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so today we'll will tune in for a moment today and welcome in the conversation or the sharing today the teaching for today the teaching some what are the same in that it's always about God you know it's always about walking in the light of God becoming the light of God and so on I believe in making these talks allowing these talks sharing talks that are practical but yet deep it seems that what we share is is so deep quite cool you know just beautiful and it's a funny thing to me because that's not that

common not because I'm saying we're better than anyone else it's for some reason people are okay with just so-so you know just they go to Sunday services or they watch these things and somehow they're okay with just a little bit of something it's almost like it's it appeases their mind to think well as long as I tune in to something on Sunday then I'm okay you have to become this presence in fact I had this I had this experience a vision recently where I saw like an alien craft come to the earth

and I thought wow and so just a synopsis of it this craft comes and lands and this I went over to it drawing you know to go and do something here and this being came out but as a being of light you know and so it looked really bright really great and it was so happy and it smiled and was like you know you one would think that's that's the epitome of light you know of light work you know beings of higher consciousness there of the light and yet I felt like the reason they were coming and to me why they were

in front of me was cuz I needed to explain smiling isn't enough it's a good start but becoming the president's not not just to look bright but there's one more thing and that is completely remembering who we are so there's a difference between becoming a bright human being and then remembering our divinity becoming a bright human being is the step on the way to our divinity but it isn't the end so just to sort of be nicer that's the start be nicer eat well feel well take care of yourself all of that is an

embodiment of goodness but there's one more step and that is really completely accepting our divinity so it felt like that's what I needed to tell them hey guess what there's one more step and sharing that was it was really a beautiful kind of interaction but it feels relevant today that I'm remembering that that happened because there's something more for us now sometimes we can say look just start with being nice and and you don't want to say much more cuz that's sometimes what people need to hear but sometimes

you got to go and did you know there's something else oh man that's too much you know for some people it's like oh man back off it's you know it's too much too much light okay then just be nice okay thanks but when people are ready you gotta go in did you know there's more and and people that are already really believing that there's more really believing that they're getting in integrated this concept they start to say I want more it's it's light is scarier to people than you would imagine

it's really it's for some reason intimidating and without going into all the reasons it's intimidating so people want to only hear little morsels you know and that's why Jesus himself says to his apostles who were his main students I can only really tell you so much you know it's so imagine what it would be like to be in that kind of an embodiment Jesus but also it's you in your own way imagine what it's like to be in that embodiment knowing knowing there's so much more and yet you can't

tell everybody hey did you know that even when someone leaves you you're gonna be okay oh no I'll never be okay you know that's where they want to be right now and if someone died I'm devastated did you know they're still alive no they're they're dead they're gone they want to believe that for right now someone took your job but people you realize people can't take anything and not everybody wants to go to that place because it's scary it's it's as almost as though we believe

we're undeserving of embodying that so when you really get it it's like you're bursting at the seams hey did you know so you know Jesus walking around just knowing all knowing everything knowing life light and yet he's got it blessed are the peacemakers for they shall suck and such you know or he's got to sit there and kind of for lack of a better word dumb it down and keep it simple you know Jesus um we have to pay taxes all right go get efficient and inside the fish they'll be a coin and

they pay their taxes that way he you know he wants to be able to say taxes do you realize all you have to do is say and so it is if you know who you are and say and so it is he'll materialize coins yourself they all come to and you heal us heal as Jesus he says heal yourselves that's occasionally you got a little you know so you know a little fire inside you like what's up with you people I'm paraphrasing but like what's up with you people do you not see I mean I can raise the dead but you're part of me so raise

the dead you can do it and it's only a few you know honest you know after he even after his ascension the stories tell us that the apostles and disciples and for example Mary Magdalene and some of the even the female students and Friends of his there recorded as having done these things and that people start forgetting that they can do that you know it's it's so strange that we bring it all down to such a base level and then pray for a God in the sky to fix things for us recognizing who we really

are and it takes peeling layers you know Jesus and of course in miracles' describes it at times along the lines of at first you're gonna learn to say these things maybe with a little bit of skepticism things like I am as God created me things like it's impossible for me to be sick it's you know things like you know even though I'm supposed to be devastated because of something that happened I feel okay to be able to do that so he says at first you're gonna say it with a little skepticism maybe a

lot of skepticism but repeat it anyway he's talking about affirmation affirming the truth of God but repeat it anyway well if we don't believe it what's the point you will become someone who does believe it start repeating it you're gonna start seeing it and then when you see it you'll start believing more and then you know your little skepticisms and doubts they're gonna surface for you to see just keep going just start believing live as they'll believe means to be and live as though so don't just believe

like with your crossed fingers while I hope this works out truly be and live as though it is so that's truly believing there's hope there's hope somehow things are gonna be okay and and you're allowed to be afraid don't be ashamed of the human self just say the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak just tell the truth that's how I feel you can even sometimes go God isn't this funny I know the truth but Here I am again I just felt lonely for a moment and I'm supposed to be one with

everything how can I be lonely I'm one with all in fact there's almost it's crowded in here you know I'm not lonely I'm you know filled but be able to say isn't this true isn't the strange that know the truth but respect the illusion because I still feel sad Jesus cries when Mary and Martha come to him and say our brother's dead and he saw their grieving he was overwhelmed it says he choked up and then cried with them what he knew he was gonna bring them back to life Lazarus back to life but he's still

