Forgiveness: When All Else Fails

part of the goal and the theme today is forgiveness but whenever I talk about forgiveness lots of people go oh god yes this is gonna be good I want to make it clear that you know a lot of people don't even understand what that means and it's great any attempt to forgive is a good attempt that's just always forgiven any way you can but I'd like to still go deeper into the real understanding not only forgiveness but there's other things that come in quotes and so forth that we hear that you know people just

tend to misunderstand you know one of them I'm going to get to because that's the focus of today the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away another one's praise God oh praise God people say that praise the Lord praise God God doesn't have an ego to be praised let's just be clear about that it's not like God's like exactly you know Oh me you know oh my me that's not what it's about to really understand it and it's a drag because religions have messed a lot of things up on this planet

and I'm not like doing a tirade on religions you know but it's messed a lot of hearts and souls up so even when we hear the concept the words praise God it gets a little like even for me I can't you know there's that that in the back of the mind the way it's kind of misused but to really understand it's something really powerful happens to say praise God that that's not praising God it needs that it's actually more like an exciting statement like thank God praise God means oh thank God but not just oh

thank God it's it's like excitement praise God why why praise God God doesn't need it why praise God because it's great for us to own and remember that God is this perfection of love and peace and joy and made us in its image so when we say praise God it's not like praise God who came through for me today you know that's not like God comes if God is always holding that same exact perfection and presence praise God is almost like saying thank God I got it today thank God that God does come through when we get it I mean

on some of the shift that happened inside that's a little bit of the praising what it's really about it's like thank God that God is what it promised it would be I just got it today it's kind of like that and another one the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away that's quoted in every funeral the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away and people just don't and like you know they don't know God it always takes away and but in its divine wisdom it must know why it strips away all good things from

us a new purse are you sorry praise God it's not like that at all the Lord doesn't giveth and taketh away it only gives and then it gives and then it gives and then it gives and then it gives that's all God can do it's a creator that gives even in the hindu system you have what's called the creator the destroyer and the preserver so even in that concept there's the destroyer but the destroyer that's misunderstood it it really is the mother who says i'll change form for you but

only when you're ready so technically behind the God that taketh away is the God that getteth permission ahthe to taketh away whatever we're willingness to let go it [Laughter] so it's it's not ever taken away and you and I have had deep losses in our lives people and things deep losses but it isn't God so what's really strange is in our deepest losses there had to have been on some level some permission given for something to go because the go the Lord does not take it away it only honoureth our requests even quantum

physics is saying that what we experience on the outside reflects our consciousness literally on a quantum level these waves become particles to hold form to become molecules or to hold form to represent our consciousness when the perceiver shifts in their consciousness the form will change and there's no big drama of destruction to that if you listen to that carefully there's no drama and destruction there's just it shifts but humans want to remain in such non responsibility and in such victim mode we want to make a

God who unpredictably will just strip things away at any given time based on its you know mood and it's not like that at all so if we were to say the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away it's not and the Lord strips away it's more like the Lord giveth and honors our requests to go to another level in in Hinduism the destroyer isn't the destroyer it's a really horrible term or word to use for God God gives life and then destroys life that's not it at all God gives life and gives life and gives

life and whatever life we're willing to accept is what we get and then when we're ready for different or more something shifts and it looks like something was taken that's only us being unconscious when we consciously say I'm ready for a new job or like Oh God and miracle happened in a king but but they don't usually people don't usually give thanks equally with as much passion when a job goes without our request but it's still our request it's just whether it was conscious or not well I want more of

the conscious ones don't be so afraid then the only reason we do it unconsciously is so that we don't have to take responsibility you got it you know if you want to understand the Lord giveth and giveth the giveth you have to step into we all have to step into greater ownership it's because deep down inside we actually suspect that God's vicious in some way that's been a programing lifetime after lifetime that that that God is this what superstition told us God is it's going to do something horrible to us so that's

called projecting we project our own fears onto God and you know God has nothing to do with any of that and in a sense it's kind of almost like sad because it's like God's giving to its children and we Furr that were made in God's image we it's not an issue of whether we deserve God's love there's not even a deserve ability factor to it we are part of God so it loves period and if we're part of God we're part of the love that giveth and receive it so this whole projection Mis

projection that we do onto God it just doesn't make any sense so there's moments that we're asked look you can save yourselves a lot of pain if you would become just more conscious how well get used to statements that are affirmations get used to statements instead of why is this happening it's okay to feel that man I can't believe this is happening you know this is terrible yeah it's okay to say that but end your process your pain your crying up end it with however and then something new however I believe

