Acceptance Versus Resistance
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all righty let's see no pen tell me uh a couple of uh topics you'd like to cover today oh thank you what is the last one mental what was the one before that acceptance acceptance about the difference between no difference between the dark knight of the soul and going through life's tests and grading them well you know uh here you go thank you you know the dark knight of the soul is
is basically like uh a concentrated version of life's tests a lot of people don't understand this for some reason we're made in god's image that cannot change it's impossible to change god didn't say i'm going to make some of you in my image or i'm going to make you partially my it's it's a perfect image of god and then we sit here and we look in the mirror and go i don't man i'm not looking like a perfect image of god because we age and we get sick and we do this and that
it it's the light in us that's the perfect image of god a tree a leaf it isn't the perfect of image of god that can die or get a diseased tree it's there's a light behind the tree there's a light behind every particle in this universe it's the light that is god right it's not the form that which can change or fade or die or whatever god is changeless and so people struggle to understand these concepts so we're here remembering we're not learning we're remembering that's one thing i really like as a t as
a teacher is that a lot of teachers are authors they they feel good about themselves based on writing or teaching something that makes people go wow i i never knew that i never heard of that because they you know there's a high you get because you think you're bestowing new knowledge on people it doesn't feel flattering when you hear people go you know i feel like i knew that but that is a great teacher see it is because you're not flattering yourself or anyone else everybody's on the same page
it doesn't mean they remembered it two minutes ago or two hours ago but there's something familiar there's supposed to be something familiar about god you know it shouldn't be like really god that's a new concept it's supposed to be really like a child be as children to enter the kingdom of heaven that's what it's supposed to be like like wow that makes total sense but i've always noticed it because people will say that and i know that a lot of typical teachers they that's
not flattering to them you know and i'm not putting them down they do whatever they do but i i tuned into that many many years ago and i thought well that's that's just i understand why they go wow i get it there's a familiar energy sometimes they project the familiar on to me personally you know i feel like i know you it's the light that you know the person doesn't exist it's a hologram you know it's a hologram of you if you don't like me i'm a hologram of your wicked self
if you like me i'm a hologram of your spiritual self you're the one that decides that the day will come where everybody's a hologram of our spiritual self and that's what heaven on earth means people think heaven on earth means that things will go your way and then you won't have to deal with crappy people that's that's not what heaven on earth means everybody's democrat everybody's republican you know or whatever you think it's not what it means at all it's heaven on
earth means i have released every opinion and judgment on everyone see it's just like how peaceful is that well you know what they're doing i i don't actually well they're doing wicked things we'll forgive them they know not what they do and when they do know what they do glory glory glory glory right beautiful praise for the things that are god and prayer for the things that are not so you know in our lives you guys are asking things like the dark night of the soul in our lives it's a remembrance
so everything that we experience on earth is really really a test and this is very important it's a test now there's also things that are mirrors or demonstrations of tests that you've passed but everything's related to tests either tests you've passed which is when you have a good moment you can't just have a good moment some people you know they pray and they think god's doling out miracles you know that's santa claus god god doesn't go you know i found you favorable today but not yesterday
that's not how this works you know it's it's constant consistent unchangeable love that god has for us because we are it you know so the tests are us remembering and so when we have experiences in life things that have gone well are mirroring to us tests that we've passed it's not when god decided you deserve a miracle it's you did well thank you god for the miracle is actually transference you get what i just said that's transference now god's liking whatever you know i don't mind a little
transference it's okay if you're a counselor and you know that you see a little transference oh man i can't i can't change my life without you or in your 12-step program can't change my life without my sponsor my program a little transference is okay just don't let it get out of hand with god or anyone else but the truth is it's transference to say god gave me a miracle today there's nothing wrong with saying it it's just not purely accurate god did not decide you deserve a miracle
today god said wow look at you you passed a test i think something's going to be coming to you soon automatically you know because you changed consciousness you see if you're the same person you were yesterday and you didn't get a miracle yesterday you're probably not getting one today it's not because you've done your time it's not how miracles work miracles are related to consciousness shifting i shifted here and now life will mirror my new state of consciousness so miracles are reflections of our new state of
consciousness is that making sense yeah and this isn't dissing miracles or god or anything it's just that everything in life mirrors our consciousness everything is about that that consciousness everything is reflecting where we're at now that sounds terrible to some because some people go i just lost a loved one you're telling me i created no i'm i'm not trying to add guilt to people's minds but that's why jesus pointed out you when you seek you know you've heard seek and ye shall find what he actually said
and you'll find in the gospel of thomas seek and you will become disturbed and then you will find but he kind of warns you first you know like seek and ye shall find that was the positive thinking kind of apostles that wrote that one thomas is like oh dude there's the stuff you guys got to know about man seek and you will go to hell in a hand basket you know seek because what it means jesus is saying there is when you seek you will find all that is unlike god and when you do that you will then find that which is a reflection of god
