Divine Patience

So today, I want to talk about something, one of you wrote in yesterday, and I said, I'd try to address it, and that's simply the topic of patience, but patience as a divine level of consciousness. So it's not the usual meaning of patience, and I'll explain that as we go. First, I want to mention that this world is a place of tests.

The very concept of mystics using a form of being hung up on a cross, not the cross Jesus crucifixion, but an X. Mystics used to do these initiations where they would be tied up there and go through visions and fasting as on the Sundance of the native Americans. Those are all symbols. Those are all metaphors that this world tries to defeat you.

This world that was made by the ego, or is layered by the ego, tries to defeat us. Defeat what? Well, we're divine beings. We're divine beings, and it's trying to crucify us essentially, so that we lose faith. So that we don't resurrect into higher consciousness. So that's what this world's about.

Life is filled with tests, and none of them are clearly, not by accident, but really behind all of our tests, one of the deepest themes behind the test is this, will you keep faith? You mean faith in Jesus and, well wait, faith in who you are. Because if you have faith and who you are, you will pass your tests.

The only reason we fail our test is when we have forgotten who we are. But what about the tests of other people who are annoying or hurtful, or selfish, or your children that are addicts and so on, and so on. What about them? It's the same principle. They are testing you to lose faith in who they are.

That doesn't mean I'm saying, don't forget, enable everybody. That's not what I'm saying. Because sometimes the best way we can affirm who they are is by telling them, we're not gonna let the ego who they are not to dominate our conversations. You're allowed to say no, no to the ego within people.

When I say trust people, I never mean trust the egos of some people or of people You're trusting in the divinity of a person. I remember, Saint, Francis, there's a story about, he had kind of a - here. he was," I love everyone, I love, look at animals and look, just love love, love, love, love.

" And yet he had a major phobia about lepers. They kind of just grossed him out, like he had really visceral reactions to lepers. Your thing can be addicts, your thing could be alcoholics, or things can be about loud people, hurtful, whatever, politicians, whatever, who are also sometimes loud and hurtful.

They get a collection of those things. But Saint Francis saw that this wasn't quite right. And he felt, obviously, he's gonna feel guilty about that. But there's a moment where finally he sees a leper on the road and he goes over and hugs them and kisses them. He decides that's it. And he goes over and embraces them, and hugs and kisses.

And he decided, I'm gonna get into the God mind where nothing matters. So he hugs and kisses this leper and so on. And as he's doing so they say, the person he was hugging disappeared, except the robe he was holding. So now he's all of a sudden just holding this robe and then he fell to the ground because he realized it was Christ who manifested in the form of somebody to say, let me test you.

Let's see how you're doing with that leper issue. Now, it's not that we all could claim that it's always Jesus as your partner who hurt you or as your parents who abuse your... But we're not saying that they're always, literally see the literal. He got the literal version that it was Jesus, or sometimes there's been angels who have manifested, I've had that happen in my life.

They manifest, they disappeared. And wow, this is amazing. In France, one time at the Agora months of this amazing experience where these two gals appeared up on the top of the mountain, where there was nobody but our group privately up there doing prayer and these two gals, the Mary's, we called them.

But these two gals at symbolize Magellan on they appeared. They started talking to me this amazingly deep conversation for a short while, and they disappeared. And everybody saw this. Everybody saw they were like, were those gels that Michael was talking to. And I said, I'm not gonna tell you who they were.

I'm gonna tell you to go look for them. 'cause I knew they were gone, so magical things happen like that, but it's not always gonna literally manifest is magic and more important is the metaphor, the deeper symbol, meaning that now sometimes the people that seem hurtful or obnoxious to us, they're not always literally Jesus, and then some miraculous, they disappear because that would make everybody start relying on the possibility that that's the case you have to do deeper than that.

You have to trust that it's not Jesus, but it's actually the Christ in that annoying person, that despite them being annoying, there's a Christ in them not they're pretending to be annoying and it's really Jesus. And that would be beautifully if you got that. But more importantly is when it isn't.

