Easter Sunday: Our Resurrection & Ascension

happy easter to you all thank you keeping in mind that that the world has always had a commemoration of this time certainly and and before the time of jesus the the the world has always had nature that tells us there are cycles of life and that even after the darkest times winter spring comes back to us that should have been enough for us to know that any time you go through a divorce there's life after death but people forgot that any time that you lose a job there's life after death that's why it was given

to us that way cycles to to keep hope alive and you know jesus simply stepped it up by saying this isn't just about the natural cycles of life such as you die and you're reborn reincarnation for example he took it another step and said you have to die and be born again spiritually so that you become the christ not just another person another time not just another lifetime and people for some reason missed this they thought reincarnation was the better alternative to heaven and hell but if you keep reincarnating in a world

of limitation that is hell right i mean that's that's what hell is look at the descriptions of most people's standards concepts of hell you know the the pain well that's this world people have physical pain this this world is not our home heaven is our home yeah well i'm just waiting till the day we go back there no no as buddha said it's here you have to lift the veils to see it how do i lift the veils only one way forgiveness that is the only thing that lifts the veils to whatever you think you're struggling

with bills you can't pay well wait i didn't do any i just can't don't have enough money at work i what does that have to do with me needing to forgive do i have to forgive my boss what if i am the boss what you're needing to do is forgive what you're feeling about not having enough money i feel frustrated very good michael michael i've been really upset at you for not creating more money i forgive you forgive yourself for anything you perceive you know that your car doesn't work when it doesn't have an engine

forgive yourself because if you forgave enough your car would fly the only reason we have a limited world is because we have limited perceptions and those will be there until forgiveness replaces them and so the replace the the the the forgiveness is the in a sense you could say the bridge back to god consciousness some people think they just get there when they meditate enough that's not how you get if you meditate and don't practice forgiveness then what's the meditation for right i mean what's what's the point

just keep on monopod me huming yourself you know and um try try i love you please forgive me right you know try the the prayers the various types of prayers that relate to forgiveness but easter has been commemorated there's been goddesses throughout history um the the sumerians have inanna you know and and uh the uh egyptian called her isis and the people the norse people there's all the cultures have this same concept of their being easter ishtar just by various slightly various names um the uh ancient irish culture rigid there's just

it's the same goddess and she was supposed to be the goddess of fertility but also sexuality and love the the greeks had their version of it and it's it's all around the world and often she was known as the flower for her was a rose as is another goddess named mary mother mary so mother mary like jesus is the embodiment of the once mythologized hope of spring church made her into a virgin concept and and and then that looks a bit like a contrast to the previous sensual versions of the goddess and that's just mankind screwing things

up again you know mary was trying to demonstrate purity of consciousness it's not about form it's about content consciousness so she was demonstrating what pure consciousness can be and other cultures it did happen when the the versions of ishtar and all the you know astara and all these various names of her through different cultures they started getting twisted by some of the people to where it had to do with ishtar comes down you know from the heavens in an egg which is where you get your ishtar eggs easter eggs

and she descends from the sky and and they start making a cult around her that involves sacrificing babies for her and her beloved partner ba'al which is later to the christians known as the devil but that's not because one religion is right the other is wrong if they're all twisted religions are made of man and man has ego so the religion is just a landing pad for all kinds of ego i love the intent behind it and there are people in every religion and culture that are sincere about their quest for god

but you know these things got twisted too the dying of easter the the dying of eggs in children's blood that's not exactly nice that's just a little on the weird side but then that made that just made it real clear that that religion is naughty and bad so another religion could condemn them but then whatever religion condemned them ended up doing also some odd things so which one's right here's the with the world today more than any time in history is trying to do leave you feeling hopeless i don't know which religion

i'm doing this religion and i found out they have a crazy leader i don't mean me i mean you know you know they have weird customs they you know whatever they may be the the custom their beliefs concepts of god and goddess oh that's primitive no that's reality you were a god goddess before you were a human but the world's gonna tell you no that that's weird there's something wrong with you using such lingo gods and goddesses you know and it's a great old clark gable movie you know

