Healing and Unhealed Healers

hi there this is michael murdad and it's time to share our friday night spiritual insights with michael murdad presentation so thanks for joining us today we're going to talk about healing and from a couple of different angles really it's it's kind of important because healing is not something most people including healers really understand but let's take a look at heart and soul healing true healing holistic healing different aspects of the concept of healing so to begin with the first thing to

really get out of the way is hopefully most people watching a presentation like this would understand by now and healers around the world would understand by now that when it comes to healing we tend to do things with the body you have surgeries you have medicines and just because those things are not as holistic as as some people think like let's say herbs or naturopathy doesn't mean really anything because all of it is dealing with things stuff three-dimensional stuff three-dimensional stuff cannot actually

heal you none of it can actually truly heal us because it's still a form it's still stuff our issues start inside in the unseen you know recesses of the being soul and mind and and our emotional self so stuff can't really fix it you can't put a band-aid on sadness right and it's the same with any ailment or issue so it's really important that we understand these things and so healing has to be on a heart and soul level then is there a purpose for the three-dimensional things well yes because first of all it's where some

of our beliefs are again internal beliefs focused on external things can give the external things power so it's i hope that's not too confusing but i'm saying that our our real issues are inside and have to be healed on the inside but we can still use the external things you know palliatively or on on say on a level that soothes us because of our beliefs so you don't want to say for example wow i'm kind of stressed today let me just do my work on my mind level and imagine feeling better which is

great to do but you might also want to get a massage the massage won't fix you but it helps represent your decision to calm down therefore it becomes a a connection to the concept of calmness therefore it works seemingly again it's a little tricky to explain all that but we just want to understand that there's a place for everything and that also means that there's a place for surgery you know some of us say oh that's not holistic enough you know what meet your beliefs at whatever level they

happen to be and if your beliefs are herbs use herbs if your beliefs are whatever you know surgery then go with surgery but just allow instead of fighting what might help you practice allowing it you know that's just a concept to kind of soak in so in a in a perfect world in a perfect situation opposite of of healing things let's go we're going to go into a lot of deep things here so bear with me but in a perfect world that is even though we're talking three-dimensional in a perfect version of a 3d world and the 3d world isn't a

perfect world it's a it's a a world of density um it's not the spirit world which would be the more perfect world but but you know in a perfect 3d version anyway of a perfect world um we would find ourselves in touch with our physical selves our spiritual selves uh emotional selves we would just be in this complete beautiful ecosystem of light and that light would be like every day i start my day connected with spirit and then all of my cells would just go and so it is every particle of my being cells emotions all of it would

say hey as so and so it is they would honor the ruler which is ourselves our our spirits in chinese medicine it's called shen and shen is kind of like your heart chakra and the heart chakra or shen is the emperor telling the entire kingdom meaning all of your systems skeletal musculature endocrine system lymphatic system all of the systems and all the cells of the body include the blood cells are basically the subjects of the kingdom they would all be doing the bidding of shen if shen is weak if your spirit is

weak if your heart and soul are weak meaning your belief systems about who you are you doubt who you are and and i mean i'm talking about you spiritually not just your your like identities like ceo and whatever um successes uh your real inner self the more you're connected then shin is powerful and then the subjects all hear this harmonious loving tone from the emperor and they all say harmoniously yes and so it is when the emperor our heart and soul is sick then the whole kingdom is sick that's kind of a paraphrase or a summary

of of chinese medicine concepts and that obviously that's a system that's you know very holistic and is thousands of years old so in that perfect 3d world a version you know a version of a perfect 3d world would be that we start our day we feel connected and then because we feel connected we just we we move into our day and all the cells are like celebrating we do a little breath we do a little yoga we have maybe some nourishing foods and everything's just kind of going wow one thing after another is just really

feeling connected like there's no hurts hates and harmonies everything's just kind of plugged in but as soon as you know something happens you know an email that's contentious somebody cuts you off on the road all of that harmony gets tempted to go off now if we stay connected to god it won't go off as easily connected to god and ourselves it won't go off so easily but the more we're disconnected from spirit the more we're disconnected from our inner selves the more others are things we rely upon so now if others