choked up because even when you know the truth you're gonna sometimes be hit by that stuff the human stuff your own as well as everyone else's you know for me doing talks and so forth is an interesting thing because it's your you know it's a channeling of sorts and in that channeling I've always explained very clearly I don't stand and say I'm gonna channel some being from such-and-such a dimension it's God and I'm not saying I'm the pool embodiment or that I'm saying I just open up and then it

becomes God myself and others all in this dance together that's all I'm doing in this channeling process God what would you have me say that I need to channel in a way that we can hear and it becomes a cooperative very cool you know so beautiful and that's why it works so well is because when you include in all of your decisions what's the right thing based on god self and others the greatest good starting with God not with others if you go with what others want you'll have very little room left for

God's opinion start with God's will and not like in some unknown fearful you know I guess I'll ask for God's will even though that usually doesn't go well because last time I asked for the lottery it was God's will that didn't give it to me so you know when somebody left me I said God bring them back in and they didn't come back so God's will doesn't look very good for humans but when we surrender and realize man God is love and love if I accept love the presence of love I have

everything I feel immune there's no room for a virus in love there's no room for loneliness in love you know so you we're gonna struggle at times we're gonna say well I'm feeling lonely so what do I do and you we're gonna have that dance I call it wrestling it seems more like sometimes but like a wrestling and so we learn to affirm and then it starts to become and we affirm more and it starts to become and pretty soon you realize wow I I believe things that I didn't know I'd ever believe how

did it happen you reprogrammed you went from your old wounded programs to other programs the book called A Course in Miracles has these workbook lessons and then those workbook lessons you know it starts with I don't know what anything is for I don't understand anything you know it's like almost like deprecating it sounds but it isn't it's saying my ego knows nothing and my programs know nothing and all that I was told from family they know nothing emptying emptying emptying for half a book half a year and then it's dabbling

and dropping in a little gem once in a while and then back to some of the other and then gem and and gradually it's bringing us to this God is I am and we are wow this is amazing I am the light of God it starts saying it even starts saying things I am God but you you you try to say that early on and it's the wrong you that's speaking when the ego is saying I am God oh it's quite pleased so you have to learn to say no let me first uproot my ego let me first take weeds out of my garden before I start

planting things for the new crop or you're gonna be a person who plants things and wonders why they're all dead because the weeds have choked them out so responsibility at the highest level is emptying ourselves and then being filled again we at one point let's call it in history we believed we could be separate from God and from each other you know we conjured up the concept of separation now everything everybody can talk about illness you know et conspiracies and whatever topic it can only come from us believing we're

separate if you don't believe you're separate none of that can happen see when Jesus performed miracles he didn't actually do anything there was no doing involved he didn't say okay this is gonna be a tough one is it this is several demons not just one okay let me winch my forehead and crunch my fire no really really have to pray hard for this one he didn't say oh walking on water Wow that's it was easier just to bless people's food you know this is a bigger miracle you have to understand he

actually gets the joke he says this entire thing is a joke we may believe that we're limited beings and I don't buy it anymore so walking on water was actually not at all a challenge or a complicated feat its how could I not walk on water it's not there I'm not doing anything Satan leave him he's not actually like fighting evil beings and casting them into the swine that run over the cliff you know and become bacon stew in the in the bay or with her the water that's not what he did he didn't make anything

happen he showed that's why when it says Jesus would be walking down the street and all of a sudden people would start throwing fits falling into convulsions their demons would stay there because it's you know spiritual oppressions and possessions they would start going nuts just his presence it's almost like they're going up grab somebody who knows who he is that's what they were doing they were reacting to the light but it's not like he's fighting them with the light the presence the presence and we

all have that we all have that beautiful solid core presence but we pretend we don't and that's where our problems begin one time there was this conference and I was a speaker and I think I was in the like in the back of behind back stage or something and then somebody rushed in and the coordinator was there talking to me and somebody rushed in and said listen we have a problem somebody arrived who had been driving supposedly for two days to get straight strength two days to get there to attend this conference because there's their

voices were telling them that they're supposed to show up and perform somehow and you know this is like very clearly an unstable person and well it is you know and the the coordinator said well well we have a set itinerary and speakers and performers you know and this is somebody who just was unstable so the coordinator went out it was in right outside the door and she went outside the door and started you know listen I'm sorry and then this person started no my my guides and my voices told me and they started getting louder

and louder starting to make a scene so I walked on the other side of the door I walked out there and there she did she just fell to the ground just like I'm describing she fell to the ground she saw me and she started reacting and and it was a an amazing thing I didn't have to do anything I just brought presents and then it starts happening the reaction and these voices and these name and whatever and it's you look at them and you don't fight them you give them permission to go you give them permission and it can

be done the easy way or the hard way but you don't belong here that's what you're saying to mischievious entities and houses you don't belong here and try saying it to your exes if they're trying to be hurtful wait wait wait that's not happening it's an amazing thing when we show up and say not today it's not I'm not interested and what they're subconsciously saying is but you used to be interested used to do this dance all the time every time I come back you'd succumb to it and I would

