Attaining Your Heart’s Desire

we consider Valentine's Day not a high holiday but it's still considered a holiday holiday and I always think the word you got to remember holiday comes from holy day and so Valentine's Day technically could be considered a holy day and and yet what's holy about a holiday that where some people have partners and some don't oh it's Valentine's Day that's the it's Valentine's Day today I become most depressed through the year and or the day after you know because I don't have

you can't call it a holy day if some people are left out so how do we justify a Valentine's Day if some people are left out of love here's the answer you're never left out of love you're only sometimes sometimes left out of romance which is fine God's single and that's it thank you for being here what else do I have to say God's single it seems to work out I mean it's not actually that far off from what we're supposed to be looking at single yet one with all then God appears to Moses that

doesn't mean he likes Moses more than you it God appears to Jesus go that's how it's supposed to be where you might have a unique relationship with this person or that person can you shut that door let them know they're being a little loud Thanks oh and you can exclude some people you know it works out so just imagining like God we're made in God's image and were supposed to be learning to be as God so if I think of that in a day to day application what does it look like well guys it looks

like love for all oneness and love what is that somebody's channeling alright their music started coming out stop it alright so love for all but God speaks to Moses God speaks to this person that person men women black white etc it's the same for you and I we can have a unique kid there's no if you're wrong with that at all to have a unique relationship so I can love everyone but not live with everyone how you gonna live with 8 billion people at once so it's never been you know meant to be

such a daunting thing such an overwhelming thing well then how do I love everyone well just the concept to love everyone first the concept secondly who is in front of you start with those people well I wanted to trade them in some better models you know you don't have to like their behaviors but can you refuse to hate people and still affirm that there's a light in them you got a really still in a learn your part I mean it's such an amazing thing the way relationships are treated anymore what people think they are they're thinking

these are supposed to be some fantasies this is not a fantasy about romance there's two kinds of relationships we all have gifting ones in karma once karmic ones are the ones that push a button here and there sometimes they're too Karma they're so overwhelmingly karmic but why do I have any karmic relationships they can only ever be lessons that I miss somewhere else that have backed up on me they've come back to me okay so let's get the lessons fine so Michaels saying I have to stay with I didn't say that you can

leave as long as you get the lesson get the lesson with them get the lesson without them but you still have to get the lesson because you could be in any form of a karmic relationship walk away from it run away from it not learning anything it won't matter because if you die the next day you're coming back with two of them because God loves you so much it's gonna support you in creating these so many of them that you can't ignore them if that's what you need but the work you and I have done on any

relationship ever has always paid off and become what's called a gifting relationship if you've ever had a decency I don't care if it's a a loving supportive relative it could have been a psychic you went saw they took your hand with greater warmth than most people and put their hand on your shoulder and said it'll be okay that's that's kindness that's the divine mother coming through people so it's like well that was a gift it's not things are not arbitrary like people think they are their gifts or

their karmic the things I work on karmically always become gifts the gifts never become karmic the gifts are permanent so I want to shift all of my karmic relationships in this direction now but the human race has been so messed up and programmed in effectively in a sense in service speaking positively it's ineffective but it's not ineffective in terms of the negative and confusion that the ego likes to perpetuate on this planet even religion you know well we don't believe in divorce you have to stay with somebody

even if you find that this is not working and it's karmic that's not what God wants or you say you know like we're in religion sometimes they say well Mary Mary Christ Mary Jesus how did that work out for nuns and priests a lot of them are you know not that happy you don't see a lot of joy and exuberance in a lot of traditional religions this idea of marrying God should be like you should be spinning and dancing and twirling you should be picking flowers and oh you should look like you're stoned all the time

I noticed I started selling someone this stone you know so you know it should look good it shouldn't be just this khandhas frown you know so it's and and I'm not criticizing it really they do what they want to do but I'm saying we've been programmed that that's what loving God looks like you used to be happy but now you have to devote to God so you've got to let go of that happiness yeah it's almost like you have to trade in your heart and for a relationship with God and that all that

does is it's an ego way another ego way of disturbing people discouraging people you don't really want to get too close to God because you know what happens is you get no money you get no sex that's why they call them nuts sorry you got to admit they got a bad habit bad habit anyway so it's now mind you there are very truly devout nuns priests monks this you know rabbis absolutely in every tradition the most fundamental traditions have truly devout you know attendees as well as leaders that's

