Be and Being the Christ

Those of you who were here last week might recall we were talking about living the Christ life and it went really well. People were really, really diggin it, because there were some wonderful messages that were coming through and being shared. But also it represents where we're at. We're ready to go to new levels of consciousness. Clearly planet Earth is...

we've had periods of religion, but we've also had a wave of spirituality coming in, especially in our lifetime, really, but some say around 1960 a lot of, wave of, new spirituality started emerging. A little bit before that too, perhaps, but I mean this country, we started shifting things.

We started seeing the the new thought movement with film or so many other people. Ernest Holmes and so on. Edgar Cayce all if all that that turn 1900 all these changes started happening but it really launched to a new level because it was like still new thought it was still new thought religion it still had that certain vibe to it come the 60s it started becoming very individualized where people are starting to go wait we don't have to just hear about it we don't just have to you know have meetings and more traditional settings now we're starting to awaken it and free

thinking because even if we had groups like this folks would speak and everybody just is still being told they didn't experience it and live it they go out the door and they don't live it and that's the difference between 1960 and so on that whole movement the 60s and liberation and all the whole movement it doesn't mean don't gather in groves or on hilltops are in buildings it means and do you live it afterwards the folks that just gather and get told and then they leave applying nothing that's the old age not that none of them not that

nobody applied but that was typically the style now we're shifting into something where it's far more like are you living it because that's it at the end of the day be and being this consciousness so are we doing that so I want to talk a little bit about that today you know when we're looking at that you know the way things are going on planet Earth even right now we're in a collective dark night of the soul and people are like well wait how did that happen and what do we do about it doesn't happen that often that all plan it you know all

of humanity is going to go through something like this together we have times when a town or you know a group that might be as a center or it could be a family unit we'll go through things collectively we individually do the dark night of the soul a couple times a lifetime at least a couple times typically but for groups it's not that common and we get to do that now we get to go through hell together so you'll hear it in different forms and and a lot of people are feeling it they're struggling and they're guessing it must

be this planet in that plan but the full moon past and you're still messed up you know Saturn is no longer retrograde you're still messed you know the things can change and you go but it didn't shift right because the dark night of the soul is like this cloud or umbrella under which other things can happen Saturn in the full moons and alignments and you know so on equinoxes in during equinox the Solstice um times it even Peaks the energy more but those things come and go and you we're still under that cloud and

people have underestimated this so there's a reason why I would mix or have this come to me where we're talking about dark night at the same time we're talking about Christ consciousness being this new consciousness that's coming to the earth and it's because the dark night is breaking down the old stuff the old beliefs the old styles the old everything the old us so that we come out of the shell man and it's the butterfly how good you want to look spiritually speaking how how you know how big do you want to be as a soul we

can still do all the usual stuff dude do that the coaching do the Reiki do all the stuff do the reading and the meditations do that all but that stuff just a year ago five years ago 20 years ago fifty years ago was being done as though they were just little things you may or may not be interested in they were little you know little but brownie buttons you put on yourself or tools you know to give yourself to say yeah I've read a new book or I've accomplished a new meditation that's very cool

now we're going quickly to yet another thing where you have to become all those things not do them become them and there's a great way for that to happen to let it be facilitated with the highest power of all not just yourself not I took a Reiki class not I became a life coach or I have clientele as a counselor I I still I Me Mine it's all shifting now the little self that could accomplish better things than we did hundreds of years ago the little self was accomplishing some better things but that self is now surrendering to the

greater I am and then the I am won't say don't do those things you were doing it'll say let's do them differently that's what's cool you can still do those things but you're gonna do them differently and people are so distanced from God because it's it's old terminology it's been twisted around religions of messed up our relationship with God so much that people are afraid to say God but guess who did that that's ego that's the evil you got the best of you when you see I'm not gonna go back to that God stuff oh you know the best

you'll go is I am God you know people told me I I need to be empowered well all you're doing is ego again if you don't know surrender to the greater I am you'll never know the personal I am and they're one in the same anyway so you know I like I just did a talk last Friday a couple days ago on on people had asked so much about Mary Magdalene and then because they're making a whole religion out of Mary being special to Jesus so let me explain it's okay for you to believe that that Jesus is special to God it's just not true

and it's okay for you to believe Mary Magdalene was special to Jesus it's just not true and it's okay for you to also find people in this world do you think are special to you it's just not true there is no specialness because specialness means someone deserves more someone is better than that's the opposite of oneness which is where you find God so it's not Jesus was God's one and only you know do you accept Jesus you know that concept Jesus was God's one and only Son that's not true

