Consciously Co-Creating A New Life

no more joy of giving so that the people online can hear a joy of giving letting go of control uh having you know peace despite circumstances and all that's perfect and um i brought a quote that i want to share this is from a course in miracles and i'm going to start there and that is in you is all of heaven every leaf that falls is given life in you each bird that ever sang will sing again in you and every flower that ever bloomed has saved its perfume and its loveliness for you so i read that this week somebody sent

it it was uh one of our dear attendees and supporters kesha has a newsletter and it was featured in her newsletter and as soon as i read i was like oh my god you know i rarely bring a quote to read but i wanted to read that one because it was so beautiful so as we're getting closer and closer obviously to a new year i'm going to talk about co-creating a new life um the team was asking me a few minutes ago and they were saying what are you going to talk about i said i don't know you know what do you what do you think and so i'm

asking you folks what do you want to talk about so i want to mix this in with letting go of control the joy of giving it's very important to understand we're coming close to a new year it's i love that you're asking the questions and making the requests you did how do you have peace despite the way the world is how do you let go of control and then how do you blend that with the joy of giving you'll see we'll just do it god has a way of blending things and and let's start with that note

i've taught about god and you know for so many years but one consistent thing i say when people ask me about discovering your soul's purpose one consistent thing is you know people assume you you know you have to be like on the spiritual path to discover your soul's purpose well it helps but you can be on the on your you know on the spiritual path and still run into blocks in discovering your soul's purpose people will assume that it's just like you're spiritual you're meditating those clouds will part

you'll hear the angel choir and you'll be told like moses here's what you're supposed to do and they think it means a specific career and so on our soul's purpose is really the tone of who we are so what i do for my soul's purpose is nothing but really the manifestation of my awareness of who i am so who i am is what i do and then what i do is my soul's purpose but still the head wants a better answer than that give it still tell me what to do one of the other perks and you got to let go of that control you got to let go

of that i want it to be what i want here god here's my answer hopefully yours fits but the other thing with this concept of soul's purpose it's not it's not for angels only it's for everybody to eventually know their soul's purpose edgar casey said you will never be satisfied in this world without knowing your soul's purpose so therefore i would assume there you know must be kind of important but your soul's purpose isn't just like for angels only for perfect people strangely enough my new life

i'm ready for a new life then then stop talking and let it come but i'm ready for my new life but i have to stop this first and stop that first i got to change habits and hobbies and all that helps but what's really amazing to me that only god the wisdom of the mother can pull this off and that is it's going to take into account all aspects of you into your soul's purpose the one that was completely out of control the former addict the mother the non-mother the dad the never been a dad the warrior

the loudmouth all kinds of aspects of your being it's not like you have to actually become a better different person to get a soul's purpose you can be in the worst of yourself and there's still a soul's purpose waiting apostles were given roles as teachers of the world and some of them because of the fire they had so the fire we've got inside as well as our weaknesses they become part of our our role in our soul's purpose god will say to you hey how's it going you ready for your soul's purpose well

yeah except well what well i have these issues i i i'm kind of lonely at times god's gonna say perfect i know people that can relate to loneliness that i need you to talk to and every one of us has a unique group of people that only we could reach it's not just the spiritual teachers that's just a role some of us do this to make a living and others do it because it is our soul's purpose that's the teacher i'd prefer listening to by the way the one that it's actually who they are but it's we all you know we all get to

be who we are strengths and weaknesses that's not what determines your soul's purpose it's your willingness to know your soul's purpose that determines when that kicks in you know not now maybe a few more lifetimes let me let me get a little bit better in my personality and temperament moses tried that jonah tried that and they were all told no your purpose is here you're ready you just don't know it helen shuckman who channeled a course in miracles oh man i'm not at all ready for this and

jesus says you know well i'll just keep talking you know you'll eventually realize you're ready if you weren't ready how could i be talking to you well you must be forcing it no i actually can't force your will but if you're listening you must have agreed so there you know um so i i don't care who you are what you're listening you know where you're at in your life and where from from where you're listening to this try to just soften that place that control freak inside try

to realize you know that has not ever really served me well some counselors are going to say to you no that's survivor you survived trauma good job i would say good job good job but do you ever want to move from surviving to thriving of myself i could do nothing well i got myself out of my family history i got my pulled myself out from the bootstraps i made myself into who i am i would i would just stop speaking so loud about that the last thing you want to do is tell the universe i did this on my own and have the universe say really