are kind of being a little bit sketchy a little bit rude they cut us off and all that now we're making a codependence with the outside world and that doesn't always go so well so keeping that in mind when when i start to go off steer steer off of center then everything because now the heart the shen is off the whole kingdom starts to become confused you start to have you know the assassinations meaning my organs start to rebel and they start to die or they start to you know destroy each other one takes nourishment that

another should have there's inharmony in the kingdom you know and that's obviously not a great thing when the ruler is off everything else is going to be off so you know um our lives are meant to be even in this 3d world our lives are meant to be one of harmony and it's kind of that concept of living in the dao living in the way of god and so we even on this planet we can feel really really great financially emotionally etc again things go off i start to feel hurt i start to feel wounded and of course on

planet earth our current wounds connect to previous wounds and it starts to create this whole cacophony of like just just inharmonious sounds just like this really yucky music of the soul instead of harmonious it's just really yucky discordant kind of energy and again that becomes what's called disease so disease is just a lack a dis of ease it's a lack of ease a lack of harmony and we all have potentials that that could stress takes us off but stress again is a reaction to my not being centered we think stress

causes us a problem stress is actually first and foremost i forgot who i am now i'm able to react to what you're doing as though it has an effect on me oh my god that's stressful to me well it isn't if i know who i am i would just say no thanks if if something is not congruent with the divine self you know hopefully that makes sense but um energy should and could flow through just through me like just just this whole energetic ecosystem you know like when you see a movie let's say a fantasy movie about angels and or

fairies and the grasses and unicorns and you know beautiful lush foliage and waterfalls that are clean and crystal clear and all you picture that that's supposed to be your body that's supposed to be this whole ecosystem not just the body body but all parts of my bodies my astral body my emotional body etc so here i am and it's like this whole beautiful thing all of a sudden the music and the movie changes and there's some sort of goblins coming in that are trying to kill the beings the unicorns and the fairies and

all that you know the music changes the sunlight darkens it's kind of like that that's what happens to us when you pick on me i start to take it seriously i take it to heart and i start losing sight of who i am it's quite sad quite strange but i start losing sight of who i am and then i start to become afraid then and afraid you know in my state of fear i start to set up defenses and when i set up these defenses i'm going to have to figure out how then okay defenses are up how then do i survive the next day now i need

offenses to kind of my next moves and all that and everything starts to get lost so now chi doesn't flow my aura doesn't just pulsate naturally my chakras don't just go you know naturally like just this really nice pulsation they shut down the aura constricts everything goes kind of weird so and i've talked about this before that's why i'm going to just be brief with it now i don't mean to take it for granted and just keep it so brief but you know i've done talks about um you can look at my dvd sets on healing

and then you'll see talks you know complete like one hour talks on healing regret and shame healing heart and soul healing through intimacy or affection or whatever there's different talks four four different talks on each dvd so you can check it out because i have healing volume one and healing volume two that's if you want more but anyway for now there's these these these ideas that we can be back in that bliss but it's not so easy once we steer off um holistic health means to approach my

wholeness from all levels so i would and not just what people would do for me but what i can do for myself so that includes um some counseling to work out the emotional issues some coaching to help the self-esteem or some massage to help the the stress and tension level chiropractic to get the spine aligned um you know whatever it's cranial sacral work or it's myofascial work or you know whatever it could be foot reflexology whatever it happens to be but it's so that i understand myself and find out where i'm locking things up

because where i lock becomes a discordant energy could be anywhere it could literally i mean it could be the back of one of your eyeballs it could be a shoulder it could be a knuckle it could be in your foot it could be in the you know energy systems your chakras your meridians etc wherever it gets locked up that region is going to start becoming inflamed inflammation creates every form of it's like an acid condition uh creates every form of of malfunction pain um cancer and so on so if we don't want this you can't be locked up anywhere how

do i prevent myself from getting locked up when you feel sick when you feel tension when you feel reactions to life and stuff you can breathe into it you can kind of move into that where's that locking up and why and then open it you know literally physiologically anatomically open you know yoga is one of the concepts is to to help open us up so we we learn to open up through things like yoga or chi kung you know and doing um exercises that kind of awaken the the body and kind of open things up massage kind of opens things and