um where he says we're just god's on a holiday you know like what's wrong with pete they don't look like gods and goddess they don't act like it forgive for yourself for not acting like it forgive yourself for not believing it anymore and then shift start acting like it what are you the god and goddess of and if you're all about nature then we should as soon as we see you walking down the street we should feel that vibe from you why would you say i'm the goddess of nature when there's

nothing natural about you think about that i'm the god of love i don't like anybody that doesn't make any sense be careful though claim to be the god or goddess of something the universe will expect you to live up to that don't live up to that and you will feel the heat under your feet because the universe is going to say you're going to get there one way or the other the easy way or the hard way the easy way would be stepping into it whatever the it happens to be so there's all these concepts and and

easter and the twisted versions of it in a way you could say a course in miracles would explain it what and i'm putting in it slightly in my own style but what good is it for jesus to have been crucified if he hadn't resurrected i mean think about that it doesn't make any sense do you believe jesus was crucified for your sins you know what's more important is the ascended for my sinlessness see and that's no no he died for your sins but if you just stay dead what good would that have done

think about it this is my irreverent way and i don't care i'm old now when we get old enough we just don't care as much what people think you know yeah when i turned 60 at that point you know i turned sickness like hey i don't have to care as much you know what are they going to do not like you there's less years of that you know that's another way of looking at it so go ahead hate me because time's limited for you on that this has an expiration date unfortunately for you i will die um

so this concept the crucifixion where it's easter we're supposed to be talking all of easter and jesus and the blood and guts of that listen it's it's so beautiful no matter how gory you make the concept of crucifixion it wasn't about somebody guilting you look what i've done for you he's not your mother after all i've done for you kids you know the old saying mom get off the cross we need the wood right you know it's like like enough is enough so yeah yes you have to endure this for just a

little longer hang out i know it sounds irreverent and i don't care because that's the truth of the matter oh but jesus and we're supposed to jesus is laughing too jesus doesn't want you keeping him on a cross it's weird it's weird i'll be getting down though and going in the ground then resurrecting no no no stay on the cross that's weird you want to see a therapist about that hi i need to talk to you about what's going on for you are we going to talk about your mother your father no i want to see

jesus on the cross permanently that's that's twisted and it's weird but here's the scoop the crucifixion is any of your losses you are crucified when people gossip about you you are crucified when you lose a job you're crucified when you have a challenging health crisis you're crucified when someone dies because nature itself told us about the crucifixion before the time of jesus which is there's a winter time there's seeming death but there's always god the illusion of the seasons too it just

spirals around you in here is god unmoved and crucifixions you're going to feel it crucifixions are going to hurt when you're in a body i've heard course in miracle students say jesus actually could never have felt any physical pain which i believe what you want that's fine but he didn't pretend to die he didn't pretend to be in pain he said i want to feel what you're all feeling and show you it still has no power over you he didn't want to say i'm going to just fake it because i

don't you know i'm just so above you people what point would that have been he's like i'm gonna let go temporarily of my knowingness that this is an illusion and i'm gonna feel what you feel what an amazing being but that's what you're supposed to do as a mom and a dad kids no matter what it doesn't have power over you but daddy i heard you lost a job i know it and i'm kind of scared but it doesn't have power all your crucifixions are tests they're all versions small or large of the dark

night of the soul and the dark knight of the soul is supposed to always result in you achieving the light at the end of the tunnel it's never about commiserating about being in the dark tunnel i'm going to get into a religion which is what religions do that that is all about the dark tunnel i wonder how he got in this dark tunnel i wonder if there's any side rooms in the dark tunnel oh i heard some creepy critter noises and that cabin you know cavern over there and it becomes you navigating this lostness

of consciousness think about that just navigating left and right in the darkness and religion's going to tell you navigate the darkness and hope you get lucky and find god or that god likes you psychotherapy is going to say navigate the dark tunnels and blame your mother i'm being facetious slightly but it's like that the point is if there's any dark tunnels they're existing in me and i will get to the light at the end of the tunnel no matter how many dark tunnels to the side i'm going to go to the light

at the end it is not a train coming your way it's god the light of god what does it look like love one of you's asked you know you've asked about love rebirth a couple of your questions what is rebirth christians fundamental group i'm born again really because you seem the same god you told me i was you told me yesterday before you were christian go to hell and today you're telling me i'm going to go to hell it's the same guy you know what i mean like haven't we progressed at all