and let's see what that amounts to smash you know and put you through the dark night of the soul where you end up having to learn i of myself am nothing first time i went to the dark through the dark night of the soul nobody told me about this like the john lennon song nobody told me there'd be days like this well so there i was thinking you know this is amazing i'm young i'm still a kid practically i'm already teaching i'm already known i'm already successful it feels right just information can just come through this

is amazing so now i just get to step into the the wonderful life of god everything's going to go peachy now that i'm living the christ life oh man boom just cut you off you know at the ankles just collapse and how could this be happening i'm spiritual shh just say i know nothing the dark night of the soul will hit you far less intensely if you claim to know nothing nothing you know claiming that doesn't belittle you it means of my ego self i do know nothing so i just you know stay out of the i know

into i'm open and then there's nothing to be cut off from there's no humbling that has to come because all you said is i'm open that is humility so you don't have to be humbled and god only knows what's going to bring you there some people call it reaching bottom but remember i've always said bottom can be just called now you don't have to actually be in hell before you call it rock bottom i mean just think about it intelligent people are allowed to say you know i don't think it has to

actually get worse you know i'm just going to stay open there's a story about a guy really moving story you've heard of billy graham billy graham is probably the most successful christian preacher whatever you want to call them in history certainly in modern times very very influential you know to other religious figures and political figures and so on i mean shy of apostles in christ i mean this guy really did a lot in that movement a lot of integrity he's a pretty pretty good guy and one time he was on his usual tours i

think this might have been back in the 50s and he went and was speaking overseas and there was a gang of thugs that hated life hated people hated god they actually said let's go assassinate him ten of these guys of a gang so they showed up overseas to this lecture he was doing they showed up and they all had weapons they said whoever gets to him first let's kill him so they were all sitting there you know and the leader of the gang was uh all marked he's looking at for his guys he sees them all and they're like you know let's make our

move get a little closer get a little closer they're getting all staged to kill this guy the main reason they wanted to kill him is because they hated him but what's underneath hating him they hated god and they hated god because things didn't go their way now mind you we have to feel compassion for these kinds of people like the leader he said you know my dad died when i was a little boy and i i was devastated and i thought why would god do that so i started hating god so hurt it's always hurt that makes people

act hurtfully doesn't justify the behavior i'm just saying we understand differently so they're ready to kill this guy billy graham and so he's like he's right getting to that point okay here's where we ready in about 10 seconds and then five four and he hears a voice what are you doing he turns around there's nobody there and he's like well that was weird and then he's hearing what are you and then he realizes that was god's voice and billy graham was saying it's time

people are going to come up to the you know to get blessed and that's when they're going to kill them so this guy's ready to go and he where what are you doing and he's like who's that starting to get a little he said i started getting really unnerved and then uh you know he hears and then he says you know if that's you god because i have a feeling i don't believe in god and i hate god if there is a god but that could be god's voice there's nobody else here so he says why did you take my dad and

the voice says something along the lines i would i didn't take your dad and i would never do anything to hurt you so moments later this guy is in a puddle just crying being converted but the funniest thing about the story is all the other gang members got converted now why did that happen what they didn't have to be perfect to hear the voice of god some of us are like he's a thug trying to kill a spiritual teacher he hears the voice of god i've been meditating for 20 years i haven't heard anything i haven't even

seen purple you know like where's my where's my moment you know what you're still waiting for a moment so the moment might not come this guy was completely lost do you want to be that far gone before you have your you know is that what you need if you want to have one of those moments go ahead and be that far gone be on the verge of trying to kill somebody if that's what you do you really want to go that far down no then just give thanks that you chose a little more the easy way to find god so there's this whole movement of

you know co-creating a new life i call it but people are talking about the law of attraction manifestation guys there are two ways you can make things happen one includes god and one doesn't i teach co-create a new life with god co-create now if michael murdad is teaching a workshop which i'm going to do the first sunday of of january when michael mcdade teaches co-creating a new life wonderful you get 100 and some people registering if michael or someone else offers the same workshop the same hour if someone else were to offer that and

it's called law of attraction or getting what you want they're going to have thousands of people register then why don't i just teach that and have more students registering because i can't i don't believe in it i don't believe meaning i don't choose it that's the last thing i want to do is tell people they can do things of themselves because those things that you create of your own accord with your own will are the first things that are going to go when you start waking up your old self has to die in lieu of your