I trust that this is all going for my greater good you can say oh god you know please bring them back to me you know and God's like you know good go ahead go ahead and whine about it cuz you know and I know you didn't want this anymore anyway you know so we can vent it vent it cry it and whatever you want to do but end it with but I understand on some level I'm part of this it's hard to believe when a loved one passed away that you'd say well how could I be part of that I want them here and and and it

this one can't be one of those because I loved this person only people we don't love should be dying that doesn't make any sense as much as we will it so in a sense the reason we're feeling pain is based on one thing that's called attachment not just attachment to the thing attachment to what the thing represented to us see it's not just mom that you mourn passing away your child that will be more in passing away or or whatever you you it could be a job it's our concepts we have these structures in our head I

may not like this job but at least it helps me pay rent so if it goes that's terrible instead of but if it goes it must be that I'm now ready to not just pay rent but have more so humans struggle with these these mind games if we learn to surrender attachments and and and again if we don't do it it's going to be done to us but not by God if we don't consciously do it we're gonna unconsciously do it so picture that that there picture there's no other power but ourselves now how does that change the way we think if

there's no other power affecting my life but my consciousness my mind my soul how does that change my life Wow all of a sudden someone that used me how terrible they were someone that died how sad that was a job that I lost oh how scary and so on what if it's all designed by me and most of the ones that hurt were the ones I didn't expect but why didn't I expect him what snuck up on me the universe through it God did it what if there's no power but my consciousness then I start going instead of talking

about what others did I start thinking why was I afraid to know that was coming try that why was I afraid to own that that that job wasn't really what I wanted now I have to start realizing Wow and when a new twitch I went and a new thing was coming that was my soul saying you know what Michael or whomever we are let's go to another level if I owned it it would become a smoother transition it would become so smooth I don't you know people may or may not realize you have skin cells on your body that leave you every

day and how many hours a day do you spend mourning over that loss oh the skin cells more of them than usual left today you know do you do you really most people I don't know of anybody that ever has and if you had you you probably need really severe therapy you know I mean intense therapy skin cells really but that's all that life is there are things that are no longer necessary or relevant the skin cells only go based on they're not alive anymore so something in us is saying you know this relationship has been dead for

years this job has been dead for years it's a skin cell let it go if we were conscious we would plan ahead for the other job but that's not convenient to our ego that wants to whine about it it wants to make us victims you can't be God and victim at the same time they're absolutely mutually exclusive so I'm gonna try and be brave and I'm gonna start practicing a little bit more speaking about myself instead of why did that hmm what's going on inside of me in what way am i warming up to new levels

of love new levels of value self-worth you know and look at it this way speak about self instead of what others are doing try and reinterpret it in the mind instead of having the trauma it's a funny thing because forgiveness we think is about what people or events in life have done to us and that's okay start there start forgiving what everybody has done but underneath it there's a great statement in A Course in Miracles eventually you will realize forgiveness is to forgive others for what they never

did and that has layers of meaning but try this one on for size what if forgive them for what they didn't do means this anyone that has ever harmed you in any way whether it was overt or covert any hurt that you've ever felt was because of what you wanted other people to be or do even people that overtly harmed you still they weren't being non harmful they were still not being something you wanted so I end up having to forgive people for what they didn't do you get the meaning the double meaning in that meaning I

wanted a certain thing I have to forgive my boss not for firing me but not valuing me more what they didn't do not just what they did what they didn't do so the committed sins and errors of other people that they commit like edgar cayce put it he said those those are easily gone you committed something you did something I mean you can just verbally let that go because deep down they didn't just hurt you there's a sin of omission what they didn't do for you dad you didn't just abuse me you were not

safe like I wished you would have been see I don't just forgive him or hurt over that he harmed me I also have to get to a place where I wanted you to be safe do you get the difference not just you did this it's what you didn't do you weren't and then you weren't what I had agendas I mean they're realistic they're reasonable could you have been normal saying anything and anything you can imagine saying that - doesn't matter it what it is in this world whatever you think you have to forget forgive but

then the omission what they didn't do for you has to be forgiven and it's even bigger it's even really more the roots forgive what they didn't do for you what you wish they who had it had it done or wish you would what you wish they would have been that's important but if you look at it carefully all the people you ever wished had been safer more affectionate seeing you you know senior value honored you right all those things heard you all those things it's ultimately God that you wish had done

all those things so that means ultimately forgiveness is even towards God and some people will try you no no no I love God like Jesus says don't say you love God and hate your neighbor because it's through others that you'll see your opinions of God so when a person abandoned me there's a part of us guys I mean I'm a spiritual teacher and I can say it there's a part of us that feels like how did you let this happen so we have a charge with God how did you let it come to this how why didn't you protect me more and that is

someone abused me that also means someone wasn't safer and that ultimately is why wasn't I kept safe and that's going to be on others on myself and God the three categories of people or whatever that we have to forgive so forgiveness is a much cooler and deeper process than we can imagine but forgiveness gives us everything we want and people don't realize that some people might say well what do you do as spiritual rituals or ceremonies or processes well I've got this and then I got this and you know and I know and you