take more and you would give more and and you're saying yeah you know funny thing about that that's when I was crazy and I'm not interested I woke up find your own wording I'm not telling you exactly what words but just that's what you're saying family matter I don't care who it is your mother your father your sisters your aunt uncle's your aunt's your best friends when you wake up even four more people you did drugs with and they want you to go back to that don't say please don't tempt me learn to say

it's not an option I mean it's actually not an option I'm not fighting the temptation I'm not interested I'm not even an option speak to people with that spirit that it's not an option and they get it more than if they see you're fighting it even if it looks like you're fighting for what's good the fact that they see any weakness is what they'll go after it's the same way you have to parent no not today mom's awake today no I guess we're gonna come back and try her again tomorrow you

know when you get it it's like it's an amazing thing no it's that this clarity or yes which shows the same conviction whatever you know to be right and healthy that's what you start living from so we had this moment where we thought we could separate and when we actually separated believe it or not we then have to actively actively keep God's light away so you can't separate and then allow God's light because then it'll prove you wrong when we thought let's see what life would be out what

life would be like without God we then had to actively try to keep that light out so when the light walks into the room our lower nature reacts to that it's why people don't dig you when you start waking up and they make up stuff about you whatever it's because they're demons are screaming and that's okay because I had them yesterday and you might have them tomorrow and who cares let's just still do the light work and not judge who has demons and how many and I don't mean literal demons I mean

even the voices in your head that keep you in the lower nature we have a job to do and it's to remember who we are but we did at one time I wonder what life would be like to be separate then let's do our best to keep that light out so because God is so you can't just wonder what life would be like to be separate and then God isn't God is all reality so we had to actually and still actively keep that light off of us because our lower nature thinks that if we let that light in we will lower Sneyd cease to exist and it would

the ego saying we're gonna die if we allow too much light yes you will but you never live so you won't really die you'll just stop really existing you'll stop seeming to be you'll be retired for lack of work there just won't be anything here for you there's just nothing here well but what about no I'm not interested that's all it's beautiful it's a clarity that surpasses human understanding and then we were your problem is not only did we think we're separate then think we got to

actively keep light away from us that's why you stay stoned that's why you stay buzzed that's why you stay in dysfunctional relationships it's all an act of trying to keep light away and darkness present believe it or not so now we go one more one more you know level which is if we're gonna keep light out there's a part of us that's going wasn't there light a minute ago so we have to fabricate false forms of light so we don't become too suspicious that were subconsciously blocking out real

light false forms of light or codependence false forms of light are any form of addiction so we couldn't just keep God back we had to substitute it with something else and it's everything that you ever thought was going to give you anything I'm not missing anything so I don't need anything hope it a little of this a little that and it's okay it's not to judge ourselves it's just to see it and go wow how do you know how do I know that that happened because today when someone that wanted to go out on a date didn't show

up I got very hurt that was my evidence today that I had an expectation of a false form of light giving me something now when they say tomorrow listen I know I didn't show up how about tomorrow no I'm good this is how I would respond no I'm good I feel yeah oh but you know if we go out we can do this and I yeah but I'm good thanks I'll buy you flowers I don't need any I feel like a really great bouquet myself you know I'll get you the finest food man I had Captain Crunch this morning man

anyway I feel good you know I feel full spiritually and all of a sudden you realize after the after you fight with that at first because at first you're gonna fight with those addictions then all of a sudden you see and now not only do I not fight my life starts to organically develop in and through me I'm drawn to foods that feel like they're vital like they give life not take life but the same as with friends friends and foods that are biogenic life-giving generating life feelings of laughter instead of hate you know look

at the difference when we can laugh about life and so on it there's there's an energy in laughter that gives life its life-giving versus hate and gossip which actually is trying to choke out life and some people know my gossips justified I'm just trying to make sure that we all are knowing what's right and wrong you know and whatever not at all I mean there's that's it's just all it is is a form of hate and it's a disease there are people that have so little of a life that they'll actually watch this show when

I'm doing or any teachers and they hate them and they'll just sit there and talk about how much they hate those spiritual teachers but it's weird because Wow like that's how little you are how little of a life you have that you're gonna sit and watch something you hate that doesn't make sense did nobody ever give you a chant you know buttons to change channels or something you don't like what you're watching change no I want to sit here and obsess on how much I hate something and and we all have bits of

that well not me well yeah that's why you stayed in that relationship that was all messed up or went back to it five times or changed over and found new people that are just like them because there's there's this weird oh look an accident you know and you want to watch it when you drive by and see you know mutilated bodies that's your relationships that's you know our penchant for darkness and we have to be willing to see that and say wait a minute I thought I was separate I pushed so much light out that now I'm satisfied

with dim dim light it's a false form of light we had to fabricate forms of light to keep ourselves happy and now mankind you know we're waiting up we're waking up we're going I created illusion to keep me happy because I was missing reality so if I let go of illusion what if reality's mad at me then I'm not going to have anything the ultimate oblivion that we all fear the absolute darkness of the universe because I know God's gonna just toss me into that oblivion or worse and it isn't