god so this concept of crucifixions i die daily but do a swan song man do the die a good death because now you know in the new age community we're talking ascension don't be talking ascension until you know how to die well because you can't ascend while you carry a bunch of anchors on your shoulders look at me wait i'm ascending you know can't even get off the ground you know so die well and and i know even that sounds like oh the word death you know people in sedona guys you know sedona they're like he he

talked to the word death and they get freaky like their chakras spin backwards or whatever in this town you know but this is the truth die use the word die daily this is killing me we say it is and what are you doing about it you getting ready to ascend oh no i just thought i'd stay dead and you are when you say if only if only my boss had given me a raise if only my partner hadn't cheated if only this if only you're still using wording that keeps you dead that's why one criminal on the cross next to jesus

stays dead so to speak because he was blaming others you know jesus get us out of this mess denial won't help you minimizing will not help you blaming will not help why is there one guy hung on the cross next to jesus who says you know what i get it i did what i did and that's how i ended up here you know that's called responsibility what does jesus say to him dude that's kind of harsh on yourself man you've got low self-worth no you know what he said you shall be with me in paradise that's all it

took just owning that you are where you are because of your consciousness that's all it took amazing just responsibility i know that's hard because some of us have had weird abuses and cultural abuses and this kind and genders and i i know the world however will not change but through us it's happening not because it's i'm not telling you it's nice stuff that people do i'm saying that it's coming our way as a test so that we can say not today and walk through to the light at the end

of the tunnel every death every change every loss is just another version of a test are people seeing it that way they're no they're typically not typically people are blaming shaming minimizing denying and so on and that will not get us home it just doesn't so jesus to imagine you know i tell you this day you shall be with me in paradise wow that is a voice of hope i'm confused but why and no the guy didn't go into all the tell me why somebody was mean to me because that's human beings right

look how jesus behaved and i'm talking jesus but i'm not pushing a religion by any means i'm talking about attaining the consciousness that he says not that we will achieve that we are by peeling the layers of not christ which is called the antichrist so the mark of the beast and the stamp of the antichrist is simply the the stamp there's another word for the stamp the choice to believe that you're something that you're not and this world currently is really working people's minds they don't know what gender they are

anymore they don't know what race they are anymore they don't know what words to use there's little or no laughter left in the majority of the world and it's fine to laugh it's fine because it means you see through the joke you see through the illusion that's why jesus oh you know the the movies they're so heavy you know and and jesus carrying the cross and the all the pain and so forth they don't tell you other things that happened things that are found in lost books of the bible for

example things that are in the materials of christ consciousness such as of course in miracles and aquarian gospel and so on but on his way one of the times that he falls there's these women on the side of the road and they're crying because they're they're feeling for the loss of this human being and also their teacher the savior they knew who he was felt suspected at least who this person is and here he is in all this seeming suffering what did jesus say to them did he say anybody got a hammer to kind of pull

these you know anybody got a knife to cut me off this you know rope and no what did he say to them women do not weep most of us have heard that story right read the rest in the lost books women do not weep you know what he said do not believe in what you're seeing that's what he said when he's on the cross in his own brothers spiritual brothers john especially john is so cool just what a cool apostle you can quote me on that but john john the cool one okay john looks up at jesus and other very only a

couple of apostles were there but one of the apostles looks up and sees his friend and what he knows to be the christ he looks up and he's crying look at the pain and it's disgusting what happened and jesus looks down at him and says what are you looking at he hears the voice of jesus what are you looking at why are you looking at the imposter and he looks and sees the spirit of jesus here hovering above and the body here and he says why are you why are you looking at the imposter i'm over here that's you and me guys

that's you and me when someone's hurting be with them don't say it's just an illusion get over it i heard this lecture and it's just it's a false crucifixion get to the light at the end of the tunnel and get over it that's insensitive it's rude okay it is be with them be with them hold them give them a tissue be present with people a hand on the back that is the action of the christ or the holy spirit that you're being right then because come when jesus says i leave you with

