God and Love At No Cost

all right thank you folks for being with us and um today something just came to me in terms of of topic which is you know folks on on planet earth are under this this erroneous assumption this belief that having a better life somehow is going to cost us people think that if they go into recovery there's got to be some payment we think that if we change our lives you know somebody's gonna leave us and which is gonna it's a possibility the way a course in miracles tries to help us and comfort us through decisions like that is it slips

in these words it's kind of like saying listen if you change your life yes there might be some changes that are going to happen could be you know people exit and so on but the way it says this is nothing of value will be lost it slips in that word value because even if you think oh my god i'm changing my life and now there's a couple people that don't want to be my friends anymore that's actually a good thing you may not know it yet because you're still insane you know you're still coming from the human place

of you know dysfunction is really wonderful you know you're still coming from i'd rather have dysfunction and familiar than scary unfamiliar functionality so if i'm still okay with settling this is what i can expect you know if i'm still okay with settling any changes in my life are gonna look threatening to me it's gonna look like god i have to give something up what we don't realize is there's nothing nothing of value first of all in the universe at all anyway it's just a hologram

i mean how could it be valuable i wanna i want a hologram to hug at night it doesn't make any sense so first of all nothing in this world as buddha tried to explain as well has any value okay let's get that clear even if we don't totally get that or know that yet let's at least understand it's a possibility none of it has value okay breathe into that for a sec then none of it has value and if i can kind of wrap my mind around that wow then try this if it does have value you already own it because there's

nothing outside yourself so the rules the laws of do not such covet such you know like the ten commandments do not covet doesn't need to be elaborated on like do not covet your neighbor's goods do not cover your neighbor's wife and so on just do not covet but instead of do not how about you need not anything that could have any value in this universe is already yours but the human ego wants us to think first of all obviously we must be lacking something and not only do you lack it because it the ego makes us forget who we are

if we forget who we are then we forget that we're whole and complete once we're thinking we're you know lacking completeness then the next obvious assumption would be if i'm not complete there must be something that i need to get to complete myself usually it's people and that's you know the root of codependence as the number one addiction on the planet so first i'm i'm not one with god anymore this is the ego's programming i'm no longer one with god therefore now i'm incomplete i'm

incomplete that leads me to needing something so now i go on a quest again this is very much the way buddha put it as well now i go on a quest to find something that's going to complete me guess what nothing can so he concludes life is nothing but suffering buddha says why why is it a place of suffering i just told you because you think you're missing something you go looking for it and nothing can bring it so you're gonna now suffer because you're frustrated where's my completion and then he says

not only will you find that nothing can complete you which makes you miserable occasionally you're going to find things that you think do make you more complete and that's just on borrowed time because it's just a matter of time before you realize it didn't work now you're upset anyway so if you don't find something that can falsely complete you you're going to be upset and if you do find it it won't last so you're still going to be upset so his conclusion life sucks and then you die he actually

didn't say it that way so wow it's like i always joke and say you know buddha's not exactly a motivational counselor is it's not like you know i mean this dude's like a bummer you know uh let me just tell you uh you know life is but suffering oh well wow you know it takes a really courageous soul to be able to hear something like that because we like to hear stuff that strokes our ego all the time tell me just tell me i'm wonderful you know you want the support from the highest of heavens

to say yet no no this world can offer you something if it's true that this world can offer you something it means you're not already complete which then affirms that god can create an incomplete being and if we create like ourselves then god itself is incomplete so it's challenging to hear stuff like this but to be able to wrap our mind around it and still say it but it's still true nothing in this world even exists really but even if i think it does do i want to affirm that i need it to complete me

or do i want to affirm i'm already complete so think about that because this world is like you know teaching us and constantly programming us everything you see magazines in the checkout stand 10 things you don't have 10 things you need to get from your partner right it's constant i mean all of it if the magazine said here's an article you already have everything you need it means you don't have to buy that magazine now who's going to sell you on that that that's terrible marketing it's called the truth the truth need not

have marketing it's just just it's there so maybe they could still be in business but talk about the 10 joys of surrender the five principles of integrity you know talking to us about the life we're going into rather than the one that they keep wanting to program us into believing we don't have it's still you can still have a magazine but you're going to be talking about where we're going the perks of getting there instead of the constant you know problems so one of the the to me one of the

most it's an unconscious pattern but it's prevalent it's everywhere is that if we are to receive anything there's got to be a price for it so the ego has to convince us we're missing something before it can make us think there's value in going and looking for something so the counter to that is i am as god created me i remain as god created me i am as god created me and god created me in its image so i'm already a complete and whole person so you know the world tries to teach us the opposite it says

