Being in the Moment: The Real Story

good morning everyone oh centering breaths please [Music] and as the sound begins to fade let it take hold of your mind your focus and draw you deeper and deeper towards your heart your soul the altar of God here in this sacred quiet space father mother God we give thanks for

your holy presence here where we are meant to meet you our inner Garden of Eden in this place you walk and talk with us in this place you guide us support us heal us so we enter this space willingly lovingly and with great anticipation to meet you so that you can guide us in our day-to-day lives we are your beloved children in whom you are well pleased and now we ask that you guide us on how to live accordingly and so it is and now please join me in reading our mission statement which you can find on this front of this Bulletin

together we say the global Center for Christ Consciousness is a spiritual center for students and Masters on the spiritual path we are dedicated to Awakening the inner Christ and creating a world of love peace joy and abundance and now for our sacred reading foreign happiness is the realization of God in the heart we do not wish you good luck we do not wish you Prosperity we do not wish you good health we do wish you Supreme happiness and the union of your heart with the great white light with Christ and all the angels of

Christ happiness is not merely pleasure for happiness can sometimes come in the midst of great sorrow happiness is a realization of God in the heart happiness is a result of praise of Thanksgiving of faith of acceptance a quiet tranquil realization of the love of God and so it is very nice can you please share with me what topics you'd like me to cover today just a few good examples what is it facts of the ego no just cover that briefly

um wait I'll I'll I'll cover that ego thing what love over fear okay thanks that's good thank you so we're on this amazing journey Journey without distance to a place we never left that means that the good news is that we are as God created us to be the bad news that we pretend that we're not and when I say pretend that we're not that's actually a very accurate statement because we continually pretend that we're not holy beings but the problem is we're pretending that we're

not because we believe we're not so it's not really pretending we act true to ourselves we actually think we're Unholy and then we act accordingly and now our actions seem very congruent with or with our beliefs right if we didn't act Unholy we would actually explode because we would be so incongruent believing that we're Unholy and yet not acting Unholy it wouldn't work so we're acting based on our beliefs we believe that we're flawed beings and therefore we live up to that standard

and there there are ways out of that one of you is asking about the ego and so forth and and love and fear and so on yes it's it's it's really this person that we see this person that we seem to be is is a collision of reality and illusion reality is constantly the will of God is constantly consistently pouring in and through us to say you are my beloved children in whom I am well pleased and the ego in US is screaming the other direction no you're not look at you look what you've done you've

been naughty you've been addictive you don't you know so this this person is a collision of these two messages now do you understand why you have to drink now do you understand why you need some kind of thing to calm it down to to drink it to to drug it to whatever the even the foods they're all a way to buffer all this stimulus Edgar Casey was an incredible intuitive clairvoyant but he was a chain smoker and what they realized is he was smoking to try to counter the anxiety of being a farmer with no

education channeling all this stuff it was incongruent with the people around him it was the inner battle you know reality and illusion he's channeling this amazing stuff but the human self is going for you to do this you know you can go to jail for doing Health readings and curing people you know it's and he's just a a guy sixth grade education but anxiety and we all have it I don't care who you are I don't care if you're a world leader or or a humble whatever uh you know person on the planet we all have

our variations of this but it is true that the more we step up to own Who We Are the more this Collision will be palpable it's like an anxiety in us this you know seeming reality and illusion and one way to cope with it really is the the famous concept one day at a time I mean as as beautiful I mean that is sounding simple one day at a time but it's not easy because the ego doesn't go oh well now that you're living one day at a time I might as well retire it's going to go oh you're gonna try

that are you and it's got a whole list of things to do to deal with people who try to live one day at a time you're trying to to to diet but you're gonna you know you're gonna know oh my God I wanna lose 40 pounds but it's already been a week and I haven't lost anything you know the ego is holding back help making your body hold back to make you give up and then be even more depressed and eat more how dare you try to change your life it's going to deal with addiction the same way you know you

you're only one weekend you don't even have any nails left you've chewed them down to nothing you think you're gonna handle this forever oh no one day at a time and we take it too literally this one day at a time concept one day at a time is synonymous to a degree with being in the moment okay it's sort of be in the moment and be in the moment one day at a time so they they're not exactly the same but being in the present moment and one day at a time the ego is going to even mess that up

so you go well I'm making some plans to pick up my children at school tomorrow but that's not being in the moment supposed to do one day at a time so I have to wait till tomorrow to make plans mom you're going to pick us up well who knows we have to you know be open but but Mom the school is 20 miles away I know but if it's not God's will I mean is that really how you're going to live impractically like that and that's just the ego trying to sabotage again our lives so living one day at a time

the perks include slowing down they include include they include being grounded Believe It or Not slowing down living one day at a time being in the moment is a is a means of slowing down it kind of grounds you see there's no anxiety about tomorrow because I'm right here there's no regrets of the past because I'm right here but the present moment doesn't mean the present Split Second but it can the present moment means generally now what's happening right now what is needed right now but right now I might need to make plans

to pick up my kids at school that's not out of the moment yeah but it's future planning but it's happening in the now there's a difference A Course in Miracles and Christ Consciousness explains this as people basically hyperplan their everything has to be exactly in place you know hyper plan their lives to keep the world from caving in on them not that it's going to cave in but that's the anxiety we live with I have to have every all things in place you know um and that's just a hyper vigilance

which comes from being wounded if I can just keep everything planned and nothing goes wrong I'm not as messed up as I think I am but the more I'm doing that it's sad because it shows just how messed up I am I remember kind of a a funny story uh The Beatles they said they toured a particular country I won't name which one but they put they toured a particular country and they were told okay here's your schedule at precisely seven o'clock not one minute before nor after there will be a knock on your door

your ride will be ready you will exit the door at that moment follow your driver they will take you down to your car you will be at your car at 703 at which point and just like this here's the and then shuttle two the concert you will be picked up and shoved and these these four kids they just go okay and they just did everything different they didn't answer the door for 20 minutes and just made them all have anxiety attacks you know it's like which is passive aggressive behavior I'm not endorsing it but I think it's funny