at all when we stick to our guns and say goodbye to what false gods we've created then we start finding reality and it's only ever Peace Love joy bliss oneness it's only ever good however the voices that tell you it's going to be painful if you switch from settling and bargaining your life away to reality they're telling you the truth because it will hurt for a minute because it's all forms of addiction are going to be pulled out of you when that happens it's just like any form of it heroin

your form your life is their relationship heroin or whatever other form there it's in your bloodstream it's in your nerves and so when you say no to the old ways it can hurt for a minute so I'll admit that I'm not going to just say well soon as you say it everything's peaceful it often is for a few minutes it might be peaceful but then now we need you to breathe this might hurt a bit because now that person's gonna leave the next day I never imagined they could leave and they go and you're gonna feel hurt

you're gonna wish you could call them back be careful you mate you'd have been better off not even trying to heal then to heal and then be weak about it when you make your commitment you better be prepared to stick to it and it's gonna be good but for a moment you might feel a little sting here and then it's all going to be fine but if there is that moment and people talk about you know this constant what do we do if we thought we separated we push God out we god you need to heal but not it's not

like fixing a wound we have to heal consciousness how I've always said primarily empty your cup and refill your cup however some people only talk about emptying like obsessing on old wounds and stuff you have to heal and scream about and you know and her child stuff and so on they only do that which is fine if it has the other but some only do that and others only do the refilling which is I don't want to talk about any issues I'm just gonna ohm myself back home and and that doesn't work either

because you're trying to polish the outside of this tomb but the inside there's still death so you have to have a balance and it's not how much how many days of each I don't know it's different per person per day but I do know this when stuff comes up it's time for me to release it after every form of releasing time to refill every time I if I might cup his toxic I don't just put water in it and drink all I did was water down the toxin but it's still toxic I need to rinse out that cup

but I also shouldn't be thirsty and eventually put fresh water in it and now I drink and I feel different I'm filling up with something new and to refill to shift from the the healing we've talked about that so many times the healing and all that you do there don't forget to refill refilling means your affirmations it means positive thinking don't just do positive thinking when in fact you have low self-worth rude up you know uproot those self-worth and then do positive thinking play with both dabble with both

but when you are refilling hmm when people say I've done such-and-such it's not working it's always either you didn't uproot something or you didn't refill because healing comes with both of those it's so it's always one or another that I'm at neglecting so I'm gonna uproot and uproot and uh print but then I'm gonna refill and God's presence breathe it in call it in and feel it and visualize it all that but one of the things we underestimate is the concept of gratitude see when you are even if

you refill even if you cry the pasen ohm and bring in the new and visualize light and sparkles and angels around you there's still one more thing when you say thank you it means and so it is it means I got it see if I call in the angels and all that and then don't say thanks what happens is there's windows left open and breezes blow the Angels out those windows somebody says thank you you're locking it in absolutely locking it in and one of the ways to say thank you is to acknowledge guys acknowledge when

good things have happened to you see what happens is the ego keeps us all sitting in a state of post-trauma so that means like I'm just always waiting for the other shoe to drop someone says you know I really like you and you're like but what and that's how we live you know like guess what winning lottery ticket how much of the tax is gonna be always waiting for something to go wrong you know whether it's dating and well I just know you know something it's we're living in the state of post-trauma and I

think it's a horrible thing to do to ourselves you shouldn't wish it upon any child little one child and if you wouldn't wish it upon a child why would you allow it for yourself but we do that well yeah this is okay but it is probably you know I mean look at the affirmations of this world money doesn't grow on trees nothing good lasts forever and that's the affirmations that's the mantra people live so you can't just go well okay I won't believe that anymore oh thanks for sharing you those are words

but you have to prove it and one of the ways to kick butt on this and change it is to say thank you but make yourself acknowledge the good make yourself own it it doesn't matter what it is I'm trying to lose weight and all I lost was one pound oh yes yes so now make that one pound make that your new limit don't go beyond that anymore make that your new high that you don't go beyond that pound you lost make this today your new high and then go with that you got a raise yeah but only 20 cents yes

good job 20 cents an hour you don't you don't like that okay quit be homeless you're good go to you know it's okay if it's if that makes your heart sing great don't have the job and complain about the job buying things and give thanks for things I've had people say to me no one has ever once in my life been affectionate I said give me your hand okay now don't ever say that again that's what you have to do to yourself knock it off you have to say that you know just just it's it's like a day at a

time like reprogramming no of course that the day will come when we don't have to micromanage like that but for now because the ego is so rampant and because we're so used to living small we have to step up and say all right got it yes and acknowledge that's a good thing I I would love to have a swimming pool a put get one I don't I don't have the money okay well they sell them at Kmart for ten bucks they're about this big about this big fill it with water laying it and just you know and say yes

you don't want it then stop asking for it that's it do or don't do no try and and step in and accept it and I'm not like overly being like silient and ridiculous here I'm saying true start somewhere you and so I call this assembling besides the you know acknowledge eats each step I also call it assembling because not only am I going to have something you give thanks for it I'm also what I'm doing there is assembling a new life and yeah it would be great if it weren't such sometimes

small steps but if I don't want to change don't ask for it if you want the change on every possible and positive step you know I'd like to I would like to be vegan okay be vegan oh it's it's too much of it then change something eliminate something and when you've done it say thank you to yourself nice job to yourself I never would have imagined that I could have done that that's right good job whatever the topic move in the right direction you know this person then they always call and I always give in and talk start