absolutely true I'm just saying by and large the ego has infiltrated so much of religion to make it look discouraging to make it look like if you become spiritual you're going to lose something and that way people go well I don't want to become too spiritual so to me that's kind of you know that's kind of disturbing there's even there's even people there's some some religions where they tell you even children children like 10 year olds we want you honey you know mommy and daddy wants you to marry Jesus and you

know the kids like okay they don't even know what that means and so they'll say and some of them even go so far as to say to a 10 year old to an 8 year old to a 6 year old girl you're gonna marry your daddy why because you're gonna promise daddy that you're never gonna have sex until you're married so these kids are like triple-e pervertedly married to their dads in a ceremony i mean if that doesn't twist your head mind a little bit but also the devotion to Jesus first they tell you what Jesus

is like then tell you to marry him and it doesn't go well because they didn't tell you this is a Christ consciousness that you are when you marry Jesus you're actually marrying Christ within yourself you now have a fusion of a masculine feminine alchemy within your being now your electric if ID your your loken your you know your your just glowing with light because you have this divine marriage this alcam will come marriage within your being and that's not what they're teaching him marry Jesus and don't do anything wrong

ever because he's watching okay you know just tension so there are alternatives and that is to come to understand what it means to say I'm marrying would be too odd for some people to I don't have a problem calling it that but for you you might say just committing to awakening Christ within yourself Christ as a consciousness and you know so that can mean that Jesus as a being a brother an elder brother can start connecting with you and working with you because it and it doesn't have to be that you can

think of it as hi yourself or whatever's gonna work for you but it's true that there are elders males and females and of every culture and race that have reached mastery and serve us from the other side nurturing us forward in God's plan for salvation God's plan for Humanity due to all awakened so it's kind of cool we got all this really great support behind us on this so it's an you know it's like it can't go wrong this is gonna happen no matter what mankind is gonna wake up but on the way

one thing that can happen is if you devote to awakening the Christ do it any way you want that feels comfortable to you but I'm saying one way is that when you devote to Christ you can actually have the way you you sometimes could have visions with Yogananda you know as a guru as a teacher but also christ as jesus was given the keys to the universe not just to i dimension a planet a master you know one level or another its entirety because christ is who we are we are entire we're one with all so you can

have this relationship nurtured and it's kind of interesting to me because you think okay well st. Germain's gonna kind of have this energy and and Archangel Michael will have that have that energy and Mother Mary and all these traits that great masters have and it's kind of interesting because some of them talk about higher dimension ality your ones gonna give you a purple aura another one's gonna give you a diamond like thing in your third it's all really cool and then it's seen a little bit of a bummer you know what

does Jesus offer oh that you know can I have another master as my guide you know because in reality not only a bit we've been programmed a negative connotation for Jesus but if you really ask Jesus what what are you gonna gift me this one's gonna give me a diamond third eye that one's gonna give me a purple or this one's gonna give me intuition what are you gonna give me he's gonna say I am mainly going to help you work on your relationships and it's gonna be like that's it you know I can I can call

whatever version of modern-day Dear Abby for that I mean I don't need Jesus and you don't understand I'm going to make your relationships holy I'm gonna help you work on karmic ones so that you don't have them you think you want a diamond like third-eye you think you want a purple aura but get with the wrong people and it's gonna pretty much snuff out your third diamond third eye it'll turn it to coal and your ore is gonna go from purple to black it's not gonna help we want to give you life and

consciousness because how are you gonna have good relationships comes as some of us that assume that means oh it's time for my my twin soul my soul mate yeah that's what I want a lottery and soulmate and then you end up with a partner who steals your money from the lottery and they're gone and you just up Creek again so it's true I I want holy relationships some of us don't even know what that means I'm ready to have total peace that surpasses understanding I'm ready for my consciousness to live to a

level that I never really understood it could be how holy relationships okay how do I get those my ability to love and forgive and I start taking my agendas off of everybody I start just knowing that there's I refuse to hate anyone and I affirm that there's a light in everyone and then this transformation starts to take place in other words Jesus is gonna say look I like any great master but I'm the master of masters as the other masters refer to him master of masters I'm actually going to be able to

keep an eye on everything and I am going to give you assignments really is it going to be the you know special breath technique and is it going to be you know reciting something in a way that does you know or decrees and affirmations and it's great stuff especially if you think it's gonna be like I'm gonna become more prosperous Jesus is gonna give me a Mercedes because that's what a lot of people want his stuff and he's gonna say we're going to work on your relationships and they're all going to become holy because