God you know it's a little much um but staying in the moment helps us deal with bad habits it helps us deal with the anxieties of tomorrow and the anxieties of yesterday you know fears stay in the moment so when it comes to Healing what does what does it mean to healing and being in the moment being in the moment would means you never work on past issues that's not what it means it's being in the moment is not obsessing in the moment so here's an example I want to do healing on some issue of my past

one tactic is to obsess on what happened and just keep talking about it obsessing on it the sweeping it under a rug avoiding it it's still all a an incorrect and inaccurate and and unproductive means of dealing it's unsuccessful ways of dealing with the past is to try to sweep it under the rug the right way to do it is to bring it to the present you don't let trauma post trauma drag you to the past how do you know it's dragging into the past versus bringing it to the present well there's a few

ways to know one of them is are you obsessing are you obsessing on what happened what shouldn't have happened what you wish wouldn't it see wishing doesn't mean I'm here that means I'm in the total hypothetical mind of if only if only that hadn't happened I would be a better person if only if only and that messes us up how do you know it's in the present that you're bringing it to Healing because you're bringing it you're acknowledging something happen you're bringing it you're processing it today

for example if I'm talking about it I start to get overwhelmed go ahead Scream the stuff out in a pillow if you need to then breathe decompress all that breathe and call in the presence of God see I'm in charge I'm doing something constructive with it it's not crippling me it's not immobilizing me it doesn't have a grip the way it would have if I only kept obsessing on the past so it's kind of like having our finger on the pulse of how we're doing inside being in the present moment you know

strangely enough the outer world is just a mirror of our inner world so believe it or not anything you do any action you take is an attempt to avoid being in the moment any action you take is actually an attempt to avoid yourself it's true you're in avoidance and you don't nobody knows it all compulsions are an attempt to avoid being here now but being here now it would mean in the present moment I'm told we could all say God is found in the present moment ah no not quite when you're getting to the present

moment before you land there and find God you'll have to find yourself and you don't like you so you're going to have a panic attack and then jump back into the past when somebody ruined you even in the present the real you is waiting on your way there the ego says excuse me you don't want to go there what do you mean I heard God's waiting for me in the present oh no no if there even is a God the ego would say Let Me Explain before you find it you have to look at you and do you know how creepy you've

been do you know how abused you are do you you're broken you're damaged goods I am yes and if there is a God do you think God wants damaged goods in heaven well I don't think you need to go to the island of Misfits didn't you haven't you seen Rudolph cartoon you know you there's a special place for you yes door number one is God but you're not deserving that so tell them what we have for him Satan well although you didn't win door number one door number two is eternal hell you

know and so that's the option that the ego gives us and one of you is asking is there redeemable qualities of the ego sometimes it's semantics because in Psychology the concept of the ego is almost like the the choice maker the person the the soul and that's not what really what the ego is in its truest sense it's just confusing semantics so some people say well I'm told in Psychology that the ego tells me if I burn my hand on a stove not to do it again so my ego's trying to help me but that's just it's semantics

that's not that's not really the ego we're talking about we're talking about self-loathing ego we're not talking talking about the person that learned and to not burn their hand on a Stow but that's you know getting into other topics that we can't get into right now um so it's the one day at a time concept is not to be taken uh too literally it does it should not become some sort of like um I have to stay in this moment or else I'm a bad person or something to that effect um

it's just a matter of what is happening right now so for example if it's a negative and I'm triggered is it happening right now or is this a ghost from the past see ghosts will the ego will make ghosts seem like they're happening right now but they're not and if you sit with it you'll realize now you know maybe your car is steering off on Ice it's happening right now granted but bless you but most of the time even the skidding on the ice and it seems like it's happening right now most

of what you're experiencing inside is not happening right now most of what you're experiencing is the fear from the past where you were told if you skid on the ice you might die so what yeah but death is bad who told you that see even the idea of death is a past program so all the even emotions that like you would think present in the present A friend just passed away so I'm in the moment and I'm grieving you're actually not because grief doesn't exist in the present moment it's related to all your

concepts of what you're grieving over death loss so no I'm in the moment I'm grieving the loss of my mom no you're grieving all losses for all time you're grieving the loss of God you're leaving the loss of mother grandmother loss of your friend your dog etc etc it's all grief and there's a saying in neuroscience that in a way the brain doesn't know what's happening right now versus whatever didn't and whether some things externally or happening or it's just a thought you're having to to the brain

it's all the same well that's exactly right to the ego as well it's all the same it the ego knows to a degree it knows there's no outside world it's just a hologram so it has to mess you up on the inside it has to make you afraid of finding a better life you see make you afraid and to do that it has to bundle all of these emotions together the unknowns fear loss betrayals and whatever happens to weave in together to make you not want to create a new life for yourself it just it bundles these together puts

