Duality and Inner Conflict

so I want to talk about duality because last night and this morning there were a couple comments and emails and stuff people sent in conversations and I started picking up kind of a theme that's helpful to people we we consistently live in this concept of duality without realizing it remember God perfect love oneness it's peace oneness you know like that it's just God if there isn't God and something else religion philosophy nature everything in this universe tells us differently it says if there is a God then there's

something else good versus evil there's always these two things should I or should I not do this thing and Jesus and of course in miracles' says this is the source of splitting headaches because our minds get split he also says it's the source of depression because you have no energy to hold you up because you're constantly divided in what you want to do in other words there are leaks when there's something you want to do but you think it might not be the right thing do you understand you're divided it's called

conflicted conflict has nothing to do with God that's man-made the Bible tells us God did not create fear in man but only a sound mind I don't feel very sound should I date this person or this person should I buy this car or that car every day should I take one a you know vitamin or two should I use this brand or that brand go in any store and it's conflict choose us which magazine should I read you know which newspaper which story should I believe the Democrats say this the Republicans at all what am I

going to do it's the world constantly trying to rip us apart trying to shred us dismantle us in an unhealthy way God tells us Christ consciousness tells us there is a way to be out of that to be in the world but not over the world to know what to do because there is actually only one answer we don't typically know how to find it why because there's we're divided already so we want divided answers you know am i a male or a female and if I'm a male can I embrace femininity urge that not okay

constantly am i this or that in my older am i young I don't quite know who I am so I'm gonna need quite a few options of what to choose so one can fit each of my multiple personalities yeah I'm a male amethyst and with that demeanor so I need lots of options it just adds to more and more to the problem there's only one solution there's only one answer God is one the LORD thy God is one that's a fundamental law truth in most thought systems the LORD thy God is one that means I can know the oneness and it

also means believe it or not on a practical level there are only there's really only one answer to anything we're trying to get we don't like I said typically know how to find it but there really is only one answer it's the answer that is most aligned with love that's why some people do what would Jesus do that's kind of a fundamental Christian concept but it's actually good to do that what would love do what would God do not what should I do I'm the one who got myself into this I'm

the one who actually thinks there's different options of cars and I know that sounds logical but which car is the right one to represent healthiness wholeness should I talk to my ex while they scream and tell me derogatory two things every time I didn't say hate them but should I be talking to them it may not be the right thing cuz I'm better than them no it's not actually healthy for them either my decision is not should I talk to my ex or not it's what does healthiness call for in this moment the answer is

already there well but what if now you're going into duality again what if they get matter I don't know I'm just gonna choose healthiness and what if they react and what if this and what if that don't know let others do as they made but as for me and mine I will serve the Living God so I'm just stay in the center my understanding of what Center is there's an important concept and I'll just launch into this right away because it just came in to me again so the way we do things again the

duality and when you have to make a decision it's an interesting part in A Course in Miracles in the footnotes the diary notes of Helen who wrote it she's hearing Jesus talk to her about such mundane things as getting a coat now I'm not going to go into the full story but she's gonna go out and shop for a coat and imagine this you're gonna go out and buy whatever you guys buy shoes or coats or whatever or if you're like me it's donuts and cookies every day every day man no anyway I love that

new donut store in town I don't know if you guys know this but if you ask they'll actually heat up the chocolate and read dunk your chocolate doughnuts mmm I don't know if they call them double doozies but they should anyway so so here's the truth though Jesus tells Helen whether you want to doughnut a coat or pair of shoes a new car anything he says why don't you ask me to help you find it let me help you he uses the word minutia let me help you even with the Manutius of life oh we don't want to

bother Jesus he's got a lot of people pray into him all the time you know he's probably got a lot of you know emails to get through every day again that's not God speaking in US that's an excuse so whether you call it Jesus whether you call it God whether you call it spirit the Holy Spirit God is asking us why don't you just cast your cares upon me because I care for you and you can try all the no no no and all your reasons with their absurd so just drop them don't even try any excuses let's just go

ahead and try it all right all I need is two I'm going to drive into unity today for a service or I'm gonna turn Unity on today to watch the service I think I can handle that I you know ENTER on my computer it it doesn't matter how small the item is try it just say you know hear it cuz here's the trick we have forgotten what to ask for so when you think because here's what happens you guys have heard of visualization right the techniques that advertise in some of these programs that became billion-dollar and you know