know whatever a terror technique or a ceremony and full moons and and then there's also forgiveness no no no no not once in history did you know holding a spear to the sky or dancing in a circle or whatever take you home it only reminded you of what home is like it can't actually take you home it's not like people who dance longer in a ritual are holier than people who dance for a shorter period of time the external things can't actually fix you on a spiritual level all they're ever meant to have done is represent where

you can go the going still has to happen in the mind and soul the heart and soul it still has to be chosen that's forgiveness forgiveness isn't just one extra tool forgiveness is really the only tool to get us home because the only reason you're holding sticks up in the air and dancing in circles and chanting and pranayama breathing and the only reason we're doing any of that is because we think we're separate from God and each other forgiveness is the only technique and if you don't believe it's the only let's

say in another way it's the highest technique to get us restored because forgiveness means restoring the part of me that took me out of my true self I forgot my holiness now what does my life look like I wish I had a raise at work if I forgive that I forgot that I was holy it will come because you seek first the consciousness of God and all things are then added to you seek first the kingdom it means seek first the consciousness of God then everything else comes it's so much more effortless but people don't remember

this they don't they don't say you know like they'll go I mean it's hilarious people will say okay I want a new job you know what I'm gonna do I'm gonna get a piece of paper and draw symbols on it I now have my new job and they honor me and support me and you're doing affirmations you're burning green or gold candles and you're you know holding ritual and you're doing all these amazing things you know to attract prosperity subliminal tapes the ocean and behind it you are wonderful and you

are getting that new job you know and it all is beautiful it really is but it's kind of funny one moment you're affirming I am God I am one with all that is holy the next minute you're burning candles to become more prosperous it's in the consciousness burn all the candles you want but if you're not lighting your heart it's not happening you burn that you know get the paper burn the candles and it really you're saying and I'm deserving which what you're really saying is that I'm

deserving but really filled with low self-worth you know it doesn't change you have to say I deserve light the candles do the charts do all the cool things but also get it in here do both hit it from the inside and outside but get it inside like wow this is hilarious as I burn the gold candle it's not making my boss give me a raise but as I burn the candle and realize the gold of that candle is reminding me of my holiness that's so cool my holiness is what's going to bring me the raise my holiness

is what will attract better love better friendships better trustworthiness or whatever it happens to be my holiness getting to us who we are that's what makes the magic it's not the external things of course a miracle spends a lot of time on that kind of kind of making fun of and it's calling it magic you you know you folks are so addicted to magic things on the outside to give you something it doesn't mean don't do it take an aspirin when you have a headache but don't think external things

cure the mind that has a headache it's only working symptomatically and he uses the word magic because he's saying you're relying on sleight of hand as your spirituality look watch this no headache and all it is is it's a game it's an illusion but what in my soul attracted the headache let me heal that - take the aspirin but also I recognize if I have a headache there must have been something and I don't have to know what it is something in my mind that was a painful thought to bring a painful

experience I think right now what I'm gonna do is surrender whatever that was and welcome in peace you see that's all just just get used to the words because the consciousness will follow those words take the aspirin take the CBD oil get a hug do do the things of this world do the prosperity charts do all the things on the outside don't think that they do the real shift inside forgiveness is the technique that has to be practiced to shift the inside and all those techniques and processes and rituals

they were really all meant just to show us where we were off and some symbolize how to get home but to get home without forgiveness it's not going to happen it can't happen because forgiveness is by definition the restoration restore me to Who I am and the universe by no accident is saying well if you're serious about that then prove it I truly do want to know who I really am the universe is saying we'll prove it ok I'll dress nicer no that's not what we mean ok all I'll say nicer

things I'll do this external external things you know and it's gonna say if you really believe you want to prove that you want to see your holiness only one way start seeing it in other people and that's confirming because other people are the mirror of yourself so if you can start all not them seriously do you know what I'm having to deal with I mean if I was her I could probably have an easier time look at the people I have in my life and what spirit telling us what's the universe the quantum universities you're only seeing

yourself there's only one of us here no there's definitely more you might not realize some slipped in under the radar you know those people I don't like and we're asked sorry you feel that way how about you start a lighter version of them let's start one just an acquaintance that's annoying then let's start moving it a little closer and then eventually the universe is going to say do you really I really want to do it I really want to know my Christ self are you sure yes so an acquaintance then

it'll move it a little closer and it'll be like your next-door neighbor and then a little closer it'll be your part you know like a sibling and then maybe a partner and if you're still not getting it and still not really knowing this secret behind it all all forgiving at once myself and others all said done got it and you still have resistance then unfortunately things like your house burns down and you have to move in with your parents again you know that's how serious it can become oh you got to be