chiropractic all these things are to open the nerves the spine the muscle the lymph get everything moving when we get like stuck you sit in a chair for example and you kind of eventually hunch everything's starting to lock up and not breathe and not flow you think well oh that's just part of sitting i just after eight hours i'll stretch for two minutes the two minutes won't counter eight hours and every day that builds and builds and builds and it isn't just my posture that's going to do

this to me even when i don't talk about issues they're locking up even when i don't tell you how i'm really feeling in a loving gentle way i'm locking up even when i get angry and do tell you what i think of you but in an angry way i'm locked up so there's so many different ways that we shut down and we lock up you know betrayals and rejections and all these kinds of things you have a family member let's say every time you're at the kitchen table you're that you do something say something

wrong you know somebody smacks you in the arm you know or slaps your hand don't stop that we don't do that at the kitchen table you think it's no big deal every time it's becoming a program there are cells in my body that will remember there are neurons in my brain that are going to remember this this something this what's this it's just slapping my hand no no i'm at the dinner table now i'm associating dinner with something painful it's just an example i'm not saying if you got slapped on the hand

once you're now going to you know um become a quadriplegic when you're you know 30 years old it's not to exaggerate at all but it's to say it all has a bearing how much of a bearing do you want it to have and that and you can say well i don't want it to have any the more you let these things linger and drag on without you taking um a role in healing and getting some care you're actually choosing to let this happen so the longer you linger let this linger it is a choice we make and that means that's

how much you're open to being in pain or sick or whatever it happens to be you're choosing that and so you know that's one of those points of responsibility the things you don't just say responsibility for behaviors the things i do not choose to go and heal i do become responsible for those things i'm responsible i'm choosing not to heal them therefore i'm playing a role in the opposite which is to be sick i'm choosing to be sick no you're not consciously saying that but when you

don't go and get counseling or let's say couples counseling and then the relationship falls apart you're actually choosing to have your relationship fall apart that's that's how it ends at the end of the day that's how it goes so i would just say you know the only remaining hope is what i call soul level healing soul level healing means to heal things at the deepest level now it kind of like means healing on the acacia record level in a sense because your soul is where the it's the house for the uh or the the

hall the chamber for the okay our akashic records our personal location records it's in the heart and soul chakra um but you know um those records have the wounds the unhealed issues and so on you know they have them there so when i do heart and soul healing i'm going to be better off but how do you do heart and soul healing almost no healer knows how holistic healing is the closest meaning someone that not only does their work on you but also encourages you to talk and connect with things or you go to several people

and get it in pieces rather than one therapist that gets all that together so holistic health is a really great thing holistic healing a great thing because it gets me on a physical level it gets me as close as you can get to heart and soul healing but you can also just learn how to do heart and soul healing my book healing the heart and soul gives you techniques like tracking and so forth uh goodbye exercises things like that just sort of get you there but i'm not trying to just sell you on the book the book is

available please check it out by all means but there are other techniques that that sort of sort of give you a version of heart and soul healing to some degree soul retrieval work helps you get you there sometimes hypnotherapy it just depends on how deep the therapist is in their skills and in their knowledge and in their understanding but if you have a person skilled let's say shamanic you know let's say a soul retrieval work or hypnotherapy anything but they don't really know much about god or believe in god or

understand spiritual principles of healing it's immediately going to limit what they can do for you so that's just kind of an aside but you have to you know if you're going to do soul level healing you have to have the courage to face your your deepest stuff you know which isn't always exciting is it you know but you you do you have to kind of be courageous and you have to remember that um what is the goal behind the healing you know it's not just to access my stuff that's what i have to do to get to

my goal but the goal is not just the accessing the stuff the goal is going to be healing it's it's going to be me remembering who i really am so there's a play on words there remembering who i am holistic means to be whole remembering who i am is has got to be a part of my becoming whole again complete again and so the idea of me remembering who i am the word remembering means to remember to reassemble the members of it your body or the to reassemble the members of your memories your consciousness so it means