them in the machine and hits play and these emotions are now playing but they seem so I mean like we can talk about an emotion and it'll seem very objective in conversation feel it and you start your gut starts to get weird you kind of curl up a little more sometimes and you you need soothing things to try to cope that doesn't mean you've healed it it takes courage to heal and therefore it takes courage to access the present moment it's not just a mental discipline people can say oh I have a discipline

where I just sit and I don't think anything about the past or present and that's really really good for mind training but it doesn't mean you're actually achieving all that you think you're achieving because if I sit in the silence and an old wave of stuff comes up I should work it not not say no no you're the past get away from me let it come through let it come in say basically you have no place here you look at it and retire it for lack of work there is nothing here for you well we're

your past and we're intimidation we're fear we're inadequacy boo and you just go really that's interesting but you have no place here there's no velcro for you to stick to I'm a spirit I got spiritual Teflon man and you just skid right off that's courage courage is not to to like I don't want to think about that which is we call spiritual bypassing to really really be able to you know there's a place where you really get it versus do it when we really get that we're over a certain relationship or a

certain addiction or whatever that's that's different than I'm trying to get over it you know and so I'm trying to get past the job loss is different than I totally get it but for me to get it it's not time that heals time doesn't heal you know I mean that's kind of weird it's just a thing with dials I mean does it ever talk to you and process you you know does a clock ever say listen we should do some breath work now it's just a clock it's just a thing time doesn't

heal nor even the movement of the stars and sun and so on that doesn't heal if that healed then why do we reincarnate time doesn't heal but it does give you a convenient so that you don't think about something because you kind of forgot it but you never get past that because Spirit wants you to be a god-being to where these things are brought to you and they have no place in you not because you forgot them I mean then all you need is you know a certain kind of a State of Mind where you have absent-mindedness I'm very holy because

I don't I have absent-mindedness I have no memory short-term or long term I have amnesia I'm holy that doesn't work that way even if you had Amnesia you still got to come back and deal with the things that you couldn't remember when you had amnesia so the proper way of being in the moment doesn't mean avoiding the past and future it means recognizing is this really happening today is this happening right now what is happening and what isn't happening right now and it's masterful because you're like

this I see nothing as it really is I see only the past and you know Bring it on I don't mean you literally need to do that all the time just it's an example bring it on and these memories and so so what if you lost this job last week and and so what what about it well you know what everything could go wrong now this could happen and that could happen and this could happen and that could happen is that happening right now most of the time it isn't which means I'm anxious about hypotheticals which means

I'm not in reality and I'm not in the present moment so one of the things we struggle with when I was talking about that Collision one of the things we struggle with is this concept of try we there's a part of us that knows that God is perfect and so what we try to do is come into this world and impose Perfection on it so that we don't become suspicious that we're not in heaven anymore that's what we do we try to impose Perfection so that it feels a little more heaven-like but I'm never calm about it I'm anxious

about imposing perfection and and what will happen is and everybody has to deal with this you'll either try to impose Perfection or you will crash because you can't and that's this world I'm looking for a perfect world so I try to impose it or I fail and neither of those is real neither of those is peaceful they're both coming from doing right you see what I'm saying with that trying to impose perfection in an imperfect World it doesn't work what can happen the only way to bring this world to a place of perfection

which you can't as it is is to forgive it for what it isn't our forgiveness of the world we see actually restores this place it changes our perception of this place for example I don't feel like it has as much power over me as it once did it being what what a former relationship that you know a marriage that failed or whatever an accident you had that created a disability War famine and whatever else I start to change my perception now that's not actually just a neurological reprogramming I'm not just happier in

this world what actually starts to happen is I'm seeing it differently because I'm different my neurology which is only the biological or neurological explanation on it on a material Level that is happening that's just an outer manifestation of Consciousness so my Consciousness is changing as I practice forgiveness I need to forgive that someone's late I need to forget that doesn't mean you enable the behaviors but you forgive all that seems imperfect and one way to do that is don't think

take things so seriously you know lighten up as best you can as best you can when you see that you're obsessing just see through it oh man there it is I'm obsessing again so Michael why do you obsess well because I'm trying to impose perfection in an imperfect world does that seem like a good idea no I know that ah so how do you want to respond to that um laughter you know well then laugh I'm not in the mood to laugh okay but when you when you wake up in the middle of the night going and not know why you'll now you'll know

it was you know you were like you know you were holding back and you know you woke up you're not you're not doing a crazy laugh you know it's just you finally let it percolate up right so that's one of the keys you know just to be in the moment partly means lightening up because it's partly lightening up it's partly it's like oh you know I mean I I for one you know I'm aware of moments of of um perfectionism or whatever it happens to be because everybody will have it I mean it's just gonna happen you're

you're late for an appointment oh you speed a little to compensate it that's all part of this world but forgive yourself for being late but if I say I I always forgive myself for being late what do you mean always are you still always late well yeah but I forgive us and then you're a liar that's called apology without amends and you could try but um come on anybody with a brain can see through that you're still late so I know that I've done my life that perfectionism but then there's also the

moments of giving up and crashing there's things you can't fix but it's not about fixing them it's about acceptance one of you asked about acceptance and that's right it's well you know this is the way this is going to be today you know it's kind of a strange example but we talked about this last week when you're filming a TV show or a movie there are actors that get very tense about the lines and they won't even own that they messed up their line they'll just keep going and then when