not only do you not have things you're gonna need them and in your needing them you better get prepared because there's going to be a big price for it now why would the eagle be able to convince you and i that there's a huge price for our good well that's that's what neediness is all about if you're not whole complete if you're not happy oh see the ego would rather you just be miserable but when you start to say you know what i've reached a place in my life where i can't settle anymore

see first you don't care you don't know that you're missing anything or you think it's normal to be all messed up that's where the ego wants you to be it doesn't want people that question misery but when you get to a place of saying you know what this just isn't enough anymore i can't just marry again somebody my mother tells me i should marry i can't stay married if i'm hurting and miserable i don't want to stay sick i think i'm going to get in a health regimen whatever it is

you start to question the ego wants you not to question but if you're going to then it says fine beloved which you're not fine beloved you know i'm glad you're starting to ask i've been wanting you to improve your life which it doesn't it's gonna say you know but there's a problem oh god you know health foods are more expensive than junk foods and it starts working you you know this is gonna from the very first thought you have to improve your life you know i don't like the way my child

is being programmed with stuff with their partner oh you know divorce and they could get they could win the kid and it's gonna be expensive do you have money do you have a job that could cover oh i don't so i'll just stay or like i said starting right out the gate health products you know i've seen people not kidding here i've seen people in this town go to a particular healer in the region and more than one two three four five people that i've known to go to this person every time leaving their office with a thousand

dollars worth of supplements you know what a funeral's cheaper okay just die save some money you know um my god a thousand dollars worth of why so much why because you're so messed up and you're gonna need this and you need this to take the edge off of that and then you're gonna need this to really boost that and it's nutty but the more i have to pay the more i got convinced that i need it the more i got convinced that i need it the more i'm convinced that i don't already have it i'm not saying supplements are a problem

i'm saying look at how far the pendulum swings look how intent people are because that's how they think that there's a problem that you're not complete as you are you could go to a prayer chaplain who will affirm your completeness it's free do you think they have typically as long of a waiting line as the people selling thousand dollars worth of products they don't it can't be it just can't be that free prayer free spiritual counseling free hands on healing you know you know that that rule people live by what if

it's free it can't really be valuable oh i'm sorry you can also pay the prayer chaplains a thousand dollars if that's what's going to get your belief there then fine but this is how insane this has all become we're we're putting a value on things and we're only convinced that things are of value because again how desperately were programmed that we're broken and we need something you can't convince people to spend that much money on false healing techniques if they really knew who they were you

have to keep the convincing going that we're broken and it's going to be a long trip ahead when people say to you oh you know you have i'm sorry you have clinically you've got this psych issue psychological issue and you know it's incurable bam or some of them yeah this there's some psych issues chemical imbalances they they can't but oh it's going to take a long time see this world wants you to think it's going to be expensive it's going to take a lot of money or it's going to take a lot of time or

it's hopeless in general and we take that on and it becomes this this weight on us you know this burden on our shoulders like really god that's terrible yeah that's incurable if it ever ever cancer included ever got cured once in the history of man it should not be allowed to be called incurable if it even got healed once it should be illegal to call it incurable because that's not accurate give people hope give people the idea that oh no this is curable and and say like when people say to me about psych issues

oh michael i'm having to go on you know ritalin or i'm having to go on lithium or whatever it happens to be my doctor said it's incurable i don't counter contradict the counselor their therapist their doctor what i say is i understand and that's where they're coming from and that might be possible it's also possible that it is curable here's what i would suggest take the meds to respect the illusion and start getting to know who you are and heal inside what made you need the meds one day you're going to

find look at this it's gone you know let's start tapering off a little bit of the medicine see to confirm that i've seen it happen quite often where things that were said to be incurable take care of yourself do your inner healing don't push the envelope don't jump off a cliff and expect god to catch you don't say you know heard this talk about positive thinking i think i'll go off all my meds now no keep them for a bit i always i would if i were you i would think of it for now this is like a crutch

for now but eventually when my legs healed i'll set down the crutch work on the inner self that's where the healing has to happen anyway work on the inner self and the diseases and the labels they start to fall away even psych issues believe it or not so this world wants to say you know look you it's going to be very expensive for you to heal it's going to be very expensive for you to change your life and again it's very sad but that's where the money is in keeping people broke that's where the

money is it's in it's enabling this whole pattern however underneath it all why would i even buy into that if i really knew who i was so i'm not shaming the people that try to program us we need to look at ourselves and say wait a minute i think i'm going to stop believing that i'm broken i think i'm going to stop believing that that everybody else in the world is right and i'm wrong so i have to start nurturing this this this sense of value that's the key i must find my value so it's like when i was a kid i remember