Jesus. Can you still trust that the Christ is in that person? That's why I've always that just don't hate the person. I don't care who they are to you, man, politicians included in fact, refuse to hate them in not refusing to hate them. You've been hooked by the ego and in judging them, you're already gone.

That's what it means. You're already judged yourself. You have already determined that you yourself aren't the very thing you can't see in them. So it's so important for us to recognize this and realize that we have to become the things we claim to be even a unity of Sedona. We may claims this, this is amazing.

And then we have to prove it by going through tests that would people pushing and pulling in and are you really is amazing. Can you guys really be so loving? And this is that. And when we had to say no, occasionally to people that were hurtful for some people, that was proof that we're not as loving because it takes really great souls to know the truth, but respect the illusion to know the truth of who you are, who I am.

These other people are in the world and sometimes hurtful, but respect the illusion which is in this space. Hurtful ness is not allowed. So we have something to live up to. People keep wanting to get something spiritually, they want to get something from the universe, they want to get more abundance or healing or whatever.

The best way you can assure that you're gonna get something is by being it. If I don't learn to be it, then it's actually not me. So now it's a passing thing. It comes and goes, because it isn't me the more I become that thing, the more real and solid and permanent it becomes. Is that making sense? Alright.

So one of the things you have to do when we're into the state of, okay, I want to change. I want to become so St Francis, I love, love love, but his test was the leper to move from saying to being, but what's yours? And I have to say, you're better off going. I'm small, I'm very small, spiritually.

I have no big claims that way. You won't get tested at all. You could play it safe. I mean, sometimes I'd recommend it. There are... At times in my life I'm thinking, Oh god, let me just become very small, spiritually or whatever. But once you wake up, you can't... It's like, Oh fine. You just kinda go along with it.

And the test though are never accidental. Sam Francis was, is someone else would have had no problem with that perhaps. But that was hit. There's an interesting story. I don't know if you know the guy, of the guy, I think his name's Jim Caviezel. I tthink is how he pronounces his name. But Jim is the actor who played Jesus in the Passion of Christ.

Now, he's a normal guy, an actor, is dealing with life stuff, probably a little extra spark of goodness somewhere in this guy all along. But this guy is just an actor, whatever, and he gets this call. And the guys says "Hi, this is Mel." And he goes, "Mel who?". He goes, "Mel Brooks, what do you mean, Mel? Who?" "This is Mel Gibson, and I want you to be in this movie and I want you to play Jesus.

" And Jim Caviezel said, "Wow." He said, "I remember someone telling me when I was first launching into acting. The person said, there's a few things you must always remember as an actor. One of them don't ever play Jesus." Why? "Well, there's all kinds of stereotyping.

" "But... But what if you and I, we're gonna play Jesus or some great character like that isn't impossible." The universe is gonna test you to see if you can hold that. Now, if you're small minded and you, the type of an actor that can just contrive a role, which isn't a great actor, then you just play a role and it...

We may not come to you, but if you're a great actor, a great actor tries to be the character. Now, what about forget acting? What about you and me when we try to be more spiritual? You see what's gonna happen? The universe is gonna say, oh, really? Would you make a good pilot? Her it can. I get a little nicer role.

Oh, okay. How about one of the shepherds at the birth? Let's ramp it up how I claim to go, 'cause if you make a claim here, it comes the universal sand. So it might be, we'll see testing you. So this guy says, and Melissa says, you know, I gotta tell you, if you take the role I need to tell you in advance it could ruin your career, you might never work again.

And he sat with that for a second, and he was silent because something happened in Him and He said, this is like a test. This is like a testing faith. He saw this as he's talking. So he was quiet and he was hearing something happening. He then said, he heard Mel Gibson cover the phone saying he's not gonna do it to somebody 'cause the actor was silent on assumed that meant, oh, we scared him.

He's not gonna do it. And he came back and he said, yeah, you know the bottom line is if my life were ruined because of playing such a role, so be it. He felt this inspiration now during the filming, because there's filming, you always protect the actors during the filming. There were scenes such as the lashes, right? And something had happened where they didn't have things quite measured out properly.

And the guys were supposed to use these whips for some of the shooting. Some of it was done through a technology to fake, but some of the whipping was actually done on an object behind the actor, but they miss measured, and a couple of times the Whip came around and took out over a foot, a flesh in length.