somebody says hold it cut they get mad at everybody else why would somebody mess up yeah you no I did I'm a trained actor I don't mess up and they create tension for everybody and that's what we do in life create tension for everybody because we won't own simple things like a mistake but theoretically all you do is cut take two and you go again that's it you just do it again and sitcoms have the same thing you have your obsessive person that wants to get it right and I've seen that watching

filming of movies and shows and when I was a kid and they should just mostly laugh they're called bloopers you know you just you just should just laugh it up but not everybody does so in life they take it so seriously and it makes you want to go dude you're filming a sitcom not Shakespeare just relax you know it just like relaxed but the obsessive about perfection really shows how broken we are but so does the opposite oh I don't try to impose Perfection imperfection in fact is is is is is impossible

that's why I give up on everything you see that's not healthy either acceptance doesn't mean that's not equated with that that giving up acceptance is that's all we can get for now so let's Let It Be it is what it is and um I mean when I was in high school I remember I I loved um game day you know I'd play soccer a bit and I remember there was torrential rain that was coming and then the guys are talking it would see each other you know out of class um because usually we weren't in class

and we'd see each other and go hey did you hear the coaches thinking about canceling the game no I was like no this is like fun time the games you know I didn't have a great home life so being gone at a game was fun so and I I'm not kidding I'm not kidding it was like no we gotta have our game so it's and I'm telling you it raining harder and it's starting to rain harder and The Field's getting all you know I talked to one of our players I got an idea you get your car you drive it out

to the field we're gonna drag some pallets behind your car sweeping the field clean of water and it rained and it's raining now let's stand on the pallets while you're driving and we're scraping water off and it just kind of comes back and and I'm I'm not kidding this was a bad scene of a movie man I'm not kidding they finally gave up Michael man it isn't happening oh no no I've got an idea swear to God I go out there with pipe and rebar and a hammer trying to put holes in the ground for the water to

drain into that was so illogical because you know the hole's gonna fit like a teaspoon you know it's just you know and the guys are out under shelter out at the gym just look at him and all I could see was their heads going you know and I'm like must create holes you know go on without me you know I'm laying in this and it was just and and then I just finally looked up and I the rain you couldn't even see through it to the gym it was raining so hard took me a while but I think I'm gonna accept that it's not

happening right now such a bummer you know so we do that and the and the film people they do it it's there's a point where we just laugh and you have to to accept this is the way it's gonna go but under that desire that we all have for Perfection or crashing what's nice about that is you suspect there is such a thing that's actually good news why do you impose Perfection you perfectionists you you people that are a type personalities why do you do that because you know there is such a thing

you just don't know how to make it happen so you work at it and it's not going to work why do you people crash and give up and become depressed or fatigued and so on in life because you know there's such a thing as real Perfection and you just don't know how to find it so in a way you're one step wiser than the ones that are still trying to make it happen you finally realized it isn't going to happen you just don't know what to do about the feeling so you crash what we need to do now is whether the

Perfection or the failing is this is not my home why am I trying to create heaven in hell wait a second this isn't making sense heaven is heaven and it's unscathed then how do I make Heaven you don't it's already here then why can't I say it how do I make it so I can see it you don't forgive yourself for not seeing it and the veils will start to be lifted and tomorrow you feel different and it is a day at a time healing program it's a day at a time so today you got it tomorrow you didn't

you slipped oops sorry you know cut take two and if it has to happen two and three and four times the mother man the holy spirit of God is infinitely patient with this whole thing you know she's just like did you learn no okay try again and it isn't we think it's try again meaning the doing it's try again in letting go the doing and just practice forgiving ah I gotta just forgive myself call it grandparent wisdom meaning oh not that all grandparents are wise it it just saying that there's a parent that tries to make

their kid be a certain way and then the grandparent that enjoys the view they just sit back and watch the parent trying to get everything to go right I don't know why you can't get better grades hold on the parents you know grandparents just like wow this is great you know can you believe that yes I can the parent is still trying to do but right the grandparents just God yeah I remember my first when I have first daughter man and she was having some problem going on she was a baby and and a colic or something you know and

they didn't they didn't have any issues and health issues but what this wants she was going through this stuff and she was in pain and she's crying and I happened to be at my grandmother's weather and and I'm like what is with this and she's just knitting you know and then part of me is like what is up with that you know cold-blooded woman you know over why isn't she jumping into The Fray with me why isn't she in the quicksand going oh I don't know what we're gonna do you

know yeah it's just like I'm just like getting irritated that she's not getting irritated you know um and it's like no no that's the grandparent wisdom I'm gonna make mistakes can I relax can I you know can I laugh at it a bit more and I'm not saying trauma is funny per se I'm saying that all of the things we do to try to find who we really are are a waste of time if we don't surrender to the voice of the holy spirit that knows who we are how are we going to expect even if you

could find it on your own it's going to take a billion years versus right now in this present moment I mean there are people with no religiosity no religion no spirituality no Notions of philosophy who have testimonials where they say yeah and then there's this one day after my 15th beer second shot of heroin I said God I need your help and I saw angels and there's people in Sedona going up in the Red Rocks meditating oh money upon me whom you know and they're like No Angels but this this drunk drug addict saw God

and you get upset about it because they they shared one thing you didn't truly I don't know how to do this humility I don't know how show me and everybody else is oh I know how oh uh you know I know how to do this then why aren't you holy you know why do you still have to walk up the mountain Bell Rock why don't you float up okay you know what are you gonna do so when I forgive that I can't float up the mountain then what I'm doing is I'm allowing a reflection of perfection to come into my