adventures for people videos and movies and books about how to manifest what you want there's a lot of very popular people teachers out there manifesting so be honest don't try to be all cosmic on me here be honest give me examples of the kinds of things people often would visualize jobs money house car relationship oh yeah of course I want my tween soul okay where is my twin okay the one with a fin don't get me started right my guides have told me that he's a dolphin anyway [Laughter] serious now see you wouldn't understand

that but the salt dolphins are from Sirius but that's another story anyway so you guys name these things and the people watching heard you right listen to it cars money job relations okay however and you'd use the techniques so they sit down they close your eyes and okay visualizing you know this new job of visualizing this and that hold it a minute as is often the case I'm gonna tell you all of that is incorrect it's wrong I know we don't like these wrong but I like it so it's wrong now you have

all these teachers that are far more popular known than me and make millions of dollars off this topic she manifests close your eyes and visualize God tells us Christ consciousness tells us and Christ I promise you knows better than any of the authors teachers books DVDs you don't even know what to ask for don't close your eyes and start visualizing a new relationship you don't even know if that's in your high good you don't even know if that's the car you should be praying for stop asking for stuff other than one thing

cuz the Lord that God is one so for example this morning in my prayers I was always say this it sounds strange and disempowering but it's the opposite I have forgotten what to ask for try that humility try this and and the truth is because that means the little self vows then you do this what do you really really really really want what do you think you want in a soulmate twin soul relationship love why do you think you want a car that works well so you don't have to worry about it starting every day what you really want is a feeling

not a thing what's the ultimate feeling we want God so in my prayers meditations I had this thought because I'm you know once again saying you know I'm gonna sit with some folks and we're working on manifesting this this thing this concept in case you don't know this I've talked about it briefly but we're looking at at creating a retreat whether it's here in Sedona maybe Colorado summer we're gonna create a retreat center for larger kinds of events and so forth but an outdoor more

of an outdoor kind of experience so we're putting this together now typically what I can say cuz they're all all the folks who kind of involved and you could go on my maybe my friends if Michael Muir dad Facebook page and ask more about it or something but when we're talking about it we're doing our work we're doing our prayer we're doing our opening and so on and so on now when I was doing that again today it's easy for me to close my eyes and visualize these things we all do that to a degree

and there is a right time and place for the visualization but not before connecting with God so what I do is this I could say okay god I had this inspiration to get this retreat so help us let's get this retreat I'm visualizing a retreat I'm visualizing this and that in the other but here's the trick as soon as you get an inspiration for a twin soul or a coat or a pair of shoes or a doughnut or a retreat or whatever it is all that's really has is it is a test so now in consciousness it becomes like a pole stuck in the

ground and it becomes a test a goal so spirit says what would you like oh I wondered I'm gonna get a retreat God doesn't say oh you should get one there cool what happens is God says what I care about is only one thing ever consciousness you're either awake or you're not I prefer that you find awake so when we say I would like to retreat there's this post stuck in the mind and everything now is going to be about how you handle yourself getting to that retreat not how do I get the retreat but

the consciousness with which I pursue the retreat and if I get no retreat but I have said what I really want is peace what I really want is the presence of God with or without the retreat that's proper prayer that's proper visualization show me what to visualize God and first and foremost I'm gonna visualize not me getting stuff look there's my shoes instead I see myself being completely successful in my test I see myself being totally at peace an amazing example to others in their pursuit of their tests because all that

happened when you said I would like a coat a twin soul it became an object for with which you could be tested because God doesn't care about the item God cares about consciousness and when you pursue the item even when you think the item is spiritual why wouldn't God want me to get that new spiritual book it's spiritual God wants no that's not it God wants you to have peace with or without the book with or without the lottery with or without anything but we kind of do this thing where we sabotage that

because we have forgotten that having the presence of God will give us everything else seek first the kingdom of heaven and everything else will follow if I have a look at Solomon Solomon says wisdom becomes my mantra and he says you know I know that if I have wisdom everything else comes and guess what kind of worked out he became the wealthiest man in history it kind of worked out for Solomon he didn't get it through say military tactics business investments lotteries he did it by asking for the presence of