the holy spirit the other word he used was the comforter i'm leaving now but i'm leaving you with the comforter which means you and i are supposed to become that comforter so comfort people yeah but it's an illusion shh comfort them where they are and then bring them forward but start where they are meet them where they are i've shared this story before with some of you folks here but the the time i had a student uh a client a session you know and all that and this is back in the 90s and i remember this person sent me an email or

a letter it was a letter because i don't think emails were happening yet but they sent me a letter and i remember reading this and going wow she said michael i after working with you i had this vision and i i don't i just want to know i mean like what does this mean and it was clear but it was too new for her to really get it simple story she said i saw myself like the apostles when they were out on the boat and the sea started getting tumultuous and then they saw jesus walking out that story she said and i

saw jesus and i'm he says come to me and i started walking to him she said then i started sinking and i sank and sank and next thing i knew i'm on the bottom of the sea going i blew it i blew it i failed my test shows and then in the distance i see jesus coming he's walking on the bottom of the sea too and she goes what are you doing here and he said i'll always meet you wherever you are isn't that amazing i need to hear that thank you i need to hear that i need to know that i'm not a failure

when i don't just walk around hovering on my colgate invisible shield if any of you are old enough to remember that commercial you know just i'm so immune well what good are you you know that would have been a weird teacher totally detached from us no i'll meet you at the level you're at you want to talk about betrayal he'll say i understand betrayal you know i just don't see it the same way you do you want to talk about fear or whatever it is i'll meet you at the level you're at

crucifixion is normal you don't judge yourself for going through losses and deaths then resurrect what does that mean that means i refuse to let this kill me i refuse to let this get me down i refuse to believe that this has power over me you are resurrecting when you rise to that level of consciousness makes sense this isn't you know like jesus only he went through this as a symbol as it here's how you do it remember in the garden of gethsemane oh my god he knows what's coming and he says if it were up to the ego me

i would say let this cup pass but let the christ me instead surrender to your will and god's will is not crucifixion god's will was the resurrection and ascension because as soon as one person got it it downloaded it to everyone else which is why the christians are correct in saying jesus is my personal savior what that means is the christ that was in jesus is also in me now am i fanning that spark into a flame or do i keep it buried in darkness so technically everybody's brain has a cell that is everyone else

so i have an inner this an inner you an inner every one of my brain cells there's some of you and the reasons part of the brain most of the brain is not active is because we're trying to shut everybody else out you already have people you don't like and you only have this much of your brain working can you imagine what would happen if suddenly your whole brain worked there's so many more people i don't like it'd be overwhelming when we love everyone the entire brain operates and it becomes subservient not to the

brain to the mind and the mind to the soul and the soul to the spirit and the spirit to god when you see me you see the father means i just don't have anything else in between i'm just opening up to the light presence of god so the concept of resurrection is that you would say really commemorated in easter this idea of he has risen who is the he it's the christ in me it's not just a historic brother that i appreciate this is i'm supposed to be doing this am i bouncing back and if it's commemorating spring

am i dancing the way the birds are singing the way the birds are am i am i acting like springtime oh no no no i can't i'm just way too upset still why come back to life lazarus come forth you're allowed to stay dead there's a good bumper sticker you're allowed to stay dead michael murdoch okay you you have free will you're allowed to be miserable you're allowed to stay dead you're allowed to blame shame minimize etc what we're asked to do is why would you want to just ask yourself and answer why would

you want to well because i'm really angry okay i understand because that's one of the primary reasons people don't forgive is when they're too hurt or too angry they get blinded by that so cry beat on a pillow do what you need to do to process that this too shall pass it is inevitable you can say but what if i don't want to ascend it john say it and reincarnate again and again it's fine however it's going to happen am i allowed to not want to yes but here's the funny thing the part

of you that doesn't want to is your ego which doesn't really exist which means as soon as you give up the part of you that isn't there you'll remember the part of you that is christ you know so it's gonna happen the key oh the key it's all about forgiveness it just keeps coming back to that so the crucifixions are cured through forgiveness and then you resurrect so do your work remember to do your work take time practice forgiveness i die daily practice forgiveness do what you can to to to see through and die of the old

self it's what it means die of the ultimate it can't mean the god self i die daily die of the old self when you're going through hell which is the crucifixion in a sense when you're going through hell i recommend that you do personal inventory and some journaling if you're going to be on the cross you might as well make the time worthwhile you know you're going to be dying soon and passing over so why don't we just get something accomplished now is a good time for your deathbed confessions