when you have a holy mind you will be able to have the power to manifest anything else cars jobs that come easy when you have holiness when you stop projecting your stuff on to others and then wrestling with that stuff when it manifests in others because it's mirrored back to you and they wrestle with you and they become a pain in the butt these people out here but all they're doing is mirroring the unhealed wounds if we can get you there and work on that you will have a peace that surpasses understanding you can turn a rock into a

gold nugget you can do anything because this world's an illusion the only reason it seems like it has power is because of the judgments we have on ourselves and others holy relationships means taking that judgment off of ourselves in others and then all of a sudden we're miracle workers we think we become miracle workers who might have a relationship that goes well or not we become holy in our relationships then every other power is given to us that is what people have forgotten it all comes back to relationships with God relationship with

self relationship with others it all comes back to that so it's interesting because if we devote to Christ as our beloved it doesn't mean don't have partners or lovers or it just means my spiritual commitment is totally here so I make my commitment Jesus has this way of working in and through us if you're triggered by by Christianity when I say Jesus don't be because he's not into Christianity either I mean not not in the you know not in the like fear-based sense okay so Jesus is not

associated with the religion and nor any great master of history are really much related to the religions that that came after them they're really not so Jesus has this way of saying you're helping me be in charge you're surrendering your heart and soul to me so I'm gonna give you assignments but the assignments aren't going to be complex meditations they can be sometimes but not so much that or external ritual as much as I'm going to give you assignments they're called people that I'm going to bring into your

airspace some are gonna fly in under the radar those are the ones you usually marry but well but I'm going to bring assignments to you because we're like oh Jesus if you're gonna come to me maybe you can do some specific fantastical wonderful thing for me you know colors and Angel visions and no no just Joe and Jim and Sally and you know we're gonna bring that that's it somebody else over here said you know they did a prayer ritual and they won the lottery the next day you're gonna bring back my ex

seriously that's it and and we don't understand now if you think I'm messed up in suggesting this then ask yourself why you've been alive as a soul for billions of years and you're still here apparently you don't know your own best interests you don't know how to get yourself ascended so just live dangerously for a moment hear me out that it's possible that the thing we missed was relationships you tried fasting you tried working in temples you tried developing psychic abilities but if you're still rude

you're rude you still have to work on you it can't just be skills and cold things out here it's to be Christ it and well how is that done anointings and so on we know it's it's healed relationships and and that's I'm really emphasizing that because this is Valentine weekend so Jesus is gonna say I'm gonna give you assignments what's really cool is what you don't realize because it seems arbitrary there here's a person that entered my life today and here's one tomorrow this is all very

tactfully woven together your being created as a network a complex network of oneness it'll seem like arbitrary and by the way how do these assignments come to you I said you know people coming into your life they come into your life in dreams visions synchronicities spontaneity 'z radio you know a song on the radio that's how this works so it's not just one direction there's this thing called Jesus the week you know we it's it's Jesus is known to us because if we came remember to Christ so

this thing that is Christ it's also you and me this thing that is Christ is this consciousness that connects all things we're still trying to call our spiritual path this little ritual or this little thing I'm doing this class this workshop these little arbitrary things Christ knows how to weave them together so surrendering into a relationship with oneness isn't like having a partner it's I'm surrendering to oneness God is single yet one with all let me be single let thine eye be single and connect with

all that is so now in my connection I start to realize wait a minute this dream I had last night there's a piece it connected with a dream from a month ago which connected with a synchronicity on the radio today and your mind starts catching on and and at first you're amazed then you sit back and just go wow the amazement shifts into this aw and I have been trying to figure out my own life this thing that is beyond me knows exactly who to bring in how long to have them there how to bring them out if we've done what we can

no further healing at this time gently out it doesn't have to be dramatic my life guided by God becomes you know just just a like I said it's almost all inspiring it's just you start to sit back and go you got to be kidding me this happened like a week ago where started the day with a specific thing because we're doing this one-year course on spiritual awakening which includes all this Course in Miracles workbook lessons and that and this book called Jesus calling that we're using as well there was this one day where there

was a specific theme that had to do with sort of surrendering the day and watching efficiency spiritual efficiency kick in so I'm like okay so I did my day did my morning I swear I left the house things were like 10 times more connected and efficient every every room or closet I looked in there would be like almost glowing with light like six things that came together oh my god I've been looking for that oh my god whoa all these things then I go to the next location that's bizarre that's why I