heart but I've had five failed marriages yes because you were looking for God in all the wrong faces you know you were looking for God and that's the good news yeah but I've been married 10 times every one of them every shot of heroin everything you've done as hurtful shameful whatever you think it is everything is a cry for love if it isn't an expression of love it's like for love so how should I treat myself with these shortcomings you know I I learned the hard way instead of the easy way

it's illusion I mean it's all okay because you're still going to get another shot at it there isn't really failure hell there's failure reincarnation failure and and I don't just mean lifetimes I mean reenactments of your failures they just keep coming around for you to get right so after I get it all perfected I get to ascend no because even if you did get it all perfected you would laugh at the fact that you had it all the time just when you after all this hard work oh my God Oneness wait a minute

it was there all the time I just needed to forgive myself and the world for what I thought it was and now I find God now I'm irritated about that I got to do forgiveness again you know um but truly there's there's an easier way to deal with all this I remember once I went to dinner my dad when I was a kid my dad and all these bigwigs that he dealt with and um and so he was in a sense he was forced to be nicer than usual and because he was in front of all these people and um I remember he said so Michael what would

you like I don't know you know I'm a nervous kid you know and you can have anything you want and I'm like you know it was like a miracle he's being nice wow you know anything yes so I'm like I'll take pudding and cake and and I ordered like four or five desserts to be for my meal and he just you know okay and he ordered him I'm thinking this is they're gonna what are they gonna knock me off later so there's I'm being set up here like fattened for uh the slaughter this is weird

which is probably not right for a four-year-old to think no no that's probably 10 but anyway I'm thinking okay and I'm just in the moment it is wow this is exciting so um it got to the point where you know I started fast and now it's and then looking around just distracting opening no hoping nobody notices that I I can't eat all of four or five of these things a bite of each and and he he kind of gloated he enjoyed this he knew where it was going and so it was time and we're going to leave and he said goodbye to his friends

and they're leaving and he waited for me it's like wow this is also you know unique so they all left and he finally said Michael Are You full yet no no and I tried a little more Michael Are You full yet yeah and I felt ashamed and embarrassed because you know I we spent this money on food and I said I could do and I went through all that and then he just said did you learn your lesson yeah and that was it and that's what the Holy Spirit does honestly every night when you lay your head on your pillow with sugar

plums dancing you know um the holy spirit's just saying how'd you do about what uh never mind if you don't even know what lessons they're just gonna be on automatic pilot Auto you know Auto order kind of thing but if it's uh well about that thing yes how did you do with that well I thought I did okay but I'm not at peace about it okay honey I love you let's let's bring some more of that to would you like that tomorrow you want to put it off for a week doesn't matter because you're still

going to complain about it when it happens but she's just gonna enter infinite patience she's just gonna you know recycle these things so we get another shot at it take two take three and just this loving loving infinitely patient presence that is the holy spirit of God or the Divine mother how long is it going to take you forget this Heaven hell and God doesn't like you notion and try this infinite love of the Divine mother it could take you a billion years and she doesn't care because she's just going to reflect your

Consciousness now here's the great thing if we could do this mother I have limitations uh about finances and she says and so it is honey I'll mirror those limitations so today you don't have money to pay your phone bill and she's like we good no I'm going to complain about it there's another alternative I don't want to know about I would just want to complain let me you know Empower me and get let me have my voice of complaint whatever you like honey Grumble Grumble grumble but there's a point where you reach a

pain tolerance you know what I'm tired of losing friendships I'm tired of not being able to pay money whatever your weakness is just reflect even an illness the mother loves us so much she will manifest as dark atoms and molecules known as an illness or a lack of money is that her favorite hobby no why does she do it to say I love you so much I'm going to show you the parts of yourself that are not yet redeemed but the ultimate goal is if you asked her what would you like to mirror today because she'll say good

morning honey what would you like me to mirror today not consciously of course this is deep deep in the soul level what would you like me to mirror today I don't know it doesn't matter because nothing goes my way and so it is and it's and it's going to go like that but if you asked her mother yes honey your will not mine be done she's gonna be like wait what you know I'm joking but it's like this is the big one Elizabeth you know Sanford and said she's gonna be like coming to join you honey

so you got the Fred Sanford effect I love that dude and and she you know she's saying are you are you sure yes Mother then what would you like me to reflect your will be done what an amazing thing because that means for my will to be done God's will I cannot reflect limitation or hate resentments unhealed wounds and so it is you say to her so the ultimate goal is when we stop trying to be us even if it's an obsessed us trying to become more like God the ultimate goal is when we go on to start asking to

reflect God's will rather than our own our own will not my ego but God's will I don't ask to be reflect I don't want the Holy Spirit to waste time reflecting illness and limitation for me be able to say in your prayers mother you're off the hook I want you to reflect positive atoms and miracles bright ones light ones instead of dark and those are called miracles and we think it's God Favored us today but really it's just that's that's the greatest version of organic as you can

imagine that's who we really are so I don't have to try so hard to be spiritual because it's already it's already coming about I'm I'm getting to reflect my holiness you my beloved child in whom I am well pleased and we still have these programs going yeah but money isn't money having money is for greedy people you know what God says I want you to thrive is it selfish to ask to be cured of an ailment shouldn't you just be praying for the healing of others that's all bogus those are all misprograms God's

will be done means you're allowed to be prosperous healthy wise joy-filled and the ego's going really because I have files on you I've got I've got all kinds of files and if you want me to move Beyond texts I'll go to emails that I have on you and if that's not I'm going to go to Word documents if that's I got video on you and you know what I do when there's that that you know part when I when I because there's the there's the extreme in me that wants to be you know

in Perfection state of perfection but there's also the other side that goes sometimes I just want to let go and just be a human being and all that and those two extremes neither of those is God so I I noticed that when I tried to do either one I often end up laughing at it you know I try to be naughty you know and it just doesn't work but I mean I I can remember that all the way back as a kid just trying to like you know get away with just doing normal things that kids boys guys or whatever humans do and I could just never do it