but it is true because God only created one child and we're all it singular it we're all one so one statement can be twisted into well it says Jesus is God's only he's special I need to kind of you know stand closer to him and then you you know you bring Magdalene and she's special to Jesus and then they're special and nobody else suspect soulmates twin souls where's your special other you know instead of going where's your special twin so where's your twin flame your special

other just say oh you know what I fired them because it's me it's all it's me it's okay to live with only one it's okay to partner with one just understand you love all so loving everyone loving everything equally doesn't mean you don't have unique expressions of it you don't have to move all the children on the planet into your house but you do need to learn to love them all all children all races all gender everything love and then you realize how could I you know like Jesus had said how could I in one of the last books how could how

could it cuz they're like you know you're treating Mary better that you'd like her better you like this apostle better that what he's saying guys how could I love any of you more than another one of you that's so contrary to what love is and it's contrary to what oneness is but this is where people are going with this stuff so you can make things special you can try to make things special but you can also recognize you know well let me just chill for a second instead of looking for the one and only instead of looking

for that one special or that I need to be special in Jesus's eyes or whatever it's just what if love is and I just chill with that Oh God so much work that was taking now I get to relax to love is but wait and you see the head starts getting input but I want to be extra love so if I wear a shirt that says love is am I more special than those who don't wear shirts that say love is you're slipping again you're starting to make religion out of it again so we learned to get to this place of wow everything's okay I just I

set aside all concepts of specialness even to make people into martyrs like like some people will take Magdalene make her into a martyr you know she know she's been oppressed by the Jew who cares what the church did to her I mean really just don't do it yourself you don't have to you don't have to make her a victim just so you have a right to hate the church for doing whatever to her you just have issues and you need to work on them and as you come to peace with that you won't be thinking about

her hearing what the church did to the girl you'll be thinking about the love that she represents focus on that shift gears because people want to make her into a martyr but they did the same with Jesus and this is very important to understand it's no disrespect at all and I have Jesus's permission to say this so if you keep him as a sacrificial lamb on the cross there's reasons you're doing it because then you're saying you know Jesus he died on the cross no he didn't yes he did but no he didn't he allowed himself to pass away he wasn't murdered

you know by human standards he was abused he'll spit on you know gossip all the stuff that can happen to us because it's called the dark night of the soul so Jesus is saying I'll tell you what guys everybody you know they say you everybody has to die and pay taxes that's not true you have to die and go through the dark night of the soul those are the only two things you have to do you don't you don't even have to pay taxes so you might go to jail but you don't have to do it you will die and you will go through the dark night of the

soul on this planet including Jesus he through the dark night but he says you know guys if you die or go through the dark night it confirms one main thing you are a limited human being subject to the laws of this world death right so he says I have a different idea I'm gonna prove to you I'm gonna go through the dark night of the soul and then I'm even going to go through death then I'm gonna come back to life which will prove none of its real and none of it has power over you really yes that's right doesn't have power over you

so people that try to make Jesus into a crucified person are actually and make their even Christians that are trying to follow Jesus what they're doing by making him a crucified person they're losing contact with what he really did because he's saying I'm not a limited person yes you are just get back on the cross but you're not getting it no we get it kid on the cross oh Jesus you die first he suffered the Lamb that was slain bloodied you know and they make this gruesome thing out of it and and that is summarized in one of

the lost books Jesus it said was on the cross he was crucified and he was you know in the midst of dying and one of the Apostles down at the base of the cross is crying you know only the only one that showed up and he's crying and he's mourning and Jesus looks to him and he says don't look at the imposter look at the real me because his soul was already illuminated into Christ consciousness hovering above the cross he's saying don't look at the crucifixion don't look at death don't look at dark night of the soul only see

the resurrect itself so don't just go bang I'm going through such pain but you are it's okay to own that but also focus your prayers and affirmations on where you're gonna be afterwards and this too shall pass and I shall rise and even though I go through the dark night of the soul God's waiting for me at the light at the end of the tunnel a firm that positive I'm not asking you to deny what's happening but where's the focus Jesus is walking with the crosspiece that's what you did the bar

that goes across the arms so they fastened that first and then you walk from where they fastened that all the way out to gugga where they've crucify you so he's walking with this cross piece having to carry it that's the humiliation factor that they added and so here you are walking any and he stumbles and this is one of the times that there are women there crying at the side of the road you know when you hear about one wiping his face and his face was imprinted onto the cloth and that's still you know known and exists out