God in mind so whatever you're looking for twin souls and whatever else if you if you say I know what I'm gonna visualize I said I heard this video and it said anything you want because you are God that's one of the most dangerous things to ever say the person can they can't find their car keys is not God the person who can't remember milk at the grocery store is not God the person who still thinks you know as you drive by somebody who's cut you off you know you know that's not God that's not God so

don't do that I am God try I don't know and as you humble I don't know you rise in but I'm ready to let God help you remember who you are I know can sound almost fundamental Christian when I say things like that but it's the truth there is a power that's never changed and that wouldn't be us we daydream that we're not divine anymore but there's a consciousness that didn't daydream so let's call upon that consciousness that consciousness is really not separate from us but it will

seem like it until we really learn how to get this I want that consciousness I don't want stuff the reason people pray for stuff is because they think it'll give them the feeling of that consciousness and it never in history has worked not one cocaine high ever actually gave you the euphoria of God it only gave you a synthetic euphoria that where's often causes ill results not one joint has ever really calmed you down the way meditation does none of these things work I'm not saying do them or don't do

them I'm just saying they don't work for the thing that ultimately we're looking for only God could give us God and the other things can only give us temporary so why did we go for him in a way that's what it means by thou shalt not worship false gods it means don't invest in things that don't even make sense they're dead you know you this is going to give me something it doesn't even exist it's dead first of all it's a hologram that's like worshiping film on a on a

screen oh look at that you know a really pretty picture on the screen let's worship it it doesn't make any sense whatsoever all that matters is God and when you don't understand that you fear that you'll run you'll hide you'll come up with other things to put you know the false things to put on the altar because you don't know what else to do and that's why even people that have had the most difficult lives that unenlightened lifestyles have found God because they found humility they didn't have to be

those people who were raised in ashrams and prayed and meditated every day because some of those people do so much of it that it becomes their God the thing they do becomes their God I do yoga every day I've been doing yoga for 50 years look at me but then the yoga becomes the thing you think is giving you peace then all of a sudden you're sort of you know it's great your yoga work got you up to you prayer work every day you know eating healthier got you up to a seven on a 10 scale Wow pretty cool

there's somebody else out there that was a zero and becomes a 10 in a weekend because they fell to the ground and said of myself I can do nothing like a good 12-stepper a sincere one they say I can't do this of myself you see that humility man boom it can just launch us into enlightenment and I respect it but it's the consciousness it's that intention but we struggle we all struggle with these duality shaming ourselves constantly learn to say I don't know what to pray for I don't know

what to ask for and then ask show me show me God what would be the oh that's right tranquility that one that one wasn't on my list I read in that book job money caching caching caching but that wasn't in there anyways I mean look and I'm looking it's nowhere in the list what I need really is the presence of God and in my mornings I do that all the time I sort of ask what is what is the the consciousness for me today and like today I kind of went you know love and then it turns you know it's

love love and abundance and then love and abundance became inspiration why because inspiration will give me all that I need to be guided especially in this project then I went inspiration and clarity why because I want clear guidance in all that I do in relation to this project we're talking about then I went well inspiration and clarity are somewhat similar to a degree so I'm good with those and then I added another word you see it could be abundance because the abundance it takes to help manifest this event this this project so so I

zero in I kind of do micro adjustments on what is the consciousness and then I feel it some micro adjustments based on what really makes sense for the consciousness for me today what is my my keyword to access the program called God today and the keyword you know your little password for me is let's say peace or or clarity or inspiration I type that in so to speak in my mind by calling it upon me and then the program opens you see I've opened the software called God it opens and then you feel that and you call that in and you

breathe that in and you let it grow and multiply in your being and your consciousness then after you've anchored in what we could call an abundance of God's presence then think about what to visualize because now it's organic if I were to say to you if you're the perfect presence of God and you well let's all just pretend we use one word joy I am the joy of God do you see how practical it is to ask yourself this who to date I'm going to date a person that resonates with joy now can you can any

of you think of anyone you've ever dated that didn't resonate with joy that would be a yes for those watching I'm hugging okay so the exercise is that practical if I am the presence of God in my meditations and I'm going to visualize my twin soul soul mate this and that and the other don't yet start with what it's like to be the presence of joy start with that then what would such a person look like feel like if they resonate with joy because joy or nothing what would they be like not who would

they look like oh of course that actor that actress got to look like them that's silly you want somebody that looks like them and is a nutcase no I want joy in the form of a partner I also want joy in the form of friendships I want joy in my financial investments I don't want the pulling your hair out mantra oh my god the market you know joy joy can look like something if we use our imagination so we find ourselves constantly conflicted what are we going to do with all these inner conflicts and we're conflicted even in our personality