but you got to look at what isn't god first course in miracles tells you this book isn't going to teach you anything it can't you can't be taught your divinity it's what you are that's what it's saying but it says we do have to unteach you we can't teach you what you are that's your remembrance but we do have to unteach you we have to peel off pieces and layers that you have stuck into place so that's kind of cool because some teachers and teachings oh no no no let's
just emphasize the positive which is fine if that's the kind of denial you want to live it um you know whatever but jesus's way of saying that is you know inside you're dead and you're polishing the tombstone nice great job you know look at you polished marble you're still dead inside and that's what he means by that seek and you shall find but seek and you shall find yourself disturbed because you're going to find the death inside the parts of you that have not forgiven the parts that of yourself that have not
been redeemed or clarified yet the parts that still judge yourself and you say well i'm not at all a judgmental person okay fine all right so if you're one online around the world here in person and you say i'm not a judgmental person look at me and name one characteristic about me color of hair whatever it is and you just judged me not judgment in a harsh sense you think that your opinion of me is accurate and you're wrong opinions cannot be correct because they're yours you can only be correct when you're one
with the all not your opinion but the truth and the truth is very different than my opinions my opinions are just these ridiculous little things these knobs that we turn up and down and alter here and who cares about those it's very empowering to realize that not one opinion you've ever had is accurate it's really empowering at first you will be disturbed to hear that you know i was watching this new thought guy you know and he was telling me that i'm a you know nothing i've ever thought is accurate and true i thought he was going
to tell me i'm wonderful you're not the ego self is not wonderful at all the divine self doesn't need me to tell it it's wonderful my words of how wonderful you really are would only fall short because they're filled with opinions why do i think you're wonderful well because you you attend regularly or because you tither because you dress well or those are still opinions your perfection is is held perfectly held forever until the remembrance that's you know that's why jesus is so often
has been quoted as saying things like that you know it kind of like in my father's house or many mansions comments like that there's your remembrance of who you are that the truth of who you are is being held for you and that means for you to peel layers layers layers layers until you get to it but it's held it's not a deserve ability it's not because you're this religion or that religion or no religion it's it's consciousness i've said many times you don't go to heaven you grow to heaven
it's you're either there or you're not it's the consciousness so you know people try so hard to to become better there's nothing wrong with improving your life there's two primary ways you know change what you can accept what you can't and of course pray to know the difference but change what you can there's nothing wrong with that but when you do change what you can don't change because i told you what's wrong with you and i'm telling you how to change it don't change because you think you know
what's wrong with you opinions once again now what you can do is co-create with god empty your cup of your opinions and then refill it that's how you change what you can empty your cup and refill the cup not you refilling it but co-creating it with god this is the way i used to think of myself and you know i don't think that's true anymore there's nothing wrong with saying i'm a single mom but it is a title and it is a label and it's not who you are but just know that know the truth but respect the illusion
the truth is i'm a divine being respect the illusion i seem to be a single mom right or whatever the title is i seem to have been dealing with addiction just remember the word seems to seem i seem to be i seem to have gone through this or this don't identify with it because you're wrong you cannot be accurate with any label you give yourself even if i as in some buddhist meditation techniques even if i say okay i'm going to get rid of all labels i'm a holy child of god you just it's another label
because who's the one that's deciding that me oh not good because that's the one that'll wake up tomorrow in a bad mood and then judge itself for being in a bad mood when you're so holy i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know that's a great affirmation it doesn't sound like one you know in the new thought community it's supposed to be i know all we're in trouble every politician thinks they know all and they have no clue every doctor that's why they call it
practicing medicine because they haven't gotten it right yet practice right practicing law go to a lawyer hi i'd like to hire you because you're practicing law oh that doesn't sound good hi you're a surgeon would you like to practice on me who would do that you asked about self-love and and mental health one of you asked about guys don't identify with it but if you if you struggle with let's pretend for a moment bipolar disorder there's nothing wrong with you accepting the illusion
accept it acceptance is empowering resistance is not so we're going to call today acceptance versus resistance you think that fighting something off is actually how you get somewhere resist not evil acceptance acceptance it's okay you know to just drop into acceptance g you know god rests on the seventh day let it go like now let's let what i've done go into motion and let it go let let it be see so you you put things into motion you change what you can but there's a time where you have to accept what you
can so you say well my my doctor and everybody around me says i'm bipolar been divorced 15 times because i can't seem to control my moods take some meds man well no i i heard that's an illusion so is your opinion that you don't need meds in the illusion you feel like you need them i'm not telling you what's right or wrong per se acceptance you know because and i've known people they take their meds they work on themselves and then one day comes that they don't need the meds that's called
healing you're not healing by pretending you don't need them that's not how this works drop in drop in if your checkbook says minus one thousand dollars you can't go to the bank and say well it's just an illusion you know what it is it's a drag to be a thousand down but what i can do is see that as a symbol of my lessons my tests and every so often in a person's life all the little bits of tests that you didn't quite pass they're accumulating a little bit of romance lesson a little