somewhere you know and it's called blocking numbers oh but what if just block the number you know if it's really that hard and you know hurtful and hateful you know just block the number and then you'll have to get over the fact that you had an addiction there and you'll feel it every time you wonder I wonder if they're calling I wonder if I should unblock you're starting to see your obsessions and obsessions are showing you a form of addiction so it's a form of assembling and I've shared

many stories of this oh you know over the years but so I'll try not to repeat too many of them but it's the idea like I live a very simple life I really do but I still assembled I don't have a ton of money to buy but you wouldn't know that because I assemble things I see something's you know it's five bucks and it's a cool little statue I love you know statues angels and fairies and things I get another one you know I am below reality my reality may have started with you know a stark

looking home and even even when I was a first divorce and had an apartment I just didn't have a ton of money but I'm gonna have something so I start with oh I you know I was like I have an idea you know I've got to have a bed so I'll get a bed but I got a bed that I still have today it is the coolest most comfortable amazing bed and this is like 30-something years ago this is the coolest I mean it's just absolutely comfortable I love it and so I assembled I got that that was like a splurge you

know several hundred for this you know at the time so it was like great Iran you know whenever that wasn't and so then then it's like I saw this chair that was kind of unique called a papasan chair I'm like that's so cool it kind of just it's like whoom like it's just oh man get in that interesting oh you know and I'm like you know what this thing needs a soft blanket so I put a soft blanket over it and it's still there I still have the papasan chair if you looked at it you wouldn't you

wouldn't think that it's old age it's the same chair it's beautiful it's still in perfect shape and it still has my white fluffy alpaca you know blanket over it you know just gorgeous your imagination starts telling you things you know what you want honey saying to yourself honey you know let's get let's get a fountain and have some trickling water yeah but I can't afford it sometimes they're thousands yeah they also sell them for 50 bucks at K more go get one little one and you put that

there and you glue little fairies to it or whatever make it like it's an amazing thing so that you go wow you know I didn't have a ton of money when I was a kid and I had little ones you know and what do you do Oh kids we don't have money I'm not gonna do that what is it you want and so when they are like oh you know wouldn't we want a dollhouse kind of thing I went out and got cardboard and cut it and made it into a dollhouse kind of thing for them to play in a big big house out of cardboard that's all I

could do but it was something and it made them happy when they saw it it was exciting they didn't go oh well oh wait where's the drywall and the you know insulation it's you know how to lift the thing on fire if they're to complain no it was beautiful to them it was beautiful let the child in yourself see things are beautiful if you can't afford a drum kit get out pots and pans find a way to say this is great because if you get over it after a while you're over it but it could lead you to the next levels

too if you can't be happy with what you have how can more be given so it's this concept of of building and building and I mean I've done this in so many areas even dating people I dated somebody and they were this and they were it's always like it's something outside this person was less as though you know I didn't like that and I did like that and I wish they would've stayed but they didn't it's all these conversations about things out there what you could do is say from this

I learned this from this I learned this I learned I like this I don't like that who's speaking me so what are you doing I'm assembling what I like and don't like so now anything that's gonna be a relationship has to actually fit me this thing that I've assembled not living in reaction mode to the way they are and they're not but rather wow this person taught me this that person I got that things I am not okay with things I am okay with then all of a sudden you've assembled here's what I'm about and you

just it's back to where I started half an hour ago you're clear so people say you know what are you about whether they're saying it on your dating sites or whether it's in person what are you about well I don't know that's really a good way to go you know that that's just that's just all that does is send a frequency out to anybody that doesn't know who they are Here I am you know instead I know exactly who I am where have you been what have you liked in your relationships what have you not

liked discover who you are and then stand with that I totally know this and then watch the human ego self that'll say well they fit 70% of that 30 of its really really alarming there's red flags and all kinds of night terrors when I'm trying to sleep and think about the person but I think I can change them you're better off being alone and then learn from that because if even if you say well I'll settle it'll be okay that'll be another lesson and I'm not talking about being like entitled and belligerent about

simple things like dating just clear just clear you know so it's like what what are you looking for they don't have to be perfect and I'm not needing to be perfect all I know is I'm in that direction are you going in that direction no I don't really believe in any of that well I can change them no don't don't bother unless you want that as a lesson but just don't pretend that you didn't know that was coming so instead I I know exactly what I'm about if somebody's in

my life mind being any of us what what is it you're about well I've had children so now I'm good that's complete now someone else it won't need to be that perhaps I would like a sense of humor and that's me so sense of humor is gonna be important if you've meet somebody who collects horror movies see DVDs you know you might go well that's an odd hobby I think I can live with that you know maybe you know that's great see that wouldn't be of interest to me I mean I'm

a total turnoff when it comes to personally up a total turnoff when it comes to things like that dating or whatever because I have no interest in anything it's you know that's a good good sell huh what are you into nothing you know and by that what I'm saying is just simple just simple laughter I watched cartoons before I would watch human movies you know the stuff about drama and murder mysteries I have no interest I'm not like having a version to it I have no interest in it so you start becoming so clear there's not a