styles for me based on lifetimes based on this lifetime I can easily say there's a a warrior side like let's go and there's also this really wonderful mystic Saint side so what we do as human beings is think to do one or the other well clearly just be a saint not get anything done but be a saint oh no I don't like that I'm going to be a warrior because we got to get stuff done and forget the center the love of a saint so human beings do this they either become one or another personality type even though they have another side

or they swing with these two extremes and people will often perceive them as a bit nutty like you seems mystical and now you're mean and they think that's duality because it looks that way because they don't understand you those are just two sides of me you me whomever so then what's the solution and then you can say Center absolutely but there's fake centered people I don't do either of those polarities man I just sent her in God and they're just bliss bunnies and you get nowhere with them either so you

have you have the one or the other okay I guess you never heard me say that so there's the falsly Center I'm one the other I'm both or a Miss and none of those are actually real there's there's you could say a fourth alternative obviously that's the one we're looking for but here's what I would endorse or encourage you to do instead of swinging way over here way over here what I'm gonna do is tighten up the movement 510 percent I am gonna choose to be centered in God but I know that sometimes God

will help me pull out the Saint mystic and then the warrior and I'll just kind of move safely in that center area Center is not this per se where I do nothing I still am here and God will help use those parts of us God won't say oh no no not the saint not the you know neither the saint nor the other or or neither the swinging God's gonna say there's another way utilize let me help you utilize your own parts but they're not gonna be conflicted that's the point if you swing only to one or if you swing

from the one to the other it's because you're conflicted or it'll result in being conflicted being conflicted divided we fall so it can't bring good things but but humans do this all the time especially those of us that are trying to be spiritual you know there's a side of me we say some of us like there's a side of me that that's trying to be spiritual but dang you know there's this other side instead of cursing that other side and you think that's a good thing I'm being spiritual

there is no other side look at me I'm just spiritual and Jesus says in A Course in Miracles you don't realize repressing the feelings of the other one is going to destroy you pretending it's not there is going to hurt you but also acting it out will destroy you wait a second yeah I'd lost you lost me here Jesus God whatever you lost me you told me if I acted out I'm up Creek and if I suppress it I'm up Creek yeah he says yeah kind of sucks doesn't it I'm sorry it was there another option Christ God the

Spirit of God the divine mother says I'm glad you asked Wow nobody tends to ask that spirit says you just think you're gonna just do one or the other even with your good intentions these are good intentions I'm a humble person I'm gonna just be spiritual all those other things are just cravings up the body some sorrow this and that any other term you want to use from any culture it's just illusion I will not give in to it honorable that's pretty cool that's honorable but it's not gonna get

you there because you're pretending something isn't there instead I see it it it doesn't have power over me I'm the one I'm the one with those those are not the things with me I'm not a piece of clothing on them they're a piece of clothing I wear so what I'm gonna do is just reel it in and say I'm here I I'm the chooser so you know instead of getting caught in that should I follow this one should I follow that one I'm the chooser that's partly what it means by free will free will doesn't mean oh

well we're allowed to do whatever we want whoo-hoo like party time free will actually means the moment you decide to choose the only thing that is the choice the only God choice when we choose freewill true freewill free will means you're choosing freely but it also means you're choosing the things that set you free free will does not mean what humans mean think it means oh God gave us free will we're allowed to do you know sky's the limit let's go nuts free will means I will only will to do the things that

set me free which means I'm gonna make the God decisions so do i repress these feelings do I act them out there are people you know that because I've written a couple of books on on sacred sexuality for example and I've gone to conferences and workshops on this topic and I've talked to people privately in in groups around this topic and there's a lot of people in that subject sacred sexuality and and what they'll do because there's there's churches that go and speak to and they're swung over here

going we don't do any of that that's not T then I go to these conferences I go to these conferences they're like we do everything you know they do it's wild and and um and they're like you know we endorse saying yes say yes to your urges say yes to everything and it sounds so I want some of that but it's not the answer because they're saying yes to things that are not yet even sorted out who that person is and what they're saying yes to all they're saying yes to really is another