bit of self-worth lesson a little bit of this and it all accumulates and then on your specific day it all comes back to you and it's called the dark night of the soul when all the lessons come come you know washing in it's this wonderful tsunami of hell you know and that's why in in the dark night of the soul it's why everything seems to go wrong and humans you know humans look at them man it's just why why god god's like no oblige i i have nothing to do with this why god why could you let how did you
allow me to you know and god's like you know whatever these are your lessons and you know you'll get there don't worry oh lord god the more you do that the more you're projecting stuff onto god and then you can't heal as quickly it's better for you to accept yeah but but but i'm a spiritual teacher or i've been a good mom look at all i've done raised my children on my own had to get three jobs none of that will erase the dark night of the soul because the dark night of the soul isn't
there to invalidate how hard you've worked on yourself it's there to bring up the pride you have in having worked on yourself you think you're wonderful because you you went and got three jobs to raise the kids all by yourself and you think that's what makes you wonderful so we're going to go ahead and remove some of that we're going to make the kids all become crazy you know just total addicts and they won't talk to you anymore how could they do that to me because you think that you
on your own became a good parent because of you it's only because of your divinity remember your divinity and it will keep the dark knight away and that's the only way to do it any little prideful moments look at me look at me i'm so spiritual all that's coming back at you man any amount of pride any amount of having not learned lessons and you can say but i'm spiritual i i the dark knight shouldn't come if you're spiritual you will practice acceptance not denial not resistance it's very challenging for us to accept
that you know this stuff comes and you you'll you'll you know well i'm gonna uh oh oh i've got some challenges let me get my little book out you know i'm gonna decree this is not happening you know well okay so let's go out to the parking lot if you're into that sort of you know thing that you think your decrees are going to override everything let's go to the parking lot i'm going to pull my car up and plant it on your foot and then you do some decrees and let's see how
you do with that uh mighty saint germain purple flame archangel michael's purple light a sword and this is not happening it's not going to help it's not now change what you can don't let me park my car on your foot but if it's too late you know what it hurts cry scream tell the person move your car back please it's okay to take care of it really is okay to take care of these things whatever they may be but if you find yourself resisting i shouldn't have to go through a divorce i wrote 15 books on
romance i mean i've had clients some of them have written the the greatest sellers on intimacy romance how to find the love you want and and they're just still miserable they come to me for counseling my my my partner the co-author of my book they cheated on me of course they did because this is a this is this world this world will constantly bring up tests to make you doubt your divinity that's the only purpose that the ego has for that matter make you doubt your divinity however it's going to do that
how could whatever a cavity hair loss aging kids that go wild you know what it's wherever you most pride yourself especially pride cometh before a fall if you want to know what what's going to fall apart in your life tomorrow look at whatever you proud of today and i'm talking about pride not righteous pride you know like i'm proud of of getting my life together let's say talking about righteous you know the uh the ego based pride self-righteousness in a negative sense you're holy not because of what you've
done you've holy because that's how you were created let me remember that let me remember that acceptance it doesn't always look good it doesn't always feel good you could say oh i'm sick and i'm i'm dying and the doctors said i'm going to die but that can't be i'm praying graveyards are filled with dead people not non-prayers okay they're it's it doesn't work that way god doesn't say oh you're praying so you won't die now if they if that could happen they would
bottle it and sell it that's not how this works your job is to be peeling off the layers of the false of who you think you are to really who you are who we are peeling off the layers whatever the layers may be if i don't know what the layers are not a problem the universe is going to help me figure it out whatever stuff is coming up is a layer you could try and go no this this one's not my lair it's somebody else's i think the stork dropped this one off at the wrong house it doesn't it's not even possible
whatever's happening is for me do not judge people because they have prosperity issues you know it doesn't matter you have a splinter in your finger it's all painful and it is not god's will that you have a splinter or prosperity issues it is righteous to affirm god's will in our lives it is righteous but or is it because you're begging to get out of pain see that is an important lesson once again we have with jesus jesus in the garden of gethsemane has that moment where you hear him saying basically if it were
my will let this be done but i don't want my will he's talking about the individual ego self he's telling you what you and i would be doing he's demonstrating for you and i that's what he's doing he's he he knows people are going to read about this later so he goes through it if it were up to me which which is translated from aramaic as just saying just saying you know god i know that we're about to be arrested beat up and murdered painfully the romans didn't say you know listen
beloveds we're going to make this as painless as possible the romans studied how to create painful deaths they studied it and crucifixion was the longest lasting painful death and it wasn't one thing i mean you just think i don't know spikes through the wrists are going to be a bit painful let's put them through the feet too but you'll hang from your arms which will pull out of their sockets and constrict your chest cavity and you'll suffocate slowly because you'll stand on the spikes that are in your feet which is