new self coming in the old self means all the false masks you've created for yourself the survivor included look at me wow i've become a famous ceo despite my hurtful past well good job i'm glad you're not in the the extreme pain you might have once been in but you still better be prepared to move from you know there's the victim to the survivor but go to the thriver and that you can't do alone because the broken self doesn't know what the thriver looks like all they know how to do is scratch to

become a survivor so we have to die of the old self and there are you know there's lots and lots of popularity around all this law of attraction concepts i'm not talking about one specific teacher or teaching any of it lots of coaching lots of counseling not lots of self-help is around that idea how to get what you want they call it very popularly years ago it started being called you know create your own reality i don't want my own you get that how about co-create god's reality oh there's a novel concept but it's a turn

off to people why it's not just the teachers and teachings why are they popular because there's a group of people the majority that are even into self-help still being hijacked by the ego self still willing to be conned into settling i want to create my own reality i'm going to get away from my family stuff and i want to get away from you know all that past history and and money doesn't grow on trees i want to i want to know how to use my mind to create if you're going to use your mind at all why don't you do it to find

god why don't you use your willpower to say of myself i am nothing but with god i'm everything and it's because still there's a resentment towards god you can call it a fear or a resentment fear is just an overt hatred of god you know and and if it you have the the overt hatred is like the anger at god but a lot of us are so spiritual we don't want to own that we're angry at god so we have to at least don't there's something off maybe it's fear anger is the overt version that's all

fear can be very overt obviously too but fear is more like the passive aggressive hatred for god i just don't you know i just don't want to talk a lot about i want i want to call god something else universal power why don't you just call it god oh i don't like that name really have a conversation with god and explain that listen i don't like you per se but i like you in the form of universal energy well one day your soul is going to be tossed out into the universe which is black cold space and say fall in love go

ahead you said you loved universal energy go ahead knock yourself out you know and you'll just be floating see how long you're going to be worshiping universal energy you know rise in love with god come back to that concept of trusting god you when you hate billy graham and you're going to kill the guy like those assassins tried to do it's god that you hate and at least the guy knew that that's one reason why he was able to have a vision a transformational moment because he was at least willing to own

what was really going on when you're drinking yourself to death or drugging yourself to death or whatever other form of addiction when we're doing these things we're actually covertly trying to destroy ourselves now if i'm made in the image of god when i'm trying to destroy myself overtly or covertly i'm actually trying to punish god i'm going to destroy this body because that's my statement of destroying my soul and when i destroy my soul it's my way of saying to hell with you

god i'm gonna teach you i'm gonna show you a thing or two of course god's like no habla english you know like god's like i have nothing to do with your little drama this is you working on you and that's it this is you processing your own stuff and what's nice about it is you can you can direct it to god you can direct it to your father human father you can direct it to father images spiritual leaders bosses at work directed anywhere you want they're all connected so what i really want is all of my

relations to become holy what i really love is every person i learn to love again is really a statement of my growing closer to god the more people i segment out i don't like that particular group there's a segment of myself that just got pushed away and that's fine because you're going to have to deal with that eventually anyway you know i don't like that one group good you think you're going to be coming back as one of them later no matter how justifiable your resentment of them is we all agree we don't we you know we

dislike white supremacy okay here we go you get to come back as one till you don't hate them that doesn't mean you enable it but something in you is going to change and there's a lot of people in groups like that like the group that was going to go you know try to assassinate billy graham god's still going to find him god's going to always speak because god speaks to us all through every day god is constantly con i don't mean once in a while god is constantly sending a wave of love saying

you are my beloved child in whom i am well pleased well you must not have been watching what i did yesterday you are my beloved child in whom i am well pleased god always says i love you come home well some of us say okay i'm on my way i'm starting to pray and meditate and do yoga god's like whatever you know i already said come home meaning you must be worthy already no no i have work to do what fine i have to reincarnate more okay fine but god really i love you come home all the rest all the i need to read more

meditate more do more be more grow more heal more all that is our opinions are they bad well no are they real no but they're hours for now there will come a time when i'm going to drop all my opinions of myself and others and that's when i become a holy being i that's called the last judgment in revelation when it talks about the last judgment it's not the last judgment when you are finally judged and sent to hell the last judgment means and on the day of the last judgment we should have some