kidding me anything but that you know and the universe is going no this would be perfect those who annoyed you the most if that's the case it's just hypothetical of course all reflecting some of your deepest unhealed wounds and didn't you say you'd like to remember that you are the Christ well yes I do but not through that but that's the only way forgiveness now don't don't assume that and take it literal that it means that when you ask for something beautiful it always means hardship it's always the easy way or the

hard way the easy way can be done just humans aren't usually used to it when we say I want to be free and liberated from illusion most people can't give things up I want to be liberated from attachments people they can't even give up their favorite thumbtack I mean it's you know or or whatever it happens to be their favorite little something and you want to be one with the universe you know get past this thing get past the constant whines of the body it's all understandable but I want someone to

hold or I want someone to talk to on the phone to comfort me or I would love whatever it is fill in the blank but try this on for size whatever you fill in the blank whatever you put in the blank oh if only I would like I would love it doesn't it could be major addictions it could be partnership it could be money arrays things that seem natural even I don't want much I just you know want in those simple things whatever you put in the blank like is a statement of how evolved you believe you are and if your stuff is is

really you know material and dense and really silly that's what you think of yourself how evolve are you well I'm very evolved okay so what are you attached to well nothing and then try some questionnaires on yourself ask yourself this if I'm really committed to enlightenment what if everything was taken away which thing would hurt me the most that's where your attachments are you know it's not the things you can easily give up if you want to know your true depth of consciousness then ask yourself what you

would have the most difficulty giving up and that's not good or bad it's just a way to evaluate and say well I was like I could go give up anything except my house I can't give up anything but don't be touching my car you know it's their stuff or I could give up all kinds of things like for me when you go when you go through this process sometimes it's like the dark night of the soul when the universe was saying you're gonna you know here we go we're gonna give up this during this process of the dark night

this goes and that goes I actually handled it pretty well he was like things I thought I liked you know but okay there's one and you know it could be a money or possessions - an X in a divorce which was fine it was all amicable but here you know you can have those I didn't have a problem giving things up I would say this though what I had a trigger the challenge with is giving up happiness stuff was easy happiness was a drag to give up now you have to understand because my happiness level where it was partnership

friendship things I had hoped to be remember we're forgiving things that weren't there so having to look at that but the universe is also trying to say try this on for size you're not actually giving up happiness you're going to transform it to a higher level you're going to lose things that you thought brought you in or happiness so that you can have a penis inside and bring it to the outer world the outer things you thought brought you happiness say goodbye and that wasn't easy because

it was assumed at that time and at that age of myself it was assumed Wow I mean I was just identifying with the fact that happiness felt good you know and we look to the heavens oh excuse me for wanting to be happy you know and try to you know guilt God into something but really think about the deeper process I'm giving up external happiness that I thought brought me internal happiness so that I can have internal happiness that I can bring to the outside it's an amazing play on words and it's a shift

in consciousness because one still coming from the outside the other is I'm bringing to the outside by being by having so you can even say I'm attached to or I love certain things in this world now some of us it's I just have to have a partner another person is I just have to have and then doesn't matter you aspirin it doesn't matter what the thing is they're all the same they're all still illusions you can say well my illusions not as that as your illusion you know I mean I'm only into aspirin

you're into heroin that's bad stuff no it's all an illusion equally so and so we realized wow you know I learned to let things go and as I do so my consciousness is shifting it can't shift if I'm thinking I'm a victim and the Lord is taking away instead I have to realize recognize there's part of me that's changing to a higher level of consciousness it's always hard to realize that in the dark night it's all we always hard to and challenging to realize as you're going

through withdraws as you're going through cleansing cellular cleansing with a fast it's always challenging because the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak that's the bottom right that's why in the 12-step program they're saying I'm not going to probably handle this very well alone I'm gonna need a power higher than myself it doesn't mean they're worshiping something outside and disowning it within it's just a statement it's a symbolic statement of a higher power even if you believe that

higher powers in you know within yourself it's still not apparent when I'm struggling with stuff of this world so I'm calling on a power beyond the addictive me a power beyond the human me beyond the frail me the fault faulted me the flawed me the limited me that's all I'm really doing I trust that there's something more than this thing if not then this problematic person is calling upon another problematic side of myself how's that gonna work out instead there must be part here something here that

gets it that's the part I'm trusting the part that gets it knows that these things don't have power over me the human part you know but I want them back and you know it's not too much to ask for I just want a companion I just want and we you know make these things all sweet and sad and sappy and all romanticized and it doesn't matter it's gonna go everything in this universe is gonna go we can stand and drum on the hills in Sedona and I can't wait to the Ascension really what if you ascend now

that'd be great then you mind if we take your car don't be touching my car man they want to talk ascension but how do you know how do you know some of your aches are part of your ascension please fix my aches and help me ascend you know it's like who are we talking to you have multiple personality disorder dude you know you're asking for ascension you're whining about the eggs that come with ascension when your body's trying to shake off its dense cells it might ache no no I want the painless

ascension there's only one and you can have them you can have a painless ascension how don't be attached because the only thing that hurts is when the flesh is being ripped from the bones figuratively the relationship goes and this goes people do this all the time we're praying for a new life heaven on earth and whatever things that aren't great start to pass away well wait I'll determine what's good for me see that's the ego saying if it's not a conscious decision of my little tantrum self then