found that in the closet because it's supposed to go to them and this is not yeah it's like so magnificent to be in that state of connectedness and we're supposed to be there all the time and that does happen for me a great deal but yet still as a human being when it happens ten times more than usual it can almost feel overwhelming because part of us is going to go the ego is gonna go this can't last just don't even care just go I don't care it's happening now and then another parts gonna say you

know you know your brains gonna short-circuit if so things keep happening so well and then your heads gonna go well wait a minute why do we want spirit to do everything for us don't we have any say so just hear it and let it pass get behind me Satan that kind of concept because they're just ego ploys because it's going so well human beings when they recognize the value of holy relationships have to get used to everything going well you know you're gonna think his can't it may be that this is a trick you know just know just

move on and get back in the zone and get back in the zone every time we slip just get back in the zone these things like I said will seem arbitrary but they're not arbitrary at all this is God saying welcome home this is just a taste all of a sudden it's that moment where you learned that below the tip of the iceberg under the levels of consciousness the water there's much more than we thought and that's just when we first go when you first saw that picture of an iceberg and what was under the water and

went wow it's that's all that you're happy have happening now there's so much more because there's a point where you not only go the tip and then wow under the sea level water you all of a sudden go and then the whole ocean now the iceberg even underneath the surface looks nothing right to like nothing then you'll go the water the ocean what about the universe oh my god the the sea of universe the universal cosmic ocean now the ocean seems small and then you go on the universal cosmic ocean that they call

indescribably large and they say it's something that is infinity they think the universe is infinite in consciousness which isn't true that's what they think because they can't find the edge so the universe is infinite because there's no known edge because it's us the universe is just a dot in our mind we're co-creating the universe and there's there is and yet there isn't an edge to the universe there is in a sense because anything we haven't yet put thought into hasn't yet become so

it's vague and that's the part of the universe they'll say it's still there it's expanding and there's no limit it's just strange they're gonna use their head to try to figure it out and you can't what it is is it's our mind it's our imagination the universe all the black space is simply filled with the black space within our mind what they call dark matter it's just blank space within the mind all the planets all the stars all the nebulas all the amazing colors all the twinkles of the stars all

that is just not even a dot in our mind that's how powerful we are we think we're a dot in the universe but the universe is actually a dot in our mind and when we find love with each other when we find a sense of forgiveness we actually start becoming one with the universe first one in your little life and these synchronicities don't get too attached to that because then you'll realize now this oneness is almost global and that feels Wow then you realize and then it be a solar system what's happening wow I

mean it might become like this is so beyond comprehension I feel like I'm overwhelmed just breathe just breathe surrender to the mother they've all divine mother and the Holy Spirit bring me as far as you know I can go and that's why some people will try it synthetically a drug a pill a plant of some kind and blow their minds open beyond what spirit mother would have said that's beyond what you want to do right now oh no I'm gonna try this you know you take something in that boom and then you're a Kundalini casualty you

know walking around mumbling to yourself you know in Sedona so so if any of you are online and our Kundalini casualty welcome to Sedona no no please don't come here so a lot of us end up saying you know what I want more the Holy Spirit will guide you you'll have epiphanies and moments of oneness and connection they may not last don't get frustrated you saw purple light in a meditation bright white light in a meditation you felt oneness with the planet the universe whatever it is don't get too attached to it because your

brain is not actually made to handle total oneness yet it will blow a fuse if you put that kind of energy through it just let today be enough for today whatever that happens to be I feel really good about Who I am what I am my consciousness and all that but I really don't try to design a whole lot of what happens to me I don't say okay Lord here's what I want today I know things I connect well like this and any other and I still stay as passive as possible in my participation just God it's up to you

I really do which might be why I feel as good as I feel because I don't get myself trying to control it so stay out of the tendency or the temptation to be the one that decides what you need today spiritually and it's an easy one to get caught in when it comes to relationships you know listen God you missed it I don't like this person why I don't know why you brought them you must have missed the memo let me give you a hint one word divorce and yet God brought them to me it's it's somehow

it's perfect it can't not be that doesn't mean remarry them but if they came to your mind your favorite song of theirs you know your song with them came on the radio and whatever else let it be just let it come to you let it be seen refuse to hate it fill it with love and let it be what we'll do is when we're done today we'll do a nice forgiveness exercise for everybody in all things for that matter I want to just say one more thing though Valentine's Day romance there's nothing wrong with it