endorphin rush another stimulation so they're all doing these in these conferences you know one speaker after another say yes to your goddess and get naked and let's all webs and make love and it's like ah that sounds so cool they even use the word love you know it all sounds so convincing and then I get up there and I say rule number one what are you guys assuming I'm gonna be mean to these people listen so I say rule number one you have to learn to say no before you say yes so that I know that I'm the chooser do not

give me this say yes to everything if you don't even know how or when to say no because if you don't know there's times to say no and you always say yes you're going to end up being an abuser or being abused because you're not in God I'm not saying say no learn to say no before you say yes which is another way of saying learn to say yes or no based on knowing why you say it not a compulsion not an automatic thing so I'm centered in God enough to go which way should I go with this Oh today this is

the right thing still in center Center is not a thin line give it some movement and I can move a little this way and I'm still in my center because God's guiding me to go a little this way the Saint and today a little more the strength is needed is that making sense give yourself some movement instead of denying and for me I'm not denying or repressing the other two because they're not an option they're they're not a thing out there that I'm denying they're not even there once I learn Who I am and

what my center is I'm living in my Center for the real kind of way and these are no longer there so I'm not choosing this versus that I'm just choosing this and it's all it is and without conflict without duality man I start you know like wow there's kind of a tranquility that's coming about I'm not split between things anymore I'm not split between this and that and the other so the idea is from day to night and night today I can live in this consciousness and it doesn't at all look

like I'm I'm being all mystic you know if I say living spiritually one time I was staying at someone's house well on tour they you know a lot of churches and centers they put you up somewhere and I was staying with this guy and this woman came and knocked on the door and you know brought some a gift like some munchies in case I wanted him she said you know she knocks and the guy answers is Michael here yes he is and she goes what do you guys do while Michael is here staying with you would do you get to talk to him

what do you guys do fortunately this guy had a great sense of humor so he was really respectful he's like oh yeah you know everything's fine and answering respectfully but the way he told the story to me he's like yeah she's like what do you guys do she he goes I was just wanted to say yeah all we do is sit around an ohm you know you know so to mate to maintain a true healthiness in mind body and soul that cannot be done by what foods we choose and by what things on the outside that we do first

healthy mind a non conflicted mind and then it's like Jesus was saying you you go to some person's house and out of all their love you know they you know they're they're vegetarian or whatever you don't have to shame them for that say wait I thought you would have some bloody steak for me or vice versa oh I see you're a meat-eater I should probably leave now the shaming people isn't going to make you healthy do your best to be you know allowing and tolerant practicing if I live in this centre what would that look

like and you don't need someone to tell you what it looks like because then it becomes a dogma you feel it what is it like to live this you can ask a five-year-old if little five-year-old if you were the happiest person you could ever be what kinds of things would you do today and a five-year-old could tell you I would ride my bike and I would go running in the woods or whatever they have right they would tell you things that resonate with happiness and that's all God asks us to do centering what you

know God to be and then live accordingly instead of Peace Love joy I wish I could do that Peace Love joy I wish I didn't do that Peace Love do it's all conflicted don't don't get me wrong we all have a little of the oops too far ADHD we all have a little bipolar we swing a little bit but how much so how much are we gonna do that and then do we let that pull us off our Center so an example of this might be when I for example when you drive in traffic some people go the speed limit but there's what you call the flow of

traffic which is usually about five depending on the depending on the speed limit five to ten miles over the speed limit the posted speed limit so I'm gonna typically not drive ultra fast nor ultra so I'm gonna kind of go with the flow of traffic for the most part but I noticed the other day that cars were like voom by me and here's the reason I was in a state of mind where I was going the speed limit or just under out of respect I moved because there's a slow lane for a reason but people are

whipping by and so what I do is I didn't say I'm not going fast enough what I did was this is the speed limit in my mind right now and it just happened to be what was a few days before that I'm sure I was gone ten miles over the speed limit because that's what was happening I needed to get you know get somewhere in this and that but it's it's what feels right I wouldn't want to swing too far to either extreme but what most serves the moment but the moment what kind of moment the moment that we're

centered in God God doesn't always ask you to drive slow nor fast it's gonna be what's right for the moment that's why I said it's it's this duality between the warrior and the saint we all have them so think about this for a second what are your dualities bless you you know think about some of those things for yourself you know I'm a really tender partner but you've got this really passionate side so how do we bring those two both into reality how do we bring them both in without only being one or