I don't accept it and we're asked that's why we call it faith we're not actually learning to have faith in just God we're learning to have faith in a self that we don't want to own is there we want to only believe that the victim is the only active and a live person in us so instead you know what no more no more no more the more conscious decisions and the more conscious material things are the ones that are the least valuable now that doesn't mean you have to be anesthetic and part ways with life and

never eat again and never drink again it's even forgive yourself for that that's what it means take the aspirin do their whatever you're doing don't hate yourself for it because whatever you're into whether it whatever addiction whatever issue whatever attachment forgive yourself for it and it will fall away Moses standing before the waters man part you have no power here once you own the power the things will fall away it really won't do you much good to try to scare yourself straight to try to curse

yourself o lowly self you terrible addict you you're just bad and try to heal even if that could scare you straight the long-term scared-straight programs don't work on the long term studies have shown it doesn't work I'm not saying it doesn't serve a purpose right then and there whatever that's fine I'm just saying living in fear doesn't promise healing but forgiveness does so instead of intensely shaming yourself for something you need to stop love yourself forgive kind of with a little lightness

about it you know lighten up we got to put a sign over the doors I think lighten up or go to hell I channeled that if you don't like it blame them but that's a brilliant statement if you think about it lighten up or good cuz if you don't lighten up you're in hell so lighten up and be able to say to yourself God isn't this amazing I mean I've seen purple when I meditated I've danced in spirals and I've chanted and I have been amongst native tribes and I've done all these Sundance rituals and amazing stuff and I

still can't get past Twinkies I mean it's like laugh at yourself a little bit and I know some of it's horrible to you I know some of the things in the pains and the hurts or I get that but if you know who you are really it's all laughable it really is I don't care what you think is valuable it is actually funny I am that I am oh is that a Twinkie you know it's it's it's kind of funny it is I am that I am and so-and-so took my heart to my love if I am that I am how can they take anything it doesn't

really it doesn't make any sense other than to my unconscious self then it's all very serious so you're seriously unconscious and you're unconscious seriously so lighten up or go to hell think about that that's kind of cool I like that one so for me I've even noticed like like I stopped touring but I started noticing a couple of years ago the Ascension is happening guys and that means Christ is returning to our awareness everyone and everything organizations institutions churches individuals everybody on some

level is going through this transformation they're all picking it up through osmosis if not consciously walking through it but groups that you would think are going to be conscious participants like the spiritual centers of every kind of name I don't care it's religious science center for living yoga centers unities what I found was they were actually not stepping forward into the new consciousness like a lot of us they got scared and retreated but you're retreating into something that's not

even there anymore the churches are you know in centers they're going they don't know what it is because like the pain comes with the body and the Ascension sometimes so they're going there's changes there's something happening and instead of hearing the message of Christ saying yes it is the old you whatever church or person it is the old you is dying you're ready for the new they're going the old us is something's wrong and let's go back to our old ways they hear the word old and the message from

God is the old you is dying they hear old and go let's go back to our old ways that's called compulsion and a misdirected compulsion because you heard one word old and you misdirected it you went in to go back to old ways instead of let go of old ways not only is it a call to let him go you have to understand they're already dead like those skin cells so if the police and the people you know that that you know in the white coats show up and find you in the shower trying to find skin cells and gluing them back onto your body

that's really weird and we would all agree that that's a bit strange but somebody who's trying to put a church back together in its old form let's go back to old dogmas it's already dead no it isn't we're just here we're gonna and we're going to go back to you know depressing music and whatever it is that we're unworthy and and they can say no we're not saying we're on there we still believe that we're you know the Christ is and we're all deserving but the words

aren't there's there's no spirit to the words anymore and so what was nice and not nice for me is to be on tour I could be the Christ reminder saying that dropping that seed and it's up to them to get it or not and I noticed that almost no centers were gonna get it and I would give them no body to crucify meaning you try to crucify them I'm already gone I'm just visiting you see the only people that had to actually put up with me is you and it seems to have work to help but other centers they were not you know

this is all unfolding as I saw it it's not like I saw it all ahead of time some of it I did but some of it was this thing we have here online and in-person is magnificent but I understand it two levels maybe that some people also get and some people don't if you realize how rare this is you know and it's not - we're better than other centers it's thank God praise God that we listened and they're gonna get it everyone's gonna get it there's no leave them behind everyone's gonna get it