think about this right think about this the mother the mother the whole time is with you she is she can't not be she's the holy spirit and she's within all of us calling us home so there's the human mother imagine this the human mother who is mother mary knows that she did this whole birth thing she knows this whole story she had guidance the holy spirit speaks to her and says you're going to give birth and it's going to be the messiah and the three wise men all these stories she knows something amazing has happened

and she's part of the essene community and and they're all dedicated to god so something very powerful is happening and she's believing her son is chosen to do something unique and he's born in israelite because of the name is real light so he's like okay i get it and i there's a mission here and imagine she knows the mission and then she's at the foot of the cross watching him die after being beat to a pulp she's watching him die now i'm going to access and channel figuratively the inner mommy

watching your child go through that kind of death horrible and because i was thinking he was the messiah and now this is happening you know what i'm starting to feel the test of doubt did i did i misinterpret something because you have guidance right you've had guidance in your life and you went but wait and that's when you're being the mother at the foot of the cross when you started a business that's collapsing when you wrote a book and you've got pallets of them in your garage and nobody bought them

that is the mother saying wait i i gave birth to a book but it's not selling now what did the divine mother do use her as an example of the mother inside that gives birth to anything children you know you oh i gave birth to my children and i prayed over and sanctified them and only let them listen to spiritual music and they've gone nuts on me man they're like drug addicts and they steal from my purse and what happened mom at the foot of the cross and here's what's happening you're being

tested to lose faith or not lose faith in your beloved child in whom you are well pleased so who you looking at the drug drug addict they are confusing don't look at the drug addict and think you're going to have happy thoughts about your kid you say it's a i feel very sad that they've done this but i know that despite the outer behaviors i know they are as god created them and they are the christ on earth thank you see through it i'm not saying it's easy i've done things in my life where i've

started a project and felt inspired and and it doesn't go the way you think it's frustrating it's confusing i mean it can hit you hard the more you really feel that presence that guidance the more you think it's going to happen and it doesn't why because your version of it needs to burn away so that the real it can come forward the drug addict child of yours let them let them burn away because the phoenix that they are is going to come through but it can't come through while mom is still thinking they're supposed to be

the way the mom assumed they were supposed to be it's your opinions of them that has to die not their behaviors as soon as my box that i put them in is crushed and burned away the phoenix can rise so it's okay for us to say to the family and loved ones you know in a certain way and this is just a synopsis but you know listen i know that i might have been really preachy at times or or you know why don't you read this book i apologize for that that implied that you were not already on your spiritual path

you it's impossible for anybody to not be on their path because they have a spirit and they walk so everything is a spiritual path i mean it is so you can say i missed that and i apologize sorry i missed that what i meant to say honey husband wife child partner what i meant to say was sometimes it's hard for me to see you struggle and i thought well if only you were on no no i'm sorry about that you're on your path and my wish is only for it to become easier and easier for you and let them be if you don't you're implying that

they're not in good hands and that your hands somehow are better than god's it's a control trip [Applause] i really like you guys [Applause] oh thank you thank you [Applause] so the last of those crucifixion resurrection it's ascension you know what ascension really is in one respect it's when you ascend it means you've gone to a new level well how does that apply to day to day life well divorce the crucifixion resurrection i believe i can still survive and come out and a new self when you start integrating the new self

you have ascended to a new level everybody has ascended at least once in their life to some degree the ascension concept in it partly partly is a fable or misunderstanding i die daily also allows me to ascend every day but is it also true that there is a grand ascension well yes and we're in it but the ego absolutely will fight harder to to hold on to the old uh you know limited self limited consciousness so we are ascending grandly and also daily we're not helping the ascension process if we struggle with the crucifixions and

resist them i'm not saying go out of your way to create them and start a religion of persecution self flagellation and so on no we've seen people do that i'm just saying that if and when you go through a crucifixion of any kind whatever that might be die well resurrect mainly through forgiveness and then ascend to a new level of consciousness and you know how do we know if we've done it how do we know when we've actually are we really getting this are we are we just talking it if if you're doing personal inventory