the other or being one shaming the other or pretending that you're in a center that you're not think for a moment just for a quick second here we're not we'll do a meditation on but just for a quick second what kinds of dualities do you have do you have do a letís in your parenting you know we're so loving and family and yet brutal in your you know punishments it's okay don't judge yourself for it you will never heal these without seeing them and owning them what are my dualities tune into

that for just a sec and then just ask yourself if I start to balance those dualities is it easier do I find feel see any kind of resistance not a meditation per se but just an initial sense of that okay and all I'm asking just for a quick moment is how do you respond to the idea of you know maneuvering with that if you heard so far what I've said do you think it would be easy or challenging to deal with that anybody easier challenging challenging most of you said challenging Wow good even if you think it's gonna be

easy let's just tell you know it's it's often gonna be challenging if it was easy you probably already would have done it here's an example duality so I'm I'm kind of a believe it or not even though I talk I'm up here and I do this I'm kind of a quiet person otherwise and and I'm you know kind of you know private in some ways in the old days that was quite private I came to unity of Sedona and people were like who's this person there's this buzz everybody so who's this Michael got

we we've heard great things we want to go see what he's like but because they wanted to do what often people do they want to know everything about you so that they can find a way to judge you and then they could wipe their brow I thought this was going to be real somebody's spiritual and loving but now we found fault so now we don't have to go and listen to him see that's what we do as an excuse we do it with God Jesus you know spirituality religions we do it with everything find fault so that you

can distance from it so people were coming in looking for all kinds of things and I found myself going wow why would you even want to care why do you care are you gay are you straight yeah now what you know are you this are you that okay you know are you a meat-eater vegetarian I think so which one are you why does it matter when were you born you know what sign are you I'm a quadruple Ares with a bad moon rising you know I don't know why do you ask and people were like what so then what I did was not easy I just finally just went

fine here and that's what I did I stood up here week after week you know take your shots you know what are you looking for because people that fault finding the hate and standing in a town where there's like this competitiveness it was quite weird I couldn't say that everyday to anybody you know there's not a lot of people I could say wow this town is weird you know they're like I live in Sedona so you can't say that to them you know pop burst their bubble but but gradually I found and heard other

people sharing the pain that they were experiencing being in a place that burned just so badly but it's good because when the droste burns away when all the the heavy metal burns away out comes the gold but it was not easy so I'm just sharing one of those dualities for me was I was polarized a bit more privacy and they're asking for complete targets to shoot at which is another extreme but why does the other extreme exist only if you're at another extreme okay open take your shots Bam Bam Bam

Bam Bam hurt not hurt it does this it does that scary is this and that let it take shots but what's happening is as this is doing this nature is giving you a chance to now go find peace now I don't feel as extremely private not that I was extremely but somewhat nor do I worry about the other extreme now I've just said here it is and people could then say we don't like and they go because they tripped on some judgment of some kind or some of them said wow this person completely reveals more than

maybe anybody they have ever seen and they go in he's actually kind of decent Wow how did he pull that off which becomes in itself attractive energetically or physically to some people but in itself it's a beautiful thing if all of us in this room or in this town or in this on this planet did the same thing I have nothing to hide Here I am or as Yogananda says Here I am love it or hate it and no secrets you see I was brought up as a kid with extreme secrets like smoke most dysfunctional families lots of secrets

so it was not easy nor was it nature for me to go and just sit in a town and have people take shots but it's like ok that's what they do here to spiritual teachers and you know some people go god it's terrible what they do to teachers yes it is because it is not God doing it it's ego but what's amazing is not just what they're doing the opportunity it gives you if you're an author a teacher a healer because it helps you either shelter up more in defensive Nisour drop the defenses and become more open and I

have become all that and in you guys helped me do that there's people that weren't very nice that contributed to my learning that but what I really dig is the people who were able to do that in a nice way they are able to see me making micro adjustments what is it you want to know do you do this do you do that and just sharing what do you want to know what what I eat what I don't eat what you know just because they're trying to take shots now that doesn't mean I think you should be transparent to people who are doing

nothing but wanting to know things for hurtful reasons I'm not telling you that I'm not telling you to tell your three-year-olds the struggles you have with their father or mother oh I'm just being transparent the kids like I haven't even stopped bottle-feeding yet and you're telling me all this stuff what I'm not saying that everything in its appropriate you know time and place but to be to be under a microscope forget that people will do this how about doing it ourselves then you don't