It's like, Oh my god, this intense. Then they ask him, he's getting sick during the filming, and he loses about 40 pounds. But now he's the weight that Jesus actually was. And then here's when they ask him to carry the cross. It was so heavy. He dislocated a shoulder is like, can anybody see this? I'm like, this is almost funny, but it's amazing because what's happening is he's going through it.

It's almost like a STIC bata. He's going through his own version of the test, and then it gets even trip here because he's on the cross and the weather, they filmed it at a certain time of the day. It was freezing. So now he couldn't even get the words out when he's on the cross because he was dealing with exposure and hypothermia.

Okay. And during this time, there's an actual storm that comes overhead, and the thunder was shaking the ground, and each time it would startle him, it would read dislocate his shoulder, and he was in so much pain, but nobody knows exactly that he said all this pain. So he's on the cross and He says, and then all of a sudden he sees this flash of light come to him.

And he said, in The people, watching the people, the actors on the ground watching, they actually saw this great light appear around him like, Oh my god, this areathis, or a boom. And it was supernatural. But it was also... He was struck by lightning. While he was on the cross God and I'm like, You've gotta be kidding me.

So they get a medic up there and trying to check his heart, and he turns to the crew and they say, he said, he could die. We have to get in the hospital. Gibson says, what do you think to the actor? And the actor says, 'cause the actor hypothermia dislocation, total pain, he couldn't feel his face muscles 'cause he was freezing and the living.

And he said, just keep filming. He said, because if I die, I'm ready. He had had so many spiritual experiences in this, but one of them was this, the tests were happening, this is for all of us. The tests were happening. And he said, I learned how to pray because I was in so much pain and nobody knew, I just kept going inside and he kept seeing things and feeling things so life tests us and it does what it does.

But do we have the courage to do the right thing? Turn to God turns to Christ amazing to me, it's a metaphor of life itself. It's strange that we walk around thinking so small things happen then don't happen, and how inconvenient that is. Does anybody going through filming a Jesus role, but be careful what you ask for? And I have such love and respect for this person.

It's a film role, but you and I, this is a guys, whatever your test, the leper's, the filming, what is your test, the kids that don't. I go the direction all the time, or they get sick, loved ones that pass away, whatever. That's your test. And I'm not saying God is trying to like, I'm gonna try and ruin your day to see if you're a good person.

These are all completely proportionate to our consciousness. I can't be tested on this one. If that's your issue and not mine, I will be tested by mine. And I think people forget that you are that much loved. Again. Remember in the bible, not one bird falls from the sky without the awareness of spirit.

It's all known. Everything is numbered. Everything is perfect. Everything is lined up just perfectly by our collective consciousness. And so you go out to your car and you got a dead battery. It's symbolic of something and it's for you, not for us, but we can help you with it, get you to it, jump the car, whatever, jump, start the car.

But man that this is all connected, everything so perfectly for a reason. And that actor had his list of things, but then he was playing the Christ role. So he has a list of anything, Christy, you know, related to Christ to be in that kind of pain. And he said, he's on the cross. And he said, one thing that really started him was that there were people who were there who were completely indifferent, just like at Jesus crucifixion.

There were people that were totally sympathetic, but nobody quite knew the pain he was in, because people shut down. They don't know how to tune in and be one with everyone and the recognition that we're all in this together. My brother, my sister, how's it going? How can I help? And we're also guarded about helping each other.

It's a strangest thing. So Jesus goes through this, but he's telling us the grace to go through it. What is that called? Divine patience. Now, patients isn't the same as tolerance tolerance, when you say, well, I probably have to tolerate your behavior or you... That's actually still a judgment that's falsely being forgiven.

I'm gonna tolerate you. Patients means that we actually understand there is a purpose to it. All everything is connected, even if I don't know how everything is connected. So when we become prayerful and say, patience is a huge lesson, obviously. And when we become page, when we step back and say, I'm willing to see more of what's happening here and to say it another way, the third dimension is made up of laws that actually create a third dimension time of another one space.