there but his face was imprinted onto the cloth miraculously however these women are crying and he says to them women do not weep for me he basically tells them this is not real could you imagine being in the middle of such garbage people abusing you losing your job and so on and someone says oh you poor thing to be able to have the courage and the wherewithal to say it's all right this is not real the people that are watching someone die are far worse off than the person dying but when you project onto them you poor thing you're dying you know you're that's terrible

don't do that to them instead focus on you're so lucky I admire you where you're gonna be moments from now let them teach you by seeing the continents shaped change on their face that there's a light that comes to their face it happens all the time those of you in hospice probably know these kinds of things right my grandfather was passing away and everybody's standing in front of him you know and from what I heard they're like you know and he just kept getting good moved to the side you're blocking the

light he could see some light across the room and he said hey man this is amazing this is not a guy who was overtly faithful and he's like get out of the way whoa and they're like shut up I'm hearing the music of the spheres and you people are whining you know like get out the way man so this is Jesus the courage and we're making him a symbol and there are religions millions of people have made a religion on the Crucified one but when you do that you're actually killing him you're not seeing the risen Christ you're

crucifying him by making a religion out of it and obsessing all of the poor thing and he did this and he died for our sins that he did not die for your sins if he died and stayed dead you'd still have the same problems the resurrection is the key the death has a part it's an important part because he says you guys believe you're limited beings and by being limited you will die that confirms your limited that's the egos last last shot at everything no matter what I'm gonna make your life as miserable as possible the ego says

however if at any time you ever think there was any you know ever anything decent about your life I'm still gonna kill you that's what the egos about and to die Jesus said fine take your best shot ego kills him evil ego kills him now when he resurrects he's saying apparently you did it didn't work why because you have no power in that moment of resurrection you have no power no real power it's really well demonstrated in the the book or movie about Aslan you know the lion in which in the Wardrobe

how he comes back to life and say it was all an illusion the ego doesn't have any real power that's the magic so there are people that say he died for our sins and so on they're actually killing him and ruining the Hulk the whole teaching but then there are people that do like New Agers that they don't focus on Jesus even the resurrection they say oh it was probably just you know some magical thing and maybe he took a potion to look like he was dead and then he took her you know uh you know the the

anok Oh antidote and so he came back to life so they're also killing him because they're denying the Christ that can come back to life so nobody realizes this but they're reading and studying those who do read study meditating zone they're still not getting it those who crucify them are killing Jesus those who you know don't believe in the resurrection are killing the Christ but you can't kill the Christ and the crisis in all of us so when the ego wants to demonstrate crucifying you whether it's in your own personal tough

day or a dark night of the soul or global dark nights of the soul it doesn't matter it has no real power it's okay to cry it's okay to fill anxiety it's okay to go home like god this sure feels real that's okay but then what and this too shall pass this has no real power that's the resurrection I've said this many many many many times stuffs gonna happen and it'll fill that's a form many forms sometimes of a crucifixion a divorce a loss of a job and so on and then when all of it's

going wrong that's not a bad day not a bad week that's a dark night of the soul it doesn't matter it's still all made up of the same nothing it sure feels far worse to have everything fall apart than a thing or two I get that but Jesus has tried to explain to us in various teachings Course in Miracles and what not no matter how much more nothing you add it's still nothing the Billy Preston song nothing from nothing he who leaves nothing you know nothing from nothing Lena it's it's it's still nothing but you got to have something if you want to

be with me so religions and theologies even religions and theologies that praise Jesus's name they kill him and not not healthy the opposite it's not healthy oh he didn't really resurrect yeah he did there it is possible for a person a human being to actually have gotten it to the point where he says I'm now going to demonstrate you're all free God created you as all-powerful and you've learned to think that you are limited mortals so we're going along with this you know yeah but religions helping us get there

but the religion actually never set the intention of getting you there because if you got too close you were usually killed anyway as a mystic but you're a dead mystic you know Galileo anybody thinking outside the box not okay so religion says we have the way to God come on in so we can kill you they didn't allow you to actually become one with God it was forbidden in so many different ways so these religions of old you know especially about they were founded on the very opposite of what we thought they were gonna do and they

didn't so that's okay guys you can't get blood from a turnip and you're not gonna get salvation from a religion it's only from God itself we have to have direct experience we have to awaken this within ourselves and it doesn't matter if you're still in a religion or you think I'm a New Ager mystic kind it doesn't matter you still might not be having direct connection because if you still make your mysticism into a religion with too many rules that you have to do that