i i think it was like my first house no credit so the bank can go okay this is the paperwork okay uh middle initial okay i do have your driver's license okay so we're working on this deal for you for this house um yeah you we can get you this house oh wow how cool and then i'm sitting there you know this is great oh yeah let's see you just sign here initial it's gonna be at fourteen percent you know and i'm like okay why would they do that why would they charge me 14 because they can because really what they're saying on

the psychological spiritual level is you don't have enough credit which is saying you don't have enough value so we get to take from you we'll milk it because you lack an awareness of who you really are therefore you haven't known how to nurture credit which is a worldly version of value so they can they basically you know what this is now it's a bargain we're going to give you a false sense of value which is called a house that you can now develop credit because you own a house i need to have this inside

because 10 years later i bought another place and i still was paying 12 this time around it's like because i didn't understand the game that was being played when you step up and say actually i need it to be down here at six percent or whatever the the fair market might be do you think you can walk in there to a bank shaking and uncertain and they'll go this person's gonna want six percent instead of 12 no when they see and feel and sense your uncertainty they're going to go after it why because they can but

you and i are half the culprits not knowing and owning who we are makes us vulnerable to the predators of life and we do this in in bargaining with relationships and this is a sad one because we actually bargain the same way in relationships i'll come back to that in just a sec but you know this is like this ridiculous belief system that we pick up we go you know i don't have credit so i guess i gotta sign for 14 oh you know money doesn't grow on trees so i have to work more hours well wait a minute we're the ones who

imagine trees into existence why can't we imagine that money is growing on them and nobody's questioning the rules you can question the rules you can be the one that got cured for such and such you can be somebody who goes you know they say money doesn't grow on tree but trees but i'm the one who's co-creating trees so i'm gonna manifest and you know you go out and who knows you know somebody some 20 bill got blown off you know and it's floating around and lands on a tree and it's your tree i

mean take a picture of that you know a meme or something you know it's you know money doesn't grow on trees lies look you know be somebody that says it's changing or cut off a couple branches sell them as firewood you find money does grow on trees it's all perspective in mythologies and in ancient times when people still believed in the power of gods and goddesses which was what we are they they believed money could grow on trees they would pray for a god or a goddess to provide something for them

but human beings have gotten so not just programmed to being broken we've become addicted to it and that's harsh stuff addicted to it here's what i mentioned this in a talk yesterday somewhere but this is one of the funniest most absurd things of all what can we learn about the afterlife let's take a look at that real quick when we die we know in in mythologies of all around the world mind you mythologies when we die we go into the underworld meaning the astral plane but we go into the underworld

we're in the middle world there's heaven the middle world and the underworld so we go to some degree we have to go into the deepest darkest parts of ourselves to clear things find out what we're needing to work on so in using the mythological kind of pictures or descriptions you die you go to the other side so you have to go through this pro i mean just that you have to go through hell before you get to heaven who decided that who made up that rule you got to go through hell first that's what all the ancient mythologies say

even if you're going to become a greater human being like a more like a hercules he had to go through the tests of hell before he could prove himself to be a divine being a semi-divine being or whatever so even that program got to go through hell before heaven who made these rules up is that really the way god designed it and no god did not we did why because we're disturbed we forgot that we're holy sacred beings so we settle for less than holy sacred experiences honestly so this is kind of weird we

we die we go to the other side and to get from the world of the living to the world of the dead or from earth to the you know subconscious realms you're supposed to cross a river the river sticks well how do you do that well you pay the ferryman to take you across wait a minute i'm going to pay you to go to hell i mean this doesn't make any sense i don't want to go to hell oh then you're going to be one of the lost souls wandering the planet you have to come through hell to get to higher realms but i got

to pay for it do you know that's the origins of being buried with pennies on your eyes or coins on your eyes so you can pay the ferrymen and if you didn't like somebody don't put coins on their eyes that way they get lost i mean this is weird it's just weird you thought it was enough to stay in a relationship for 20 years still waiting for happiness it's the same paying i'm paying with my mind i'm paying with the burden on my shoulders my back my my pocketbook i'm staying married because

my parents want me to stay married i'm staying married because my religion says i'm supposed to stay married and all you're doing is writing checks to the ferrymen and staying in hell someone's got to be able to break the rules the rules of hades you know is is the severus that you've got this these critters these beasts that are going to destroy you they allow you into hell there's another funny one do you know it's easy to get into hell but it's hard to get out it should be the other way around it's