have to have the world do it imagine you getting yourself under a microscope but what do you find is there something you're afraid that others will see don't wait for them to do it but if you're going to grow and grow in consciousness you will not I'll be allowed to be here or here or vacillating between the two nor falsely centered if you want to grow no secrets no hidden parts no stone left unturned I don't want to think about certain traumas I've had why are you scared let's look at that are you shamed

let's look at that all of it has to fall away my suggestion is do it yourself rather than having it done to you I swear it's much easier man so we're going to take a moment to share some meditation time just a few minutes of meditation where we can process a bit of what we've just discussed so just set aside the stuff of the world set aside the thoughts even set aside this room just drop everything for a moment when you're inhaling it's with this intention of I am on the exhale at peace think of

nothing else choosing peace and let's take a moment now duality where when how do you have dualities they may not be things that you're conscious of do you have financial dualities where you preach love and abundance and prosperity but you don't tithe an you live in fear about paying your bills do you have parenting dualities dualities as a partner as a lover dietary dualities the dualities can mean you vacillate to extremes or that you

try to be pinned over at one extreme i am an absolute vegetarian I don't like meat-eaters would be one extreme [Music] [Music] so imagine the one pole or the other or the two poles that you swing from to and breathe for a moment and say these words in your mind I have no opinions of this I have no thoughts or judgments about this being this or that and try to imagine then the tension of being over there or the other drops and so the pendulum or the polarity starts to relax and come in it's like it just calms and

it starts to come to you where you're sitting you're not pinned by an emotion or in a belief we just drop that and notice how the tensions it's almost like our arms out there being crucified and someone pulls the pins out the nails out my arms come in again might my lungs my ribcage from being crucified of life it calms and I can breathe again try to imagine vividly I'm not divided I don't have to choose between this and that there's no one goal pinned to one pole like I want this person in my life or a

person all of it drops what I really want and this is amazing what we really want is this calmness this peace and if you had a child you cared about this is the only thing you'd wish for them anyway so just give yourself the same thing like I mean if you had a kid would you pin their arms up and say be both be torn between two things be be the most popular at school and yet you're shy so you're gonna be torn all the time you wouldn't wish that for a kid so give them that same thing all we get to

breathe no games no illusions [Music] when you look at your life ask yourself which of these types am I most often doing pinned between you know pinned to one pole or the other the good girl the always strong father you know one of those or secondly do you tend to vacillate between two things trying to please others or yourself are you pinned more often are you vacillating more often or are you falsely centered pretending that none of this bothers you which one are you most often and then let's ask ourselves a couple of

questions why why am I most often like this and just watch spontaneous answers it's because I want people to like me it's because I want to look good I want to have heirs of being spiritual I'll accomplish more ask yourself what it is that created this propensity [Music] and imagine that in your heart and soul is the Christ presence and imagine that Christ's presence connected with the heavens a pure perfect light from the heavens beaming down into your per perfect pure heart golden light heaven turn to heart and

you have the Christ as a consciousness God as a consciousness now and then say to yourself what from this place of mind what do I need to do to release my greatest propensity to pin to polarize you no or to swing on the pendulum or to fake these fake spiritual what do I need to do to allow that to start falling away and let the spirit tell you in your heart it could be practical you need to see a counselor it could be just a statement in your mind now forgive yourself it could be a phrase you how you hear the words of spirit saying

honey don't be afraid let yourself receive an answer and believe in it it'll be a true answer as long as you're maintaining that you are in that column of light that golden light from heaven to heart [Music] [Music] and in your own way as we're coming towards a close take a moment to visualize yourself having the strength and ability see yourself doing the advice you just asked for see yourself being stronger clearer less afraid or whatever it is visualize yourself in

that state of peace true center [Music] and since center is not a thin line how is it okay for you to move a little bit to one side or the other the the to do I'll do a letís how can you have both in a healthy way so that we give allowance to that visualize that for a moment and feel like it's already happening this this is me I can do this this makes sense I choose not the painful other version of things and I choose this it feels right my Center and

my Center allowing a little movement right and left I can do this and close with a consciousness of gratitude a feeling of saying thank you to your choice to spirit and for your new life quietly give thanks and then stretch out when you're ready [Music] very good I pray this made good sense brought up some tears for some of the folks that's a good thing