background music now going heavy heavy and on the day of the last judgment everybody will stop judging that's why it's called the last judgment well wait what a novel concept can we have a little judgment i mean i don't know what to do without having judgment you know this is how we are which is why we haven't done it yet but people are going to eventually reach bottom in that proverbial metaphor of reaching by we're going to collectively reach bottom and say of ourselves we are nothing apparently

our opinions and judgments haven't improved our lives so we're willing to call on the only real judge sounds like a bad word the one that judges us as innocent of all crimes and sins and wrongdoings and karma everything washed clean so i get to start over but it's not really starting over co-creating a new life is not really about a new life it's about the one that was always there but could not be seen through hateful eyes so there's this idea this concept a new life let's start a new year with

that intention to have a completely different life but that also means being committed to not having the old life lots of people are like i'll give up the old one as soon as i see a favorable newer one and then they end up another year's gone by and it's the same old same old it's going to be interesting where people go next year because some are going to choose collapse some are going to choose survival through all of it so that they can then boast about how they made it through and survive and others are going to surrender which

sounds terrible isn't that the same as collapse no some are going to say of myself i'm nothing what would you have me do god and that's what we choose here in this you know global ministry telling people you know of ourselves we're nothing let's join together let's act like spiritual family support each other in righteous decisions we're doing our best to make say no to things that aren't feeling very clear and clean and choose god what would you have me do if we really understood god only loves us it's

easier to surrender to god when we don't surrender the majority even of people in the new age the world for it's by and large they're not surrendering to god but you would think that in the spiritual community that would be a common thing they have words of surrender they have words of i'm ready for a new life but they're still trying to run the new life from the old self one of you had asked you got to let go of control and how do you let go of control if you're addicted to being controlling

all you have to do is recognize it didn't work i mean that really helps you just go well you know what this hasn't really worked well but didn't it help you get through this yet it it helped you get by at best but it never really brought you what another one asked peace people that have survived still never found peace almost nobody that that god has gone through some form of survival and is that what i want to be my legacy if i do i want to just leave going and here lies so and so and he barely survived

you know really i mean is that it or do i want he got it you know that's kind of cool buddha are you the messiah no who are you awake see he didn't claim to be the ultimate messiah he just said i got it what do you got this is a joke this is an illusion it doesn't have any power over us any what about past lives buddha don't we believe in yes i do i understand past lives are part of the illusion you're here doing penance called past lives you're reincarnating because you think you're flawed

but if you sit still long enough and just let all the imagery of how messed up you are come to you and not stick you'll find there's a clean person underneath it all it's easy to have that velcro for things to stick to every bit of regret doubt shame fear all of those become velcro for things to be sticking to and when you try to get your act together and co-create a new life even with god co-create a new life it's not like the ego goes oh well you use the word god let's just set a step aside

the ego is going to say oh you're going to do that god thing huh okay i better start working doing some research on your history what would be a shame a regret that you haven't thought about for a while i gotta surprise you with a few so you can sit there going oh money pogba what the hell was that you know like it's gotta it's gotta in the middle of your meditations when you're supposed to be all blissed out it's gotta throw something in that surprises you see when you don't do your work the ego

doesn't have to actually work that hard it's like just put it on automatic pilot these people just keep doing the same old same old and they have the same old year after year get it together get your act together decide to be committed to your path the ego has to actually take the ship off automatic pilot and steer you into meteor storms steer you into things that would you know feel uneasy things that would pull the rug out from under you so everything's fine and then what the unexpected but the unexpected

is never unexpected on a deep soul level we knew these things are coming that's why when job goes through hell and at the end of the job story is saying you know god i don't understand i've been a good guy i have all my life i've been devoted spiritual you know just loving and so on and god responds by saying job you've only known job as long as he's been job which implies you have other identities past lives where you have stuff that's being meted out that's being worked out so he's

explaining to job dude this is karmic and he didn't say dude but you know um he's just saying you know this is karmic i mean he what is he saying to job and you and me don't give me the victim thing i've been really really spiritual i said in going you know hitting my first dark night of the soul but i've been spiritual you know and god said you know whatever now what you know but but but but talk to the hand um because job i i know you before you were job you've got some stuff that's being

burned off what buddha would be referring to as burning off you hold your center let the meteor storm come don't react i have understood life is an illusion and you're dodging all these meteors you said it's an illusion i mean just this morning i had a an intense meditation on that it at the fact that it's an illusion but then these things come at us that seem so real and if i flinch at one of those meteors have i done wrong no to air as human forgive divine so just see it and go wow that ah that was kind of weird and you see

