doesn't seem true or righteous spiritually then what would you like to do about it let's bring it here God tells us why don't you let me stand right behind you whispering in your ear how to manage the situation but I don't know if you're gonna come through oh oh a test in faith so because you didn't feel God in the past when you

were getting beat you're afraid it's not with you now when you can bring that beating to the now to release it so why and how is that so because when I separated from God it for all intents and purposes God wasn't there do you understand what I mean by that when I said goodbye I believe God is no longer there that's why it didn't seem like God was there when I'm being beat as a child that's why it seems like I can't be safe enough to work on old issues abuses and things that go on in our lives even present

stuff seemingly present stuff it's all rooted in unhealed past even if you say but mine's not in the past it's the present oh really we'll do some tracking on that and we would look at the present what you think is present and find it's all in the past it's an old pattern repeating just because it's based on time on the clock or the calendar doesn't confirm something is in the present presence is a consciousness not a measurement on the clock okay well in this moment that isn't happening so it has to be the

presence also abusive no track it you'll find the roots of this are elsewhere it's in another time I cannot experience harms today or tomorrow I cannot experience harms today if I have healed the roots of that harm the most it can do is give me ghost images of what happened boo that's all it's in to do and sometimes we react we watch horror movies and we react I think about it I mean people do watch horror movies and as though it's actually happening and it's kind of funny and kind of sad

at the same time but it's a great metaphor of life itself nothing other than love truly exists so why are you afraid I'm not saying you need to watch cool movies but to be afraid of them is another story well I don't have fears of the Goldmans well no but how about the three-dimensional ones called your life we still are I mean when you get a letter from the IRS you don't usually go this is going to be great surely this is going to be great day you know I mean sinking that sinking feeling I had when I heard about this kid it

it's rooted in the past you could say oh no this was happening that week I was present no it was still rooted in the past so our false present life is rooted in the past which is even more so false because the past where abuse and trauma seems to have originated you know when you do child inner child work and all that it's because of past stuff and your addiction sometimes rooted in the past and all that they seem to be rooted in the past but the past is rooted in the separation the separation never actually

took place that's why we say there's only two emotions love and fear not love and hate love and fear because fear means not that you actually don't have love love and fear means I have love and the fear that I don't have love it's only an implication it's only a theory I have love and maybe that's what fear is maybe I don't have love but you do to say I don't have love would mean God doesn't exist so I have love and then I have love and when we say fear it's all the variations all the symptoms all the

manifestations of variations that is of my belief that I'm separate so all of our traumas and all of our stuff in this life are simply manifestations of what could have been if we could separate but we didn't so healing isn't actually something that's of effort I've said this before but Jesus walks on water he didn't have to go home man this is a tough one I mean lepers that was easy he had a walk on water you know I'm kind of little you know picked up a few extra pounds you know but the mana oh they soaked it

in hot melted butter oh the man I just got into that this week so I don't know if I can walk on water this week there's no effort there's no I don't know if I can do it there's no it's harder there's no because he doesn't believe it exists so he can walk on it there's not an effort there's a how could I not that's true faith faith isn't as they you would think in things unseen they say faith is things unseen which means you're hoping something will work out that's not what the sentence

means faith and things unseen simply means I know the truth is the things I can't see with my eyes because my eyes lie to me so I'm having in faith I'm having faith in things I know not that I'm crossing my fingers and theorizing I know so Jesus doesn't have to say okay concentrate concentrate this walk okay keep keep going don't vary your mind because you'll slip and fall in Lord he knows it's true that's why you practice more affirmative prayer you're using affirmative prayer because you're you're

stating not hope you're stating this is actually true I am loved I am okay so when you work on past stuff you can't hope you can get through it no no Exorcist should walk into a house hoping they could pull this off because you will pay the price no no surgeon should go into surgery hoping this will work out listen you might want to go to sleep now because I'm going to begin and I'm just hoping this will work out you know you'd be like no no you know trying not to sleep so you think you you should know