supposed to be why would holy beings end up in hell that should be the anomaly instead this is easy getting out is impossible and in the mythologies of you know throughout history there are only a few beings that ever could pull that off orpheus for example you know he plays music that that so deep so moving that he was able to be given permission to exit hell but if you think about it he was raising his vibration through music that allowed him to come out of hell you want to get out of hell don't bargain with demons you want to get out

of marriages don't bargain with demons being your partners being your lawyers or whatever and i'm not just like encouraging ending relations just a metaphor another example would be like you know my own human father this was a brilliant thought it was just brilliant he would say michael give me my belt so he can beat me do i look like an idiot dad why would i go get your belt so you can beat me you go get it because by the time you get it and get back maybe you'll burn off some rage you know like dude seriously go get me

my belt oh okay that doesn't make any sense and this world does this constantly to us you've got to pay and pay again and pay what do you think karma is and reincarnation some people i know they're like oh you know i've had beautiful lifetimes and i can't wait to come back and and fairyland this time you know whatever it wait till you find out what you have to pay wait till you find out you're gonna get to come back as the next artist of artists you're going to be the new beatles of the new

leonardo da vinci oh i can't wait you forgot to read the contract that for the first 20 years it's going to be hell you've got to deal with psycho parents and that's going to break you enough to make you even a more sensitive artist and then you'll become the new beatles or leonardo da vinci i got to tell you man when you're on the other side and they're showing you this it looks easy because you know a day you know it's just like a nothingness right the other side is like it looks like a day but it could be a

thousand years on the other side there's no time so it looks like it's just a day oh wait a minute so i get to produce all this creative beautiful energy and i just have to put up with annoying family members for a few years i can do that as soon as you start coming through the birth canal the density and the time starts you start seeing your watch show you the real amount of time things are going to be and that's why there's birth pain because the kids are grabbing the pelvic bone no no i'm not going in there i

changed my mind you know and it's like you know and your angels are going late make like a baby and head out no so you know and you're like no no feet on the lower pelvic bones you know and the hands on the other it's like it's it's frightening when you feel the difference vibrationally you know one minute just floating you know the embryonic fluid you know and the beautiful little oh isn't that lovely you know and it's getting to be time the actual process is like what are you guys doing to me

wait what's this i was just floating i was chilling you know and now you're like pushing and there's pain and everything the mother's feeling is coming through the umbilical cord so i'm getting filled with all kind of like cortisol and adrenaline and all kinds what are you doing mom chill no no i gotta you know and and the kids going through all this like this is nuts welcome to earth right they should just have a sign as you're coming through the birth canal you know welcome to earth because

it's it's a place where we think we're incomplete and mind you what is completion it's god god is of great value isn't it the pearl of great price god is of great value so if the ego can convince you that you're missing god it now helped you establish the value of what it's going to sell you as a supplement if god is important you must want it badly and i can sell it to you the ego can't since the ego knows nothing of god the ego is nothing but fear so it knows nothing of love and so you know here it goes we're

getting sucked into buying it's like one great philosopher once said in in ancient greece you know he walks into the marketplace and says i didn't know there were so many things on the planet that i don't need you know what you buy should be a reflection of what you are not what you think it's gonna give you if i get a partnership or if i buy a crystal necklace it should be reflecting who i am not what i need subtle difference but huge seems like a fine line but man a huge difference so some of us will even bargain and pay by

getting into a relationship just for affection see but when you found that person so much love so much connection so much whatever wow we're getting together a lot of times we don't realize you're getting together with someone who is abusive you don't know that yet because part of the price you're paying is amnesia because if you knew what you were doing there's no way you would marry this person but you don't know because you said i want affection in my life so now a contract hits your desk this is

a person you're going to meet today and you sign before you can think about it because all you know is they're going to give you affection all i knew was i could i was going to get a house at 14 interest the house seemed of value for various reasons some healthy some not healthy the house i wanted it badly enough that i sold myself at 14 is that making sense i've seen people get into relationships with with people basically that they're not going to give them it's a pseudo contract it's a game they're going to

seem it's like the song only women bleed that song saying you know that this woman is willing to be miserable be abused just for the pseudo sense of affection you know in the song the way she's singing out just just even give me an ounce of attention because she forgot who she is and she's starving for affection and he can the more a person sees they've got you that they've got control over you the more they're gonna take and it's not always verbal it's an energy and i've seen this happen many many many

times the more someone thinks you need them the more they can get away with it's these unconscious patterns and bargaining you know games that we get into so some quick examples that we all get into let's say for example when you eat something and say you know um that is to say we assume we're going to gain weight if we eat something that we really like the taste of you know i shouldn't be eating this kind of an attitude we think this is all in the illusion these are assumptions we make we assume we're going to gain weight if