What's the third one? It's time space and patience. Why is patience in there with the others time represents the human world with limitation? Time limits. That's the root chakra space. We start to get into the heart chakra, opening opening to space. And patience is the crown, because it's a way of saying that even in the third dimensional world, there's a version of God here, not god.

God just only got a version of god. What is this version of god? Patience, divine patience. So if you can get this, if you can hone it on divine patients, if you can practice divine patients, what it means is, despite the way things look, there's a reason for it. So time is a measure between the time of two events.

So time is actually figured based on that, whether it's the movement of the Sun or whatever, it's the measure of these events when they happen. Space. Is this obviously, the space between things happening, is that making sense? Patience is actually the purpose behind whatever happened in time and space.

So patient means I'm practicing a divine attribute in a world. Now, if you keep going back to patients like tolerance, no patience means everything is connected. Time looks limiting space. Even as fast as it can be, still would have some sort of a limit. Patients means there's a purpose to it all underneath it all everything's connected.

If you're a healer and you understand the body, parts are all connected, it's called holistic, but everything is connected. There's not fascia in the body that connects organs and so on. So there's an energy between all things like the whole universe. Every cell is actually connected, but an invisible thread or energy, an invisible web kind of an energy between IT all.

So patience means everything is okay. Now ignorance will say Everything's in divine order, meaning I have no idea how this is gonna work out, but I like to say things to comfort myself. When you really understand it's in divine order. You become patient. Of course, in miracles have a quote I'm gonna share with you from the course, because the patients can afford to be patient because they understand not that all things will eventually work out.

That's kind of almost pessimistic. Even though it sounds optimistic, they will eventually work out. True patients means they already have. We just don't know it yet. That's how confident you can be. If you truly understand patients, it means I can afford to be patient because everything is fine.

Everything is connected. Somehow. The people that are hurtful or being hurt, it's all going to be okay. In fact, it is okay. The Christ or divine in them cannot be hurt. The divine and the other people can't cause hurt. That's the level of patience in the book of revelation. There's a reference, the patients of the saints.

Why an revelation? We're gonna do an online course on revelation in a couple of weeks. We're gonna start. It's only a few weeks long, but amazing deep stuff, possibly the deepest material we've ever had channel. But why does it reference the patients of the saints? It's in reference to those who remain faithful through their tests, know that you're gonna go through the leper story and the crucifixion of the actor story.

You're gonna have your stuff, your kids, or whatever IT is, your partners losses, loved ones, disease, aging, whatever it is, these are my tests. These are the things I'm going through. And all tests are the same. Their tests in test in our patients, which the word patients is synonymous with True Trust and faith.

Patience. See, patients is not a tolerance word, it's a knowingness. Patients of the saints endure. Your tests were being told, endure your test, hang in there, This too shall pass. What will pass the stuff that isn't real, don't sweat it, don't worry, worry means. And when you try to be controlling overly planning, everything in your day, overly worrying at obsessing, I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna have a conversation.

When I say this, they're gonna say that, and I'll counter with this. That is not faith or patience that is calculating controlling, and it's based on fear and worry just in case God isn't watching or taking care of this plus you just in case God isn't taking care of our situation financially, we gotta be prepared waiting for a rainy day, which goes guarantees are gonna have one patience, patience, patients, that you're abundant.

"Okay, when?" Tap, tap, tap, tap, your feet, you know when, when am I gonna see that? When am I gonna see? Finally, where's my soulmate? Whereas we're assigning these tasks expecting them now, but why? Because something in me miserable and I'm hoping something will make it feel better so that we call prayer.

But that's not true prayer, it's... It's start, but it's not true. Prayer. True prayer would be for patience. The guide me into the ability to know that even on the cross, Jesus said into your hands, I surrender all situations you see into your hands, the ability to surrender, you have a loved one they pass away.

And how do you get over that? Well, maybe you don't, maybe in this lifetime you won't, but you can offer that. There is another way of experiencing this. There is another way of looking at this wishing. Things did happen, wishing. Things didn't happen, isn't actually practicing faith and trust and patients, and those are all synonymous faith, trust patience.