I would end up going you know I mean if I said Bubble Gum I'd get caught and I'm like what's up with that people steal cars and they get away with it I steal a piece of bubble gum so imagine the mother saying well honey would you like to be able to get away with it yes I would good would you like to get away with everything and just have it be karma in another life no what would you like pay it off now so that I don't have any accumulating stuff great and so it is so that concept of Instant Karma is

actually choosing to not be on a credit system and have everything paid off now you don't have to do that you can say I don't want to be so evolved I want to plan you know long-term payments oh so you would like what another 20 lifetimes yeah yeah why not and so it is or you can stop complaining that your slate keeps getting cleared with each thing you try to get away with whatever that happens to be and learn to laugh at yourself and just say it's it's not worth it I'm choosing this I'm choosing to be a good soul and

I'm trying to navigate I don't need to find perfection I'm just ah what is the will of God and the will of God is not about being judged for things that you do as a human being you're going to have moments that you're afraid that's not faithlessness and naughtiness it's just your human self still winning today remember the collision and that rose up a little further than it does some days see it for what it is and what it isn't that's the ego for yourself is rising oops let me breathe forgive myself and see I

don't have to squash it down okay I don't have to defeat it see it for what it is and isn't and decide is this what I'm choosing so to me this the the concept of the mother and her infinite patience I just love that concept you know how would you like me to help you today how can I mirror for you and it's an automatic thing it's not your cognitive brain that does this it's an automatic thing your Consciousness is reflected and she will play that role for you we'll talk about this more maybe in the next week or two

but I still I just love this concept that be in the present moment don't get caught up in what was or wasn't happening in the past not what will or will not happen in the future just see it why do you go to the Future because you must not enjoy today so you're jumping and hoping for a different future but by doing that you're still judging today as not being good enough so that's why you're anticipating a better future right typically that's what you would be doing you don't usually go I'm going to sit

down my life's really good I'm going to sit down and just visualize a really terrible future that doesn't that's not what people do usually the anticipations of the future are for something better but that implies today isn't okay judge today is not being okay you know what's going to happen it becomes my future my judgments carry over and become my future the only way I don't care what neurological tricks and techniques people have for creating a better future it doesn't work if I

haven't forgiven the present and the past the future is fated to be what it is my usual patterns if I don't change my Consciousness the programs remain the same and the mother's gonna say I honey as long as it takes explain to me why the British still put too much water in eggs for hundreds of years why don't they just invent butter I couldn't resist it's a dig at me was it wasn't it wasn't it yes um butter is a perfect food by the way everything that butter touches it improves a pot except water

but if we approved so all the holy spirit is asking us to do is be more like butter be golden be sweet and have a positive effect on Everything You Touch [Laughter] with that in mind take a few centering breaths let us pray let us do a better meditation golden sweet and have a positive effect on Everything You Touch ah setting aside all the stuff of life and of the world [Music] I am ready father mother God I know that my outer life is a reflection of my inner consciousness but I'm ready for my inner Consciousness

to change enough to have a positive effect in my outer life I am ready for that now I'm surrendering all of my patterns and programs it doesn't do me any good he's never served my highest good I'm ready for my life to reflect that I am a holy Child of God so we take just one minute to observe what does life look like for people that are flawed separate from God and from each other out of touch with who they are everything fragmented just take half a minute [Music] with what does life look like under those

conditions [Music] should be somewhat obvious but look at it isn't it War isn't it challenge relationship complications [Music] stomach issues look at all the things all the ways [Music] this is because the world is reflecting our judgments and projections upon ourselves and others [Music] sometimes

we get so hurt by what we see because we know it's coming from our inside it bothers us to see the outer world I'm upset for these things I appear to be seeing because they reflect my soul I'm not happy with that so we projected on others we judge and project all our triggers and all these odd things our addictions we have to forgive ourselves because we're projecting onto substances when in fact it's not a fight with substances it's judgments of ourselves [Music] and people might seem to trigger us

various parts of us on the in the outside world but [Music] I have to forgive my projections and judgments on myself that I put onto them so I forgive all others and I forgive myself what I really want to see is the peace of God I want to see as God sees [Music] [Applause] [Music] and let that fade just let it gently fade and imagine a world what if everything was connected what if I now say I forgive the world I see for what it seems to be and not seems to be the things I want it to be that it isn't I forgive it all I'm so sorry I

love you world not I'm attached to the way you are not that kind of love I love you because I know that hidden behind all these images is a real world is God I love you please forgive me thank you be what you really are show me the mother's reflection hidden behind show me that I challenge you Holy Spirit to show me all that you really are in every face show me the light show me the Christ in every person and being I challenge you to do so meaning in a loving Gentle Way I know you can do it you can help me see

in ways that I do not know how me to see which is not with human eyes it's with divine understanding [Music] peace peace to the world to peace to everybody peace to your body relax peace [Music] peace on Earth Good Will to man peace arguments avoidances negative Communications or the lack of communication just enough is enough peace peace to you all stand like the Christ and look at the whole world peace to business people that think only of money peace to those who don't have any [Music] peace Underneath the Veil