we eat anything that tastes good there must be a price to pay i've seen people do this where they oh that's delicious uh oh what's in it you know this can't be one of the gluten-free things right this has to be something that's now i'm going to have a headache tomorrow right or i've seen people oh god i'm really in the mood for some coffee oh now i'm not going to sleep tonight see there's a price you're going to pay for having coffee because you wanted coffee why does there have to be a price

i know it's seemingly the law in this world but we need to stop obeying it you're really in the mood for some sips of coffee have them enjoy them and don't allow the there you'll have hell to pay is the same they'll be hell to pay i shouldn't be eating this i know i'm going to gain weight i should just glue this right to my hips because that's where it's going to go everybody thinks there's a price to pay you know uh if i have a cigarette i'm i'm absolutely i'm going to get cancer

who says well cigarettes are cancer cause no you're a god goddess nothing has power over you these are the things we made up because you can't enjoy a cigarette without thinking you're gonna get you know ill you'll go broke if you don't work enough i can't stop working i have to oh i can't even retire why not well i don't make enough on social security that's this world again you're not valuable enough to be able to retire it's kind of odd so just you know sign right here

you're not valuable enough so keep working it doesn't make sense spiritually but this is the world we set up you can't get to heaven without going through hell that's been sung it's in poems it's in belief systems but your mother tells us these kinds of things um you can't be enlightened without going through a thousand lifetimes i mean that's spiritual law they call it it's not spiritual if it has any limitation so it's not spiritual law it's religious law you have to incarnate again

i want to see god i want to go home oh okay well that's a fine ambition we'll just come over here and sign right here it'll only be about three thousand lifetimes really that's fourteen percent sign right here three thousand lifetimes okay first of all now you know what i just signed i just signed my death warrant because now i'm committing to 3 000 lifetimes i'm already miserable just the fact that i signed that think about this these aren't 3 000 lifetimes knowing that i just signed

something that my soul knows is not true here and now i can have and i can be anything so buddha was saying it does not take thousands of lifetimes you can do it in one lifetime and he he broke the rules of traditional religion of his time and space region and he came out of that and said i'm starting my own thought system we can just know and be and have right here just know your value when somebody's a multi-millionaire and you say god they just make so much money and you find even fault with these people

how can they just make so much money i'm losing money because there's a part of them that thinks believes it's easy you may not like their spiritual beliefs then be the first multi-millionaire billionaire that has really deep spiritual conviction but this world teaches us you cannot be prosperous and spiritual oh you're getting on the spiritual path huh okay you want me to take all your possessions you're gonna wait till somebody else does because you have to be broke you know laws you know all the rules all

the vows of chastity and celibacy and you know being poor that's what this world tries to tell us we have to be the light workers to say no i'm deserving of anything if spirituality has taught me anything it's taught me that i can be anything and have anything prosperity oh that naughty word what is it with people and that's not spiritual people it's religious people what is it about them that tells you tells them to tell you that if you're going to be spiritual you can't have sex or money like it's

the weirdest thing it's like wow what you're already in hell my friend like you know you're just so like serious and finding and who are these people why are they like that because that's exactly the face of the ego fault finding right never being able because the ego can't find goodness in itself so it can't see goodness in you and we keep buying into this oh you can't be intimate be careful someone's going to get pregnant or pass an std you can't you can't be at peace with

that you can't have money without thinking you've done something wrong because money's not of god you know because money is the root of all evil no it isn't believing in evil is the root of all evil passing this kind of doctrine is the root of all evil making people afraid and making people forget who they are and when i say who you are remember there's two parts of that coin who you are automatically starts to provide what you deserve don't forget that who i am the i am is a creator the i am god is a

creator so who i am starts to determine what i have and what i deserve so if i don't see that i'm deserving much in my life there must be something wrong with who i think i am i don't mean there's something wrong with god it's something a little off in god that i think i am i have to start tapping into locking into the god i am and if you start to say well i don't know if even god wants me to be prosperous then use metaphors like if there were a child sitting here and and you know god was telling you how

to raise the child would god actually tell you now tell the child don't ever have anything don't have money don't have success don't have a good car tell the child right now could you could you tell the kid hey and then when you get a car it's going to drive like this on the freeway just you know because one of the wheels is made out of a block of wood you know like seriously is that what you teach a kid oh you're so look how bright your your skin's so soft and you smile and look at the