I'm a mystic so I only eat certain foods oh how could you be a mystic by definition meaning you believe in direct connection how could you have direct connection with God and thinking cheese is going to kill you you know sorry um what can kill you what has power over you be the presence of God so much that even human beings with bitterness and hurt and anger being in your presence they are affected for the better isn't that possible if you think if you agree that you can hold such spiritual presence that you can

make a difference when you walk in the room do you agree or not all right then why can't you transform cheese if you can change people who have freewill how is it that food substances are going to kill you don't make a religion out of it I'm not saying eat certain things or donate when you get in alignment you're the more you're in alignment it's your diets gonna naturally change and I do believe and I won't say certain things certain things will fall away but it'll be organic you don't make them fall away to prove you're a mystic you

become a mystic you live the mystic and you go isn't that funny I haven't had that in years that's organic because it's inside job you're conscious it means just think about it the consciousness changes there's just certain things I can't do anymore even without realizing it some of us just in a room or watching around the world there are things we can't do anymore and didn't even realize it because we've changed it happens sometimes so gradually we don't realize how much different you know how different we are

so take a moment give thanks for that something in me had to have grown and did so to the point certain food certain things they're just not happening anymore and it's not because they're bad that I'm saying it this is a good thing it's my change that's a good thing so you can make religions out of you know either extreme Jesus died only in the sense that he said let me play the game and he does it but in reality he didn't die he didn't die because the world has power over him but he played along with the game and you know it's it's okay we

just do that I've done that my consciously and you may have done it in your own way consciously I've done it in my way you know just in growing up some some some sometimes my own learning curves I've I've tried to at times uh you know likes let's say certain topics like foods you know I've never really let that become too much of a big deal and tried to make a point to be it doesn't matter Henson you know not not eating conventionally accepted foods and things like that people go yeah I heard he doesn't eat conventionally he must be

really just a strict such-and-such no my point was to not be strict about anything why does Michael you know why does Michael teach about sacred sexuality or Tantra because everything needs to be redeemed we need to be able to go into all the dark recesses in life and be able to hold the light so whether that's you know if you can hold your Center and go into a bar and make a difference then it's okay oh no you're not supposed to hang out in bars what you mean is you can't do it without straying that's then

don't don't but don't curse the person who would because Jesus comes into this world and they're going hey man why is it that you hang out with the prostitutes and sinners instead of just the holy people he said first of all cuz they're more fun no he didn't say that that was me projecting sorry but you know why do you hang out with he's like you guys claim to have your act together you can't be taught you think you're already perfect you can't be taught wow that would just shake me up man if I'm standing there listen to something

like that I don't want to be unteachable and he's saying but these folks you know they're real it doesn't matter what you call them prostitutes centers tax collectors all the names they called it for the time it doesn't matter these people they're real they don't pretend they're not those things but you guys pretend you're priests and you're Liars because you're all going to the prostitutes when nobody's looking anyway no they were you know I mean that's just that that's not just something new for televangelist

that's that's been around that's old-school so Jesus is like you know come on so it's the same for us he went to places where people would listen that's all and if you go into a bar and they don't want to listen you don't go in you can no I'm good walk away if you go anywhere and I don't mean preaching this is interesting because people don't realize this Christianity of many religions they're all about converting now you think why are you converting people by the way you're converting because we want more people to go to

heaven weather no you're not the more people you have the more money you make first of all it's a good business thing why do you do you know ads for your business to bring more people in converting is just another advertisement you use guilt and shame to bring people to your church so you have more money that I mean that's really it's a business I I'm not putting it down that's just what it is but it's a business it's like John Denver when he was in Oh God you know he's talking to the one preacher you know and he said

God said that if you want to make money go sell shoes stop using his name you know it's like that it's like you know the guy gets all upset with him but it's true it's you know what are we doing go go into it but it's by being print the presence not by going in saying everybody I need to tell you how God is or how you know what it's like to be converted living example that's what we're supposed to be a living example and you can do that even while toasting at a bar and I'm not saying go and get drunk I'm saying to be in that presence

without anybody knowing who you really are what you're about that's cool when you can be stealthy the whole idea of converting people is this basically you're you're saying okay we're going to go convert people and scare them into becoming a certain religion what you're really saying is because you believe when you go to the other side you are likely according to your religion going to hell but not if you bring enough people that'll testify for you that that's called bribery you don't go to the gates of heaven and say I know I

don't live up to standards but I brought a bunch of people the more people the more people you convert you're actually compensating you're trying to compensate because you think you're inadequate it's not gonna work you have to find your worthiness there's nobody else that's gonna you know March behind you and say well they're not a good person but because they preached at us they're allowed in it doesn't work we just keep coming and living it again until we be