to remember reassemble so for me to heal i have to reassemble myself well that's going to include reassembling oh you know yucky memories bring them back let me reassemble those and look at those again but it also means reassembling the bliss of who i am oh god how exciting how joyous and so that's quite beautiful if you think about it and so the goal is really a closer connection with spirit a closer connection with god a life a body that more closely resembles heaven on earth that's what a healed life would look

like ultimately okay so but this can seem kind of terrifying this can seem at very least inconvenient to our reality but sometimes terrifying i mean there are people that that know um things have been done to me i don't really want to think about or it could be um i've done things that i don't want to think about that's see that's splitting it's called dissociating in psychology but it's disassociating you're disconnecting with something well you know you know do we really want to stay

disconnected no i want to reassemble i want to remember and so you know we can know when healing is done and it reaches our soul we'll know because of our how our feelings and and insides change we start to feel more peace instead of hidden and shrouded and secrets and all that kind of crap you know that we use against ourselves and others all of a sudden it's like i feel like i'm just open man i just the word vulnerability is not supposed to mean terrified you start off vulnerable it's a little

scary because of your stuff but when you really evolve vulnerability means i'm vulnerable in the sense that i'm invincible i i'm vulnerable meaning i'm open but nothing can phase me because what buttons are you going to push when i have none i'm healed i you know you tease me that i'm i'm too tall or too short what does that mean to me i don't even think i'm a body i'm just a spiritual being who happens to inhabit this and then i'm one with all being so a tall person's me a short person's me

etc i don't mean to sound too philosophical but it's an example um you know people tell you uh if you don't have this diet you're gonna die and you you get through realizing instead of running with fear of all these things you realize man does not live by bread alone i live by the word of god i stay connected to god and therefore i feel okay and i'll eat what i feel drawn to but i don't feel i don't mean when i say i i mean all of us any of us when we make the right choice we're like

i just feel okay i just feel inspired and i'm here and i'm doing my best to thrive in in in eden so to speak and then you start seeing eden more and more you know the ego wants to doubt make us doubt who we are and then when we get healing done it makes us want to doubt our healing so it's like it doesn't really serve us any grand loving um forward moving kind of a purpose it just wants us to keep going backwards so when you start working on on yourself you're going to have moments in your

reassembling where some of the things you're reassembling are from clearly obviously from the past and when you do some things are going to be parts of yourself talents you have and so off but some are going to be some old memories and when those come up the ego is going to say well i see you're trying to heal i'm not real happy about that but i have an idea when you try to heal i know that you're going to be reassembling when you do i'm going to just put some almost like ghosts into some of those memories i'm

going to make them scream when they come in so all of a sudden you have this memory of somebody shaming you when you're 5 or you're doing something wrong when you're 10 stealing a piece of bubble gum when you're 10 and getting caught and all the terrible things that they said about you and it's like oh my god you start to go like into terror what you're doing is you're regressing into the past that is a you know a regression some people will say you regressed right or you're regressing you're being pulled

back to your old self the wounded self the scared self and the ego is applauding the whole time what god is saying is yes i agree that we want to reassemble and have yucky old memories come up but for a different reason the ego says i want them come up so it can scare you back into your past so that you're not living in the moment spirit saying i want them to come up so you can see them from what they are and in this moment disperse them so one is an age regression and one is a time convergence one is a regression to the

past the other is bringing the past to the present to be released thus freeing your future so it's interesting how similar these things can be but seen from two different places and so in our day and age and in the age to come healing is going to be different besides holistic healing or heart and soul healing holistic is going to more and more become heart and soul healing it's not there yet but it's getting there um i i just would presume to approach you know let me just approach it from heart and

soul healing instead of just holistic but it's fine holistic's great but at least get holistic if you can instead of just allopathic or or um surface level healing like band-aids on everything and repress all your feelings instead let me just become more holistic that's your first goal so that you can get to true healing secondly shift when you can in your beliefs and in your behaviors and your techniques to heart and soul healing such as the techniques i've taught and then that starts to kind of