So of course, in Miracle says, the following, Those who are certain of the outcome, and I change the only a couple of words for simplicity, Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait without fear or worry. Patients tells us that the outcome is certain at a time, perhaps unknown to you thus far, the timing will be as right as the answer.

In other words, the timing of something will be as perfect if you trust as the answer itself, which is also gonna be perfect, and this is true for everything that happens now or in the future, the past as well, held no mistakes, nothing that did not serve to benefit the world as well as Him to whom it seemed to happen.

Perhaps it was not understood what happened at the time. Even so a teacher of God means a miracle worker, someone that surrenders themselves to spirit is willing to reconsider all past decisions if they are causing pain to anyone. So this is important because it's saying everything's perfect, everything's fine.

All lessons were somehow relevant for everybody it does say, but even so a follower of Christ consciousness and so on, should still be willing to reconsider some past decisions be willing to own. You've made our choices at times if they're causing pain to anyone. That's a good way to know that may have slipped patience though, is natural to those who trust sure of the ultimate interpretation of all things in time.

Notice the reference of time, because time and space are the gravity that pull us into the illusion patients freezes from it. Why? Because no matter what timing, I expected something patients tells me it's already here, no matter how distant I feel from another person in space patients tells me We're one.

Did that make sense? So no outcome already seen or yet to come can cause them anymore. Fear or worry. Beautiful, isn't it patience or because that word keeps tempting us to go into the tolerance interpretation, patience, that somehow we're all connected somehow. Everything is alright, the great movie, the Clark Gable from years got an old old movie called Strange cargo, but one point to that story, it's a guy who...

There's a penal colony, and these guys are planning prison break, but a character walks into the story, walks into the movie. He walks into the penal colony and they're like, why would anybody break in? This is we're trying to break out who's this guy? And it's Christ. And he goes in there and he breaks out with them, so that in the journey through the jungles on their escape, he's transforming each and every one of them.

It's amazing, but at the end, I'm not gonna give away all the great bits, but there's a point at the end where the last of the prisoners are on a boat trying to escape, and it's not an accident, the storm water and the captain of the boat, he refers to. Jesus guy refers to him as fisherman.

So it's kind of like any of the Apostles or peter, whomever. There's this point where the last of the convicts realizes that this is Jesus and has a transformation. And the fishermen, the captain of this boat sees these experiences, sees these miracles. So he says to the Christ character, he says, is everything gonna be okay? And he turns to me, he says, everything is okay, everything is all right, not going to be.

It's already perfect. And when you hear the word perfect, do not misinterpret it with some of us do make the New Age statements of it's all in perfect order. It's all perfect 'cause they don't know what they're saying. They mean that even though everything stinks somehow, it's perfect.

The Christ interpretation is beyond the world. You think you see. That's where the perfection is, not the garbage. I can't kick you in the leg and say, well, that was apparently in divine order, wasn't it? You don't make divine order out of hurtful ness or ego. Ego has no intention of making the transition into light.

It disappears when we stop choosing to defend ourselves for hurtful thoughts. So everything is alright, means isn't an amazing debt. Not this is alright. It means despite what we think we see underneath it, there's a holiness. So you look at a tree. Oh, clearly, that's a nice symbol because it's beautiful and green one day, that tree is going to age and die, maybe become diseased.

Now, is that okay? Well, it's part of nature, really? Would you like its disease? Would you like a disease crippling you? 'cause you're now saying it's okay for the tree. It's divine order. It's part of the cycles of life, not What you think. You see the molecules that make up that tree.

There is a pure light that you can't see 'cause you're looking at the damn greenery, but underneath it, there's light just like we can let go of the shroud that covers it. And all of a sudden, the tree burst in delight. That's what it means. When you say It's all in divine order, that somewhere here, there's a divinity, but we're willing to say, isn't it funny that in this moment I can't see it.

That's prayer. Real prayer. It's the prayer to acknowledge what I think I'm seeing an experience like disease and discomforts and whatever else yet saying, but somehow everything is okay and I would like to get to know that other world. That's okay. How well what you do is wish you didn't have challenges and tests and just to be in denial and kind of believe another world now by forgiving the one you see and patience allows us to do that.