you know learn to be and become we learn to be this consciousness so you don't you know it's not about converting a number of people it's about converting ourselves and it's about being born again and the greatest thing on earth that helps us to become born again is to die first of the old self kind of diet you know all the the limited self the the human you know one subject to laws karma and so on even karma the real self has there's no power in this world no death no karma has power over us and it's

really kind of intimidating to believe that according to a Course in Miracles it terrifies people to imagine what power we really have terrifies you're afraid of who you are no I'm not yes he actually are and there's all kinds of ways that we could explain that and demonstrate that but just just soak it in even as a possibility that we could be intimidated that how beautiful we are and if you say well no I get it I have no problem with it I really am willing to affirm how beautiful I'm its other people that are messed up here's here's

the trick we started with this we're one so if you say I really do I have devotion but look at other people I'm not a sinner but look at other people the others are reflections of us you can't judge and not be judged it doesn't work it's simultaneous as I judge I am judged not by God it's an instantaneous almost he could say karmic thing so wow I got a got it lay off this stuff man this is like wow the Bible explains you don't get to to heaven through your perfection in fact it's saying God is not able to even see a perfection for

you in in other words in your human self God is no respecter of man's version of perfection man cannot perfect themselves enough to become perfectly holy again you have to let go of the self that you were trying to perfect and then you'll find your holiness it's that's what it means to shift from doing to being I'm almost there God I'm almost there you just to say I'm almost there just to say I just need to do a little more something means I'm not there if I just don't eat certain foods that's not how you get there it doesn't work that's why

Jesus was saying it's not what you put in the mouth it's what comes out of the mouth it's what's in your heart and you you know your your actions will betray what's in your heart so this is what is gonna be seen and has to be purged away all the behavioral modifications they don't go very far scared straight kinds of ideas religion religions version of scared straight watch out you know you're gonna go to hell man that's mercy less and people tried to live up to it but then they thought if I convert enough people it'll make up

for my sinfulness that's not how it works that's like saying if I wash down a bunch of pastries with something it won't count as calories or something like it doesn't make sense I'm gonna wash it down with something else so how then do we enter the kingdom of God how do we enter the consciousness of God how is it done the Bible's telling us it's not through your own perfection well then what do we do two things mainly but it's to be it's the bee and being be a new level of consciousness to be kind to be loving

and forgiving it's a matter of awakening this Christ as a consciousness within us no I'm gonna say it another way for just a second we need help of myself I am nothing so I'm trying to perfect myself to waken into consciousness well let me say it you need Christ or the Holy Spirit so call on Christ which Jesus awoken to so he represents that symbol you Jesus Christ or you can call on the Divine Mother guys the Holy Spirit now if you must call on one and not the other you might want to look at the issues you have with

the one you refuse to call on you know I mean really I'll talk to the mother but I'm not talking to Jesus men cannot be trusted you know I would say look at that or if you go to Jesus and this divine mother sounds pagan like you probably need to look at that you know you probably persecuted a few people it's still hanging over your conscience there you know so you you know here's diversity go to the mother or go to the Sun you could say go to the father if you like but the other two have a specific symbolic role in this world for

us the divine mother is the one if you're willing to change consciousness consciousness sweetheart I'll help you in in Hindu tradition the the mother aspect of God is called the destroyer you know there's always some weird twisted term that we give too often to the feminine but it's the destroyer Oh God I would like to meet the creator or the preserver but not the destroyer you know it makes it sound like she's just like I know I'm gonna kill you you know destroyer means honey hi

sweetheart you want to change you're gonna work on you want to wake up god that's amazing I love you so much come here let's help you change your diaper out of the old and put something fresh on let's get you cleaned up sweeter that's all she's doing she's not destroying you she's saying let's let go of the old you that's why when Jesus tried to explain you have to be born again Nicodemus said how do you enter the mother's womb again you're already born you know and he's like boy you guys take everything so

literally I didn't mean you enter the womb again like that in one lifetime he's saying you're born of the flesh but where are you spiritually where's the birth of you spiritually where's the other you oh I haven't found it yet you die and you just end up having to reincarnate until the day you go wait a minute that put down the sickle mr.