during a crucifixion you probably are dying well that's that's one way to absolutely absolutely know if you're still talking about your past and your circumstances you probably haven't died well yet because how can i keep talking about i burn the diary about it i don't have it anymore which means the cells in my mind brain when they go to access i got to blame somebody i go and they're not there because i gave them to the holy spirit she unplugged them they're gone and i'm like i gotta find something in here

wait hold on give me a minute nobody to resent you know it's it's it's an awkward moment but it's but it's worth it it's worth it so check in if you're doing inner inner tracking if you're looking at yourself and you see complaints about others are dying down in any one circumstance of your life you get fired but you're not spending as much time as you used to hating and blaming the boss that's a good sign you died well please though don't pretend get don't get a rubber band

every time you think of the boss firing you i'm gonna i will not you know i will not judge you are judging don't pretend you're not you know and we have all kinds of ways denial and i will not and this is not happening that stinking boss this is not happening it's you're feeling it scream it into a pillow get it out no but god will then not let me ascend you're already not ascending scream it out i promise you if you vomit enough of your anger you're gonna lose weight and then you might ascend

cry it out cry it out vomit it out write it out get it out well i don't want god to seriously what are you hiding it you know that's not going to work right i mean it's not going to work get it out be honest god loves the things you put on the altar because they're not sacrifices of babies on easter like some cultures twisted to do they're not things that we think animals the you know the old animal the lamb and they're like what did i do to you i'm sorry but i've got to kill you so that god will like me

you know the the lamb's like i'll bet he'll like you more if you don't kill me you know call me silly call me an animal but i'm just kind of assuming guys no man no it's the sacrifice isn't a sacrifice when you don't care about it having power over you anymore you're done so you put the things on the altar that were your lies that were your false beliefs put those on the altar god's like oh my god pile it up what a twisted god that it would like all our perverse thoughts our our false

thoughts and it's true pile them up you know why because i'm going to surrender them into the nothingness they are and you will be lighter so check in if you know that you're doing that much then then you're you're going to be pretty certain that you're dying well when it comes to uh the resurrection part you check in am i am i really resurrecting well i'll know if i if i feel like i'm bouncing back cry take some days don't stuff that crucify die well guys die thoroughly so that resurrection is easy and not

forced and i just feel like i'm i'm taking responsibility and and i'm going to start making amends where i have done harms and even when other people don't give you amends just accept them anyway instead of just i forgive you you've forgiven me too do you have the right to say that yes you know why because there's part of them in you so let that part talk to the other in you i accept your forgiveness because people on earth are going to go no not until you until i what i am as god created me and i will to be the christ

on earth what are you going to try to hold me hold back forgiveness for me well it's too late it's already done you don't want to say that to everybody you know so the third step the resurrection how do i know if i'm truly resurrecting first of all i'm a different person see how do i know if i'm ascending how do i know if i'm ascending because i'm a different person i've ascended to a different level of consciousness something's different about you you've done this one year course

you went to a sacred sites experience in in peru and you you know whatever something happened and you saw god or whatever i'm not talking about you know people going i think i've resurrected from my crucifixions i crucified resurrected and ascended how do you know because i did such a quantity of peyote that wow i'm not talking about that i'm talking about your soul changing i'm not talking about you altering your brain chemistry for a moment i'm talking about you being different don't tell me about all the

synthetic means that you use to become cosmic when you're still the nimrod you were before you went on you know and and did your drink or whatever it was you got to be different if you want to know if you're ascending are you different the first time i went to sacred sites in 1988 and took a group of people and all that wow we went and saw miraculous things in medjugorje with the mother mary we did grease we did the great pyramid all these wonderful things when i got home there were family members going who do

you think you are what do you you like have the glow about you they did and they criticized it you think you're better than everyone else and i was still in my 20s at the point in the late 20s but still i was in my 20s so i didn't know what to do with that because no one was saying michael you know what you're supposed to do say get behind me satan back off the light at the end of the tunnel don't listen to the voices in the dark tunnel go to the light at the end there wasn't anybody serving that for me at the time

god's hinting those things of course but it was still hard as a human but i died enough to where enough of the human falls away and you realize i know what's true and i'm going to stick to that so i came back and was glowing and just got my hands slapped again and again from the people that should have been significant well why did i create people that would do that to me i wonder well there's a good reason why because all i did was reincarnate my family into my wife or into my friends or into my children