another meteor coming you feel the compulsion to you know to to duck whether that's ducking away from a new relation ducking away from somebody's comment they made that hurt your feelings you know if you're gonna duck duck and then see how soon you can come back and laugh you know laughter is so important because if you see the universe for what it really is you realize it's a joke and when i understand people have trauma and hurt inside so it doesn't seem like it so i'm not i'm not at all saying anything

derogatory to them because by all means we feel hurts so cry your hurts you know comfort those hurts be come out of that it's okay but do remind yourself more and more and more it has no real power over me i know it some things don't seem like that's true but this world actually does not have power over us you know and one of you is asking about the joy of giving people i want peace i want to be able to dodge these you know meteors i i want to be able to not have them happen at all whatever you want to happen will

come primarily from you giving what you think you want so the whole law of attraction is not about me getting it's about me giving so if i say i want to be able to manifest a new car and more money or whatever then learn to be great stewards with what you have i want a wonderful lover then be one i want better friends then learn to be a better friend i am i'm a perfect friend and lover to everyone they just don't get it and i'm a victim as soon as you keep telling us that that's what you're giving us what you

give will come back tell us how much you're a victim tell them tell us how much god doesn't love you and so and that's what you're going to be manifesting you want to change your life then be the change you want to see and i know there's resistance to some of that for some of us but you know what is it you want to see differently in your life start becoming that difference when i when i become that change bring that to the world true giving comes from that true giving comes not from the people that give with

something you know an intention behind it because there are people that give as rescuers or codependent people hi listen nice to meet you i just want to get this arrangement clear i'm going to be giving you lots i'm going to really give you time that i don't have energy that i don't have all because i want you to love me i want you to like me i want you to appreciate me i want one more christmas card every year you know there's a subconscious arrangement and if that's what you put out those

kind of arrangements come back with interest rates all those arrangements with co-dependent relations they're coming back with interest rates so i want to give from a place that's truly the right place but what is that right place give from what you are not from what you need i want to manifest i want a law of attraction i want to create this and that and all these people are law of attractioning themselves into debt because they're attracting cool stuff but if you really want to create a different life you have to be

the change i want to create more money then i have to become more the consciousness of prosperity oh you mean by sitting there going it's mine it's mine it's my that's not what i mean i don't mean by repeating mantras of selfishness you can create from god or the ego and far more is the majority of manifesting from the ego but what's really messed up is even the portion that supposedly god centered manifestation the majority of that is twisted how do we know i don't know did you bring god into it

did you ask god to guide you in what you want to manifest well yeah you know i do sometimes you know god i want that that's not what i mean the way you manifest co-create with god is to sit and call in the feeling of god you don't ask for stuff you ask for the consciousness of god seek first the kingdom of heaven which means the consciousness of them so i'm going to sit here and call in the presence of god oh peace peace peace so instead of that job is mine that job is mine that drop instead [Music]

all i really want is the peace of god there we are and of course the head's going really because the ego is going to go dude really how's the peace of god going to pay your rent you need the job just go get behind me satan peace of god peace of god okay then from this place of the peace of god what would be the best job for me this one or this one that i'm choosing between because relatives are gonna you choose this one because then you'll be living near us and then there's other people there

that's the one that's the money and somebody else that would that you stop get behind me satan you could say that in emails to all of them don't get behind me just pause piece first and then which job most resonates when i was a kid i took a job working as an assistant teacher in an elementary school i could have taken a job the family wanted me to have that paid about four times more money and it involved career and wonderful things benefits oh my god michael you're on your way you know i no i couldn't do it i i went for like a

week and i was miserable every day so if i sat and said peace of god peace of god did that resonate not at all and then your head goes well maybe it does if you think about the money no i wanted to die that's how much i didn't want to go to that job and yet it took no thought at all to say the teacher assistant and there's a smile inside and out and god it's so fun head goes doesn't make much money yeah wow still peace and then you can say well you know but how long did you do i did actually did

that for a couple of years did you thrive financially no no no not really but i felt really good i enjoyed going to work every day and i didn't see it as work so it was kind of cool and somehow that became used something a tool on my tool belt to my soul's purpose today the other job would not have applied to this but this four dollar an hour three something a dollars an hour at this teacher's assistant job was actually a building block for my soul's purpose so now i know at the time i could have said