death I'm not gonna die of the body just of the body and then come back I want to die of my human self so that I can be born spiritually and for that to happen the mother has to come in she comes in and says let's lay the old you down like a great Midwife birthing somebody but also the hospice worker so the mother is Hospice in you out the old and midwifing in the new why would we have a problem calling on the Holy Spirit not the Holy Spirit the church made and that often kind of unfortunately gives a bad rap I'm talking about the real one call it the Holy Spirit coat of course in

miracles' uses that it says you know calling the Holy Spirit the pronoun it'll give a he because that's what people are used to but it's not a gender but if you give it when it's she the mother mother helped me help me die of the old I'm afraid I'm afraid to die she comes in stands at your metaphoric bedside saying it's alright honey you know with pain there's a little you know with death there's a little pain discomfort disease and that's that job ending and that person leaving your life and she's like honey just keep focused

on me I know I know you know I will take care let me rub your back a little I know it hurts you'll be gone soon it'll all be alright that's what she's saying when we're in the dark night of the soul man just when I said that just a wave of emotion kind of came through it's alright she's just gentle so it's not enough even to say I accept Jesus as my savior it does take it does take a lining with the Holy Spirit or Jesus or Christ it does take connecting with the one that has gone all the way and knows the

route so connect to something God the Holy Spirit the Divine Mother don't settle on your deceased aunt don't let her become your guide of guides because that's a lower G I'm not going lower G baby I'm going all the way so call on the highest you can and say I'm ready and don't call it like I'm a sinner if that's what you have to do fine but you'll evolve to a point where I was broken I was asleep and now I want to wake up so help me Mom mother come and wake me this morning wake me up when it's time to go to

school called life and get me ready for school mother's not gonna send you out with no food for lunch mother's not gonna send you out and forget your homework or your books she's equipping us go forth and you are like sheep among wolves honey as you're getting on the bus by the way honey you're a sheep among wolves you know but you are it's like that and what do you get when you hear that as soon as you if you told the child that to be sheep among the mines gonna say you're basically lunch you're lunch for

all the hurtful people but nobody realizes the sheep among wolves the sheep that is holding the symbol of the Christ among wolves means you're there to change them not be beat up by them nobody gets that that that interpretation sheep among wolves woohoo yes can't wait hey everyone wolves wolves wolves are growling and blaming and shaming and not good enough and you're fired to be it that consciousness of the Christ is what it means and you'll change people's life but not by preaching be stealthy you

know if you overcome if you try to convert people you're overcompensating and it's very obvious and the more you think you must or else there's something wrong you're overcompensating the truth of the matter is I am and I need to align with I am as God created me and how can I be that presence you know when someone's forgot their money in the in the grocery line and you have extra I am and you help you step up on a day-to-day basis so there's be loving and forgiving but also live it don't just say it be it there's be and being we've got to

align with be the Christ align with the Holy Spirit do it get your connection and then go out into the world you can't just say Jesus is my Savior with some flip and terminology jesus is my Savior people think that works it actually doesn't the words don't do anything without the meaning I don't know how that got lost somewhere because it's so obvious you just act like a jerk all day long and end the day with Jesus is my personal Savior so I'm good to go no no you're already living in hypocrite hell and

with that comes the Karma instead opening up really opening up to the mother the Holy Spirit or Christ Here I am learning that that without the direct connection I'm still in the world of doing even if my doing is a positive do I'm working on diet and working on this I'm trying to get healthier I'm trying to be a nicer person it's still good it's good but it's still doing when you say I'm gonna go ahead and keep doing but I'm gonna connect with being anchor in the light of God and then the doing shifts it shifts it's not me doing to

become holy it's I'm holy still doing to get my doings to align with my beingness that makes sense for good see that it's like wow all of a sudden I don't have to change my diet I don't have to change my friendships I don't have to idle it's not me me me all the time even with recovery it's not me in recovery it's God I am guiding me through and now I just feel different I have all power of the universe with my recovery that's why connecting with God is such an important part of a 12-step program

because it's I don't know that I have it with me to do it if I did I'd have done it by now well I just need a little time really you've existed for a billion years and you haven't gotten home yet are they going to try something else live a little dangerously me call me silly call me impatient but geez a billion years instead you know what right here and right now God is I am and then if it's not your own head it'll be other people that'll catch you when you slip god I'm a hypocrite I still slip that's not hypocrisy because you didn't

claim to be humanly perfect you're saying I'm aligning with spiritual perfection and I'm working to get my human self to catch up a bit but however much it catches up or doesn't that's going to show my own alignment and integrity but however much it catches up I already am one with God see the difference as humans you can become you know like converted you can become like okay I get it I'm gonna start living spiritually and the people around you will be intimidated by that light and they will watch and find fault and

when they do it's hard and I mean I lived this stuff all my life man so I would I would go okay I really want to live this stuff but I would see and you know because there was nobody instructing me at the time I would I would really do a great job staying aligned but slipping or doing something someone else doesn't see is Allah as aligned man they jump on it they attack the Wolves then they attack and they growl and they bite but as a younger person I would take it more personally like okay wait so I wasn't quite perfect