painful so you're going to go ow ow ow it's it's like sorry i don't mean that to be irreverent but you know it's like nothing but painful ow can't breathe oh you know just on and on and on painful they studied this to make sure you suffer it's intense he knows i mean you have to admit jesus is at least a little psychic he kind of knows what's coming he didn't go you know the romans arrested me but i'm i'm thinking that they're gonna go you know we kind of like you
we're just gonna you know let you off the hook everything's fine no everything went wrong everything pilot pilate tried to let him off the hook pilate tried to talk everybody out of it do you know you know that right and by the way why did he do that because his wife had been given miracles from jesus and she said this is the man who performed a miracle for one of our family members this man is holy pilate do not have anything to do with this crucifixion and pilate succumbs to what the world his reputation as a good mommy
as a good daddy as a procurator and so on you and i have pride on our our labels and it's not always easy to let them go you drop all the masks you drop them what religion what gender i i don't know you know who's able to do that it becomes confusing to people if you don't hold a label you know oh are you one of us are you one of them are you the you know and if you say i i whatever i don't do any of that then both are gonna hate you it's really hard to just be as god created us to be the world is designed
to ruin that to not let you be who you really are i mean that's it to really just to thrive to to be who you are holy children of god think about it you could have kids that say you didn't raise us perfectly well you know what kids but i decided to let that go oh oh well we're not and and if you don't live in the guilt that they give you then they'll say something's wrong with you right parents you know all the different kinds of labels and you and i are being encouraged to say i don't know i don't know i don't
know and that's a healthy thing it's layers peeling i don't know you know who are you are you gay or straight i don't know i'm not even sure i'm from this planet you know like right you know people aren't going to really get that what are you going to put on your on your driver's test male female or alien you know what do you what do you how do you fill out paperwork you know a social security card i don't really need one of those you can just pay me for what i do work wise oh no you gotta have a social
security who said and why none of it makes sense to spirit but you are asked to play the game guys you and i are asked to do something that's next to impossible which is know the truth of who you are and yet play the game it's okay play the game if you're you have mental illness seemingly then take this seeming meds for it but work on yourself and the day will come where you may not need them see that's perfect acceptance there's no judgment you'll be tempted to judge i'm kind of frustrated that i deal with this bipolar
thing you'll be tempted to judge just come back to resting in god the truth the truth is i'm fine the truth is i am creative and yet rational logical i'm assertive yet passive i am anything i need to be at any given moment that's the truth of who i am i can just chameleon you know i can just morph to be what i need to be because i'm all i'm part of god and i am very holy it's not you know it's not something that's easy for for people to wrap their mind around but it's the truth of who we
are you know be able to look at each other and encourage it in each other that you know it's okay somebody acts out you see it on the news it's okay somehow they're still holy children of god i don't have to totally remember that they're holy children of god but i do want to affirm it i will affirm just like i'll take meds until i don't need it anymore affirmations are just verbal meds they're just to help me for now you will not be in heaven going these people really are holy you know oh my god
they really are despite the way they behave you know it's not the way it goes they really are and then you just get it you really are and then the meds are not necessary everything in its time everything in its time your job my job is to be at peace why because to be at peace is to be one with god see it's the same it's synonymous so my job is they park their car on my foot it hurts let me deal with that but at the same time how can i maintain as much oneness with god as possible despite that despite my addiction how can i
maintain my oneness with god see that's almost impossible i'm not saying it's impossible i'm saying it's almost only almost because we're not used to it we haven't learned to believe it if everybody were to leave this hour with knowing the truth of who we are doesn't mean perfectly knowing but choosing to remember that that's who we are everything changes guys because if you're going to say or claim that you're affirming who you really are you're also accepting that there's a
part of you that's not totally there yet and that's okay see how see how unconditional and loving and patient that is yeah yeah there's that yeah that's right it's okay um you know that this is yogananda did it majorly painful leg injury he had that nobody knows about because you know he'd sit in pain but when it's time to come out and teach he comes out and he teaches and the pain was overridden because he's in the in the in the zone but afterwards he's in pain again now if yogananda would have totally
condemned himself for that we wouldn't be talking about yogananda we'd be saying oh there's this one hypocritical guy honestly half our job is to know the truth but half is to accept that we're in this world it's okay man take your vitamins it's okay to take your meds it's okay to go to the gym if that's what whatever you just accept that that's your belief system but it's a belief there's a difference between knowing certainty knowing and believing listen to the word believing still
implies that there's possibly an opinion you get what i just said there absolute knowing and believing see do you believe in santa claus well yeah yes no you know knowing means boom an absolute oneness with god knowing with god it's beautiful but our job for now is not to condemn ourselves when we don't always live as though we know see it's okay i could do a talk and say you know know who you are know who you are know you and just really push that and positive think that into everybody but i have to say you know but there's
times you won't and when you when you blow it just who cares who cares just you know enjoy it cling to christ and sin boldly that's martin luther cling to christ and sin boldly isn't that great it's like wow one time i i was on tour i went to uh many many many times to australia and one of the times i went it was interesting because i i got there i arrived and then i would be teaching the next day and and before i was teaching i i thought well i'm going to go try to find something to eat today uh so i go where you should go which is