Forgiveness means I'm gonna do a process around this patient allows me to not even need to do the process because it already takes me to the other side where there is nothing left to forgive patience, knowing that all is one. Meaning God all is one with god, this world it'll test and each of us in this room and watching online and people that aren't even watching everybody's having their particular versions of tests.

The person that's afraid of a dentist is gonna end up getting scheduled this month to go to a dentist because it's one of their test. Well, that's nothing compared to a Jesus kind of test. That can't be true. The dentist, it's perfect for you. If you have an issue with that trusting, getting massage, trusting someone, touching your body if you've been violated, it's scary and it's a test.

So see, just try it, be willing to say, I'm not gonna be in denial anymore. The world, it's constantly now, don't make it a bad place, but life tests me on every imaginable level, and particularly wherever my frailties are my weaknesses, if you want to call it that. But once I go through those tests, I have two options I can strengthen, or I can shelter more even more than I was, which one you think you're supposed to be doing.

So ask yourself, how do I get to this one? Don't tempt the world in a way of saying, I'm going to test like Jesus, 40 days, 40 nights. And then he goes through, they say the double came, which is the ego, whatever. But the devil comes in tests, him and it says, just jump off the cliff and the angels will come and catch you because of the incredible being you are.

So why does Jesus respond to some of those temptations in the desert with lines like, don't tempt the lord. It's like, Don't Waste My time. So don't go and do foist things and expect like, okay, I'm supposed to be protected through that. You're supposed to learn not to do for things.

Don't dive into a relationship, somebody you met the bar last night, you've now know for a few hours and you say, okay, lord, this ones in your hands. I hope this works out. God would have said. I said, don't go to the bar. I'm not condemning bars. I'm just using it as a metaphor. Alright, alright.

But just imagine everything it's being told in your heart when you're making decisions, which include ultimately all my decisions when I started a while ago, are saying stating what I believe about myself, so when I make decisions of sort of bargaining away in relationship, settling for dysfunctional relationships and co dependence, or whatever IT is, abuses, if I do that, what is that saying about me? So in other words, I had a test and in my test I determined, here's my multiple choice.

You have value, you have no value, and I checked no value in my decisions and actions. Now the universe is gonna say, just objectively, we have someone of no value order up, and then the order comes to match it. You ask for this particular thing, we're all without realizing it every day, having these tests without realizing it, you had a test what you're gonna come here today or not.

And watch today, you have a test of the topic, it's Father's day. And so which some people celebrate like that's not an accident either. We're talking about patience because it's an attribute of our divine father mother. God, it's a righteous thing to be hearing about and learning today.

But what do I do with it at the end of the day? How do I come out in all this, and I would just say, man, just keep going. There are times when the more you develop mastery kinds of consciousness to faster you process the quicker you know things. Some of you guys know that. So it happens automatically. Just as you grow in consciousness, things tend to download and you integrate quicker and so on.

It's beautiful, but you still have to practice patients because not everybody else will vibrate at that level and move at that speed here. Like, got it. Let's go. And everybody else is like, no, no, no way. What will I just got this concept? Okay, what was it? Well, it was the way to Christ is through love and you're like, yes, wait to Christ is through love.

Let's go. And masters are like, Oh no, I go, how did you... I said it five times, the way to Christ is to love. What do you mean by way and Christ? Do you mean Jesus? It's like, kill me now. Is it possible that that's one reason Jesus had like, Get me out of here because people just aren't keeping up with his big...

So even becoming a Master you assign yourself with new test of patience, and I think about it, your integrity might rise obviously, but maybe some people that are business associates don't have that internet. You have to, what am I gonna do with this? I have to maybe say no to some family members, not because you're making a list, Christy, non Christy, people, you're allowed in my life and you're not.

It doesn't matter. The ones you don't allow, they're still a test. 'cause if you disallow them and hate them, you failed your test. Even if you push them away for your safety sake. If you hate him, you still fail, you push them away. That's nice. That's not actually a boundary, that's a wall, a boundary.

And patience means I will not allow you to lose faith and who I am or who you are. I will hold faith in you when you lose faith in you. And that's why at times, I have had experiences where I say no to certain things and kinda back off a bit, and sometimes people around me get shocked because when that person wants another chance, I almost always will grant it.