lot of investment I mean you know I remember saying to when I was married you know because of challenges and things that were going on you know and once in a while I'd have to say you know if I I mean like cooking for me it was simple it's called toast just toast you know and we'd have arguments about cellphone I'd be like you know some guys would want you to cook for them you know I just want toast when I come home from work you know using the old terminology for come home from work just toast tons

a tons of butter but I want toast that's all but I'm I'm simple that way and you get to know what you're about and what you're not interested in but do understand the clearer you become about yourself you just shine such a light that a lot of this world will not be able to meet you there you know no you know I'm not interested in fighting I'm not interested in poverty consciousness I'm not interested in whatever it happens to be if we have a conversation if her friends I want

open conversations you want to keep secrets I'm not interested in secrets let's pretend that there are ten lines of communication or presence between myself and another person in a relationship you do anything you have anything going on you're judgmental and gossipy snip you're not wanting to have open communication snip that's what happens for me I'm not interested in those things I'll talk about all work on them but just a clarity I don't really have an interest in things that are

along those lines major addictions or whatever just not it's not because I don't love the person but I'm just saying we have to be really clear about who we are and assemble a new life but when you're assembling it do it in a way that you would do your own child let them assemble things that are positive and healthy try not to steer your child into assembling a life that's hurtful and will become regrettable no settling no bargaining teach them like the Bible says teach them in the ways of the Lord

and the end they'll still come find their way back so do that for yourself assemble a healthy life assemble it whatever that may be I saw myself growing up throughout my life I saw myself there were times when I learned this assembling thing partly through relationship and I realized wow this is just cool because when I've shared in intimate friendships or partnerships they're absolutely stellar everybody digs him it's really really cool the only time they can ever become a challenge is if somebody wants something that's not in

the agreement we've made as to how the relationships gonna be that's about it but for the most part it's pretty stellar when you are with somebody who wants to communicate someone who loves honesty somebody who can handle you know wounds when they come up and is trying to be responsible so it's pretty cool it's pretty stellar it's quite beautiful and it's the way life is supposed to be so holding that presence is just like fantastic and having others willing to hold that presence is fantastic

and in this world in my own growing and development over time I learned about that assembling but I also learned the hard way because I noticed that when I was a kid we had just almost consistently just horrible things like even the holidays they were just horrible and so there was this naive part of myself that every year I was kind of maybe this will be the year because I just dig the holidays it's like the lights and sparkly things and you know I'm like yes so the the light in me loves the holidays but then it

would all go horribly wrong so I was kind of hurt confused devastated but I still kept you know just like being overly naive looking for that it will change this year will be different is that making sense and it wasn't different Oh bummer you know and then you go away from the family and all that and then create my own family and it was happening again where for other reasons stuff was just not going well but besides anybody else's contribution remember it wasn't programmed in me I wouldn't have known what it looked like

if I could have it remember it's nowhere in here so I'm wanting something that isn't present so I'm going to need to assemble this and it would be all right this year it went pretty well that's kind of cool see but a part of me would go but it but it would be great if that is going to kill what happened I know it takes patience one date at a time one positive holiday at a time I know it takes patience and it's a bummer that it seems to take that kind of patience but that's the only way home

this went better and this went better and two steps forward one step back three steps forward one step a step back is not a problem as long as I see I'm still getting forward so the holidays so what happened was I was putting too much pressure on waiting for that wonderful moment with it's like you know where's the where's the the I do at the you know where's the the consummation of Christmas finally being wonderful and it was like no birthdays the same thing they just didn't go well so you're what

I'm doing what we're doing is living in hell that's what you were doing we're living in hell everything's stuck and not allowed to come out so guys a day at a time just like a recovery from family life and whatever a day at a time find the positives and affirm them so I did that and then again and again and again and one day it was around 1993 five or something 19 it was in the late nineties actually come to think of it in the late 90s after do being on the spiritual path for already 15-20 years late 90s I think

it was where all of a sudden I saw it all happen where I had an experience where everything was perfect there was everything just I just looked and realized Christmas Eve Christmas morning the healthy friends amazing communication a light snowfall had come warm inside beautiful out Simon it was magical now I didn't just go oh isn't that nice no no let me breathe it in Wow and because I got it soon as you get something and it becomes the neuron owns it you own it it is now you you can still ruin it you can still try

to ruin it but watch cuz you're gonna start going but I wonder for the last Shh that's one of those where you say get behind me Satan you know it's a phrase from the Bible that's where you're saying no no no not today this is perfect really can anything be perfect yes this is beautiful this is perfect look how everyone's at peace everyone's getting along everyone's happy and then this person says hey what's your favorite breakfast guys you know to the red hey and makes that favorite

breakfast and and it just keeps getting better and better soak it in and own it just like the wounds had to get programmed because we were once total light and love and we had to be destroyed over time to forget how good we are and now you have to go back and grab it again so you can say well I've never actually had healthy affection start somewhere but but where I don't know maybe in this room or online you can find ways you know you can email and we can talk about ways guys but find somebody sit find somebody to hold your

hand find somebody to walk her I I shared the story once I did a session at a unity before you service started I was on tour and this gal really certain circumstances lots of hurt never had healthy safe like affection so we had like 10 minutes before service started I said well let's go for a walk and I had her put her arm in my arm and we walked around it almost felt like she was having a moment of a safe boyfriend kind of feel and we just walked around the parking lot people are arriving going in for service which is walking around the