a bakery uh so i go looking for a bakery or whatever and i find a bakery and i get a couple of you know cream-filled things um so it's lunchtime right and and yet i'm noticing like people are kind of looking me at me oddly which happens a lot because i look odd but people i'm just noticing and i'm thinking is it because they can sense american is it is it my hair like you know like a long hair you know what i wonder i mean honestly i was like this is kind of weird well i did a talk that night and uh beforehand this this uh priest
or minister of a church uh asks if he could meet with me for a few minutes before and i said well of course so whatever he was lutheran i think but uh he meets with me and he says you know how's it been how you've been feeling about everything here i'm like what do you mean oh oh didn't you know there's been quite the buzz about you i'm like well why what what he goes oh no no you're in all the newspapers there are people that are trying to crucify you saying you're you're some
new age guru of some kind coming to change people and you know there's the traditional religions and they're all getting together and having meetings town hall meetings about me what can they do about this force this person and i'm like what like this is like weird so so he shows me like one of the newspaper articles oh you know watch out to news and satan and the christian whatever garbage all through this article and this guy wrote an editorial response and he said i only want to ask this this is what
this minister priest or whatever he was said have any of you ever met him case closed it was amazing i'm like well yeah there you go forming opinions based on somebody said and on and on it's just ridiculous now the sad thing is our families and other people do that to us and we actually take the bait it's a test this isn't a a opportunity for you to just slam your family members or your partners or your children whoever talks bad about you this is a test honestly listen to this this is spirit saying
do you believe that when you react you've actually confirmed that you believe on some level what they're saying it doesn't mean you're literally taking the full bait and going i totally believe that i'm some bad person but it means you have doubts in your belief systems and when you see it forgive them they know not what they do attitude you'll know it's different but if you pretend to get it oh this doesn't bother me at all that's that's not real you know and i understand because you're trying to not
let it bother you it just doesn't help it's better for you to accept man that kind of hurt you know like wow good one good one guides spirit helpers you threw that one in under the radar didn't you wow i thought i was just touring you know and people like you when you're touring usually they don't usually buy a ticket and go i hate you i hate you know it it's kind of you know although it's it's happened a couple times but the weirdest thing i was in in a place that's a little more
traditional on tour texas um what and and i was talking about god not being judgmental and so on and people were like well this was like a novel concept for somebody people are like wow and you can just tell heartwarming god's not hating us god's not judgmental that's great this one gal got up the back of the room to leave the whole movement from one end of the room to the other to the door she was flipping me off nobody else could see her because she's behind him she's just you know and it's
like wow that's wonderful you know is that a yoga mudra of some kind you know han mudra you know you know it is what it is oh but this means texans are a certain way no this means women or no young people because she was younger probably you know 30 or so it doesn't mean anything that other than what i make it mean so do i believe that do i believe that i'm a hypocrite it doesn't mean you are it's a test if you get mad at the test coming that doesn't say great things you get depressed about it you're going
to sometimes get depressed you're going to sometimes get angry accept it accept it it's okay i'm sorry that it's happening breathe and let's look at ourselves see what we can learn and move forward when jesus said forgive them they know not what they do he didn't tell you what they were doing was wrong he was teaching us people are going to do think say crazy things your job is to try to see it differently what can you learn from that experience you could say i learned to hold my center better i learned not to shout at
someone that does i learn whatever now if you learned from it you already started transmuting it if you don't learn from it it's their fault no you had every right and every possibility here to go i wonder what i can learn from that well i can't learn things from terrible things someone murdered my whole family what am i supposed to learn from that lock my doors at night well you're being upset and you're triggered it doesn't mean you have to come up with logical kind of uh intellectual ahas
it could mean the deepest things you can't even imagine right now it means it could mean i need to learn to love people like my family whether they're alive or not i need to love unconditionally oh and maybe i need to love the person who killed them oh i'm not going to do that lesson not learned dark night of the soul get ready that's all it comes down to we're just remembering and it's beautiful we're remembering this is beyond words we're remembering our divinity it might take some time
you know i i you know this is an essential law of the universe to understand this that how how the creation process works know the truth respect the illusion lots of people know the spiritual law called preach the truth tell everybody the truth lowercase t usually that's everybody's got that one down do you have down to know the truth but respect the illusion guys do what you can you know do your prayers and you see someone else who doesn't pray at all pray for them then do it for them you're one with them no i'm not i'm a
prayer and they're not so now you've separated divided we fall see it doesn't matter all consciousness is right here all consciousness so somebody's going to do their tradition someone else is going to do their tradition it's all the same we're all just trying to remember something wonderful called god so you do it in one tradition or another how do you wrong people and those those who wrong people for diet you know oh you shouldn't eat meats really tell that to the ancient and modern native americans
oh they're sinners they should be vegetarians that's the new religion you know or breath aryans or whatever you are you know so that's the new religion you you don't be condemning people they shouldn't pray with their forehead to the ground they shouldn't do they shouldn't do they should do it in a different language none of it matters it's just i'm either emptying my cup or refilling my cup and if my attempt to refill my cup is just simply to refill it with more garbage then i'm still the same person and i'm