twinkle in your eyes that'll be gone soon you know because you know by the time they get to be whatever age and they date oh that's when the sparkle starts disappearing the skin a few years after that starts to wrinkle up and so on is that what you teach a kid no then why do you tell yourself that why would we allow the voice of the ego to convince us that we're so screwed up and then we have to pay so dearly for anything good you know if you want to look better here's it's going to take a lot of work

you know it's it's like i want to look younger oh well there's ways to do that what we'll do is we'll slice open your face and we'll pull the skin back to your lower lumbar and stitch it in there you know all the way back and over and then whoa i mean you know you're now wow look all those things that were there are gone except you're like you know you know you have to eat through a straw because your lips and mouth don't you don't work [Laughter] that's weird isn't it but

because you have to pay the price you can't you can't be happy you have to get everything fixed and worked on you need all kinds of a crew like in football there used to be a coach like a vince lombardi and he might have an assistant or two now they have like 15. it's the weirdest thing this world keeps telling us we need more that guy lombardi didn't seem to have a problem you know he kept winning over and over super bowls he was this genius how come he didn't have 15 people doing it all apparently yeah i know the game

might have changed a little you know but at the same time people's the more we forget our power the more we think we need all kinds of stuff from this world i need 15 coaches i need you know a team of whatever there's practicality to it but then it's the neediness that's off there's nothing wrong with having a secretarial assistant if that's what you want there's nothing wrong with having a chiropractor if that's what you need today i'm talking about it spinning out of control

where i need i need to date not once i need constant data i need to be married but if that doesn't work i need 15 marriages i need to control my kids they need to get straight a's or i look bad all of that is spinning out of control i need to go i need to live at the gym because it's never enough and it's like god where's balance you know the word balance humans try to find it through their own coercion but but balance is supposed to come from feeling harmony if i feel harmony inside my life starts to look naturally

balanced and you can't convince me of anything else you can't convince me that you know you need one more thing you got to have one more thing you're not having enough you're not enough there are religions that tell us you know a private session i had within the last couple of days someone was talking to me about how one of their family members is so caught up into guilt and shaming themselves i'm never enough i'm so guilty you can't be guilty and believe god loves you guilt means that you're unlovable

and everything you do is wrong therefore you feel guilty well when you tap into the presence of god all that can be erased but you have to give permission you can't just say god fix all my belief systems if you're not willing for them to be lifted out and replaced with something else there's no room in the inn there's no room for something new as the old uh you know eastern tradition you know you try to fill that pot but it's it's too full already there's no room for anything new we think you know we even get sick

as a form of this this because we're getting tired of not being enough it wears us down you know and of course there's also the sensitivity of so many people on this planet believe that they're unlovable and if you're a counselor social worker etc we even get tired working on so many people with those belief systems because you do some work as a social worker a counselor healer you do some work and people revert to their old patterns so often it gets tiring it gets old so even the healers take take a hit

and deep down there's all this i'm flawed and i'm undeserving of anything good but if i do get anything good it must be quite expensive and that's the layout of the land for this planet someone's got to change it someone's got to say no i don't think that's the way it is i think we can have anything then start creating miracles in your life and when you do be able to say yes see gratitude isn't just like oh thank you god for giving me this meager such and such this is like i knew it

i do have value oh my god make it proof that the other rules are lies grab hold of it when you give thanks do it with excitement because you said no you broke the rules and that's a good thing you said no i just don't buy into any of this you know um all the heaviness the karma the lifetimes peace now i'm safe i'm loved in the here and now in the present here and now i got it and i'm going to still have doubts so what i need to do is constantly start my day with god you show me you show me my value it's an interesting

thing to say god you show me my value because god's going to be like well this is amazing you're going to allow me really because the first thing i'm going to do is change the way you feel about yourself even if it's one ounce and even if it's only for 10 seconds there'll be this and it'll quickly pass for some others it'll stick forever but there's this little epiphany this little revelation of wow i have value that's what we're looking for guys allowing god to show us who we really

are perfect but remember the who you are who i am also becomes what do i deserve on a 0 to 10 scale if you believe the i am in you as a six then all you can manifest are sixes what's worse though is that some of the people you'll meet will seem like nines but all they needed to do was make you think they were a nine and you let it fly in under the radar and you're married to six you went to work for a three oh this company oh yeah we we totally empower the employees we give you days off times often this and that

somebody was having a session the other day and told me how their company looked for ways to not pay them for sick leave when they got covered why would you have a business that's a multi-million dollar business why would you look for ways to screw these people under why would you look why would you start let's find a way the paperwork check with our lawyers the time you put into that you could have paid them oh no because that would affirm their value you see it's just nutty that would affirm their value