parking lot that's what we could do in that moment to say now you've had it no agendas no other trips just wasn't that nice and if you had somebody who could hold your hand or arm in arm or give you a hug or sit with you and talk and you know if you never had somebody give time then grab it when somebody does I don't care it could be somebody at a bus stop they just gave you time don't say that doesn't count I don't know them own that one and then it'll be something and then something closer and if you

deny or destroy any of those opportunities you've destroyed the option of having a new life you want a new life assemble it there's one version that comes from your connection with God obviously and absolutely another part of it also has to come with your participation God can try all it can do to try to bring your life and if you're saying no no no you're still blocking it out believing in separation blocking it out and then substituting it with yourself hate self-loathing assemble it I deserve

I allow and if ever you doubt that you deserve imagine that in you there's a ten year old a five year old would you really deny them fun or good whatever it happens to be assembling things you think you can't afford start somewhere I need a new car I want that kind believe it or not if you can own that the one you have is great now here now more will be given if you have a certain amount of income more will be given but just be prepared to assemble it or whatever it happens to be I don't have enough money

to buy a car assemble the money call in some people you've lent money to perhaps a get a raise I mean what my mind does as soon as I see I'm gonna do something it starts pulling it all together it's just an amazing process it's called miracle working but it's starting with the miracle happening here even people you think you can't forgive then start somewhere start with I could never forget forgive that loser no chance would I ever do that good now one day try fine I'm willing to try to forgive that loser

then the next time leave the word loser out of it find that that person that hurt me so bad and then keep keep give it time when you're ready but own it every time you've done it well you know I I said that without the words that loser end and it went okay I'm not gonna claim happiness yet but it went okay and you're gonna notice that even healing wounds if it has to be a step at a time do it but don't forget to give thanks and don't forget to own that you're different you have to do that I'm

telling you you have to you have to own the progress is in your life every bit I don't hate that person as much excellent that's great let's get a cupcake if it were me I just eat the icing off the top but still if you want to eat the dang thing go ahead if that give me the icing and then you eat the cupcake but light a candle and whatever you need to do just to have fun and own it I did this but that was amazing pretty cool tell a friend and if they try to shoot it down no goodbyes but they might say nice job and then you

have to go it really was wasn't it if all you're doing is something medicinally or herbally for your health and you're a bit better yes that's very very cool there Wow own it you had some ailment and it's a little bit less oh nice own it don't say but I can't I want it's not all healed if we don't get used to anchor in the new levels you won't get to the other because the ego is always trying to make it seem like you're good is too far away but if when you're climbing that mountain you stake

in each thing and wreak clasp your ropes you're safe you're going to be all right one step at a time you're not expected to go the whole way just to step at a time this is also a mastery principle and I'm going to begin ending here now for today but it's a mastery principle one time in my mastery caught a workshop and I do each spring we were gonna do this you know kind of the rock climbing thing and we had several groups like four groups and people look at the mountain the rock you know the face that they're gonna climb

and they're like oh - hi - this - that that's the head the egos always gonna want you to believe that what you're trying to do is too much so do something okay over people that are saying I'm afraid I'm afraid of heights okay so don't go high just two steps so you can say I did it and it was amazing every time we've done this those afraid of heights okay now focus grab grab foot foot now just do one two three steps like a rhythm of sound one two three now freeze now pause just good

how do you feel you did it yeah but I'm not a yeah stop you did it you committed to three and you did three cool you're great now you want to get down you want to go more no let me try three more one two and if they don't they so I want to get down great celebrate you did three good job that's how it has to be the same as you would do trying to be healthy in parenting a child nice job I hope this is making sense because talking about one step at a time in a way sounds almost Elementary and I'm saying people have destroyed this

concept and sabotage this concept and that's why they don't find peace and they can't get to those places assemble you know and even when I'm making jokes about you know yeah I would be a terrible date kind of thing I'm saying that in light but I'm actually believing because I wouldn't do it without it being absolutely right and healthy so we can have fun things you don't think you can do I wish I could play an instrument okay happy birthday to you try it oh it's too many notes let's start with

heavy Hevy happy birthday go ahead stretch man try to more happy birthday you're almost there you're halfway through that you know leader the song to you you did it do it again whatever they do it again great it's if you knew with both hands or it's like you accomplished it and your human mind that thinks this sounds simplistic is actually already trying to destroy it not having you go anywhere say no I understand it I can do anything I can absolutely do anything if I tackle it one step at a time it's called divide

and conquer there's healthy forms of divide and conquer which is where you succeed and hurtful ego-based which is where you try to divide and conquer people and destroy them or do yourself just even if it's called you know manageable doses then do it but you can do anything don't try to lose a hundred pounds lose five doses manageable doses don't try to go completely vegan do do what you can do you know don't try to become a perfect partner start somewhere with communication for example move things in

the direction of goodness everybody deserves it and as you get there don't forget one step at a time give thanks if you don't give thanks for each of those five pounds in each of those changes indict or whatever you're trying to do you know whatever it is if you don't give thanks you're there's a reason why you're not giving thanks what is the reason because you don't believe it's gonna stay you're trying to protect your little heart well I just can end up hurt anyway that's a good affirmation so