enough there you know okay I could have probably done a better job and so but the great news is it was really working spiritual muscles because it did teach me to have more discipline than most you know it really did to not to not make things a religion out of everything but at the same team time it was a little hard on myself at times you know you know what why are you you know I've had you know spiritual centers saying used to you know Torah so many centers back in the 80's 90's and I had one that

lady say you know their own dissenter we can't have you back at our center because you wrote a book on sexuality and we don't we don't believe in that I'm like how did you enter the earth then No yeah yeah which is why your single lady no you know yeah it's tempting it's tempting but you just say you know you know I mean and it is true forgive them they know not what they do this gal who was bitterly without any part bitterly without partnership wondering when nobody would be with her and all this

but then there you see this energy come through with a judgment on somebody else and it's like wow you're thinking that they don't get it the people that don't date you it could be the bitterness playing a part and I get a bite of that you know the bitterness and it's like well you know and I just said in and she said if you could just you know lay low on that don't bring those books to sell do dah dah dah dah dah so I had a choice now the spiritual me made the right decision and I said that's okay thank you but I won't be back the human me was

still going I done something wrong should I have not taught that you see I mean that's the human self and the battles within and they happen in all of us should I have could I have been a little more gosh you know that happens and we are our own worst enemy even when it's the other people reflecting it they're still reflecting our own doubts so I'm grateful that I was stringent on myself enough to keep fine-tuning my spiritual muscles it really gave me some you know good clarity that I think a lot of us don't have at times but at times

it's hard and at times it meant not having as much of this and that is normal human thing probably one of my biggest life challenges was never said this but it was being in this world it is also to not be of the world but to be of the world as a human man I really really tried to be normal it just came out that way but I did I tried to be normal I tried to like just you know do things that humans do but I just couldn't and thought that I would there was something wrong with me for not being able to just play the game

but at times I still tried and that's sometimes my own personal betrayer betrayals but I would just try you what are you supposed to do when you when you go go you're hanging out with some guys or girls or what you know what are you supposed to do we supposed to do it with sex or dating or whatever these things are food diets you know and it just none of it really appealed to me it wasn't an aversion or an issue it just wasn't there so but I'm saying no it wasn't the not being there it was an issue for me it

was when I tried to make it like I could do those things like I could just let me just do the things people do let me try this or that you know and it always felt like I was alien I felt like I was an alien that beamed in and trying to make it look like I'm a human and I supposed to let stand a certain way or you know you know and it was always just so awkward and boy I mean and it's fine-tuning and healing even at this time even in even on this day it's still there you know coming more and more to peace because you have to come to peace

with yourself and don't say I'm already there great I'm glad if you feel you're there but be open because new pieces might come up but it's you know it's it's weird stuff it's to come in and be a spiritual leader at a center and then they tell you here's how you have to do it so I'm like okay I don't think I can do some of that I mean so I but I I tried to fit in and you know after enough people start to hate you you realized it's all right it's that's okay try to fit into your family and they don't like you you can

keep trying to be like them to get them to like you but you realize wait a second you guys have no intention of liking me so this is cool now I could just be okay accepting that you're gay or straight accepting that you're this or that and not letting the world create a mold for you to go and try to fit into accepting the Christ as a consciousness means we are free spiritually we are free and now what the form does or is or says or it doesn't matter as much but this starts to conform to the being all the doings start to conform to the

being and it's so beautiful it's just so cool you don't have to fit in guys if you if you feel like you didn't fit into your family or you didn't fit into your you know culture or you didn't fit into your town God first and then just see what happens that changes some of the other all my friends they all like to party and drink and I just don't feel like it's my thing you know yeah I mean I go all the way back to middle school or high school they're there things I just couldn't do it just didn't make sense to me I'd walk around a party when

I go to a party in high school do with one beer the whole night just to look normal but nobody ever noticed they thought oh he's probably on this six-month no it was the same one it's warm you want to test it I mean you know because it wasn't my thing but I would play the game so you know sometimes play the game guys you can go to a family reunion and not be of the world you just do your thing but it's interesting because when you really get that the conversations change you know but I I mean I tried it I tried to go and just

talk about mundane stuff and I think they probably one of the reasons they didn't like me as they could sense it I wasn't being real you know I was yeah how about those Giants you know come up with a team you know how about those boy yeah did you see the game yesterday oh yeah didn't didn't we all you know you try you try I remember when I went to a girl's house I was in probably 9th or 10th grade somewhere they went to a girl's house and she's like you know would you mind coming in and meeting my parents oh I I mean I'm telling you have no idea how