that have our behaviors and so on in image is the light of God I am deterred to see as God sees peace to everyone and everything in my life I affirm peace the presence of God [Music] please take a minute to just reintegrate that we're not wrong for seeing a broken World our own world or the World At Large we're not wrong or bad for that that's what you would expect to see if the beliefs are that I'm flawed or we are flawed one thought of flaw on my part or your part

towards you towards myself or you is going to result as images like that of Separation pain illness War so the world people talk about it us ascending it can only Ascend if we ascend and we can only Ascend proportionate to our ability to forgive and ask to see things differently how could we see a fifth dimensional world if we're still in third dimensional consciousness okay well how do I get to that other consciousness forgiveness primarily and asking the mother to help to see the world through her eyes you know she births us forward in that

direction and it's um sting you know in the Moment In This Moment I it's there's nothing wrong with you seeing conflict you have a blowout and a tire don't pretend it isn't happening but God it's frustrating it's this it's scary and you have to wait for them to get there and so on and so on and so on but I am determined to see this differently and get the car jack out and change it do what you have to do materially but there will come a time where instead of doing until the day I

learned to be the living Christ happens is I learn to be the living Christ and it changes what I do and how I do it and that's one real great way palpable way to know how you're doing on your path is to measure how much doing and how much being it's not wrong to do but as I said last week are you doing to be or being to do just get a feel for that and in my opinion I can recognize when I'm in the zone and in the being because Miracles come they left and right left and right just um two people could be arguing and it

goes nowhere and you just get an Insight on one sentence that needs added in that in that counseling session let's say you're doing and peace that's how you know You Come From Another Dimension in your own conversations but not everybody wants to do that not everybody wants to accept that so you you have to accept that's where they're at it's not wrong bad per se it's just they're prolonging their lessons and they've got to do it again I remember all the way back to high school and even when I got married

if somebody I was seeing um started you know because people do that they they when they start finding flaws or things they want to project onto you well what would happen is once they start judging you in some way they become irritated or annoyed with you what starts to happen is then they're going to project that as a thing you you know either a judgment on you or they might act out in a way that's hurtful to you right if somebody doesn't like you or something about you they often do something hurtful agreed right so if

they did all the way back to high school I remember if someone did do something and they said I'm really sorry I'd say I don't want an apology what I would like you to do is change your opinion of me that made you want to do that irritated them irritated oh my God I remember my wife oh I know I want you to change the way you see me she would do that she'd like and yeah you know and imitate me like that but it just made sense even as a kid well I don't want the apology because you know if a poly if somebody apologizes

for something they've said or done to hurt you they're only sorry they got caught or that it leaked out even not just getting cut they're they're sorry that it leaked out they would like to have contained that resentment and I was saying I would like you to change the resentment you see do you get what I'm doing with that because I know that's a little out there because I I'm always a little out there do you like that yeah that's I loved that and they would be you know like what I

was she would say well you know she just wouldn't dig that at all but I say I want you to change your opinion of me that made you want to do that like go for a deeper healing rather than just an apology because without an immense is not anything at all it's just words so consider that in your own lives stay in the present moment practice forgiveness in the present moment it's not going to help to judge or become afraid or you know condemn yourself for the slipping it's got it cut take two like I said last week as well

and move to another level but but please remember this because it's one of Concepts about the Holy Spirit the Divine mother and that is when you do that you actually free her to be who she is I mean you know the concept mother and matter they're the same word it's like the word Dura matter it's some uh part of the folks in the brain you know in the head the skull and there's something called Durham which means durable mother you know it's kind of like the phrase that some you know an atom is kind of play off of

the durable mother and it just means this is tissue that's very durable durable matter it's the mother she sustains she's long living she's throughout all time she will stay to with us if this went on for another billion years there's no end date for her in terms of her love and patience but why don't we get fed up with it why don't we just say enough is enough instead of waiting for God to give up on us why don't we just go you know what I think we've been abusing and using the

mother and the Holy Spirit long enough you know I'm sorry please forgive me I love you thank you to the mother you know get that out I see that you've been doing this for me I see that you've been taking the hit for me and she's taking a hit in a way because she's taking the form of your limitations so that you can see them because she wants you to see them so that you'll give them up but is that her Destiny is that all we want to use her for why don't we let her reflect her why don't I start becoming a

child of the mother and reflecting her genetics right if you think human genetics are binding imagine what spiritual genetics are I am her beloved child in whom she is well pleased now why don't I just start acting like it you see love gentleness forgiveness patience generosity just do my best to live in that place and forgive the rest thank you all right we're going to take up our collection and do our closing prayer thank you I hope I covered as many things as you guys brought up before service please be as generous as you can be

remember that the bags in the center here the bags are for your daily you know your Sunday love offerings the wicker baskets are for any extra donations you can spare for us to help people bless their means we uh you know we greatly appreciate all the generosity at any level even if it's from your prayers all right so hold your donations in mind in consciousness truly believe what you're saying as you're praying together Divine love flowing through me blesses and multiplies all that I am all that I

have all that I give and all that I receive and so it is thank you while they're passing the baskets a couple of quick announcements let's see first of all remember the chaplains will be doing a healing circle after the service so if you're interested you can stay and you can sit and pray with us just holding space in the room and um if you're interested in things um like some of the recordings of our videos of our services they're all online Facebook or on our website or on YouTube you can find tons of playlists

that specific topics but we also have DVD sets that are not filmed and not online uh and each DVD set has four videos in it so you can get some on Christ Consciousness some unforgiveness whatever topic you're looking for all right and um we appreciate that everybody's learning to arrive like five ten minutes early that's very helpful for all kinds of reasons so please continue to do so the folks online it starts generally on the hour but in person we started a few minutes beforehand all right and um

let's see if there's anything else Christmas Day we have John Dumas as our guest musician so this this Christmas coming up we don't have a Christmas Eve service but we have Christmas Day because this year the group you know as the calendar changes to get closer and closer so this time Sunday happens to be Christmas so we don't want to do a Christmas Eve and expect people to come back just a few hours later for a Christmas day service as well so we're not doing a Christmas Eve but we are doing the usual New