well i'm not making that much money but when you find your soul's purpose and you realize these things you didn't really care for that much played into your soul's purpose it all starts to make sense and that's again where we can more easily let go of control but do you have to see the payoff before you let go of control we could just say you know what the more i make decisions from a place of peace i just know it's going to add up properly that's partly what true faith would be it doesn't have to be

things seen down the road just know there is a god god is a god of love and peace any decision you make that resonates with love and peace is probably god's will and you'll be paid off for making that righteous decision it'll come full circle it'll pay off at the end but it takes that letting go letting go of control i want happiness i need to be the presence of happiness and not just be it give it when i give love peace abundance to others i actually become more of it that's the actual cycle called cause and effect

the more i create abundance for others the more i receive it as a consciousness it becomes a full cycle if all i do is want to take it's an empty cycle there's no cause and effect i just take so i always say you know this saying i kind of made up there's a difference between forgiving and forgetting forgiving and forgetting we forget to forgive but it's also a play on the words forgiving is something you give forgetting is something you take when you give you receive when you take it dies right there

you can only take so much some people they can make it all the way till elderly age and die in that state of taking but some catch on the more your soul is present the more we believe in soul the more it'll speak to us and remind us please do not live a life of taking the great metaphor that whole story of christmas carol scrooge and it's never too late not only to change our ways it's never too late to say wow look christmas hasn't passed it's not too late i can still make a difference co-creating a different life with god

means everybody's involved in this when i co-create with god everybody benefits it's not just me the people around me co-create you know more smiles more confidence if you're a counselor who does nothing but and doctor you know social worker that does nothing but work with people and their issues you're a rescuer if you recognize the value of what you're doing and that you also gain that we're all in this together you're a healer and that's the difference this whole real cycle of cause and

effect means more god the ultimate cause capital c more cause god there'll be greater beneficial effects that's the real sense of cause and effect so you know i i pray this is all making sense and that we can all kind of recognize what i've talked about co-creating a new life yes but we've also addressed the letting go of control we've addressed souls purpose we've addressed the joy of giving real the real kind of giving is joyous and everybody's had a moment of that you know where you thought of somebody

else you you helped you said you know beyond my little self how can i be a better person today we've done that and look at the benefits even having a job that is more in alignment with your soul's purpose more and more and more jobs you know more in that direction um the happier we feel the more time seems to fly you know i shared with somebody earlier this week that years ago around 1990 um my my former wife um just as we were ending our partnership our marriage she wanted to open up a spiritual center

and you know was trying to figure out how to do that so i i let myself to that i stepped in and said look i can i'll just channel to you how to do that literally and figuratively channel here here's how you could do it this and this ideas came to me never did business never was in business but i said you know it'll come to me and it did so i gave her all the ideas on how to do that but interestingly enough before i knew it you know she's like would you teach there to help you know yes i had a good

reputation people wanted to come to my workshop so i could teach there and people would come and now it's thriving more this center then she's like well you know i have to go to another job today because that's how she was still trying to earn money i need to go to this other job would you sit in for me oh yeah pretty sure selling dollar fifty incense is right in alignment with my soul's purpose i'm a spiritual teacher i'm supposed to be traveling the world so i didn't like it i liked the people i

liked being around the instant smells i liked all the good stuff but but it felt demeaning to me i'm a teacher why am i sitting here you know people thank you sir i'm like thank you sir you know that's not how they speak to me when i'm teaching workshops around the world oh michael this was a wonderful workshop and you're amazing and now i get you know sir can i my money back i want a different insight you know i'm dealing with humans just give me on tour god haven't i deserved it you know i made it through the dark

night of the soul just days ago you know don't i deserve better and oh man that was irritating deep down it was feeling frustrating and demeaning and all these other harsh words i could use loved some of it but i didn't like some of it and then 20 years later a place called unity of sedona says would you come and be our spiritual leader i'm like you know a no but then we finally i agreed but when i did well what are we going to do how do we do it i go well we're going to do it better than it was

i'm not coming to be like a minister at a churchy church you know this has to be a spiritual center and well what do you suggest well we've got to have outside places in and out i want holistic inside and outside it's got to be a spiritual center we have to play you know cool music or there's got to be color life right and so they were going yeah this is and it's all working and it's working and i go and you got to have a spiritual like a bookstore a bookstore no we can't afford that oh shush you of