or whatever you have your second family family of origin you know you don't it doesn't work to go i'm glad i'm done with them i'm gonna go get married you just marry your husband or the mom you never had you marry your married father or the mom you never had or the daddy there's always some longing do not go into a relationship looking for anything because that implies you're missing something which means you're entering the relationship void jeez just put it in your put it in your

material for the marriage ceremony since i believe i'm missing something i'm expecting you to fulfill that since i believe i'm missing something i'm expecting you to fulfill that i now pronounce you codependent [Applause] and hell will take you now or soon because you can't go good places you are a whole being meeting a whole person you know a whole person meeting hope and they become one they become one means by working your stuff with another you'll become one it doesn't mean they complete you

you see yeah we twist everything around it so just so frustrating so have you become a better person and and even when you're doing a one-year course i close with this at the end of the course do you feel some of your old patterns dying that's a good sign it means you died well are you feeling like you're integrating more forgiveness and doing you know you're doing your inner work but are you becoming a different person and at the end of the day if you're ascending having completed a course or a trial

situation in your life tumultuous situation at the end of the day have you become a better person and are you bringing the better person to others if you cannot say yes you need to do the course again and and you can do the course again anyway because each time it takes me to another level of course so when you go hear a sunday service and you go well i didn't like it or i didn't get anything out of it you're only talking about you right i mean everybody is just a hologram of your consciousness so if if you don't like me it's a mirror of

something in you you're fighting just like me manifesting and i'm just using example family members or a wife or kids or friends that said who do you think you are glowing you know coming back with such a glow about oh my god and i mean i was like wow wow like i just felt so alive and you know this so i had to look at that and it took time because the first thing you want to do is go why are they doing that to me but you go well wait why are they in my life oh well they're mirroring lessons i haven't completely did have it allowed

to die yet and they haven't resurrected yet and i haven't ascended completely got it then you do the process and you're at a different level of consciousness and now you realize i am that i am you own and integrate that and that's permanent permanent permanent peace [Applause] thank you i appreciate the time i appreciate you listening and bless you for easter it's kind of interesting we ended up going a variety of places but clearly this is what life is supposed to look like not just easter we're always supposed to be open to

hearing and learning things at a deeper level than god the shallow levels people live at you know the conversations the average conversation it's like oh my god you know really reality shows we're going to talk about re you're kidding me [Music] and they can call them reality that's kind of weird they're as far from reality as can be so choosing to see things differently it comes from being different choosing people uh to walk with you and the path whether it's his partner's family members children

you know whomever your your colleagues consider yourself blessed and it's not just through challenges remember let's say i have this wonderful service here i can stay and go wow this was really great we talked and they heard about no no or our old self died to a new level today i'm going to breathe that in and i'm learning that taking responsibility and dying of the old and forgiving takes me out of the tomb even though this isn't a tomb it's it's a wonderful experience still i'm going to die of the old

version of what i thought was wonderful on a zero to ten this could be an eight and i'm still willing to let it die as an eight go to a nine why wouldn't i and then i do my work properly and then i ascend to a 10. wow now what do i do i'm like wow i'm one with god and after all of your tests this is going to come to everybody after all of your tests and this was one of the toughest lessons i ever experienced in my life and that was after all this wow dark night of the soul you know i was 30 years old when i went

through it roughly 30 it went through dark neither soul came out of it and i started feeling this wow factor of enlightenment to a new level i mean i felt like i was already doing great teaching and i knew so much now i went to another level i'm like wow but this time dark night of the soul so i thought now the dark night's ending and i'm i feel the light of god i'm now ascending i felt like wow there's nothing left i get it it's all an illusion this is great no more no more body i had been divorced

by that time and i'm the pain of children going all those things all the pain it's like but it's an illusion i get it i get it i get why that i couldn't believe this marriage was ending totally a mind breaker and a heartbreaker but it's ending in hurt and pain and it's all gone and i sat there like i was nuts i started laughing oh you know like like hysterical you know like gone but i'm laughing because i could see it all i could see through it oh my and i thought that that oh my god and that