practice knowing even if I know I don't totally believe I'm still going to do my best to step into knowing because the truth is God love that everything is okay so affirm even if you're doubting affirm that you know the truth even beyond your doubts I'm not saying pretend you don't have the doubts just simply keep your light on the eyes on the light at the end of the tunnel rather than the darkness of the tunnel so if you think I can't deal with my past I can't deal with this and that you're affirming

its power over you is that horrible of you know to err is human to forgive and live a new life is divine which would you like I I still want to take some of the past fear and just obsess and doubt okay well then do that but you'll find that when you pray you're usually praying for the cure of that and it's a cure not you're not accepting so I need to be really well equipped in a sense if I'm gonna start doing healing work with myself because I'm going on a journey and it's a roller coaster ride there

will be moments of up when I've made it through some challenge and then there'll be depths and stuff when I drop down into the experiences you know I'm doing some regression work today or I'm doing some counselling or I'm doing some step work it's it's all showing me stuff of the past where my patterns begin how they happen and so on and so on what you do is you stay tethered to God and your Center and then do the journey work go to the journey do your work let's stuff percolate up

and I say go to that's a metaphor you're actually bringing it to you and there's a difference having moments of regression or digression means I lost center my past pulled me to it it is pummeling me and I don't like it so after it's done for with today's pummeling I'm gonna drag my bleeding carcass back to the present for a moment and go how'd you do not so good note to self don't ever go there again don't ever try to work on yourself or you'll have more of the same that's why when

you say time for a divorce and your partner pummels you with legal ease and with threats and I'm gonna take everything because that's the egoic world trying to keep you from finding your new self there's going to be surgeries you need and yet there oh but if you have this you know and then there's this present then that's gonna hurt you and you could die and go courageously forward move gonna do something I'm not going to paralyzed you know you're gonna risk this you're gonna risk that you're gonna

speak up and say to the family hey listen uncle so-and-so did this to me and your family pet members might be going shhh you're gonna ruin Christmas you know parties oh I'm sorry I'm sorry about speaking of ruin there's my life you want to talk about that oh no honey just get over let it go you get that kind of stuff that's the forms that it can take the ego threatening you don't ever come back to this place and try to heal this so it beats you up to intimidate you so that you'll never try it again and if you try

to do such things alone you will usually lose and not want to do it again do it with support systems do it with God as your assistant then God's saying basically let me look at this with you let me look at this with you let me stand right here with my hands on your shoulders and you're gonna be a little bit afraid so I'm going to show you some past memory you're doing some healing work meditate even meditations images and faces and memories do come up you can be in the middle of doing yoga asanas and why is that memory coming up

I want to I want to do my yoga now that's why it's coming up because when you're doing your yoga your yoking to God and ego doesn't like it and every time you do postures and movements there's even muscle memory so as I shift as I move into a different posture stuff related to those parts of my body start getting triggered in memories that make sense like literally you start to do a posture where you lean to the right but let's pretend that that posture happens to replicate a car accident

all of a sudden aches and pains and emotions come even the fear of what was happening in the accident could resurface in the middle of doing an asana so this world on the egoic level tries to replicate woundedness so that it'll embed it more and then add more layers of death around it darkness around it to discourage you when you get on the path the path you first find your self disturbed not at peace you might have a moment of peace you could have near-death experience could have a blissful meditation that's just a moment

truly the path is not described as I sat down meditated blissed-out I'm good it's usually your Center you might have those moments of wow that was cool purple light you know sparkles of light or whatever but the longer version of that even though a summary of the longer version of the spiritual path is I devoted to finding my Center and when I did everything that was not my center came up so the so-called and then I found total peace forever that's the payoff of when there's nothing else to get in the way

well how do I get to that point without dealing with that stuff you don't you deal with the stuff as it comes up you don't obsess on it you don't make it your goal okay fine I mean another path I might as well expect a horrible life now not at all the Divine Mother only wants you to work with these things at a rate that you can handle so surrender to her and the that is the Holy Spirit surrender to God I'm not sure what pace I'm not sure what you want me to remember not remember she's just gonna