but spiritually speaking like I said you're single those of us who are on the spiritual path if you're married you're partnered I think that's fantastic and that's its own thing so it's being single its own thing don't be single thinking it's wrong and you need to be partnered don't be partnered wishing you were single wherever you are start there but I do believe that a lot of people are in the spiritual movement and the you know new thought movement and self-help there's a

lot of people that are without partners or relationships that don't seem to last very long don't get too tripped out about that what you're doing is you're comparing yourself to the image the world gives you're supposed to be married and have children and so on and so none of that's true we created the world so why are we following laws that we already subconsciously stuck out there change the rules be okay with who you are and how you are the truth is if God is single and yet one with all how

do you know that being single isn't a symptom of being well on the path how do you know it's not a symptom of being more like God single yet one with all you know it's interesting to me because you know people look for this treasure of a person the one and only in if only and and it all that does is affirm that you're flawed looking for somebody that'll fix you or complete you so you know and there's nothing wrong with wanting partnership and romance and all that but just recognize if you die tomorrow

with somebody and you're not healing you're no better off it's healing who you are that is the priority having a partnership in the night doesn't mean you exited complete you just probably had one more incomplete relationship so we have to discover make our priority who we are so some people are like I want a magical partnership which means what well it should mean not somebody that's gonna fulfill you per se but it you know if I recommend it I would say gets healthy a person that's healthy in

your life mature mentally spiritually emotionally financially doesn't that make sense find healthy but that would mean I also if here's the difference between the two if I go get one because I don't have it that's not gonna work out very well even if it looks good for a while if I say I don't have it and I want somebody who's more I want somebody who's more grounded than I am you're using them for grounding I want somebody who's better off financially because I'm not you're

using them for finances I want somebody to snuggle with buy a stuffed bear why are you gonna hire a person to fill that role how real is it bring a healthier self to others to share relationship not to give and not to get but to share to me that's divine romance now when I say you know find someone who's just more mature spiritually and mentally I scribble down a couple of notes about personal comment here I'm gonna share this with you now those of you who know me I am you know I mean as a speaker and all that I'm

internationally known I've been on the path for a long time very spiritual mentally emotionally mature and so on all these things I teach I feel pretty good about those things yet I would absolutely be the worst partner you could ever have so I'm here I'm telling you get healthy and get get somebody was wonderful great I'm wonderful and I would be a terrible partner for anybody I'm like a bummer a bore you know for most people so I scribbled these notes for example if somebody were with me ten years they

would say the following testimonials about Michael you will never have been on a vacation because I've never taken a day off in my life so you will never be on a vacation if you're with me yeah it's promising right I will definitely be making my spiritual path more important than you you would almost never expect to be sitting down and dining with me you're gonna have your you know your steak and wine I I eat raw dough I don't eat normal food it's true that's me I just don't eat normal food

so it's not like you know we're gonna sit it I've never I have a dining room table I've never sat at it not once you know it's kind of interesting you know I don't know I have it but it was gifted you know so I have a table and it's a nice dining room set I I don't do that I don't go to the table I walk into the kitchen if I have whatever it happens to be a bowl of raw you know cake batter i spoon it i spoon it and I do that and then I'm done what am I gonna do go to

the dining room table light a candle it doesn't make any second by the time I get to the table I'm already done with dinner I just you know a dozen scoops but anyway I've always been willing to buy any partner or friend or intimate friend anything they want if I have the funds I mean you know I don't keep money if I have it and you want something always but you better ask because if you don't tell me what you want you're not getting anything for Christmas I'm serious not for your birthday not but I

don't want anything either that's just how I am and then sounding good right so there's no specialness there's not like you know I'm gonna make you feel like special you know it's not gonna happen I've almost never slept in the same bed even when I was married fun huh even when I was married it was the strangest thing never almost never slept in the same bed with partners it's because in the middle of the night I said things happen I come to me I'm awake you know so I just I don't do that

it's just it seems like it would disturb have a very simple wardrobe very food a few pieces of clothing that I have our own so you're not gonna be like in a fashion statement relationship if a person's with me you know I'm thinking you know if a person's with me there there's just the whole spiritual thing is all that matters that's how my mind works so it's not you know I you watch romance movies you watch horror movies suspense movies I have no interest in that you know I watch I

think I watched more cartoons I do you know like movie wise then I you know any of these other things that people are into so this is just an odd person so don't assume you're gonna go and get someone who's it's not if I just get somebody who's kind of spiritual it doesn't mean anything I feel very good in all those areas and I'm totally messed up in terms of you expecting that I would be a great partner I taught secret sexuality for God's sakes and still I don't sleep in the same bed with