spiritually speaking they're already did they just don't know it yet because time hasn't worn itself out yet the illusion of time so we're all gonna go home but the apparent version of that the appearance of that is lived out in our day to day abilities to let go and let God to trust not thinking of God as a vindictive God not thinking of God is well you know if God gives you I know God's gonna take away allow it allow that the wave like a wave in comes the wave the Lord giveth and when the tide

goes out it's just taking away skin cells not I just know and they call it waiting for the other shoe to drop guess what you know I've got this new relationship and I got a new job and I just know something's got to go wrong soon that's in the back of everybody's mind well not mine yes it is how do we know that because it happens something does go God never says I want a payment other than illusions that's a weird banker man that's a weird you know broker God says tell you what I'm gonna give you a bundle and I want

you to give me garbage in exchange like who wouldn't take that deal wait let me understand this let me write in my kitchen here's the trash and we tie it up I'm handing you this trash and you're gonna give me a bag of money yes okay I mean like you would be suspicious but most sane people would say that's great and that's what God's asking but why be suspicious about it there are some people that go no no I just know there's something wrong with this it's too good to be true

I love doing that with the people in life I love bringing the it's too good to be true it really confuses people sometimes it's a drag because they react so fearfully but it's nice to say it's too good to be true to give people something give a waitress or waiter an extra tip oh but why you know confuse people I love it as you can tell so how to bring bring a hug that big a will why give people time and and make them scratch their head but why are you being so nice to me you know it's called loving the hell out

of people it's really bringing an amazing presence and and there have been people in my life that nobody nobody liked I can remember this older woman man she was just so challenging people would just like move out of the way when she's coming down the street her little cart I've told the story about her before but just you know just like just she she'd go across the crosswalk no kidding going across the crosswalk if a car was like a few inches you know into the crosswalk she'd stop her little cart grab her cane Bam Bam

Bam Bam get your carbon I mean this lady was intense she likes nobody except me go figure how um I just I just talked to her I was just nice I really was how are you today and she would say bitter things but it didn't scare me I would laugh with her you're kidding you're banging on their car I saw you you know across the street over that's right they shouldn't be in the crosswalk ads right man yeah and and it starts off with her just being that way and thinking of just a person and then it changes he listens he's he's

laughing with me he's not judging me and it's change just changed this woman didn't trust anybody and one day somebody was come come up to me and said I hear you're gonna do such-and-such I said yeah you know I was in a store and she happened to be there and I was talking to them privately and I said yeah but I'm gonna need a couple thousand dollars within a week she rode up on her little cart and had to be an envelope of a couple thousand dollars this is an older woman with you know just her own little means of life and

living and savings and it's like wow but not just that miracle to choose to try to be different even with challenging people I'm not saying I'm perfect at it and that it happens all the time perfectly all I know is I do know about that because that's living forgiveness not talking it living it when you can be different to somebody who doesn't seem to deserve it you are the presence of forgiveness even without having to say you know I forgive you for being a rude person but I will bestow niceness upon you you

you you see that they deserve it the same as I would want that if I was in pain we're all in this together that's the attitude consciousness of miracle workers and forgivers so that changed this person's life like forever to think and she had a really really rough life really you know from childhood on man just really challenging stuff and to think that woman passes away by now somewhere somehow instead of just facing her demons of hurt somewhere there's going to be this being of light that's going to approach her

and you know it'll be like well I thought I was only gonna see myself and I'm really angry and hateful so shouldn't I be in Hell right now yeah except someone spoke up for you who well there's person right here in wings you know they go up to them and say hi welcome well Who am I to deserve any of this and it'll be well I'm this winget person here reminding you of your value and the only reason I can even be here to remind you is because you let this guy named Michael in to be that for you once upon

a time then that woman is go you understand the difference of Hell in heaven so to speak okay whether you believe literally or not it's not the point consciousness to be in Hell in her pain or to have one person stand on her behalf and show her she had value right now that woman somewhere is like a child on Christmas times a billion Wow well I got heaven only because I I let this person be nice to me and I was nice back wow now when she does the WoW Michael on earth and when he gets to the other side there's gonna be several more of those

angelic being saying welcome even while I'm on earth a little need I might have and a miracle comes and brings me good why because that woman was grateful for what I did to her and with her how many more would you like of those do you want just one it should be an endless number of people and souls on the other side standing on your behalf there should be no question but not just when you get there see a lot of religion and you know so forth will say it's when you you know life is terrible on earth but when you

get to the other side that's when you get to have good things for being a good Christian or whatever it is that's not true it's consciousness if you have to put it off till later because of your guilt and shame that's kind of sad that means you're living in Hell now and then eventually something good you're allowed to have heaven on earth your good karma can come to you now and it's not arrogant to say wow I deserve that it's arrogant to think you don't if God says you deserve it who are you to think

you don't it doesn't make any sense so the goodness care give give give the Lord giveth I am the Lord and give then you are the Lord and the Lord taketh away I'm not gonna take anything of value from anybody if I can't be something you want I'm sorry about that God too says that to us all sorry that you have an image that you want me to fill but I'm God I'm all things however if you want to know me you have to own me within yourself so as I'm coming to a close even if you love the Bible or