say just be willing and that's enough if you're even just willing I don't need you to fix anything just be willing to hold your Center if and when things do come up okay I will and that's like having God hands on your shoulder saying I'm with you I got your back nothing is more powerful and if I described just one more thing to that process I would say this one of the techniques for lack of a better word to this is that when you are dealing with stuff and you are feeling digression regression to pass

patterns you simply practice asking God to be with you and help you to see the event through its eyes rather than your own because your eyes are traumatized your eyes are programmed the neurology the cells they're programmed what they see is still related to the past I separated from God I opened my eyes and saw horrible things then I started living lifetimes and it hasn't gone well through any of that because even if I had ever had a decent lifetime someone still died and it hurt my feelings I could have had a blissful life it but

owned an animal and it died and it really broke my heart you still like Buddha said you still suffer on this planet unless you see all these things see all things through the eyes of God how would you have me see this and then what you would see is not oh there's my there's my you know pet and now it's dead I lost there's my such and such and it's dead now I lost if you're staying through God's eyes you would see the person in flesh and the person's spirit you know you wouldn't see them dead and now gone

and now I'm up Creek I don't have them you would only see their they are in body there they are in soul they're still there you would still be able to communicate with him how's it going yeah kind of nice to get rid of that body wasn't you it would all be a blissful experience humans just refuse to do that because for me to get there I have to own that I believed in separation and I saw the manifestations of it and that was my choice now I'm choosing to see what bliss still looks like never lost

bliss but I forgot it now there's the past present the gift from the past that helps me heal and come to the present and as I said when you're not in the present you're being dragged back and those are those moments of almost it seems like you reacted before you could even think about it and what's really bizarre is when you start acting like a person from your past you know I thought you were gone no no just hiding you know when you regress all the way back into that behavior I've seen grown men stop

like a child I want you know like that kind of and I was like wow this one instance it was a counselor it was a counselor who was you know attending spiritual conferences being referred to it you know because they also did readings and counseling they were the scene a good advisor two people and something happened they had an argument with somebody about some money and they were they happened to be in my room at the hotel they came by to say hello or whatever and and I'm watching and they're on the phone with somebody and

they started jumping up and down over it was over some money with $20 $40 whatever I want my monies Wow digression that person right then and there was was ten or whatever they were not an adult least of all spiritual adult they they were pulled back and everybody's pulled back but they don't always do it so viscerally but you can watch that one you should be able to catch when you see yourself doing things that were that was beyond your normal centered behavior and you see yourself sometimes it'll be so

obvious that in that moment you were like a child that's not bad it's actually telling so now you know what age came up for you to work on that still is insightful which means I'm letting the past become a present if you refuse to see any of it what it's what's happening why it's happening what's going on why it's going on you're staying shut down then you are in darkness and ignorance and you're being dragged back and it's to you it's at like it's all happening again and again

it's people like you know you touch their hand they pull away that is not in the moment what happened well you touched my hand you can say to them but that's past stuff no you just did in the present what I mean is it's triggering past stuff now you can't preach this to people you can only you know see it yourself first you might say what what's that what happened and that's testing a little bit fishing a little bit to see if they're willing to go I don't know what do you think happened ah great glad

you asked then you can launch there but if you can tell they don't want any idea no part of looking deeper at what happened you have to be careful because you could shut them down even more by pursuing that when in fact no no no I'm not going there okay and you back off it's tap the whole was about love and tactfulness so people can digress that far then you have not just the present the present future well if my past present the past becomes a gift it releases the future the future becomes nothing but a

wonderful gift waiting for me to pay off the work I did in the present so the present future becomes my future based on the present my present choices to be healthy to be centered to learn to live to thrive to be loving to all this stuff instead of including patience with myself and compassion for this child that just freaked out patience compassion love bring the child forward honey are you okay well and you'll even hear it your breath that that's shortened breath half breaths that's someone who's scared and sad they need