didn't have power and all my and you start realizing the truth of everything here i come god because there's nothing left and then you'll hear the voice of not the mother who's been holding you through the dark knight she's now oh you look better see everything the bandages we can take them up when she's done with that she hands you to the father oh bloody hell you know i was like this is great mother i'm gonna stay in heaven now right no this is your father hi um father this is amazing i get to say no honey what i do

is give birth to things in in my way different than the mother what i'm going to do is give you new life you're going back back to what the earth that doesn't exist that's right you're going to be a dad again to a different level you're going to be a teacher and a healer for to a new level and everything i thought we don't need anything don't eat now you're being told yeah eat again there's a difference before i efforted to do and now you realize there's nothing i choose to do but with

god but you're still back before enlightenment you chopped wood and carried water after enlightenment you chop wood and carry water and that was very painful for me because i thought i did all the work i woke up i'm going home and god says well you're home you ascended to a new level now your job is to take the new level to the earth no no you just got me healed from being part of those crazy people right and and it's oh my god you just think this is it i can't believe this but the father will say time for birth

again time for you to go i want to send you out amongst people to teach you're claiming the new level prove it because until you share what you've got it isn't locked in permanently so into the world we go again do not be dismayed just know it's part of the cycles and you're going to make a difference just like the kundalini rises and then it connects to the front and comes down again that microcosmic orbit so do my test take me to higher levels and spill over and take me back to the earth plane

yet again but in doing so you didn't just ascend you're now a bodhisattva who's helping the rest of the world to come to a new level of consciousness [Applause] please take a few centering breaths for a brief prayer meditation hmm first centering breathing [Laughter] just relaxing the body [Music] surrendering the belief that that's what you are [Music] [Laughter]

absorbing integrating anything you heard that made sense just own it it's yours [Music] [Music] we can lessen the need for crucifixions and lessons if we learn the easy way it's called just rising in consciousness by choice [Laughter] [Music] [Applause] [Music] don't be dragged to the altar of life where you think you have to sacrifice painfully just choose to walk up to it [Music] bring anything now to the altar that you

perceive to be a struggle a limit in your life finances health getting along with certain people bring it right now [Music] instead of being crucified by it tomorrow you are taking it into the crucifixion in a positive way to be transformed take it feel it listen to the music and experience it for the next minute or so [Music] [Music] [Laughter] [Music]

foreign [Laughter] [Music] die well [Music] where was i attached where was i stuck bring it and i hand this to you divine mother i hand this to you holy spirit of god [Music] and we gradually surrender it and feel

resurrection life after death hope light at the end of the tunnel begin to see it feel it [Laughter] [Music] [Laughter] [Music] [Music] lazarus come forth [Music] [Laughter] arise little one [Music] [Laughter] [Music] roll away the stone [Music] [Music] the women that come

to the tomb of jesus where are you going what are you looking for he's not in there and that's the voice of god christ in you saying what are you looking for are you looking for old issues that you just gave up don't be surprised they're gone [Music] please accept that they're gone it's for your highest good let them go walk out of the tomb and feel and experience that for a moment coming out [Music] [Music] [Laughter]

[Music] we don't stop there that's why jesus said touch me not i haven't yet ascended to the father meaning the process isn't complete just because you pull through resurrecting don't stop there time to go to another level of consciousness now the christ self rises [Music] rise feel the hope and the hope turns into reality feel the desire to dance spiraling through the sky spiraling through the clouds twirl and dance and feel alive feel it in your heart how easily children can hear something and move

just feel that inside yourself literally or figuratively feel your hands move and dance fill your body even while sitting just alive alive why would you light a candle and hide it away let it burn brightly show the world your new self give this a minute to integrate keep feeling that [Music] [Music] now [Music] [Music] wow

[Music] you are my beloved child in whom i am well pleased and that can never change and so it is [Music] [Applause] i really love you man aren't they amazing aren't you amazing [Applause] we're going to do our closing prayer and the way we do it is the light of god surrounds us and then we repeat we are

the light of god so it's not just a prayer that we do in one context we then own it okay all right please stand hmm [Music] soaking in the gratitude soaking in all that we choose to own we speak the truth the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us we are the power of god and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is god bless you all and happy easter to

you resurrection day