Year's Eve so we're building it all up for Christmas day I know some people are with family but for those of you who'd rather get away from family um we will be here and we'll have Munchies available and we're going to watch a movie together so it's a nice spiritual family experience um but John Dumas is going to be our musician he'll do a couple songs with us as well as on his own and uh and again Jay schwed will be presenting the Next Generation Sonic sound healing Journey a multi-sensory

sound healing experience to assist clearing old cellular memories all right yes yes absolutely and um let's see the last couple of things um there's a sign up sheet in the front lobby for who's whoever's bringing whoever's coming uh Sunday you can write I'm coming here but no snacks or right you're coming and you're bringing a snack we don't need you to bring snacks so not to worry um you know we have plenty generally each holiday but so don't think you have to you have to bring something it's not

mandatory all right now I want to share one more announcement please come on up everyone my name is Eric I probably know some of you from around town and I'm happy to announce that I'm offering a sacred ceremony in meditation to have an inner communion of more being than doing uh with Spirit of Yeshua in the Christ Light which is this Thursday at seven it's donation basis and 100 of donations are going to benefit children's programs of the Sedona Community Food Bank and I'm having a representative here to take

the donations you know that's where it's going and to keep the love flowing for everyone that comes and makes a donation I'm having a raffle a drawing for gifts I'm offering healing sessions some other practitioners are chocolate from chocolatree some sacred art so just to keep the love going so if you would like to come and experience an inner communion in community please join us Thursday at 7 right here in your beautiful Sanctuary the name of the event name of the event is Cave of the Christ

thank you you're welcome thank you you're welcome [Applause] Jay are you here is Jay here okay I was gonna let him say a word too okay cool all right please stand for a closing prayer remember Jay's event later on and to you folks joining us around the world online we really really appreciate your presence bless you bless you folks remember to share donations it's the last week or so now um to share donations of what you want us to bring to the community and hand out to people of lesser means um usually and the board members will

contribute our own personal funds into that uh to to match or better whatever you folks donate it's it's just something we believe in so uh those of us that can afford it you know we just do our best to Hitch in um so we appreciate any amount you can donate it's very much appreciated and we bring it out to the community okay we don't do it as an advertisement by the way to our center it's just love just left is that so just feel a centering sense of gratitude anyone sharing what they learned to her

today that made the most sense or that might be important in your life everything's better with butter that was channeled by the by The Culinary Christ by the way yes sir yes you like that one huh whatever isn't already love is a cry for love you know it's a it's a calling you know that's that's what we're really looking for and I and I know that's not easy to think or say or feel when somebody's acting out towards us or sometimes when we're doing things but but just chill

with it for a moment you know when you're when you're angry at somebody just think about it another way and say my anger at them is a cry for love no it's not I'm angry and it's righteous really underneath it is it's just a call for love that's what you really want you wouldn't be angry with them if you felt the total presence of love and you'd feel so abundant you would bestow some of that love onto them but the lack of that presence makes you agitated makes you vulnerable to being

triggered by them and that's why it's happening yes looking for God in all the wrong phases yes surrender to the voice of the mother oh my God I mean it just feels so good to me to think of that say that write that feel that or whatever that she oh my God she's freezing to be our limitation so that we can learn but imagine how she feels when we say you can you can let go now she's like go free at last free at last you know just oh my God right that's I mean imagine God being released to be God again

instead of Frozen to be our stuff yes forgive the world for what it isn't forgiving in the world everyone and everything for what they are and for what they're not because none of it matters it's only my perceptions anyway yes I have a rather serious comment I'm not understanding why Americans don't pronounce tea in butter to me as an Englishman yeah so out of all the important feedback we received for this service today there's one guy um who who doesn't like that we pronounce butter as butter

all I can say is we won the Revolutionary War so apparently pronunciation of butter doesn't really play into the big picture the mother is eternally loving and patient that's not like let's have a talk about the mother and You're Made In Her Image so the more I am eternally patient loving the more I am her and she's birthing the Christ in me as I'm doing it so I become the Christ and remember who I am through my thoughts feelings actions of love and forgiveness of Peace and Love Yes dear

one more everything is everything is in God that's where we we still reside in that place but we forget and I hope you enjoyed that concept the Collision this some days this is winning some days that's winning you know the more of God's presence don't get all anxious about how to make it happen more the Forgiveness relaxes and the levity and the lightness the ease the forget all of that is what brings more of it makes room for more of God our forgiveness makes more room for God you don't have to actually Garden yourself

to death making room for God through forgiveness please Center our closing prayer the light of God surrounds us the love of God unfolds us the power of God protects us and the presence of God watches over us wherever we go God is I am we are and so it is peace be with you all we'll see you