dissolve so to speak in a good way it starts to dissolve and you realize i i'm becoming preventative in the greatest way i don't even have to practice holistic although that's good to do i'm just saying it's it doesn't become an obsession because it dissolves into heart and soul heart and soul becomes my preventative methods it's preventative medicine because when i learn to have a relationship with myself and see what ticks inside of me what i have not healed it's going to become an illness

when i heal it it's preventative now it's not going to become a sickness so you learn to track things down and release them before you even get sick or when you first see the first symptoms that's truly heart and soul healing and preventative medicine at its greatest preventative doesn't just mean you go for walks more often you you eat certain foods that are more nutritious and they give you more um you know oregano oil and tea is really great for your immunity eckinesia is real great for your immunity that's called

preventative but it's still substance oriented which is great it's better than nothing but imagine preventative in the consciousness that's the ultimate prevention okay so the next thing is as we move from holistic to greater preventative or heart and soul healing that also means healers are going to change so i'm just here to tell you and predict healers are going to more and more become people that create a safer more loving environment in their in their healing rooms but also in their own uh hearts and souls

they hear you they take your hand when you're talking they're not afraid to touch you know they can take your hand and say i'm really sorry to hear that and are you okay and i'm here with you if you need anything they don't just you know ka-ching you know they don't just clock you in and clock you out yeah your 10 minutes is up they're really there you know to hear you to connect with you you know at the deepest level they're evolving with their clients they they don't see you as

lesser yes you pay them because that's how they make a living they deserve it an electrician a healer an acting coach anything people do on this planet it's fine to pay them for what they do so healers can be paid but they're they're not looking at you as just dollar signs in chinese medicine or the old tradition has always been the physicians were only paid if you were healthy once you were sick they stopped getting paid which means it's a motivation if you want to get paid then you keep me

healthy which is pretty cool if you think about it that's not what would work in this country anytime soon but things are going to continue to change and the healers of today shifting into more like the healers of tomorrow they're going to use more and more advanced methods for healing including intuition you know and seeing seeing being able to see without the client having to do tracking exercises to see what's behind their issues they're going to be able to see it to sense it to intuit what's going on with

the person they can feel it they know how to read the moment they know how to feel the soul and they know how to read body language in this the whole thing so they can kind of tell what's going on even the color you happen to wear the accessories you wear it's everything speaks to them because it's holistic so the healers of tomorrow are going to be able to and there's some of them are today but you know more and more of the ones of tomorrow are going to be just more um there's more breadth more width in their

um in their tools you know what techniques they're going to be less linear instead of i do this technique or that it's really going to be whatever people ask me when i do i can see the body i can see what the where the blocks are and kind of work on people and they say you know what are you doing is that is that massage is that acupressure uh yeah i just say yeah um because it's everything all i know is i see a block and i go and i work on it it might be a touch it might be an energy palming it might be a movement of

the area it's going to be whatever i'm guided to do to open that up but you can't you can't really copyright that technique which is why i don't people say what do you do and you should call it something and certify people no i don't you know i can't or won't all i know is it's called healing that's all i know it to be it's just healing because i i see a thing and i do something with it and shift it so that's healing um you know but you know the calling it a linear name or whatever

and then telling people this is a technique it's then no longer spontaneous as much i mean it might be some but not as much spontaneous and if it's not spontaneous it's not as easily guided because it's structured i will do this and then this and then this and to me that's structured to me it's going to be what's right in any given moment now because you can't copyright it can't charge people quite the same to teach them in other words you can't do a training and a certification and licensing you can try

but you can't really easily do that because you can't pin it down you can't own it and if you can't own it it won't be something that modern healing and medicine digs because they want to be able to control it instead of saying well just practice looking and feeling and then a little this and that they want to tell you how to do it when to do it when not to do it and make sure they wrong you if you don't do it their way and charge you if you do it their way and so on it's just kind of real strange but

again that's part of the world that's changing i might add you know that's that's going to be what's going to continue changing medicine is interesting because 10 20 years ago we could say allopathic medicine is this way holistic medicine is that way it's not even locked in like that anymore it's really it really is starting to overlap nurses are more easily doing therapeutic touch reiki um you know you you look at um some of the mainstream doctors are using what they call dry needling which is