to scream get a pillow let the kids scream or if whoever it is it could be young adult it doesn't matter what you can hear when you guys when you cry sometimes you can hear that's an eight-year-old tear that's an eight-year-old cry sound and when you do that you sometimes will cry even more that's great well I shouldn't I shouldn't be crying should know better I'm centered knock it off just cry well I'm Christ no be Christ crying if you refuse to cry then you're not very Christ it so Christ let go

these things just come to me you know yeah let it be let it go cry let it be no judgment on it how could you be Christ if you're crying you know judging yourself for crying Christ Himself cried as Jesus he cried so let it be and then my future is unlimited because the guy walking into the future doesn't have the anchors of the past I'm free so the future becomes an extension of the work I just did I describe relationships a lot you know and in different forms but one metaphor I use is there are only two kinds you can have

karmic ones and gifting ones karmic ones are the ones Jenner generally speaking where we didn't do healing work this relationships now in our space for us to deal with stuff we missed so it's almost fated to be a button-pushing relationship but there's also gifting relationships what are those I want one of those you can't mail-order it don't go and try to make a gifting relationships comm website for hookups you know that's the gifting ones can only come from the work you did successfully on the karmic ones the

gifting ones only come from the karmic ones that you handled well a way to say that although the wording we sometimes don't like is they have to be earned not earned because you're undeserving earned because of who you really are so you step back in to start acting who you really are and you're gonna see gifting relationships you know I've had people say to me well Michael you know you talk about this and that in relations and but you know you have all loving people in your audiences and you have nice people

you don't have to deal with the three-dimensional world people have said that first of all if it's true it's because I earned it see that seriously don't try to shame that don't try to say but you're lucky you don't have to deal with humans I do it all the time you think it's easy to do you know the pain of everybody every day in counseling sessions and you think it's easy when you're a spiritual teacher author target you man they slam you it's not easy but if it were mind your own

business I must have earned it so get behind me Satan get out of the way don't try to shame my deserving nice people in my life still I know yeah it's it's earned if I did it if I got this it great and if you have it great if you can say I was only married once and it was a amazing beautiful relationship give thanks you did good and pat yourself on the back not in the egotistic sense but you earned it you did well you could not have had a great partnership without having done some work somewhere been a really great

person okay now that brings up oh I see so the fact that I was married to five people three narcissism two Psychopaths you're telling me I must not have done my work no one can tell you that exactly because you might have done work in another life and not this one you might have done it and this one not another one you can't measure that all I know is if I happen to have any amount of gifting relationships I had to have had some of the consciousness to get there so if I've had bad relationships you're

saying I don't deserve no you might have had him somewhere else not in your partnerships but even if it's true that you haven't had them and even if it's true it's because you weren't in the consciousness start getting in the consciousness and you won't get there by accusing me for having good ones so maybe that's why you've had those five on another note gifting but karmic those two and the karmic ones are a challenge I wish I didn't have them I would like just gifting then you have to turn the

karmic ones into gifting how not by denying and pretending everything's peachy happy Psychopaths Christmas to you honey and you know and and let's have a wonderful narcissistic Valentine's Day I'm not saying like you dress it up with flowers and not at all but to be able to stop and breathe and say you know what I'm struggling with this relationship no doubt I'm not denying it and as I look in my life not at the person the name the look but the feeling I have in this relationship if I have a

relationship with some psychopath narcissus etc how am I feeling about it inside well powerless and hurt scared let's pretend those few really any other time in your life when you felt powerless hurt scared well there was this incident here and they don't even have to be harmful incidents well my parents they were military kids and you know my parents were military and so I was a military kid we've traveled around a lot so I never really felt like I had a right to say no I want to stay and live here just that

powerlessness could become my powerlessness in today's relationship simply the family moving can give me a psychopath today making me feel powerless it's the feelings unhealed so to be able to go back and heal my feelings which could include parents didn't ask my opinion well they couldn't they got transferred this is what life does sometimes but I need to heal my feelings about it anything I'm holding on them but also just the feelings in general I was angry that we moved all the time now let me look at that you