why is that a problem because i don't have my own value i can't give them theirs then i'm going to get mad at them so i have to strip away their value so i feel everything so pathetic see nobody nobody revealing to me that i'm off to show me that i'm thinking low of myself and that i might want to change that so no let's keep everybody disempowered it's kind of weird so instead okay who i am will determine what i deserve is that clear if i'm one with god i get the gifts of god but if my oneness is rated at a

three instead of a nine i'm probably going to be manifesting a lot of three incidences and people and when they look like nines i better be careful because if i'm at a three and i meet someone that seems to be a nine it can very much be a bargaining hey um you're interested in a nine because i'm a nine i notice you're only a three even on an average that takes us up to a six you know but you know what you're only a three and i'm a nine yeah i think i'm going to do it i think i'm going to lower myself to dating you

because you know that'll take me down a few notches but that's just the kind of wonderful person i am you a successful person like me really like but i'm i'm already i'm flawed i'm insecure i've already done naughty things in my life you would spend time with me oh my god i'll do anything to have you a nine drop yourself to a six on my behalf then you say i do and there's hell to pay and it's going to happen over time you're going to go oh god i don't remember this in the fine you

know in the in the contract read the fine print and i will never like you and i'll never stay faithful to you and i'll never do what you want we'll go to my movies eat my food etc and you won't question it because if you do you're gonna drop back to a three you're lucky to have me so just grin and bear it that's what we do on this planet we go and have you know procedures we don't need i don't mean that they're bad or anything i'm talking about doing what we don't need

we spend more hours in the gym than we really want to to bargain and then you end up pulling a muscle oh i can't work out now you didn't want to and part of you knew you didn't want to do this 24 7. so you ripped a muscle but all that was was i'm out of that now i mean that's all you're doing oh you know my partner you know that that nine that's really a you know not a nine pretended to be you know they died unfortunately where inside you're like thank you god you know all you can hope for is an insurance

policy um it's so twisted so think about this in your own life who's who's the ferryman you know in your life who's the who's the bargaining in your life is it the job don't go quit tomorrow but just rethink this i'm working a job that's a three oh woe is me no no if your job's a three you were a three how dare you oh i'm sorry i'm wrong you're a ten and it's just the world is screwed up and only gives you a three it must have seen you coming we're a three you you're a three two

you're attracted to it it's this natural law of attraction so if you want to change it own it first and then change it i can see that i've been living a life of a three however i want a nine how do i get there by complaining a lot that doesn't seem to help so what am i gonna do i need to become a nine how's that gonna happen stop settling for three work on your inner self heal old wounds and remember that technique of forgiveness towards yourself not just others and you're freeing yourself

from all the old numbers you might have been in the past you're free you know you're going to a new level of consciousness and when you do so because we're all connected when you change your own vibe you're actually giving us all an infusion of that new vibe that you're drawing in when you stay small you're also infusing us with small so we we rise together or we fall together i'm not saying it's your job to fix everyone but it is your job to heal yourself and the good news is when you do the the

whole grading curve it lifts us all a little higher and uh and i know sometimes it seems like very hard work i get that but if not us who and if not now then when i have some lyrics i'm going to share with you from a song you know just try to hear how beautiful these words are this world wants everything but beauty everything but love and when i say this world i'm talking about the ego-based world not god's reality that's hidden behind this one that but we were brought up wait till your father gets home

you know do you understand that was not the divine mother the divine mother says wait just wait until the day you return home with the father mother god that's the mother saying divine the lunatic mother wait till your father gets home which is already you should sit there as a kid going why are you projecting on to him you're the one who's having issues with me let's talk it out no let's make him the bad guy that's also disturbing stuff right so this world just very very strange all that enforces guilt and limitation

in us it has to be looked at just really honestly looked at and questioned this is not what i believe god to be so choose to change it lyrics a song called spirit by earth wind and fire many years has passed and a day we walk in the path that leads to the light shining down on this great beyond thoughts ignite us let love unite us then turn your face to the wind and taste his love within you'll find a friend everlasting love you can depend every time you smile you bless a child our spirits perpetuate and our spirits meditate love and faith

we must help our brothers see that the light is he shining on you and me and the land he gave roads we must pave looking through each other's eyes humanity will arise in love and then our spirits they will be won cool let's close our eyes for just a moment please just nicely go right into that [Applause] not into a deep dark process around the following but rather an objective clear perception i can see very clearly how i have bargained myself at times i can see where i paid much more interest on something