anybody I'm not saying I I'm like totally neurotic I'm saying that I just feel like I'm standing in light and if something doesn't resonate with that I'm not really that interested in it refuse to hate it love them at the deepest level but I just feel okay I taught sacred sexuality yet I didn't teach people to be totally loose that way I talked about integrity spiritual connection you get up that pyramid on relationships guys it's lonely at the top there's less stones up here than

down here lots of dating down here what's up here what's up here and if you didn't notice the the Pyramid of all pyramids the Great Pyramid is missing a capstone and your dollar bills look at look at the pyramid on your your bills it's missing the top not missing it's because God is the primary stone at the top God is the cornerstone now it sounds like I'm preaching religion don't do relations no just do them well and own who you are if someone comes into my life and says well I'll

change him that's not gonna go well what makes you think I can I like I like cake batter I like cook cookies you know I mean just whatever I like simple things - ice cold milk men you can't beat that with great cookies so so that's me now somebody says no but all waited wait till he tastes my steak I'm not I'm not I would never eaten it and I never will it's not it's just not my thing so you're gonna find yourself frustrated if you're with me because you're gonna feel

alone nobody eating that at the dining table with you oh when are we gonna go on vacation we're not then why should I get with you I don't want you to I didn't ask you to read leave me alone - me alone is all one it's the same word just broken up differently so and when you're really into spirituality you feel like a like this you feel this average you know you feel this voltage you feel this energy that's an intensity that some people are gonna do well with I'm gonna go you know yesterday 12 hours I

was helping out with with one of the local estate sales it just volunteer 12 hours from 6:00 in the morning to 6:00 tonight 6:00 at night we done I went back and here's what I do my example of a day after 12 hours of that I went home and I got these larger critters that get in my backyard because they like to go after all the things that I put out for smaller critters birds and whatever else so I put these live traps out it can catch them and take them out to the way so I go home and oh I caught another one

oh I got to go get it and give them some water give them some other munchies to have cover the cage put it in the car go driving out to the wilderness somewhere so I can take this cage you know you know now it's evening time trying to navigate night you know go out there somewhere lift the door let it take off put it in me you know that's my day doesn't end there's just always something else that that's there to do I don't have to but I love the animals I want to catch them live and I want to

bring them to the best habitat they could have you see it's just a very eccentric I mean it's almost like by night I'm a trapper and by day Emma you know so the bottom line is that our relationships are meant to be healed and holy I feel great within myself if someone said to me I would like to partner with you but you have to eat you know whatever it is called you know your steak and potatoes and wine and it's not gonna happen if they say well we're gonna you know I want to do this whole certain style and

the way the world wants it and it doesn't matter and it doesn't matter if you're gay or straight it doesn't matter if you're not being intimate with people there's nothing wrong with you and if you are intimate there's nothing wrong with you are you straight here to be able to say I'd like to choose intimacy today and yet it not be weird in the mind and when you say to people if they say they're interested yeah but can we be without weirdness in the mind no I don't think so then say no to them but

if people can meet you heart to heart and and safety is there then I think it's a beautiful thing there's a quick story I'll share as we're coming to a close though but a quick story there was a UH a scald Thebes there was a band of warriors then during the you know Greek Empire type time a few hundred years before Christ but there's this that you've heard the term band of thieves right band of thieves that actually came from the sacred band of Thebes and this one Greek tribe they were all male lovers partners one was

called the beloved the other loved lover they were all male partners they marched into war together side by side they were lovers friends spiritually devoted warriors to get I mean it was a bizarre nobody had seen this before they would die together and when they would die together they often were found embraced or holding out of this total love and commitment for each other this and that's called the sacred band of thieves when they were finally wiped out at the time of Philip and Alexander it said that even Philip who

was not a soft individuos a hardened man broke down in tears because they couldn't there was something about walking to the battlefield and seeing how much love these guys had for each other mind body and soul it was almost like it was never witnessed before and a warrior breaks down and says you know almost like what have we done like something so amazing that's how we're supposed to be mind body soul and that's not an easy thing to live up to so when people want to be part of my sacred you

know band of phoebs within myself I want to get along I want God to come first I want trust with each other what can we entrust you if I tell you something personal can I trust it it's your to keep to hold on to you see what I'm saying this total beautiful sacredness can we be intimate at the deepest level can we be spiritual at the deepest level there's a part of all of us that goes yes this is yes yes yes we get exciting guys that's what I want getting ourselves to live it is another story because you'll say yes that I love