If it's sincere, if it's since there, and there's times when I've done that and got my had bit, it happens, but I would rather lean towards forgiving and get my hand bit once in a while, then to lean towards not forgiving in a pseudo safety to love, love as much as we can. And ops. Okay, got bit on that one.

What can I learn from that? Remember? Forgiveness involves, don't hate them. Look at what you can learn and affirm their light despite their behavior. So practice it. Some of you, it'll be with partners. Some of you, it'll be with politicians. It doesn't take much to actually search your mind for someone to practice these things with.

All you have to do is think politics and even religious leaders at times. So just remember patience. Thank you. Patience, not the usual kind patients, which is I refuse to forget that everything's connected and the connectedness is in god, not in ego. Ego things are fragmented in god. Everything's connected.

So when I decide to be patient, it's not of a pseudo act. It's a recognition that somehow everything is okay and it's okay because underneath the illusion of not okay, everything's connected in god. My test, even my tests aren't real. They're just what seems to be happening now so that I can awake into what is real.

Our prayers can be helped me to see what I don't see, help me to have faith even in that challenging person, because underneath it all god. And so what a person has forgotten who they are, they act out guys, they act out. So what they're doing, I know it sounds hard to believe is they're testing you.

They're saying, I am close to you. I'm your relative. I'm your partner on whatever I'm close to you. And you seem to be growing in consciousness, whether it's a spiritual consciousness or more like family. If it could just be family, you believe, tightness of family or whatever, whatever us your belief, someone's going to test that belief.

So they're gonna act up. But what we don't realize is partly they're putting on the dressing the dress, the close, the wardrobe of the character for you to pass your test. They also have their own issues. I'm not saying they're always saints dressed in the garb for you, they have their own lessons, but why are they in your eyes? Why are they in your face? Because your lesson is always do y, or do I not see the Christ in this person? And if it's anything, but yes, today I have failed my test not to worry 'cause it'll come

around again and yet another person and another relationship. So I procrastinate on that. But even that becomes a lesson in patience 'cause I see myself self going, why would people even want to drag this out? Patience, Michael, because even that part of me, the spiritual part can even start to be tested in tempted about patients.

Well, now that we get it, let's all wake up. Oh. That's right, despite the way it looks, people dragging their feet, Carly co dependently, addictive ly and reincarnation ly. How around in round, we'll just keep it and granting again and again again. Oh, that's all fine. I'm supposed to go.

It's all good. It's still the lesson. And if we start to get a little angst, wait, someone is starting to worry, but I was praying for new child. Abraham and Sarah, we're praying for a child. It's not happening. See, they lost faith, demonstrated through their impatience, and they had that lesson when they got it, the child comes.

So you and I are wanting to create new things. We want the funding to create a CD or DVD or some kind. We're wanting a partnership that could last for life and so on. All of these things are happening in time because time is the crucifix as is space. But patient says, there's a purpose time, space, crucifixion, one arm, or one part of the cross.

The other part of the cross patient says, it's Okay despite what I think I see patience. And then this stuff here doesn't seem to have the same grip or power that it once had... And again, I'm not saying you should enable behaviors sometimes that's how to get through to them. Nice firm, no clarity.

They need to hear that at times I got an email or a text from one of my daughters, probably the one that has had the most challenges with me and whatever, the greatest test she said. And I sometimes had gone years without hearing from her, 'cause she struggled a lot with stuff. I never hated her. And I looked what I can learn from these things.

Look at what I can learn, and I affirmed the truth of who she is. She could split the other direction again. And I'm still right here. I don't buy in one direction or another. You hold Center and you keep patients and faith. But anyway, she just said, Happy Mother's Day Father's day. I want to say thanks for the things you gave us growing up.

You always made Christmas a great day and you always got me the best things you paid attention to what I liked and always gave me the cool stuff, electronics, music, stock science, and movies. Thank you for wanting to do that, and I just replied and said, it was always my pleasure and thank you very much for the message.