what you're doing is sabotaging and then covering your butt and what you need to do is say I'm gonna risk it I'm gonna say thank you and commit to the universe that I actually believed this was good and that it might be going somewhere okay take a few centering breaths all that was shared today part of it means it was the best ever that was the best hand-holding I've ever had that was the best chiropractic adjustment I've ever had and if it wasn't get a different one find the best of something

including instead of your ego using the past to keep you traumatized why don't you look back at what was the best ever so right now what was the best ever communication with anybody the overall communication did you ever have anyone where you had good communication if not start today with someone even if it's a 60 second communication let's look at our lives and assemble them right here right now best ever own it why would I give thanks just for majors find some best evers give thanks for everything but find some

best evers what was your favorite outfit you ever wore and then let it make you smile forget if only that's the ego oh yeah god that was a cool outfit I loved wearing that good let it actually program neurons in the brain that's a happy fun favorite holiday moment what was the best ever I understand there may be more than one great what was your best ever meal or dessert moment where you said god that

was delicious grab it assemble it as part of you so that when we're done you can say I have a hack actually had amazing meals amazing accomplishments I actually had decent communication once yeah I was at an amusement park oh my god I wanted to stay all day best ever if you remember past lives best ever what what ones and why oh god there was this one where it was just so beautiful best ever guys assemble it if I don't have it bring it and assemble it the best lovemaking the best kiss the safest partner

the best massage or healer can I actually own that I had best Evers the ego will Fitz think that that's arrogant but in fact it'll be a threat to the ego yeah I've had lots of best Evers that is times when you look at people that is the best outfit I've ever seen to others that is the best music which of course will be the Beatles that is the best ever my best ever meditation have you ever seen a breathtaking view landscape and just whoa don't just make it whoa and then out the other ear in

one part of your mind and out the other soak it in Wow goodness and mercy follows me all the days of my life goodness and beauty a poem that blew your mind a shoulder rub oh that was just amazing why are we afraid to remember these things because we actually believe we can't make them permanent and you can't if you can't remember it if you can't own it best ever and if the child or person inside yourself says yeah but there were also painful moments and say I know and I'm sorry about that so do I have a best ever moment where I

cried cried deeply was the best ever release assembling a new life all the things we're acknowledging are already becoming building blocks to a new life best town I ever lived in best house I ever lived in best family memory a moment where you were so spontaneously creative it was the best ever something just happened it's like I was walking in the light of God and it was like a best ever best ever feelings of being heard or

seen or appreciated Wow and we close with acknowledging all those memories they are mine and since we're one they are ours I am bet if benefiting by remembering this feeling this acknowledging it anchoring it and giving thanks for it and then it also brings benefit to everyone I am taken to a higher level of faith and hope in my life and who I am and in so doing everyone else has taken there with me I'm starting over born again and rebuilding a new life and this might be one of the best ever

conversations or talks I've ever heard and it's mine it's not what a guy spoke it's mine this is if I only liked one sentence then yes that really worked for me and let it take you somewhere all the best Evers become fuel we take a couple of final breaths and feel a sense of gratitude feel a sense of closure there are some tears that have moved through some it's fines beautiful do me a favor and just keep your eyes closed if you'd like to if you can and just let's take the hands of the people

next to us and the people watching online just please feel it just take your own hands and hold and let one of them symbolize our hand holding yours God and a breath in and feel that best ever feeling and what sound does that make when you exhale oh good good and one more time and what does it sound like ha god yes nice right and then the third time let's let the sound continue for about a minute even if you have to pause and breathe in [Music]

keep going gentle beautiful just forget that you're a body forget that you're a person just let light flow through let it sound through you to each other and to all people in the world throughout all time in all dimensions I feel so good I'm remembering so many good memories yes good let it dance let it dance and stir around people decompressing old hurts best ever best ever I feel so grateful when I choose to be with God it is the best moment ever and then now silence just for a moment and imagine that the concept of best

ever is a frequency found through the silence in the room and inside of us and then watch it it's proactive it starts to unwind muscles and memories releasing it starts to integrate peace into ourselves imagine a peace that surpasses understanding it's actually like a floating feeling my back muscles might still hold me up yet I don't have to think about it because I trust them if I want to tense up again and be afraid again I can do that in a few minutes but right now no I'll give myself permission permission to

completely relax and feel loved and Trust best ever I'm choosing to assemble a new life and I welcome in people and events that help support the assembling of a new life I don't have to hate those who will not support that I just simply say no thanks keep moving in the direction of that which assembles a new life imagine what fortifies your body cells food-wise imagine what kinds of friends fortify you trusting your creativity a whole new self built a day at a time an event at a time a gratitude at a time I

live we live in complete gratitude gratitude for even the hard lessons we've chosen to learn the hard way the painful way not gratitude for the paint gratitude that I chose to learn and next time I'll choose the easy way gratitude for the best ever memories I'm having I forgot about some of these what was I doing why was I doing that that was silly let me go for the better best ever let me welcome that let me give thanks the people the memories best ever thank you thank you thank you hmmm and then I can have more and this

is already happening and I'm affirming its presence throughout my life in me through me and as me and so it is