awkward this this person is in this world at times so she goes yeah you know I said okay so I go in and the parents wanted to meet me you know cuz I'd seen her for a little while and I go in and they're like and they try to be normal they will have a seat and she later on she goes I can't believe when they said have a seat you sat in the doorway of the house on the ground such an idiot you know she's like they meant on a couch or chair and that's just one story I mean I could go all over the place

it just you know the guy with one beer sits in the doorway or so whatever your version of that would be forgive yourselves you're you're you're more right for having recognized the awkwardness because this is not your home this is not your home this place and at you know acclimating to everything of this world and fitting into all the things that people do it's alright that it doesn't go exactly a certain way it's alright god first and god's awakened ones all beings are my family god's awakened ones are the ones

that i can use to give me support during those challenging times don't always know how to fit in I was the artist I was the gay one then they didn't understand or whatever the thing you believed you were they don't get it because that's this world the world doesn't want to get you spiritually least of all but even the human you it doesn't even want to get the human you it looks like they do and when I bid farewell to my family I said it's no offense if you ever need anything any of you spiritual if

you ever need anything I'm here as any other human being I would be there for but I said but I understand I I thought that something could change and it wasn't gonna change ever so to sit around and wait for them to catch up to loving and respecting you guys you're technically you're holding yourself hostage and you don't realize it but I don't want to say goodbye cuz it hurts it also hurts to live it forever the goodbyes would be a band-aid it'll hurt for a moment you'd be surprised how quickly you get over it when hateful

people pass and new people come into your life because as you go from the dark night of the soul and the old way of life a new one is waiting and that's all about love and it's all about God in Christ consciousness at the end of the day that's what you'll be happy you've made a choice for let's please take a few cents hearing of centering breaths shake off the stuff of this world hmm I'm stretch a little the back and your neck and just feel like you can relax and open up behaviors alone cannot bring us home consciousness takes us home but we have

to bring the actions into alignment that's all be being the living Christ as a consciousness as we sent her and get quiet will contemplate an idea if today or Judgment Day as they call it how would you fare according to religions you don't stand a chance that's true how would you fare it's Judgment Day let's just start with this could you say that more than 50% you have awakened spiritual consciousness have you at least 50% also started behaving in

alignment with that spiritual consciousness if you haven't it's ok because now you know and you have the right to make a choice to say that's it I'm below 50% and I'm gonna raise the bar on that today don't think below 50 means because you have a drink now and again that you're below 50 don't think because you still have sex or you still eat certain foods that you don't think are right to other people that's not what gets you below 50 use common sense how would you tell a child this would you tell them every little flaw drops

them below 50 no so don't do it to yourself you're not likely below 50 but if you think you are let's change it if you are above 50 which it's likely so the first thing you should do is give thanks man I'm already more than halfway there oh my god that's amazing and then you can fine-tune the number a little like so where do you believe your 70% great you're nearly three-quarters the way home whatever number what do you need to do to adjust consciousness to get higher the Judgment Day is us and our own

evaluation of ourselves it's not trying to be something for God it's us getting out of the way what do you need to do to adjust your consciousness to take it up a bit higher take a moment with that and whatever you thought just for a moment whatever you thought about what I need to do to adjust consciousness if you neglected the following it's not too late to add it surrender to the Christ or the mother that will get you there more than anything you think you can adjust in terms of learning

consciousness just surrendering and make it a personal relationship from now on mother how we doing today mother can you be with me I'm about to deal with this issue or Jesus whichever you want to use they are the bridge home choose to make that connection that alignment Here I am start everyday Here I am talk regularly what would you have me do the mother can even talk to you about which produce to choose today just doesn't judge any of them as bad but when you say which for me today because we're in this world she will get you to the one that has the

most nutrients for today not to make a religion about it that it's the only thing for everybody all days for me today mother what would you have me do what would you have me not do and the guidance will come to you and sometimes through others but if it's not love based think twice and then besides consciousness what about our actions our actions what actions can I adjust my behaviors my day-to-day life a little more of this a little less of that it's not with judgment it's simply how do I bring the

outter into alignment with the inner take a half a moment with that and as we close just imagine if you did connect with that inner being and started changing the outer the manifestations just take a look at what that looks like and Marvel in the gratitude of how cool that is how it would change the lives of other people around you and your own just really absorb how nice that is to be and being be and being all aligned my loving behaviors include being loving and forgiving my outer self is aligning with my inner self my inner self is to

align with God and the outer manifests it it's no longer conflicted and I'm giving thanks in advance that this is already happening and so it is now take a moment just to gradually gradually react limit to the room and stretch for a sec give it a second