not getting it and universe the life will bring me those tests it's just everything's reflecting ourselves everything's reflecting our belief systems or our knowing when things start feeling better not feeling better meaning excitement feeling better as in peace love joy feeling really truly feeling better on a heart and soul level then you'll know that you started passing more tests and if it doesn't feel better you're not complain to god about it no just change change what you can and you can change
almost anything before you need to accept what you can't but when it's time to accept then do it it's okay that minister is the one who in his article about me you know said remember everyone you think he's this and he teaches that and just and he quoted martin luther cling to christ and sin boldly like even if this guy is doing something you don't believe in or you don't like so what just come out and say here i am see it's like it's okay acceptance a couple weeks ago i ended up with covid you know that was
fun um i don't know how much was covered i tested positive for a few days and then it wasn't tested it didn't test positive anymore but it was covered in pneumonia as they're calling it so what a blast so you know uh it's it's it's acceptance now i could say i've never missed a class a workshop a sunday ever in my life and i've been doing this a long time so i had to sit first and accept i'm going to miss my first sunday that felt a little bit like a bummer but i also was just kind of accepting it
it's oh am i going to put pride in that because then that's going to hurt me right no i shall not you know and i know i won't even drive a walk to prove you know you just you drop into acceptance i dropped into you know some folks stopping by here and there to do things and take care of things and you know the pneumonia thing man it's just you can't breathe and it's it's just pretty wicked but there was this moment i'll tell you a couple quick things there was this one moment that i did
share on one that i haven't shared there was this moment where um i thought you know well uh you know you have all these different sensations and i didn't have some of the coveted sim symptoms except that one um but i had you know some and i definitely pneumonia man and so you know you can barely breathe and you know you're only partially alive you know and and i thought this is when it was kind of first happening um and these guys you know they're very supportive a few of you decided to you know show up and you know decided i
needed the emergency room and then the emergency room decided i need the hospital but i got out of that so so let me explain so so before this actually all went to hell i thought you know i gotta go sit in my hot tub which is great because that just adds to the lightheadedness so i mean i'm feeling all these intense things you know um and i sat in the hot tub and it was fine it's like oh that kind of relaxing you know and there's aches you know in my back i have an injury in my back so that was aching really a lot so it's like oh
it feels kind of nice so i i get out just about then someone calls they said how are you doing today you know are you doing this and this and your regimen and i'm like well i'm supposed to be on oxygen at this point and i'm like well the oxygen's in the house and i'm i'm outside so i i don't have oxygen and and i'm just in the hot tub they're like you are not in the hot yes i'm not and you know i'm thinking but uh you know it's cool shut the hot tub lid and then
whoa and i'm going hold on man i'm i'm i think i stood up too fast you know and they're like no oh you know so i said i got to go and they're like well are you feeling this i got to go now i never had like flu and i've never had nausea you know people throw up and all that and i started feeling that and so there was this moment of of like just no no kidding just collapsing to my knees and then down in the bark of my yard kind of oh my god like i'm sick i'm going to start vomiting
you know thanks for joining us today by the way all around the world so i'm gonna start vomiting now now there was a part of me i'm not kidding there was a part that said really you're gonna add vomiting to everything else i'm feeling i mean and then you know there's a part do you know how long i've been teaching you know i've been doing a lot of good man on this planet you you're gonna try to bargain don't don't don't don't the prayer in the garden of gethsemane
is not get me out of this the prayer is be with me while i go through this so there i was and and and i'm only dry heaving which is really great so i'm dry heaving with you know you know i'm shaking and i got these children and and you know dry heaving you know so all these things are happening at once and i'm alone in my garden i thought all you have to do is spread the bark drop me in and cover me this is where they're going to find me right so it's just certainly the plants will grow a lot
better and so so it was really weird but i swear to you i still had to i got to choose oops i was starting to say help meaning get me out of this no be with me while i go through this it's the second time in my life that i had something that intense where i just said you know be with me well and it faded and it was gone it's probably two minutes now please remember acceptance be with me while i go through this the ego is gonna say get me out of this why because it doesn't want you to learn and heal it wants you to stay miserable and have
the symptoms pass so they can come back again later be with me while i go through this prosperity issue poverty issue divorce instead of help me defeat everybody help me win help me stop be with me while i go through this that changes your consciousness more than your circumstances but when you change your consciousness it'll change your circumstances you change your beliefs but one of the empowering pieces is called acceptance well no acceptance means i'm going to accept failure now i can't change anything no acceptance
this seems to be this seems to be be with me show me differently and if you're still dry heaving or you're vomiting or whatever you're changing your consciousness even though you don't think you are you're changing your consciousness the world's going to say no you're not look but you change what you can and accept what you can't and it faded now now one quick lesson related to that while i was there i'm going you know you try these things you know like why what why would this why add one