acupuncture because they're dry needles they're not you know injections of any kind they're not hypodermic needles or whatever they call them dry needles so so it's like come on guys you got to keep making up names to make things acceptable just grow up let things be cool and spiritual and holistic but that's not where they're at but it's it's it's all kind of melding where you can't as much distinguish one thing from another um yeah there's still money to be made in

medicines and so on and so on so that's a bummer but um years ago you know surgeons started incorporating music in the surgery rooms and you know so that that's just one little step years and years ago so that was at least something because they found out music was um proven to induce healing and and and increase the speed of healing so just something to think about so i believe that's going that direction now the last topic though from heart and soul holistic healing to the healers of tomorrow is are the topic of

unhealed healers now we're all made mind you in the image of god but the the common idea um is really for people you know unfortunately we're taught not just that we're one with god by some teachers but many of us most people are taught to fear god you know and that concept of being afraid of god really is the root of of it leads us to feeling alone and unhealed if we if we if for any reason distance from god we start to feel afraid and alone feeling afraid and alone even if we're good healers or spiritual teachers

feeling afraid and alone starts to make us feel like there's a wound a piece missing so that's the wounded healer or the unhealed healer the wounded healer is a common term you'll hear even in in greek mythology but the wounded healer the wounded healer really is almost everybody that does healing work um not because i'm saying we're all flawed per se but wounded healer means i'm saying the wounded healer means it's people that don't have their maintenance program in order because

the healer is still going to have issues come up all healers i mean we're human beings but if you don't have a maintenance program to continue fine-tuning you know working on yourself and fine-tuning yourself your issues your your thoughts your beliefs whatever it happens to be then the wounds start getting in the way and it becomes more evidently a wounded healer if that makes sense you know hope it does but um and this is parents are wounded healers parents can be wounded healers healers of course counselors

i've known counselors to just let their stuff totally get in the way i've known aa sponsors to totally let their stuff get in the way they're not supposed to it's against their morals their ethics it's supposed to be against their licensing but it happens all the time but if you're you know a healed healer it's not going to be as like healed meaning responsible healer it doesn't mean you're perfect just a responsible healer there's clearly people that are going to do massage with unhealed stuff going on

and then it can get in the way and get in their mind not just because you could have like sometimes uh you know a little bit of thoughts on the level of objectifying bodies even if you're a doctor and a body is taken into an er you know on a gurney or whatever and you start to feel like oh god you know that person's just way messed up i'm not gonna be able to help him that still reveals my fears therefore that's my unhealed stuff does that make me bad no it makes me human but my job is to sit when i can step aside and go

what was that i had a moment of doubt those are bodies brought before me that i'm supposed to be able to help and i got let it get the best of me that's the unhealed healer who starts to track and look within and heal themselves which is really great but some of us don't do that we repress that i didn't have that thought i didn't have that fear i didn't have that feeling we repress them and then it's going to continue taking off so unhealed healers can you know can involve uh like

i said parents counselors whatever it happens to be the archetype in greek mythology for um the unhealed healer is known as chiron chiron you have to understand greek mythology interestingly enough is multi-layered there's people that made up the mythologies people there's god goddess archetypes that made up the mythology there's even planetary bodies so there's an actual saturn type of person there or ruler let's say um also um you know poseidon or any any you know athena any of them can be a person like a ruler it

can also and is also i should say instead of can is also a planetary body um hence um astrological constellations made up of those names of gods or derivatives um you know and then there's you know so there's people there's um people of authority as well but there's planetary bodies literally bodies as well as constellations there's god's goddesses there's several layers of this but chiron in greek mythology is is thought to be a child of saturn chronos which is saturn and so it's

interesting because they don't discover i mean the greeks are saying this 3 000 years ago and yet um astronomers go hey look at that we're looking in our you know scopes and saying um telescopes and saying oh there's a planetary-like body they call it maybe a minor planet um then they're saying it's an asteroid and they call it chiron but it's interesting because to the greeks chiron already existed and it was a child of of chronos or saturn but they find chiron floating out near saturn which to me would then mean it literally