start doing some healing work around that I release the past but I do it in the present by staying here and doing conscious work rather than being dragged into unconscious work as I do that work I am changing in the present moment I am changing the future you can change the future jesus said it Casey Edgar Cayce said it Nostradamus said it he tells his son when he gave him the records of all these psychic predictions the only reason I've written he's done down my son the only reason I have written these

down and had given giving them to you to share with the world is so that it can change it's a terrible job to be a prophet because if the things you predicted happen it's bad if the things you predicted don't happen it's bad because you look like a complete fraud so it's a it's a terrible life to kind of have but in a good way you could say your job is to give them the things so they will change the future so why am I even telling this talk tonight because it's gonna change your future our future

and then you have children you're going to pass that even genetically not through the genes through their birth you're going to transfer a frequency into their genetics that will give them a chance for change now they're only 30 and they're getting that shift that you waited till you were 60 to have it's pretty cool well that's unfair how come they get to get it at 30 and I didn't get it till I was 50 or 60 Wow too bad you don't like it guess what come back as their kid and you'll get it at 15

well you know what do you want from me you still have it work to do you just own it just own it well I wish I would have woken up sooner great thanks for sharing now what are we going to do and if you really wish you had gotten it sooner all the more you should have commitment to changing now right now prove how badly you wish you had gotten it sooner by doing it more intensely now intensely simply meaning commitment and then you're changing the future people don't realize it people live as victims you think victims are

only the ones that act like victims and you say oh they act like such a victim everybody acts like a victim how do we know that because you actually think things happen they just happen well I can't change anything I can't change my height or my skin color okay it's in consciousness if we know who we are we would be able to snap a finger and do anything instantly beam in beam out you could you could do you know do do shifting shape-shifting you could part mountains Buddha says Jesus says etc there's nothing you couldn't do but you

have to have the consciousness of complete remembrance of who you are how do I find that it's not found in the past the past was when I separated and had all the effects of that the future is all the and remember I said the past is rooted in fear because we thought we separated were afraid of the results but the future is basically nothing but this terrifying unknown so far cuz it hasn't happened yet but you've already staged it if the past happened due to separation and I haven't healed yet in

the present the future is not looking so good I mean if one plus one was two yesterday I'm pretty sure it's still the same tomorrow if I think I'm separate and I let my past control me the way I have in my life meaning any of us if I've done that the future is no different so something unique about the present not only is it because of the past present the past gift also the present future where the present changes for the better are brought into the future your ego wants nothing different it wants the

same what happened yesterday is the same of what you can experience tomorrow and that's people live in futility it looks like people are wounded by the past but people don't realize how wounded they are about the future that might and likely will not be any different and that sounds kind of bleak but I agree with them if you don't change in the present you might not expect a better or different future so when I say to people in counseling and relationships conversations Michael what should I do in this

relationship struggling in whatever form it happens to be this job or I have this possible health issue but I really don't want to go get it checked out all I can say is whatever's happening relationship work whatever's going on can you see this continuing as is for 20 more years I've done this work for a long time and I pretty much have never heard anybody say yes Michael I have a relationship is terrible they take advantage they do this they do this and then would you like to do this 20 more years oh yeah

yeah it's great you know I would be like okay what do you want you know like come on nobody says and then you say how about 10 years no five years no three years no that's all I hear is no when people are coming to work on something and you you have to get them to own it and step in are you okay with this continuing for you use exaggerated years because it really drives it home see if you would have said the day and a half well maybe go all the big picture twenty years ten years you know no no no why

and then I'm shaving it back why because ultimately in almost every case in every hundred it might be ninety nine in every thousand nine hundred and something are gonna say no if not all of them and if they say no and you say but how about just a couple more years no three years I can't do this for three more years sometimes its overt abuse is sometimes just craziness a few more years no the answer is going to be from me then anything you don't change this year is going to be the same next year do you