course you can a books you gotta have the books and the incense and fun fun-ness and they're like no no and i'm sorry give me a channel the ideas and guess what well where are we gonna find it all i know where you can get books and incense and all that so you know what happened our having this thriving unity of sedona was the result of even something i didn't like doing when the time was right god brought that one irritating piece of working at a spiritual center full circle and it became a gift that we all benefit from is that making

sense something even something you don't want don't you know and so on it will come around something you regret having done in your life when we give up the old it can be used again it's not that i have to literally go sell the incense again but if i had to i'd love it i was telling you about you know chelsea's oils today i love that you know i just i how can i not just i don't want to put them in a diffuser because then they'll stop smelling i have to keep you know after they're used up i won't

have them i mean you can just smell them through the thing that's me i love it that's i love it the child like part of me i always loved the gift cards and the art that they were selling and so on but with it came the resentment that it was pushing in on my time as a teacher that i thought i should be doing all the time why would i put a pause on that i knew god likes to you know me to teach why would god doesn't matter but i i gained a tool on the tool belt that took 20 years to see the benefits of i'm sorry for the time it takes the

inconvenience it might have on your life but it matters not i don't care what you've done i don't care the color of your hair is going to make a difference to the people god brings you to believe it or not the color your height your body type it's all perfect when we surrender it god makes us teachers of god to reach the right students and somehow your voice your style your nervousness all of it is somehow going to be perfectly used by the perfection of god that only god would know how to do that

you know you might have run a retail store you might have run a boutique you might have been single or married or married 10 times any of it is going to be used for the right people believe it or not somehow and some of it seems impossible every single thing that's the intelligence of god the mother that whole aspect of god the holy spirit to know everything you've ever done and just how to use it for the greater good and you would think well there's some things probably wouldn't apply anything i don't

care what it is flying kites i don't care any of it and you know it'll be amazing one day a kite's going to come down and hit you on the head and it'll be that the person that was flying it comes over and apologizes and strikes up a conversation don't know but everything is going to come full circle god is the alpha and omega so trust that god's presence will come full circle it's only a matter of time and it's not like maybe it will happen the sooner we surrender and the more thoroughly we surrender

that's the only thing that will affect the timing of it please take a few centering breaths set aside all stuff of the world all stuff of life soak in a little bit of what we've talked about just see does anything fit does it make sense anything that doesn't let it go but whatever does breathe it in as your own and even though everybody online and in person sits here going oh you know this is interesting look more deeply in what it means to you that everything that's ever happened to you that others did and you did every study

every experience every hurt every wonderful thing will be used as part of your blueprint so to speak in your soul's purpose god's voice saying to you you are my beloved child says the mother in whom i am well pleased mom i've done some i know honey and i've got some people waiting for just that person oh no but i was really bad i took and i robbed and i stole and yeah i know isn't that amazing she says and i've got people that need that languaging and we'll meditate two misconceptions

that have sabotaged our life the first is that we should try to manifest a better life with our own willpower look at that own that we've believed it on some level that to make a better life i have to and stop and go away i need do nothing but follow the the lead of the mother she can show me the misconception number one of creating a better life is that i of my own self accord will i'm going to be the one that's going to change my life just sit with that for a moment let it be unraveled just say to yourself

at the end of whatever you're coming up with i trust in god i need to do nothing even if my head starts to try to get in there shh just tell it be still the only part that would try to say or infiltrate other thoughts would be the fear in me the ego i don't have to fight it just be still and know the i am presence of god and the second primary saboteur within us is the belief that there's a conflict between spirituality and materiality that we can only either be spiritual and broke or prosperous and greedy

look at that for a moment it isn't true but look at it for a moment that you might have those beliefs deep down inside are you willing to let go of such beliefs are you willing to drop those don't have to say yes you could say not yet that's fine be honest if we're dishonest about any of these things we're going to create more sabotage to our new life or greater good so own it the conflict that i thought and perceived was there between spirit and matter was a mistake it's not there and it's not true

if i believe in the i am spiritual presence of god then i'm allowed to welcome it in materially i'm allowed to have fitness happiness i'm allowed to have my cake and eat it i'm allowed to be happy and if i've been divorced five times it doesn't mean i'm unworthy of a good partnership and if i've had an abortion in my life i'm still allowed to be at peace with that and find new life in the form of having a child or just new life in me i don't have to punish myself anymore