more thing what's going on you know you you try that because that's your head trying to plant a label on why it's happening so that you don't accept it you understand what i just said there if i get to label it i'm still in control acceptance means i don't know which is empowering but it feels humiliating so i stopped for a second and and i was kind of you know praying and talking and sharing and like wow why and what and it's not like god parted the clouds and said beloved michael you are so damn close to ascending
that that we just needed to purge away one little extra physicality and you're coming home man you're just my beloved son in whom i am well pleased i didn't hear that what i heard and i'm not kidding don't take a bunch of pills without food that's what happened see sometimes that's the guidance you get dumbass you're supposed to eat food with all those i took a handful see okay that should help go sit in hot tub and he just worked me over and i got out and i'm like got him i'm like
clammy and cold you know it shouldn't be the sensation after a hot tub it is when you do a bunch of pills every kind of god every kind of thing they give you you know uh i don't remember the names all these different things and nutrients you know oh yeah food oh yeah so you know you could summarize that lesson get in your body listen pay attention you know instead of going you know just come on ground yourself practical practical lesson you see it's beautiful but one last one i'll share before we're done
this one i hadn't told anybody but one of you knows about it so this this gives you a clue into the inner workings of michael's brain okay i swear this happened so i go to this emergency room and then i hear the doctor you know the nurse well what what's how oh he's definitely we got to get an ambulance he's got to get to the hospital uh okay you know and i hear them talking and i'm thinking okay i haven't eaten yet today and they they wouldn't even give me water and i was very dehydrated so i'm
like man i'm thirsty and i haven't eaten yet and they want me to go to cottonwood i don't usually go to cottonwood you know but there's a hospital that they want to transfer me to over there and i'm like okay so i swear that this happened um so the doctor comes in you know and and one of our own attendees here is a physician he stopped by and it was amazing because he's such a mellow sweet person and and he shows up with this cane you know he he's kind of like looking like like a lord of the rings you know
wizard he's got this cane and his hairs everywhere and you know he's more like rhodogast or whatever the the the brown you know the one wizard he shows up all eccentric looking and the the nurse comes in um mr my dad there's uh someone here who claims to be a doctor and um and by the way if you're watching hello um not the nurse but the doctor so uh he claims to be a doctor i said yeah she goes is he like a shaman and i'm you know i'm like i mean she's wanting to have a conversation you know and she goes you
know because this is sedona like is he like a shaman he comes in with his you know crystal walking stick and things carved into it and whatever you know so i just said yeah he's actually a doctor you know so he shows up and and unfortunately he was hearing some of the conversations so they're telling him this is pretty serious and and then the doctor's going you know we're calling an ambulance we got to get you to the hospital and i go um do i do i have to um go any this doctor from here looks you will do what the doctor tells you to
do and i'm like i'm suffering man you know be nice to me so so here's what happens the way my mind works the doc or our doctor leaves the room and i'm like oh score okay so now i can work the other doctor i said now what's the main issue you know well your oxygen level is like heart attack levels so so we have to get get me an oxygen tank and then i can go home and i'll just be on oxygen there are none anywhere in the state of arizona we have a waiting list there are none and i go all right
if i can manifest one will you let me go home and now they're having conversations and debates and then the other doctor comes back in you're trying no you need to go you know the hospital and i said oh i'm totally willing to go to the hospital you know you know but but i said this um so so it's it's life is in the balance the decision has to be made and i said i swear to god i said this all right i'll go to the hospital one condition can i tip the ambulance driver to drive me through jack-in-the-box to
get some seasoned curly fries i swear to god i swear to god i swear and the doctor said no no i don't believe that can happen and that's when i made up my mind i'm going home um and i have to say god bless and thank you to all the caregivers that stopped by not once did they rebel against my you know they would bring me pizza all the greatest things for pneumonia they would go here's the pizza with extra extra cheese you know never did they question it i lived off mostly cookies and pizza and that's the
way it is um and i and i thought there's this moment where they're like you have to have veggies well they know i'm not gonna eat veggies bless you so they think let's give him green drink and all i could hear in that voice of of the guy that did the songs in the grinch who stole christmas i would hear this song like voice intravenous greens i see you know it was like they're gonna they're gonna try to find a way so i told one of our caregivers don't let them do anything that you know
i don't want to do don't no greens no hospital no you know now that said the moral of the story i did accept 90 something percent of what they told me to do you know i stayed down oxygen and 90 something percent of the time some people are going oh man you know he's a teacher he must be hard to get to no guys you you go with it 90-something percent that's pretty good so if you need to wear masks wear masks if you need vaccinations or whatever else do what you wear your belief systems honor what you believe don't judge other
people for not doing what you think you should do live and let live be at peace about other people can you believe they're wearing and not wearing and you know i mean we've been doing this for a couple years hundreds of people i'm around if you don't wear a mask or if you don't get vaccinated if you don't this and that the other and you're around hundreds of people every week and you get covered accept it don't go how could this be happening to me really do you need somebody to explain the
biology i mean really it's it's okay and if you get code or the flu or bronchitis or pneumonia or whatever it is what it is i accepted i told one of the caregivers look if this goes south man tell everyone i'm sorry you know for this and that and the other and and uh and and shared a few you know tell love everyone and you know that's it just it's acceptance something is going to kill you on this planet when you go are you at peace with yourself are you still thinking you should have lived forever are you still thinking you