Jesus or its spiritual teachers or authors you have to still let go of your attachment that they are the thing for you you have to become what you read you have to become what you meditated you have to become what you heard that's how it's done you have to become that thing and that's how I am where I am or get what I get whatever that is I just I just listen and integrate I can watch it last week the Scrooge you know show was on what's the what's it originally called Christmas Carol you know that was

on oh there's a upbeat movie but I still watch and I still learn and I integrate that's how I get things I listen I watch and I integrate I don't make holy the movie I just go wow love that love that it speaks you know to Scrooge was a normal person but hurt hurt hurt hurt becomes this person that can't afford like this older woman I was talking about can't afford to give anything literally and mentally can't afford financial I will not give you because in here I can't afford it when I gave

before I got burned and hurt see it's a test so it becomes that thing and I think it's wonderful to imagine the ghosts of past present and future coming to us saying how'd you do if you died now are you gonna be like please no no or are you gonna be like let's go baby you know how confident are you in your past present and future I think it's great to me that's that's I could have just read a Bible story it would have been just as powerful or not it's the same to me a Christmas carol

wow I can watch you know the Santa Claus cartoon Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer yep that's me I remember being like that and cast out and you can you can learn from anything if you're a master humans man they can have the Christ right in front of them they don't get it masters they can read bubble gum wrappers and the lock does keys to the universe secrets to the universe because you know how to go I get that I get that it could be anything it could be I could see one of you in a coat right here and one side

being kind of hanging off of your shoulders I can just glance and see one of you puts it back on and I can get something from that I can get something from anything all of us can get something I'm not saying become an obsessive thinker I'm saying you just are aware how can I be ignorant of the fact that this beautiful colorful tree is here I know it's there but what does it symbolize to me well if I've been struggling paying bills let's say what does it symbolize to me if I've been struggling

romantically what what does it mean oh and the evergreen light even in the darkest times I've been going through the dark night of the soul thank you Christmas tree but it's mirroring something just learning to listen humans are so wounded they shut down and won't hear anything whether it's you know from the heavens or whatever people say well why can't I get visions and all that because we don't believe in it we don't believe we're worthy anymore so say no to those belief systems start anywhere

you can and more will be given don't obsess on signs and so forth but listen and watch for the ones that are the most strong and recurring I have value I really do have value and someone says by the way thank you Michael you you did this talking it really spoke oh no problem or read it in wow you know what it's like I mean think about it and own it in your own life to be able to do that it doesn't matter when it was a second grade I remember I picked somebody up that felt great breathe it in that you did something

beautiful and that they appreciated it these things don't get erased and forgotten pick somebody up when you were you know five years old that fell and got hurt or even just cared for them felt for them I remember a little girl is probably in fourth grade I think I was fourth or fifth grade and I heard that her mother was killed in an accident and I'll never forget that girl I'll never forget her face I remember you know seeing her and just feeling for her and in a sense sending her love I don't know what else to do I'm like

eight or whatever I don't know what else to do and I just felt for her on some level that child's soul would have felt that appreciated that that appreciation goes into the ethers and it surrounds our own etheric body right here that appreciation it comes back all good things come back to us and so it sits here and one day I'm in pain and one of the things that helps me shift out of the pain is the appreciation that girl felt and gave back back to me that making sense and in a very human level understand

that that's what heaven is like heaven is like while on earth heaven is like all the good things we've ever done the gratitude felt coming back to us have you invested in heaven that's the bottom line well I never feel any of that doesn't mean you didn't invest but why don't you let it in where how angel visions and a start with anything just start with you gave up a chair for somebody who knows and don't do it to get because then it dies as soon as it's done it's a cause-effect done do it

because of who you are I can afford it I shared with somebody last week and said I was in an airport many times that I've done this i sat sitting in a chair it's a crowded Airport and this was in Nashville and you know some guys that could tell walked up in there they there was a seat next to me that was empty but they needed to that one in mine so they're looking around they're like oh well there's nowhere to sit I go hey I don't even look up I'm like oh here here here they're going on

no come on sit down and I sit on the floor like I often do I just said on the floor now fine we're done no I hear them talking about certain things I overheard and I said hey and I struck up a conversation based on what they were talking about and I noticed they have guitars with them and they're getting out there trying this is Tim McGraw's band I didn't you know I don't I'm like oh I don't know what does that mean somebody else's that's Tim McGraw and I'm like who's that

you know whatever but but I gave up a seat and then it strikes up conversations and there's appreciation and then you know things like that hey you want to come to our concert or you know things like that it's like you know no I don't like country weather means but no I didn't say that I didn't say that but I thought it the good thing is I forgave myself well thank you so you don't you don't know but just play with the idea what if every good thing that you did not get attached to every good thing you didn't