is a body probably broken off at one point from like a substantial side piece potentially of saturn so it's a child of so that would be like the metaphor but there's also people that play out the archetypes and then there's also god goddess stories multi-dimensional stories that play out the archetype as well my point is chiron is the unhealed healer now if you want to understand what an unhealed healer is you can look at the story of chiron because he's the archetype of the unhealed healer so he

is um he's born of of chronos or saturn and a um and also a c nymph so the two of them get together they mate they have this child but the child ends up being like a centaur half horse and half man he's more evolved than average centaurs the centaurs sometimes were very a little bit partying and licentious you know and just kind of just kind of uh you know just a little bit too too a base or material that's why the lower half of their bodies are beasts because they're they're materialist and um but really you know chiron's more

evolved and he looks different he doesn't seem as base or soiled and so forth he's clean he's a healer he teaches i mean it's like he's known for teaching jason if you know the story of jason and the argonauts he taught achilles he taught perseus i mean you know even even a hercules he taught so he's he's just just a centaur but yet he's a master kind of like orpheus and other great masters of greek mythology so he um but he's shamed and tossed out he's abandoned by his mother because of

the way he looks so there you go with the story of the wounded healer he's a healer and teacher but he has this oh this little sad wound you know like mom rejected me kind of a thing right so remember that's in there the story of the arthurian knights and um the famous you know uh lancelot and then some would say um percival is sort of a some in some legends as a son of of lancelot but um percival is the one who pierces the veil first of all percival pierce the bell he pierces the veil of illusion and really

helps save the kingdom but first of all when he has his initiations in life and he's supposed to save everyone he's going to be the healer of the kingdom let's call it he can't do it his first time of going through his initiations meaning when he gets the revelations he needs to wake up and help everybody he fails his test because of his mother his mother issues he's not healed so he ends up failing his test because when he's going through his tests mother issues got in the way and he fails his

test i won't go into the details so that's just what happened and so he does pass later when he works on his mother issues you have to heal the healer and so you know chiron's kind of like this he's you know he's different from other centaurs he's um he's talented his mom tosses him out he needs to heal these wounds um but at the end of the day he's living at the time of hercules he's a teacher of hercules but hercules or heracles is his original name hercules is um going through the 12

labors of hercules now uh that's a story i talk about in my dvd set called mythology you really ought to check it out because there's great stories in there but hercules they call it the 12 labors hercules is a character he's a man demigod kind of guy and you know alexander the great is said to be a descendant of hercules so um so hercules is a god man but um for various reasons he's trying to he's trying to become cleansed of his some regrets and so he's told to go through these 12 impossible

tasks each one of them is impossible 12 of them are exponentially more and more impossible so there's no way he can pass him but he does because he's so clear and devoted that number one he's connected to god and number two um he's committed he this is what mastery means he's a master he's choosing to be a master so he goes through what's called the 12 labors of hercules and the fourth labor is where he has to battle with these centaurs and so he's battling with the centaurs and

uh chiron happens to be there so he's shooting these poisoned arrows and scent and the center um chiron gets hit and now he's in pain but he's a god not just a center he's a he's he's a child of a god so he's immortal so he's now constantly in pain and can't heal because it's this poisoned arrow but he also can't die so poor thing you know he's just now he's in constant pain and it's like the gods are like going wow this poor guy you know he's just

wonderful but you know um we can't really save him we're not sure what exactly we can do to help him but what's interesting is um there's a point where chiron again he's you know symbolizing the unhealed healer but chiron sees another prometheus another greek story prometheus um is is fated because he did some things that disfavor the god gods his fate was every day he was you know strung out and strapped strapped out into the hillside or whatever a mountain and um birds would come and eat out his liver

and then it would start again the next day there's all kinds of symbolism to that it's not as weird as it sounds it's like adam's rib eve came from adam's rib right okay um you know um so it's not literally that she came from adam's rib it's like she's a part of him metaphor so uh prometheus is having his uh um innards eaten out of his liver eating out every day just ripped out and eaten devoured and you know chiron goes you know i let me take your place hell i'm in pain anyway and and this is going on and