than i needed to because i didn't have the credit which is a symbol of my value the bank wasn't going to give me my value i am where have i bargained i stayed in a relationship that wasn't the healthiest but so that i could have a relationship so that i could have a person someone to get close to someone that would occasionally give me affection i've been on diets that didn't really serve me in my best interests because i wanted something from it look at all the different ways we bargained we've gone into confessionals in church

in in these booths to confess our sins so that we can feel better we're bargaining i'll tell you my sins if you could just tell me there's some hope for me and the hope is found in my purity my innocence my perfect innocence all the different ways i have coped and bargained and i'm choosing to surrender those today to a new level not just the ways i have i'm also looking at anything i'm still doing that i'm bargaining see it and give it up and there's another alternative i'm questioning the the power

the validity of my previous beliefs about myself and others i've judged myself as flawed that dropped my vibration down to low enough to interact and attract other people of that same caliber even if i don't remember doing it and even if i don't want to think that i would do such a thing i at least own that it's a possibility that i played a part in settling in my life and today i'm saying no more instead i choose god's will god's opinions god's beliefs god's knowing of who i am and what i deserve remember

that what i deserve is a natural outcropping manifesting from who i am my outer life of what i deserve is gonna change not by me manipulating the outside which is what the world tells you to do changing your heart and soul i really am good not because i think so because it's impossible for me to be anything but pure innocent goodness i am love joy peace oneness prosperity i am the father mother god my job is simply to peel away all that isn't thinking it's there to give up and surrender and heal all

falsehoods about this topic and welcome in the new my cup emptied my cup filled until it's running over and as soon as my cup's running over that's when i really know to give thanks how do i know when my cup's running over when i feel and know that i'm such a good person that every day i look at the end of the day i look at my life and know someone was positively affected by my presence when an angel appears to someone usually those people talk about it like it's an incredible miracle why does it have to be winged an

angel illumi a luminous angel why can't it be you and me let's make that kind of a difference this isn't abstract it's practical to be the god i would want to see in this world stop telling god to change things be the change bring more love more light when you can't recognize oops today i must be at a two today i must mind my faith my my love for myself it's really wavering no problem don't judge it just recognize the numbers down would i like to raise it today not yet own it if you want to be

miserable for an extra hour or day or week just own it so that you're still in the power of responsibility but then because you own that you can say on another day i'm ready time to wake up snap to it and go out and have a great day and recognize even my worst days cannot control me i still bounce back welcome in the luminous presence of love and god and i become that presence and i bring it to the world and make a difference again that's how we change this world into what it's really meant to have been it

won't be through election it won't be through passing a bill it won't be by finding a cure to a particular illness it has to happen in consciousness feel a sense of gratitude breathe in a few times really like wow you know not just my that was a nice talk instead wow it doesn't because it doesn't have to be because of what i've said it's what you got out of it so wow find that place inside if you can't find it it means your soul is in a state of depression which is understandable on this planet

but would you like something else find that sense of oh man this really speaks to my soul he said i am and then what i am determines what's created in my life i totally get that i want the i am of god instead of the i am not of ego make that worthwhile make that exciting wow this this new lease on life finding god should at least be as exciting as winning the lottery how come people jump and dance and smile and when they win the lottery how come we don't have that much verve about finding god everybody's like oh i'm on a spiritual

path now i don't eat anything with taste you know and i don't date and if i do i pick people apart quickly as possible so i can end it you know that's that's this concept of human existence where is this wow to even date somebody if you don't like him while you're dating him and if you do like him let him know man this is great i love the hug the connection i love our our laughter i love our sense of whatever you know things we jive with this is really cool find the zeal to complement if you if you have children and you love

things they do let them know not just oh hi oh piece of art what grade did you get oh okay that's nice i mean it's a lottery every moment is a potential lottery inside human heads don't get that human souls do but we live too much from the human and the head that everything's so stoic and so depressed souls are looking for a reason to be free and dense and twirl and laugh life is supposed to be colorful not the way it looks emotionally the way it looks on this planet people only get excited when their ego

gets something and then it's a temporary stimulus excitement oh look i'm dating oh my god wow you look great what have you been doing oh i'm dating so i haven't eaten in six weeks because i want to look really good why then as soon as there's some commitment you know just if this is what you are and you like being relaxed have your body be relaxed you know do you really have to go back to corsets and whatever whatnot you can't breathe you know it doesn't make sense no offense i mean i'm just being silly

but be really find god and be happy it's the good news of the lord it's called it's not the stoic news of the lord good news like wow find that wow thank you so much guys appreciate everything you're you're sharing with us and that you're open to the light of god surrounds us we are wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is absolutely so it is thank you god bless bye-bye