and i know some people will say i should forever feel bad no that is not the will of my mother only the voice of my ego ever wants me hurting every time i'm hurting it means i listened to the wrong voice i chose the wrong teacher in any and all instances of such i give this all to you mother i give this all to god even if there's any resistance in me to this i give that to god as well i choose to know the i am presence of god my worthiness comes back to me today my value i don't need self-esteem which is

ego-based i'm choosing self-worth which is the voice of god telling me my true value and i do have value last breath or two and in your own way quietly give thanks acknowledging that this is true for you acknowledging that this is and so it is it's fact it's me it's my reality so it is how's it feel i really hope that the one piece i was conveying no matter where you've been you'll make a difference a funny kind of a thing happened um there's an actor named michael j fox he's got a particular illness that

causes his body to shake right so he had somebody harassing him trolling on his social media making fun of him and his disease you know he was he said you know usually i i handle ridicule and criticism fairly well he said but this was starting to get to me this person was being out and out cruel demeaning about like gross about the disease and michael j fox's body behaviors right so one day he's looking at that and his son was there and he's going what's wrong this guy you know he's he's saying all

these comments and it's really hurtful the son says type this one reply it was just simple it was like an acronym and then you know michael j fox goes well what is that dad just type it trust me he's like okay types the acronym and then the guy replies back and says my whole life has changed and he's going well what was that the guy says i'm so sorry that i was acting that way and he said i was saying you're a jerk and you're not funny and he goes when you wrote me that acronym i burst out laughing and i now think

you're the funniest guy on the planet michael j fox goes to his son what did you have me write it was the acronym for shaking my head but it could come across like i'm shaking my head like you're a jerk but he got that it had a double meaning that my disease causes my head to shake he laughed and used the disease as a way and this guy apologized you don't know you don't know what stuff you experience that becomes a change for somebody else if all he would have done is hated the guy for doing it would that have changed

the guy you know i don't know folks what what you're going to choose in your life a little levity realizing you know this life is an illusion but comedy is a timing thing sometimes it's not funny to to you know certain things and some are seemingly more horrible than others you might you know see no humor in the holocaust but i think it's hilarious that jews played nazis on hogan's heroes and get smart i think it's a way to go you really we are going to have the last word you know we're going to make fun of your

whole ism and i think it's great to find some way to to loosen up and lighten up a bit it doesn't mean the event was funny it means i can change and have something else so your sicknesses your losses those are not funny but they still don't have power over you and when we believe something else has power over us it's called worshiping a false god because we all know what is the only power in the universe god what's the only thing that has power over us god because god created us therefore any time you live

think feel as though something affected you adversely you're affirming that it had power which makes it a false god and that's kind of funny it is kind of funny one day everybody will realize all the illusions are quite funny how could ye our gods and goddesses turn into oh my god another wrinkle oh it's terrible i can't go out today i just can't go out i got to go get a wood plane and shave off parts of my face so i don't have wrinkles you know it is kind of funny what are you doing you know it look at your look at your

counters and you're under your cupboards look at the number of things it is kind of funny it looks like an apothecary shop of things to make you look better it is kind of funny i'm not saying don't do it i'm just saying it's kind of funny you know you have ironing boards for your face and you know all kinds of things you know tinters and hair dyes and the nails you know if it's an accent that says i love myself so much i love looking this i love accents then it's a beautiful thing if you're like oh my god i better fix it

up or people are going to think less of me that's not healthy nothing in this world is truly good or evil it's man's thinking that makes it so that's all i'm saying so be at peace laugh a little bit more about the things of this world so thank you folks we're going to do our donation and close with a prayer i always appreciate you folks having such uh patience with the things i share because i know some people don't like hearing some of these things you know i know that i know people are

challenged with whether i'm making jokes and making light why does michael make light of things because it's a joke that's all that's all it's it's just this world is a joke it doesn't really have power the evil ego doesn't really exist it's kind of ludicrous that children of god would want to manifest this little creepy thing called the ego that ruins our lives it really doesn't make any sense at all it's kind of silly and therefore worth laughing at ah tragic at first but laughable when

you really get the joke tune into the fact that the person speaking the music we sang with the people around you are all projections from within ourselves everything you heard and liked or didn't like is a part of yourself if you liked what you heard give thanks that you have gotten to this place of understanding this is me with my greater commitment to the presence of god the light of god surrounds us we are the light of god the love of god unfolds us we are the love of god the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us

wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is blessings blessings thank you folks