understand the logic of that you just told me you refuse to have this in three years hmm let's just do some logical progression here you don't want this in ten years you know five years three years so what makes you think it won't be here next year if you don't change this year see and then there's this Oh moment yeah you're right if you just counsel them and say look fine I hear you have a problem you need to file for divorce you need to change jobs you need it's it's too much it's too abrupt you

have to help them come to the realization if I responsibility if I do not make a change today tomorrow will still be like yesterday that's what you're doing you're helping them to navigate into the awareness and you have that symptom and you don't want to get it checked out it's called progressive even if the symptom you have is not even just a physical ailment it could just be codependence codependence is clinically referred to as a progressive illness it doesn't get better you know that's weird

I was just I was so good about it for 30 years I woke up today and I'm great like I feel so centered and autonomous and interdependent that doesn't happen other than through healing so tomorrow is going to look like yesterday if I don't make a change today today doesn't literally mean this second although in each second I can make a new choice today could mean proverbial you know it could be like metaphorically and the proverbial today meaning this year this current time in my life but the last part I'm sharing is what the

present means the present means in this moment I can make a different choice so when I got somebody to say yes I get it the you know this is not going to get better if I don't make a difference now today in my life in change this year if I don't have changes in 2019 2020 is gonna look somewhat the same that's very powerful that they get that but when or when are they going to do that this year when did they get that idea and make the choice to shift it right now and that's the power of the present moment people

you know they embellish and they get all fancy about this be in the moment and like I said when we started it's really self-deceptive truly the now power of the now moment is my choice as a child of God to say no more I'm going somewhere else I made that choice when I made that choice something powerful happened I had to show up see before I was just look at what happens to me in my life that's a victim and everybody's got some of that so don't think it's just when it's extreme you're still thinking you

know that I might lose my job as though they have the power to you know and someone's gonna leave me or they left me in the day this concept of they right here right here I start to get it and as I heal my future is going to reflect my new self that I made a choice to be today the future becomes a gift a present future a present in the future a gift for tomorrow because of the choices I made today so again the power of choice why because you and I children of God we once upon a time believed we could separate on that day

in that moment when we said I wonder what it's like to be separate we became the victims of the results when you say today no more I'm changing things now I'm shifting gears you're actually taking back your power you we resign that and we assigned it to something we call the ego why so that we don't have to be responsible the devil made me do it look at the Garden of Eden hey what happened guys you know Eve you know Adams like she is the one who tempted me really well is that true Eve yeah but the serpent

tempted me everybody passes the buck you and I are Adam and Eve and we have to shift and say yeah that was me all right I went full on with that one didn't I you said don't even bite from the fruit of judgment the tree of knowledge of good and evil you told me don't even don't even taste judgment the knowledge of good and evil don't even taste the fruit of that tree man I picked every piece of fruit from that tree and its leaves i ground it up in one of those blenders that they used for you know people in your NOLA we've got

all the people was it a bullet bullet and I drank that man I drank I did a bullet you know I did it I did a judgment fast you know I I did I did where I only drink judgment and I drank it for breakfast lunch and dinner and then I made vitamins out of some of the leaves and I took those as supplements and that's what you just owned it that was me man do you have any videos of it cuz it man that was weird watch videos of it without shame and if you feel the shame own it and laugh boy Wow I was pretty nuts wasn't I you know it's

just like be able to look at and code that was kind of weird you know just like some of your days of being stoned or whatever you know it's like some of you could just laugh at things are out of control I get it but see that that's not the real you and then we release all the stuff that the ego would hold against you you still have to look at your memories you have to be willing to look at memories and things from the past to be willing but the difference is I'm doing this with God versus without

without God without the power of the universe and your choice you will be pulled back into it whether it's old addictions or whether it's feelings dragged right back to it you won't even know how or why you got there it'll feel out of control you're crying uncontrollably and you don't know what you're feeling you know gut is just messed up or like I felt when I had that memory it could even be subtle where you're excusing it well I'm angry that that person did that no I was angry at the person that did