should have never gotten sick are you still thinking you shouldn't have gotten cancer because you don't smoke whatever your little rules are stop something's going to be your escort out your cab your uber driver something's going to be the vehicle you're not bad for getting sick nothing can change your holiness child senior citizen stuff is going to happen and i'm sorry that it does it's this world testing you trying to make you doubt holiness someone will die because it's testing you
if you believe in holiness there's no such thing as death your job is to laugh at it and go isn't that isn't that funny i have read three 000 books on reality and illusion and i'm still triggered by someone dying you'll know that you're holy when you can laugh at that instead of how could this be happening the books told me a course in miracles tells you this whole thing's an illusion but it still tells you take an aspirin when you have a headache guys how much more unconditional can god be
than to say to you you're holy nothing can ever change that be at peace you mean you mean when we're always holy and feeling our light aura is bursting and we're doing merkaba meditations and no when you're dry heaving in your garden it's it's you know laugh at it a bit it's isn't it silly isn't it silly that that you humans you know like you're holy and yet you drank too much last night you're bent over porcelain toilet how could this get any more humiliating a toilet
you're you're on your knees in front of the toilet more than you ever have been on an altar i mean at some point can you go this must look weird to angels oh god god help me i look someone's praying let's fly down and see who it is oh oh don't look don't look don't look man vodka's coming out now there it's okay angels look at us and just go wow they're just like wow you know how much longer do you do you want to do this never again never again will i drink hey man we're part of you today i'll be
there i'll be there i'll be there you know it's it's just all so laughable and silly was i laughing the whole time that i felt this and that no man no but i i kept affirming the truth this is how i feel when you're mad at someone oh i shouldn't be mad i'm spiritual guys it's how i feel thank you it's how i feel right now do i am i determined to hate you absolutely not but is it how i feel yes i'm i'm really angry talk to me about that says spirit oh you you you don't want to know i want
to know everything get it out of your system oh but but i'm thinking hate hey i'm not just annoyed i'm hating someone right now and if you get covered you're going to start going who gave that to me man who was it someone got too close stop stop it just stop you're just being tempted to judge again everything is a test you will not pass your test by your own means of perfection you pass your test by accepting your perfection through your innocence your holiness not man-made perfections it doesn't work that
way thank you please take a few centering breaths you're welcome meditate these words i need do nothing i need do nothing i'm already there i'm already holy god help me to forgive myself for all that i think is wrong with me and all that i think i need to do to make it better no amount of my attempts to become holy will make me holy i already am when jesus said
i am the lamb the innocent that needs crucified what he was saying is not the lamb it was i am i am not the lamb not the sacrifice i am made holy not through my attempts to fix myself fight my evils i'm made holy because i am the lamb i am innocent and holy let it draw into your mind whatever it does i am i need do nothing just accepting wow all these years that i tried and did all these years i tried to prove
i fought i resisted i became certifications licensing labels i took on behind every one of them every mask every label every certificate every license i need do nothing i am as god created me and i will to be the christ on earth i am as god created me this isn't hope this is the truth it's never going to change i really am as god created me and now i simply will or choose to be that the i am how can i practice this and make this manifest not just saying it i am determined to see this christ in everyone else
that's the only way i can anchor it in myself saying it becomes a theory seeing it perceiving it in others it becomes a reality and then it comes back to me as that good karma that good reality it becomes anchored in me when i share it with others i am as god created me and i will to be the christ on earth you are as god created you i choose to see you as the christ on earth i'm aware that i have other opinions of you but i accept that they're wrong none of my opinions about you none your hair color your behavior
none if they're seen with my human senses they cannot be accurate because human senses come and go but my divinity doesn't it's here always namaste the divine in me is absolutely honoring the divine in you and for the last few seconds let the image of anyone that the divine mother chooses to bring into your mind and extend that to them it doesn't mean you agree with their behaviors it means despite their behaviors you're affirming you are the christ on earth and you are very holy a few images let them come to mind
despite what we experienced you are part of god and you are very holy whether they're people you like or didn't like they're still part of god and they're very holy beautiful and remember anytime you are willing to do that towards someone you're challenged with you are actually making holy the darkest part of yourself how cool is that yeah and so it is thank you we're going to just do our closing prayer here's here's something uh
i have some grandchildren one of them sent this to me grandpa michael wow if they only knew that's not a label i accept kidding but anyway this is herself bringing me gifts and this is me on a throne eating pizza how did she know isn't that classic i i i think i've only met the kid once and still she knows me that well it's pretty trippy well thank you everyone for your time we're gonna do our closing prayer god bless you all please stand for a closing prayer wow centering into gratitude centering just into the beauty
god how great it is to know how great it is to know we can we can stand here and feel pneumonia and still be in the light of god you can be in a divorce and be in the light of god you can have financial issues sickness it's okay we are never outside of the light of god we just seem to be the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is thank you folks thank you very much remember that the bookstore is
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