say and I want something back all the unconditional goodness and if all you did was even just one time one time did something and it's trust me it's more than one but if all you think you did is one let's make it two and exponentially let's increase it just start believing in that believe in that more than all the silly superstition superstitious things you believe in and start believing in you know what if love is real what if when I give it multiplies and comes back what if there's such a thing as good

karma and so on and so it's just don't just say it believe it and if you believe it guess what's coming good things okay but I would like more than do more good and inclosing forgiveness ask yourself anything you would like in your life and forgiveness will bring it maybe it even higher form than you thought but we'll go into a meditation and play with that idea okay let's take a few centering breaths relaxing through breath inhaling hear

the words I am and on the exhale relaxed more and more and then gradually let's become aware of our day-to-day life currently areas of our lives this time of the year or this year in general let's look at our lives health finances relationships work just all of our life what's going on and think of something you would like to

change you want more of something or less of something whichever the case let it come to mind be honest even if it's just something you want to improve upon something you want to go something you want to come in or something you even want more of whatever it is a challenge something's blocked you're trying to buy a house and it's not happening at something's challenging it or even going through the dark night of the soul whatever it is forgiveness can break it up forgiveness does what sound healing

does sound chanting and toning the ancients believed actually broke up crystallized patterns of things cellular structure would break up with certain tones the way a singer can shatter a crystal glass so too can tones and even thoughts break up crystalline patterns such as I only make such-and-such a day or a week or a month tones could break up anything because they're the tones coming from the consciousness of the children of God in this case there's a challenge a limitation a shift you're looking for open up now and just ask

divine mother Holy Spirit of God this is what I would like to experience but because I'm not it can only mean there's something behind it keeping it from happening either an event guilt a shame a regret a person whatever it is that I would need to do forgiveness with today a person or event that would help open this situation up bring them to my mind now and open up to that let them come to mind whether you expected it or didn't expect them it is what it is is it more than one person or event others

look at them clearly and hear the words God is the love and the power with which I forgive you say that with conviction in your mind quietly let that be a half-minute process let that dissolve like the crystalline patterns let it dissolve their density their behavior their look their vibe let it like dissolve them like water just rushing over a statue of sand God is the love and the power with which I forgive you and then one more become aware of images

of yourself is there anything that you are anything that you believe anything you've done that's limiting your life in any way be aware of what topic you want to shift and then any unhealed stuff about yourself that would be wise to surrender and heal today become aware of what's stuck become aware of what it is in you that can go today to open that thing up a belief system an action a guilt a shame a regret and then say to yourself by name if you would like Michael God is the love and the power with which I forgive you

and let the light just disperse what was a cloud you're not forcing it you're allowing it to let love be and then imagine you've released outer and inner things that would have inhibited this good thing you're looking for in your life be open to the outcome because you might think you want a B and C and really it might need to take the better form of X Y & Z be open but if I've let go of the cause of it being blocked what comes when I let go and let God and just imagine now if the blocks are

gone what would it look like oh my god I'm just dancing with delight um I'm awake I'm open viscerally see this feel the aliveness feel the excitement feel the deserve ability look at how you can bring it to others you're smiling more and it changes people's lives you're looking for more funds you have it now give it as well give it to people gift it help them show them God loves them be a symbol of a miracle-worker give hugs a light worker a miracle worker and what does it feel like hmm

nice breathe into the experience the feeling the integration nice full breath and that'll sound good and again with mouth closed like a humming in God how good it is man look at how good it is how it feels something's gone it's open the house sold I bought the house whatever it is all the goodness in again and allow the Tony to continue for a minute or two mouths open keep coming loud or good good keep going and imagine that the sound that we're emitting as a group online and present is actually breaking

that up not just for you because you already did that you're bringing that breaking up to the world you're giving permission love it's like just the tone of love abundance prosperity you're toning yes as a sound healing miracles that's what it means to praise God praise God the angels are doing it we're doing it [Music] [Music] [Music] that joy that love that appreciation extended to all people please understand

that time distance is an illusion that means there's there's a child somewhere hiding under their bed in fear 500 years ago and they're hearing the sound we just made they're feeling a shift protection there's a person lost in the woods crying out in fear and and they can hear us someone just lost a loved one they can hear us someone lost a child in war it's just terrible but something happens there they're sitting up a little straighter like wow what what's happening here because love has

no bounds has no limits and love is the presence of God with God coming in that person feels the presence of their beloved that passed away they're feeling like somehow I feel immune even if I'm being afraid and abused as a child somehow I feel okay I'm okay this is not going to have power over me what's happening on the outside does not control Who I am on the inside give that to those people just as you love to receive it from others who prayed for us praise God thank you