But in that point, this is a challenge person in my life. You see what I'm saying? My response wasn't, Oh my god, she loves me. Oh my god. I already knew that. But there's times when she wouldn't express that and express quite the contrary, no matter what they do, Don't lose your faith in who you are and who they are.

And don't think that I enabled it. There were times when I said, oh, is that what we're doing? Guess what? Don't contact me again until you come from a different place and years went by during those years. Some people I could never do that, which is why you're messed up. You have to demonstrate a clarity beyond human comprehension.

You can say, Oh no, but I love my kids and I don't care what you think that too. I'll just hold Center and I'll know that as annoying as you are. I won't hate you. I'll learn what I can from your annoying statement, and I will affirm that there's a light in you let people do is they may, but for me and my week will serve the Living god.

So just because you said about... He doesn't mean you lack love for your child or your parent, but I've tried this, if that didn't work, maybe I could try a little this. You're just working with one, you can, as long as you're coming from love, you still do what you can to bring it about.

And sometimes it needs this. Sometimes it needs that. But are you even open or do you want them to come to you and do it your way? That's not right, that's not healthy. And even if they did it, they would not be freely doing it. So how can I be the presence of god? How can I be father and mother to the world? How can I be father and mother to anybody around me and not everybody can hear that, but that because of ego and this too shall pass, please take a few centering breaths.

Let's set aside all the stuff of life and of the world and without hyper thinking it, contrive it, let's just feel relaxed and open to letting the Divine Mother guide us heals, teach us work with us to see what we need to experience today. We've heard about patience in that true a sense of the word we heard about life's tests.

You want to play the role of being kind of christen. You might expect tests to that caliber, but whatever level of opening I'm doing that will bring its math in tests. So let's all take a moment and open our minds and let you Holy Spirit guide us. Show us the kinds of things in our life right now that are most likely our couple of primary tests bring to mind the people or the patterns or the incidents, the situations, the circumstances, whatever they are, they'll less aging relationship, whatever it is, where are the lepers of my

life that same Francis had be open. If something shows up, let's just accept that. It's possible that it's one of our tests, be fully aware of it more than one, perhaps more than one person, more than one situation, whatever it happens to be, finances, bills to pay in the old days. We might pray that these things be lifted from us, but Christ taught us, don't say, Let this cup pass from me instead, ask spirit to be with us while we go through it so that our consciousness is raised to a level where it can't touch us.

So imagine in this moment with just a few breaths we are filling up with the presence of divinity and knowingness of oneness, divine patience, peace, wholeness, trust, oneness, bliss. Imagine we're filled up with that and then look at the challenges again, whatever they seem to be, and then just take your time and ask yourself If I hold this consciousness.

If this is my intention to be a prosperous person to be a loving, forgiving person to be a good mom, debt, whatever titles come up, what would you like to be? And then ask yourself, in what way are those tests helping you to work certain muscles spiritually? In what way are those tests trying to detour you from holding that very consciousness you say You want to have? Because claiming you want to feel it to be is different from choosing to be it and to choose to be.

It means you'll go through the test and succeed, take a moment to look at your life. What is the consciousness I'm trying to hold? What are the tests that are coming to me, in what ways am I failing, in what ways am I passing and give that a moment and we call upon the Holy Spirit of God to give us the strength to clarity.

God's always giving that anyway. So then why would we ask for it? We're asking for our acceptance of the gifts, the powers that we need to pass through those tests. Give me strength, give me clarity, but of course, gives me patience. So imagine before we're closed. Imagine what if you had Divine Patience as an an attitude or attribute, you knew everything was somehow gonna work out.

Everyone eventually healed from the highest of the lowest, the left to the right. Everyone. Somehow divine patients tells me it's impossible for someone to be ill. I affirm their wholeness and imagine the gratitude that other people feel for you affirming their light, even before they get it. It makes it easier for them to wake up.

When we already see them as being there. We hold a patient affirmation that they're going there. And so it is gradually stretch out. I pray that this has made sense. There are times during talks, I'll say things like, is that making sense? Or, you know what I'm saying? And so that's my way of checking in and connecting just like saying, okay, it's a way of staying connected and staying in touch to make sure we're all moving and grooving together...