on why should there two people be suffering isn't that amazing think about this is this is what a savior does let me help you in your pain the downside is an unhealed healer can be a rescuer oh you're in pain let me be in pain for you so understand there's two levels of the story we don't want to be the you're in pain let me take your pain and be in pain for you but we want to be helpers and so on so the lower aspect of chiron would be maybe a rescuer but the higher aspect is he's a savior so he says let me help you

and and then the gods go wow this this chiron he's just he's for real they immortalize him as the constellation sagittarius hence the the centaur um but uh in sagittarius but they immortalize them as sagittarius and um and you know no matter what's happening on down on earth chiron is aiming for the stars he's looking for higher purpose higher function so there's all kinds of really beautiful things to it but there's also deeper meanings to the moral of the story but he he represents the healer um

and incidentally chiron is part man part horse remember but it's funny because science can't figure out what chiron this thing is in space they said it's an asteroid then they called it like a you know minor planet then they said wait we think it's a comet so the latest news is it's supposed to be a comet but it's cool because it's blended of different things and they can't figure it out and look at how chiron to the greek 3000 years ago was already that thing how did they know the things that

scientists today are thinking in their brilliance um they have it all figured out you know and eventually they'll put pluto back in and they're already talking about pluto becoming a planet again it's really kind of ridiculous they shouldn't the people with the heads should not be replacing the people with the hearts they really shouldn't they should just stop talking i mean they heard there's a place for all of it mind you but when it goes excessive it's just like just stop talking

um you you made pluto not a planet not because i'm trying to defend the planet or astrology or astronomy it's it is a planet and it is relevant astrologically so you you don't just toss it out because you think such and such uh well we think it's this because it's made up of this and you know have you visited there lately have you been there you haven't landed anything on it to to so you know so don't change things till you know for sure if you want to be a scientist you're supposed to be

objective and not change things till you know for sure so don't change things till you know for sure that's my take but i digress let me get back to the other um the last thing i wanted to share is that chiron being a son of saturn and saturn being a symbol of satan uh just a symbol of satan means the challenging the planet that challenges you and tests you just like satan challenges you and tests you chiron's a son of saturn and then chiron does something remarkably good which shows us that even that which is

birthed from evil has the potential of being redeemed and that's important for all of us our own wicked behaviors at times or people we think are hopeless it can all be turned around so you know by surrendering himself and helping others you know he he just he shows that everything can be redeemed and and then the fact that he's immortalized you know that that just tells us even more it's uh we can all redeem even the darkest consciousness the darkest parts of ourselves and those parts can be seen

then by the gods as you know as honored so even my mistakes can be learned from and turned into something positive so hopefully that's given you a little bit of a healing conversation um holistic healing and how it you know what does and doesn't affect us on a bodily level how it comes from the heart and soul really not just from the the external world it's from the heart and soul it affects us our consciousness creates blocks and stagnations they become stuck energy they become you know misaligned

subluxations of the spine they become uh arthritic joints whatever anything that gets stuck um neurological blocks chemical blocks chemistry you know physiological blocks biological issues all kinds of things they're all stuckness flow is god stuck is not and yet stuck is just a non-flow stuck is not another thing it's only a flow that isn't happening so it's kind of like good and evil there is only good or stuck good which is good that isn't allowed to be you're pretending it's something else you're trying to stuff it

stick it lock it you know control it and it doesn't result in good things so um then we talked about the healers of tomorrow and how healing as a as an art and a science is is changing and that's kind of cool so hopefully if you're if you see people try to see more evolved healers but if if you're one of those healers try to get yourself to just emerge into a higher and higher order of what healing really is but keep in mind what unhealed healers are about but remember i'm not just talking about healer practitioners

parents that are on healed healers and counselors that are unhealed healers you know it could be any really anything it could be you know you're a ceo of a company you're still playing the role of the healer because you're in charge you're supposed to be helping which means healer so are you a help helper are you a healer no if you're an unhealed if you're a greedy ceo you might then be called an unhealed helper an unhealed healer so keep you know keep all that in mind and see how it might help you in

your day to day life many blessings to you and thanks for your time and for watching peace be with you and i hope you tune in again soon bye you