this this is what I want then you'll meet somebody who's halfway there and you'll bargain and take that because it's better than no one even halfway there you're bargaining tells the universe I wasn't serious when I said I want that what I meant was I'll take anything and the universe can say pretty consistently and so it is and then you're with somebody who's halfway there and then you're whining about how this ruined your life flow that's true I can't believe they did this they pretended to

be no you bargained and the ways there are things you can do you know built-in mechanisms to make sure that they don't fly in under the radar first of all taking your time in relationship and also communicating what are you looking for now if you say here's what I'm looking for but they see you have a pattern of bargaining they're not going to take you seriously so just the same way I can stand here and be emphatic and say half humorously and half seriously this that would be the very worst person

for somebody to be a partner with you know I've been married and I've been partnered I've had intimate friends I've had nobody I've had the different things and I love them all as it's happening but this is a lot to have to deal with on a day to day basis this kind of person because I'm not interested in messing around we talk I want honesty I want clarity no I don't want games and if you start shutting down and you know what you want to keep things secrets and the areas you don't

want to talk about we're already done honestly there's nobody that I've had on this planet that I could say well because this other area is so magnificent I'm gonna give in on it up and I'm not interested I have something in me has such conviction where there's no settling I say none I have moments where I have settled I've stayed in a relationship longer than I probably needed to but I felt right about doing it at least and if I if I was interviewed on a soul level and told you can go back and cut

that one four years earlier you know a certain relationship two years earlier but I can't say that I would do it because I know that what I did was trying to be good trying to be helpful in some way so my intentions were good even when I could tell you part of me says it was a little longer than I needed to that's hindsight at the time I knew that I was really trying to be helpful in a certain way so can you say to you know to my own spiritual self be true and that's what I've got to do now I've got to start having a absolutely

passionate loving exuberant relationship with myself I've got to start recognizing my value it really doesn't make sense to be with somebody just so you have somebody when you grow old because one of you is gonna still die before the other so you you know well I don't want to grow old alone I don't want to you're already alone even when you have somebody in your house if there's not connection well I don't want to die alone well there's a 50/50 shot at that you think that moving somebody in

guarantees it it doesn't it just doesn't do it I don't want to die alone you're already alone you're already scared as a counselor you know spiritual counseling my heart goes out to people certain individuals especially that struggle they suffer because they feel alone and so on and so on but I know there's bigger messages there's bigger lessons to all this and humans are looking at this one thing and missing the rest and it's easy to do on this human plane to forget the rest the bigger picture so

the idea is to create holy relationships how forgiveness and the the point about forgiveness please remember this I'm not telling you to enable other people with forgiveness real forgiveness nothing like it false forgiveness is worthless what's a form of false forgiveness well first of all flippantly saying you forgive people that you really haven't but here's another and it's really a tragic form of forgiveness being that it's a false form of forgiveness it's when you have a meditation at unity of Sedona and go oh

I feel so amazing I'm gonna call my dad right now guess what dad remember all those years of abusing me I'm over it I forget don't do that don't call predators and abusers from the past to tell them how excited you are now that you moved to Sedona now that you watch a workshop on forgiveness or something and you decided to forgive I wouldn't do that if I were you one thing it can do sometimes is enable the behavior oh you forgave me so I guess it's not so bad you're actually feeding or infusing

those behaviors potentially so what can you do just do it here goes but I'm so excited I want to tell them I forget I'm going to call my ex guess what I forgive you you know sometimes they're gonna hate you for forgiving them don't tempt others to lose even more of their consciousness if you've truly forgiven them you're already done why do you have to go tell them well I just thought they should know who thought do you think God and you thought that they must know if it's God God's already won

guarded God already told them if you're not sure then say God tell him and if you believe God answers prayers it's done be careful guys you can tempt other people to become more harmful or hurtful or continue their hurtfulness and your role as a victim if you keep forgiving them for hurtful behavior I feel good about forgiving whatever happens in my life but I'm very clear that I don't tell everybody that I have forgiven because I know that for their consciousness sometimes I can feel it sometimes they

need to know I better not do that again you see that that's a very healthy it's called boundary they can think that I'm still mad that's fine but I am letting them know on another level a boundary has been set so that they can go I probably shouldn't behave that way and they shouldn't do I hate him for it no forgiving them yes want to keep doing it no am I going to do it no I'm just clear and I love that because forgiveness really instills a sense of clarity if you still feel compelled to tell people