that to me I was so terrified at that person who was screaming for their life no I remember screaming for my life it's horrible don't be afraid of it god be with me I'm going in and be able to look at these things and don't forget with your counselors your friends your sponsors people you can trust this is coming up can I talk to you about it you know bring it somewhere and the more people you can create that can help you hold healthy space the more miraculous your life becomes not because of numbers

literally but it means I must be doing better because I have more and more safe people somebody asked me about the concept of intimate friendships and I say well at unity of Sedona you know and the people online included this is a very intimate relationship I feel like I could say anything and I feel you could say anything intimate in the sense to reveal oneself intimate also means an end time mate people that I'm to mate in the British sense of friends you're my mate so the ability to say you Mar you

are my in time mates you are my friends in time even though we're sharing time on earth there's trust and that's gifting relationships will everybody always be stellar and so on maybe not all I know is if they're not I'm gonna see if it brings something up for me to look at and make into a gift and that'll give me an even better future that all making sense today can I hear an amen well geez Jesus praise Jesus thank you please take a few centering breaths how amazing it is please reach trust and

reach to the hand next to you and hold it for a moment if you're within reach of someone just hold for a moment the person could even look just like a person from your past and that's not enough reason to break away trust holding hands is to what trust it's alright let today be different than any other day heavenly father mother God in this moment and our hands reach to the people online in this moment we're holding in friendship and as we hold this space for the next half a minute to a minute we allow you and call on you

divine mother bring up anything that would be contrary to the love and safety of God if there's anything needing healed processed remembered we stand in strength and say bring it on any little thoughts percolating up it can be the gender of the person's hand I'm holding the race of the person's hand the look of the person or anything else completely unrelated to in the room and online you divine mother you bring the image of anyone that remains unhealed anything I sit in silence where all that

is unlike God will come forward so that I can then journey onwards through it to the light some of the images can be childhood it could be today yesterday it could be other lifetimes judge it not analyze it not just hold your Center I sit with you father mother God you bring forward what needs to be released to any new level we then visualize for a moment the images of all these types of people things memories even if we're not real real vivid about who they are what they're they start speeding up and coming

towards us flying right past us and they speed up more and more progressively they're not in any order of present towards the past just any image of any unhealed wound coming forward thoughts even limiting beliefs we have about ourselves faster faster faster faster faster faster and then none of them remain and we're still traveling forward towards light through darkness where there's no more vivid images if any do pop up let them continue passing by and forward into this beautiful light through this doorway into light a

journey without distance to a place we never left entering right into the way of God the Dow the light I am I am that I am every particle and part of that light is the feeling of bliss peace joy breathing in that presence breathing it in breathing as though they're just it's all like a mist of light sparkling and shimmering and I breathe that in and as I breathe it and it actually becomes me no particle of my being even inside this thing called a body remains untouched by this light and I am a light being

and the space I perceive myself to be in this beautiful space universe of light now becomes the room we're all sitting in any of us the room becomes the metaphor and we refuse to lose contact with that light but for sure we remain light beings and that means light being in and through me and if and when I ever forget this I have to choose to come back this is the I am NOT the fanfare around not that the swirling winds of life a round of illusion that pull me off center but this is the truth of Who I am father mother God from this day forward

be with me more than ever not because you were never with me I'm saying this because of my past resistance to your perfect holy presence be with me and show me how to be you think as you feel as you and perceive life as you would let me think say and do from this place of light within myself and so it is before you move about too much a nice centering breath decompress and then again all that once was the past oppressing us in and then the sound of it going good the sound of breathing into the light of who we are and a sound

of chant or tone for the next minute again [Music] keep going breathe when you need to keep going you're bringing forward into your life your body the universe you're bringing forward the sound vibration frequency consciousness of God because that's what we're thinking about as we do this [Music] [Music] no one believed that that frequency

carries into your life your glands your mind your emotions your pocketbook your friendships every aspect of life filled with that frequency because I chose it so any one of us and so it is nice job