be careful you might have kind of a high from an experience you had inside of forgiveness that doesn't mean you're supposed to act on it just let the hi behind let it be so we're going to do an exercise on forgiveness since we just talked about forgiveness and remember the idea all of my relationships they need to be holy all my relationships not just my kids and cats my ex's past lives that I don't even remember childhood issues my greatest abusers I'm not enabling enabling them I'm achieving forgiveness

so that I'm released but remember some people will say I'm just doing this to release myself not them you can't if you truly want to be released yourself you can only wish for yourself that which your wish willing to wish for others you could do it for a while you could say I'm going to forgive myself but not them you can do it's better than nothing I guess but you will not attain true forgiveness if you're not willing to include everybody that needed forgiveness okay it's got to include

everybody including ourselves so let's take a few centering breaths take a moment and in your consciousness tense your feet your ankles your calves your legs tense them hips and then exhale and relax them the whole torso front back sides inhale tense them all exhale relax every muscle in the torso hands forearms or upper arms shoulders tense shake it off relax the body the neck the face and

let the face muscles relax let the mind relax let the emotions relax hmm now be aware of shifting your being into a place that's very sacred and very light a sacred temple this room your room wherever you are heaven whatever you perceive to be this beautiful sacred lit place listen to the music the notes in the background if you can hear them and let that just accentuate this beautiful sparkly celestial space of light

this is the room of potential all potentiality this is the room you can go to to co-create with God a new life this is the room called the room of forgiveness that can change any pattern in our life and being this is the place beyond soul contracts and karma this is where we rewrite it all and then we're going to recite half dozen or so comments really really hear it think it feel it say it you let it rest on all levels in the consciousness

be aware that all around us we're still in this light this room of sacredness and light were totally safe and protected but around us are all people we've ever dealt with in any way that we harmed or were harmed by you don't have to focus or zero in on anyone it's at all of them every lifetime whether they've hurt or harmed us physically emotionally mortally psychologically they're all around just be aware that they're there and you're safe and centered hear the words like they're coming from

your soul I stand in a holy space I stand in a holy state of mind I am part of God and I am very holy you can repeat this to yourself quietly or outloud those of you who are repeating it out loud or cut quietly repeat after me please I forgive what I know you did to me and similar things I have done to myself and others give that a moment don't assume you've never done anything like it let it come to mind what it might have been if nothing comes to mind doesn't matter we said it anyway you might not have done

anything literally the same but if something comes to mind it's in the same ballpark and just see the light that is you and the light of that room just blessing just shining towards that person releasing them repeat after me I forgive what I believed you did to me and similar things I have done to myself and others sit with that for a moment I changed the word from what I know you did to what I believed you did overall is the same sentence the same concept but it's what I believed

let it come to mind whatever they may have done also what we've done somewhat similar to ourselves or others I forgive what I thought you did to me and similar things I have done to myself and others what I thought you did to me and just see that the same as the others whatever whomever wherever it comes to mind let them or it come to mind the light that I am just shines and disperses it melts it away not only what you did to me seemingly but also what I've done to myself or others coming and going healing forgiveness

I forgive what I felt you did to me and similar things I have done to myself and others now it's what I felt you did and what I felt I did I forgive what you seemed to do to me and similar things I have done to myself and others

now the focus is on what seems to have been the experience itself forgiveness for them dispersing it all with light forgiving ourselves and others be aware that huge portions of the groups of people surrounding us have now dissipated and then repeat and I forgive everyone else everything else and I release you and imagine that all remaining people

beings memories experiences are gently fading as your light expands from the room you were and we're in it expands infinitely shining out dispersing it all gently consistently out and out and there's a beautifully crucial piece that we just accomplished it means that those people that used to surround my room keeping my light narrowed into one pocket of beauty and safety by my doing healing and forgiveness with them all can you notice that your light expanded the room expanded which means as far as you know the presence of God to you has

now expanded so even the people that were once hurtful challenging just helped you to expand the presence of God the presence of heaven [Music] and with that in mind the last thing is just to feel the gratitude God has for what we've just accomplished you've just forgiven my children who forgot who they are in so doing you give them a chance to restore themselves you give them a chance to open up to allowing me to help them restore your being a light worker I don't want you to get hurt but if and when it happens I

want you to do spiritual due diligence to change the experience somehow you are my beloved child in whom I am well pleased and then gently relax and stretch out again [Music] how's everyone good